#naeun pack

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( 𝐂𝐎𝐌𝐌𝐈𝐒𝐒𝐈𝐎𝐍𝐄𝐃 𝐏𝐀𝐂𝐊 ) by clicking on the CONTENT SOURCE BELOW you’ll find #581 gifs of actor son naeun in the drama: agency (episode 12-16). bringing the gif total to #1,722. all of the gifs were made from scratch by me, and intended to be used for roleplaying purposes only. please like/reblog if you find this pack useful!

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손나은 + 최현욱

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꒰ ㅤ✦ㅤ⠀ׅ⠀໋⠀🐚​᭄ㅤ﹫ nᧉ𑜎 p𖦹st ⠀ش ㅤ ⊹ ㅤ◌ ꒱

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~ . ⋆☼⋆☼⋆ . ⋆☼ . ☼⋆ . ☼⋆ . ⋆☼⋆☼⋆ . ~

☼⋆ . i wanna be as beautiful as the ocean.. ⋆☼

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bienvenue au romantisme

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[kpopfeeds]

“Guilt follows me like a shadow.” -Naeun 

0 6 . 1 1 . 2 0 2 3 

[tonicandjins]

all of the girls you loved before

CHARACTERS: lee donghyuck | haechan x fem reader

WORD COUNT: 3k

GENRE: best friends to lovers, all of the girls you loved before by taylor swift

WARNINGS: none, just fluff

AUTHOR'S NOTE: this has been in my drafts for way too long. hope you like it! please consider donating/tipping me

all of the girls you loved before is the fourth installment from 23 moments with donghyuck

lee naeun, June 2013 - July 2013

Lee Donghyuck’s first love turned out to be the quickest one.

It was a whirlwind romance, like how he would describe it whenever you’d ask him. At thirteen, you and Donghyuck were finally catching up to the rest of your homeroom’s growing pains—both literally and figuratively. Your legs were longer now, albeit Donghyuck’s becoming longer than almost everyone else’s, and you were prettier than most. Letting your bangs grow was a wise decision in the summer, after all. Long gone were your chubby cheeks and you’d learned how to put on some lip tint before jumping on the bus to school. The internet was a better teacher when it comes to styling your hair; you’d never expected hairstyles come with face shapes. Meanwhile, Donghyuck, though his cheeks are still as round as they were in primary school, has learned that the hugs and kisses he used to give everyone in homeroom erupted butterflies all over.

You’d wondered, of course, because among everyone in class, Donghyuck’s probably given you the most hugs and kisses, yet you haven’t quite figured out what they meant when they say he gives people butterflies.

In the same year, Donghyuck learned consent. His mother and father gave him a lecture on why kissing people randomly isn’t ideal at his age and why consent is important. Hence, he’d stopped giving everyone random kisses. The last one he’d kissed you on the cheek was a week before summer started—not that you were keeping a record of all the stolen kisses—right when you were about to jump off the bus you and him were on.

Lee Naeun gave the first consent at thirteen. On the last day of classes.

She was moving to the US the next school year. Donghyuck made you wait by the benches as she packed up her duffel back after soccer practice.

She was taller than everyone else. Sporty and ambitious, Lee Naeun was every boy’s kryptonite. Just like how Lee Donghyuck was every girl’s.

“Can I kiss you?” Donghyuck asked. Naeun blushed like crazy. She was taller than Donghyuck, so when she’d nodded, Donghyuck had to go on his tip toes to reach her lips.

You looked away when Donghyuck got his first real kiss, wondering if the sudden pain in your stomach is the same as the butterflies that people get when Donghyuck kisses them.

kim haerin, August 2016 - January 2018

Kim Haerin was Donghyuck’s girlfriend all throughout junior high school.

Contrary to popular belief, Haerin pursued Donghyuck from the first week of classes. You and Donghyuck had moved to a different school after middle school as the one in your hometown didn’t focus much on arts, leaning towards STEM more, which, if you and Donghyuck were being honest, is the last thing you’d want to do in high school. This also meant that you and Donghyuck were new in town—the new girl and the new guy—and that people your age were particularly curious about you and Donghyuck that school year.

Oddly enough, the first thing they needed to confirm was whether you and him were dating. As soon as it was a clear no, you and Donghyuck received flowers left and right. You wondered whether this is what high school should be like and expected Donghyuck to feel the same, but that school year was different. The people liked the extroverted, friends with everybody Donghyuck, so it was easier for him to adjust to the new place and the new people.

They’d started dating the week after school started. Haerin was a part of a big group, the ones who’d studied in the school’s sister middle school down the road, and she knew everyone. She was nice, or so you’ve heard because you didn’t have that many conversations with her to confirm if she truly is, and she’d say hi to you when you passed by her by the lockers.

Donghyuck tried to take you with him whenever they’d hang out, of course, but his attempts could only do much because you weren’t into the same things as they were. Eventually, you’d found your own group and adjusted to the new school all by yourself. It made you worry about Donghyuck less whenever you’d see him all happy and loud like the person he is. While Donghyuck’s name stuck with Haerin’s all throughout high school, yours remain independent. You’d decided you’d start dating when you’re ready.

The only times you’d see each other, apart from the classes you shared, were weekends with your families. You and him talk, of course. Donghyuck at home is different from Donghyuck at school. But it was different. The memories of you and him going to and from school gradually blurred between all the people you’d met in high school.

Kim Haerin broke up with Donghyuck as soon as you all came back from Christmas break on the last year of junior high. She’d started dating the new guy from the other class who transferred all the way from Germany. She’d given Donghyuck a kiss in the middle of the empty gymnasium and told him she’d loved him but the sparks were gone.

Donghyuck waited with you on the bus stop that same day. To this day, he waits with you.

im jieun, November 2019 – December 2019

Im Jieun was one of a kind, and if you could pick, she was your favorite from Donghyuck’s long list of lovers.

She was a couple of years older than you and Donghyuck. How Donghyuck even got the slimmest chance of dating her, you have no idea. She was a freshman in college. You and Donghyuck met her at one of your seniors’ birthday party; they’d hit it off easily. They had the same personality, almost like twins, and were pretty much the perfect couple in your newly found friend group.

That year was the most life changing for him because Donghyuck lost his virginity with her, and for quite some time, similar to when he’d dated Kim Haerin, he disappeared from your life, and not that you’d cared at much at that time because you were also dating your first boyfriend, Na Jaemin.

Jaemin was everything a first boyfriend should be. Gentle and sweet, determined and future-driven, truly the kind you’d want your parents to meet. He’s been in the same class as you since junior high, but he wasn’t the kind to approach women that easily. He was brought up loyal and kind, and it showed with the way he treated you. He asked you out on a dinner for the first date, at an amusement park for the second, and a picnic by the park for the third—which was the same day he officially asked you as his girlfriend.

When Donghyuck had learned, he was as surprised as a best friend would be.

“You never told me you liked Jaemin,” he commented when you’d told him the news. He was sitting on the swivel gaming chair you and him bought as pairs right beside your bed, where you were still half asleep because he barged in at seven on a Sunday morning. Apparently, he learned it because he saw Jaemin’s Instagram story from your date with him last night.

“Because I didn’t,” you groggily replied. You squinted, trying to make up your mind whether Donghyuck’s a dream or not. “I mean, I like him now. But it didn’t occur to me until he started asking me out for dates.”

Donghyuck leaned his head against your chair, kicking his feet off the floor to spin himself around. “You never even told me you went out on dates.”

You giggled. “Are you sulking now, Donghyuck?”

He sighed. “I tell you all about the girls I date. Even the ones I dream on dating. And this one time you finally decided to start dating, I wasn’t there for you.”

You sat up, watching as your child-like best friend spins himself dizzy on your chair. “Check your phone. Every time Jaemin and I went out, I texted you.”

He sighed again, pressing his foot on your bedroom’s floor, stopping so he could look at you eye to eye. “You didn’t tell me it was a date. You said you were having dinner with him, going to the amusement with him, and hanging out with him at the park.”

“We’re 19,” you pointed out. “What would 19-year olds do alone together?”

Donghyuck tilted his head sideways. “You and I are always alone together.”

“It’s different.” You throw a pillow at Donghyuck, kicking off the blanket from your body and moving to give him some space to lay on. “Come here, you big baby.”

Donghyuck’s mouth formed into a pout but occupied the space on your bed anyway.

“I’m a big girl,” you reminded him as he rested his head on your chest. “I don’t need you to be there for me on my first relationship.”

“Ouch,” he mumbled.

“I will always need you in my life, Donghyuck,” you clarified, knowing well how Donghyuck hates being not needed. “Just, not for this one. I might actually, truly like Jaemin. He’s a good guy.”

Donghyuck hummed. “But I’m still your best friend, right?”

You laughed. Because it’s the most ridiculous thing you’d ever heard. Donghyuck will always be your best friend. You were certain no relationship would break that. You and him were past being insecure about your friendship.

“Always.”

Donghyuck broke up with Jieun before Christmas break. The reason, you have no idea. But he’d told you it wasn’t as fun as it was in the beginning anymore. And Jieun was in university, after all, and you and him had SATs to pass and college essays to ace before the school year ends.

You and Jaemin took him out for clubbing that night, in hopes of cheering him up. It was a mystery to you why he’d suddenly decided to end it when the relationship seemed like it was smooth-sailing. They’d even talk about Donghyuck going to the same university as Jieun next year. You didn’t recall any fights within the relationship, so you wonder why.

Donghyuck leaves the club without you and Jaemin.

lee naeun (again), February 2020 – April 2020

Donghyuck learned from Lee Jeno that his first love returned from the US to take her bachelor’s degree in Seoul on Valentine’s day. He found her wandering around SNU’s main lobby on the first day of the spring semester. You and Donghyuck were visiting the university after receiving your acceptance letters, looking for an apartment to share. Jaemin was going to another university, so it wasn’t wise for you and him to move in together, hence Donghyuck offered to move in with you to save up some money for rent and other expenses.

Lee Naeun stood there, still taller than Donghyuck, still the first person who ever kissed Donghyuck’s lips, still the first person you’d ever compared yourself to, wondering what she had that you didn’t.

Like the day they kissed in 2013, you looked away when Donghyuck finally reached to where she stood, wondering why, all of a sudden, many years later, the butterflies were flying all over in your stomach once again.

ginny williams, September 2020 – October 2020

Of course, the first woman that Donghyuck officially dated in university is from the UK. Jeno said he only dated her to show everyone he’s immensely improved in English.

The break-up was proof Donghyuck never improved in English. He didn’t even understand why she was breaking up with him.

park yesol, September 2021 – February 2022

You introduced Donghyuck to Park Yesol because it’s what she wanted for her birthday.

She had invited you to her 21st birthday. You and her, if you were being honest, barely know each other. You only shared a class in Literature once, so at first, it was a mystery to you why she suddenly invited you. When she’d asked if you could ask Donghyuck to RSVP with you, you’d known that it’s all she wanted from you.

Eventually, they’d start dating. Donghyuck, at that time, had been single for almost a year. He thought he convinced you that college was finally catching up on him hence he’d put a stop to his “demanding” dating life. However, Donghyuck is your best friend, and you could see right through him. You knew he liked someone he wasn’t willing to share with you, and he was probably working up the courage to ask that person out, which, when you thought about it, was new. Donghyuck was cunning and ambitious and he knew what he wanted and how to get it. He was never one to shy away from the people he liked, so it was a little suspicious that it took him almost a year to start dating again. You did not figure out who he liked, and you knew he’d only started dating Yesol to get you to shut up about it.

You and him knew it wasn’t a serious relationship because Yesol was dating other guys while she’d dated him. Donghyuck told you it felt like the relationship was just for sex because of his oozing sex appeal; you’d thrown a cushion at him when he’d said that.

Meanwhile, you and Jaemin were almost at pointbreak.

You didn’t want to spend Valentine’s Day being uncertain of the relationship would go, so you broke up with him on the first day of February. Jaemin had gotten an internship in Japan a few months ago, and the company that hired him liked him so much that they wanted to keep him while he finishes his degree virtually. You wished you could say the same, that you loved him so much you also wanted to keep him.

It was finally catching up to you and him, the distance. So, it was better you’d break it off before you and him start failing subjects just to keep a relationship steady.

Two and a half years together wasn’t enough. You and Jaemin wanted to spend the rest of your college years, at least, together. But like he said the night you’d ended it: it wasn’t worth it if it was compromising your mental health and studies. You’d cried so much that night, and you wondered if Donghyuck pretended he couldn’t hear you sobbing from the other side of the apartment.

Come Valentine’s Day, Donghyuck asked you to dress up, throwing a paper bag at you.

The place he “luckily scored” a reservation from, on a busy, fully-booked Valentine’s night, was nice. It was romantic and you were flushed and giddy from all the wine and all of the Donghyuck.

“Why are you here with me and not with Yesol?” you’d asked after the waiter filled your glass.

Donghyuck smiled at you. “I broke up with her two weeks ago.” Around the same time you did with Jaemin. “I figured if my best friend would be miserable on Valentine’s day, I should be, too.”

You laughed. “Well, you don’t look too miserable for a newly single man.”

“I’m not,” he confessed. “I’m never miserable when I have you.”

You reached out one hand, palm facing Donghyuck. He intertwined his hand with yours. And it fit perfectly. Just like the dress he got you.

your name, June 2022 – present (or alternately, sometime in 2005 – forever.)

“Lee Naeun, Kim Haerin, Im Jieun, Lee Naeun again, then Park Yesol,” you enumerate. “You were a ladies’ man!”

Donghyuck whines, begging you to stop as you go through his things in his room, particularly the notes and letters from the girls he’d dated.

You and him are moving out. Graduation is just around the corner, and you and Donghyuck decided to move on to a better place. Your boyfriend got a job in one of the biggest companies in his industry, while you’re yet to find yours.

“Don’t forget Ginny Williams,” he teases, throwing you a love letter from the bunch.

“You did not date Ginny Williams, Donghyuck. It was an illusion,” you scoff. “Tell me one conversation you had with her. A real one.”

“I swear to God, she loved me,” he answers. “Stop playing around and help me in here.”

You stand from the carpeted floor and walk towards Donghyuck as he sorts out the things from his study desk. Donghyuck starts with the tower of books and folders, organizing them alphabetically as he carefully places them on the box labeled as books. The other box is labeled as essentials; hence you start throwing his headphones and speakers and its chargers in. While doing so, you get a hold of a small box that contains what you thought were miscellaneous items mixed in with trash, until you realize what’s inside.

There are a few polaroid pictures of you and him from high school, including a picture of you and him on your high school’s graduation day, some receipts from, now you recognize, the places you’d gone to. There’s a receipt from when you and him took the subway to visit a museum at the other side of the country back in 2018, another from Valentines day 2022, when you and him celebrated being newly single, the old ticket from your senior prom when he’d gone with you, and so many more that you could recognize just from its dates.

“Donghyuck,” you whisper as you look at the box of memories. Donghyuck turns, eyes wide when he recognizes the box you’re holding. “Where… where should I put these?”

Donghyuck loved many girls in his life. You can recall their names in the order of when he’d dated them. You had your favorites and the ones you didn’t like that much. Some of your friends wonder if you’ve ever been insecure knowing you weren’t the first kiss or the first person he had sex with and if you were okay with knowing all of that. You weren’t the first and you wish you’d be the last. The only thing you’re certain of, is that he had always loved you, and that alone erases all the other thoughts.

If you could say so, you’re thankful for all of the girls he loved before because they made him the one you’d fallen for. Every dead-end street led him straight to you.

He smiles. “Essentials.”

[adora-bd]

Summary: While the group gears up for a comeback as six, Chohee tries to deal with her stalker

Mentioned: Stalker, taking pictures without permission, @elektra-world Yua (mentioned), threatening, police not taking her seriously

[ PART 1 : First Contact ]

I won't stop until I make you mine.

Until I make you mine

"Alright ladies, you all did great!"

Chohee clapped with her members as her dance teacher left, leaving all of the girls to relax after a long practice. They had a comeback nearing so it was vital that they stayed on top of their game and were ready for it. They didn't want to let the fans down.

"You guys go ahead, I wanna clean some stuff." Chohee waved off her members as she stretched, Naeun offering again to drive her home as it was late and she didn't want her to be alone. Chohee waved off her worry, letting her know that she was going to stay the night at Yua's and that it was close by. Chohee felt like her older members babied her too much, telling them that even though she was younger than them, that she could take care of herself.

"Alright, just let us know that you got there safe," Naeun held her hands up in defense before grabbing her keys, leaving with everyone else to go relax at home. Chohee stared at herself in the mirror, taking a deep breath before she turned on the music, running through the dance a few times. Out of all of the members, she earned the most corrections, so she wanted to make sure she didn't hold her team back.

After she became satisfied with her amount of progress, she packed up, beginning her trek to Yua's.

"Are you sure you don't want me to call my boyfriend, Chohee? It's pretty late." Chohee sighed before declining, telling her that she was alright. "You're close by so it won't take me too long. I promise you, I'm safe." Chohee smiled as she entered a nearby convince store before hanging up. She whistled as she looked through the aisles, picking up different snacks she saw fit for her sleepover with her best friend. After buying lots of snacks, she returned outside, once again on her way. As she walked, she noticed a man in an orange puffer jacket walking on the opposite side of the street. She didn't think anything of it, continuing her walk as she looked at movies she and Yua could watch on her phone. When she reached an intersection, Chohee received a message from an unknown number.

PLAY ME

Chohee clicked the link, listening to the song that began to play. She thought it was from an idol she had begun to like, a smile coming to her face as she continued on her way. As came closer to Yua's, she received another text.

UNKNOWN: Do you like the song?

Chohee: Yes

UNKNOWN: [picture]

UNKNOWN: I can tell.

Choehee paused when she saw the picture, feeling her heart drop. It was a picture of her walking, the picture showing a clear smile on her face. She could tell it was taken from afar, making her turn around to try and see if she saw anyone. She felt her hands shake as she began to run, first telling her members about it before another text came through.

UNKNOWN: Be careful running, Chohee.

UNKNOWN: Don't worry, though. I'll comfort you if you fall.

She couldn't help but run faster, texting Yua to open the door as she came closer. Anyone she saw as she ran, she became suspicious of; someone was watching her closely. Yua quickly opened the door as Chohee rushed in, slamming the door behind her before resting her body against it. She rested her head against the door, taking lots of deep breaths as Yua looked at her like she was crazy. When she noticed Yua's look, she laughed awkwardly. "I was just sooo excited to see you, Yua unnie." She hugged her, handing her the bag full of goodies as they made their way to her room.

As Yua made the ramen, Chohee told her members in their group chat about the texts, and all of them freaked out about it, especially Naeun. When she asked what to do, Naeun mentioned telling the company about it, but she rejected the idea. She already had her members treating her like a baby, why would she want the company to do the same? She placed her phone down as Yua returned, asking if she was alright, remembering how shaky her hands were. Chohee hid how scared she was behind her smile, choosing to focus on her sleepover.

It was probably a one-off situation.

[guangchuans]

[Image description: 8 GIFs of SHINee's Jonghyun in various appearances through the years.

From the reality tv show "We Got Married.” Jonghyun closes the door to a room after leaving, captioned “leaves Taemin and Naeun alone” and then scene changes, to Jonghyun peeking into the room through the window, captioned “peaks at them through the window.”

From a variety talkshow. Jonghyun imitates part of choreography for “Everybody” and jokingly imitates pants ripping because of the move, captioned “demonstrates the way Minho’s pants ripped.”

From a music video filming behind. Jonghyun tries to fix a prop vinyl player while laughing a bit, captioned “laughs nervously as he tries to fix a prop he broke.”

From a radio show. Jonghyun makes a silly face by putting two reverse peace signs to his cheeks, squishing them, and giving a smile.

From unknown to describer source. Jonghyun rides a child’s rocking horse toy as if it was a mechanical bull.

From the variety show “Weekly Idol.” Jonghyun gets increasingly agitated as he argues with people off screen, “I was here! Really! NO! I WAS REALLY HERE!”

From the reality tv show “SHINee’s One Fine Day.” Jonghyun takes one of the large speakers in the living room and starts to carry it off, captioned “*packing for his trip* I’m going to take this with me.”

From an awards show. Jonghyun imitates a part of the performance, exclaiming in an joking overdramatic way, captioned “imitates the scream in Blackpink’s Playing with Fire performance.

End image description.]

Caption in small text reads: jonghyun being silly and adorable, for anonymous.

jonghyun being silly and adorable, for anonymous

[zvlda]

—   𝐒 𝐎 𝐍 𝐍 𝐀 𝐄 𝐔 𝐍  ,   𝐆 𝐈 𝐅   𝐏 𝐀 𝐂 𝐊

( 𝐂𝐎𝐌𝐌𝐈𝐒𝐒𝐈𝐎𝐍𝐄𝐃 𝐏𝐀𝐂𝐊 ) by clicking on the CONTENT SOURCE BELOW you’ll find #600 gifs of actor son naeun in the drama: agency (episode 7-11). bringing the gif total to #1,141. all of the gifs were made from scratch by me, and intended to be used for roleplaying purposes only. please like/reblog if you find this pack useful! 

PLEASE DO NOT :

claim them as your own or add into hunts!

use in smut rps / krps, use to portray minors

use in your own graphics or crop for personal use, without visible credit

[ ! ] CONTENT WARNINGS : food, alcohol, flashing lights [ ! ] COMMISSION INFO :  here

[hellorpbr]

oi anjos! esbarrei com vocês pela tag e queria aproveitar pra pedir ajuda. vocês podem me dar sugestões de fcs coreanas (atrizes) que tenham gif pack? não manjo muito delas e queria muito uma pra fazer um plot específico 🙏

annyeong! friday’s talk-show!

olá, meu queride sunchild! muito obrigada pela mensagem! aqui vai uma listinha de atrizes que gostamos muito e que também têm uma boa quantidade de resource:

Kim Yeri/Yeri (1999)

Kim YooJung (1999)

Kim So-Hyun (1999)

Jang Gyuri (1997)

Kim Sejeong (1996)

Mun Kayoung/Moon Gayoung (1996)

Go YounJung (1996)

Go Minsi (1995)

Krystal Jung (1994)

Bae Suzy/Suji (1994)

Han SoHee (1994)

Son Naeun (1994)

Jeon JongSeo (1994 / minha favorita!)

Lee JiEun/IU (1993)

Kim Jiwon (1992)

Im JinAh/Nana (1991)

Kim Goeun (1991)

Seo Joohyun/Seohyun (1991)

Park Sodam (1991)

Im Yoonah/Yoona (1990)

Kim Taeri (1990)

Seo Yeji/Yeaji (1990)

Lee SungKyung (1990)

Song Hye Kyo (1981)

e claro, também tem nossa macotinha a Joy/Park Sooyoung (1996) com muuuuuitos resources!

esperamos ter ajudado! esteja livre para sempre nos enviar uma mensagem quando quiser, sunchild ~ ♡

[besaem]

[ a loss as great as this ]

A HIGH SCHOOL, SEOUL —[ SOMETIME IN 2018 ] Saem checks up on KIM NAEUN …

[ tw: talk of death ]

Deaths happen every day. It’s a natural part of life—the end of it. Everything comes to an end eventually; every day, every meal, every conversation, every story. In a way, that inevitable end of everything makes the bits before that all the more special. Being confronted by the end of life at such a young age, and so consistently throughout his life, Saem had realised that there really wasn’t any point to life. Not inherently. That didn’t make life pointless, though; far from it. Life is what you make it, and if you achieve great things it’s really no more special than achieving nothing of much merit, at least when it comes to your last moments. You don’t lay there thinking about that Nobel Peace Prize you won, or how you built a rocket ship that went to the moon. You think about your loved ones—the people you’ll miss, and who will miss you the most. Any life can have meaning, as long as you strive to be happy, no matter how you gain that happiness.  

Death, for those that die, often isn’t that bad at all. Once you’re dead, you don’t even know about it. It’s the people left behind that suffer. They wonder what it was like, if there’s anything after. They think about how life will be now that one less person is in the world, someone they held close to their heart, that has now left a gaping hole in their wake. But, death doesn’t have to knock us to our knees—Saem has seen the effects of loss, time and time again, and one he thinks about now, is that of Kim Naeun, a classmate of his. Recently, his families funeral parlour had held her parents funeral, and despite Saem’s feelings of ‘well, it happens to us all’ about it, the story of how she’d lost them both had shaken that belief that it didn’t have to ruin you. Both parents in the blink of an eye was a lot different to an elderly woman losing her already ill and immobile husband. 

Saem recalls the moment Naeun had left the funeral, and how he’d carried a mug of warm tea, a bottle of water, and pack of tissues out to her, sitting beside her on the steps just outside the door and letting the silence linger around them. One thing Saem had learnt from helping out at the funerals was that often people just needed time to be with their thoughts. That didn’t mean he was about to let the daughter of the deceased be alone at a time like this, but he wasn’t about to talk her ear off either, not when he expected her head to already be filled with things she didn’t want to hear. He’d let her lead, and after a while they’d talked. Not a lot, but enough. 

Now, he spots her one lunch break, a week later, and grabs an extra drink and a cookie as he buys his own food. He’d kept somewhat of an eye out for her ever since the funeral, just to make sure she was doing okay. Saem doesn’t know her well enough to know her living arrangements now, nor how she’s been doing since it happened, but something in him simply can’t let him walk on, and not go and check. With his tray in hand, he heads over to her table and stands opposite her. “Hey, do you mind if I sit with you?” And silently, he sets down the drink and cookie in front of her. 

[sailorjisunq]

손나은 + 방찬

[lucidrims]

          " so what you're saying is, i have to present my food in an appetizing way huh ? i see. you're quite high maintenance naeun ssi, but i love it. " she keeps the conversation light, laughing away, " that's going to be a challenge and i do like challenges . . i'm just going to pretend i'm on masterchef or something. " kaori playfully adds, wriggling her brows. she signals to the waiter that they were ready for to wrap their meal up, fumbling in her handbag for her credit card, " mhm, i guess you could say that. they wanted me to follow their footsteps but i said, nope, i'm packing my bags and moving to seoul. " she continues sharing more of her life story, a smile present constantly, " they were a little bit mad, but -- what can they do ? i was old enough to make my own decisions. "

and it wasn't the easiest decision to make, that was for sure. living alone away from your hometown had its benefits, but it was also very lonely. upon hearing naeun's admission, she perks up, as she was thinking the exact same thing, just that she was too shy to speak about it, " honestly ? it's like you read my mind. " the make-up artist reassures her, " uh -- is it too soon if i ask you to come over for dinner tomorrow ? that's only if you're not busy, of course. "

She's already picturing bumping into her randomly on the street if they're in the same area, and the smile only grows. Overall, she wouldn't mind seeing the female more in the future. Probably not every day, but every week? More than once a week? Her smile turns into a grin of her own upon hearing Kaori's question, and she nods. "Usually, if the food doesn't look good, I don't eat it." She likes revealing little things about herself, and she also likes learning new things about the other. "Ah, you're following your mother's and grandmother's footsteps? I know how to cook some things, but I definitely can't cook anything fancy." Just enough to keep herself alive with the food she makes. Her family being close, Naeun doesn't have to cook that often. Weekly visits to her parents' house and she gets food for a couple of days. "But I'm sure you will not disappoint. You seem talented with everything you do."

The female finds the hand clapping endearing and the look on her face reveals it. She leaves little pieces of the food on the table when she's done, not being able to finish it all because of the appetizers they had earlier. "I kind of want to see you before Tuesday..." She admits quietly while leaning against the table with her elbow and her palm is on her cheek, studying the female's features when she gets a closer look at it. Pretty. Maybe she's showing a little impatience, but can you blame her?