#nightmere

[owlcatz]

the more I talk to people, the more thankful I am for the ridiculous amount of luck I've had with access to medication. tldr I was going through a super rough patch health-wise at the end of 2021 and beginning of 2022. I'm talking vomiting things that should Stay Inside, severe bowel issues, lethargy, not being able to absorb nutrients, stuff that should have sent any normal person to the hospital. I got super lucky.

colonoscopy, endoscopy, biopsies, blood work, and countless doctors visits I get a Crohn's AND Celiac diagnosis. idk that's like a sub 8% chance to have both, something silly like that. my liver and kidneys were on the verge of failing, I was prediabetic because nothing was Working Properly, I had high blood pressure and tachycardia, and all I could do was sleep.

time for the lucky part. my doctor, this amazing man who happened to do his residency at the clinic I go to, immediately prescribed me Remicade (inflixmab) infusions. my skin was so fragile I'd cut myself on blankets so he absolutely refused to let me do Humira injections. this guy took one look at my chart, compared it to me, a SEEMINGLY healthy 24 year old--despite all my organs not wanting to work, I was too damn stubborn to admit I was starved of nutrition and unable to function normally, I LOOKED fine--and effectively saved me from needing my colon removed.

so many people struggle so much to get on this drug and I am also LUCKY enough to be in the 20% ish of people that see a near complete remission in 6 months or less. I am LUCKY enough to have a shitload of doctors that don't assume I'm okay because I *look* healthy. I am LUCKY enough to have a job that allows me all the time I need to take care of my health without docking my pay. I am so very LUCKY to have friends who will care for me and my animals when I have struggles.

now that I'm running into my first issues with insurance, my first instances of late doses and severe reactions due to drug changes because of insurance issues, to be referred to a different (but amazing) AIC where I have to work with new people to get the care I need, I realize just how lucky I have been this year, and I am so thankful to be healthy enough now to withstand these hurdles 🙌

that being said, if I have one more insurance agent tell me that Inflectra is "basically the same as Remicade" so they don't know why I'd have a reaction, I will force them to be the ones to watch me suffocate on the floor out of sheer annoyance 😡

[vanillacrumb]

Trying not to fall into complete apathy

[alex-sweet-tea]

🖤✨

[zkrainysart]

they became children a little bit...(⁠◕⁠ᴗ⁠◕⁠✿⁠)

[vafl1a]

Together

[regular-gnome]

this week is going great

[rendjou]

A drawing with hum is planned. versions of little Knight and Dream. So far, I'm going to throw a sketch of '3

[schoolgore-au]

Пиксель арт с Найтмером и Дримом. Их детские версии!

[almoststedytimetravel]

I think about this cover for the arena Manga so often. What did they mean by this.

[mandarixn]

YABABAINA!! (collab)

collab with @privetludi !! ᰔᩚ

muhehehehe, we tried to make a video! I hope you like it! (。・ω・。)

YouTube

YouTube Shorts

[tutonfagot]

He's holding his little brothereeeer

Sooo cute

[owlcatz]

I wish my love was better expressed through the arts. However, my love and affections are more akin to the screams and soul-emptying sounds of my adoration being poured out. He is a thousand suns in my eyes and the depth of my love for him extends throughout his universe. A nuclear bomb wouldn't be enough to sing my gratitude and admiration and infatuation. The desperation to convey my emotions claws at the inside of my skin like a beast trying to escape its prison.

I wish to write the end of the world so he may know my feelings, but a kiss goodnight will have to do for now.

[hehe799]

Hello, heh

[criedwolf28]

Six fanarts

[zkrainysart]

I decided to do a little interactive work. :3

You can also write something that you want to do to the little one in the comments. A question or an action that you want to perform.

If something like this comes up, I'll take my own characters as well.🤔

I'll fill in the question/answer and more.

[vafl1a]

unfortunately I can't draw as much as I used to because of college prep

BUT!! I really want to update my backpack pins, so of course I drawed small Mono and Six for that!