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Makoto Kagutsuchi Ideas
AAARGH. I finished watching Rain Code like a few days ago, and I'm still not over Makoto Kagutsuchi. He was like this absolute silly boy and then chapter 5 was like OMG. And then he became my top 1. Then, I went to fanfics, and then started writing a bit of my own although it's just ideas stage. I absolutely do not want to go deeper by publishing the stuff but I need an outlet and hope that you find the stuff so you can comment or whatever. If you want me to expand on some ideas, I will be happy to and hope you tell me your own thoughts because brainrot ain't going away and I want someone to talk to about this absolute madman. Peace Is An Illusion: Title comes from ideas when Makoto kept getting visited by the Peacekeepers. Honestly, I want to explore that especially with Yomi because the power balance and dynamic is just too interesting. I'm also curious about how Makoto got the Peacekeepers to turn on Yomi at Chapter 4 and while I have an idea, I haven't written far enough yet. Here's the first snippet for fun.
Makoto valued privacy but he really couldn't do anything when a certain group of people loved to break it. The only consolation he felt was that Yomi Hellsmile walked in on Makoto Katsuguchi exploding the kitchen.
"What the fuck?!" Makoto had heard Yomi shouted when he turned around from the smoking oven and holding out a blackened tray to see unexpected visitors in the form of the Director and backup.
"Oh hello Yomi," Makoto took in stride of such an unexpected and frankly unwelcome drop in, "I was just trying to bake cookies for myself. Since you are here, would you like to try some?"
He could see Yomi looking at the disaster of a kitchen and then the surprisingly normal looking cookies that resulted from it. Makoto could sense the apprehension and the hard refusal on his lips that would come up if Makoto had not continued, almost shoving the tray their way.
"Please don't be shy. What kind of host would I be if I at least didn't offer something to my guests. Before we start something, why not indulge on this hospitality?" Makoto asked.
It was easy to see Yomi warring between just upending the tray while calling it bullshit and just taking the damn cookie because this hospitality could also equate to slight servitude to Yomi, with Makoto serving him something. Petty, Makoto knew, but Yomi always liked being superior and if it meant indulging pettiness, why not?
In the end, just as Makoto hoped and expected, Yomi aggressively took a cookie, bit into it and then with an odd look on his face while looking around, he went to the kitchen sink and puked his guts out.
That would be disgusting to clean up but in Makoto's own childish pettiness that he wanted to indulge when he was born without experiencing it ever, it was totally worth it. -Totally funny too, not gonna lie but that's all I have for now. I want him to meet Seth, Martina, Guillaume and other Peacekeepers just barging in and explore everything with Yomi, about fear, survival and power balances, you know?
My Other Half and How I'm Never Made Whole: This one is more on the nose. I LOVE the dynamic between Yuma and Makoto. Original and clone dynamics send me and I just want to explore what could be love (platonically of course), hate, friendship, family, loneliness. EVERYTHING. I'm not sure how I want to go with this one but I have a nice snippet.
Thanks to the Peacekeepers, Makoto could never really trust his own subordinates despite his love for the city. Technology was far more reliable and less likely to betray, that even at the top of the tower he would have a far better worldview of this city than the Peacekeepers ever would.
It was how he was able to keep tabs on the Nocturnal Detective Agency and their skirmishes against the Peacekeepers. It was thanks to gut feeling and deductions after the latest defeat against the Peacekeepers wrought from the Director's beloved right hand that he had found himself idling around the submarine they call agency.
He was unsurprised when the submarine blew up, unable to stop the destruction even when he was able to. He would not ruin the delicate balance that he had with the Peacekeepers, not yet considering Yomi's unpredictability and volatileness. He had only managed to minimize damage, that will undoubtedly infuriate Yomi against Martina considering it was far out of his scope of ruthlessness.
Whatever happens with the Peacekeepers will stay with the Peacekeepers for now, when he had bigger fish to fry... pun not intended considering the blown up submarine on the river. As a homunculus to Number One of the WDO, he had more faith that Master Detectives with amazing Fortes would undoubtedly come out of this unscathed considering the training they undergone.
He was far more concerned with Yuma, his original. Wiped off all memories, making a pact with a death god that he can be sure of considering his own, albeit outdated, memories and knowledge about the WDO and the mysterious death of the culprits so far with the one main factor being Yuma himself.
The original had lost way more memories than the clone had thought, regressing from WDO training and cases that had built him up to this day. Possessing more naivete and less survival skills than the day Makoto was born, the chances of his survival was at a lower rate that Makoto couldn't have. No matter how he felt about the original, every detective was useful to him in this current state of affairs. No matter what Number One had planned against his clone, he needed to ensure his survival.
The Book of Death was interesting, and only outsiders could topple the structure that Yomi was hellbent on keeping. Number One on the scene would surely ensure success, despite the utter lack of memories when considering Makoto's own success.
-I also have another snippet really separate, mostly to explain why we met Makoto taking a bath of all things: While waiting for Number One, or him going by Yuma Kokohead these days, to wake up, Makoto ended up going to the bath, cleaning himself up from the impromptu dive so that his original didn't end up swimming with the fishes.
My Love For This City and How They Love Me: I love Makoto, don't get me wrong. But do I seriously believe that Kanai Ward simply accepted the fact they were homunculus and just straight up voted Makoto as their leader. Nah, there definitely had to be some dispute because Dohya District and their hate on Amaterasu although it was more on the Peacekeepers, and even at the epilogue, I think there is some dissent but I also believe that Makoto had done enough to earn the belief that made him their leader too. I love him, but I want explanations, you know? So it's completely plausible a lot has happened in the month-ish between chapter 5 and that epilogue. I have a snippet right here, about the time that Makoto was voted in as the leader, and he invited Kurumi up there, as an informant and citizen just to have an understanding why.
"Why would the people put me back in the CEO position? Why would you want me as your leader?" Makoto asked Kurumi, immediately after the results came out. He had invited her in his pent house, having tea and simply checking up on her after the incident in the restricted area.
Despite Makoto's high position as Amaterasu Cooperation, the company was never really a government to this city in the first place, having ushered a tyrannical era upon them thanks to the Peacekeeper's hands in the beginning. Only workers and a fair few people had an inkling of an idea who the CEO is and the rest had only been shocked, such as Yakou Furio and Kurumi Wendy, when the CEO of the big bad company had turned out to be a masked weirdo.
[I kinda want to put a lot of dialogue here but don't know how so it's a bit of a skip after a heavy conversation, yeah?]
Kurumi smiled, as if everything made sense but Makoto found it damning, somehow shouldering the fact that he had to continue this position, always in authority and decision until the rest of his kin could take him no more, was the atonement expected of his crime. A more lucrative one in comparison to simply giving himself over the UG.
Makoto might say he love Kanai ward and the homunculi might say they put their belief on him, but the words were superficial, with deeper meaning all too twisted underneath it.
After all, Makoto's love was not unconditional, considering how he would protect only the innocent but had no problem slaughtering criminals and getting rid of useful pawns for the greater good in extremely black and white thinking to preserve the city.
And Kanai Ward's belief in Makoto was not for the person he was but for the experience and resources he had garnered as the perfect homunculus and CEO. For the blackmail against the UG for the better life that they had all desired the moment their lives turned upside down with isolation that he thought was for their own good and got turned around now with the newfound knowledge and the idealism that they could only improve from here. For his wits and genius that could be taken advantage for a better livelihood.
It didn't hurt that unlike Yomi, Makoto was more affable of a person despite his workers having a taste of his eccentricities.
Makoto was far from stupid, knowing that his position was never out of love and belief, something that can easily be taken away if he ever turn the wrong path or was no longer useful to them. It was his atonement, to make himself useful in lieu of his crimes that had garnered some sympathy because they all knew he did this for the survival of his own kind but were still unforgivable for the utter lack of humanity even if it was to accommodate for the differences their kind simply had.
The city wanted to live instead of survive. It wanted to flourish instead of stagnate. Now that they know, they believed that they could turn things around. They had rallied and used Makoto as their banner. This time around, even in his position, he was not the only one holding the reins, with people who knew of their plight trying to use their own resources and knowledge that Makoto did not possess on top of Makoto's own.
'Let's see where this idealism takes us,' Makoto thought, unsure that it would even lead to a perfect solution because they still had the UG themselves to contend against but with the city in the know and on his side...
Maybe the original actually made sense with this proposal despite Makoto's own doubts.
Little did he know, he was being observed by Kurumi who had a soft smile on her face when she saw Makoto deep in thought, his eyes always to the state of the city and that softening in his posture and eyes just at the sight of the city.
Makoto was by all means not perfect but considering their entire situation, the burdens he had carried for their survival was endearing and touching. Even through their shock, they had an inkling about how much Makoto had cared about them, about their kind.
Makoto would not know about this now, but although it was not smooth sailing, everyone came to an unanimous decision of Makoto's leadership, for one reason alone.
The obvious love for their city, and despite everything, that had been enough for everyone to give this a go. He might not believe that yet, but at least for now, the citizens do.
-I get it might be more complicated than that, but as Makoto said, homunculus had a right to live despite their defectiveness and even if they had commit monstrosities that they still have to wrap their head around, they never asked to be made. And yet, they still want to survive. Survival has always been a base instinct until it's not, no matter the cost. I think that's why Makoto had lived as the perfect homunculus and why Kanai Ward is still standing by the epilogue. There might be times where we want to end things, but more often than not, we still continue out of opportunities, possibilities, dreams etc. At least that's my take and I might be wrong, but simple idealism, I guess.
Can Never Be Seen, Can Never Take Off The Mask: I don't have snippets but I kinda want to explore how Makoto lived with the UG, how he realized he was a homunculus and that he was simply a doppelganger out of an original. How he started wearing masks because he didn't want to be anything like his original, down to the appearance etc. Something like that. What do you think?
Can Never Save All, And Thus Opposition Is Born: I think that the Resistance should be known more, and how they would feel about the CEO, who in their eyes, might be incompetent for letting the Peacekeepers have their way. How his sudden rise was suspicious. Or something. Makoto might love the city, but even with the power imbalances and the rise of Peacekeepers that Makoto had simply been too late to stop or could have never in the first place, that love did not reach deep enough to help the slums become a better place. I get that nothing is perfect, and Makoto might have his hands full as one person, only sticking to basic survival and preservation but it does make the love a little shallow. I don't discount what Makoto has done but I don't want to ignore stuff like this either. It's something that could be explored.
I See A Reflection But It Is Not Me: I AM SICK FOR MAKOTO AND YUMA DYNAMIC. I am utterly attempted to make a Gab version or Danganronpa Friendship reports, whatever, just to have those two interact more. Even if it would be borderline AU. Just let me do it T_T
No titles yet, and in the maybe but a part of me wanted to explore Fink the Artist, Yakou Furio, Makoto and Yomi. That whole debacle, because what do you mean Makoto introduced a hitman to Yakou??? OK, I know that Yomi had instigated, and Yakou went through with it despite the obvious trap? But Makoto fanning the flames??? I love Makoto, but I won't justify him I promise. He had done a lot of evil shit and he's still my favorite. Ugh... it feels like Kokichi Ouma all over again, but Yakou Furio was still not innocent in all of this. Even instigated or the flames are fanned, he could have turned back and find a better way than killing Dr. Huesca out of his wife's memory. Well, the whole thing was a total mess and it hurts. Chapter 4 still kills us all, and everyone is equally innocent and guilty in all this except for Yomi who can go to hell for this. Point is, I kinda want to imagine a scene with Yakou, Makoto and the hitman. Everyone's thoughts on the matter and despite everything, Makoto loves the innocent of the city the most and at that point, Yakou was. Even when he wanted to fan the flames, a part of me wondered whether there was a crack of doubt to make Yakou turn back from all this, an 'Are you sure?' and Yakou still doing it anyway. I mean, that man is insane because I could not believe going through mental trauma of getting poisoned, electrocuted (even if not in that timeline) and then just stabbed all in order for vengeance, in memory of his wife. That's just dedication. My take in all of it but Chapter 4 and the feels, yeah? If only one person had just stopped to think, except for Yomi coz he would 100% go through with it the bastard.
Well, that's it and I hope you leave comments coz I need someone to scream about Makoto with me. PLEASE. I'm still not over him.
#makoto kagutsuchi#mdarc#mdarc spoilers#drabbles#peacekeepers#detectives#brainrot#need an outlet#so sick over him#need to let go#help me
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I need help again
okokok you guys dont normally interact with these posts but I need help. I have too much creative motivation and nothing to do with it. I require a really big project to work on or tons of little ones. Any help?
#help#creative outlet#outlet#creativity#art#art help#help me#help needed#request#requests#send asks#maybe#idk#guys help#need an outlet
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HAPPY HALLOWEEN here's some seasonal guys! 🎃
#art#twisted wonderland#stage in playful land#stage in playfulland#i got excited when they announced both gargoyle malleus(!!!) and more main story(!!!!!!) for november and i needed an outlet okay#(i will stop spamming posts eventually i promise)#and i'm still trying to master print and cut stickers so i figured i should actually like...do a Design#don't worry i'm not going to try and sell shit here i just want stickers of my boys. for me.#to put on all my things >:)#gonna stick 'em on a one dollah cumby's slushie just to be annoyingly self-referential
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sun fnaf except i had the worst morning EVER so i drew these low quality doodles to cope
#havent drawn him in foreeeever and this is what i do#drawing him like this is fun though#i love low quality sun#but anyway yeah#i have to put up with SO much bullshit#and its neverending bullshit too#like just more shit i need to deal with keeps popping up#this is my outlet#my art#sun fnaf#fnaf sun#dca fandom#security breach#sundrop#sundrop fnaf#sun security breach#the daycare attendant
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More work doodles of the Daycare Attedants (mainly Moon)
#turtle draws#fnaf moon#fnaf sun#fnaf daycare attendant#Im the type to draw my feelings out#the stress from the past two weeks needed to be drawn out hence Moon being my outlet#I feel better now before I think about my upcoming birthday
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Some sketches of Ellie taking care of Alec 🤭
#broadchurch#ellie miller#alec hardy#david tennant#olivia colman#my art#I've been reading SO MUCH hurt/comfort of these two I need some kind of outlet I'm going insane
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#btsedit#btsgif#dailybts#dailybangtan#markstrongs#userkelli#userdimple#raplineuser#annietrack#hobi#hoseok#bts#my gifs#sorryyy for so much posting i have a lot of hobi gifs to repurpose and post because ppl were mean to me on twt :’)#i just need a creative outlet for me to post hobi so i can cry over him!!
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Bouta make the most self indulgent vent fic ever ong
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Brennan made Eugenia Shadow purely to make up for a lack of Arthur Augefort in this season
#fantasy high#dimension 20#fantasy high junior year#d20#riz gukgak#brennan lee mulligan#eugenia shadow#fhjy#the insanity of both#brennan just need an outlet for built up crazy energy#arthur aguefort
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Gay little clown man, I love you so much
#dc joker#joker#batman rogues#batjokes#i haven't been on tumblr for a decade and I'm kinda scared to start interacting again#but i need outlets for my hyperfixation on batjokes so here we go
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Croissant wanted to stop by their mother's place on the way back to Waterdeep. It'd been a while.
🥐 Croissant Adventures Masterpost 🥐
#something nice for you on this tuesday - a week after .......you know#(((if anyone needs an outlet to vent my DMs are open and I will do my best to listen and reassure)))#Back to the comic at hand -#I think Croissant was abysmal at communicating with their parents during the events of BG3...and after#and also has no sense of what that actually means for their parents when they'd drop this information on them out of nowhere#whoops!#croissant adventures#bg3 croissant#avarelle#gale#gale dekarios#breadweave#comics
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I know we can't stop what's coming, but I will try. Oh, how I'll try.
Will you fight with me, brother? One last time, one last fight?
#god how i’ve been struggling creatively this last while#i need electric shock therapy or something#i’m gonna go lick an outlet. see how that goes for me#anakin skywalker#obi wan kenobi#star wars#obi-wan kenobi#revenge of the sith#star wars fanart#sw fanart#scout.png
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seeing anime-onlys get on board with kabru/laios is obviously funny because they haven't interacted yet in the show. at least not when kabru has been alive lol. & so folks r just going off of out of context manga panels floating around. but what is far more funny is how hard kabru/mithrun is going to hit them out of left field
#i know the obsession lies herein needing to find a ship outlet for peoples freak obsession with laois. and i so get it.#but yall have not even had mithrun introduced to this dynamic yet. genuinely cant wait#also laois & mithruns insane dynamic. where kabru loves to Think about murder mithrun has had his hands around laios' throat at LEAST twice#anyway i saw so much more of mithrun kabru before the anime. i am glad that people love laois so much too though#anyway i love talking about character dynamics please do not take this actually seriously#dunmeshi#dungeon meshi#dungeon meshi spoilers#kinda...#mithrun#kabru of utaya#laois touden#labru#kabumisu#text
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do you guys think anyone remembers to put flowers on airplane’s grave…
#⚙️#who up thinking about how airplane’s family treated him again#i imagine that sy’s family never forgets the anniversary of his death. especially because one of them likely found him(probably his sister)#but how long did it take for people to find airplane’s body?#his parents stopped checking in and asking if he needed money. they wouldn’t have found him. his only friends were online too#i can imagine him laying there on the ground by the outlet until the smell of his rotting flesh disturbed the neighbors…#im sorry if that was a bit too vivid. its airplane angst hours again.#no but seriously imagine the difference between sy and sqh’s funerals.#sy’s grave is maintained constantly and his sister visits him v frequently. but airplane’s grave is so quiet.#theres some withered flowers there and his grave looks very dirty.#under his name it says ‘beloved son’ but its only there for show.#the regulars at the cemetery never knew him personally but they feel angry at the world on his behalf.#svsss#scumbag self saving system#scumbag system#shang qinghua#airplane shooting towards the sky#svsss sqh#sqh
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"I can still feel the weight of her"
A speedpaint video of this will be available at my Patreon on may 1st!
#Broadchurch#alec hardy#david tennant#I love Alec Hardy so much 😭#he is so miserable I just want him to be happy#been reading so much hurt/comfort fic I need an outlet so moody art be upon ye#my art
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