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What the fuck? Titanfall 2 got an UPDATE??????? IN 2023??!!!!!!!!
#chattin#i booted it up for frontier defense#and they gave me a new map AND double xp#like ???#why are they doing this#i mean im GLAD! i LOVE this game#the servers were jank and they kept getting attacked by hackers but now the update fixed them permanently?#new bug fixes thats been there for years#new maps for frontier defense (thank god we were forgotten)#just. im stunned#i saw people say there may be a sequel in the works but i doubt bc um#we learned that they shut that shit down months ago and ive been mourning its loss#someone else said that it could be them prepping for a f2p model of the game#which like. it would Work. but really? rebooting a 6-7 yr old game w NO changes in it#i dunno if thats acceptable#but anything to keep it relevant and still garner support is whatever#it could also be them fixing it up so it can get numbers again. apex legends (disgusting game) got an update as well#so it couldve also fell in the eye of people. like hey if were connecting this to titanfall maybe we should freshen that up too#i dunno#just happy to have full lobbies#and matchmaking for hard frontier defense again 😭😭😭
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against my better judgement i did indeed buy the saints row 3 remaster and oh boy i should have expected all the bugs
#shut up danni's talking#its not unplayable bc the original game had a fair amount of bugs#but it is so infuriating that the most visible of bugs were never fixed and its been 2 years since#there's this one bug where one of the main bad guys has a broken textured face#and considering the only thing going for this version is its graphics this is genuinely a huge fuck you#it continues all throughout the entire game and so i have no idea what new cyrus is meant to look like#except his in game model when you get your face to look like his to infiltrate thats like many hours after his introduction#there have been other bugs that were on the funnier side that i didn't mind bc that's half the allure of the saints row game#its dumb and its stupid and cool and fun!!!!#its just. so much fun. not that there aren't flaws there's a lot#but these cookey funny bugs fit w the universe#like at one point there's meant to be a big firefight at the base and i almost died bc i was cackling at this one lady who was just smoking#while there's this big massive shootout she's like hm i may be in this gang but not my problem.#she only started shooting back when she got staggered which reset her#another is when you have to run out a building to a nearby car during a shootout and i pressed the use button to open the door#but i was running and pressed the use button which also executes a quick hijack animation where you leap into a car#so my chara literally yeeted herself through closed doors i had to get back out and open the door for my pal#annoying bugs tho are ones where things don't properly load and i have to start over fro checkpoint to fix it#or when i have a vehicle retrieval mission and the car literally gets stuck in the scenery if you hit it wrong#and also said texture bug#its just disappointing that the series cranks out games but the company doesn't give any love to them#still waiting on that patch for saints row 2 so that i can play it ✨️ one of my faves in the series#dw i won't be buying the latest saints game unless its on ridic sale#no way am i paying full price for that
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once again thinking about my post-trimax legato somehow miraculously survives despite everything au and vashgato agenda aka The Worlds Most Miserable Roadtrip
#one of these days ill get back to it#its the fucking. anger and hatred and loathing from legato @ vash#because legato and vashs entire dynamic is fucking#legato has lain down on the tracks. and he doesnt want to be saved. he needs vash to be the train that runs him over.#and then he lives. somehow. he missed his chance to die.#he had no reason to live. his one reason to carry on was for a cause he fully intended to die for and then he couldnt even do that#mirrored by vash. who also went into that confrontation with knives fully intending to not make it out#and now the world is saved! knives failed and now hes gone. and thats a whole fucking thing to unpack for everyone#the fucking anger. the grief. the whole fuckin mess of contradictory emotions that happens as a result of abuse from a family member w vash#fucking Everything wrt legato. the devastation of knowing knives is gone + he failed + legato lived + *vash* lived#the slowwwwwww realization over a long long period of time that legato worshipped the ground knives walked on#but knives only ever regarded legato with like. the same way someone might an ant. a bug. maybe a dog.#legato who only ever wanted to be Seen by knives#and knives who never particularly cared for legato beyond his usefulness#legato who begins following vash because its probably what knives would want + there is truly nothing else on this planet for him.#he has no other reason to live#and vash allowing him out of some sense of pity / resignation + being able to see that theres Nothing left for legato#+ probo some sense of obligation too. of heres another person his brother fucked up. which means hes vash’s responsibility to fix#all the while legato resents vash for living when knives isnt here. resents him for failing to kill him.#resents him for being the only other thing that knives actually cared about + who rejected knives when all legato ever wanted#was knives’ attention#and vash who frankly resents legato too. resents the fact that. of all the people who managed to survive. it was legato and not ww#resents all the shit that legato put him through. all the people he killed all the suffering he inflicted#the two of them looking at each other and the fucking. recognition of the self thru the other#and seeing all the shit they hate about themselves in the other#theres also again the shared grief of them both losing someone incredibly important to them both but who was also responsible for some#abuse to Both of them. unpacking it. working through it. moving forward.#learning How to move forward as a Whole when theyre both two deeply traumatized deeply suicidal fucks who no longer have the singular goals#thatve been their sole reason for existing for the past. many. years. and having to find new reasons to keep living#but most of all. i think they should make out sloppy in the desert thank you goodnight
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since everyone in this fandom and their mum seem to be giving their piece about the ‘update’ coming to Hogwarts Legacy on the 6th, i figured id give my piece even if no one has asked
ive been seeing a lot of posts and replies about how “we should just take what we get and be grateful” and “the devs are working hard, do you know how hard game development is?”
im very aware of how difficult game development can be and how mentally taxing it is. i dont doubt that they’ve been through the mill.
the update is trash. its that simple. we’re allowed to feel upset about it, and for people saying that its not fair to be upset — it is fair. we shouldnt have to expect the bare minimum from a game that sold 22 million copies and reached nearly 2 billion dollars in revenue, a game that had 14 nominations for awards and 3 wins.
we were told we were getting a summer update alongside the Haunted Hogsmeade quest — the quest they promised to release to PC and Xbox in march when the game celebrated one year of release. they said, and i quote;
“As we near the one-year anniversary of Hogwarts Legacy, we wanted to let our community know that the Hogwarts Legacy PlayStation-exclusive content will be available on other platforms later this summer, along with additional updates and features for the game. Stay tuned in the coming months for more details on what’s coming to Hogwarts Legacy this year.” copy and pasted straight from Hogwarts Legacy’s official twitter page. along with additional updates and features to the game.
yes — i know, thats a very vague statement. it could have been taken in any way, but typically when additional updates and features — plural — is put into a sentence, you assume that there will be more than one new feature. it wasnt wrong for the community to assume that there was more than a few new additions coming to the game.
okay, we got photo mode — thats great for console players, but it isnt new for us PC players. im happy for my console buddies that finally get to bring their mc to life in the way ive been able to. im looking forward to seeing the uptick in photos upon the updates release. PC and Xbox got the new haunted hogsmeade quest, and thats great, considering the release of it was delayed by 3 months, but atleast we’re getting it. but basically. PS5 was fucked in the process, because everything minus photo mode is stuff they already had, and honestly, thats not fair. and double honest — thats not an update. thats the release of exclusive content plus a new addition.
for several months a summer update was hyped up, and the result was…. ps5 getting fucked, a photo mode that im going to bet my ass on will be buggy as all hell, and some cosmetics. so no — i wont be grateful. especially when we keep getting promised things and then getting fucked by a hot iron in the process. because i havent forgotten the documentary that was supposed to come out, and i still remember during September when they hyped up a digital surprise for Back to Hogwarts day and it ended up being 30 percent off on a game most of us already had, only for the game to go on sale for half off the following Nov/Dec for the holiday sales.
since the release of the game, modders have been basically picking up the slack by working their asses off to create bug fixes, better cosmetic options, enhanced schedules, companions, and so much more to keep the community somewhat entertained. this as well as the file miners that are constantly digging things up that we were robbed of, like the relationship list for companions, gaunt manor, other house specific quests, more quests concerning Isadora, on and on. on top of this, ive seen first hand how much of the outer parts of the map was developed only to be cut out. i spent a solid hour and a half today using free cam to fly around the outskirts of the map — buildings, caves, entire areas laid out for towns or poacher camps, all thrown out on top of all of the discarded quests and content.
and while im at it — ill be one of the few to say it, but Hogwarts Legacies storyline was not well thought out, or at the very least it wasnt very well portrayed. there were hundreds of questions we were left with upon beating the game. where did Anne go? what happened to the keepers after the final battle? why wasnt Isadora in her portrait? what were the keepers hiding? did inhaling the magic actually make a difference or was it just for shock value? how much of Isadora’s story did we miss? how was the undercroft tied in with Isadora when it was apparently a Gaunt secret? what even really was the undercroft?
yes, i know — “well arent they making a second one?” and yeah, im pretty sure they are, and maybe thats why we’ve gotten nothing more than a pile of bricks in the last year and a half. but, they should probably finish the first game before starting on a second.
this doesnt mean i dont love Hogwarts Legacy. i love the people ive met, the stories ive read, and i love capturing the screenshots i take from that game. the entire situation is just frustrating to no end.
#hogwarts legacy#not trying to be mean#actually i dont really care but#thought id give my share#harry potter hogwarts game#hogwarts legacy fandom#hogwartslegacy#hl
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Heres 25 fics I really wanna write but havent gotten around to yet
For those that wanna know before reading the list, the fandoms include are
Marvel, Spider-Man, Loki, DCU, Batman, Justice League, Pokemon, Shazam/Captain Marvel, Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtels (The Last Ronin), Danny Phantom, Sonic the Hedgehog, Voltron, Gravity Falls, Over The Garden Wall, RWBY, Camp Camp, Rise Of The Guardiens, Star Wars (Rebels), Miraculos Ladybug and Chat Nori, Ninjago, How to Train Your Dragon, Final Space, My Hero Academia.
Thats one long list of fandoms-
I swear its not a big ass crossover fic with all these fandoms.
The rest of the Wiz! Fics. Though one of them is almost done
Winter dad fic. Peter is dealing, Bucky dosent remember him, but the solder definetly does.
Parksborn fic post NWH. Peter and Harry meet at collage and become roommates (this was canon for like a day lol) Harry has issues, Peter has more.
Parent Loki and Son Jack frost. I love the concept and already have some plot planned out
Billy Batson has somehow been the child host of Whiz radio for about 70 years
The Last Ronin Time Travel fic
Dadow time travel fic. A few fics continuing my first dadow fic starting with Silver in the future and present, and later on future shadow goes to the past. Its a lit if feels
Sonic was raised by egg man. No one knows this
5 times Sonic confused people by acting like tails dad, and the the on time tails suprised them by acting like his son
Babysitter James. Basically, the geovani is Ash's dad theory + What if team rocket are juat there to look after Ash theory. He takes him in, James becomes one of the best in team rocket, and as a sign of trust, he makes him be his newborns babysitter.
Back to Jack Frost, A fic following his time alone and time people he meet
Dead On Main fic were Jason despretly tries to keep his ghost boyfriend away from his family
Rosegarden Fic where Ruby and Oscar are childhood summer friends who lost contact.
Ezra time travel fic because Im obssesed with them
Skybridge fic taking place during Twin Suns because Im also obsesed with those fics
Dadvid fic. David Adopts Max and the 2 of them are trying to find a new normal
Pinecone lost in the woods fic.
MLB fix-It. Cat becomes a night time vigilante as a way to deal with the stress, lower class people become more fond of him.
Klance fic. Congratulations, you got through 15 fics before Klance appeared. Ex's au, Lance dose hate Keith foe a reason, they used to date. No one knows about this and think their just being stupid
Httyd fic where toothless wasnt discoverd in the first movie.
Final Space fic were Little Cato deals with the trauma if spending so many years alone.
Ninjago Kai fic for the Time he spent alone. I have talked about this before I think
RodyDeku reunion fic.
Nightguard Denki au. A Fnaf x Mha fic
Rai: The Phantom Theif of hero society. My TodoKami fic I have been trying to write since 2022
Thats the List. If your curiouse about any of these or just wanna bug me into finally writing them, let me know in my ask box.
#mcu#spiderman#dcu#batman#the justice league#danny phantom#sonic the hedgehog#voltron#gravity falls#over the garden wall#rwby#camp camp#rise of the guardians#star wars#starwars rebels#ninjago#how to train your dragon#final space#my hero academia#tmnt the last ronin#fic ideas#fan fiction#fanfic#fanfic writers#ao3#wanna write#ask me anything#this list is so long#like wtf#If I ever write all of these then ask me if I'm ok
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Black Musician Reader
about a year and a half after your break up with miles you decided to focus on yourself and your career. making a plethora of songs and being openers for big artist’s.
your living your dream life; moving out of your apartment and getting a house, nothing too bug just something to fit you and your 2 dogs, working out to look better snd feel better about yourself and starting on the journey to better your mental health.
your manager and team have finally decided its time for you to have your first concert. you got to choose where it would be.
you were nervous and excited! these is a new chapter in your life sure you’ve done openers but your very own concert?? this is crazy.
brushing iff your outfit and fixing your hair hair one last time before you step out on stage. the moment you made your way to the middle the lights were blinding but once your eyes got used to it you could see everyone.
cheering your name with signs and pictures it was surreal. you were performing your very last song when you see him. you see him but he looks different, he’s not wearing his puffer or his messed up jordans. he’s wearing a sweater?? and a whole outfit.
you cant ignore the feeling of want and missing him. its been almost 2 years ; he’s always been in the back of your mind you couldn’t deny it and those last words he told you. that he wanted to change for you. did he really change? for you? really?
the concert came to an end it was a success. people gave you gifts and flowers you loved it all. just then someone knocked on your dressing room door.
“come in!” you calm in a loving tone before spinning your chair to see who it is. you were shocked to say the least.
it was miles standing with a big bouquet of your favorite flowers. you felt your heart melt a bit. “miles” he gives you an awkward smile “hey” he says scratching his neck”
“why are you here miles” you say standing keeping your hands at your sides in fists. you were nervous, so so nervous. he messed with his necklace. “remember when we broke up? i told you i would change and treat you better”
he walked toward you giving you the flowers. “ and im here to do just that” he say’s confidently. “miles-“ “no wait i went to therapy i got into a college i have a better relationship with my family, i don’t spray paint walls anymore i, i changed because i love you and i want you to give me another chance, please?”
you stare at him, you’ve missed him so much and the fact that he changed just for you? so he wouldn’t loose you? thats how much he loved you he was proving it to you, just like he said.
you missed him, the moment you broke up with him you wanted him back, you couldn’t just forget all the memories you made with him. there was no way it was going to happen.
“miles, are you being serious?” your eyes filled with tears. he felt anxious he knew how things ended and he knew what he did wrong.
you couldn’t help but let them fall as you give him a hug. he changed himself so he could be with you again? you expected him to just move on by now.
“im sorry about how we left everything, i know i could have been better to you, you didn’t deserve it. can you find it in your heart to forgive me?” he asks speaking into your hair as he hoods you tighter. “ of course miles ive missed you so much” you say through tears.
“ im so sorry for how i treated you, te amo mucho mami” he says wiping your tears. “ please dont do that again, if you need space ill give you space just talk to me, you cant just leave” you day beginning to get agitated.“ i will, i will. forgive me my love”
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#miles morales#atsv x reader#earth 42 miles#miles morales x reader#earth 42#earth 42 miles morales#earth 42 miles morales x reader#across the spiderverse#musician reader#sza#black reader#angst#comfort#fluff#cute#ˏˋ°•*⁀➷CYBERKITTY1
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Bayverse!Raph x reader
Shredders first attack on New York. No one knew who took him down, but what happens when a local photographer was able to snap a picture before the true hero's were able to make it into the sewer.
Part 1 of 4
ALL PARTS ON MY PAGE
Hectic. If thats even the word to describe it. Debre everywhere, people running ,screaming, crowding this man who fell from the piller wedged between two skyscrapers. Not me, he wasn't the only thing falling from the sky.
Being a photographer, I always carried my camera. And being that I was the only one paying attention to what else was happening, I quickly lifted and clicked the button. Looking down at the photo I took.
4 figures. Huge. Green? Double checking the photo. As the crowd grew around me I quickly shut my camera off and headed back to my apartment. So much for a stroll out.
Heading inside and grabbing my laptop, I plug my camera into the port. Pulling up the recent photo. Exciting it and making it larger, there they were.
What are they? They had shells like turtles but, they had weapons attached to them. They were massive, clearly reaching over 6 feet tall.
Fascination and curiosity took over. Who are they? What are they?
*Two years later*
That picture hadn't left my mind. 2 years later its still there. Having no clues or getting any closer to the answers I crave. How is there no sightings or news about them? Everytime I feel myself needing to ask someone I cant bring myself to do it.
They clearly didn't want to be seen, plus who will believe me?
Well, I did let it slip to one person. My annoying roommate Casey, my cousin. And as I expected, he didn't believe me. Not that I care, I know what I saw.
Sitting in the living room, staring at the picture again, Casey walks in. "Really again?" He asked
"I cant help myself. I know their real, how else would I have got this?" I said lifting my device.
"Who knows, those cheap cameras bug all the time" he mumbled fixing his shirt
Rolling my eyes, "where are you headed to?" I asked
He sighed, "you remember the attack two years ago? Well that low life shredder is being moved today to a now facility. And guess who's transferring him?" He replies
"Hopefully not you" I jab with a smile
"Oh shut up" he laughs
"But seriously be safe okay? Rent is expensive and I don't want to pay it myself or God forbid find a new roomie" I said
"Ha ha, very funny" he replied sarcastically
30 minutes later he walk out bidding a goodbye.
Having a deep feeling in my gut I head to take a bath, its getting late might as well get ready for bed.
Sighing, looking at the picture. "Please be real" I whisper.
After my bath the feeling slightly went away. As I laid down staring at my plain ceiling, the thoughts keep running through my head. If shredder is being moved, those figures have to be keeping track right? Guessing they were fighting him. There is no way that scrawny Vern guy did it himself.
But, what if? What if they were working for him, being that they left so fast? Sighing, I guess I'm not going to get much sleep. Question after question kept coming.
Rolling over looking at my clock, I've been stressing over my thoughts for two hours. Groaning I get out of bed and head to the kitchen for some water.
Just as I make it to the kitchen, Casey came slamming through he door, "Shit Casey!" I yelled
"Damit!!" He yelled back
"What's your damage dude?" I asked placing my hand over my racing heart
"You remember shredder? Yeah well those foot people broke him out and he just, he just disappeared! Then out of no where this trash tuck pulls up trying to stop them, throwing man hole covers and it had these huge numb chucks! I tried to explain but you know what I got?! Fired!" He rushes
"A trash truck?" I asked
"Seriously? That's all you got from that?" He groaned
"No, I just-" I started
"You don't believe me do you?" He asked
"Yes, I do its just this sounds-" I started again
"Crazy, I know I know" he sighed
He walkes over to the couch, plopping down.
Sighing, I walk over and sit with him
"Look, I'm sorry you lost your job. Maybe we can figure something out" I suggested
"No, there were two other prisoners on that bus. I'm going to hunt them down and bring them to justice." He said
"Okay Mr. Detective. How do you plan on doing that?" I asked
"Their low life's, not one single braincell between them both. I'll figure it out." He replied
Hmm maybe just maybe I might be right. If that trash truck was there to stop shredder, could it be who I think it is?
"I'm going to head to bed, goodnight" I reply getting up.
Bidding his goodnight, I head to my room. Numb chucks, I know the orange one had those on him. Man hole covers, they went into the sewer after the attack.
Pulling up the picture one more time, " I might be onto you" I mumble
#tmnt#bayverse raph x reader#raphael#bayverse raphael#raph x reader#raphael x reader#tmnt 2018#tmnt 2016
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‘23
I have found the love of my life. After a year of a roller coaster love affair, I have finally found him. Not the easiest task thats for sure. I cried, I laughed, got angry, upset, confused and loved with him. He finally chose me. For the first time in my life, I dont feel like I settled. I feel like out of all the guys out there who can tolerate me, he was the one who really stuck on. He is a very complex guy let me tell you. He doesnt just say something. He doesnt say everything that’s on his mind. No one does. But he is definitely different. Being an open book is something, but he brings it to a whole other level.
After a year of affair, he finally broke up with his long term partner in December. I still have that memory etched in my head. I was at a year-end party when I received his call. This is the interesting part. At this moment, he really hasn’t been totally open to me that after all those times we were having fun, that he was in a relationship. He loves to travel. All those cruises he went to. All those trips he go to. Telling me its either some friends or family. But of course I caught him. Well not caught per se. But I have a very strong intuition. I may not know a lot of things but I have a good sense of feeling when it comes to the important stuff. Little did I know that whole year, he was fixing what he described to me as an emotionally abusive relationship. That night when he called me, I remembered it vividly. He was distraught. He was still in shock. I can even hear and feel him pacing bank and forth. He told me that his “friend” is cutting ties with him. I slowly tried to get more out of him. I finally asked him, “is this some sort of a boyfriend to you?” I dont even know why I asked it that way. Even for a year of meeting every week or every other week, we still haven’t mastered being fully honest with each other, and that’s okay. He said, “no” but I know what the real answer was.
He is a very emotional person. As much as possible, he wants to get straight answers to all the questions that bugs his mind. Questions that won’t make him sleep through the night. If he can, he will contact their mutual friends to get some juice to help aid his anxiety. Well, that’s exactly what he did. This definitely was one of the hardest moments for him and obviously he will need me to fill that void; That physical and sexual void. This is the moment when I also thought if it was the right thing to do. But I also realized that I already have been doing something that wasn’t right for the last eleven months so why fucking not right?
I remember being with him on Thanksgiving, Christmas and New Year. The big three. He did not like celebrating too much but we had a special time on those occasions. We cooked together, and baked together, and get baked together. I just felt like, if I’m going to help him get through this, I better do it right. After some weeks of him processing his emotions, out of nowhere he told me that he can’t see me anymore. This was after new year. He wants us to end. I get it. It’s too emotionally heavy that he was then thinking of ways on how he can navigate this full-blown break-up; a nasty one if you’re gonna ask me. I think I remember telling him that if that’s what his heart really want’s, I cannot stop him. At this moment, he was already expressing to me how thankful he was that at his darkest time, I was there with him. So as much as it sounds like I’m letting him go, I also told him to not push the people in his life that he thinks serves a purpose. Obviously I kept it open ended. I did it in a way where I will say what my opinion is to him, but he decide if what he wants;
And he wanted me.
I think this was the time when I can say that we are officially dating. We were happy. We have our ups and downs. But the thing is, the start of 2023, is the official start that we started knowing each other; on a deeper level. Yes, we know our name, where we live, how old are we, but there's a lot more to that. We need to know what pushes up in the morning, what motivates us, who inspires us. Those are the things that I have never learned from him being a "special" friend. The beginning of the year was the time where it started to feel more real and I started to feel like, this is the time to decide whether to commit or not; and I said yes. There are key things to ask yourself before you commit to someone, one important question is obvious; if you see yourself grow old with him. No one goes into a relationship with a goal to break up right? Everyone wants a happy ending. Everyone wants to find that final frontier of love that you see in movies, in your family; though we all know that relationships are 'hard work' and nothing comes easy.
He already has a plan to move out of his luxury apartment in San Francisco because the rent is just going up and the quality of the building is going down. This is a big move for him especially I just had my own place back in September '22. I honestly don't know the entirety of the plan because in this relationship, I am the listener, and the follower. He is of good age where he already knows what he wants; no more bullshit, so I'll adjust whatever his plans were. Little did I know that I am part of that plan. I am going to move with him. I am in shock and with mixed emotions. It's nice to leave the hassle and bustle of the city. I've always seen myself living in a quaint town with a quaint neighborhood. i love the quiet and I think that I already had my fair share of city living. Plus, this is a great start for us; new place, new city and new environment away from people. Of course the only thing that had me think of my reservations was my mom who still lives in the city. I have always wanted the idea of her being ten minutes away from me. But this is my life now and it seems that we are choosing each other this time.
The move was not flawless. We had a hard time. Especially for him. I needed to step up to organize and just let each other know what needs to be done and when it needed to be done. After that, organizing and arranging the apartment was also a big challenge that we faced. It took some months when we finally felt like we are already settled in.
Then the downfall came. My mental health went down. It wasn't him. I told him that. But I just saw myself pulling away from the situation. The apartment that I have back in the city stresses me out because I needed to pay for that till the lease ends while I am paying half of the new apartment. It was a complete chaos. I am in disbelief of myself. I was questioning myself again and again, in my mind and out of my mouth if what I was doing is the right thing. As much as I am having my downfall, he also has his fair share. He had experienced some pain in his stomach for lack of pancreatic enzymes which is painful. So in addition to my mental health going down, his body is also going down. At this moment, there's no support for our relationship. We just kept on going down until I gained some weight which did not help at all obviously. But we just tried. We just fought ourselves into it. We pushed through. waking up day by day. Learning newer things about each other. Not easy but it was something.
December 23'
All emotions are out. All the things we don't like about each other is out in the air. Our first big fight. About how our year went down. It was a heated discussion. Of course my lack of vocabulary did not help my case at all. It was a very difficult time indeed. We started questioning ourselves. I had my fair share of shortcomings as he has his own. Then he asked me to be away with him for a couple of days. I actually did not understand the idea because I took it as if he was breaking up with me at that time. I packed all my stuff, left some stuff that he gave me and also left the paper work of our Domestic Partnership paper. It was the hardest time of my life if I haven't said that at all. I slept in the office, in my mom's place and the cheapest motel that I can find. It was all dark. And for him, he knows that he needed this. He needed a break from everything. To see everything in a new perspective. To have a new outcome. After a few days, we decided to go out and have lunch. Thats one thing we barely do. We both are not big with going out for dates and stuff like that and thats one thing that connects us. But we wanted a fresh start. We wanted all those mistakes that we did to be corrected.
We wanted to grow.
Now, closer to the middle of '24, we are still growing. We still have a lot of things we should know about ourselves. I just thought that it would be a bit easier and faster but if you really want things to happen the right way, it would need some time. I love this person. As much as he has a lot of shortcomings as a partner, I did not care. As long as we are together, I think we will be okay. New things are coming for us. New and scarier things but we will be okay. I know that, for a fact. Because I know us and I think we have a great potential to be good for one another.
Individually, aside from our different personalities, we are both losers; I don't have friends and he can't do his own laundry. But together, we are stronger.
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Hazbin Hotel Episode 1: Overture
hello i am back with a New Update on things to react to, and i thought Hazbin Hotel would be the perfect place to start since all episodes were fully released a few days ago! and also EVERYBODY i know has been bugging me about watching this show and now i FINALLY have the time to!!
spoilers under the cut
wow barely a few seconds in and i can already tell that the music is gonna be So Banger
wow okay so the opening exposition is Super Interesting
just wanna say the animation is also Fantastic in this section but ooh the lore drops
i really love the way the angels are stylized here, and how its all in black and white with accents of gold (except Lucifer who has a very light red gradient in his wings)
and also its the way that More color is brought on screen by Lucifer only oooh
oohh and the way that red gradient turns gray when the angels are like, disapproving of his ideas
its So Funny how Adam fumbled his first wife So Hard that she ran away and fell in love with someone else then his second wife got convinced by the First Wife and Her New Love LMFAOO
MAN this makes me feel SO Bad for Lucifer and i feel Conflicted as someone raised christian but like. i feel bad for him they do say that the road to hell was paved with good intentions
also Lilith thriving on the evil stuff like you Go Girlboss
these are So Pretty to look at
aww Charlie and Vaggie are So Cute
SEVEN YEARS? ouch seven years without hearing anything from her mom
omg they are So Cute
OMG THIS IS SO CUTE
damn the ominous Ringing of the Bell in the only angelic-like structure of hell
BYE ALASTOR'S AD.....
"Founded five days ago by Lucifer's ~delusional~ daughter!"
"As she tries to work through her daddy issues by fixing you!" STOPPPP NAHHH THATS FOULL
the shaky camera i cant
"HAHA I NAMED IT" LMFAOOOO yeah you sure did buddy
incredible, they dont have A Working Phone
their faces LMFAOO
love that Alastor is bad at TV commercials because he's like... a radio host. the radio demon. he is Decidedly Not a TV Guy
also can i just say that the animation is So Smooth and So Fluid like wow i could rewatch the way each character moves 100 times and that is NOT exaggeration
help he is So Mad that they arent doing a radio show
ok actually Angel Dust's voice is really good like?? idk something about it is just Fun to listen to
Charlie trying to be So Nice is extremely entertaining
OMG HUSK !! HIS VOICE HELP !! it fits So Well
also shoutout to the background music
omg Angel Dust has got a little heart spot on the back of his head thats really really cute
aww Charlie is so cute
OOH A SONG ALREADY
LMFAOO "That bitch is halfway down the street!" i love Angel's goofy little smile as he says it also Amazing how the fuck did she get over there so quickly????
i love Charlie's and Vaggie's voice
"They're bloodthirsty and deranged!" <- really funny that this is being said about angels
he is a Hologram hey this guy's An Asshole what the fuck did Charlie ever do to you
new reaction image she looks so done with his bullshit im cackling
i can already tell that the new commercial is Not gonna go well
HEKSDJKSDN ANGEL DUST "I need a big strong daddy to put me in my place... on the path to redemption!" THE CHANGE IN TONE I CANNOT
oh ok so this Asshole Angel Guy is adam
"I'm the original dick!" BRO???? HELP?? IM ?? this does not sound like Angelic Behavior anyways what The Fuck is he even on about
the fact that he specifically calls out Climate Change as Earth's Problem, but not HERPES?? implies that angels get herpes i guess????
HELFHLDKJ I CANT Hazbin Hotel is KILLING it with the facial expressions
there is not One Thought behind that eye new reaction image
its okay Nifty you're trying your best
there are just Too Many good reaction images and memes spawned from just this One episode
Alastor is So Mad and Bitter about TV
BRUH the way he couldve done all that The Whole Time but he didnt because he Hates tv 😭😭
also wtf Nifty's giant now
well... at least Vaggie and the Hotel Gang are having a better time than Charlie with this Asshole Angel Guy
"I've never made a mistake in my fucking life" says the guy who fucked up so bad that he had to get a second wife
fuck this song is banger BUT i hate adam
DAMN "And for those of us with divine ordainment/Extermination is entertainment!" fuck when he sings it it goes So Hard but like aw :(( what The Fuck Heaven
WTF THEY MOVED IT EARLIER ????? WHY ??
help Alastor just glitching on screen
oh what The Fuck theyre moving it earlier cuz somehow a demon killed an angel? and theyre gonna kill ALL OF THE DEMONS????? WHAT
and thats the end of the episode im.
wow well. honestly it was REALLY good and i am so excited to watch the rest of the series
unfortunately i have to go now, bye i will be back with my reactions to the second episode! tomorrow (hopefully)
farewell, folks!
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Sugar step au - au where sugar rush is a dancing/rhythm game and the sugar rush racers are a dance group and vanellope does hip hop and breakdancing
(still working on taffyta tbf)
also turbo used to be apart of another dance game called Turbo Tunes and is basically pullin the american race seperation thing by only having the black dancers dance their hearts out once a month (yes i took this from hairspray i was inspired to make this au caue of it) and Vanellope wants to dance her hip hop and breamdancing but cant cause shes a glitch
however she soon becomes friends wih minty zaki and swizzle who tire of only being playable once a month and dream to join the other dancers of sugar step to dance as well she also befriends candlehead who has he pinkie pie vision and has been noticing for the past 14 years that something seemed off about King Candy and decides to help the three with their integration plan Taffyta helps fo cause candlehead is her friend (and even thoushe hates the glitch with a passion she likes seeing candles smile shes gay ok)
essentially king candy is revealed to be turbo during a dance off (yes vanellope dances off against a giant bug monster who wants to eat her and everyone else) but still is defeated in the dnd
and then vanellope is returned to her rightful ghrone of dancing queen president
now for Wreck it Ralph 2 everything is relatively he same (but not really) the major difference is that instead of whatever the heck that ramp was that caused sugar rush to get unplugged there was a power surge that basically fried the console's plug in wires and circuits (along with a bunch if other older cabinets) so now vanellope has to find a way to fix her home all the while the residents are grieving their lost home que vanellope running off into the new plug in the ethernet! then que the others noticing she's gone and launch a search and rescue mission for out vanilla flavored dancer and instead of Vanellope staying in slaughter race her and the other kids stay in ohmydisney.com as new mascots (vanellope still runs into shank and the others and thinks their awesome and hangs out with bt ultimately chooses not to stay in slaughter race)
slaughter race in the sugar beats au is a game called Music Massacrebasically ddr + guitar hero but for adults (its a breakdance and hiphop focused game)
anyways thats all i have forenow so ill send the taffyta design tomorrow
anyways ships in this au are vanillabutter, taffypumpkincake (taffyta x gloyd x candlehead) and mintlollipop (swizzle x minty zaki)
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Can I ask a question about past ex. So Yoki (and Ishawuu to a lesser extent if I recall) speak a rather archaic form of pastex creole. Do they pick up parts of contemporary speech or grammar?
Yeah !! They both do it in different ways tho. Both their first languages are English, and they also know Spanish fluently + snippets of a few others, but Ishawuu speaks in a much more modern way than Yoki.
(Edit: I have a tl;dr at the end if any1 wants to know but doesnt want to read it all)
Ishawuu has a really weird form of speaking tho- she was sorta there for the whole development of the language (Her bug malfunctioned a bit after the bombs, so as doctors were working on fixing her she heard it change from spanish to the creole over time. Then when she was out of the hospital she picked it up more from other ppl). Even tho she speaks it fluently, she still mixes between old and new slang/speech patterns/inflection/etc. It's understandable, just like,,, a bit weird at times for ppl.
A lot of them probably just assume shes just from some weird settlement that has a suuper different dialect. Largely different dialects are rlly common bcs even after pastex creole was commonplace, the geography made it easy for them to diverge- most ppl live on/near the coasts, so since The Andes are Right There, the mountains prohibit easy movement.
(Edit- the next paragraph isn't actually abt the question at all its just me rambling. U can totslly skip it lol)
Actually, thats a major reason South America has so many isolate languages!! If you look up SA isolate languages, the majority of them are from countries that The Andes run through. That, combined with the fact that its harder to travel north or south opposed to east or west (Thats a major reason NA and SA native technology developmeny differ so much/are much more cebtralized in comparison to eurasia or africa- both those places are Really Wide, but since the climate and temperature stays very similar horizontally, they could travel and spread knowledge. The Americas are more vertical, so the more you went north or south the more the climage would change to things you're not accustomed to/have clothes for)
Im getting super off topic. Anyway, as for Yoki, he speaks it like. just really weirdly. He WASN'T there for its development, he was trapped under debris. He might've understood it better within its first hundred or so years while it was still somewhat similar to Spanish, but he was only found abt 150-200 years after lol.
When he first came out he studied it a lot to speak/understand it, but he kinda stopped trying to sound perfect w/ all the different dialects and the chanhes over time. He HAS been around for ~200 years with the language, so he 100% Understands it, but speaking it is like,,,, He COULD speak it with better and much more modern grammer and words, but its wayyy harder to do that if he can still be understood with the way he speaks.
I stylize it as middle english (To my very poor understand of it, at least) since theres no other way to rlly show how hes speaking, but really hes likee. Mixing a bit of spanish grammer + very old pastex creole on a way that has the least effort on his part while still being understood by other ppl.
tl;dr- Ishawuu was there for the language development, so while she speaks pretty well and modern, she sometimes has a little of some older parts mixed in
Yoki only started learning it later and hes also really lazy, so he willingly soeaks very archaicly bcs its a hassle to try and use perfect grammer when it chabhes so much over time and through dialects.
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well today hasnt been great. tuesday we noticed a leak by out living room window and a crack in the screen. notified our landlord. chalked it up to snow from outside, put plastic over your windows. cool, we cant, we’re fucking broke af. now today, a waterfall (and i mean WATERFALL) of a leak sprang in our bedroom. had to practically evacuate our entire bed to our living room and just about everything else into our kitchen. our cats are stressed, WE’RE stressed. i had to call off of work like i didnt want to bc im barely getting hours as is (thankfully my HR person in charge of scheduling told me not to worry bout it and she’d schedule me in for tomorrow). come to find out from our landlord the fucking inspection guy from FUCKING JUNE decided to stupidly turn off the wrong valve to the broiler and freeze everyone in our building, which caused the pipe to burst (hence the obnoxious flooded). now my s/o and i are sitting here, worn out from dealing with people coming in and out of our apartment and everything else going on. pretty much having to wait for someone the landlord knows to come and cut open the bedroom ceiling to check out the piping and hopefully fix the damn thing, and hopefully also get new windows bc SURPRISE those weren’t replaced before we’d moved in despite this being the newest renovation. we havent even been here a whole year and its been one thing after another: noisy af neighbors (in both senses of the matter), letting their dogs bark and howl and PISS right outside our window at all hours of the day despite there being a sound ordnance, the AC broke not even at the end of summer and WE supposedly have to replace it (like we’ve the money for that), the bathroom door is chipped to shit, blamed us tenants for an infestation even tho said bugs CAME FROM THE FUCKING SINK PIPING AND PROBABLY THE DUMPSTER THATS RIGHT OUTSIDE, and now this bullshit. that’s not including us not having much to eat rn bc like i said poor and bills literally take all my money. we just want a break.
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January 12 - 2024 Friday
11:40pm
3/10
This morning I decided not to clean because I was dreading doing anything today and everything is still pretty clean. It was super cold this morning and the shower is the only place I've been warm all day. for breakfast I made Dinty Moore beef stew with some brown rice and onions in it. I watched an episode of Bojack. I chose not to stream today but I did do my warmups. I copied torso sketches from my anatomy handbook. I wanted to do work on commissions today but I couldn't bring myself to do it. I'm on schedule so I really had no motivation to. In an attempt to do something, I did sketch a pretty good YCH I can release soon. At some point I gave up completely and played some Kerbal. I tried a lot today to make contact with a probe I sent to Eve and eventually learned it was just a bug that needed some quitting/reloading to fix so I didn't accomplish too much other than sending a couple satellites I didn't need. At lunch I made potstickers and stir fry ramen with way too many raw onions put in but it was good and crunchy. Afterwards I loosely planned to pick my schedule back up but I didn't. I did work on my project for a little bit and make a nice little bit of progress. I can't remember when but at some point in the afternoon I finally broke down and cried for just a little bit. I realized how stressed I was and how much I wanted to just let go of it. I think I had a lot bottled up and haven't been doing a good job of expressing things. I played more KSP and some Just Dance with Daisy. I tried playing Steel Division slightly and set up the next campaign mission. Daisy asked to VR tonight so I hopped on immediatly. I hopped into a new world and hung out with strangers until they left. Then I stopped by the 5 year TDS anniversary like I told Plaz I would even though he wasn't there yet. Daisy joined me there and then we hopped to Space Rangers. We played through this long map trying to catch up to them until we respawned and met up with them. We went to a small boat world that was cramped. Daisy realized Pink was on who hasn't been on for months so we joined on her to see what was up. We hung out in this Russian world for awhile and Tezza joined before leaving after a few minutes as per usual. Then we went to a windows XP vibe kinda world where we lowkey RPed making reservations and getting a tour of the facility. We went to one last cottage world before getting off. In bed I played Final Fantasy for Daisy and ranted a little bit because really I just wanted to talk all day. Now I'm going to bed in my onesie because I think thats the only way I can stay warm tonight. My heaters cannot keep up with the cold because of how poorly insulated the cabin is in some places.
As mentioned, today was awful. I had a crisis of sorts. I felt so disconnected from who I am and my past. I think maybe I was dissociating. I didn't know what to do about it so I shut down most of the day.
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✨🎀🎈💞💥🎙️💌💌💌
No those three at the end aren't a mistake, I know you have lots of WIPs and I wanna hear about them (insert activethreat emote)
✨-What's a fic you've posted you wish you could breathe life into again and have people talking about it? (or simply a fic you wish got more credit):
Hmm. I'd say Ten Lives (The One Worth Living) but I think I might be biased and just want to talk about my Johnny, Kitty, and Shadow ideas more. I like them a Very Normal Amount I prommy.
🎀-give yourself a compliment about your own writing
There's a post that I've seen plenty times before that I think about all the time that goes something along the lines of "I'm having creative ideas above my skill level!" or something like that, for when you have a great idea but just don't know how to execute it the way you want. I legitimately feel where I am at a point where that isn't an issue for me with my writing? I think most ideas I can execute within the general sphere of what I want them to be; I might not always like them, and they might not always be what I consider "good," but they are comparable to the original idea.
🎈-describe your style as a writer; is it fixed? does it change?
It tends to change based on the type of thing I'm writing. And how much sleep I get. I like a lot of shorter sentences, followed by one long rambling one for most kinds of prose, since most of my prose is an ooo ouch my bones type of prose. It does change all the time though, so that might be different in a few months. It certainly wasn't what I preferred until like, August.
💞-what's the most important part of a story for you? the plot, the characters, the worldbuilding, the technical stuff (grammar etc), the figurative language
hm. augh. mm. thats a toughy! I'm going to say worldbuilding, because I often find myself more interested in the worldbuilding that the Actual Story I'm Trying To Write (its why a 30k first draft of a novel is fitting, completely unfinished, in my google drive. The current guys suck. I want the old ones. But the old ones only work as history for the new guys. Its sad.)
💥-find your least kudos'd fic - say something wonderful about it.
I'm ngl I completely thought it was gun safe but First Concert! It's a pretty short one, but it does what I sought out to accomplish; combine Dora and Ember's interests in a way that illustrates their differences but also shows that they're much more similar than you'd think.
🎙️-which one of your fics would you like someone to make a pod-fic of?
I have literally never put thought into that ever. If I had to choose, probably All In The Name Of Love or Strength of the Past And Weights of The Present, mostly because they're my favorites.
Welcome to WIP hell! See, you'd think that it would be a problem, having two of my WIPS be EI so I can't talk about them, and one being one you know so much about already. You might think that would hinder me somehow, in being able to tell you about them. YOU'D THINK!!
💌- share something with us about an up-and-coming work (WIP) that has you excited!
Chapter 2 Of Cover Blown: I love pitch pearl man, I really do, and with what I'm planning for this one I think it is going to be about as good as my pitch pearl can get (Dreamwalker excluded dw). I love putting guys in situations, especially when those situations involve bad injuries and babbled confessions.
Speaking of Dreamwalker, I'll add this here too, because while you might know a lot, I always have more. I love how I'm writing the ghosts, just across the board. They are all pieces of shit in the Funniest Way, especially since Danny is a whole ass child right now. You're scheming about a nine year old babes, calm down. He hasn't even lost all his baby teeth yet.
As for the last one, I'm going to put it under a read more. TW for bugs and Danny rotting, but its ok he's fine with it.
Bug Boi (title to be changed later) has been shelved indefinitely for. Many reasons! I have. So much to write. Bug Boi is, for those who do not know. Where I put as many bugs into the boy as possible. He loses organ privileges and instead becomes the landlord for a hoard of different bugs. He loves them, and they love him, and when they die (as bugs often do) they give him their little bug souls as a thank you so he because More Bug.
Anyway, I recently learned about the scorpion fly, who looks like this:
It is so cool, and has recently (idk how recently) been seen in forensic entomology, meaning that I can put these fuckers into Danny's eye sockets or esophagus or wherever else and be. Not technically wrong!! I have no idea if Bug Boi will ever be taken off of my list of to be written, but if nothing else it gives for me a place to put bugs.
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Adobe Broke Photoshop in 2023 (October Update)
Back in July, I made a post detailing how bad Photoshop has gotten for me this year, which you can read here. But if you want a tldr version of it, following new years Photoshop stability and reliability has taken a nose dive with constant crashes that prevent auto recover from being as effective to glitches that make working in it a nightmare. Its been over 3 months since I made that post and I kinda wanted to do an update on how photoshop has been. Has it actually gotten better? Kind of but not really. In some ways, its gotten better, in others worse but generally not much has changed. I guess two positives that come to mind is that one of the afformention glitches I noted was patched up at some point in July, so I was able to update finally. Though, I didnt experience the backlash from not updating photoshop like I had in March (fuck you Adobe). And I havent been experiencing the left click lock as much, although thats more to do with me not doing certian commands that I found could trigger it than adobe actually being a good company and fixing it. There's a thread on the adobe forums about this issue, and according to one of most recent posts as of the 22nd, they run a photo company and have called Adobe support 5 times about this issue, and it seems that no one at Adobe knows about this glitch. Yes a billion dollar company who sells programs at inflated prices because they're "industry standard" knows nothing about a single bug that has been in the program for 6 months, but will gladly add in new features no one will use.
Now when I say things got worse, crashes started happening more frequently again in late September and Early October. But instead of happening weekly, they happened almost every fucking day. One day I would have a crash, the next day nothing would happen, before a crash happening the following day. And what was more crushing about this was that it happened while I was dealing with selections and flatting comic pages... whats funny about this is that not only can selections not be recovered if you close the file (even if you save), but can only be saved by pressing a seperate save button which has no keyboard commands. Which made these crashes more horrible than if I had been inking or sketching. Once again, I consulted the Adobe forums for help and once again, the solution was to update my gpu driver which was out of date. I don't think its the fact that I had already done this and nor that somehow, the driver I had been using since March was already out of date by September that makes this situation so ridiculous. But its the fact that I've pretty much had to bend over to change my pc just so I could run photoshop within the same year. In contrast to how things were before 2023 where I didn't have to do a single thing and photoshop ran fine. Its only this year that for some divine reason that the program decided to be shit to me.
So why was I still using it if it was so bad? It was because of my first Chapter. Around the time I had that initial post, I was still hard at work on finishing my comic's first Chapter which has taken me 4 years to complete. I had anticipated getting it done around that time, but due to burn out I ended up taking much longer, finishing it on October 13th. During those final few months, I decided that upon finish Chapter 1, I would be done with photoshop and moving onto a different art program for the rest of my comic. And that program ended up being Clip Studio Paint which I got as an early birthday present from my dad, following photoshop crashing on me two times in that day, the latter happening an hour after I took a break to calm myself down after the first crash....I wish I was making that up. I went with CSP due to the fact that most tapas artists I know use it and because of the many good things they've said about it. Its a pretty highly regarded program, and even if my motive for buying it wasn't because of Photoshop's "quirks", it has features that make producing comics much faster in CSP than in photoshop. So with CSP in my hands, you'd think the nightmare would be over, right?
You so, my plan was to use CSP for my comic starting with Chapter 2 but after spending some time in the program, I realized I probably wouldn't be knowledgeable enough or adapted to it enough just in time for me to start drawing Chapter 2 with a release date of early 2024. So in the end, I decided to wait until Chapter 3 to make the switch, while limiting myself to CSP for spur of the moment drawing ideas and illustrations. Yes, Photoshop has been a complete failure to me but I am way more experienced with it than with Clip Studio. I dont want there to be a potential quality drop following the most recent episode and I want to be sure I can use it before jumping into creating comics. This isnt like the switch from traditional to digital for my comic back in 2021, because I had already had more than a years worth of experience with photoshop and digital drawing by that time. Because of that, the switch wasn't as rough as it would've been if I had done it earlier. I was going to save this announcement for one my kofi 'comic corner' blogs (btw if you want to support me on kofi click here: https://ko-fi.com/kenthenugget) but Im making this post now so why the hell not. But for the time being, Im still going to be using photoshop for Chapter 2, and my character sheets of course. Given how long I spent on Chapter 1, you might think Im crazy for wanting to use the program for another 4 years but I don't anticipate this chapter taking as long, due to skill and because its much shorter in comparison.
Im not going to lie, I have mixed feelings on continuing to use Photoshop for my comic. On one hand, Im glad I wont need to worry about a potential quality drop but on the other, I dont know how long I can handle crashes and glitches that only seem to persist as time goes on. I'll just pray to God to give me strength during the drawing of Chapter 2 once I finish thumbnailing. Hopefully, I and photoshop will be able to last.....
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i havent been able to get any good sleep for years now probably, because of my mom has refused to get an exterminator for the bedbug problem because she can't feel them crawling on her at night, we've had bedbugs for over four years now probably and she still pretends to be shocked whenever i tell her that theres bedbugs, even after she gets an exterminator for 100 dollars to spray just my room. her solution to bedbugs for me was to get me a bug thats high off the ground for some reason, and put shell dust under it to kill any of them that climbed up, which did work for a week, until she wanted a new dresser for my room for no reason, and put the old one snuggly touching the bottom of my mattress under the bed, letting them get back up. and even with that, it gets worse, my dog has always slept with me, and now that he can't get up to me, he cries and starts barking at me to be let up, but he also likes being able to leave at anytime, and the height is low enough that he is willing to try to jump, but i know that the height could end up hurting him so i have to get off the bed and put him on the ground each time he threatens to jump, in which he'll probably want up again in a bit. while the mattress i sleep on just feels aweful to be on as well, feeling overly hard on my back while pretending to be soft, while it sinks in the middle from how old it is. the last time ive had any actual good sleep was when i slept on fucking wireframe, that was covered with tons of old clothing, my back felt so fucking good, and i could actually sleep quickly despite my insomnia, which is another thing my mom doesn't seem to understand because she doesnt have it, is that it takes so fucking long to fall asleep. i am tempted to spend probably around 3000 dollars to fix all my sleeping problems, but i know my mom would refuse me doing this, and have a hissy fit over me spending my own fucking money, i am just stressed from all these days, and how unrested i am at this point
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