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National Eating Disorder Awareness Week - Diabulimia

CW // Disordered eating

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Diabulimia- Diabulimia is the informal term for an eating disorder specific to type 1 diabetics in which someone with the disorder intentionally restricts their insulin in order to lose weight. Although not listed as an official diagnosis in the DSM-V, it is an incredibly prevalent and dangerous eating disorder.

Type 1 Diabetes- Type 1 diabetes (T1D) is an autoimmune disorder of the pancreas. Typically, the pancreas secretes insulin, a hormone that takes glucose from the blood and moves it into cells in order to be used as energy. However, in T1D, the body attacks itself and destroys the cells that secrete insulin. Without insulin, glucose from food sits around in the blood and builds up– causing a condition called hyperglycemia.¹ There’s currently no cure for T1D, so patients with the condition need to take insulin as injections or delivered through an insulin pump. T1D is irreversible, and life long, so patients need to take insulin for the rest of their lives.¹ T1D and type 2 diabetes (T2D) are not the same. In T2D, the pancreas still has insulin secreting cells; however, the body can’t properly use the insulin due to a high level of insulin resistance.² Because of the differences between T1D and T2D, diabulimia can only occur in those with T1D.

Insulin Restriction- In the absence of insulin, glucose can’t enter cells and instead stays in the bloodstream. Eventually, the body attempts to flush out excess glucose through urine– leading to severe dehydration. Since cells can’t get energy from glucose in this scenario, they instead try to get it from other sources– the body’s muscles and fat stores begin to be broken down for energy. This state is biologically the same as starvation as calories from food in the form of glucose are leaving the body before being used. The loss of calories and breakdown of fat and muscle, coupled with the loss of water weight from dehydration, lead to rapid weight loss.³ In diabulimia, insulin is restricted intentionally with the goal to lose weight.

DKA- In the short term, diabulimia leads to frequent urination and severe dehydration, immense fatigue and nausea and vomiting.³ If left untreated, these high blood sugars will eventually lead to a condition called Diabetic Ketoacidosis (DKA). DKA occurs when fat is broken down in the body. The breakdown of fat releases acidic compounds called ketones. Eventually, with enough build up of ketones, the blood itself becomes acidic and may eventually lead to coma or death.⁴ DKA must be treated in a hospital setting; and as such, is often the way that diabulimics are first treated for their eating disorders.

Health Consequences- Consistently high blood sugars will eventually lead to severe diabetic complications such as neuropathy (nerve damage), retinopathy (damage to the retinas in the eyes) or kidney disease.³ While long term health effects like eye damage and kidney disease are already common complications for those with T1D, diabulimia significantly increases the risk for these complications. A Japanese study found that insulin restriction was the most significant factor in developing retinopathy and kidney disease; meaning that these complications were more strongly correlated with insulin restriction than other factors such as how long someone had been diagnosed with T1D.⁵

Prevalence and Risk- When compared to girls without T1D, those in the same age range that were diagnosed with T1D were around 2.4 times more likely to have an eating disorder ⁶ One study that surveyed 112 teens with T1D found that around 27% restricted insulin dosages ⁷ An 11-year study found that those with T1D who restricted insulin had a risk of death 3.2 times higher than diabetics who did not ⁸

Why I'm Making This- Accessing treatment for diabulimia is incredibly difficult. When I first began to look for inpatient eating disorder treatment, I was turned down from every residential and inpatient facility in my state. The only reason I got into a residential that time was because my mom is a very determined and very convincing woman (she threatened to sue them). And that isn’t even accounting for the lack of diabulimia specific treatment. My last time in treatment, the hospital I was at recommended I enter inpatient; however, there ended up being only a few inpatient centers with diabulimia experience in my country-- the closest one rejected me because they couldn’t find an endocrinologist to oversee my diabetes care. This lack of treatment is especially dangerous with how severe the health consequences of diabulimia are. In fact, since beginning work on this infographic, I found out I may have kidney damage. Yes, as a result of diabulimia. I also have permanent eye damage, neuropathy, and I’m finally (3 months after leaving the hospital) recovering from the short term health consequences of my disorder. And even I am luckier than a lot of other diabulimics. With a disease so prevalent, and so, so dangerous, you’d think there would be enough support in treating it. But there isn’t. Largely I think, because most people simply don’t know that it exists. My only hope with making this infographic is that we can change that.

Sources:

1- “What is Type 1 Diabetes?” Centers for Disease Control and Prevention. Accessed January 31, 2024. https://www.cdc.gov/diabetes/basics/what-is-type-1-diabetes.html.

2- “Type 2 Diabetes.” Centers for Disease Control and Prevention. Accessed January 31, 2024. https://www.cdc.gov/diabetes/basics/type2.html.

3- “Diabulimia.” Cleveland Clinic. Accessed January 31, 2024. https://my.clevelandclinic.org/health/diseases/22658-diabulimia.

4- “Diabetic Ketoacidosis.” Mayo Clinic. Accessed February 11, 2024. https://www.mayoclinic.org/diseases-conditions/diabetic-ketoacidosis/symptoms-causes/syc-20371551

5- Takii, Masato, et. al.. “The Duration of Severe Insulin Omission Is the Factor Most Closely Associated with the Microvascular Complications of Type 1 Diabetic Females with Clinical Eating Disorders.” International Journal of Eating Disorders 41, no. 3 (April 2008): 259–64. doi:10.1002/eat.20498.

6- Jones, Jennifer M. “Eating Disorders in Adolescent Females with and without Type 1 Diabetes: Cross Sectional Study.” BMJ: British Medical Journal (International Edition) 320, no. 7249 (June 10, 2000): 1563. doi:10.1136/bmj.320.7249.1563.

7- Markowitz JT, et. al.. “Brief Screening Tool for Disordered Eating in Diabetes: Internal Consistency and External Validity in a Contemporary Sample of Pediatric Patients with Type 1 Diabetes.” Diabetes Care 33, no. 3 (March 2010): 495–500. doi:10.2337/dc09-1890.

8- Goebel-Fabbri, Ann E., et. al.. “Insulin Restriction and Associated Morbidity and Mortality in Women with Type 1 Diabetes.” Diabetes Care 31, no. 3 (March 2008): 415–19. doi:10.2337/dc07-2026.

[obsidians-nightmare]

RIP my beautiful friend. I miss you so bad already 🖤 You fought so hard and helped me do the same. I can’t believe you’re gone already. Wilk, you will never be forgotten. ❤️‍🔥

[miserable-homo-momo]

Help @aysil-nedal save her family from death

Abed al-Rahman Mohisn and his wife, Neda, live in Gaza with a small family, including two small children aged 5 and 3. Abed lost his job due to the ongoing conflict and difficult circumstances, which was their only source of income for meeting the family basic needs and unable to provide enough food, water, and healthcare for the family.

Their home was severely damaged by the bombing, and it has been displaced multiple times forced to leave their home. Their children desperately need milk and a safe environment where they can feel secure

Abed family needs our help to buy more blankets and winter clothes to save their children freezing from the current weather in Gaza.

The family is currently at :

$1,788 Raised of $50,000

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[call-me-copycat]

Going to start posting panels of MHA SMASH! on here, here's where the masterlist will be!

It's going to be very rough right now, still working out how I want to organize this (as you can see from my pinned post, I really like to organize)

Now, I'm not going to do this in order one by one - I'm going to share random panels I like then add their novel, chapter and page and link it here

So it's going to be a bunch of empty and filled links (⁠；⁠^⁠ω⁠^⁠）

I just like to have an area where I know where everything is

There's also an issue with SMASH having some... Interesting content. That will be put under a "Read More" and will be tagged "Suggestive". Wish it didn't but I guess Neda's just like that :⁠-⁠\ He did get a warning from Horikoshi though so that counts for something

(probably not going to share those chapters very much/at all unless someone's curious and asks for them)

Also pages/chapters with such content will be marked only here to make it clear

❗ = Watch (ex; Mineta saying something)

‼️ = Warning (Ex; Mineta doing something)

🔖 = Favorite of mine :⁠-⁠)

Welcome to MHA SMASH! This is the rarely heard of, only non-canon MHA spinoff! It's a comedy series, and has gotten a warning (or two) from Horikoshi himself! I hope you enjoy it!

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Novel 1

Ch.1

[pg.5] / [pg.6] / [pg.7] / [pg.8] / [pg.9] / [pg.10] / [pg.11]

Ch.2

[pg.12] / [pg.13] / [pg.14] / [pg.15] / [pg.16]

Ch.3

[pg.17] / [pg.18] / [pg.19] / [pg.20] / [pg.21]

[Extra]

Ch.4

[pg.23] / [pg.24] / [pg.25] / [pg.26] / [pg.27]

Ch.5

[pg.28] / [pg.29] / [pg.30] / [pg.31] / [pg.32]

Ch.6

[pg.33] / [pg.34] / [pg.35] / [pg.36] / [pg.37]

Ch.7

[pg.39] / [pg.40] / [pg.41] / [pg.42] / [pg.43]

Ch.8

[pg.44] / [pg.45] / [pg.46] / [pg.47] / [pg.48] / [pg.49]

Ch.9

[pg.50] / [pg.51] / [pg.52] / [pg.53] / [pg.54] / [pg.55]

Ch.10

[pg.57] / [pg.58] / [pg.59] / [pg.60] / [pg.61]

Ch.11

[pg.62] / [pg.63] / [pg.64] / [pg.65] / [pg.66]

Ch.12

[pg.67] / [pg.68] / [pg.69] / [pg.70] / [pg.71]

Ch.13

[pg.73] / [pg.74] / [pg.75] / [pg.76] / [pg.77]

Ch.14

[pg.78] / [pg.79] / [pg.80] / [pg.81] / [pg.82] 🔖

Ch.15

[pg.83] / [pg.84] / [pg.85] / [pg.86] / [pg.87] / [pg.88]

Ch.16

[pg.90] / [pg.91] / [pg.92] / [pg.93] / [pg.94]

Ch.17

[pg.95] / [pg.96] / [pg.97] / [pg.98] / [pg.99]

Ch.18

[pg.100] / [pg.101] / [pg.102] / [pg.103] / [pg.104]

Ch.19

[pg.105] / [pg.106] / [pg.107] / [pg.108] / [pg.109]

Ch.20

[pg.110] / [pg.111] / [pg.112] / [pg.113]

[End]

Novel 2

Ch.21

[pg.7] / [pg.8] / [pg.9] / [pg.10] / [pg.11] / [pg.12]

Ch.22

[pg.13] / [pg.14] / [pg.15] / [pg.16] / [pg.17]

Ch.23

[pg.18] / [pg.19] / [pg.20] / [pg.21] / [pg.22]

Ch.24

[pg.24] / [pg.25] / [pg.26] / [pg.27] / [pg.28]

Ch.25

[pg.29] / [pg.30] / [pg.31] / [pg.32] / [pg.33] / [pg.34]

Ch.26

[pg.35] / [pg.36] / [pg.37] / [pg.38] / [pg.39] / [pg.40]

[Extra]

Ch.27

[pg.42] / [pg.43] / [pg.44] / [pg.45] / [pg.46] / [pg.47]

Ch.28

[pg.48] / [pg.49] / [pg.50] / [pg.51] / [pg.52]

Ch.29

[pg.53] / [pg.54] / [pg.55] / [pg.56] / [pg.57]

Ch.30

[pg.59] / [pg.60] / [pg.61] / [pg.62] / [pg.63]

Ch.31

[pg.64] / [pg.65] / [pg.66] / [pg.67] / [pg.68]

Ch.32

[pg.69] / [pg.70] / [pg.71] / [pg.72] / [pg.73] / [pg.74]

Ch.33

[pg.76] / [pg.77] / [pg.78] / [pg.79] / [pg.80]

Ch.34

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Ch.35

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Ch.36

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Ch.37

[pg.97] / [pg.98] / [pg.99] / [pg.100] / [pg.101]

Novel 3

Ch.38

[pg.7] / [pg.8] / [pg.9] / [pg.10] / [pg.11]

Ch.39

[pg.13] / [pg.14] / [pg.15] / [pg.16] / [pg.17] / [pg.18]

Ch.40

[pg.19] / [pg.20] / [pg.21] / [pg.22] / [pg.23]

Ch.41

[pg.24] / [pg.25] / [pg.26] / [pg.27] / [pg.28]

Ch.42

[pg.29] / [pg.30] / [pg.31] / [pg.32] / [pg.33]

Ch.43

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Ch.44

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Ch.45

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Ch.46

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Ch.47

[pg.55] / [pg.56] / [pg.57] / [pg.58] / [pg.59]

Ch.48

[pg.61] / [pg.62] / [pg.63] / [pg.64] / [pg.65]

Ch.49

[pg.66] / [pg.67] / [pg.68] / [pg.69] / [pg.70]

Ch.50

[pg.71] / [pg.72] / [pg.73] / [pg.74] / [pg.75] / [pg.76]

Ch.51

[pg.78] / [pg.79] / [pg.80] / [pg.81] / [pg.82]

Ch.52

[pg.83] / [pg.84] / [pg.85] / [pg.86] / [pg.87]

Ch.53

[pg.89] / [pg.90] / [pg.91] / [pg.92] / [pg.93] / [pg.94]

Ch.54

[pg.95] / [pg.96] / [pg.98] / [pg.99]

Ch.55

[pg.100] / [pg.101] / [pg.102] / [pg.103] / [pg.104]

Ch.56

[pg.105] / [pg.106] / [pg.107] / [pg.108] / [pg.109]

Ch.57

[pg.110] / [pg.111] / [pg.112] / [pg.113] / [pg.114]

[End]

Novel 4

Ch.58

[pg.7] / [pg.8] / [pg.9] / [pg.10] / [pg.11]

Ch.59

[pg.12] / [pg.13] / [pg.14] / [pg.15] / [pg.16]

Ch.60

[pg.17] / [pg.18] / [pg.19] / [pg.20] / [pg.21]

Ch.61

[pg.22] / [pg.23] / [pg.24] / [pg.25] / [pg.26] / [pg.27]

Ch.62

[pg.29] / [pg.30] / [pg.31] / [pg.32] / [pg.33]

Ch.63

[pg.34] / [pg.35] / [pg.36] / [pg.37] / [pg.38]

Ch.64

[pg.39] / [pg.40] / [pg.41] / [pg.42] / [pg.43]

Ch.65

[pg.44] / [pg.45] / [pg.46] / [pg.47] / [pg.48] / [pg.49]

Ch.66

[pg.51] / [pg.52] / [pg.53] / [pg.54] / [pg.55] / [pg.56]

Ch.67 🔖

[pg.57] / [pg.58] / [pg.59] / [pg.60] / [pg.61]

Ch.68

[pg.62] / [pg.63] / [pg.64] / [pg.65] / [pg.66]

Ch.69

[pg.67] / [pg.68] / [pg.69] / [pg.70] / [pg.71] / [pg.72]

Ch.70

[pg.74] / [pg.75] / [pg.76] / [pg.77] / [pg.78]

Ch.71

[pg.79] / [pg.80] / [pg.81] / [pg.82] / [pg.83]

Ch.72

[pg.84] / [pg.85] / [pg.86] / [pg.87] / [pg.88]

Ch.73

[pg.89] / [pg.90] / [pg.91] / [pg.92] / [pg.93]

Ch.74

[pg.95] / [pg.96] / [pg.97] / [pg.98] / [pg.99]

Ch.75

[pg.100] / [pg.101] / [pg.102] / [pg.103] / [pg.104] / [pg.105]

Ch.76

[pg.106] / [pg.107] / [pg.108] / [pg.109] / [pg.110]

Novel 5

Ch.77

[pg.7] / [pg.8] / [pg.9] / [pg.10] / [pg.11]

Ch.78

[pg.12] / [pg.13] / [pg.14] / [pg.15] / [pg.16]

Ch.79

[pg.17] / [pg.18] / [pg.19] / [pg.20] / [pg.21]

Ch.80

[pg.22] / [pg.23] / [pg.24] / [pg.25] / [pg.26]

Ch.81

[pg.28] / [pg.29] / [pg.30] / [pg.31] / [pg.32]

Ch.82

[pg.33] / [pg.34] / [pg.35] / [pg.36] / [pg.37]

Ch.83

[pg.38] / [pg.39] / [pg.40] / [pg.41] / [pg.42]

Ch.84 🔖

[pg.43] / [pg.44] / [pg.45] / [pg.46] / [pg.47]

Ch.85

[pg.49] / [pg.50] / [pg.51] / [pg.52] / [pg.53]

Ch.86

[pg.54] / [pg.55] / [pg.56] / [pg.57] / [pg.58]

Ch.87

[pg.59] / [pg.60] / [pg.61] / [pg.62] / [pg.63]

Ch.88

[pg.64] / [pg.65] / [pg.66] / [pg.67] / [pg.68]

Ch.89 🔖

[pg.70] / [pg.71] / [pg.72] / [pg.73] / [pg.74]

Ch.90 🔖

[pg.75] / [pg.76] / [pg.77] / [pg.78] / [pg.79] / [pg.80]

Ch.91

[pg.81] / [pg.82] / [pg.83] / [pg.84] / [pg.85]

Ch.92

[pg.87] / [pg.88] / [pg.89] / [pg.90] / [pg.91]

Ch.93

[pg.92] / [pg.93] / [pg.94] / [pg.95] / [pg.96]

Ch.94

[pg.97] / [pg.98] / [pg.99] / [pg.100] / [pg.101] / [pg.102] / [pg.103]

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[my-autism-adhd-blog]

Hello.

I'm not sure if this is related to autism at all, but I wanted to ask in case you had any advice or resources to offer. I struggle with having a really limited diet / being super picky. Especially when I'm in a crisis I seem to only have a couple foods I can eat. I take supplements but I still feel quite sick and not eating enough in a day has a bad effect on my mental health as well.

I don't intentionally skip meals but I feel entirely unable to eat anything that isn't the 2-3 foods I can handle at the moment. I feel like I'd rather skip the meal than force myself into eating something I feel almost ''afraid'' of.

The foods I can eat aren't really nutritious ( protein is something I find myself lacking in my diet, as well as fiber ), and can be a little bit pricey. I feel like I should be able to just ''get over'' my pickiness but i can't.

Hi there,

It sounds like you’re dealing with AFRID (avoidant food restrictive intake disorder). I have this too, and it makes trying/eating new foods very difficult and uncomfortable, especially foods that have changed. (Like a company starts/changes to using a certain ingredient instead of the original one). I found some sources about ARFID if you’re interested. One article states:

Avoidant/restrictive food intake disorder (ARFID) is a condition that causes you to limit the amount and type of food you eat. It isn’t the result of a distorted self-image or an attempt to lose body weight, which is common among other eating disorders.

ARFID can cause you to:

• Lose interest in eating.

• Feel anxious about the consequences of eating, like choking on food or vomiting.

• Avoid foods that have an unwanted color, taste, texture or smell.

Here are some more articles if you’re interested:

I hope this helps answer your question. Thank you for the inbox. I hope you have a wonderful day/night. ♥️

[headmateelevator]

Can we have a narrator from the Stanley parable? (please tell me I typed parable correctly)

hold the door!! someone's coming in!

name(s) - Narrator , Nigel , Andersen , Booker , Charles , Clyde , David , Davina , Demophon , Devan , Edgar , Eliot , Emily , Enitan , Enrest , Fyodor , Gabriel , George , Hans , Homer , James , Jane , Jim , Joanne , Kaleo , Kartar , Kateb , Kathleen , Keith , Khaliq , King , Leo , Malachi , Margaret , Mark , Masal , Morgan , Nathara , Neda , Peter , Poe , Prabhakara , Ptah , Quintessa , Raqim , Rawiya , Sarjena , Scott , Seda , Stephen , Tariku , Teagan , Virginia , Vladimir , William , Xenophon , Öykü ,

pronouns - he / him / it / they / Blo / Block / Choi / Choice / Decision / En / End / Path / Prompt / Rewind / Repeat / Time / Page / Read / Create / Write / narrate / note / book / paper / pen / quill / story / write / ▶️ / ✏️ / 🎙️ / 🎞️ / 🎤 / 👁️ / 💬 / 📃 / 📖 / 📜 / 📝 / 🔊 / 🖊️/ 🖋️ / 🪟 /

gender(s) - demiboy , Coffeecandique , Estoirecyrean , Journalistgender , Loregender , Novelajoyic , Spreadsheetic , Virusnarratoric , Writacademic , Writegender , Writergender , Narravior , 📜emojic , Nerdygenius , Comfygenius , Novismalia, Literaturembodiment , Loslibroic , Literaturicesse , Royalliteraturic , Poetic System , Aetherine , Aurethesia , Panfingender.

orientations - aroflux , demiromantic , achillean , queer.

role(s) - co-host , academic , assidumate.

species - umm narrator.

source(s) - The Narrator , The Stanley Parable.

emoji(s) - ▶️ , 🎙️ , 📖 , 🖋️.

likes - writing , speaking to people , reading stories , drinking coffee or tea , sweaters , cats , pens , feeling "in control." , getting things done.

dislikes - having wet hands or sleeves , the feeling of cardboard , being interrupted , boredom , cheap television , bright lights , procrastination , feeling tired.

front triggers - source , any work that needs to be done , interesting topics , books or reading.

typing quirk - types in regular speech with proper punctuation , maybe capitalizes each word , ex: "The quick brown fox jumps over the lazy dog." , "The Quick Brown Fox Jumps Over The Lazy Dog."

faceclaims -

( 1 - 2 - 3 )

[d34dpulse]

Official BakuDeku content because the brain rot is rotting

This is 4 silly funsies btw so if u don't ship bakudeku plz don't jump me :(

Official Ship Art

One of Horikoshi's assistants Noguchi (@/nstime23) posts A LOT of bakudeku art on their twt which, since she publicly works on the manga and Horikoshi follows her account, he definitely knows she makes this.

In BNHA Smash, an official spin-off of BNHA that's approved by Horikoshi and made by another one of his assistants, Hirofumi Neda, there's a running joke that Deku is a yandere who stalks Katsuki and is obsessed with him "noticing him", even blushing when Katsuki praises him.

To promote the new movie, Horikoshi drew Katsuki dressed as Godzilla and Izuku dressed as Mothra. In the Godzilla series, Godzilla and Mothra are a couple and are referred to as the king and queen of monsters.

Katsuki calls himself Kacchan before killing himself for him... Speaks for itself.

When Tomura kills Katsuki, he specifically said that he did it because of Izuku's "sheer fury" when he nearly killed him, funny since Tomura not only hurt but killed other people Izuku was close to.

In a set of official licensed poker cards for the series. Izuku represents the Ace of Hearts, Katsuki represents the Ace of Diamonds and together, they represent the King of Hearts.

Medieval AU

In the outro song for the second season of the anime (Datte Atashi no Hero), the songwriter Risa Oribe said that the lyrics are Izuku’s true feelings for Katsuki and with lyrics like “If you're facing a monumental effort, one that comes once in a lifetime, I want to be there to see it” and “No matter how many fools there are in this world, I'll always be by your foolish side” it sorta speaks for itself lol.

Also, in the cover page of Chapter 214, it shows that All Mights buster sword from the original fantasy spread has been split in two, and that Katsuki and Izuku are each wielding the two halves.

Steampunk AU

In the mobile game, they celebrated the 3rd anniversary of the game by having a plot with Izuku convincing Katsuki to celebrate their anniversary. Doing this event would give you a bunch of heart balloons and flowers with a number 3 balloon.

For the 2020 Steampunk-themed popularity poll art (the cover of Chapter 293), Izuku and Katsuki seem to be wearing each other's shoes for some reason.

Sakura Season Stuff 🌸

For the first image, there's a superstition in Japan that if you catch three sakura petals while they're falling, your wish for love will come true, but you need to be with your crush at the time for it to work.

For the second image, cherry blossoms generally represent new beginnings which makes perfect sense with these two, because after years of rivalry, they're now friends and deeply care for each other, especially since this came out around the same time as chapter 424, where the war they fought together in is now officially over and they're starting their second year of UA together.

White Day

For anyone like me who has never heard of this, White Day is a holiday in Japan that takes place on the day after Valentine's Day, where you're supposed to give someone you love gifts to repay them for giving you gifts on Valentine's Day. Now, with this context, look at their matching white day cards where one has a bag of cookies and the other has a tray of them.

[todayisafridaynight]

masadai is something so soothing to me i dont even care how crack it is its real to ME i havent even touched y7 i dont know aoki outside of your posts you made it real

my propaganda..... my impact......

ʸᵒᵘ ˢʰᵒᵘˡᵈ ᵖˡᵃʸ ʸ⁷ ᵗʰᵒ ¹¹/¹⁰ ʷᵒᵘˡᵈ ʳᵉᶜᵒᵐᵐᵉⁿᵈ

[wordsfromdiona]

Living in the Philippines 2024 Essay by Words From Diona

What is it like living in a tropical country? Philippines is considered as an Asian country and its islands are surrounded by the Pacific Ocean and West Philippine Sea. Even though some Western countries colonized the Philippines in the past, the Philippines preserves some of its cultures, traditions, and resources. The citizens of the Philippines are called Filipinos. Filipinos are lucky to have various sources of materials which can be used in their lives. Nowadays, Filipinos have been facing difficulties in living. Living in the Philippines is challenging for some reasons.

First, dealing with inflation is difficult. Essentials have high prices, but the wages remain low. People, especially the underprivileged, struggle to buy basic goods. According to a YouTube interview, a school canteen staff in the Philippines earns PHP 375 per day. Additionally, a report from NEDA stated that a Filipino person can survive in PHP 64 for three meals per day. This report has caused online discussions on different social media platforms and most of the Filipino netizens have found the report imaginary and ridiculous.

Second, commuting is exhausting and damaging. An ordinary Filipino, who commutes every day, experiences mental and physical problems. A Filipino employee or student probably wakes up at 3:00 a.m. or 4:00 a.m. from Monday to Friday and struggles to queue for jeepneys, bus, or trains. Some people argue with each other for the sitting spot in any public transportation.

Third, pollution is awful. Some smoke and material waste from illegal factories continue to damage the environment. Moreover, while some Filipinos are not discipline enough to segregate trashes at homes, others throw trashes everywhere, especially in the rivers and canals. These problems make the country unattractive and dirty.

In conclusion, living in a tropical country like the Philippines is challenging for some reasons. This is because there are existing problems such as struggles caused by inflation, commuting, and pollution. Therefore, the challenging life in the Philippines is not a good thing.

[pannaginip]

In its yearend report, the National Economic and Development Authority (NEDA) described the Philippine economy as remarkably resilient. It outpaced the growth of major regional economies despite severe weather-related disruptions and has put us, the economic managers claimed, in a good position to become an upper-middle-income country (UMIC) by 2025.

The problem with these macroeconomic indicators is that they only show the aggregate value of economic production at a particular time but do not measure the extent of social development, much less the state and quality of the population’s well-being. [...]

Contributing to and aggravating poverty and hunger are high prices, which have continued to burden millions of Filipino households under Marcos despite claims that the government has effectively managed inflation last year. [...]

To supposedly bring down the price of rice to P29 per kilo, for instance, Marcos issued Executive Order (EO) 62 in June 2024 that reduced rice tariffs from 35% to an all-time low of 15% until 2028. However, as noted, the retail price of rice remained exorbitant at the expense of consumers. The further liberalization of rice importation drowned the livelihood of local rice farmers who saw the farmgate price of palay (dry) go down from an average of P21.95 per kilo in November 2023 to P20.03 in November 2024.

Liberalization, combined with the monopoly of private rice importers and traders, oppressed poor consumers with artificially bloated retail prices and small farmers with artificially depressed farmgate prices. Agriculture officials expect Philippine rice imports to reach a record high of 4.7 million metric tons (MMT) in 2024, leading to the greater destruction of domestic agriculture.

[...] Amid rapid inflation, the Marcos administration rejected calls for a substantial wage hike and gave paltry adjustments. In Metro Manila, for example, the daily minimum wage was adjusted by P35 last July 2024, which brought the new rates to P645. This amount is equivalent to just 53% of the estimated daily cost of living of P1,205 in the capital region as of November 2024, based on the socioeconomic think tank IBON Foundation’s rough calculation.

The regime’s Build Better More (BBM) infrastructure development program through privatization and foreign debt is designed to give more profit-making opportunities for compradors supportive of the Marcos regime. [...]

[...] The CREATE MORE Act, shaped by inputs from foreign investors through Marcos’s numerous trips abroad, reduced the corporate income tax from 25% to 20%, doubled the deductions on businesses’ power expenses, and almost tripled the period for corporations to enjoy some fiscal incentives, among others. [...]

Additionally, Marcos’s allies in the House of Representatives approved last December a bill extending the land lease for foreign investors to up to 99 years from the current 50 years (renewable once for another 25 years). [...]

2025 Jan. 3

[deckerroosevelt]

Chapter 9, part 3

   We spent the day together just hanging out and talking. We looked through Ambeth’s book (or she did and we listened) and dug up some nasty secrets of celebrities. We hadn’t heard of Decker after he left and Treacher had isolated himself to his room. 

   I went to my room around midnight. It wasn’t optimal for my healing progress but I had lost my perception of time. As I was walking in the hallways I heard a thump below. I slid to the staircase quietly to see what was going on. I saw Decker who looked rough. Like he’d been in a fight and his usually flawless suit had dust all over it. His red glasses had a crack on the other side and he looked oddly annoyed. I had never seen him in that kind of state and there were some new scars on his face. Fresh.

   Another person entered the room. It was Neda who also looked like she had seen some things. Her face and other parts of her doll-body had cracks. Her curly hair was messy and she didn’t have her eyes in place. I wanted to go and hug Neda but I didn’t think she would have appreciated it in that state. They both needed to rest for a while I assumed and went to my room.

   I went to sleep with a good feeling. Neda was safe, Decker was safe, I had a good day and I was healing. Carlton’s case was closed��� 

   Just then I realised I didn’t know what exactly happened. I had forgotten to ask or even think about the situation. Did he die? Why was he in the state he was? Is he still out there?

   My mind brought me back to the moment. The stuffy, thick air and the rotten and mouldy smell. Blood flooding in my ears, pain all over my body, painful cracks of my bones and that thump I heard before all went black. And the victorious fear in Treacher’s eyes. The writing on his skin. How did he follow me and what was the thing with the texts? 

   I thought I would sleep well tonight but I didn’t. My mind kept wandering and asking questions. At one point I had to get up and write them down.

  “Things I need answers to:

How did Treacher remember me outside?

What happened to Carlton and Avery?

How did Carlton become so weak and why?

What happened to Neda?”

[uraandri]

ok here's my top ten songs i listened to this year in no particular order cause i had to approximate this

1. And One - Military Fashion Show

2. Ennio Morricone - Il Vizio di Uccidere

3. Idoli - Moja si

4. Kenji Kawai - Making of Cyborg

5. Lady Gaga - Sexxx Dreams

6. Lei Qiang - The Flickering of the Candle Flame

7. Lepa Brena - Pazi kome zavidiš

8. Neda Ukraden - Oči tvoje govore

9. Trag - Udade se Živka Sirinićka

10. Ondrej Matejka - Slow blades

[whenyoulosesmallmind]

I fratelli Karamazov 1969 [EP1] - Ivan & Smerdjakov + at Katja's, the beginning of the three thousand rubles affair

As a farewell to 2023 and to a happy new year, I bring you... some more Karamazovian dramatics!

part one | part two | part three (you are here!)

Some sparse notes before the translated transcripts start under the cut: 1. usual disclaimer that I'm not a professional, just an amateur, and am doing this out of pure insanity -- if you want to discuss translation related things or have some corrections, my inbox is open and your thoughts are welcomed <3; 2. mild trigger warnings for (time appropriate): strongly implied slut shaming and more vague possibly mysoginistic remarks made by Smerdjakov about Grušen’ka -- i feel like Smerdjakov himself is sometimes made to fit into the evil gay "advisor" stereotype and that might not be everyone's cup of tea -- while I don't think these bits take anything away from the writing and actually contribute to paint a more vivid picture of the society and the time the work is set in, we must keep in mind that this is a 1969 adaptation of a 1860s novel and that there are things about it that might squick some nowdays; 3. I'm actually really sorry that this took me so long to finish, I've had the dialogues written down and a rough sketch of the translation sitting around for months and polishing it turned out to be an harder task that what I thought it would be. There's still some sentences I'm not 100% sure about, but done in this case is better than perfect, and it doesn't matter how much I mourn the formal you in english, I gotta learn to work without it; 4. that said, this time I relied in a couple of scene on a lot more stage directions than last time, I felt that some more prominent acting/staging choices, especially in the Ivan & Smerdjakov bit, were important enough to warrant a description -- Katja and Dmitrij's interaction I feel instead it relies on more subtle choices for its effect, that are harder to describe, especially on Katja's side, so left it more barebones to give the dialogue more space (so you should watch it to get the full effect, wink wink nudge nudge); 5. enjoy the insanity <33

Interpreters: Umberto Orsini as Ivan Karamazov, Antonio Salines as Smerdjakov, Neda Naldi as M. Chochlakova, Maria Grazia Antonini as Lisa Chochlakova, Carla Gravina as Katerina Ivanovna and Corrado Pani as Dmitrij Karamazov.

Original script by Diego Fabbri, directed by Sandro Bolchi.

You can follow watch the drama here on YT or here on RaiPlay -- I suggest the latter, it's free and it's the original source, but youtube's still there if you prefer.

[INT. – AT THE KARAMAZOV’S/IVAN’S ROOM] min. 14:19

(Ivan snaps his fingers from behind a screen – Smerdjakov enters: he’s here to help Ivan get dressed)

Smerdjakov: (with a servile tone – to keep in mind for all his dialogues: he never drops it) I’m not allowed to say certain things, as I’m just a servant who should only thank his master’s benevolence, but if I may risk a word it’s only because I’m devoted to you, Ivan Fëdorovič…

Ivan: (with a harsh tone – emphasis on devoted; he keeps up the commanding/angry tone until stated otherwise) I sincerely don’t understand why you should be devoted to me! – As you put it.

Smerdjakov: I like to hear you talk, Ivan Fëdorovič… when you’re arguing, downstairs, with your father–

Ivan: That’s rare!

Smerdjakov: (cont. – must note: as Smerdjakov is helping Ivan button the back of his waistcoat, they are talking in front of a mirror and the last piece of this line is spoken while they’re both looking at their reflection) Well, those times I… I never miss a word. Sometimes I even hide, I must confess, to not lose the flow of the conversation… and I can say that you don’t converse: you reason.

Ivan: Is the frac ready? – Did you iron the frac?!

Smerdjakov: Ironed, Ivan Fëdorovič: I overlooked the ironing myself because I don’t trust that muddler, Marfa, nor that hick Grigorj.

Ivan: (amused/sardonic – he’s putting on the cuntiest little round glasses) What is it – what would you have told me if you were allowed to speak freely?

Smerdjakov: Well, now maybe… I wouldn’t dare…

Ivan: You’re allowed! And don’t make me beg you…(grabs Smerdjakov by his hair and pulls him close) you’re cunning.

Smerdjakov: But maybe you already know, Ivan Fëdorovič–

Ivan: What should I know? (he releases Smerdjakov)

Smerdjakov: Dmitrij’s new sudden infatuation for Agrafena Aleksandrovna… they’re talking about it, in town, because Agrafena Aleksandrovna – Grušen’ka, you understand? – she has her own history, and those who have their own history are on everyone’s lips.

Ivan: It’ll be my brother Dmitrij’s usual whim.

Smerdjakov: Well… It may be something more. Certainly something different.

Ivan: Dmitrij has a fiancée.

Smerdjakov: The noble miss Katerina Ivanovna.

Ivan: (with a softer tone, almost dreamily, clearly he’s thinking about Katja) …and there is not a girl more fine nor fascinating – (back to the harsh tone; note that after this rise he softens a bit) so?!

Smerdjakov: And who might say the contrary… but this Grušen’ka, as those who know her say, looks like she might have other… other requirements. I’ve told you she has a history and, for a man as intelligent as you are, it’s all said.

Ivan: (laughs) The shoes – get the bone shoe horn, the long one.

Smerdjakov: (kneeling to put the shoes on Ivan, who is sitting on the bed) And then there’s more that’s riling Dmitrij up, there’s almost a challenge.

Ivan: The gossiper that you are…

Smerdjakov: (laughs) If it were gossip, I wouldn’t speak, Ivan Fëdorovič, but I can always stop here, if you prefer.

Ivan: And speak, then, say what you want to say.

Smerdjakov: For… this Grušen’ka has, how can I say it – given his age, fallen in love is a kind term, is it? – the master fell for her, too.

Ivan: What master?

Smerdjakov: (Smerdjakov looks up to Ivan) Ours – (he looks at the shoe he’s putting on Ivan) mine. Fëdor Pavlovič, you father, sir. (laughs) He’s fallen madly in love!

Ivan: (as he kicks Smerdjakov away, sending him sprawling on the ground) You’re a reptile!

Smerdjakov: I swear on everything I believe that this is the truth!

Ivan: And since you don’t believe in anything, you perjure!

Smerdjakov: (as he gets up to his feet) I guarantee you, Ivan Fëdorovič – the master confided in me, and I already had to run some tasks for him at that lady’s… I don’t badmouth: I confide in you, if you allow me, of course… Fëdor Pavlovič, despite his age, is gone for her to the point he even wishes to marry her – (reaching for Ivan) to this, we’ve come!

Ivan: (he gets up, puts distance between him and Smerdjakov again) Do the two know?

Smerdjakov: The two? – you mean, the father and the son? (as he gets Ivan’s frac and helps him wear it) I believe so, and this is, I think, the true reason for the hatred: no more the heritage. And it’s not yet said that the older one won’t have it his way, Dmitrij’s impetus notwithstanding – and I find him a handsome young man, a young man who should be liked, on the contrary: who is liked, undoubtedly; but this time, in this challenge, eh!, who knows? Because it looks like this Grušen’ka lights, how can I say, lights the amorous fantasy in more mature… elderly men; it’s one of her particularities, they say.

Ivan: (angry) Stop it! – (then, distraught) I have no more need for you, I’m ready.

Smerdjakov: The coat is downstairs, in the wardrobe. I’m sorry I upset you, Ivan Fëdorovič.

Ivan: (still distraught, upset) I’m only thinking about poor Katerina Ivanovna; ignorant, I suppose… (he scratches at the door frame with his fingernails) that upsets me.

*

[INT. – AT KATERINA IVANOVNA’S/BALLROOM] min. 19:52

(the scene opens with the camera following a waiter carrying a teacups tray through a moderately crowded ballroom; he stops by M. Chochlakova and Lisa)

Waiter: Please, madame.

M. Chochlakova: (takes one of the offered teacups) Thank you.

Waiter: Some tea, miss?

(Lisa shakes her head; the camera returns to following the movement of the waiter amongst Katja’s guests, until he passes by Katerina herself and Ivan and focuses on them – note: Ivan isn’t wearing his cunty glasses anymore, but he’s cuntily holding a cigarette)

Ivan: Yes, I am… I am worried for Dmitrij, the argument with my father over that damned heritage is exasperating him: he withdraws, he hides; we can’t find him for days and days. Do you see him?

Katja: I was hoping to have him with us today, I had a note delivered to his domicile but… who knows if he’ll show up. However, you don’t have to worry so, Ivan Fëdorovič: I know Dmitrij, I know what is troubling him at this moment. We need to let his agitation placate naturally. Why did he target his father so intensely – because now he needs money and he doesn’t have any, and he’s so proud he won’t borrow from anyone: and so he gets exasperated.

Ivan: So you think, Katerina Ivanovna, that money might pacify him.

Katja: No, it’s not the money that gives him peace. Dmitrij is the most generous man I have ever known, money obsesses him only because it lets him act fully free.

Ivan: (smiles) Mh, I admire your intelligence and your… extraordinary lucidity; I did not think that a woman in love could see with such clarity the man she loves.

Katja: I believe it is love that makes me see so clearly, for Mitja’s sake. I know the situation I find myself in.

Ivan: Do you know about… the news, too?

Katja: I know the news, too. (she spots Dmitrij, who just entered) There he is! (she turns back to Ivan, their faces are very close) He came.

(the camera cuts to Dmitrij, standing very still; at Katja’s aunt’s call he comes towards her and kisses her hand) 

Katja’s aunt: Dmitrij Fëdorovič, don’t pretend to be a statue, come closer!

Lisa: I hoped you would bring along your brother Alëša…

Dmitrij: Don’t you know he walks a different path than us? And he’s serious about it, my little brother – he’s not like us, he doesn’t mistake the devil for holy water (he spots Ivan and Katja sitting together) Anyway, I see another member of the Karamazov family already preceded me, and is already here.

(to Katja’s aunt) You really want us all, eh?

Katja’s aunt: We would really like to have you all – because you’re pleasant, you Karamazovs.

Katja: (she stands up and walks towards her aunt) Aunt, I’ll let you have him all for yourself later, but may I speak to him for a moment first?

Katja’s aunt: Youths and feelings’ rights, I’ve always respected.

Katja: Dmitrij Fëdorovič, if you’ll follow me. (she exits with Dmitrij following)

(the scene cuts off with a shot of Ivan pensively about to take a drag of his cigarette, he seems to be following Katja and Dmitrij with his gaze)

[INT. – AT KATERINA IVANOVNA’S/KATJA’S ROOM] min. 23:07

Katja: Come, Mitja, come.

Dmitrij: Will it be a long talk? Maybe an explanation?

Katja: (rummaging through a vanity) No. No, I just have a favour to ask you Mitja; you should send this parcel to Moscow for me, to my sister Agaf’ja Ivanovna. It’s not urgent but… you really must be the one doing it, Mitja, because no-one in the house should know.

Dmitrij: Would it be a secret, then?

Katja: There are three thousand rubles inside, my sister needs them, or her husband does, I didn’t understand very well. In any case, I’m sending them personally; there (she hands him the parcel) I told you you can do it at your leisure, then you’ll give me the receipt, but… it has to remain between us, understood?

Dmitrij: I’ll do it right now, I’ll bring you the receipt immediately – (he makes for a side door) can I leave from here? I’d rather not pass through the ballroom.

Katja: But why, Mitja, what are they going to say about this sudden escape?

Dmitrij: They’ll say… they’ll say you asked me to tend to an urgent and delicate matter. Isn’t it the truth, Katja? And then, you won’t be alone: someone from the family will keep you in good company – actually, I’m wondering, why didn’t you ask Ivan for this favour? He would’ve been happy to make himself useful.

Katja: What you’re saying isn’t worthy of you, Mitja. Maybe you don’t even really think it, but… you want to hurt me, I feel it.Dmitrij: Is there anything I’m not worthy of? What is it that’s not worthy of me? Come on, Katja, you know very well how low I can go. I’ll do what you asked me to, and without anyone knowing. (he leaves)

[eileen-crys]

As I'm currently at the cinema waiting for Indiana Jones and the Dial of Destiny to start, I wanted to share an anecdote I found recently as I gave a quick read at Phoebe's blog, where I really didn't expect to find a correlation between Freddie and my beloved Indy!

ASK BLOG 45, 29 Sep 2013

Neda wanted to know about Freddie going to the cinema.

In my 12 years with Freddie I can only recall going to the cinema 3 times with him. The first was when we were in New York and Freddie and a group of friends went to see the first Indiana Jones film (1981). Freddie burst out laughing when someone in the audience commented on the fact that one of the actors in a scene in the desert accidentally eats a fly.

The second was the premiere in Tokyo of Flash Gordon and the third was in Munich at a screening of The Never-Ending Story. It was dubbed in German and Freddie couldn’t understand and was frustrated. His friends laughed at something in the film, but Freddie was convinced that they were laughing at him so we got up and left. He really wasn’t do interested in modern films and only went to please his friends.

Belloq eating the fly in such a serious moment during Raiders of the Lost Ark always cracks me up, but knowing Freddie bursted out laughing at it made it even more epic! 🤣

[stormesandshowersparttwo]

Why does your tattoo say Nada?

It means voice in Farsi, but I got it in memory of a young woman named Neda who was killed by a pro government militiaman during the Iranian 2008 green movement <3

If you want to learn more about her story, here is a song about Neda.