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i hate my face it needs to be softer and i hate my body it needs to be sharper
#there is nothing in the world i wished i had more than a smaller/rounder nose#why is that thang genuinely V#<#>#^#every direction sniffin#i want to bury my face in things and not impale them#i hate the way it looks when i smile#somehow it gets even bigger#and more downturned#and my body well . at least thats easier 2 change#im so hyper aware of how much i weigh i hate the number being known it makes me want to cry i feel too exposed#its like it being a secret keeps me safe#even though everyone can see my body anyway#if i just have that then im safe no one can hurt me#what if the number makes them see me differently#what if it changes the way i look in their eyes like it does in mine#what if the dysmorphia streaks out past just me#i know its stupid n realistically it doesnt matter at all but i am so Scared i am terrified#i hate my ed i hate everything it holds over me all the time everyday#every time i look at myself im different#n im worse#and no matter how much i suffer its never happy#im so sick rn im in pain but all i can think about is at least im not eating at least its stopping me from eating#i just want to be different i want to be anything else#i feel like im always going 2 be stuck as the grossest thing in the world#ill never get the chance to look at myself n see anything but that#i want to be better. i do. i want to just move on#im so tired. but im So awful looking. & everyone has always made sure i know it. made sure im lesser and i am#ive never had a real friend. theyve always hated me n kept be barely around because they feel bad for me. n just told me how bad i looked
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PYRONICAAA
also a lazy billsona cuz i saw other ppls makin some
#today sucked ass n tomorrows gonna be worse#I HATEEEE ITTTT HEREEEE#IM ALWAYS FUCKKGND SICKSKSB#IM SICK N TIRED OF BEING sick#pyronica#pyronica gravity falls#bill cipher#billsona#the book of bill#gravity falls#squidflavoredsoup
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playing around w slightly different hair renders
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#jjk fanart#jujutsu kaisen fanart#jjk art#yuji itadori#megumi fushiguro#itafushi#fushiita#yuuji#megumi#cries megumi fought tooth n nail..... i refused 2 flip the canvas tho >:(#i vastly prefer drawing him facing right bc fr some reason it makes his hair look better silhouette-wise#so having him face left is alr a Challenge#but also having him slightly look down (difficult angle + changes the silhouette) had me bashing my head in2 th TABLE#same thing happened earlier this month w gardening megu middle pose . i did not learn my lesson#but even worse w this one yuuji's head is blocking th main pointy part tht basically carries the entirety of the shape language#u can imagine my distress i am sure#anyway th render made me a lot happier with it thank god. colours hard carry bless <3333#i didn't plan on making it a full sheet but i needed 2 remind myself that im good at drawing megumi#so i threw in solos of each of them n tried slightly different render flavours#idk how Different all of them look visually but th process fr each ws Very different so i am satisfied#fight aside this ws useful i think! got 2 break out some Clunkier chalks n dust off a few of my smoother blended brushes#think i picked up some things i can keep also !! which ws. u kno. the Goal#tbh every time i do art studies i feel like i am kirby#one time i got called an art ditto by one of my fav artist mutuals when i did a style challenge#SUCH high praise from her it lives in my mind i take it out on days when i feel like trash#it doesnt Sound good when u say u r good at copying but real talk it is such a good skill i am very happy 2 have it in my arsenal
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aw seriously
#senart#Im trying to think of a witty caption but i cant sorry lmao#i was gonna say some corny shit like 'whats worse than alien invasion? An algebraic alien invasion' like tf is that naw#anyways ermm im aware rhis is like idk my 3rd slash 4th time in a row drawing earth n luna i cant help it theyre just so silly#this is random but i think there should be more solarballs n object shows crossovers like. show type (? wise#theyre literally cousins if not siblings yk (sentient talking objects with limbs - sentient talking planets)#ok anyway tag time#solarballs#solarballs earth#solarballs luna#bfb#bfb four#bfb x#battle for bfdi#battle for bfb#battle for dream island
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a very needed redraw of my lovers print! now with better blanket and chunkier cats
#mine#original#this will b print in a couple weeks ueuhe#i also like. zoomed in. idk if thats better or worse i might make a poll oh good idea#i drew th cats so weird last time.....why arm like that#anyway...am sleeby....i was gna draw today but i might not now!! finished 3 drawings this week ehe#i may draw at th weekend n colour...that could b tomorrows job#now i think im gna read! i hope u hve a nice day :)
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Wear Headphones :]
Transcript:
Mmh- I... Oh wow. Ahgh! Mmph! I'm gonna GET SILLY. ALL OVER.
Ah-ghg. *exhale* Fuh-fuck. Heh-heh... I got too silly.
End Transcription
*coughs* this was actually going to be a comic but I Don't Have Time For All That. So if you want to see the incomprehensible version its below *coughs*
And heres v1 staring at fuckin nothin if you want it for some reason??
Since this is a lot of clips here is the audio source dumping ground (not in order)
Clip 1
Clip 2
Clip 3
#suggestive#ultrakill#gabriel ultrakill#im actually going to jail for this one.#sorry if the audio levels are a bit.. weird. its difficult when its a bunch of different clips together#please enjoy the 5 minutes spent on the comic layout#i did the first panel and said 'nvm lol' I didnt even finish adding the terminal text#shoutout to the one person in chat who said 'IM SILLYING' this is all your fault /j#i hate transcribing these#help.#OK................. THATS. Enough Posts Like This. For now. Next few will be normal. well as normal as it gets around here#btw the gabe pic was originally Much Worse. I had to add the rainbows n stuff so people didnt think it was..... well.#i need to stand in traffic now. goodeby#happy sunday everyone
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short & stout rose And awkward and gangly dave >>>> i think rose would move with a ferocity like she could accidwntally bump her elbow onto the corner of a table and the table would crumble . dave posture’d be so rigid that he’d fall like a tree and shatter like glass from a light breeze
#dave strider#rose lalonde#homestuck#im gonna yap more abt my drawings ive been restrained for too long thinking people wouldnt care😤😤#my friends at school building up my confidence for better or for worse lol#i have thoughts!! things 2 say!!! not a lot but hopefully getting out the things i do have will make room for more…^_^#anyways#daveis just egon schiele art to me now#discomfort of tha body ……. Davesprite would be even worse imo#this also means dirk is a short king. and roxy would tower over him LMAO#dirk the shortest in the entire group#i need to draw egbert n jade more😢😮💨😮💨😮💨im sorryyyyyyyyyyy#hits post shyly
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pygmalion and galatea for aroace people
you should tell your friends what I look like, riz gukgak.
#fantasy high#fantasy high sophomore year#fhsy#riz gukgak#baron from the baronies#fh class quangle#class swap babeyy! bard!riz that's whats goin on!#I really need tags for these now I think lmao#ask to tag#I feel like this should be tagged something. but I dont know what#in my brain after the initial kidnapping class swap baron's thing is every time riz keeps his story abt them up in front of his friends#they get a little bit closer. they send him pictures of where they supposedly are n stuff#theres a scene in my brain only of kristen and riz on top of the van and kristen is like everything kinda sucks rn can u tell me abt baron#cause what you guys have is so nice and beautiful. and riz almost doesn't but he ultimately can't deny kristen a little peace#lmao I feel like dipping into baron stuff with the class swap is like showing my whole ass online again I just. I'm a#horror person before all else... I cant stop myself. canon baron is Great and Cool but that is kind of the thing. for a horror thing theyre#Too Cool. I think cool is kind of the neutralizer of scary. when a monster is a certain amount of cool it overrides the scary#and now u just have a Cool Monster#its so fucked for bard!riz this year bc he doesn't have an office (he's mooching off the school wifi from the AV club room lol)#so there's no buffer between adventure and home life. so baron just shows up in the strongtower apartment lmao#sophomore year bard!riz looks like a slasher protag so I just leaned into it I guess. he gets a mr. x if mr. x is made up by leon kennedy#well. its worse actually. they can show up where he is at any moment theyve proven this. but they dont#they choose to punish him slowly as he lies to his friends instead. baron is mr. x if mr. x is made up by leon and also a bitch#I think its gonna pop up if class swap baron ever speaks in a comic I do but their voice comes from like. inside their hollow face#it sounds like it's a lot deeper in there than that skull should be#tbh what I have rn is kinda like a bag of loose pieces that Can fit together into something great but I dont have the energy to#really sit down with them yet lol. Im doing this inbetween other things#it comes or it doesn't! it's fine. funny how today's bad comic day also. I wont say this is for bad comic day bc all my comics are#flawless and beautiful and perfect and awesome and beautiful and the best#but u should. if u havent drawn a comic today or at all ever u should draw a comic
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Your possessive/obsessive Wally reminds me of the song “Smoke and Mirrors” by Jayn! I think he’d gladly kill someone to have Howdy to himself
Don’t know much obsession/possessive songs, but I do think Mob!Wally would be “the red means I love you”-
as for normal Wally? I feel he’s a lil more “Stalkers Tango” or maybe even a “The tailor shop in Enbizaka” (though it’s a different culture and timeline all together JDHHDHDDHE- vibesl still there)
also Frank screams a lil bit of “my unhealthy obsession”-
cw more obsessive behavior, syringe
Ai adventures with yours truly: day 90- We are not gunna talk about the “uno reverse” arc, or the “tea shop” arc-
#Also sorry for lack of art of yesterday and today- I am not feeling very well atm#Hopefully later I’ll be a bit better#But for now take some mid life crisis doodles of me just trying to get angst MDHHFHHDDJJD#ALSO WHY DID THE AI DO THAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT IM T R A U M A T I Z E D. D D D D#I swear the days are getting worse and worse howdy whAT HAPPENED TO U DAWGGGGGGGGG WHERE DID THE SCRUNGLY SCRIMBLO GOOOOOOOOO#Welcome home#welcome home howdy#welcome home wally#wally darling#howdy pillar#wallypillar#cw obsession#Bleh bleh I need to drink more fluids#AND U TOO I SEE YOU NOT DRINKING W A T. E R#SPECIALLY U M O N IF YOU ARE READING THIS#Welcome home mob au
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yuuta exhibits such previously abandoned, recently adopted dog behavior. incredibly anxious all the time, even though nobody’s out to get him or leave him behind. waits for you to return home or from school or from work excitedly, just to see you when you walk through the door. follows you around senselessly, hovering in your space just for the sake of companionship. initiates affection in prodding ways—starts off next to you, then a hand on your thigh, then deems it safe to lay all the way down, then slowly pushes his head into your lap. gets up whenever you need to get up, and resumes his position as soon as you’re ready. brings you gifts as a sign that he’s thinking of you, and maybe because he likes the affection it brings out in you, maybe because he likes the gentle affirming touches of a hand in his hair or a pinch to his cheek. rests his head on your stomach or his chin on your shoulder when he’s sleepy, stays there, immobile, and will not move unless absolutely necessary. sometimes he gets surprised when he hears you calling for him, there’s a moment of disbelief as he thinks “me? really? you need me?” but it’s very quickly overshadowed by this compulsive need to show up, to please, to do anything for you, which is why he always answers when you call. he doesn’t realize that he has puppygod eyes, especially when he’s excited or confused, but he does and it’s incredible endearing. very reluctant to share your space or attention after a while, considers that to be sacred and he won’t risk being let go or lost again, so as a safety precaution, he keeps himself right by you, waits for you always.
#atp i need to shut and write the omega verse fics that consistency plague my mind#but while im here time for my obligatory megumi mention bc i mentioned dogs teehee#yes megumi attack dog hes megumi grumbly yes megumi bark bark bite bite BUT BUT BUTTTT#megumi is also used to like... hm........ taming? having? caring for? people in his life and also literal (divine) dogs#so for him yes he bites and barks#but he also... he gets confused if YOU dont follow him around like a puppy bc everyone else in his life has so why not you?#gojo's always been the annoying yapping pomeranian chewing on his arm even if he didn't ask#always in megumi's space even tho he didn't ask but he learned to deal with it#won't admit it but knows that too much attention is better than having someone who couldn't give a shit about you#yuuji is the golden in everybody's life and megumi is no exception#unmovable unshakeable and incredibly addictive even if he doesn't mean to be#and very very attached to the people he cares about so yeah yuuji is loud and annoying but he's also loyal and megumi respects that so fine#nobara is like... she decided she liked megumi and was upset about it so she bit his ankle and he tried to kick her off but she has too muc#pride to get shaken off by someone as scrawny as megumi and somewhere along the way megumi became impressed that she was still there even i#it hurt a bit and she was a little rough it's not like he was worse so fine whatever she can stay too#so if you like... if you dont hover around megumi if you dont pry if you dont prod then he has to be the dog smh#now he's gotta bite for your attention and nudge you and how annoying. he's gonna keep doing it tho. as long as he has to#or until you learn to fall in line and accept your leash too whichever comes first n e way.... anyway.............#somebody's pampered omega always gets what he wants megumi complex is showing......#this was about yuuta right? ok i'll put his tags now....#juju#jujutsu kaisen smut#jjk x reader#jjk smut#jjk fluff#jujutsu kaisen x reader#yuuta okkotsu x reader#yuta okkotsu x reader
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when nerd!eren takes you out on an official date for the first time he’s so nervous. considers combin his hair back (doesn’t stay in place anwyay), argues with himself over glasses vs contacts (opts for glasses, he knows you like em), sprays so much cologne he almost has an asthma attack . . . n when he’s finally got you there he’s missin all his cues, his voice cracks with every other word, n you’ve never seen him so flustered. bright red the whole date, hands clammy, tremblin like he’s been caught in a snow storm. but it’s so memorable— even when he walks off to the bathroom for a good twenty minutes, his awkward charm is jus so.. endearin.
#cleanin out mdrafts!#‘ this was the worst date i’ve ever been on. think im in love..’#<- s’you when yget home n rennie gives u the awkward-est cheek kiss#even though he’s done wayway worse n nastier !!#msorry i jus love him.#wouldn’t consider this canon for dat storie tho . may b.
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Christian: Max as a person is just a really nice 25 year old young man. That is passionate about racing. Uncomfortable with the level of fame or notoriety that he has.
Now, just wants to do his job. Race the car hard. He's very very straightforward, very honest. And you know he loves spending time on his playstation if he's not in a race car.
And uh, outside of the car he is quite a gentle character.
Inside the car he's ruthless. I have never met a driver who is as driven as Max from the moment he steps into the car you know that you're going to get 110% and he will expect 110% back.
From the moment that car leaves the garage is interesting whenever we go to a racetrack, even in new circuits, the first lap of the weekend, in many respects is meaningless. I will almost put my house on it, that the driver comes out, the first lap with the fastest time, sometimes two or three seconds lap quicker than any other driver is Max. Because it's a way of him stamping his authority on. 'I'm at one with my car' 'I'm at the top of my game' and bang! And he has the confidence, the ability, the feel and the technique to be able to do that and to be able to adapt.
He came into formula 1 at a very young age, you know as a teenager. Having missed the training that goes on through the lower formulas, he did that very publicly in an arena formula 1 where every move that these guys make is scrutinized and pulled apart and I think he came through that. And his mental strength at the big game moments whether is a qualifying lap, whether it's a start, whether it's an overtake, whether it's an outlap, that's where he's outstanding. I've not seen a driver with his or seen a driver previously with his resilience to be able to deal with pressure at those high stakes moments.
Christian Horner on Secrets of Success Podcast
#finally i had time to listen to the podcat n omg...#'hes quite a gentle character' im 😵💫😵💫😵💫#he's obsessed with him fr!!!!like it's even worse the way he sounded saying all that#hornstappen#max verstappen#christian horner
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big fan of panels where they look like they wld beat me up
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#yuji itadori#megumi fushiguro#itafushi#fanart#jjk fanart#jujutsu kaisen fanart#yuuji#megumi#YUUJI WILL NOT COOPERATE TAKE HIM AWAY FROM ME >:(((#is it the angle ? is it the expression?? the bangs??????? am i just a fraud and a fake yuuji liker i dont know at this point#god#just . just take it i cant fiddle with the proportions any more ill go insane#it was worse when i tried colouring it but im STILL not 100% sold on it no matter what i shift or tilt#megumi my darling boy i love u at least You always have my back :'<#honestly my leading theory is that bc my yuuji design looks objectively More different than his canon design#its more prone 2 looking Wrong in my head#but even so !!! if i *have* my yuuji design down why does it still feel like im fighting fr my gd life when i try 2 draw him#it feels like he is shattering my drawing hand and smiling at me n taunting me w those shiny puppy eyes th entire time#head in hands I Don't Get It#when will i get it#anyway scoreboard yuuji: 623453766235 hina: 0
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Now that i'm living in a english speaking country, I realized the hardest part to speak a second language is the phrases.
Grammars you can make do so long people know what you're saying and in writing there are programs to help you. And singular words, i know what they mean but compiling them into phrases?? That's like.. a whole different beast on its own its like learning another language on top of that one
Here's an example im still embarassed about :
I was trying to say how networking works by talking to more people and have your works spread by word of mouth.
But see, i didn't remember that phrase in english. I remember them, in my first language. And the literal translation of it would be 'mouth to mouth'. Which. Ya know. Means more kissing in english than spreading information via speaking to other people
It's a small things but you'll notice it more and more. And this is only phrases. We're not including expressions, what counts as a joke or an insult or a compliment. The thing im thinking about is probably not phrases either idk what it is but it sure is frustrating
#languages#kc rambles#dont mind me im flopping on the floor realizing this is why i been getting worse at talking in english in the past years#than when i was back in my country#i know so many way i messed up n it gives me anxiety in talking but also gghhhhh its frustrating
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doodle dump part twooooo !!! please dont tag anything as ship!!
#sonic the hedgehog#wanted to have at least one more in here but#ive been feeling worse and worse the past few days n i dont wanna draw when im feeling bad ☝#so these will do :)#silver the hedgehog#classic sonic#blaze the cat#idw sonic#amy rose#shadow the hedgehog#big the cat#m'art
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Thinking about...kind people.
They aren't good, they're just nice.
cw: yandere/possessive behavior, explicit violence
GN reader!
A/N: I had no specific character in mind but lemme tell ya, my brain...oh it's churning
They're polite and soft-spoken as they etch their name into your skin - so patient as they shush your pained whimpers with soothing touches, completely ignoring your lover's protests. They're so sweet as they gut your lover in front of you - laughing gently at your screams of horror because of how delectably cute your terrified face is. They're so understanding as they wipe entrails from your face - promising to never subject you to such a display ever again.
Of course you'd be scared, this is a lot of blood. You probably never seen organs spilling out like a grotesque waterfall before, have you?
Let them pat your head and help you onto your feet with misleading strength. Let them guide you into your bathroom and scrub you clean, resulting in rivers of blood to flow past your feet. Let them dress you in a clean set of pajamas and guide you to your bed as if they'd done this a thousand times. Let them snuggle with you and hum you to sleep, shamelessly inhaling your intoxicating scent and peppering you with kisses.
Let them pretend to be your one and only.
#yandere#yandere concept#yandere x reader#yandere x you#yandere x darling#yandere x y/n#cw: yandere#cw: possessive#cw: violence#this is so vague im sorry (。ノω\。)#so many characters can fit this idea!!!#im thinking of doing a full himeko drabble with this concept#a nice terrible person is infinitely worse than a rude terrible person#a nice vile individual would truly have you believing that you can appeal to their humanity#but nope they're actually the lowest of the low#it's just sometimes they say 'please' and 'thank you'
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