#nat talks tay things

[taiyami]

There are characters that are so aro/ace coded that I cannot ship anyone with them in good conscience. Leave that man alone he's married to his JOB ❗️❗️

[lottieurl]

i hope nat does something deeply morally fucked up in s3 that makes the people who decided to sort her into Good Person Box (in contrast with All The Rest Of Them Who Are Bad) shake in their boots going but she's good?????!??!?!?!

[harmonybarmy]

shauna being like jackie I really need you right now and then sobbing hysterically is literally me every week watching this friggin show.

[seefasters]

enamored with the fact that every single one of lottie's therapies was either actually detrimental or useless to the girls

[kuiinncedes]

bruh

[yelloowcars]

My roman empire is the fact that, from what we could see on the pilot, Lottie and Nat had a good relationship, like, I can tell they were good friends, or at least can see they stood up for eachother or agreed on most things.

I can totally imagine Lottie standing up for Nat everytime she heard something remotely close to what Tai insinuated she should be doing when she said "Don't you have a bong to hit or a dick to suck?". And then Lottie grabbing her arm about to call her out on it, but Shauna got ahead saying "Don't talk to her that way".

Then watching the slow freefall, when Lottie started to "act weird" because of the things she felt, heard, of saw in her visions. Still, at the beginning, they showed Nat still caring, talking to her or trying to sooth her in some way.

Afterwards, we know what happens and they grow apart, Nat constantly pushing Lottie aside on every attempt she had of caring for her (in Lottie's way of caring in the wilderness), but somehow on the bathtub scene it felt like they were finally getting along again, or at least standing on good terms. A silent white flag.

And Lottie cared about Nat, she never stopped caring about her, not when they were young, and definitely not when they were adults.

The adult version of them just makes me wonder how they handled things after the cabin burned down. Did the fact that Nat became the new antler queen change things on their relationship?

Why did Nat say "Friends? Is that what we are?"

Did something bad happen then? Or they grew closer and then after they were rescued and Lottie letf to the mental facility on Switzerland, something else got in between?

Like, it's clear she had to go through all of that alone. At least some of them kept in distant touch. But Lottie? As far as they knew, she was still on Switzerland completely out of her mind.

I don't know, it just makes me wonder so many things.

Also the fact that both of them as adults saw eachother's youngerselves in their most vulnerable moments, speaks to me. Like, why them exactly? They had to share something special for that to actually happen, right?

Just me rambling here, though.

[serqphites]

YELLOW JACKETS HEADCANONS | them being jealous

summary: they notice you getting a little too close to another one of the girls, this is how i think they would react to the feelings and emotions that would tag along with it

pairings: nat, misty, taissa, shauna, vanessa, lottie x afab wlw reader

format: headcanons

warning: jealousy, swearing?, suggestive ig

lowercase intended! not proofread! y/n used!

natalie

- stops speaking to you

- starts going hunting without you

- when you would hunt together she’d ignore you

- gets mad if you talk abt whoever she’s jealous over

- you’ll eventually ask her while you’re out why she’s being so weird with you

- she shouts at you

- you shout back

- “what so you’re mad you’re not the only person i talk to???”

- “no i’m mad because i’m not your fucking person!”

- your argument turns into a love confession on her part

- she starts crying

- she gets really embarrassed and runs back to the cabin

misty

- would be BEYOND upset

- she’d think that she had done something wrong

- overthinking it way too much

- was she not good enough for you? even after everything she’s done for you?

- would go a little crazy ngl

- she would confront them and basically interrogate them

- would ask things like “what are your intentions with them?” and stuff like that

- coincidentally after that she wouldn’t see them near you anymore

- i’m fact they’d always make sure they are as far away as possible from either of you

- you literally have no idea what happened you just assumed you two just drifted

- yayyy misty wins again!!

taissa

- she’s been watching you from afar ever since you joined the team

- she’s scared to be openly gay, would people resent her? would they even care the she likes women?

- she’s actually been making an effort to talk to you as much as she can

- whenever shauna was the one giving out the cards for the chores that day she’d beg her to make sure she saved her the closest one to you

- however when you start spending a lot of your time with van, everything changes

- van is openly gay, just like you are

- is it offensive of her to assume you’re dating just because you’re both gay?

- whenever she would speak to you she’d ask about van

- “we’re just friends tai, i swear”

- “sure you are” she’d laugh it off as if she wasn’t genuinely trying to figure out what was going on between you two

- one day tai is out getting water and when she turns around to head back you’re just standing there

- you very quickly explain that you have feelings for her and that’s why you’ve been with van so much because you’ve been trying to figure out how to deal with them

- she drops the bucket of water and pulls you in for a quick yet passionate kiss

- “take it you feel the same?”

shauna

- she’d be so jealous

- my god you better watch your back

- she’s so scary

- the glares she’d give you both when you’re talking? lethal.

- the things she’d write about the person she’s jealous over in her journal? vile.

- she would be really quiet and weird around you

- it would make you very uncomfortable

- one day she puts her journal away and doesn’t balance it properly on the wooden beam

- it falls sometime after she’s left the attic and you just so happen to stumble across it while searching for her

- you stare down in shock at the cruel things she’s been writing about someone who was only considered a friend to you

- you are that into the journal that you don’t hear someone coming up the ladder

- shauna sees what you’re doing and charges at you, snatching her journal from your grasp

- she shouts at you for reading her journal

- you honestly don’t really listen, too busy admiring how hot she is when she’s mad

- you eventually can’t hold yourself back and pull her in by her hips as close to you as possible

- you share a lust filled, rough kiss

- god you’ve wanted that for so long

van

- she’s not really a crazily jealous person

- she’s a hell of a lot more chilled out than the rest of the girls

- but when you start ditching sneaking out of the cabin with her to sit and read under the covers with misty? oh boy things change

- she’s never felt like this before, she could feel it in her chest how furious it made her to see you with someone else

- she would make sooo many sarcastic jokes about you both

- “they’re probably off snogging misty somewhere”

- you’d overhear one of her jokes to the girls and actually get pretty upset

- at some point later that night you’d drag her outside to explain the way her comments made you feel to her

- she feels terrible

- it was never her intention to upset you

- she admits her jealously got the better of her

- you have a very heartfelt conversation about the way you’ve both been feeling recently

- obviously a love confession

- let’s just say you walk back into the cabin holding hands, everyone pitching in an “ooo la la” or a whislte

lottie

- we all know my girl got some problems

- lottie is very protective of you

- always wanting you by her side

- so when she starts to notice that instead of attaching to her side, you’re attaching to nats, she goes a little crazy

- she’d honestly say some bullshit about how the wilderness wants you to stay with her at all times

- “lottie, you can’t be serious right now”

- “y/n i can’t ignore my visions”

- “we wouldn’t want to upset the wilderness now, would we?”

- at that you fold and agree to stop spending so much time with nat, even if you know it’s just lottie trying to act like it doesn’t bother her that you’ve been giving someone other than her attention

- nat is just in disbelief that her strategy to get you back worked

a/n: hope you liked this, this is my first ever time writing fanfic so don’t judge pls! lmk what you’d want next :)

[vevobly]

could you write friends to lovers shauna shipman x reader headcanons?? i love how you write her and i think is so accurate!! thank you, hope you have a an amazing day ☺️☺️

Friends to Lovers With Shauna Shipman Headcanons! (Pre-Relationship) [1]

A/N: Thanks, Anon! I always try hard to make sure the stuff I make about them is in line with their canon counterparts, but it can't be helped that some will just be out of character for them anyway. Moving aside from those, this was a bit rushed but I still hope you devour and enjoy it!

You were probably in one of her classes or friends with Jackie. At first, she doesn't really acknowledge your existence��too busy focusing solely on Jackie.

It isn’t until after a party that she and the rest of the Yellowjackets team are invited to that she does begins paying mind to you. What you did wasn't a big thing, to be honest!

You probably just, like, accompanied her for a while and complimented her outfit while she was moping over Jackie leaving her for Jeff again or something.

To your surprise, instead of being told to just leave her alone, Shauna actually lights up and starts talking to you; she thanks you for your compliment before talking about other things.

You guys don't even notice how much time passed with how invested you both were in your conversations with each other before someone from her team came to get her.

From then on, Shauna starts waving at you whenever she sees you around. She starts giving you these small (really cute) shy smiles when you two pass each other through the hallways.

It isn't long until it evolves to you guys striking up a conversation whenever you guys catch the other somewhere. You listen to Shauna, and she feels heard. She feels more seen.

Slowly but surely stuff changes between the two of you as you both get closer to each other. Shauna starts sneaking out of her house at night to meet you after dark, just hanging out with you in her car and talking for hours.

The conversations are just about whatever, school and gossip, the usual. But gradually it goes from that to Shauna spilling a lot of stuff she normally would just never tell anyone and keep to herself.

You guys start glancing at each other a lot, brush hands more often than friends should, and find a TON of excuses just to be physically close to each other.

When you guys are around the team, you both have to play it really cool. I mean, the team knows you two have been getting way too buddy pals with each other, but no one knows more than that.

Tai and Van has this vibe with you two. Natalie has this hunch. Jackie is oblivious to it. Laura Lee, Lottie, Mari, and Akilah feel like something's up with you guys while Misty is just in her own world entirely but she's like Nat too. She suspects something is going on between you guys.

You bet your ass that with how close you've become to Shauna, you get pretty good at reading her especially when she's hiding her emotions. You can tell when something's bothering her, and you're the one she immediately turns to when stuff blows up with Jackie or Jeff's existence pisses her off again.

As Shauna's feelings for you get deeper, she kinda starts pulling away from Jackie. Not just emotionally but also physically. Sure, Jackie is all wrapped up in her relationship with Jeff and her image. But when she starts noticing this? Oh boy, you are toasted. She lowkey starts controlling and preventing Shauna as much as she can from being with you anymore further than she likes.

This doesn't stop Shauna though. In fact, it just makes her spend more time with you. When it's just the two of you, her behavior completely changes. She's relaxed and affectionate (platonically 👀), more free and herself around you.

[before-it-felt-like-a-sin]

hi! could you write a fic or headcanons about being in a love triangle in the wilderness (maybe shauna x reader x lottie, or any of the girls idk, you can decide!)

Love Triangle in the Wilderness Headcanons

Pairing: Shauna x Lottie x Reader

I fear this may not be EXACTLY what you wanted but this is what came to me

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It would def be Shauna and Lottie (or Nat and Lottie but I think Shautie fits better for this)

Imagining you're in a situationship type thing with Shauna post crash...

It's all fine until after Jackie dies, like Lottie has no interest in you for the first 3-4 months

But then Jackie dies and Shauna's always in the shed, so you start hanging out with Lottie more

Going to her prayer circles or whatever, getting up with her to bless Nat for the hunt

Shauna notices and gets super fucking jealous, like absolutely livid

She forgives you when you're ultimately pro "let Shauna spend hours talking to Jackie's body", but she still gets jealous when she sees you with Lottie

As winter goes on, though, Shauna starts to get even more jealous. Especially because Lottie keeps hanging around both of you now

Like you're talking to the baby and Lottie joins in, and Shauna gets pissed about it

Both you and Lottie are super confused because you're literally just trying to help her and the baby

Imagining you kind of take the place of Tai when Shauna has her outburst and goes into labor, and you're dragging her back to the cabin

Kind of involving yourself in the wilderness stuff while Shauna gives birth

After the baby dies Shauna's obviously not the same, but she's really cold and distant to you

You start getting even closer to Lottie, and that just makes it worse

Trying to pull Shauna off of Lottie during the fight, but Nat and Taissa hold you back so you don't get hurt too

You're torn between helping Lottie and helping Shauna afterward

Ultimately you go to Shauna because the others have Lottie

Bandaging Shauna's hands and telling her to leave them in the snow for a bit

But then checking on Lottie every day, her telling you what she told Misty (to eat her if she dies) and telling her she's not gonna die

Yall still doing the hunt anyways, not sure how the logistics of that play out

You and Shauna make up and talk about the whole Lottie situation

Shauna also talks with Lottie and the three of you are now in a complicated romantic entanglement (bc it's not a relationship)

You and Shauna start taking care of Lottie while she continues to heal

[transnats]

Selectively mute reader! finally speaking in front of the others and the first and only word they’ve heard from them is the word "fuck"

I feel like the reason why they would say that is probably because they dropped something or because they hurt themselves by accident and instead of asking if they’re okay the others just stare at them for a moment before actually asking if they’re okay. After that I feel like r! Would start speaking a little bit but not so much but even then whoever they talk to cherishes that time with them since they are so interesting to learn about and since they always have something interesting to say

I can imagine that once the group starts to get worse as time passes by, they go back to being completely silent because they feel alone again despite the others still being with them. I also feel like if they were to join in on hunts, nobody would be able to hear them at all because they learned to keep their breathing steady and quieter than the rest so it’s just a whole ass horror movie chase once they find the person they are hunting

I’m sorry I yapped so much

—🪼

yap as much as you want anon that’s literally what my inbox is for!

when they heard you curse, obviously they were shocked to hear you speak. they would be happy about it but they’re also trying to figure out what’s wrong. so they kinda just are all staring at you to assess the situation but once you tell them that you’re okay, they’re calm again. the girls all separately spend time with you in their own ways.

nat brings you hunting with her whenever travis pisses her off enough, tai and van play card games with you and they make it a competition to see who can get you to curse first cause of trash talk or because you lost the game, jackie is telling you about some boy she used to see and how much of a loser he was, so on and so forth.

you soon begin to realize why you didn’t talk to them so much now. the same topics were regurgitated because literally what else could they talk about if they were in the middle of the canadian wilderness? the color of lotties shoelaces? but also, some secret third thing nobody knew about.

so, slowly, you stopped talking again. they noticed how you regressed back into your grunts, nods and hand signals as communication. they were sad but they wouldn’t push you.

more about hunting with nat! :3 i think you’d be most useful because your breathing is steady and quiet, so you were sure you didnt alert any animals. icl nat would definitely be so impressed and shes asking for tips. you weren’t really 100% sure on what you should teach her or how you’d even do it anyways, but nonetheless you attempt to ‘teach her your ways’. nat was generally a quick learner and slowly began to pick up what you were putting down overtime. her hunts became more successful because of you.

with this knowledge now, she didn’t really need you to be there, but she figured you were lucky so she still asks you to join her from time to time. #girlbossing! 😆

[misty-caligula]

We’re all sad to see Nat go, but I think it’s important to recognise, she’s gone because of decisions that she made, over and over.

S1E10 she made the choice to shoot herself. It wasn’t a GREAT choice, but it was one that she made, which Lottie negated against her will. In eerily similar fashion as Misty with the cocaine.

S2E1 Lottie talked to her about her bees, about how when a new queen was born she’d sting the others to death for the good of the hive.

For most of the rest of the season, Nat began taking the lessons of the cult to heart, despite her initial reservations. Some people wondered how sincere she was, but I genuinely think that she began to really work on herself, really believe in Lottie’s wisdom.

Then the poison came out. Immediately, Nat’s demeanour changed. I was wondering what that was about when Lott was trying to convince them in s2e8. She told Nat that she was in so much pain, and Nat didn’t even fight back at all. Just gave her this look...

I think that right here, at this moment, she recognised Lott for what she was. A danger to them all. She decided that she wasn’t capable of changing, of being helped. Just like she’d said to Misty, “We’re ALL like this, aren’t we?” I think that at this moment, Nat decided that once again, Lott wasn’t fit to be queen, that she’d have to take charge, like she did before, and that she should take the example of the bees.

I think she’s also ... angry. Angry that Lott can’t recognise the SOURCE of that pain. She recognises the reality, that it exists, but she’s blind to how responsible she is for it. Consider:

As far as Natalie knows (because of what Misty said in the cabin) Lottie told them that eating Javi was what IT wanted them to do. And then immediately made her in charge of the team, dropping that burden of responsibility and guilt directly on her shoulders. She’s smiling in the moment, when everyone’s bowing. See how much she’s smiling when the reality of that weight sets in, when the unbearable guilt of being in charge crushes down on her. When that PURPOSE is lifted from her shoulders and all she has left is the pain of what she’s done, what she’s made others do in her name. And now, Lott has the AUDACITY to point at Nat’s pain in public, without ascribing blame, as though it were simply ... a natural state of being.

In the beginning of S2E9 she says that Lott shouldn’t go back to the psych ward, but I believe that she never meant any kind of help should be offered. I believe that she had already decided to kill her. I think that she���d hoped that Lott would draw the Queen of Hearts, and it would’ve made it easy. She’d have submitted, I’m sure. Because when she drew the Ace, she looked  SO crestfallen I’d actually assumed at first she got the Queen. Lottie wanted that queen so badly, wanted so much to help her friends. And then Nat would’ve made it quick, with the secret real blade she’d brought with her.

But it wasn’t to be. So Shauna HAS to be the centre of attention, as always, and everyone’s playing along, not realising that Lott’s brought her own real knife to the party. And when they’re chasing her, if Lott catches up she’s GOING to kill her, for reals. I don’t know what kind of 4 dimensional chess they think they’re playing, but they’ve RADICALLY underestimated the danger level here, and it’s only when Callie steps in that she calms it down a little (with a bullet wound of all things).

But still, Nat goes in for the kill.

And it’s not just because she thinks she’d be a better queen, it’s not JUST that she’s afraid. She’s ANGRY. Because, despite herself, despite all of her bluster and her cynicism, her worldliness, and all of it, SHE was the one who bought in to the cult. Shauna and Tai and Van and Misty are here, they’re playing around, they’re drinking and partying and kind of just taking a vacation. They’ll do the therapy for a bit of fun, but they’re not taking it very seriously.

Nat, in a very short time, has found a BELIEF. She’s gone from 2 seconds away from a bullet to actually having a meaning, a reason to get up in the morning. Sober. And nobody except Lott is taking that seriously. Is recognising that she’s making real growth here, that she’s really trying. They’re begging her to drink with them - HER, NATALIE, THE FUCKING ALCOHOLIC, and they’re peer pressuring her to drink.... and she’s saying no.

Because when Lisa said “Do you want to die?” and she said “Not today” she pushed away her drink. Because that’s what alcohol IS to her. It’s not a fun party, it’s not a joyful thing. It’s a curse, a burden, a poison that hurts less than the one she’s trying to drown out. And now she’s found a way to live without it.

And it’s all a lie.

These two women are doing VERY different things. Shauna’s preparing for a pantomime. Nat’s preparing for a murder. Shauna’s in the light, and she’s casting shadow with her dark thoughts. Nat’s bathed in darkness and the only light is the bright fire of her rage.

So she goes to Lisa, and she BEGS her to leave. I feel like there’s a bit of a comparison here with Shauna telling Javi to run from the doomcoming, like go, you’re not safe here. She’s trying so hard to make Lisa understand that she’s the real deal, that SHE got through to Nat, that she can be better than the cult. (And there’s a layer here too, because Lisa is so much just like teen!Nat, and she’s trying so hard to save herself from the cycle). And Lisa just can’t hear it. Just like teen!Nat couldn’t in her shoes. It’s all hopeless.

It’s meant to be a pantomime, but Nat says “Something’s HAPPENING tonight, and I NEED you to leave, while you still can.” What’s happening tonight? She’s going to kill Lisa’s god, and she’s NEVER going to forgive her.

She stops before she leaves and says “Thank you for trying to teach me about forgiveness. It’s a nice idea.“

But it’s not an idea she can get behind. She’s too far gone for that. She, like Coach, can’t let it go. She’s going to burn the motherfucker down. And in the lull that Callie leaves, she does EXACTLY that, she takes the lunge, and it would’ve worked ... if only Lisa had taken her advice.

And suddenly she’s her dad. Attacking Lisa’s mother figure, without context why. For raising her wrong. And Lisa comes to her defence. And Nat can’t explain. And it’s all too fast and too much and Misty doesn’t understand, doesn’t know her well enough, doesn’t have enough faith that Nat has the situation under control. And all she has is a split second to choose, and so she does.

Because Lisa, like Javi, is just trying to help. Overwhelmed by a situation too big, too dangerous. Stepped onto what looks like solid ground, unaware of the danger til it’s too late. But this time, Nat’s not going to let Misty or anybody talk her into letting someone else take her place, not again. She closes the cycle.

I can’t stand seeing people saying she died for nothing, she died for EVERYTHING she believed in. She didn’t die just as she was working on herself, she died BECAUSE she gave up on that work, she was in that situation because she chose violence, and then she chose to give it up in the last moment. She died because she couldn’t forgive. Herself. Misty. Lottie. Any of the other ‘jackets who stood by and let her live. Let her kill. She died because she decided that Lisa was more important than her, and that maybe just maybe she could do it better than she had.

But here’s the thing. Coach says “You’re not like the rest of these girls.” And she replies...

Cycles, cycles... will Lisa be able to forgive herself for surviving Nat? Only time will tell, but we have to have faith in her, like Nat did.

Tai in the car, with Shauna says “I have Simone and Sammy, you have Jeff and Callie. Who does Natalie have?” Nat had Lisa. And now, Tai has Van. Shauna still has Jeff and Callie. Lottie’s hopefully got help. Misty has Walter (thoughts for another day). And Lisa?... Who does Lisa have?...

Watch this space.

[ultrone]

⣷♱🪽🕊️

─ ౨ৎ ‧˚ rebel!reader who was failing yet another one of their classes, and their parents forced them to get tutoring, threatening to send them away for the summer if they didn't comply. after class, you approached your teacher to discuss the possibility of extra tutoring. unfortunately, her schedule didn't align with yours. as a last resort, she arranged for laura lee to assist you. laura had recently started volunteering after school to help students excel in subjects she excelled in, one of which happened to be the class you were struggling with.

you both agreed to meet three times a week, much to your dismay. you clearly couldn't care less about that particular class, and the fact that you now had to attend not only the class but also endure hour-and-a-half tutoring sessions three times a week made you want to end it all. and to make matters worse, the two of you weren't even friends, which added to your lack of enthusiasm. most of your free time was spent with your best friends, lottie, van, and tai. you occasionally hung out with nat too, but usually separately or with lottie. laura, on the other hand, was in a completely different league when it came to friendships. it wasn't that you mocked her; in fact, you’ve always thought she’s a very sweet person. it was just that she had always been too uptight for your taste, which left you completely disinterested in forming any type of bond with her. 

or so you thought until your tutoring sessions began. initially, it was dull, the same old routine of reviewing confusing topics. but as the minutes dragged on and boredom set in, you found yourself inexplicably staring at her face. her neatly combed blonde hair, so soft-looking, her smooth skin, rosy cheeks, and the way her pink lips moved while explaining topics with ease and enthusiasm—all of it made you realize just how pretty she was, something you'd never noticed before. you didn't say anything about it, though; you simply admired her from a distance.

what truly captivated you, however, was simply her. she was not only the sweetest person you had ever met but also far more interesting than you'd ever imagined, and her patience in explaining the same things to you over and over again without a hint of irritation made your cheeks flush each time. whenever stress got the best of you, she would gently rub your forearm, wearing a small smile on her face, and suggest that you take a break. she'd then open her backpack and share some of her snacks with you while you talked about random things. her unwavering faith was admirable too. even though you respected it, you had always thought she was a bit too religious, attending church every weekend, saying prayers before meals, and before bedtime. this, coupled with her prudishness—never uttering a single curse word, abstaining from parties or social events, and avoiding alcohol, essentially steering clear of the typical teenage activities most students indulged in—was something you always found quite weird, or uncommon. although, you had to admit that her dedication in upholding her beliefs was impressive. what truly struck you, though, was the genuine peace and satisfaction that radiated from her whenever she engaged in these activities. she seemed whole, and you yearned for that same feeling.

it didn't take long for you to realize you wanted to feel that completeness too, but by her side. so, you did what you did best: you flirted. you were careful not to make her uncomfortable, keeping your advances subtle, at least initially. you'd drop compliments about how pretty she looked that day, how smart she was, and you even gifted her a beautiful rosary necklace she had been wearing ever since. the best part was catching her shy smile and the way her cheeks reddened at your words, looking away while opening her textbook to continue with the lessons.

eventually, you mustered the courage to ask her out. to be honest, you were a bit nervous. you weren't usually the timid type, but despite the prolonged flirting with her, which she seemed to enjoy, you didn't actually know if she was into you or if she even liked girls, which worried you the most. as the days passed, you grew closer, and you feared that her beliefs might cause her to react negatively and jeopardize your friendship. however, you knew it was worth it, she was worth it, so you took the plunge. during one of your sessions, before you both headed home, you asked her out.

initially, she innocently interpreted your invitation as going out as friends, causing you to chuckle. you then clarified that you meant going out on a romantic date. she blushed and stammered a bit, clearly not expecting that, but to your surprise, she said yes.

─ ౨ৎ ‧˚ some hcs

literally not a single one of your friends believed you when you told them laura lee and you had just started dating 😭 it wasn’t until they saw you walking to practice hand by hand that they realized you were being serious.

“laura lee, y/n? are you serious?” “isn’t she like a pilgrim tho? how’d you even manage to hit? wth”

you convinced her to come to one of jeff’s parties once, and she vowed never to go again. long story short, she drenched shauna in holy water and tossed her pocket bible at her face because she was vomiting and mumbling things in spanish while being really drunk. “i know what a drunk person looks like and believe me when i tell you she was not drunk.” “people vibrate in lower frequencies when they’re drunk and attract demons more easily.” ☠️☠️

studying got a lot more fun since you started dating. she promised that if you get all the answers right, you’ll both watch a movie and cuddle all night. but even when you get them all wrong, you always manage to convince her to do the same anyway 🤭

you began attending church with her every sunday. waking up early in the morning is a hassle, but you understand how much it means to her, and you just want to see her happy. so, if that's what it takes, then so be it.

you were low key surprised her playlists weren’t just gospel songs LMFAOO (much to her parents dismay 😭😭)

whenever you fuck up and do something wrong, she always goes “it’s okay, baby, you’re beautiful in the eyes of our lord.”

once, van, tai, and you offered her $10 in exchange for saying a curse word. you begged her relentlessly, and she felt so pressured that she finally said one. but as soon as the word left her mouth, she burst into tears because she felt awful and guilty 😭 you felt terrible about it so u went to church with her that same day and asked for forgiveness in front of her LMFAOO

[jadedjean]

some of my lottie matthews hcs

been writing lottienat and doing a concerning amount of thinking about their characters so here you go:

friends with tai and van precrash. also knows about tai and van. Tai told her first and she pretended she didn’t know when van told her. she knows that they aren’t talking about it and doesn’t want to get in the middle

is kind of a loner. she doesn’t have a lot of friends and anyone she is friends with it’s sort of surface level

lesbian (obviously)

has a crush on Nat that no one knows about

hosts and pays for all the team events because her dad likes to throw money at her instead of parenting

let’s jackie plan all the team bonding type things at her house because she knows how much jackie likes doing that stuff

started hosting parties because one of the yellowjackets only nights got turned into something bigger and her parents are never home

tries to start conversations with Nat at school but gets weird about it every time and comes off as a bitch

uses soccer as an outlet for all her feelings

is super polite to service workers because she sees how her dad acts and is humiliated by it.

does everything out of genuine kindness and understanding

has an excellent gaydar with everyone except nat, who she’s convinced is straight. knew about taivan before they told her. knows about coach ben. she’s pretty sure there’s something going on between jackie and shauna too.

if they hadn’t crashed in 1996 would’ve loved buffy (her fav characters would’ve been faith and tara btw)

was super drunk at a party at her house in junior year and went to bum a cigarette off nat, complemented her hair, found out she cuts it herself, and then promptly forced nat into her bathroom to cut her bangs.

she absolutely worships nat. she agrees with her in arguments. runs after her when she storms off. defends her when people are being shitty, especially when she’s not around to defend herself. she thinks the absolute world of nat.

finds excuses to hangout with nat at parties (part of why nat knows she doesn’t talk shit unless someone really deserves it)

hasn’t hooked up with anyone. she never went through a phase of thinking she was straight and hasn’t met any other lesbians (besides tai and van)

this isn’t even a fraction of them so lmk if you want me to post them, i have plenty 😭.

[before-it-felt-like-a-sin2]

I feel like we need to talk about how Tai is a lot crazier than she appears in the show. Not to say she doesn't want to be normal, and not to say that we haven't seen her do some wild things. She's just so good at hiding it, even from the observer. She isn't like Shauna, who can hide it most of the time, yet we can see her cracks. She's not like Misty, who to most people just seems... off. She's not like Nat, who is messed up in the most "normal way". She's not like Lottie, who's diagnosed with a mental illness. She's not like Van who lives in the past on purpose. Tai did everything she wanted to do, unlike the rest of the girls. She made herself important. She seems so perfect to everyone she knows, and any fissure in the facade can be attributed to the stress she's under. And this is only in the adult timeline.

We also don't talk about how Lottie seems to be the only one to work through her trauma in a healthy way. Everyone sees Lottie as deranged, as one of the ones most responsible for what happened in the wilderness. But she may actually be one of the most sane characters in the wilderness timeline.

[stilllsage]

My opinions on Lottie ships because she's shipped with basically everyone (my qualifications are that I'm a lesbian)

Btw I have no clue if some of these are the real ship names but I just chose what feels right to me

(🦝) Lottienat:

- I LOVE LOTTIENAT. First season I didn't see it much, I had heard a bunch about them but I didn't personally ship it until season two, I think they have soo much chemistry and some pretty gay interactions (THE BATH SCENE). Such a cool ship though, and I love them in the adult storyline as well. Nat's whole "is that what we are?" line is very interesting, because it could be interpreted as they were more or less than that and I think they're so confusing and so interesting and I need more of them in S3 so bad.

(🐑) Lottielee:

- I adore Lottielee with my whole heart, I can never choose between Lottielee and Lottienat. Lottielee is sooo special to me and was my first ever yjs ship. I think their whole dynamic could've been so interesting to explore, and Laura Lee haunting Lottie all the way to her adult years is so interesting. Laura Lee was the one making Lottie believe she wasn't crazy and I think that's so beautiful. Rich girl and Christian girl just make sense I swearrr. I have soo much I could say about them so lmk if you want my in depth thoughts on that.

(🐻) Shautie:

- I don't have many thoughts about this ship besides how much I love the ship name. I think they could have an interesting dynamic, Shauna being more of a leader in a general way and Lottie being a leader in the wilderness/cult way. Ugh and the whole Lottie taking a beating from Shauna so she could let out her pain was so emotional. I think I could definitely explore them more. I'd definitely have to read more about them to actually have a big opinion, but two sad brown eyed girls always make for a good looking duo.

(🐰) Jackielot:

- Honestly, I donttt ship this one very much. I think I could probably hear someone out if they talked a little more about it but I can't really think of any scenes that could lead to that, and I don't believe that their dynamic would be too interesting or unique, and there's definitely better ones, but I don't hate it! I still think there could be potential, and if they had maybe explored it a little more I'm sure I could see it better.

(🐺) Tailot:

- I definitely see these two as more best friends but I wouldn't completely put this ship off the table. Taivan will always be my favorite Tai ship of course but I still think these two could have pretty cute potential. I think their dynamic is a realllyy good one though, the non-believer and the prophet cult girl hellooo omg. I might just have a bad memory (I usually only focus on the ships I personally ship) but I don't remember very many scenes between them besides for the ones where Lottie is defending Shauna against her. Still though, I think they're cool asf.

That's all for now, let me know if you want more of these or if you'd like my thoughts on ships for other characters. Though, I feel like I have a pretty generic taste so maybe this isn't as interesting as some others. Although, feel free to send in asks about certain ships and I could give a full explanation on those (please lottielee I have so much to say). Thanks for reading this whole thing, that's really cool.

[domripley]

Chokehold - 1

pairing: jackie taylor x natalie scatorccio

warnings for this chapter: all characters are 18+, dom nat, sub jackie, daddy kink, face fucking, gagging, fingering, degradation, choking, begging, edging, crying, fluff, praise kink, cuddling, face slapping, light angst

summary: nat’s hated jackie for awhile now, but one party changes it.

Jackie groaned, “I don’t want to go to Lottie’s party.”

There was only one reason why she didn’t want to go and that reason was Nat. Lottie’s best friend who had hated her since freshman year in high school. Now that they had just started college, Nat still hated her. Jackie wasn’t even sure why - but now that they were on the same team again, she couldn’t avoid her.

So when Shauna suggested that they go to Lottie’s party, Jackie refused to. Unfortunately, her best friend was very persistent and she couldn’t say no to her.

“Oh come on, you probably won't even see Nat, it’ll be fine.” Shauna pouted. “Please for me? I just don’t want to go alone, and Tai and Van are sharing a ride with Laura and Mari. It’ll be fun.”

Jackie took a deep breath, knowing that if it was the other way around, Shauna would still go. She looked at her, trying to decipher what she was thinking but couldn’t. Finally after a few moments, Jackie spoke up. “Fine, I'll go, but I plan on drinking.”

Shauna gave her a smile, “That’s fine with me.”

The car ride to Lottie’s parent’s house was quiet - Jackie was too focused on how she was going to avoid both Lottie and Nat. She wasn’t even sure if it was possible considering it was at Lottie’s house. Jackie sighed, rolling down her window all the way down so she could enjoy the fresh air before they got there. She wasn’t even sure why Nat hated her so much and it was starting to get her even more irritated with the whole situation. Jackie had been wanting to get to know Nat more in the eleventh grade despite all the dirty looks and cold shoulders the blonde would give her in the hallways. But when Nat laughed in her face, she went home that night and cried. It was something she hadn’t told anyone ever since it happened - not even Shauna. She couldn’t face that she had her feelings hurt by someone who wouldn’t give her the time of day since the eighth grade. They used to be best friends and now they were nothing but teammates on the same soccer team.

Shauna parked on the side of the street, realizing that they got there way too late to get a better parking spot. Jackie got out of the car just as Shauna turned it off. She waited for her to get out before they began walking up to the house. Making their way inside, Jackie was relieved at how packed it was. Maybe Shauna was right - maybe she wouldn’t see Nat or Lottie the whole party.

Jackie grabbed Shauna and herself a beer before they split ways, she took a seet on a couch, listening to Mari and Akilah talk about something she could care less about. It wasn’t that she didn’t want to listen, it’s just all she could think about was Nat. She hated having feelings for the blonde, knowing that it would only end with heartbreak and that was the last thing she needed. Especially from Nat.

“You good, Jackie?” Mari stopped talking to ask.

Jackie snapped out of her thoughts, looking at the two. She nodded, “Yeah! Sorry, I was just thinking about practice today is all.”

Mari nodded before going back to her conversation with Akilah. Jackie zoned out once more, coming out of her thoughts again to Nat and Lottie passing her by. They both glared at her causing her to roll her eyes - she wasn’t going to let them ruin her mood more than what it already was. Jackie wished Nat would go back to thinking she was invisible outside of practice, unsure of how long she could take of them glaring at her like she was trash.

Unfortunately, Jackie rolling her eyes towards the two of them made them stop. Nat looked at Jackie, she was a bit surprised that Jackie actually reacted.

“What the fuck is your problem, Nat?” Jackie snapped, standing up from her spot on the couch. The music was loud and everyone around them couldn’t hear what they were saying at all. “What did I do that was so bad that you can’t even stand to look at me half the time when you aren’t glaring at me like I’m disgusting?”

“Fuck you, Jack,” Nat snapped, causing Jackie to glare right back at the blonde at the use of the nickname.

“Fuck you too, Nat.” Jackie snapped back. She had enough and this time she wasn’t going to back down from Nat.

Nat huffed, pulling Jackie out of the room and up the stairs. She pushed her into a bedroom and shut the door so it drowned out the loud music. Jackie couldn’t help but look around and she came to the conclusion that it had to be Lottie’s bedroom.

“You have some nerve talking to me like that,” Nat snapped, pushing Jackie.

Jackie moved back a little, not saying a word as Nat pushed her back once more.

“Me? You’re the one with the nerve!” Jackie finally yelled, pushing Nat.

Nat pushed her back, causing her to almost fall back but the bed helped her stay up. Nat stood in front of her, blocking her in between the bed and herself.

Nat grabbed her throat gently and she smirked, asking, “Yeah? What nerve do I have, Jackie?”

Jackie bit her lip as she shifted uncomfortably on the edge of the bed. Nat smirked, leaning in and kissing her roughly. They continued and as Jackie pulled away, Nat began to unbuckle her belt for her. “This is your chance to back out, Jack.” Nat warned, but Jackie just looked at her.

“Why would I want to back out?” Jackie questioned.

Nat smirked, bringing her free hand up to Jackie’s face. She ran her thumb against Jackie’s bottom lip with a smirk. Nat pulled Jackie’s belt out of the loops in one quick motion - throwing it onto the ground before reaching for her zipper.

Jackie smacked her hands away, reaching for her own zipper before Nat grabbed both of her hands. Nat held them with one hand and with her other, she unzipped Jackie’s jeans finally. Nat let go of her hands, watching closely as she pulled them down.

“Cute,” Nat hummed.

Jackie was wearing underwear that was very obviously dyed pink with a bow on it. She blushed at Nat’s comment, trying to cover herself up but that made the blonde frustrated. Nat slapped Jackie’s hand away hard, shaking her head.

“Did I say you can cover yourself up?” Nat asked.

Jackie bit her lip, shaking her head in response as Nat forced her legs open. Without another word, Nat pushed her underwear to the side and pushed two fingers into her roughly.

Jackie cried out, leaning forward so she could rest her forehead on Nat’s stomach. She squeezed her eyes shut as Nat sped up her fingers, the sounds of Jackie’s wet pussy filled the quiet room as Nat added a third finger.

“Ow, fuck-“ Jackie gasped as Nat pulled her head back with her other hand by her hair. “Please.”

“You’re squeezing ‘round my fingers, you’re already so close aren’t you?” Nat teased, keeping up the pace she had set.

When Jackie didn’t respond, Nat stilled her fingers, waiting for the other girl to respond to her question. Jackie whined - not realizing what Nat wanted until she began to pull her fingers out of her pussy.

“I-I… I was close,” Jackie pouted.

Nat stayed silent, sliding her fingers all the way back inside of her before fucking her once more. Jackie whimpered, squeezing her eyes shut as Nat finally picked up the pace that she had once before. Jackie was on the edge of her orgasm just as the blonde pulled her fingers out of her pussy. Before Jackie could even complain, Nat pushed her down onto her knees.

“C’mon,” Nat pushed. “Get my cock out.”

Jackie brought both of her hands up to Nat’s zipper, shaky and nervous, she tried her best to stay focused as she pulled it down. Nat grabbed her by the hair once more, shoving her face into her crotch and Nat grinded against Jackie’s face for a few seconds before allowing her to pull back. Jackie struggled to get Nat’s pants down, so the blonde pulled them down for her.

“God, am I going to have to do everything for you?” Nat groaned, pulling her own boxers down. She kicked both her pants and boxers off, not caring where they went. Jackie looked up at her as she grabbed the base of the cock. “Go on, get my cock nice and wet.”

Jackie hesitated, but quickly wrapped her lips around the toy. She squeezed her eyes shut as she focused on anything other than the taste she wasn’t used to. Shauna and her had experimented together, but it wasn’t to this extent and once it was in her mouth, she wasn’t sure if she was a fan of it. However, Nat seemed to enjoy it and she wasn’t going to stop now.

Jackie took more of it into her mouth, finally able to relax her gag reflex. Nat bent her head down to look at her with a smile on her face that Jackie had never seen before. Nat grabbed the back of her head, pushing her down further on the toy.

“You’re going to want to breathe out of your nose.” Nat hummed.

Before Jackie could process what she had said, Nat pushed her down all the way so her nose was touching the blonde’s pubic hair. Jackie gagged, trying her best to stay calm and breathe out of her nose as Nat held her in place. As Jackie gagged more, the tears pricked at the corner of her eyes, earning a small laugh from Nat.

“You look so pretty crying on my cock,” Nat hummed. “Finally got you to shut the fuck up but who knew it would be with my cock down your throat.”

Jackie gagged once more and that’s when Nat finally released her grip on her hair. She allowed Jackie to pull completely off the strapon, smiling as she coughed a little.

Nat pouted, “Aw, was that too much for you?”

Jackie rolled her eyes, “Shut up.”

“I could just leave you here,” Nat sighed, caressing Jackie’s cheek. “Leave you all needy and frustrated and I could just go fuck someone else?”

Jackie shook her head, face heating up once more. “No.”

Nat slapped Jackie’s cheek lightly, not hard enough to hurt her - but just enough to surprise her. “Then apologize for that little attitude of yours and we’ll forget about it.”

Jackie wiped the spit off her mouth, taking a deep breath before she let out the smallest, “I’m sorry.”

“What was that, Jackie? I couldn’t quite hear you.” Nat teased, running her tongue over the bottom of her lip before pulling away. “Unless, well, you would prefer that I’d leave you her-“

“I’m sorry!” Jackie groaned, cutting Nat off.

“Good girl,” Nat praised. “Move onto the bed, come on.”

Nat punctuated her words by slapping her thigh. Jackie got up and off her knees as quick as she could, laying down onto her back on the edge of the bed so her legs were hanging off it.

Nat helped Jackie out of her pants and underwear before throwing them onto the floor before she began to pull her own shirt off. Nat reached up, pulling Jackie’s bra down to expose her tits. Nat leaned down, taking one of her nipples into her mouth, sucking on it as she brought her other hand up to play with the other one. Jackie squeezed her eyes shut, biting her lip to suppress the sounds she was going to make. Although the party was still going on and it was loud, she was afraid that someone would somehow hear her.

Nat pulled off her, lifting her head just a bit so she could look at Jackie’s face. “If you want me to keep fucking you, you need to make noises, Jackie.” Nat snapped, grinding against her.

“Fuck, just- get the fuck on with it, please?” Jackie begged, but Nat ignored her, slapping her face before sitting up a bit.

“You’re such a fuckin’ brat,” Nat spat, grabbing the base of the strapon looking down at it as she slowly guided it into her. “But that’s okay, I’m gonna fuck it out of you.”

Before Jackie could say anything, Nat pushed the strapon all the way inside of her. Jackie whimpered, automatically bringing her hand down to her pussy, so she could try to rub her clit, but Nat slapped her hand away.

“You don’t get to touch yourself until I allow you to, do you understand me?” Nat asked, looking at Jackie, who was biting her lip now. When she didn’t answer her, Nat slapped Jackie’s pussy before pinching her clit. Jackie cried out as Nat spoke up again. “I said: ‘do you understand me?’.”

Jackie nodded, “Y- Yes, I understand.”

Nat hummed, beginning to move at a slow pace that was just to both tease Jackie even more and to get her used to the stretch of the strapon. Nat paused, pulling Jackie down a bit to where her ass was hanging off the bed. Nat brought her hands to the back of her knees before pushing them up to her chest. She picked her slow pace up once more, looking down to watch as the toy moved in and out of Jackie’s pussy.

“Please, m’need you to go faster,” Jackie begged.

Nat brought her attention back to Jackie’s face, seeing the tears in the corner of her eyes got her to listen to Jackie. Nat fucked her harder, both of them breathing heavy as they focused on each other.

Nat moved one of her hands off her leg, bringing it to Jackie’s face and slapping her cheek hard as fucked into her. Nat let go of her other leg so Jackie was more comfortable, slapping her once more before bringing both of her hands to her neck.

Nat squeezed lightly as Jackie was spreading her legs wider so it was easier for her. Taking one of her hands off her neck, Nat covered her mouth and pinched her nose as she fucked her harder.

“Such a pathetic slut for Daddy’s cock huh?” Nat teased, sensing that Jackie was close. “If you wanna breathe you’re gonna fucking come for me.”

Jackie’s eyes rolled back, squeezing against Nat’s strap as she began to cum, but Nat pulled out of her. She removed her hand off her mouth just as she released her throat. Jackie cried out in frustration, swearing up and down how much she hated her. Nat rolled her eyes, pushing Jackie’s legs apart before slapping her pussy.

“Oh, I’m sorry I lied to you, baby.” she teased, gripping the base of her strapon and slapping it against Jackie’s pussy. Nat pushed the tip of the toy back inside of her before pulling it away. “Has this pathetic cunt of yours calmed down yet?”

Jackie nodded, “Y- Yes, Daddy.”

Nat hummed, pushing the strapon all the way back inside of Jackie. She fucked Jackie at a rough pace, never letting up as she moaned and whimpered. Nat leaned down, allowing herself to slow down as she wiped Jackie’s tears away.

“I can already tell I’m going to have so much fun making you cry over and over.” Nat hummed. “You close again?”

Jackie took a deep breath, fighting the urge to lie - unsure if Nat was going to allow her to even come. Jackie pretended that she never heard what she said, silently hoping Nat would let her question go unanswered. But of course, Nat did not. She stopped mid thrust, slapping Jackie’s clit as hard as she could. Jackie cried out, trying her best to close her legs but Nat forced them to stay open.

“Don’t try to hide it from me again,” Nat warned. Nat pulled out of Jackie, slapping the tip of the strapon against her sensitive pussy. “Stupid slut, thinking I wouldn’t notice.”

Nat leaned down, spitting on Jackie’s pussy before pretending to bring her hand back down. Jackie flinched, making Nat laugh. Nat rubbed Jackie’s clit softly, teasing her gently as she studied her face.

“Tell me why you think you deserve to come, since you want to so fucking bad.” Nat said conversationally, pinching Jackie’s clit when she didn’t respond. “I guess you don’t want to come after all huh? You just want Daddy to use you like a fleshlight then?”

Jackie shook her head frantically, “No, no- Daddy I do want to come.”

Nat shook her head - her smirk back on her face. She began to rub at Jackie’s clit once more, speaking up and saying, “Then tell me why you think you deserve to come.”

“Because I’ll- I’ll be a good girl for you, please, Nat.” Jackie begged, squeezing her eyes shut as Nat brought her fingers down to her entrance. “Let you do what you want to me, please Nat.”

Nat stayed silent, but slipped two fingers into Jackie. After fucking her for a few moments, Nat finally broke the silence, “I don’t think you deserve to cum on my cock.”

Nat curled her fingers, causing Jackie to cry out before freezing. There was a knock on the door and Jackie held her breath but Nat continued to fuck her. She slipped in another finger, fucking Jackie as hard as she could. Her orgasm was growing closer and just as she was about to come, there was another knock on the door. Nat pulled her fingers out of her and rushed to the door - only opening it so the person could just see her head and nothing else.

Jackie whined silently, frustrated that she had been edged for a third time. She sat up and when Nat was done talking to whoever was on the other side, she shut the door and locked it.

“Who- Who was that?” Jackie asked.

Nat smirked, “Shauna was looking for you, told her I hadn’t seen you all night.”

Jackie whimpered at Nat’s words, biting her lip as Nat returned between her legs. She smiled softly, reaching down to rub one of Jackie’s inner thigh.

“After that little interruption, I think you do deserve to cum.” Nat said, her voice soft as she slipped two fingers into Jackie’s pussy. “What do you say? Do you want Daddy to make you cum?”

Jackie nodded crying out, ”Please!”

Nat curled her fingers, fucking her for a good minute before replacing them with her strapon. She pushed in all of the way, not wasting any time and started at a fast pace. As much as she enjoyed edging Jackie, she wanted to see her come even more now.

“Such a good girl for me,” Nat praised. “Wonder what the team would think about our captain getting fuck like some slut at Lottie’s party? What would Shauna think?”

Jackie didn’t answer, too focused on how good Nat was fucking her to care. Nat, however, wanted an answer. She slowed her pace down, wanting Jackie to be able to focus on her. “Answer me, Jack.” Nat pushed.

Jackie nodded, “She- She would be surprised.”

Nat smiled, speeding up her movements one more. Jackie was close, needing more, she begged. “Please rub my clit, Daddy. Please, please, please!”

Nat listened, rubbing her clit hard and fast as she kept her pace up. Jackie was close, swallowing her spit before she began to beg. “Please let me cum, Daddy. Please, I’m- I’m so close, can’t hold it anymore.”

Nat hummed, “Go on.”

As soon as she said the words, Jackie came - holding her breath as Nat fucked her through her orgasm. Once Jackie relaxed, she took the deep breath she had been holding in. She opened her eyes, whimpering as Nat pulled out of her.

“Thankfully, Lottie has a bathroom connected to her room so we don’t have to go through the crowd to get to the other bathroom.” Nat commented, helping Jackie off the bed and towards the bathroom. Nat looked away as Jackie went to the bathroom - helping her back to the bed before she crawled in with her.

“Nat?” Jackie whispered as Nat turned her back away from Jackie.

“Yeah?” Nat turned to look at the other girl, biting her lip at how pretty she looked tired.

“Would… Would it be too much to ask you to cuddle with me? I understand if you don’t want to.” Jackie bit her lip nervously, closing her eyes again as she turned to her side to face Nat.

Nat smiled, “That’s not too much at all, really. I would love to cuddle with you.”

Nat laid down on her back and Jackie moved closer so she could lay her head on the blonde’s chest. She took a deep breath, not sure of what to say.

“I’m sorry, Nat.” Jackie whispered.

“For what?” Nat asked, a little confused as to why she was apologizing to her now.

“For whatever I did to make you hate me.”