#mytransition

[childrenofcain-if]

The D scenario was way too sad, author, I'm begging for you to make it up for our sad rockstar cowboy/cowgirl 😭👺

here’s the pt. 1 of this.

the phone call ended with a terrible finality. the sound of D’s voice cutting off mid-sentence felt like a door slamming shut, loud and unmistakable.

you stood in your new york city apartment, one hand still gripping the phone, the other clenched at your side. your heart was racing, every beat a thud of regret, anger, and guilt. the city hummed outside your window, a discordant symphony of car horns and distant chatter, but you barely noticed it. all you could hear was D’s voice echoing in your head, sharp and raw: “i’m here, waiting by the damn phone every night like some—some pathetic—”

you ran a hand through your hair, pulling at the roots as you began pacing back and forth across the narrow strip of space between the kitchenette and the window. the floorboards creaked under your weight, an old building’s way of reminding you it was there, but it couldn’t anchor you.

“what is wrong with me?” you muttered, your voice harsh in the quiet room.

your anger had already started to unravel, leaving only the jagged edges of shame. you replayed the conversation in your head, your own voice rising, defensive and cold. and then D’s, breaking apart in places they hadn’t meant to let you hear.

D wasn’t needy. not really. at least not to you. they were just... D. passionate, fiery, always a little too much and never quite enough, all at the same time. and you—you were a mess in your own way, carrying your ambitions like armor and forgetting, sometimes, to reach out from behind it.

you slumped onto the couch, your elbows on your knees, your head in your hands. this wasn’t who you wanted to be. this wasn’t the kind of partner you wanted to be.

after what felt like hours, you finally sat back, exhaling shakily. the truth was as clear as it was painful: you’d both been wrong. neither of you was handling this well. the distance, the texts, the calls—it was a pressure cooker, and tonight it had finally boiled over.

but you loved D. that thought settled over you like a weight and a balm all at once. you loved them, and love meant showing up, not just when it was convenient, but especially when it wasn’t.

you grabbed your phone, fingers flying over the screen as you pulled up flight options. austin. friday night. it wasn’t exactly cheap, but money wasn’t an issue. you booked the ticket before you could overthink it, the confirmation email lighting up your inbox a second later.

***

the week passed in a haze of classes and half-hearted meals. every time your phone buzzed, your stomach twisted, but the messages were always mundane. updates from classmates, a sale alert from your favorite store. nothing from D.

by the time friday rolled around, you were vibrating with nerves. your luggage was packed and sitting by the door. you made sure your phone was fully charged, and set your alarm two hours earlier than necessary. you checked on your luggage three times before finally locking it and hauling it out of the apartment.

the subway station was crowded, the air thick with the smell of metal and sweat. you stood with one hand on your phone, your other clutching your bag, eyes darting to the mytransit nyc app and the digital displays above to make sure you don’t miss the subway leaving for the airport. five more minutes to go.

and then you saw them.

at first, it didn’t register. just another figure in the sea of commuters near the turnstiles, fumbling with a yellow metrocard at the machine. but then they turned, and your heart stopped.

D.

they looked different here, out-of-place but somehow not. the edges of their leather jacket were fraying, and their doc martens were scuffed, a sharp contrast to the polished shoes and sleek coats of the people bustling around them. but their eyes—those stormy gray eyes you could pick out in a crowd of thousands—were unmistakable.

D saw you at the same moment.

for a second, neither of you moved. the station swirled around you, a blur of noise and movement, but it might as well have been silent.

then, like magnets, you were drawn together. you barely registered your feet moving, barely noticed the way people swerved to avoid you. and then you were there, your arms around D, their arms around you, and it was everything.

the kiss was messy, desperate, and entirely too public. you could feel D’s hands shaking where they gripped your shoulders, could taste the salt of what might have been tears.

when you finally pulled back, your foreheads pressed together, you were both laughing breathlessly.

“w-what are you doing here?” you asked, the words tumbling out between shaky breaths.

D gave a sheepish smile, one hand rubbing at the back of their neck.

“i was coming to see you. i couldn’t—” their voice caught, and they shook their head, trying again. “i couldn’t stand it. i couldn’t stand being apart anymore.”

“i was on my way to the airport,” you said, still holding onto them like they might vanish if you let go. “i booked a flight to austin. i was coming to apologize. to fix this.”

D’s arms tightened around you, their eyes searching yours with an intensity that made your chest ache.

“you don’t need to apologize,” they said, their voice low and rough. “i’m the one who... god, i’ve been a mess without you. i keep overthinking everything, and then i get scared, and then i just—” they broke off, exhaling shakily. “i love you so much, and i’m sorry. for all of it.”

“i love you and i’m sorry too,” you said, reaching up to cup their face. their skin was warm under your palms and the familiar scent of expensive marlboros, leather and cinnamon made your head spin pleasantly. “i should’ve called more. i should’ve—”

“stop,” D interrupted, shaking their head. “we’re both idiots. let’s just agree on that and call it even.”

you laughed, a wet, shaky laugh that felt more like relief than humor. “deal.”

a few people were giving you strange looks as they looked over you two, but you both ignored them. one older woman smiled as she passed, muttering something about young love.

you took D’s hand, threading your fingers through theirs.

“come on,” you said, a grin breaking through the tears. “i can’t wait to show you around the city.”

D huffed a laugh. “don’t know if i’m gonna like it too much,” they said, but their eyes were soft, and their grip on your hand was firm.

“you’ll like it,” you promised. “i’ll make sure of it.”

D glanced at you, their gray eyes soft and full of something that made your chest feel too small.

“maybe,” they said. “but even if i don’t... i’ve already found you here, that alone makes the city tolerable in my book.”

[taruntravell]

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[dudejaxon]

My soul aches, it's torn in two

By a love that I thought was true But now I'm left with nothingness

No home, no love, no tenderness I wander the streets, my heart weighed down

By the emptiness that surrounds With nowhere to go, no place to hide My soul cries out, please let me die

But I know deep down, this isn't the end

There's still hope, there's still a chance to mend

The pieces of my shattered heart So I'll keep on moving, through the pain and the tears

Holding on to the hope that conquers all fears My soul may ache, but it won't give in

For there's a future, beyond this brokenness within.

#Poet #transman #breakup #mutant #spokenwork #poem #poetry #California #homeless #traveler #myjourney #mytransition #mysoul #littlethings #soicaljustice

[r4ndomluke]

I am no longer pre-T! Finally! I can't wait for the changes to happen.

[cleohno]

Day 2: Feeling cold

[isaidjensen]

Four Weeks on T:

Officially four weeks on T today! Super happy about that. Still scared of the injections, but doing better!

I really only noticed a couple things these past two weeks.

The first is definitely more throat stuff. Lots of gunk in my throat, I have to clear it way more often, especially in the mornings. Plus if I try to talk really high, my voice basically gives up and goes out lol. 

My vocal range has shortened and I can definitely FEEL changes in my throat/vocal chords when I talk, though it’s still not necessarily audible yet.

The big thing has been oily skin though. Like holy shit is my skin oily. I was fine up until about 3 weeks on T and then it basically happened out of nowhere.

I used to be able to go about 3 days or so before my skin would start to feel a bit oily.

Now it’s less than 24 hours and my skin is just oil central. A little more acne has been showing up as a result too, but nothing crazy.

Essentially, my skin is back to being 15.

Other than that, I haven’t noticed any new changes! Definitely ready for my voice to finally start dropping though lol.

[shadowolf19]

November 2015 vs. November 2018 (Pre-T vs. 2 1/2 yrs on T) —— I wasn’t gonna do it because, well, my facial hair game is still almost non-existent, but since I had to shave for Steve I figured might as well join in, so consider this the beginning of #noshavenovember. Incidentally, since today it’s Thursday, here’s a #throwbackthursday picture of me pre-T vs. Saturday after I shaved. Looking forward to a miracle to happen and have a full beard by the end of the month 😂 —— #ftm #gay #ftmuk #ftmgay #transmenofig #transmasculine #transman #transboy #transguy #twoyearsonT #hrt #testosterone #transisbeautiful #thisiswhattranslookslike #queer #mytransition #selfmade #selfmademan #transpride #handsome https://www.instagram.com/p/Bppm8SPFXyl/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=120hutzizq4aa

[departurefromsolitude]

"See you around 6. Wear something slutty!"

Gotta love me some scrubs.

[pakmotivation]

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[netflixandchili-fries-blog]

these are a couple milestones of mine. they’re old, but they make me happy <3

the top two images are my before and after with my first binder!

the bottom image is my first time in public with boy hair, which also happened to be the first time I went into the men’s restroom.

happy, scary, wonderful times.

[thoughts-of-ka-blog]

Day 4 Feeling positive and happy        \(^o^)/

So I have recently transition into a new state and I am very optimistic for this move, I am surrounded by new people who cares about me and want to see me happy. The doubt about my future is fading away rapidly as the day progresses, I am no longer worried. I have decided that  I am going to be more active on my blog and start back writing. A beautiful young lady has had my back since day one so I am thankful and grateful for her. Tomorrow I am going to be recommended for a job that has the potential to influence my future positively and I am welcoming the opportunity with open arms.

[incognitomiamigo]

5 months on Testosterone and I am feeling alright 👌

[love-like-a-ghost]

Just sent an email to start the process for top surgery

I’ve decided on Dr. Wolf outside of Detroit since that’s super close to me and his work is pretty awesome even on bigger guys like me.

So hopefully within the next 12 months I will be free of da tiddies.

[rainedragamute]

Suppose I'll post this here too. I just started hormone replacement therapy 2 days ago, so I went ahead and took this picture last night to serve as my baseline. I plan on posting updates every month, so I'll go ahead and tag these as #mytransition to keep these posts together on here.

[chelseywaltersrealtor]

I’m glad I’m able to teach inspire and encourage beautiful young women like myself to live without fear and chase after your dreams even if no one doesn’t believe in you always believe in yourself #ForeverGrateful #MyTransition God is not done with me. #MamaWeMadeIt https://www.instagram.com/p/B5IHC3ZhkLx/?igshid=1rpu5sy6ew3s

[cleohno]

Day ???: Okay so... I decided once a day was crazy and that I'd switch to once a week but uh well I forgot soooo