#need to do more Holly drawings tbh

[picklesthenonbeanary]

Currently working on a random doodle sheet of fan art and also a draw of the best boi’s (promise it will be done eventually, I just need to draw shakes head (and shade it) and I’ve been avoiding that, it looks hard to draw ok!!!). Any suggestions on what I should draw next? Currently been drawing lots of Kirby fanart doodles but I can do other stuff too (cough cough dwtb cough cough). Anyone have any recommendations on what I should draw?

[7ndipity]

“Nerd”

Yoongi x Reader

Summary: After Yoongi encourages you to go out shopping with his friends as a way of getting to know Seoul, he's surprised to find out what a bookworm you are. (I suck at summaries, lol sorry)

Warnings: swearing,

A/N: Thanks to @vicky-chaos for this request! Tbh, I’m the exact same way as you described yourself, I have more books than I have shelf space for, lol!

Masterlist

Requests are open

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“Are you sure you won’t miss me too much?” You asked Yoongi as you pulled on your coat.

“It’s only a few hours, I think I’ll be able to manage.” He smirked, pressing a kiss to your temple. “Go have fun.”

“And you better make sure they get back in one piece.” He warned jokingly, turning to Hobi and Jimin, who’d been watching your whole exchange with amused grins.

“We will, don’t worry.” Hobi promised.

“Yeah, I don’t wanna know what angry Meow Meow looks like.” Jimin sniggered, ducking out the door before Yoongi could swat him, using the nickname for your boyfriend that he’d happened to overhear as they’d arrived eariler.

“Bye.” You said, giving him a quick peck.

“Bye, be safe.” He replied, waving as you and Hobi filed out the door.

It was strange, in a way, after having spent over a year doing the whole ‘long distance’ thing with you(or as he liked to refer to it, “fucking torture”), a couple hours apart while you went shopping with Hobi and Jimin should seem like nothing, but he couldn’t help noticing himself growing a bit antsy for your return as the afternoon passed.

He was still getting used to the fact that you were actually here in Seoul with him, that it wasn’t just a dream when he woke up every morning with you there next to him. Watching you not only settle in, but thrive in his city and with his circle of friends had almost made him fall in love with you all over again.

It was just beginning to grow dark outside when he heard the front door open.

“We’re back.” You called.

He rounded the corner to see Hobi helping you drag several heavy looking shopping bags through the door.

“Where’s Jimin?” Yoongi asked.

“Asleep in the car, Y/n tired him out. I think they could out-shop me.” Hobi chuckled, making you duck your head as you flushed, mumbling out an embarrassed “Shut up.”.

Yoongi grinned, happy to see you and his friend getting along. “Did you at least have fun?” He asked you.

“I did, I found lots of nice things.“ You said as you crouched to greet Holly, who’d been circling your feet excitedly. “What about you Hobi?”

“Yeah, it was a very educational trip.” He said with a grin. ”Are we still on for lunch on Sunday?”

“Definitely.” You nodded.

“I’ll see you then, bye!” He said, giving you and Yoongi a nod before ducking back out the door.

“Bye!”

“See you, Hoba.” Yoongi called, dragging you against him as soon as Hoseok was out of sight.

“I need a kiss.” He said seriously.

“Aha! So you did miss me?” Your face lit up as you grinned at him smugly.

“More than you know.” He mumbled, pressing his lips to yours before you could tease him further, relishing the contented sigh he felt you release at the contact. He loved knowing you were as gone for him as he was for you.

“Now, wanna show me what you got?” He asked, drawing back to look at you.

“Okay!” You nodded, grabbing a few of the bags, before heading for the living room to have more space to unpack everything.

“I got this book on Korean Folklore, I thought it looked interesting.” You explained, settling on the floor and digging through the first bag. “And this one’s about mid-century architecture, I thought you might like it. Ooh, and this one’s been on my wish list for ages, I was soo happy that I found it!”

Yoongi sat watching as you pulled out book after book, and a small smile playing at the corners of his mouth at your excitement.

“Why did you buy two of this one?” He asked suddenly, noticing two identical covers.

“One’s in my native language and the other one’s in Korean, I thought it would help me practice reading Hangul.” You said, not looking up as you continued to rummage in another bag. When you didn’t get a response, you glanced up to see him just staring at you with an amused expression.

“What?” You asked.

“I just didn’t realize you were such a nerd.” He said, chuckling.

“I am not!” You said defensively.

“I’m not making fun of you, I just think it’s cute,” He clarified. “I didn’t realize how much of a bookworm you were.”

“I didn’t mean to buy this many, I just got excited.” You said, feeling slightly self-conscious.

“I like it though, it’s fun seeing you excited.” He said. “It’s also kinda fun knowing there’s still some things we don’t know about each other yet, like little surprises.”

“I thought you didn’t like surprises?” You asked, leaning up to rest your hands on his knees.

“I like you though,” He said, leaning in. “So I’ll make an exception.”

“M’kay.” You grinned, closing the gap between you to catch his lips.

You were more than happy to be his exception, on this and many other things.

Taglist: @sopebubbles-replies @btsw1fe @this-must-be-my-tardis @whitefoxgirl @bethanysnow @coffeedepressionsoup @captainorangegoose @k4ngelz

[taylortheanimerangerteen]

Hey folks

I guess today after listening to dead and gone like 8 times on loop

I had s2 teen thoughts!!

They're all outcasts in their own ways, I will explain my reasoning for saying this

Starting with Taylor bc like he is kinda the hardest to explain? Especially since he's considered "popular"

However, I don't believe Taylor is actually popular. For mutiple reasons. As somebody who has never been considered popular in any of my schooling years (I don't care tho so 🤷), how Erica acts around him feels ever so slightly familiar to how popular kids would treat me. They'd either be overly nice but not include me in anything or were straight-up assholes to me. I think Erica heavily follows into the first category, where she's overly nice but doesn't actually really include Taylor. There are secret popular kid passages through the school (which like, first of all??? Insanity but not the point of this post) that even Taylor didn't know about (pretty strange if he's actually popular, and I know Erica gave a reason but like... mlpeh)

That's really all I got for explaining Taylor... he just feels like the kid the popular kids are nice to but don't actually care about.

Next up, Scary... bc she kinda started the thoughts of this post anyways.

So!! She's alternative. I think saying that gets most of why she'd be an outcast explained but. I'd like to draw our attention to dead and gone (as it's the first song in the album and it gets me enough and it's also in one episode at the end of it so technically it's accessible to everybody!)

So!! I don't remember if it's ever stated by Beth or the cast like anywhere if Holly Smith was a real teen and teen high but also like... even if she isn't, Scary is probably still being bullied in a somewhat similar way as described in the song. As it's not really stated too too much. But she's called a clown by Holly as Holly points at her, and everybody laughs at her. It sounds like she's at least been picked on, so it wouldn't be shocking if she was also bullied/was considered an outcast.

Next is Lincoln.

This is really easy.

He was homeschooled... he has only gotten to know his school peers for like... a tiny bit? Or so?? Since the teens spent at the most like 3-4 months actually at school???

So like. He's just an outcast for being new and also homeschooled

And now Normal... where do I start with the poor boy.

Let's start with the fact he is the mascot kid of the school. He is Teeny the Teen! People don't like teeny the teen. So ofc he's an outcast.

He also can't wash his clothes and so he stinks... so like... yeah. Outcast.

And now Hermie. (Imagine a vine boom after each point.)

Theater kid.

Not actually a student at teen high.

Not even human.

Need I say more???

And the fact that Dood, who represents being a teenager really? Is like these 5 teens

Dood feels really like the representation of not just being a teenager but one that's been outcasted by others

Which like. Is fitting for their story and arc...

This was really just me talking a bunch tbh... idk why I decided to make this post.

Anyways, have a good day if you've read all the way here :D

And even if you skipped all my talking, have a good day too :D

[mothpile]

mes's webcomic recommendations

do YOU like webcomics or want to read some ? here are some i think are good NO im not gonna put my own here even if i think its good. -_-

starting with . i Think these ones are popular and well known..?

Paranatural - A story about paranormal ghosts and stuff. It's a real fun time, and the story is really good. The author's art progression is really impressive, truly skilled with paneling and such. It does eventually shift into a webnovel format with drawings as the author couldn't keep up with doing pages like before, and the quality of goodness of the story stays strong 👍👍

Tiger, Tiger - Story about the importance of sea sponges. Also a fun time, sea faring adventure about, again, sea sponges and how important they are nothing else OK? promise. (liar) PHENOMENAL artwork, very pretty to look at.... 👍👍

The Property of Hate - I need to reread it because i forgetted a lot but its such a cool looking comic and sooo interesting OK?! i swear. It's about a kid being a hero.

Vainglorious - a fun comic about a dragon facing Hubris Consequences. The main trio is real fun, the world is cool, all in all fun comic okie !!

Sakana - Slice-of-life comic about some folks working at a fish stall in a fish market. Real fun. Been on hiatus for four years, but is gonna make a comeback soon (author is working on building up buffer pages And then... ! ) But yeah! real fun.

Witchy - ... one i have to reread, it's been on hiatus since forever as the author was working on another comic (thatllbe out... in a while?), though i assume when that's done they'll come back to this...? Anyhow, I remember it being a very gripping story, and beautifully drawn... Also it's about witches. if. you . couldnt tell by the.. title...

NOW, onto ones that ... i dont Think are super well known ... ?

EcopportunityX - An interactive stick figure limited color palette comic about a facility where bad shit has happened ! uhoh! What the hell happened here! Follow the protagonist on their journey of learning what happened, and escaping the facility. Also, space pinball and ball pit beast is there. 👍👍👍

Eye in the Sky - And it only feels right to bring it up as well, but this is a fancomic of ecopportunityX ! ... Contains eox spoilers, so perhaps read the original first! This one features original characters and takes place a bit before eox, it's nice ok i like it :]

Gold Scissors - One of my all time favourites TBH. The art is nice, I love the story, the world is so cool i love it a lot... do yourself a favor and read it...

Midnight Connection - Finished! by the author of Gold Scissors, it's a short comic that takes place in the same universe, you can get through it in one sitting!! sniffles.

Brainchild - Comic about girl seeing weeeeeird stuff. Ghosts?! who knows. Tis a cool one OK read it...

Fairmeadow - "i hate being on the hippee comune they are always telling me Peace and Love on planet earth , orc lady, Peace and Love, and they do not leave me alone" - true real 100% words said. you can read it and youll see. Very pretty looking, ...

Holly & Macy and Everyone Else - comic about two teens learning about HOMOSEXUALITY and being a witch and its a very sweet .. i like it ok? it's also on tumblr @/ hollymacycomic

Falling to Far - i thiiink? its kinda just getting started, its about two star kids that just arrived to the planet of Far, and they are just checking how things are here rn. okie! its nice ITS ON TUMBLR! my fellow tumblr-hosted webcomicers lets gooooo

Daisy in DREAMLAND - ........ not a .. webcomic. Tis more a webnovel, i believe. It has pictures. Very cool looking guys, love the style, someone drench this cat in a bucket of water.

Needleminder - because fuck it we put webnovels here too I GUESS. it has pictures sometimes. haven't caught up with it recently tho BUT it's Very interesting and gets weird with it in cool ways...

Star Impact - comic about boxing! fighting! and people have gloves that give them a gimmick power tis pretty fuckin cool!

Kitty Corner - Comic about someone who sees ghosts. this ones kiiinda just getting started i think..? put its been promising so far, i like it ANOTHER TUMBLRHOSTED WEBCOMIC LETS GO BABY!

PISS HOLE - The greatest comic ever drawn with a broken trackpad.

Going Home - a comicabout a kid who has t *red dot appears on forehead* *sweats**starts to go get the link to the comic* *snipers pull the t

[autisticjonathanjoestar]

Are there any jojo characters that are fat women in your hcs?

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR ASKING ME THIS !! first of all. never have I been more excited to receive a message ...

characters that were already women who are definitely fat:

Suzie Q. I think her and joseph get fat together after they get married because they r so in love and comfortable and safe. this is true in my heart

Holly because she's her mama's daughter. she is making it through the winter 🙏

SHINOBU FOR SURE I don't have exact reasoning for this either other than vibes but again I know it in my heart to be true. let her be soft and round

Aya ... this one is just vibes she should've been fat

I also think Nena should have stayed fat in her "disguise" you know hol horse fucks w fat bitches heavy

characters that were not originally women but are still fat women to me

Esidisi ... fat pillar men will always be god tier tbh,, & she sews on her own boobs

Joseph kinda — I HC her to be kind of every gender (I SAY bigender but that's mostly me projecting, it's just in general I do not see her as being able to be tied down to one gender she's above that), as stated above I think her and Suzie got fat and happy together after they got married <3 to me

GYRO ZEPPELI. again not one I can necessarily justify except she told me herself #trust ...

Abbacchio!! in the universe where she lives long enough to get HRT I think she puts on some weight during her second puberty

Pesci.... need I say more.... look @ her

not a consistent hc of mine but I like to imagine Speedwagon as a fat woman often

I saw someone draw fat transfem Tonio once and it was really awesome ... I don't think about Tonio a lot unless prompted but she was beautiful

idk if I'm forgetting any but these are at least the most important to me. sniles sneetly

[quillyfied]

Things I’m noticing on this rewatch, which I’m hoping to take slow and ponder on but we will see how it goes, PART TWO (obviously major Good Omens season 2 spoilers throughout, specifically for S2E2)

- Immediately the first thing I notice and love is the old-timey grainy way the Job storyline was shot with. Aziraphale’s holy background thing is so fun and dynamic, omg. There’s something very Terry Gilliam about the visuals.

- Also want to point out that the different shades of red of Crowley’s hair is a CHOICE, because he’s back to s1 color in this flashback. Also noticed last episode, but the new hair seems to have much darker roots or lowlights visible in some shots. Deliberate?

- Crowley can just summon a small sun. Nbd.

- The idea of a permit. The continuing hysteria of inserting modern parlance into the past. This is why I love this show.

- THE PERMIT IS SO LONG WHY IS THAT LOONEY TUNES LEVEL HUMOR STILL SO FUNNY

- Thing I notice now: the crows flying away after the goats are struck by fireballs. Originally unnoticed ambiance. Now incredibly funny.

- “You know, geese? Big, cross ducks?” I LOVE MURIEL.

- Hello, Jerkface McGee Gabriel.

- My brain, when Gabriel talked about witnessing the first human birth: oh, he was there for Cain? Weird, but—oh. Oh he meant Eve. Oh NO. Aziraphale your superiors are incompetent.

- The marks of irritation the archangels have with Aziraphale…phew. Eye rolling, huffing, the whole shebang. Poor guy.

- The fact that Jim is trying to be helpful and makes the bookshop less comprehensible delights me, actually. As does his hideous sweater.

- The fact that there are edges to Jimbriel’s memory, that he has snatches of himself but can’t encompass the whole…weird. Why won’t his whole self fit back inside of his amnesiac mind? What’s taking up the room? Unless all the room is stored with the rest of his memories? This is a silly train of thought and I’m getting a bit too deep

- Wondering how Hell’s miraculous tracking system works tbh.

- Another note about the opening: last season, we got to the crowd actively falling off the edge of their cliff path and the good ones going up, the bad ones going down. This time…credits end before they reach that summit. And they’re climbing towards something brightly lit. Interesting.

- I love that the seemingly throwaway line of all albums turning to Queen Best Hits when left in a car for too long turns into more of an actual plot point with the jukebox and Buddy Holly. Almost feels taboo.

- The needing an invitation to get in thing is so subtly done, too.

- Keen?? KEEN???

- Yeah the attempt to kill the fly does sort of overly dampen the reveal later. Better foreshadowing would have been to him trying to catch it tbh.

- CAN WE TALK ABOUT HOW AZIRAPHALE CAN DRAW

- Dirty Donkey pub. Something about that is tickling my brain. No idea why. Like I know its utility as an elevator in s2 but I feel like there’s something important about it I’m forgetting? Or missing?

- Jane Austen as master spy and novelist is the exact flavor I’m looking for, thank you. XD

- Ehm. Aziraphale. The ball part isn’t where the love realizations happened, from my memory. They’re highly charged events, but they’re for feeding chemistry, not realizations. Idk man.

- Aziraphale almost closes the shop door on him. Noticed it the first time. Noticing it now. Mistake? Or meant?

- Pride and Prejudice is what is zoomed in on. Nice.

- Feels like Crowley is possibly probing Jim’s mind at this stage. Miraculously? There’s a partial little hissing chime when he starts doing it but I can’t tell if that’s a tension builder or an actual miraculous signifier.

- Note to self: go back to first episode and see if any sound effect played during the dual miracle. Result: yes, normal miracle chime.

- Going back to e2, not a full miracle chime but definitely a hiss of something. Don’t think Crowley is rooting around in his head but unsure how Crowley can evoke these episodes in Jimbriel but Aziraphale can’t. Hmm.

- Wondering if there’s a female voice layered under Gabriel’s, or if it’s his own pitched up.

- The fact that Jimbriel has some awareness of himself though!! He KNOWS whatever he can’t quite remember is too big for him right now, but he doesn’t know what it is and goes back to being a happy sieve in no time. Weird!!!

- Aha. Subtitles are wrong, Aziraphale does still call him Crawly in the Job minisode.

- “Technically you can—“ “oh, then technically I will” I SEE YOU, JOHN FINNEMORE. REUSING VERY GOOD LINES.

- GOSH the ACTING I am in a SWOON

- THAT SMUG LITTLE ANGELIC GRIN

- okay but: very important conversation about sides and desires and knowing (gosh that sounds dirty), unfortunate side effect of validating to Aziraphale that the angel he knew as Crowley Before is still in there and still reachable, the demon no different but just more stubborn for some reason. Massive flaw in his cognition to work through in s3, the universe willing.

- The kids being brats feels so…appropriate, somehow. All but the youngest. Who is adorable.

- Aziraphale showing faith in Crowley, though, and being proven correct. My tender heart.

- Crowley being obliging and turning Jemimah into a blue lizard. I cry.

- Aziraphale having a gag reaction to wine is hysterical actually

- The sensuality of the tempting Aziraphale to eat though.

- I…really can’t tell God’s tone or intent in talking to Job? Might just be telling him off. I think that’s what They’re doing. Job and I are on the same page at least.

- Gabriel’s game show host way of announcing this poor middle aged woman can have seven more kids. The Supreme Archangel, folks.

- Crowley stepping up at the nick of time to stop Sitis from committing blasphemy in front of the most powerful angels of Heaven: incredible power move. Only to be topped by his subsequent act of “midwifery”

- The “yes, and”ing of this scene. I’m agog.

- “Reach into his robes—higher, higher” THE LOOK ON JOB’S FACE

- Okay but the very neat forcing of Aziraphale to directly lie to his superiors, to take an active role of disobedience for the actual greater good. Mmm. Tasty for his character.

- THE WAY AZIRAPHALE’S HEAD JUST POPS OUT FROM BEHIND THE BENTLEY. Also had a little miracle chime to it so he definitely just. Popped up. Good grief.

- OUR car. Passed his test 90 years ago. Just like it’s technically my shop but we both get plenty of use out of it. MARRIED. BICKERING.

- GOOD OMENS THE BOOK INSIDE OF GOOD OMENS THE SHOW. I SQUEAL. I GIGGLE. I KICK MY FEET.

- The whole conversation at the end about falling and being lonely…SO many emotions. So many layers. Such setup. I just want to pop it in my mouth and gum on it for hours. This is the second time Aziraphale has lied to his bosses, but he wasn’t near as torn up about lying to God as he was about lying to Gabriel and the rest. Possibly because he had no proof that God DIDNT want him to give the sword to Adam to protect themselves with, and in this case he DID have more substantial proof that God wanted those kids dead. Or, Gabriel and Michael did, at least.

- Once again setting up to Aziraphale that Crowley is a good demon, that trusting him is a good idea, and pitting that against his ingrained trust in Heaven. Difficult dichotomy, difficult situation. Still hasn’t fully untangled that one in the present day. Obviously.

- “I’m a demon. I lied.” The absolute POWER.

Okay that’s it for tonight. More later!

[creacherkeeper]

Happy sleep over Saturday!!

Something that bothers me: my emotional burn out and how I'm wanting to end relationships/interactions because of it (might not be a bad thing, it's just hard to accept)

Something I'm excited about: my drafting table is working again! I get to draw lots of geometric patterns with ease!!

Question: have you played any games you like recently? Ive played lots of farming simulator esk games recently (story of seasons pioneers of olive town, grow song of the ever tree, ooblets, rune factory 5). And love when I just want to focus on them! Do you do anything like that?

Is there something you're looking forward to for you DND campaigns?

bothering: i totally get that. and that's something i struggled with in the past as well. but it's always helpful for me to remember that emotionally mature and caring people will like it when you stick up for your needs and boundaries with them. it makes them feel safer that you'll stick up for yourself and it means they can too. so saying something like "i've been really burnt out lately and it would be great if we could talk about more fun stuff for a while. you can check in if i have spoons if something comes up but i might say no if i just dont have brainpower. i still really care about you i just dont have extra energy to share right now". and if the person is receptive then great! just made the friendship stronger. if they get an attitude about it then, congrats youve just seen that they maybe aren't the best friend for you to have anyway and you can feel less guilty about taking care of yourself when it comes to people like that

exciting: OH THATS GREAT!! i think i had a drawing table when i was like. pretty young? like 12 or so maybe. i never got the hang of it tbh. but im glad you like yours!!! i will remain hunched over my table like a goblin when i draw

question: i've played a few!!! i got a decent ways into baba is you and was having a lot of fun with that. i played through the majority of potion permit (not quite a farming sim but you might like it!!) and that was really cute but i thought they couldve used better romancable options. i replayed what became of edith finch which always makes me insane (major trigger warnings). and right now i'm replaying spiritfarer because i haven't replayed since it came out and it's soooooo good and meaningful and just wrecks me but is also so so sweet and calming

DND campaigns: in lensa (where i'm a player) we're about to go into the feywild and im soooooo excited. i play bo who is a ranger and he has gone so ham preparing and i know we're simply gonna get our shit wrecked so so hard anyway. hollis our dm is so good at playing npcs and i cant wait to meet a bunch of trickys faeries. we're so fucking doomed but im so excited.

in lost township (where i dm) we're starting to get more into pantheon lore and also some messy npc relationships and im so excited. i've really Thrown Their Asses In A Situation and everyone is freaking out and im having such an evil good time

[silentmoths]

💫🌈🌻🎀?

💫what is your favorite kind of comment/feedback? I am quite partial to ye olde keyboard smash tbh.

🌈is there a fic that you worked *really fucking hard on* that no one would ever know? maybe a scene/theme you struggled with? yes actually! the binding dance scene from Hiding in the blue, since the main character is a dragon, I wanted a way to convey the meaning of being bound to another, essentially dragon marraige, but becuase this fic was character x Zhongli x Childe, it needed to be able to involve a human too.

this scene stumped me for so long I went crawling to the wonderful @ainescribe for ideas and she was supremely helpful and in the end I was so happy with how the scene turned out.

🌻what makes you want to give up on writing? what makes you keep going?

Sometimes I feel like throwing in the towel when I just cant get thr brain juices flowing ig. It's part of the reason I closed requests and pretty much the entire reason I orphaned On high. I'm not usually a 'make a plan' type of bitch, 99% of my works are 'it popped into my head im writing it' so when the well runs dry...I tend to end up in a pretty bad rut.

honestly I think i woulda really dropped off of writing by now if it hadnt been for the super cool and amazing friends I've made since I started posting, like legit i feel like I've developed more meaningful friendships in my 1.5 years in the writing community than I ever did in the 10+ years I've been in the drawing community. over there things always seem so cuthroat, everyone is out to make commission and be better. Here? hm...to me the writing community feels like we're all just...making things that make us happy, and those things make other people happy, and thats honestly all I ever want to do.

🎀give yourself a compliment about your own writing (holly how could you, my one kryptonite: compliments)

I write good fluff i guess.

[transylvanilla]

Oh god.. Where do I begin? Their google doc was upsetting to read for so many reasons. I've never heard of this person in my life but I do want to share some of my thoughts on all of this. Its 4 am and I cant sleep so sorry if this isnt going to make sense, I'm pretty tired. I should also say I didnt read the entire thing because once I got to "Holly's Callout" I was feeling a bit overwhelmed decided to pick up from where I left off later.

I wouldn't wish what Ang has gone through upon my greatest enemy. Nobody deserves what has happened to them. Imo this is one of those situations where when someone thinks someone else is totally vile and morally bankrupt, any harm done unto them is justified, and thats just not true. People forget (either deliberately or subconciously) that the person they are targeting is a human being, and when someone like Ang is in such a vunerable position nothing justifies destroying their only means of survival. People die without a support system. I can't say I've never wished harm upon a person who I think is cruel but death is so fucking final, its not fair, its not the only way these people could've handled the situation.

Both Ang and the people who hurt them used a lot of fallacies that either didn't make sense to me or didn't justify why they did/said/felt what they did and etc. It would take me too long to write all of the annotations I was making in my head, but tldr it was very clear to me (and tbh it doesnt even have to be said) that jera, taylor, holly, etc have problems. Their behavior was so consistently weird and inappropriate and their reasoning would convenientely change or become contradictory, not to mention how obsessed they all were. I have bpd so I honestly *understand* why they did what they did, but ofc I dont *agree* with it. Bpd = emotions are felt more intensely than non-bpd ppl, which leads to really intense reactions like taylor's and jera's and etc. Idolizing is also a common bpd thing, and lovebombing + "splitting" (rapid, extreme change in how a person or situation is perceived). I see people without bpd diagnoses behave this way to varying degrees of intensity, so im not saying all of them have bpd btw. Im just saying they shouldn't have done what they did, they had no good reason to, and therefore they need help.

Ang isn't without vice either, and it bothers me a lot that Ang never (unless I accidentally overlooked) owned up to their many many mistakes. Most of which were just poor judgement imo, but also I really can't agree that the art they made doesn't, by nature, hurt any identifiable victim. Kids will always be harmed by porn drawn of underage muses/pairings/sources. There's no debate. There's no reason to create media like that even if its just intended for an 18+ audience. Not even to cope with trauma, in any deeply personal way. There's better ways to cope. Fiction will and always has influenced the real world. No child will ever be safe in a world where its normal to see a kid/adult pairing in nsfw art, cartoon or otherwise.

This doesn't mean Ang should die. I don't think Ang intends to harm kids with their art, but *it really should've been obvious that thats exactly what they were doing/enabling* and thats unfortunately exactly what makes Ang a dangerous person. People should be allowed to block them on ALL of their accounts, and people should be allowed to warn other anti-proshippers of proshipper accs, but thats IT. Everything else that happened went too far.

What I hope for them (and I know if Ang somehow sees this they will compare my attitude to an "anti-gay fundamentalist Christian's 'I wish I could save you'" attitude) is that they'll realize their art is unacceptable and grow. They will have to show everyone they've grown in order to recieve the life-saving support they need. They have to ask themselves, "Whats more important; drawing shotacon or surviving and potentionally rebuilding my reputation?"

They've tried "rebuilding" their reputation by deleting and remaking accs without actually fixing what led to the majority of their notoriety in the first place, which is their status as a known proshipper. They desperately need to re-evaluate their own priorities because thats honestly going to be the quickest solution, vs asking the aggressive stalkers to *not only* chill out but to set aside their desire to see a another proshipper executed, convinced its justice.

However I think their social isolation isn't 100% their ex-friends fault because people also just very passionately hate proshippers/the type of content Ang creates. Backlash is to be expected when you create content like theirs. Their ex-friends don't deserve all the credit. Ang unfortunately associated themself with some terrible people but from the way I see it, the art Ang continued to make was the catalyst. Ang's art fed fuel to the flames. Maybe 55-75% of this drama could've been avoided if Ang made the smartest choice which was to take any opportunity to do real damage control which would've had to include simply not drawing that type of art anymore.

Theres definitely a lot more I could say but I need to sleep.

Alright, I'm gonna be louder about it now because the situation is dire. Ang/Vee (@/Atherist on Twitter) is in a terrible position, and they will die if nothing improves. They're in full survival mode, and that's not enough anymore. They NEED help. They need more money than I will ever have at once.

I don't know if they would want me giving details since they have locked their Twitter where they've posted about it, and I don't have enough of a reach to make any difference, so I'm going to look for people that do.

This is their Kofi. (https://ko-fi.com/handsomehugs)

They also have a subscription service (SubscribeStar seems to be preferred due to PayPal's... thing) where you can even unlock some content for your money.

https://subscribestar.adult/atherist

https://www.fanbox.cc/@atherist

But again, we need a wave of money, tens of thousands, just so they might live.

If anyone wonders why I would fixate on this one person even though lots of other people are struggling too, I'll be transparent and say, because it's not fair.

Everything that's happening to them is the long-term result of vicious abuse that ruined their career. It was intentional.

Horrible, vindictive, monstrous people DID THIS TO THEM. They did it out of spite, because they could, because they wanted a scapegoat for their own shitty friend drama, whatever. They lied and slandered them and stalked them and caused them IMMENSE trauma, and that. is not. FAIR.

If Ang dies, it will be THOSE people's faults. I don't care how long ago it was. They intended to, and succeeded in, taking away all the income and support they had, and PEOPLE NEED THOSE THINGS TO LIVE.

I will consider them murderers if Ang dies. And this outcome isn't fair.

Buhh buhh "life isn't fair", I know.

But I'm just doing what I can. It's all I can do. There's someone in front of me being killed and I can't just sit there and wait for it. Even if I fail to make a difference.

So I bring this attempt to paint a picture of WHY I care. Why I'm doing this.

I hate injustice. It tears me to shreds more than anything else on this earth. And if I can help, I WILL. I want to.

If Ang sees this: I promise I won't put myself in any financial trouble over this. I have a partner who wouldn't let that happen, and my bills are always paid. But I'm going to do everything I CAN. Because I want to. Because it's right. It's not a burden. You deserve better.

[apocrypals]

Weird question maybe but how do you both like Christmas so much?

I am ex-evangelical in the way that probably lots of your listeners are and now that I don’t have the like church-y part of Christmas I just kind of feel bad about it :/ and you guys have such a genuine love for Christmas it seems like !! So if you have any advice about liking Christmas and not getting bogged down in bad theology feelings i would appreciate !! Or if that’s too big of an ask thanks for the show anyways and I hope you’re listening to Darlene love !!

A number of years ago, Chris did a podcast episode with our mutual friend Elle Collins about the joys of secular Christmas, but it doesn't seem to exist on internet anymore, alas.

But without even diving deeply into the semiotics of the thing, I feel there's much to like about Christmas at an absolutely surface level with minimal religious trappings: lights, decorations, music, food, candy, hot drinks, getting together with friends and family, parties, that kind of stuff. For a lot of people, that kind of thing is enough to enjoy Christmas even if they don't have a religious attachment.

However, if you need something more, the things I like to think about when it comes to Christmas are that it's a celebration at the darkest time of the year, when much of nature sleeps or dies, and in a way, we're forced to confront our own mortality. BUT, Christmas (and other winter holidays; this isn't a Christmas exclusive) reminds us that life and death is a cycle: today is dark, but tomorrow is a little brighter. If you're no longer into the idea of an incarnate deity born that man no more may die, consider the holly, the evergreen. If they can tough out the winter, so can we. "Hope," saith the holly.

And we foster that hope with lights and songs and games and music and good food and good will and forgiveness toward the other people around us. Consider these verses from a favorite song of mine:

All hail to the days that merit more praise Than all the rest of the year And welcome the nights that double delights As well for the poor as the peer Good fortune attend each merry man's friend That doth but the best that he may Forgetting old wrongs with carols and songs To drive the cold winter away 'Tis ill for a mind to anger inclined To think of small injuries now If wrath be to seek, do not lend her your cheek Nor let her inhabit thy brow Cross out of thy books malevolent looks Both beauty and youth's decay And wholly consort with mirth and sport To drive the cold winter away

In that podcast I was talking about at the top, Chris talked about how he loves the very idea of Santa Claus, because he represents humankind at their most selfless. Not just in the idea that there's a powerful figure whose whole deal is giving other people things, but that Christmas morning is likely to be the happiest a kid will feel all year, and parents are willing to give someone else credit for it. It almost staggers the mind, tbh.

On top of that, for me personally, one of the major draws of the Christmas season is the wealth of folklore that comes along with it, but your mileage may vary on that.

Anyway, of course, all this winter stuff only applies if you're in the Northern Hemisphere; sorry if you're in Australia or something, I don't have any metaphors for you.

[picklesthenonbeanary]

As I said yesterday I’m gonna do an art dump today! It’s definitely not all I have drawn while I’ve been gone but it’s a good portion of it. Some of it is just practice and all of it is fan art

btw non of these characters are mine! (exept one but that was a gift and besides the point)

The first one is of a character that was created by a friend of mine, his name is jorban and he is just a lil guy. I like to draw him in different hats. There’s also my jorbsona (me as a jorb) and some eye practice drawings (definitely not fanart of a character… totally (cough cough Paris from the dummy’s dummy cough cough I used to practice drawing his eyes sometimes, did it a lot more in previous years(they are very good for paracticing ok, a fun shape with lots of character to them))) then there’s Holly fanart cuz obviously im just a lil freak like that and then the bill fanart. Oh the bill fanart… he’s like the only thing I draw in English class so no one can blame me for this! Might need to start drawing my object head oc again at this rate, even out what I draw in that class a bit. The last one is just some eye practice drawings I did trying to replicate cutlers eyes, I think I nailed the worried look tbh. anyway, imagine reading my ramble, would be crazy. could post some of my other art i did of cutler (was doing gymnastic studies) but i think i want to turn on into a digital peice so that might be a bit if i even remember to lol

i have the need to draw atleast one peice of fanart of every one of my more favorite comics (its a desently long list tho so idk, i've got time(probably))

edit: sorry for the bad lighting, took the bill pictures during/after gym so there wasn't any good lighting avaliable. they are still disiferable tho i hope

[tottymatsuno]

One of these days i wanna actually draw out this whole scene instead of sketching it but dhahsbi talked aboit this w hollie and think their dynamic is rly interesting to watch esp as Touhi ages.

Read more if u dare

So as a preface, these are characters i made for two aus that just kinda became the same au. One of it was a fic I wrote called baby blues, and the other was the "old au" that i previously shared with another person.

The old au was about second chance love when you're an older person/after hitting rock bottom. And it involved a younger design of todomatsu from an episode in s3. Since i couldnt ship with that totty, i decided to recycle his design as my son! However since this was a second chance love story, thematically Todomatsu needed to be a single father of the character, and thus thats how Goonie was created!

So his mother passed away during childbirth, and since irl I'm baby crazy, and was a coworker/unofficial work wife (bc i look eerily similar to his home wife), we end up sleeping w each other a few months after the baby is born for mutually pathetic reasons. Then kinda move in together bc Todomatsu's grieving and very very resentful towards his son to the point where he cant even give the baby a proper name at first. So initially his name is Matsuno Matsumatsu 😭

Anyways thats the big crux of the au. Ive written about Totty's dynamic with Goonie (a nickname i chose for silly reasons i dont care abojt getting into, but its a personal one) where there isn't any grief and its wildly different where theyre mutually loving and cute together as parent and child, which is unfortunately a not relationship theyll ever have jn this au.

When touhi is little hes very sweet and kind and innocent except when hes angry, bc when hes angry he vents all of his frustration about the emotional neglect Todomatsu has specifically for him. And it takes Todomatsu a LONG time to fully get over the loss of his late wife. Like two whole sets of twins later. So totty is kinda openly blaming him the entire relationship

Which makes me spoil him a lot in comparison, which touhi also notices and it makes him even more mad because I'm not as strict with him as everyone else, out of pity so he feels like he's not *really* my son bc of it.

This all comes to a head multiple times when touhis a teenager but i think its more realistic that each time it happens, even if his emotions are validated and accepted, and even if we try to do right by him, that Touhi never receives any closure for it. Eventually he feels even more complex because we do love him, and have apologized to him, but it doesnt really help bc what he wants is to be able to further justify his own poor behavior but can't bc he doesn't have the excuse of "well my parents dont love me and never said sorry"

When we do.

Anyways i always thought touhi would be the only one to inherit tottys delayed puberty, but unlike Todomatsu who began HRT after graduating high school, touhi was considered pretty popular with his age group and suffered no real set backs, and waited until he went thru puberty naturally in his mid 20s.

His relationship mellows out significantly post puberty and post angsty teenage years, esp when Todomatsu transitions. He gets this weird sort of idea that since Todomatsu’s no longer his father, he could be the better version of her since he has the same face.

So he and Chichi, who like. Still thinks he's cool despite him being a fuckboy (Tima sorta hates his guts for it tho bc she basically sees it as if hes using his generally happy upbringing as an excuse to be a slut and play around with his peers feelings for literally no reason and tbh shes right for it but i cant judge bc hes my son and i support him right or wrong) are like. Both trying to be cooler than Todomatsu.

So Todomi or whichever name i settled on kinda just side eyes them, and this rly breaks both of their confidence in the matter since Touhi later realizes his mullet really was stupid and Chichi wears those big ass dorky glasses and they both actually really respected and was influenced by Totty's style when she was all dressed up.

Anyways Touhi grows up kinds being in between being a silly cutie, and actually succeeding with the whole heart-breaker thing Todomatsu tried to do around his age.

I get the feeling tho he's not gonna ever claim any kids he does happen to have in the future, and cant see him getting married, but he'd definitely be a fun uncle.

You all must click my uncropped and quickly done sketches of my children to understand her headache. Here they are thru out the years.

[givehimthemedicine]

Okokok i need to ask—why Will as #020? You mentioned that there were mentions of 20 this past season—what were these?

I love Barb (or Mike! Or Nancy! Or Holly!) as potentially being #019. I will always headcanon as having a soteria in his neck, until season 5 directly confirms or contradicts this that is, because I think it makes sense & fits with the lab theme—he was taken to the doctor for ~reasons~, and found by the lab either during that trip or prior (ie ur post ab joyce & his drawings from when he was 8). Brenner proposed making Will a number, & when he was denied approval to proceed, they followed the procedure for all denied projects: insert soteria, & continue monitoring.

I love the soteria because of will & him touching his neck, but I can’t help but wonder—do you think all potential children were assigned numbers, to be “renewed” or “activated” if & when they were brought in on the project? This is for the mike wheeler is 19 gate—I headcanon the entire wheeler family as being sensitive, and if we have will exposed because of joyce showing off his drawings we could have MIKE going to the lab back when it was still a hospital because of his “strangeness” (im just thinking of the way mike seemed to be able to see/sense el in season 2 when she visited him, based on what he told will on halloween, & the way nancy was able to hear barb scream, & the way holly followed the lights to will’s room—do you think it will or the demogorgon that led her, btw???) (& what about the byers being sensitive??? Im v v attached to their entire family being sensitive to differing degrees, but now i’m getting attached to the mike-being-sensitive idea idk)

Maybe… if will does have soteria, the reason will keeps touching his neck & mike doesn’t is because henry damaged the soteria inside will? Either when he got will in season one & brought him to the library, or when will was possessed in season 2 (i think season one). But mike’s is still perfectly intact so his powers are much more repressed?? Then again, this is only if we’re trying to make mike-as-019 work—if mike’s just got low level sensitivity like terry ives pre-mkultra, that might work better. Like, the wheeler siblings being sensitive & having potential, but not enough to get them targeted like Will (or Barb). (I think Joyce & Jonathan would probs be more sensitive than the Wheeler siblings too tbh—the way Joyce made the christmas lights in her house turn on as she walked through the upsidedown version of her house hallway in season one, the way she could sense jonathan and jonathan could sense her in that scene, jonathan saying “mom.” Its so different from the way the lights in the wheeler’s house react to the fruity four—they have to actually TRY to manipulate, as opposed to the lights just responding the way they do for joyce and vecna (the way max and lucas & erica walk around with their flashlights off). And we see this with Will too—the way the lights react to Will while he’s in the upsidedown Do Not match how they reacted to the fruity four, so something must be different between the two!!! Ugh idk what are you thoughts?

Sorry for the lengthy ask! I’m really enjoying reading your theories on the subject/your blog in general so far!!!! Hope you have a lovely day!

please don't apologize, this is interesting stuff! and thank you so much! the whole Wheeler family being sensitive is a very interesting concept and I'm totally listening!

I mainly thought of 020 for Will because we know Will is going to be a major player in the final season, not just regarding his personal life but he'll definitely be involved in taking down Henry. and there was that DnD game where they rolled 11 which wasn't high enough and then rolled the 20 that won the game. as in, Eleven won't be able to take Henry down on her own and whoever 20 represents (probably Will) will have to strike a final blow.

there's definitely something going on with Will's neck, but I think it must have to be a more like, symbolic/mental thing because I can't believe Will could have a foreign object under his skin like Henry's and not noticed. unless it's some newer and smaller technology. I want to know what soteria IS, and how Brenner made it. my guess is something with magnets. we have way too many magnet references.

my current thinking about the Holly in Will's room scene is leaning towards the demogorgon having led her there, and maybe ditto for the similar Joyce scene. actually this ties into an analysis I'm working on, so I'll be sure and add in a section or individual post addressing this.

and I think I'll make a post about your potential kids being activated into the program thing. I'm not sure whether I'll actually have an answer to your question but I do have some Thoughts and I need to review some footage. I'll tag you in both!

[kraviolis]

this is me prompting u to talk abt hlv/rai fandom problems (mostly for a second opinion on some things i been seein tbh)

man y’all really want to hear me go off kjdsgsdfj

im putting this under the cut cus im not sure i want people actually spreading this around, its legit just all my own opinions and i dont expect anyone else to feel the same way

the main thing is that people dont use their brains and think everything is either bad or good and that theres no such thing as nuance. they change their opinions entirely based on what tumblr post they see circling around that day OR they hold onto their original opinion and refuse to think abt it any more than that. you gotta figure out the middle ground here, folks.

relating to the above, ppl forget to listen to other marginalized voices and opinions on shit like transphobia, racism and antisemitism because they dont realize that these groups arent a hivemind or share the same opinions on this stuff. seriously, please GOD actually search and ask for other opinions from specific oppressed groups because believe it or not, sometimes people from these groups can be completely wrong about these topics. (crazy, i know!)

another thing is ppl love to harass the crew. they Love it. its their favorite thing to say/do weird things to the crew just to make them uncomfortable. im not just talking about sending asks to holly about shipping her with her friends, or making creepy sexual comments at scorpy, y’all know that shit is bad already. but you also need to stop harassing them about your ships or kinning or AUs completely unprompted.

also stop harassing them about shit they’ve already said they dont care about, and honestly more importantly: stop harassing other people about shit the crew has said they dont care about! dont care =/= horrible and bad, it just means they dont have an opinion on it either way, they just dont wanna see it. its fine to care about things the people you look up to dont care abt.

other than that, im tired of ppl making benrey out to be a sexual harasser. im tired of ppl making gordon out to be irrational and angry 24/7. im tired of ppl thinking they have the right to demand someone’s entire life story to figure out if theyre oppressed enough or not.

im tired of ppl disrespecting their fellow content creators day in and day out (looks very specifically at y2k) and ppl trying to tell others that a HARMLESS thing they enjoy is horrible and bad when it is, in fact, harmless but they just dont like it.

you can not like things without trying to put yourself on a moral high horse for it. its fine to not like things for no reasons or just petty reasons or just because you’re a person with different tastes than other ppl? on the flip side, other people having negative opinions on things you care deeply about is not a personal insult or a reason to make them out to be a bad person.

anyways theres no moral of the story for this rant im just peeved about a lot of stuff and also think people should stop drawing tommy looking like he’s pushing 20 instead of pushing 40 and start drawing more of alyx with a sucklet

[flecks-of-stardust]

[image description: two pictures of a set of drawings of hornet. in the first, there are two sketches of hornet’s head, facing the left. the horn length on the right head is lightly marked under it. around them is the text ‘canon’ and ‘so long...’ below the two heads is a full body sketch of hornet, also facing the right. she is walking towards the left, her cloak drifting up at the back, and her right foot is raised slightly above the floor. her upper pair of arms are crossed around her torso, while her lower set hangs down. she is holding her needle in her right hand, which is not visible in the drawing. her torso is sketched underneath her cloak, including a small tail protruding from the bottom of her torso. an arrow pointing to the tail marks it as ‘for silk?’ around hornet’s head is another horn length marker, as well as the text ‘style?’ next to her legs is the text ‘no space oops.’

in the second picture, hornet is standing at about 45 degrees left from the front, with her legs bent. her torso is not visible under her cloak, which is also drifting up toward the back. her needle is held in her lower right hand, and an arrow pointing to it comments that she ‘holds needle in lower arms.’ another arrow points to the fuzz on the back of her calf, marking it as ‘fluff.’ the very tip of a tail pokes out slightly from under her cloak, and a thin line of silk runs from it and to the right of the picture.

end id]

more! i feel like im starting to get a handle on how to draw hornet? which is very cool tbh. her cloak makes perspective a little weird though sdjfgkjsa

i really need to figure out to draw clothing though. i drew these while referencing her sprite sheets, so if i were to draw from memory i wouldnt know how to draw her cloak lmao

im? playing with the idea that she has a small... tail is not the correct word, but i dont remember what the right one is, but the Thing the mantis lords have extending from their torsos. the abdomen, if you will, but hornet has very humanized anatomy here, so im not sure that word works. regardless, that would be where she spins her silk from, since i cant really think of a different way for her to obtain her own silk short of magic.

also this is making me think about how her cloak works. im opting to believe that she actually clasps it together somewhere, instead of it just looking like a weird drawstring bag with the bottom cut out like her canon sprites do lmao. i find it impractical for her to slip her cloak on over her head, since her horns are. a little big. theyre Even bigger in her canon sprites, which was utterly wild to find out. like hot damn ma’am your horns are Gigantic compared to your actual face

this is also really driving home the point of how big holly is, if you look at this helpful reference quikyu drew. dear god

[mcleaha]

hello lovelies ! i’m bøffy , i’m 20 years old , prefer she/her pronouns , and currently reside in the pst timezone ! uhh . . . i am posting this intro at nearly 5 AM my time , and i would be almost willing to bet it’s littered with errors and it’s . . . probably a bit all – over – the – place since this is very much a new muse ! however , with that being said , if you give this a like , i will definitely contact you via tumblr ims or d!scord ( 𝓲𝓷𝓱𝓪𝓵𝓪 / 𝓮𝔁𝓱𝓪𝓵𝓪#1384 ) to plot !

[  jasmine brown  . 21  .  cis female .  she/her  ] just saw MALEAH AMICK dragging their suitcase up the steps to CABIN 1B  .  good luck living with HER  ,  i hear that that they’re INDECISIVE  ,  FORGETFUL ,  SOCIABLE  & CREATIVE  .  Apparently they’re the ATTACKING MIDFIELDER .  let’s hope the upcoming season doesn’t affect their JUNIOR year of ART EDUCATION .

STATS:

name: maleah amick .

nickname(s): leah .

age: twenty one .

gender identity: cis female .

pronouns: she/her .

sexual orientation: bisexual / biromantic .

birthday: 26 february 1999 .

zodiac sign: pisces .

myer-briggs: esfj .

pinterest: coming soon !

HISTORY:

               born on the 26th of february 1999 in orlando , florida , maleah was the youngest of the three amick siblings . her mother worked as a prestigious board – certified pediatric surgeon at a local children’s hospital , and her father worked as a high school mathematics teacher and volunteered as the school’s unpaid soccer coach , a move that saved the program from ending due to budget cuts ( he claims he was roped into the position as a first – year teacher with no seniority , but while he’s reluctant to admit it , he eventually grew a passion for the sport he had previously known little about ) .

               with her mother’s long shifts and emergency work – related calls , she ultimately became closer to her father and two older brothers while growing up . most knew her father as a man who towered over them at 6’7” , ordering his team to run laps or practice drills ; however , maleah knew him as the man who would crawl around the living room floor playing barbies with her or would prepare fruit and herbal teas as she twirled around dressed as a princess , declaring it time for a royal tea party . just as easily , she could be found exploring the great outdoors or playing whatever sport was currently in season alongside her brothers .

               she practically followed in her brothers’ footsteps . as they approached high school , each brother chose one sport to specialize in , hoping to secure a position on a college team and eventually on a professional team . maleah did not have professional athletic goals , but although she had immaculate grades with limited effort put towards academics , she knew extra – curricular activities were important for college applications . thus , when it was maleah’s turn to choose which sport to pursue , rather than having to weigh the pros and cons and make her own decision ( or perhaps , fearing that she would make the wrong decision ) , she simply chose the sport that her brothers had previously chosen : soccer .

               her high school coach knew the perfect position for maleah . years of informal practice with her brothers in the backyard had enhanced her skills . she had learned how to evade skilled high school defenses by pretending as if she was heading in one direction before bolting in the other .  soccer was one of the few areas in life in which she possessed enough knowledge to make quick and effective decisions ; she could read the field and immediately determine the best course of action : dribble , pass , or shoot . ultimately , she possessed the vision and the creativity necessary to secure playmaking and goal-scoring opportunities for her team .

               with a line of college scholarships , both academic and athletic , waiting for the attacking midfielder’s choice ( unfortunately , none from either of the schools her brothers played for ) , the time came for maleah to make a decision . as deadlines for summer practices , class registration , and tuition payments crept closer , she finally determined a means of deciding . she numbered her offer letters , 1 through 13 , and allowed a random number generator to make the decision for her . thus , mere chance ( or perhaps fate ) led maleah to hollis university .

               her first semester at hollis was . . . rough , to put it lightly . while most freshman shed a few tears as they watched their parents’ car drive off into the distance , homesickness lingered in maleah’s life . coasting through high school with limited effort had done her zero favors ; with no effective study skills , her grades dropped dramatically . between soccer and trying to salvage her grade point average , a social life was virtually out of question . ultimately , she found herself on academic probation , unable to play soccer , for her second semester of freshman year at hollis .

               luckily , she was able to develop effective study habits , and even discovered along the way that maybe pre – med was not the best major for her . when asked what she wanted to do , maleah gave an entire list of generic answers – “i want to help people” and “i want to make a difference” came up quite often , but nothing specific enough to point her in the right direction . thus , she changed her major almost every semester , desperately seeking for the right fit . in the meantime , though it took several letters petitioning her temporary removal from the team , she was able to resume playing soccer during her sophomore year .

               as junior year approached , maleah was almost certain that she was back in her coach’s good graces – no longer viewed with a sense of skepticism . she had proven herself capable , finding her name on the dean’s list nearly every semester and assisting her team in numerous wins throughout the soccer season . however , with hollis’ soccer teams’ restructuring , maleah can’t help but question if her coach views her as a valued athlete or a liability .

PERSONALITY:

               two words : social butterfly . almost to a fault . even if someone has expressed quite literally zero interest in talking to her / getting to know her , she will still make an attempt . kind of a . . . people – pleaser , in a sense , she just wants to be well – liked ?

               avoids ! conflict ! at ! all ! costs ! generally just . . . tries to avoid people or situations that upset her . not very prone to like . . . yelling or crying , but those close to her can definitely sense a change in her demeanor when she’s upset ? just . . . a lot more tense , probably lots of eye – rolling and just . . . subtle , quiet signs that she is over whatever the problem is .

               kinda . . . chill , mellow , easygoing ? she very much lives in the moment , and tries not to stress too much about the future . always down for a drink , a party , whatever – genuinely just around for some fun and some friends !!!

               the kind of person who genuinely gets excited over like those fun facts and jokes that are on popsicle sticks and whatnot – absolutely must share the information with everyone within earshot . honestly , those jokes are very . . . on point with her own personal sense of humor jflakdsj .

HEADCANONS:

               she suffers from a terrible case of youngest child syndrome . ultimately , without guidance , she’s terribly irresponsible . she’s always having to run extra laps because she sets her alarm too late to make it to morning practices on time . she’s always receiving overdraft fees for spending more money than is available in her checking account . forgets everything – from homework assignments to names to grabbing her keys before locking the door on her way out . just . . . imagine a child asking for an adult’s help and her looking around until she comes to the realization that “ oh , shit , i am an adult ” .

               she’s practically always doodling – in the corners of notebooks , on napkins while eating lunch , on her clothing , on her own skin . she loves making art , particularly drawing or painting portraits or nature . ( ultimately , she only decided to incorporate this into her choice of major after hollis threatened to not allow any further changes to her major ) .

               she has a . . . unique sense of style . she has a passion for thrifting and upcycling . practically lives in hoodies and t – shirts that she has purchased from secondhand stores and cropped herself . always adding cool iron-on patches to her clothing . she should be listed as your emergency contact if you’re prone to ripping your clothing because she can definitely fix it .

               she probably thinks she’s good at trash-talking on the field , but she actually sounds like a second grader ( and that’s being kind ) . if you looked at her browser history , there’s probably at least one record of her actually googling “ best soccer trash talk ” .

CONNECTIONS:

friends !! friends she’s met through courses throughout her adventures of attempting every major possible , mayhaps soccer friendships that continue off the field , mayhaps that complicated emerging new friendship state for some who are new to hollis ! unlikely friends ! best friends !!! quite literally those unbreakable ride – or – die friendships !

muses !! i feel like every artist needs that little dose of inspiration , even if it’s simply the inspiration of a work – in – progress portrait throughout the duration of camp ! complaints of “ stop moving ! ” and her stopping every ten minutes to ask what they think and probably at some point , her flinging a brush dripping of paint in their direction (if things didn’t end in an all – out paint fight djlfakds ) .

enemies !! honestly i’m sure there is ?? so much ?? potential for this , bt . . . mayhaps someone’s just . . . fed up w her irresponsibility ? thinks she doesn’t take her soccer position seriously ? maybe someone doesn’t think she takes anything seriously ( they wouldn’t be . . . wrong tbh ) . maybe someone from cali takes that “ california vs florida ” feud a little too seriously jflskdja . idk there’s always bound to be personality clashes !

exes !! relationships that ended badly , so she actively tries to avoid them and who even knows what happens when she’s forced to acknowledge their existence at some point at this camp !!! maybe relationships that ended on mutual terms so they’re still p chill with each other ?? maybe ended relationships that never quite got closure so there’s still unresolved feelings !!

hook-ups !! they are . . . college students . they are . . . college students stuck at a camp all summer . idk i feel like this one is pretty self – explanatory jflakds .

honestly i am tired & want to sleep , bt genuinely i am up for & open to anything ! good influences , bad influences , unrequited crushes , requited crushes , idk the world is y(our) oyster !! these are . . . rlly just some ideas to get the whole process started bc i am actually terrible at . . . thinking of plot ideas on the spot . always open to jst . . . doing a thread and seeing how things naturally flow too !