#navigating bipolar

[rayrayor]

I hated the way the writers had Mickey pop off so casually about Ian’s mental illness in the Hall of Shame episode . Mickey not perfect, Ian either but wow that below the belt comment always bugged me . I wondered if it had an effect on Ian after .

So I rewrote it, angst with Gallavich doing what they do best , finding their way back to each other .

No idea where this came from except last night had an epic oops and lost a final chapter ( it was sooo good) poof no more chapter 🤬

So I pouted , read other great writers and about 11 pm this cropped up .

For all of you so damn good at angst , tipping my hat cause this is mildly angsty and I was just a snot fest typing it out🥹

[pumpkin-the-girlie-girl-vixen]

**A Man is Nothing Without His Borderline Personality Disorder Girlfriend: Hilarious Tales from the Trenches of Love**

Let’s face it: relationships can be wild rides, and when you throw in a girlfriend with borderline personality disorder (BPD), you’re in for an adventure like no other. As someone who’s been in this kind of relationship, I can confidently say that a man is nothing without his BPD girlfriend—especially when it comes to the endless stories that come from navigating the quirky world of love and mental health.

**The Emotional Rollercoaster**

First off, dating someone with BPD is like getting a VIP pass to the emotional rollercoaster of a lifetime. One moment, she’s on top of the world, showering you with love and affection like you’re the last slice of pizza at a party. The next, you’re standing in the eye of the storm, wondering why she’s suddenly convinced you’re the villain in her life story. “Did I forget to take out the trash?” you ponder, while she’s accusing you of plotting to ruin her life. Spoiler alert: No, you didn’t forget to take out the trash— but now you’re questioning every life choice you’ve ever made.

**Love and Fear of Abandonment: The Ultimate Combo**

Then there's the classic “I can’t believe you’re leaving me!” scenario every time you run to the store for milk. It’s a routine grocery trip, but suddenly, you’re walking into a scene reminiscent of a dramatic soap opera. “You’ll find someone better! I know it!” she cries, clutching her stuffed penguin like it’s the last lifeline on a sinking ship. Little do you know, this is just a friendly reminder that your seemingly mundane errand could threaten the very fabric of your relationship.

**Communication Shenanigans**

Let’s talk about communication, or as I like to call it, “The Game of Telephone on Steroids.” Conversations often morph into full-blown debates over the slightest misunderstandings. You could say, “Wow, it’s a beautiful day!” and end up with her convinced you’re subtly hinting that she’s not as bright and sunny as the weather. You know what they say: “It’s not what you say, it’s how you say it.” And trust me, if you say anything that can be interpreted as a hidden insult, you’ve just opened Pandora’s box.

**The “I Love You, I Hate You” Tango**

If you’re in it for the long haul, you’ll quickly learn that the “I love you, I hate you” tango is the official dance of your relationship. One minute, you’re cuddling on the couch, watching romantic comedies and discussing your future together. The next, you’re being accused of not caring enough because you forgot to ask about her favorite flavor of ice cream. The irony? You both just polished off a pint of her favorite flavor! But logic? Who needs that in a whirlwind romance?

**The Quirky Quirks**

Now, let’s not forget the quirky quirks that come with the territory. There are spontaneous road trips to nowhere, where you find yourself navigating to a destination you didn’t even know existed, all in the name of “let’s find ourselves!” You might even discover that your new favorite hobby is deep-diving into mental health articles, not for your sake, but to keep up with the whirlwind that is her life. You’ll laugh, you’ll cry, and by the end, you’ll probably be a certified expert in BPD—complete with a degree in emotional navigation.

**In Conclusion: Embrace the Chaos**

At the end of the day, dating a woman with borderline personality disorder may come with its challenges, but it’s also filled with unforgettable moments, lots of laughs, and a kind of love that’s fierce and unwavering. Sure, there will be bumps along the way, but every relationship has its quirks. The key is to embrace the chaos, find humor in the madness, and remember that love comes in all forms—even if it includes an emotional rollercoaster or two.

So here’s to the men out there who find themselves navigating the tumultuous waters of love with a BPD girlfriend—may your adventures be wild, your stories be hilarious, and your relationship be a journey worth taking! Just remember, without her chaotic charm, you’d be left with a very boring life…and who wants that?

@bigmikeyde ❤️ @pumpkin-the-girlie-girl-vixen

[vanweezer]

anywayyyyyyyyyy

i hate pigs even more so when theyre involved in my life and nothing has ever quite prepared me for dealing with them because i avoid talking to them every chance i get. got them called on me once or twice in my teens but thats boring old news.

earlier this week at my ex gas station job my coworkers and i got held up, the guy had a gun, not the best night, took it as my sign to ditch that place as id been growing more wary about my safety there. one can take only so many flirtatious remarks from men old enough to be their father's father. and i hate my coworkers in a very unique way i have never found it in myself to hate before. you know

then thursday a woman almost pulled a gun on a guy who was a real piece of shit but yknow, not worth the bus getting lit up, and of course i ditched because who really has the time.

i say all this to say how little i feel, how a to b its getting. having to deal with the fact that my mood swings are true and honest and probably a result of something my dear old dad gifted me with: bipolar disorder. i try not to define my mental conditions too much, i dont really know what i 'am' or what i 'have', outside of being sure that im hyper active on top of being autistic. my own research (cue booing) and the fact that ive been neeeeearly diagnosed with it but never properly screened (again, my teens, sad and boring) makes me think that these really high highs and really numbing lows might be the other B word i am a bit scared of.

i dont know how ill grieve what happened at my old job, or how ill try to keep track of this bipolar thing, or if i can even call it grief or bipolar-ism. this week has sucked and im positive no one ought to read or care about this but if someone does then thanks. and because i know some people might or already do i think ill have an okayish time managing this information. i dont know. thats the big scoop

[kaurwreck]

I have more mutuals in their early 20s than probably since I was in my own early 20s so whatever it's worth, it does start to get a little easier as you settle into your adult skin. Like, even my bipolar disorder started cycling less frantically.

[supahstarrr]

sometimes the commentary on class division, elitism and classism does eat but i can't help but feel as if it isn't utilized more to the point it comes across as shallow at some points. other forms of oppression are also not explored more, whether or not they are discussed in the show, despite their intersection to the inner hierarchy of high and low class having the potential to add more depth to the main themes of the show. what especially stands out to me is that the discussion of race despite it being interconnected with classism isn't explored as it should be to the point of somewhat minimizing the racial dynamics & trauma that was so ingrained in the plot at one point of the show. i can't help but wonder some ideas that could have added so much to the (and lack of) commentary.

kie's disillusion with the supposed shared experience within the kook society could have been influenced by her navigation in the elite being more taxing due to her status as a biracial black girl impacting how she is viewed and treated by the other kooks. it could add more layers to how much she wants to separate herself from the kooks with the constant emphasis that she is pogue—due to the additional context of that emphasis stemming from her wanting to reclaim her personhood that is taken away from the racism (specifically misogynoir) ingrained in kook society. i feel this idea could work even though there are a few black teens who are kooks, as not only the few black teens doesnt disregard the fact that kook society has white people as its majority, but also they're boys—meaning that navigating kook society could have its unique difficulties in contrast to how other black teens navigate, and even the misogynoir. hell man, this could have easily been shown by contrasting kie's and sarah's experiences with being accepted into kook society.

the complexities to her navigation in life and how that impacts her could be strengthened by commentary about how despite being a target of misogynoir, she still experiences privilege due to her lighter skin and proximity to whiteness (other than class, which is already hinted at). this could easily be shown by her interactions with pope or cleo, how her experiences impacted by race and skin color contrast with pope's or cleo's experiences based on those things, or even how her father views or treats her being influenced by those privileges

the moment of topper aggression to sarah saying "no" and his general control over her could have been an extension of a discussion of how misogyny is expressed in the upper class—and the motivator for her to question the extent of how human she is treated and seen as in the upper class, thus being a question to how much of a "unit" kook society is. sarah being the ward's favorite daughter and rafe reacting to her in violence due to that favoritism could fuel into those questions for the narrative to answer—ward's infantilization of her and/or more depth to why she is favored (like here's a random idea: perhaps she is seen as uniquely the "exceptional" girl over the older brother who is usually expected to be the heir and guaranteed success, because of her winning athletic competitions), plus rafe's resentment towards sarah for being the favorite being expressed by his violence could be not just an example of how mentally disturbed he is but also him being conditioned by toxic masculinity he is taught by his father & the violence taught by that culture

there could be more discussions about "old money" vs "new money" in kook society through ward's, and perhaps his children (especially sarah who have been constantly entangled with topper and/or his family who are old money), interacting with other people in that society. also there could be more discussions of the intersection of race and class for both lower and upper class in general.

other than the minimization of racial dynamics and even racial trauma to an extent largely affecting pope's story, interactions & dynamics with others being watered down, the lack of opportunities to introduce how other social statuses & forms of oppression connect with class and the exploration of inner hierarchy is not fulfilling for the commentary to the point it almost appears as if its revealing of the writer's naivety and even ignorance.

[planetary-gus]

Some downsides to the demigods powers/just being a demigod in general

Quick TW, I advise you tread with caution because some of these can be darker than the rest

1. When Will heals he's literally putting a piece of his own health into someone's body, so if he goes too far he'll end up killing himself

2. All the Apollo kids have very very sensitive ears, which contributes to sensory issues, getting overwhelmed, and meltdowns

3. Hazel/the Hecate kids struggle separating reality from illusion sometimes and can be prone to psychosis and hallucinations

4. Hypnos kids very ironically have insomnia

5. Similarly, Poseidon kids are prone to dehydration

6. Zeus kids are obviously asthmatic

7. The Hades kids have hypermobility issues/hEDS

8. Any chthonic demigods also struggle with fainting disorders

9. Some Hermes kids have ironic navigation issues, and can never remember any directions they're given

10. Apollo kids can't lie even if their life is directly on the line

11. Aphrodite kids are prone to NPD and struggle to form relationships

12. Ares kids are just as prone to BPD or bipolar and struggle with vulnerability and letting people in

13. Rachel commonly dissociates and sometimes feels like her body isn't actually hers

14. Hazel has problems with stiff muscles and her body feeling like a rock itself

15. Frank sometimes forgets he's actually a person

16. Athena kids are prone to anxiety and panic disorders, paranoia, and agoraphobia

17. Reyna forgets she has an actual body of her own

18. Demigods in general are prone to POTS or autoimmune disorders

19. Leo is sensitive to any other kind of burn except fire (steamburns/carpetburn/sunburn/etc)

20. Nico is prone to hypothermia if he overuses his powers

21. Leo and Will are both prone to overheating from their powers

22. Iris kids are ironically either colorblind, or have the color perception a shrimp. There is no in between.

23. Dionysus kids often have ABS (Auto-Brewery Syndrome)

24. Hephaestus kids are prone to heat stroke/fevers

25. As well as issues with weakness and fragile bones/joints in their legs

26. Some Apollo kids can scream so loud they can burst eardrums or even stun those close enough, although this usually leaves them with raw, bleeding throats

27. Demeter kids are prone to scoliosis due to how frequently they need to bend down to garden

28. Hermes kids usually mask their real personalities with a "chaotic mask" so they usually forget what they're really like

29. Iris kids are very sensitive to light and often need to wear sunglasses just to be able to walk around because of retina sensitivity

30. Occasionally, Athena kids can experience degeneration in their optic nerves that can cause blindness and eventually spread to other areas of the body (bilateral optic neuropathy is what I believe it's called but feel free to correct me on that)

Add to this list as you please, and this was all just some silly things me an my gf thought of, I apologize if we upset anyone

[lokorum]

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kuyan - avoided responsibilities by pretending to be dead (surprise, it works)  

ayasha - can successfully sell winter jacket in +40C

sino - emo boi who couldnt be fixed

ketla - "bi" in "bipolar"

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₍⑅ᐢ..ᐢ₎ so, what im doing here?

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i was most active in bg3, tes, elden ring, dishonored and tma fandoms, but now im head and shoulders deep in datv!! 

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₍ᵔ.˛.ᵔ₎ what software do i use? which brushes?

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[raythekiller]

🗒 ❛ Personality Headcanons ༉‧₊˚✧

Featuring: Jeff The Killer, Ben Drowned, Ticci Toby, Eyeless Jack, Masky, Hoodie

#Notes: just my general take on the creeps. hope y'all enjoy! requests open :)

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꒰⸝⸝₊⛓┊Jeff The Killer

He's a total fucking prick, for a lack of better word. He doesn't care about other's feelings, he thinks he's better than everyone so he's "allowed" to treat people badly, and he has anger issues to top that. Protesting against his bad treatment is gonna earn you some screaming at best and some blood spilled at worst, depending entirely on his mood.

He has the potential to be a good friend and person in general, he just doesn't want to. However, you might catch him trying to awkwardly comfort Toby or Ben when they have mental breakdowns. Well, not as much "comfort" but more of a shy pat on the back and a "Stop being a little bitch" comment, but that's his way of showing that he cares. Take it or leave.

꒰⸝⸝₊⛓┊Ben Drowned

Generally a pretty chill guy. He's not an extrovert, but he's still fairly outgoing when it comes to meeting new people (when he does leave his room, that is. He's kind of a shut in). Since he died when he was about twelve, I think he's forever stuck into the pre-pubescent boy mentality, so he can be quite the little shit.

That means he's also kind of a pervert and just immature in general. The type to play certain games just to gawk at the female character's slutty outfits and make fart jokes. He can also be very sarcastic and witty when he wants to, just a total smartass. Also, he's a pothead.

꒰⸝⸝₊⛓┊Ticci Toby

Probably one of, if not the nicest creep in the manor. Very upbeat and cheerful, at least most of the time. As someone that has bipolar disorder, it personally doesn't make me very violent and as unstable as Toby is canonically said to be. What does make me does things though is my BPD, so I headcanon he has that as well. He's all sunshine and rainbows until someone says something in a slightly off tone and suddenly he's screaming and throwing his hatchets at the fucking wall.

That also means he's extremely clingy. He wants every last bit of attention he can get and is extremely possessive of people he likes. And, while he is nice most of the time, when he's having an episode he's probably the most cold and cruel person you'll ever met.

꒰⸝⸝₊⛓┊Eyeless Jack

One of the most chill creeps. He's not aggressive and kills only when he needs to eat, and tries to make it quick and painless for the victim. He eats any organs, not just kidneys. Also, he's a fucking great cook, Hannibal Lecter style. He really likes reading and is extremely intelligent, probably knows two or more languages, and is probably the most mature member of the manor after Slenderman.

He's not actually blind, but he's not not blind either. He sees the temperature of things instead of the actual object. He hates drama and argument and loud noises, so he normally stays away from the other creeps (especially our favorite trio, Jeff, Ben and Toby), but he gets along really well with Jane.

꒰⸝⸝₊⛓┊Masky

Another prick, though a more reserved one than Jeff. He's a perfectionist and natural leader, so he expects everyone to obey him without questions and no mistakes allowed. He has this rivalry going on with Toby because, even though he's the leader and Slenderman's right hand, he feels the tall guy has a certain favoritism or soft spot when it comes to Toby (which is true).

He gets very aggressive after missions and just wants to be left alone for at least a few hours, just until he calms down a little. After he's rested, he's actually pretty decent to be around, becoming less defensive and more accepting of others.

꒰⸝⸝₊⛓┊Hoodie

The coolest guy ever. He's calm but great to be around and is always willing to listen to others when they need to vent. He's kind of the manor's therapist and gives great advice. He's mute, so he talks either through sign language or writing down on paper. He also plays guitar and likes to write his own songs sometimes. Ben and Sally really look up to him as a kind of cool uncle.

Since he's so level headed, he's always the one to calm Masky down when he's being a bit much. Toby really appreciates this, since he's normally getting the short end of Masky's bad moods. As mentioned, he's great with the younger members of the manor and just kids in general and they all love him. The type of uncle to give them candy while saying "Don't tell your parents" playfully.

[librarycards]

do you have any resources or advice on how to help people who have manic episodes or who could possibly harm others according to antipsych principles? my friend diagnosed with bipolar disorder has been looking into checking themself into a hospital, and their home situation isn’t the best though their dad somewhat tries to be supportive, but i wonder what other options there are. the most i can do is offer some emotional support and give advice since i live too far away to be of much help otherwise. sorry if this is the wrong place to ask.

hello, and thanks for your patience on my response - this week has been busy and i'm only just now getting to asks!

here is an excellent piece by Stefanie Lyn Kaufman-Mthimkhulu on providing support for comrades in crisis, many of these tips are very applicable to distance-relationships too! bipolar comrades/others who have manic episodes are also welcome and very encouraged to reply and share what kinds of supports work best for them.

There are also a series of free zines/books by the Fireweed Collective (FKA the Icarus Project), particularly Navigating The Space Between Brilliance And Madness: A Reader & Roadmap Of Bipolar Worlds. This is a great way to learn more about a variety of bipolar experiences to better contextualize your friend's.

here are some tips based on personal experience being close to multiple people with bipolar, while not being bipolar myself:

create balance within yourself + project it - it's tempting to get yourself wrapped up in others' big feelings, especially if they trigger you. but it's crucially important to maintain a (porous!) barrier between you and your friend, both as a way of maintaining your own peace and providing something sturdy for them to lean on. this means taking what they say/do in the midst of crisis and placing it "beside" your own feelings, rather than integrating it and responding viscerally in the moment.

neither "reality checking" nor "reality confirming". this is tricky. it's pointless to tell someone "you're wrong, you can't do that, etc." when they're experiencing a different reality than you. it is also harmful to encourage someone to act on beliefs that are not actually aligned with their values, but instead the result of a state of crisis. i try to use phrases like "that sounds ___," "that must be ____," "i can see how you'd feel ____" and similar, both to affirm their own lived experience and to avoid reifying it as objective truth.

know when to step away. mania is draining for literally everyone involved, and what people do to their loved ones in the midst of a manic episode can be incredibly harmful, even if occurring alongside grand gestures of generosity, productivity, etc. you are not your friend's keeper, and your feelings and well-being matter just as much as theirs. do you both have mutual friends you can tap into to provide support when you're burnt out? these friends might also be able to offer some strategies that you or i haven't thought of. it's important to say that this support shouldn't be constant "did you use substances today" "did you drive recklessly today" other surveillance type stuff. try to maintain a normal rhythm to your conversations, and when something that makes you go ??? comes up, try framing your response as a question. "i'm going to finish writing and editing my novel today and start two new books and apply for this and that grant" - you could say, "that's a ton of stuff. why do you need to do it all today?" this creates space for other possibilities without forcing it.

your friend doesn't need advice right now, they need support! the person who needs advice, i think, is your friend's dad. are you and him directly in touch, and is there any way that you could get in touch with him? since you're online, i don't know the details here; it may work best when your friend is no longer manic and you two can speak frankly about how best to support them. i do suggest making a crisis plan with him/whoever they're close to irl.

I hope this is somewhat helpful!

[moregraceful]

idk like god forbid I become the ped apologist blog but so much of it is just like what puckpocketed said, do you see athletes as humans or not...like do you think it's inherently weak for an athlete to take some kind of drug, prescribed or not, to make easier to navigate recovery/maintenance/stress. and i will include schedule 1 drugs in that statement in addition to regular shit. like idk some of you have absolutely insane takes on wealth and privilege in major league sports but talking about athletes specifically, the prevalent idea that it's fine if they suffer physically or mentally because they get $m from living the dream...when living the dream can and does wreck your body and can have devastating affects on you mentally...but if you are medicated or self-medicate suddenly you're such a total loser for not being able to cope or rise above such minor stressors like "can't walk without pain" or "repeated traumatic brain injuries" or "bipolar disorder". like damn would you say that to a family member lmao???? just because they're making a lot of money for your entertainment doesn't mean that they shouldn't be able to take medication that helps them deal with chronic pain, physical or mental. drug use/abuse is not an indicator of morality you guys are just callous and cruel as hell.

[spell-bloom]

My 59 year old mother, Dana, is currently homeless and has no car or job. She and I lived with her grandmother for a decade and suffered through emotional and financial abuse until she died of old age. Whatever sense of stability she had is now lost, and she is living in a homeless shelter. Sometimes she stays with her aunt for a few days, but that aunt actively dislikes her.

My mom has bipolar, depression and has previously attempted to take her own life. She has to wait an entire YEAR to even TRY to get an apartment since the one her aunt lives in is doing renovations.

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[ttteconfessionsrevived]

To be honest, I bet most of them do. In Duncan, sir Handel, and Gordon’s cases - I can relate, because I have bipolar. I don’t have the seemingly fun bipolar, where u get unrealistically high n energetic for days. I get either normal me, or depressed moody, n wanting to burn the world down moody me (the latter two r usually a result of intense stress). And too, a lot of people also think that if u show certain symptoms it’s just ‘that’, or it’s autism. It could b ‘that’, it could b autism, it could be both, it could be neither. In the case of mental health related things, there r soooooo many similarities that can overlap. I’ve had to navigate bipolar, ptsd, and anxiety. It’s…interesting…to say the least.

[souldesired]

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general. this blog was created to spoil my friends and will primarily focus on doing such. meaning this portrayal of Sylus leans more towards domestic and romantic themes, if this bothers you please understand I might not be the Sylus roleplayer for you. the admin of this blog & Sylus are both 21+ and only comfortable with interacting with others admins, LIs, MC, and OCs that are also 21+. as such, topics labeled NSFW / NSFT will be present and explored here on this blog. including ( to an extent ) darker topics all together, considering the type of character Sylus is this should be without saying. as fun as it is to be here, the admin does have many irl responsibilities as well as other blogs to be managed. which means this blog will always be on the slower acitivity side of things.

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interaction. best way to begin interactions with the muse is to send in a prompted or unprompted ask, tag me in a starter, or approach in dms. dms are open and can be used as small text interactions. admin will not always answer threads or asks in order they are sent but rather by interest and / or inspiration for that interaction. I am a slow roleplay partner however and responses can take a little while to get back to sometimes. it also depends on my mental health.

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drama. this blog is my comfort zone and a safe space, not only for the admin but also for mutuals. I will not partake in callout culture nor will I present drama onto the dash. This blog is meant to indulge in a hobby and it'll do just that.

conclusion. thank you so much for taking the time to go through these. it’s nice to meet you! i suffer from bipolar disorder and may take hiatuses every so often for mental health reasons.

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SCP rant because I have to get everything off my chest

This post includes swear words and slight nsfw! It's a bit long, and this was sitting in my drafts for some time and I just want to post it, I might get so much hate tho. Note: I use the word "admin" when talking about the overall staff, including the actual adminds

the way official SCP's are managed is fucking dogshit, it is said that SCP is for mature audiances which is 18+ but its not managed as if its 18+

the site is EXTREMELY HARD to navigate through, is there a "how to navigate through the site" page? I don't know I COULDN'T FIND IT, so my knowledge of scp DEPENDS on content farms which only makes videos about the same scp's(so my knowledge of SCP is near none existent and I've been in this fandom SINCE SCP CB CAME OUT). I didn't know the SCP had no canon until I saw it off site, but the thing is that SCP not having any canon is a big part of the what little canon we have, so why not make it more clear? Also, just because there's no canon doesn't mean you can't write the scp's heavily detailed for the sake of others adding up to the stories in their own way, the reason almost every single SCP is so vague is the reason that people don't care for the fandom, its as if every single SCP is a concept and not finished characters, people don't find anything to relate to so they don't care, honestly I'm really dedicated to SCP, SCP is the ONLY fandom that I have EVER joined and even I hate it so much, like, I only have one favourite scp and its 035, why? because 035 has bipolar or something, idk, who the fuck even is scp 035? I hate the fact that I can't have more favourites, Oh also, if there's no canon then WHY do people go around saying "THIS SCP CHANNEL SHARED MISINFO ABOUT THIS SCP!!!" maybe its just THEIR canon?(Not trying to defend them by any means though, I completely agree that the race, gender, ethnicity etc of a chara being washed away and becoming generic is disgusting and problematic, that's exactly the point I'm trying to make, there should be SOME canon that everyone in the fandom can agree upon, AU's can still exist even if there are canons anyway)

If your SCP article gets downvoted enough it can get REMOVED, and the scp wiki is basically 4chan, of course they're going to downvote it for the stupidest reason EVER, they're treating those artworks written with love and care from people as if its trash that doesn't even need to be there, but oh, oh the the dildo that when shoved up your ass makes you explode? beautiful, perfect(NOTE: Please don't tell the admins and the writers that their shitty sex jokes aren't funny and that they aren't good, it mwakes twhem sad :/ [and like I said, scp isn't written and treated as if its a mature 18+ thing so kids are extremely susceptable to seeing these, who's fault is that? Hmmm...beats me!] )

The SCP fandom has a lot of drama, why? because the admins encourage it, they're shitty people, all of them, they're EXTREMELY immature little shits with thick skulls, they refuse to come out about problems despite all of them being fully functioning adults and refuse to take action about things, they're always complaining about the fandom not growing and can't take a second to listen to even one of the things the fandom that MAKE UP 100% OF SCP says, so if we want something to change we better pray an admin agrees with our morals and acknowledge us, also they actively go around saying "SCP IS FOR ADULTS ONLY!!!" but like I said before, scp's are extremely vague and kids find them easy to understand so they OBVIOUSLY interract, and at this point we ALL know that 70% of the fandom are kids, it's an undeniable fact, so why are those people complaining instead of taking action, are they, like, not interracting with the fandom in the slightest? For that the admins seem extremely predatory, c'mon, is every admin actually jack bright's author under different users...? At one point the age limit for the wiki was younger than 18 even though scp contained themes of heavy horror and explicit gore for ever(take this with a grain of salt, bc I don't remember).

Don't even get me STARTED on SCP channels, The Rubber and SCP explained are OBVIOUSLY made for kids no matter what the channel owners say and yet SCP explained makes nsfw thumbnails and uses kid friendly language in the same videos and so does The Rubber, and NOBODY is telling them to stop.

I just don't get it, am I wrong on this? Is there an actual reason for all of this that I just don't know?

Also who the fuck is making these people admins anyway? like, SO many scp admins were exposed and...just...how? how are they being selected? do the admins not get background checked prior to selection? I understand one or two going under the radar but THIS many????! Like, scp is a huge thing and the admins are extremely well known within the fandom and thus they're really powerfull in the community (witch, like I said, is made of 70% kids while all of the admins are adults) and if they're going to be contributing to something this big then why aren't they being selected with caution?! Not to mention I can see the the pattern even through my blind glaze balls, why are they all sexual assaulters or have porn addictions? why? why the fuck?

If I wasn't an SCP fan for 84% of my life I would've left or never would've joined the fandom in the first place, but sadly I'm too attached now (also no force in the universe can stop me from posting self ship art of me and 035)

Also, this isn't a big issue but I wish SCP wasn't strictly CC but rather we could make our works and release them under whatever licence we wanted, since yk, we're the ones who made them and deserve the rights over them? I don't know if there's a reason to SCP being strictly CC tho, so correct me if I'm wrong

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Out of All: Chp 4

Jake Seresin x OC! Anna Bradshaw

Brothers' Best Friend Series! Follow along as these characters navigate the treacherous waters of love, loyalty, and desire, all while facing the ultimate taboo: falling for your sibling's best friend. From heart-pounding moments to steamy encounters, this series is a rollercoaster of emotions that will keep you hooked until the very end. Brace yourself for intense romantic tension, sizzling chemistry, and enough drama to keep you guessing. Are you ready to embark on this captivating journey?

This chapter includes explicit sexual content with detailed descriptions of sexual activity and intimacy between characters. Scenes depict physical intimacy, including kissing, touching, and biting, with characters described in states of undress. Emotional intensity is explored, encompassing themes of longing, desire, and vulnerability, with brief references to past trauma. Characters may be shown consuming alcoholic beverages, and mature themes such as casual relationships

THERE'S MENTIONS OF SUICIDE AND ANXIETY READ AT OWN RISK

Growing up, you faced a myriad of challenges, chief among them being bipolar anxiety. From a young age, you were plagued by constant anxiety, fear, and a pervasive sense of discomfort. It permeated every aspect of your life, from trivial arguments with friends to minor mishaps and minor disagreements.

Each episode felt suffocating, as if an invisible weight was pressing down on your chest, making it difficult to breathe. Tears flowed freely, often accompanied by aggressive outbursts, leaving you feeling drained and overwhelmed. And then there was the shaking—an uncontrollable tremor that started with small twitches but intensified as the situation escalated, leaving your body feeling numb and out of control.

Your struggles were not new to your family, particularly your older brother Bradley, who vividly remembers the countless hospital visits, doctor appointments, and therapy sessions your mother arranged for you during your childhood. Your family had already suffered a significant loss when your father passed away when Bradley was only five, and your birth shortly after marked the beginning of a tumultuous journey.

Medical professionals attributed much of your early struggles to the absence of a father figure and the trauma of losing a sibling, but your challenges persisted, leaving you feeling trapped and powerless. Despite efforts to provide support and treatment, the weight of your anxiety remained a constant burden.

For a brief period, the world granted you respite, allowing you a moment of reprieve from the relentless tug of despair. But when your mother passed away, you were plunged into a deeper darkness, feeling alone and adrift in a world that offered no solace. With Bradley away at college, navigating his own challenges, you were left to grapple with your struggles alone, longing for someone to guide you through the darkness.

Amidst the turmoil of your childhood, you found yourself in the care of your uncles, who did their best to provide for you. Despite their efforts, you struggled to find stability, withdrawing into yourself and shutting out the world. Three months after your mother's death, you made an attempt on your own life, consumed by a sense of despair and hopelessness.

Hospitalized and medicated, you battled deep depression and anxiety, your heart faltering under the weight of your pain. It was a dark time, marked by suffering and anguish, but amidst the chaos, you found a beacon of light in the form of your friendship with Caila. She became your confidante, your source of solace in a world that seemed intent on crushing you.

Caila's mother, Michelle, also played a significant role in your life, stepping in to fill the void left by your own mother's passing. Their bond served as a painful reminder of what you had lost, driving you further into despair. The pain became unbearable, leading you to turn to self-harm as a means of coping with your anguish.

Throughout it all, music remained your sanctuary, offering a fleeting sense of peace and protection. It was a lifeline, a refuge from the storms raging within you. But even music couldn't shield you from the relentless onslaught of panic attacks, which haunted your every waking moment and invaded even your dreams.

And then came the news of Bradley's near-death experience, a deployment gone wrong that threatened to shatter what little stability you had managed to cling to. The fear of losing your brother, your last remaining tether to the world, plunged you deeper into despair, leaving you teetering on the edge of an abyss.

As you trembled in Bradley's arms, lost in the grip of your panic attack, his heart ached to see you in such distress. He knew all too well the demons that haunted you, the deep-rooted fears that threatened to engulf you in their darkness. But he also knew the strength that lay within you, the resilience that had carried you through countless trials before.

Gently, he cradled your trembling form, offering words of comfort and reassurance as he tried to soothe the storm raging within you. His voice was soft but firm, a lifeline amidst the chaos, as he urged you to focus on the present moment and let go of the haunting memories of the past.

With each word, he guided you back to the safety of the present, his arms a shield against the turmoil threatening to overwhelm you. And slowly, ever so slowly, your sobs began to subside, your breathing steadying as the waves of panic receded.

Finally, as the last traces of your panic attack faded away, you drifted off into a fitful sleep, exhaustion claiming you at last. Bradley watched over you with a mixture of concern and tenderness, his heart heavy with the weight of your pain.

In the morning, as the first light of dawn crept through the window, Bradley made a solemn promise to himself. He would do whatever it took to protect you, to keep you safe from the demons that haunted your dreams. And as he reached for your phone to call Caila, he knew that he would never let you face your struggles alone.

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Caila's gentle voice filled the room, offering a sense of warmth and comfort in the midst of your turmoil. Her words were like a soothing balm to your wounded soul, easing the ache of your anxiety and fear. You listened to her, your body still and heavy with exhaustion, but her presence alone was enough to provide some solace.

As she spoke, her dialect reflected the deep bond of friendship that existed between you, a bond that transcended mere words. Her words were laced with familiarity, with the shared experiences and memories that bound you together like family.

You closed your eyes, letting the sound of her voice wash over you like a gentle tide. In that moment, with Caila by your side, you felt a glimmer of hope flicker within you. You knew that no matter how dark the night may seem, you were not alone. You had someone who would stand by you, who would hold you close and offer you the strength to face whatever challenges lay ahead.

With Caila's comforting presence guiding you, you allowed yourself to drift into a peaceful slumber, knowing that you were safe and loved. And as you surrendered to the embrace of sleep, you whispered a silent thank you to the universe for blessing you with such a true and loyal friend.

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"Phoenix!" Jake called out as he hurried over to her, concern etched on his face. She paused, turning to face him and waiting for him to catch up.

"Why's Bradley not flying?" he asked, puzzled by his wingman's absence. Bradley was usually up in the air constantly, so it was unusual not to see him on the tarmac.

Phoenix sighed, her expression turning somber. "His sister had one of her, well... he calls them 'episodes,'" she explained, her voice tinged with empathy. "He's scared for her, you know. It's Rooster we're talking about, so he called Mav to ground him so she could call him."

Jake's brows furrowed in concern. "An episode?" he echoed, puzzled. He had never heard about this before. Phoenix hesitated, clearly hesitant to divulge personal information, but then she relented.

"Yeah, apparently Anna's been dealing with trauma and anxiety attacks all her life," she revealed, her tone softening. "She had a severe one last night, out of the blue. She's okay now, but it really scared Bradley and the others."

Jake's expression softened, his heart going out to you. "Damn, he never told me that about Anna," he murmured, his mind reeling with the newfound information. He had never imagined that you were going through such struggles.

Phoenix nodded in understanding. "She's had them since she was a kid, but usually about Goose and their mom. This time, though, it was about him, and it really stressed him out and made him feel guilty."

Jake's chest tightened with empathy for both you and Bradley. "Thanks for telling me," he said quietly, grateful for the insight into your situation. But before Phoenix could respond, Hondo called out to them.

"Phoenix, Hangman, the two of you are up!" he announced, interrupting their conversation. Jake exchanged a glance with Phoenix before they both turned to respond to the call, their thoughts lingering on you and Bradley.

Jake's mind was reeling with the new information about Anna. He couldn't shake off the feeling of guilt that washed over him. Knowing that you had been struggling with anxiety attacks since childhood, and that your recent episode was triggered by concerns for Bradley, made him feel like he had unwittingly contributed to your distress.

As he climbed into the cockpit of his F-18, his thoughts were consumed by worries for you. He couldn't imagine the pain and fear you must be going through, dealing with such intense emotions and traumatic experiences. He wished he could be there for you, to offer you comfort and support in your time of need.

But duty called, and he had to push aside his personal concerns for now. As the engines roared to life and the aircraft soared into the sky, Jake focused on the task at hand, pushing his worries to the back of his mind. But deep down, he knew that he couldn't shake off the feeling of responsibility he felt towards you. He vowed to himself that he would find a way to be there for you, no matter what it took.

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"You sure you're okay?" Caila asked, her voice laced with concern, as you prepared yourself some tea in the kitchen. You felt like a wreck, and her worry only compounded your own feelings of exhaustion and anxiety. It was around three in the afternoon, and you were still in your pajamas, your hoodie rumpled and your hair disheveled.

"Caila, I'm fine, okay!" you replied, attempting to reassure her, though you knew your words rang hollow. You had been telling her that you were fine ever since you got up, but deep down, you knew that you were anything but fine. It was a façade you put on to prevent people from delving deeper into your struggles, but it was becoming harder to maintain with each passing day.

"Okay. What do you want to do?" Caila's voice was gentle, her concern evident in her eyes as she watched you. She knew she needed to distract you from your thoughts, but she also knew that you wouldn't open up easily.

"Well... we can tick crying off the list," you joked weakly, trying to lighten the mood. "I feel sticky, so maybe a shower, and then I need to watch something."

Caila nodded in understanding, sensing your need for a distraction. However, as you sipped your tea, you suddenly remembered something, causing you to curse softly.

"Shit!" you exclaimed, catching Caila's attention. She looked at you expectantly, waiting for an explanation.

"I was meant to meet with Jake tonight," you explained quickly, realizing that you had forgotten about your plans with him. Hastily, you sent him a text, feigning illness as an excuse for canceling.

To your surprise, Jake responded almost immediately, assuring you that it was perfectly fine and that he would see you when you were feeling better.

"Wait— you still meet with him even though you know he's Rooster's wingman?" Caila's eyebrows shot up in surprise as she processed the information you had just revealed.

You nodded, feeling a faint blush creeping onto your cheeks. "Yeah," you admitted sheepishly, "I do."

Caila grinned mischievously, teasing you gently as the two of you made your way upstairs to prepare for your shower. "Damn, Anna, you cheek," she quipped, earning a small laugh from you, the first genuine one of the day.

Some of these events involve real life incidents so yeah....lets behave

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MARAUDERS MLM FIC RECOMMENDATION

I have read more than 300 marauders fics and I’ve curated this list of all my favorites; I will add at the end the famous ones I’ve read as well but I am prioritizing the ones that I haven’t heard about as much that I think deserve just as much recognition.

For moonseeker/water, there’s another list on my account that I have pinned for those interested.

I will make a separate wlw/sapphic post

A brief history of dragons by Eyra [Wolfstar](23k words, finished) AU non magical, cottage. James and Sirius work in a James’ parents cafe together and Remus is there everyday writing a book about dragons and they’re so cute and so in love and I absolutely love it. https://archiveofourown.org/works/24114526/chapters/58052638

The art of getting by by Sarewolf [wolfstar] (40k words, finished) Remus and Sirius raise Harry together. Heartbreaking in the best way <3 https://archiveofourown.org/works/27300139/chapters/66700582

Beneath a big blue sky by Eyra [wolfstar with a lovely side Jily](68k words,finished) AU farm, Sirius and James are city boys that end up in a Yorkshire farm by “mistake” where they spend the summer. Lily and Remus are farmers. It’s funny, clever and touching; also we see Remus’ rs with his parents and it’s so lovely. https://archiveofourown.org/works/31046156/chapters/76694012

A string of consequences by semistrawberry [jegulily] (164k words, finished) AU no Voldemort. My favorite poly fic of them by far. We see each of their relationship grow and evolve in such a unique way, I’d do anything to be able to read it for the first time. It all stars with amortentia :) I can’t stress this enough this fic is a masterpiece https://archiveofourown.org/works/35878465/chapters/89461336 (it is quite well known but I wanted to say more about it so I didn’t put it with the famous ones)

A full guide of gardening for amateurs by Aphrsditea [jegulus] (75k words, finished) AU modern setting. This is one of my favorite fics of all time, all fandoms included. It’s beautifully written, so touching and inspiring. James is bipolar and Regulus suffers from ptsd. I don’t even know how to explain this fic because there is simply too much to say but I would recommend it even to those who don’t like this ship as much because it’s worth it. It deserves to be a book to be honest. https://archiveofourown.org/works/40365099/chapters/101111832

Mastermind (love made me crazy) by Miriammt [jegulus] (331k words, finished) Regulus is consumed by bitterness and pain after his brother Sirius ran away from home, and he blames James Potter for taking him away. Seeking revenge, he plots to take James away from Sirius. But what starts as a means of vengeance quickly turns into a tumultuous affair, and Regulus finds himself falling in love. Passion and desire turn into feelings and the wish to do and be better for James.But, as he navigates his complex feelings for James, a dark wizard rises to power, seeking to gain followers among the Hogwarts students. Trapped between duty and love, Regulus is forced to confront his fears, as he tries to protect those he cares about. https://archiveofourown.org/works/42091176/chapters/105674427

A for amortentia by angelcakes12332 [jegulus] (10k words, finished) When brewing Amortentia in Slughorn’s class, all James wants is a passing grade.Smelling his best friends brother in the potion? Well, James always has been over ambitious. https://archiveofourown.org/works/44310625/chapters/111435358

If I get out of bed (you'll see me standing all alone) by bartylusisms [bartylus] (32k one shot) Coraline (2009) but make it Bartylus: Regulus as Coraline, Barty as Wybie, Sirius as Padfoot (the cat), and Pandora, Dorcas and Evan as the nosey neighbors. https://archiveofourown.org/works/42764214

If i could give you the moon by malecstsc [wolfstar, side jegulus] (95k words,finished) HELP such a great fic :((( i love it so so much. Remus is a slytherin (bless) and regs best friend (moonseeker on top) sirius and him “hate” each other and are constantly snarky with the other, but they end up fake dating in a poor attempt to get closer, and its just so fluffy and angsty (light angst to be honest, but still the slow burn) https://archiveofourown.org/works/51521812/chapters/130214497

Please please please (let me get what I want this time) by nicodiangelol [moonchaser] (19k one shot) AU college, where Remus is a nerdy punk who needs to start cricket as an extracurricular activity to not fail the year and James is the captain, they knew each other from middle school. Genuinely had so much fun with it, grumpy x sunshine in all its glory, definitely a great fic. https://archiveofourown.org/works/56928679

Crowns & Coffee Cups series by Eyra [moonchaser] (9k words total for three works) AU non magical. Remus is chronically ill and James takes care of him, and it’s just so tender and soft and simple but beautifully written. So good so catching, I felt the loving and the feeling of being loved, precious. Also James is a terrible husband to Lily they got married after a one night stand so tw for that Lily deserves better https://archiveofourown.org/series/2204058

Don’t call me kid (don’t call me baby) by sxsooo_0 [moonrose, jegulus, party] ( 17k words, unfinished) set in the 80s, we get a pov of each character to understand how they come to be in Italy. It’s so beautifully written and the plot is so interesting; but the writer put it under a finished fic, although the 5 chapters we have are all the introduction to the beginning of the summer, so I am trying to swallow my disappointment, I was so so immersed and enthralled by it, and now I feel achingly lonesome without the continuity of what felt like a great piece of fiction. (No hate to the writer for putting it under finished they probably didn’t do it on purpose) SO SO GOOD AND I NEED MORE https://archiveofourown.org/works/57682639/chapters/146791582

All the king’s men series by intronevermind [bartylus+ side jily, wolfstar, and a tiny bit of marylene] (384k words total for 3 works) based on the foxhole court, I haven’t read the original work but I didn’t need to as the writer explained everything perfectly. It’s so so good, dark and gloomy, violent and beautiful. One of my fav bartylus. Regulus Beaumont is the newest addition to the Godric Gryffindor University Exy team. He’s short, he’s fast, he’s got a ton of potential– and he’s the runaway son of the murderous crime lord known as The Butcher. Signing a contract with the high profile team the Gryffindor Lions is the last thing Regulus should do. His lies will hold up only so long under this kind of scrutiny and the truth will get him killed. But Regulus is tired, and he quickly discovers he isn’t the only one on the team with secrets. Regulus has survived the last eight years by running, but maybe he’s finally found someone and something worth fighting for. https://archiveofourown.org/series/3915340

FAMOUS ONES THAT I ENJOYED

All the young dudes by mskingbean89 [wolfstar,jily] ( 526k words, finished) https://archiveofourown.org/works/10057010/chapters/22409387

ATYD Sirius perspective by Rollercoasterwords (628k words, finished) https://archiveofourown.org/works/34577035/chapters/86070550

Just lovers ( like we were supposed to be) by bizarrestars [jegulus + minor wolfstar, dorlene, marylily] (321k words, finished) https://archiveofourown.org/works/38344720/chapters/95816488

Choices by messermoon [jegulus, wolfstar, jily] (624k words, finished) https://archiveofourown.org/works/30170643/chapters/74332617

Best friend’s brother by bizarrestars [jegulus, wolfstar] (329k words, finished) https://archiveofourown.org/works/37021876/chapters/92370142

Crimson rivers by bizarrestars [jegulus, wolfstar + side rs] (865k words, finished) https://archiveofourown.org/works/39760044/chapters/99543639

A black mass over highway ninety [ i cannot find it anymore if anyone does please do send the link so i can put it up, i don’t remember the name of the author either im sorry ]

Art heist baby! by otrtbs [jegulus, wolfstar, dorlene] (220k words, finished) https://archiveofourown.org/works/38454070/chapters/96104947

Only the brave by Solmussa [jegulus, wolfstar, dorlene, rosekiller] (645k words, finished) https://archiveofourown.org/works/43379187/chapters/109046397

For Bizarrestars and Solmussa fics you need to be registered to an account.

+ my own fic for anyone interested:

48 hours too long by moonycriesdies [jegulus] (14k words) Receiving a letter saying he had 48 hours to live was the best news of Regulus’ life.

He was done the moment he was born, choking on the umbilical cord, hoping to asphyxiate; sadly, the doctors were competent. And they insisted on keeping him alive from that point on.

Mainly black brother angst and jegulus fluff.

Have fun reading !! I’d love to hear your feedback :)