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jules-van-hering · 7 months ago

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officialspec · 7 months ago

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genuinely curious, and probably will agree but on your tags for the post about mental illness terms being used trivially you said that it’s basically impossible to self diagnosis dissociation- genuinely i want to know why you think that

my stance is that its pretty much impossible to distinguish dissociation from other potential symptoms in any meaningful way without professional guidance, for a few reasons:

for one, its a widely misunderstood symptom even in actual psychiatric circles, and on top of that any legitimate information you might be able to find is surrounded by 100 times more tumblr-infographic-style misinformation and for most people it is straight up impossible to tell the difference

you (general) might be inclined to think 'i know not to trust infographics i would be able to tell', but the sheer volume of misinformation has saturated the field so completely that its plastered on very official looking websites, and even some more trustworthy sources, so a discerning eye wont save anyone

the average person simply will not be able to sift through the hogwash to any legitimate resources without direction from someone who knows what theyre looking for, no matter how savvy they might be. no one is immune

if you do somehow manage to separate the wheat from the chaff, the next issue is that dissociation is a wildly nebulous human experience, and the way it presents overlaps with about one million other things that are all managed in completely disparate ways. a treatment for dissociation might make someones actual problem much worse, or drive them to hopelessness if it doesnt change their symptoms at all. its a huge risk that i just dont think is worth it

this answer is already long as hell but ending on the usual disclaimers that im aware diagnoses are prohibitively expensive and also i cant stop anyone from doing anything. but i will have opinions about it. as is my right

#theres a lot else that falls under this btw not just dissociation. ngl aside from autism i think self dx hurts more than it helps #but ummm ya. if u think youre dissociating thats a serious medical issue and you should see a doctor. im so sorry about the Cost #wish it wasnt so hard to insist on professional advisement in good faith. deep sigh. the economy #ask

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deiiamorte · 14 hours ago

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Because I haven't seen this posted before, here's the dialogue that happens when you break off Lucanis' romance

#I always make a safety save before cutscenes to repeat them but also to make different choices #sans undertale was right i am a sick fuck who reloads and chooses bad options just to see what happens #dragon age #dragon age veilguard #veilguard #veilguard spoilers #lucanis dellamorte #dragon age lucanis #mirghilanan de riva #my posts #datv #datv spoilers #''lucanis approves'' AUGH #ngl this hurt a lil :( he looks so sad.. like he was starting to believe that whatever spark he felt between him & Rook was real #he was likely feeling hopeful about Rook being into him despite the mess he is. as he calls it.#he probably thinks about it a lot during sleepless nights hoping for it to be real considering hes a romantic yet never had a relationship #n then Rook hits him with the 'ehh maybe not! But the team is here for ya bud :)'#Luca is stronger than me bc id simply throw myself off the lighthouse cliff tbh

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gotchibam · 7 months ago

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Does anyone here draw in both desktop & mobile? I'm planning to get a galaxy tab at some point and since I don't really have any experience drawing on a (mobile) tablet, I'm curious abt how it feels to draw on one vs. drawing on pc w/ a graphic tablet 🤔

#once I have all my commission slots filled up that's when i'll buy one #i've been hesitating bc i'm not used to spending a big amt for something but honestly it's more of an investment than a simple want #my poor 10 year old laptop + monitor + keyboard setup is the 'pc' im currently using #both the laptop screen & keyboard isn't working properly anymore so i have a separate monitor + keyboard for it #it's pretty laggy most of the time #not sure how it's still holding up #ngl sometimes i'm worried it'll just give up on me & break at any moment #so I kinda wanna have a backup device #anyways! I get easily tired drawing on pc for some reason #I think it's bc i unconsciously tense my neck? whenever i stare at the monitor for too long #also my eyes hurt + the extreme hot weather lately is making me dizzy so i can't work for long periods of time 😔#I see a lot of artists use ipad so i'm guessing drawing on a tab would also feel nice???#also would that get you in the mood to draw more bc you can bring it w/ u anywhere?#i'm hoping to be able to draw more honestly.....#also the timelapse!! csp wont let me record timelapse on my current pc and idk why that is #might be bc im still on win 7 #HOPING i could post timelapse vids when i finally have a tab #tbh i want to get one asap (like as in rn) but I want to make sure I have enough budget first so im waiting for my comm slots to be full #bam blabs

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5hrignold · 10 months ago

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reminder

#rewatched this sneak peek for the first time since i first saw it and ugh. UUUUGHHGGHHH.#it hurts me a lot I’m ngl….. like to see charlie be so critical of something pim likes #except this time it’s even more painful because it isn’t just that pim likes it he also thought charlie would like it too and he literally #took him out and did this just for him because he thought he’d like it. he thought charlie said something so he went out of his way to #organise something to show to him to make him happy. and also how like… expectant? charlie is acting in the clip #like the way he just kinda frowns at pim whenever one of the dudes says something particularly out there #and it’s like. dude what the fuck #ive Said it once i’ll say it again i think charlie needs to lose pim during an episode or something. itd humble him #i mean that KIND OF happened with the finale but look where they are in s2 #as usual what i always say. absolutely no actual complaints. if anything i Love this because it’s very clearly like #im so excited for this particular episode because you can just TELL its gonna be such a good one for their relationship #like looking into it analysing it n stuff #literally anything with them together has me screaming and cryjing they’re one of my fav duos ever #ok my hands are shaking bye #smiling friends #💝#smiling friends spoilers #also this is just Such a cute clip. the way pim runs and how charlie slugs on close behind him looking all grumpy #and how happy he looks to be calling him his best friend… actually peak i fear this is the peak of the season (joke

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adhderall · 2 months ago

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well as you can see besides being ugly as all fuck I'm also extremely bitter so that doesn't help at all in making me appealing. but it also comes with the territory you see, being treated as a hideous freak of nature for your whole life kind of does things to your psyche.

also going into shit in the tags as an extreeeemely jaded individual who's been on every side of the discourse and KNOWS it all VERY PERSONALLY so I know many people will find all sorts of different reasons to hate me (if they want ig) because I'm ~politically homeless~ at this point because I'm sick and tired of everything but whatever

(also fuck I ran out of space in the tags so another post maybe idk. )

#so. i get why people are against children transitioning i really do. and i have my own nuanced complicated feelings about it #but honestly. im beginning to believe id be more well-adjusted by now even if just a bit if i had started larping as male by 15.#would it fix all of my problems? no. but it would make a lot of things in my life much smoother and easier.#but i was sooo deep into raddie/gc shit that i had this fucking. complex about not wanting to troon because its ~cheating~#and 'omg all the butches are leaving!!1 butch flight i cant be one of them!!!1'#'i MUST be a good example for all the young girls!!!1' a weird sort of almost martyr-like complex if you will.#but as i get older im like... honestly man fuuuuccckkkkk this.#barely anybody expects straight or even bi women to abstain from dating men forever For the Good of Womankind #its not seen as Expected but rather Exceptional and Wow Amazing if you do.#and anyone who Expects it is seen as a ~crazy extremist~#meanwhile lesbians and especially HSTS are almost fucking Expected to sacrifice themselves for the ~greater good~#and ngl other lesbiams perpetuate this shit too.#oh you CANT transition even if you feel it'll make your life easier because because because #[arguments that would really only apply to OSA females transitioning]#[strawman] [misinterpreted stats] [unverified reddit posts]#and if all else fails 'think of how the very act of doing so will HURT ALL OF WOMANKIND'#no fucking wonder dysphoric lesbians develop an fucking insane martyr complex and start to treat hrt/transitioning like its fucking crack #'ill give into the temptation if i see a happy trans person ohh nooo so nobody should be allowed to troon'#like thats not fucking normal! you realize thats NOT FUCKING NORMAL right?#youre acting like a deranged christian who is so afraid of sinning by wrongthink #and disclaimer no. i dont inherently hate being female or a lesbian but with the way i am physically and mentally #i would have/have had a Much easier time integrating into society as a ~man~. just because of how i am physically and mentally.#now i wont say internalized homophobia/etc. NEVER has anything to do with transition or etc. but im gonna be real #for HSTS (which are extremely rare in the first place) thats often only a very small part of it at most.#its often more about making our lives easier and integrating better without having to completely remold our entire personalities.#thats the reality.#would we not transition if society have patriarchy/gender roles/sexism? perhaps. i wont deny that possibility.#the fact of the matter is however #that it wont be happening any time soon. so we just want our lives to be easier.#'oh but youre lying to yourself' not necessarily. i dont have a ~gender identity~ and im well aware of myself and my situation.

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nympippi · 2 years ago

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angsty vance

that is all 👍

“Why haven’t the adults helped me”

#vance hopper fanart #vance the black phone #tbp vance fanart #the black phone fanart #the black phone #the black phone fandom #pippi art #albert shaw #the grabber #I headcannon Albert worked at the Grab n Go thanks to a fanfic I read #like it’s the perfect place to scope out children and see who’s who and who hangs around who too #I think the Grabber probably stalked Vance for a long time. possibly trying to befriend him to lower his guard. to try and get him to trust #him.#Vance probably found him really weird but he gave him money to play pinball so he wasn’t too worried at the time #I headcannon that Vance probably didn’t have a good home life or a lot of real friends. because who would want to hang around big bad.#pinball Vance #thinking about Vance just makes me both sad and angry because I remember being 14. being his age and just :(#it hurts me sm #this drawing actually got me really sad ngl #but I hope you like the Vance angst!#and thank you for requesting this!#yes I stole the audio from another media. I’m just too tired to add it :P

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james-spooky · 1 month ago

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this is a test

#i’m bored i just wanna see how many words i can put in the tags like will it just keep going on forever or will they stop me like i know th #the tag limit is 30 ok so the iindividual tag limit is 140 characters that’s actually so rude i wanted to keep going forever and see how lo #g this could be but i guess we can do this 30 times ok what the flip should i talk about hm i was playing the guitar today but i rage quit #ause the song was hard and hurting my fingers! ermmmmm it was sunny ok this is boring let’s think of more exciting things to type hmmm acco #ding to all known laws of aviation- jk i’m not doing the bee movie script but can you imagine i think that would be funny hmmmmm words i lo #e podcasts so bad that’s a fact no one has ever know before my blog definitely isn’t all about audio dramas the people are definitely not a #ready aware of this jesus christ this is only the seventh one of these this is actually quite a lot of space i underestimated how much i ha #e to type btw there’s probably spelling mistakes in here somewhere or autocorrect has been annoying but i cba to retype anything so i don’t #care lolllllllllllll how do you feel about oscar malevolent i feel a normal amount actually (lie) yk what i really miss sam and colin alrea #y like i’m actually not okay i really hope we hear from sam again in s2 and also colin ngl i hope ur in the computers soz or not dead miss #im like a bastard my paranoid it king ok erm im running out of things to say um heartstopper s3 was crazy good i cried lmao i love gay peop #e so much it’s crazy i hope it gets renewed for s4 i need to reread the comics lowkey and the books they’re all so talented for being so yo #ng it scares me ngl !!!!!! the tmagp hiatus is getting to me slightly like february in reality is soon and not that far away for how podcas #ts go but seriously how am i supposed to live until then without knowing what happened. please colin be alive. ive only just realised i can #use fills stops. sorry that’s made everything a bit messy. i should’ve been doing this before. whoops. anyways. hi mutuals i love you all s #much i hope you enjoy my rambles and shitposts cause i enjoy yours very much! never think you’re being annoying i literally don’t care be a #annoying as you want posts as much as you want i am ur biggest fan <3 im getting a bit fatigued from typing like my mind is blank basically #now it’s just turned into a. stream of consciousness but i don’t really have any thoughts to put here idk if we’re halfway ermmmm omg it’s #lmost halloween how crazy is that time is flying by i kinda forgot it was october lmao. it’s wild how it’s basically almost christmas. like #what. that’s illegal. how is it wintertime again. what the flip. i miss summer already take me backkkkkkk. i hope my phone doesn’t crash or #smth cause i’ve not saved this as a draft and i cba to do any of this again. maybe i should save it. ok i will when i reach the next tag bc #ok it stopped me but i’ve saved it and holy jesus it’s a lot of text im just sat here giggling there’s really no point to any of this other #than me being bored sooooooooooooooooo (imagine if i just did the letter o for every character wouldn’t that be crazy) so wait there’s 140 #haracters and 30 tags so what’s 30 x 140. someone hurry. i haven’t done maths lessons in two and a half years i’ve forgotten everything wai #let me get the calculator app ok im back it said 4100 characters so. i dont know how many words that roughly is but its. a decent amount. o #what the flip why am i wasting tag space with maths. i hate maths. my screen time has been actually soooooooooo bad recently like damn some #one put my phone in a block of ice please joshua gillespie style. my mind is running out of things to say. do i talk about myself. im james #im 18 which is weird cause wdym im an adult go away. ive run out of facts. i love podcasts and procedural dramas that stupid firefighter sh #w is my life unfortunately. i think chappell roan should be the queen of england instead of king charles. i dont like having a king cause #ho needs men in power not me. ok um this is the last tag equal rights for all. yolo. the time will pass anyways! thank u boredom ok bye gn:

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saturnniidae · 6 months ago

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Is this a safe space to admit I fucking hate Hiccup's rtte model.

I don't like how red kind of takes over his color palette (imo it's better as an accent color for him) and also. He's so fucking ugly??? Not in a 'im whining bc I don't think he's attractive enough' way, in a 'my god why tf is he so pasty and his lips are weirdly pink?? His freckles are gone and he's generally unpleasant to look at' way.

#i struggle to look at him in rtte and go 'yeah thats hiccup'#it might partially be bc obviously they dont have the budget for lots of skin texturing but in rob he looks better?? in some ways #i do like his leather scale tunic thing tho. it suits him well #and his little braids ofc #ngl i get a good chuckle whenever i see ppl calling him hot bc. what tf are you on about dawg 😭#maybe its just bc i dont see the appeal in mediocre looking white boys #(THO OUTSIDE OF RTTE I DO LOVE HIS DESIGN I THINK THE GAPS IN HIS TEETH + FRECKLES R RLLY NICE)#my tummy hurts meaning the malice in my heart is stronger than usual meaning i need to be a hater rn or else ill climb the walls #httyd #hiccup haddock #rtte salt #? ig #httyd shitpost #moth.txt #deyas dragons

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menlove · 1 year ago

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I'm not into celebrity worship but I am genuinely soooo disappointed about mark hamill. like not only supporting israel (which is bad enough) but making multiple tweets about it and comparing the iof to the rebels and palestine to the empire? come on. like how brainwashed and selfish do you have to be. I can't fathom it.

#just incredibly disappointed by a lot of names on that list but ngl that one hurts the most #but I've been bracing myself for him to disappoint me so :/#another favorite actor down #it was at least heartening to see quite a few big names on the pro palestine list but. not nearly enough #I can't imagine using your insanely large platform to advocate for genocide but whatever

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angel---eater · 24 days ago

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weird ranting about fandom is done now lol i just care a lot abt jake as a queer character. hes mentally ill and traumatized and has brain damage and is most definitely also neurodivergent bc lets face it all HS characters are some kinda ND, and he makes terrible decisions and burries his head in the sand for months instead of talking to his own boyfriend bc intimacy is simply too new and overwhelming and hes GREAT. i wouldnt have this fucker any other way

#our t #the best thing about dirk and jakes relationship in hs1 is that a lot of their problems couldve been solved if they just bucked up #and talked to e/o #but theyre 16 and werent raised by. well. anyone. i mean jake was for a little bit but dirk had idk. seagulls. and robots. and then hal #but you see dirk being so more than willing to talk to jake like all the time but hes just left to have his messages pile up #which understandibly makes him feel like a clingy overwhelming monster when hes just..............**16** and really into #one of his best friends. and yes jake is dirks only option but you cannot ignore the fact that they *like* each other #jake likes dirk so much he made a whole new dirk that just lives in his brain #they like e/o so so so much. jake keeps calling dirk his boyfriend for pages and pages after dirk breaks up w/ him #and after being jerked around for so long by jake i dont blame him for giving up #meat!dirk's 'youll never hurt me again' in the epilogues is from a place of truth. jake DID hurt him. jake didnt have to ghost him #for that long. dirks clinginess scared jake which got them both hurt. both sides of this are extremely understandible and real #i dont think either of them did anything majorly wrong to e/o im ngl. its just being 16 and traumatized #<- reasons why i find the cannibalism dirkjake trend jarring and massively ooc #like if i want some HS cannibalism-as-metaphore for overwhelming attraction stuff my first thought is actually vrisrezi but okay

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creepy-scrawl · 2 months ago

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My gf begged me to be on FB and I went there for a week and I felt so 🤡🤡🤡🤡 bc her main argument is that she misses me so much and "that is a way to interact in our day to day" but I'm there w no one to talk to and she is not even there. It just made me feel so stupid and even sadder bc I feel so alone in my relationship.

#i get her mental illness.. i would never throw a tantrum about her availability... i know she struggles..i know its even infuriating for her #shes asleep most of the time.. if i want to see her is me who has to organize things. im overworking learning dbt therapy...#i work a lot to make the minimun wage.. and still i make time to investigate about her bpd and adhd i try so hard to make her feel Cherised #i get her family is not the best.. i really dont think her mother is a bad person but she is a botch w her...#but ngl.. the fact that my gf doesnt even listen to the audios i send bc im bussy to text ... hurts... i feel alone ... i do feel alone #ive always been a lonely child.. ive always been pretty independent... but i sometimes feel like ppl take that #as an invitation to ignore me...#and this thing may be silly.. is just fb...but fb stresses the f out of me.. and ngl it feel sad im there. sharing stuff through out the day #and she doesnt even notices it... idk...#in just 🤡🤡🤡🤡 always i guess #venting #delete later

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bugdragonsareneat · 1 year ago

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Just finished legends Darkstalker for the first time in a while and listener fucking sucks lmao

Also I wish whiteout was more present in the story,, and I wish she was given more agency as a character,,,

Whiteout should’ve been clearsight’s best friend instead /hj

#that sounds like a fun rewrite tbh #maybe I’ll do that #whiteout deserved SO MUCH BETTER #tui wtf #her whole fucking family dies and we never get to see how that affects her…#I wonder why…… /s #I relate to her a lot and to see her just be shoved off to the side kinda hurts ngl #maybe I’m looking into this too much? idfc #Skully speaks #wof #wings of fire #whiteout wof

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afairerplace · 1 year ago

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My impression of how strongly Taylor felt about Harry Styles is VASTLY different after hearing the vault tracks