#my trauma is not your drama

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

I'm a doctor, not a miracle worker.

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[the-sage-libriomancer]

can't stop thinking about Ayame. he's such an outlier to the zodiacs in so many ways:

-the only (adult) zodiac member not living on Sohma grounds.

-the only zodiac member who genuinely likes themselves and actively practices self-love.

-the only zodiac member with a sibling in the zodiac.

-the only zodiac member Akito hasn't harmed either mentally or physically (because she can't stand him lmao).

all of it makes him feel weirdly isolated from the Sohma family's trauma and the story as a whole. he isn't under the Sohmas' thumb. he isn't bogged down by hatred or self-loathing. he's never experienced Akito's wrath the way the other zodiac members have.

and it's fascinating to think about how he must've had a completely different experience from the other zodiacs. when he was growing up, Akito hadn't hurt any of them - Shigure and Kureno both had immunity, Hatori never caused problems, and the rest of them were too young or too obedient. Ayame never hated himself, nor did he ever find himself alone and friendless. he moved far away from the Sohmas, started his own business to make his own money, and hasn't had them breathing down his neck in years. he has, for all intents and purposes, escaped the Sohma family and its mountains of trauma completely unscathed.

and you know. i wonder if that's something else Yuki hates about Ayame. that all of the zodiacs have a horror story about Akito - that Rin got thrown out a window and Hatori lost an eye and even little Kisa was beaten half to death, that Yuki himself had to endure years of intense isolation, psychotic episodes, and literal fucking torture at the hands of Akito -

and Ayame never got hurt.

not even once.

[nitewrighter]

How we feeling about lois doing lowkey micro agressions against clark?

Like, on the one hand, it's almost like she's got amnesia with regards to how much being captured by Sam messed Clark up last season, ON THE OTHER HAND, I think she might be acting out of a combo of "It was seeing the Zero Day footage that messed Clark up and made him convinced he was a weapon" and also a fear of losing Clark as he pursues his questions about his alien heritage--there's also the factor that Clark exploring his alien shit seems to often put him in contact with The Rock That Kills Him, so she could also be protective regarding that and want to keep Clark on earth.

But also Sam is the only living parent Lois has left, and she's likely seriously overestimating how much Sam is on their side following his actions on Thanksgiving. Honestly the Sam move-in thing is making me side-eye the show, not just because of the "Sam literally tortured Clark" thing but because I feel like that's really careless with regard to Clark's secret identity. But it could also be fast-tracking Sam's redemption arc and basically setting him up to be a vital information source with regards to Task Force X. It's too early to tell. We're also getting some red flags with Jor-El describing himself as the scion of the Kryptonian Empire---Like even if the ship we saw on Thanksgiving was a 'ghost ship' it was still pretty clearly a warship, so it could be a factor of "Hmmm maybe we shouldn't crack open that can of worms until we figure out how to outmaneuver task force X right now here on earth???"

I think the fact that Lois is actually constantly deferring these discussions Clark wants to have is setting them up for a definite rift this season--maybe not a breakup, but definite drama, so they'll both be forced to take a few steps back and that way Clark can find Kara and Lois will be forced to confront Sam in some capacity. I do think Clark's point about Sam making Lois feel small is going to figure into her character arc this season.

But also *grips your shoulders* HANK HENSHAW HANK HENSHAW WE GOT HANK HENSHAW I REALLY HOPE WE GET TO SEE HANK HENSHAW GET ABSOLUTELY FUCKED UP THIS SEASON I LOVE HOW HIS DESIGN IS A CALLBACK TO MORE CLASSIC SUPERMAN LOOKS OH MY GOD WE GOT HANK HENSHAW.

[43sol]

lunapii lunapyon my beloved below cut is terrible joke 😬

[y-rhywbeth2]

This isn't aimed at anyone individually, but; I always regret opening the box that is ascended vs non-ascended Astarion fans and "who is actually the pathetic eternally broken one".

[sryluvidrc]

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[fossys]

Hey guess who remembered why we stopped being active in plural communities in the first place <-people are dicks

[blondieart]

Self-indulgent FF7!AU for my oc/persona John (He/She/They). Uhm, there's no active written story; just simple daydreaming on the side for fun so this will be all over the place lol. So yeeeaaaah... Guess Gen and her are friends as he makes the blonde dork lighten up a bit. They bond over make-up, Loveless (though it's more John just listening to Gen's rambling and finds it oddly endearing), being badass dramatic bitches, and a shared crush on a certain silver haired man. Gee I wonder who that is hmmm. *chuckles* TH profile John ✦ . 　⁺ 　 . ✦ . 　⁺ 　 . ✦

[Where to find me] Toyhouse | Linktree [Favs + Reblogs appreciated! <3 But please do NOT repost my art/oc's anywhere.]

[childrensward]

What if I told you that regression is regression and is all the same whether or not it's "pure" or "impure." What if I told you that trying to reinvent these labels in a way that's supposed to be progressive and inclusive just further alienates those whose regression is a result of mental illness, and that doing so is an attempt at detaching yourself from severely mentally ill regressors that you are much more similar to than people who don't age regress. What if I told you that truly healthy regression is supposed to include being cathartic and experiencing "ugly" emotions and being vulnerable.

What if. Imagine..

[nandosango]

Okay this is nearly impossible when I can't even remember the things I've watched @sugutoad :')

But I tried...

To answer the question I don't think you need therapy, I think you'd need a good nap. I wouldn't kick you either, but I wouldn't want to hug some of those characters so I guess jury's still out for you ;9

[porcelain-flower]

Hey guys it's Esther, formerly feitansporcelaindoll. I know I've been away for awhile. Something happened and I wasn't sure if I should make a life update but here it is. Well for starters, I was being accused of some heinous things and because of that I deleted my tumblr.

I was busy dealing with life and my marriage. August of '23 I logged back in, messaged a certain Feitan mutual to ask how they were doing, only for them to essentially say "people said you're a groomer, so I can't talk to you anymore. Bye" and was promptly blocked. So I messaged ANOTHER mutual asking for clarification and was immediately blocked by them as well. Needless to say I was completely confused and caught off guard. Even though I was bored and pretty much done with the HxH fandom, I WAS going to keep my page active for those who enjoyed my content. But these people ruined that. So my page is gone and I will not be making any further content. In truth it was a hyperfixation, an escape from my abusive marriage. But now I'm in a healthy relationship and I don't need an escape.

Yes while you were busy accusing me, I was dealing with my narcisstic, emotionally and sexually abusive, gaslighting husband of 7 years.

And for the record, groomers abuse, manipulate and exploit. I NEVER did that to anyone.

No. It was happening to me.

While you were accusing me, I was dealing with my abuser. And I was scared every minute. He was narcissistic and controlling, to the point that he forbade me from getting tattoos or even cutting my hair. He gaslit me and constantly tried to coerce me and demand sex, despite my refusals. Seven years I dealt with this. Eventually I found the courage to leave him. The day I did, he had followed me to the store beforehand. I packed some essentials and found a friend's house to stay at. I was there for only a week because he found out who I was staying with and starting texting them and dropping off unwanted gifts at the house. So I found somewhere new to stay. I went back to my ex's house one weekend, when I knew he'd be gone, to get most of my stuff. I was terrified so I had my best friend come with. Then my ex came home unexpectedly. I wasn't going to risk being alone with him so I kept her by my side at all times.

But he wouldn't let me grab my belongings in peace. He put his arm between me and the doorway, stopped me from leaving and forced me to talk to him when all I wanted to do was grab my stuff and go.

Finally I got away and moved back to my home state. But the fear was still there. Every time I saw a car that resembled his, I froze thinking he'd followed me again.

I couldn't even give him my real address or phone number. That's how terrified I was of contact with him. I still am.

The day I got the last of my belongings, my ex made it very clear he wasn't letting me go so easily.

You don't know how terrifying it truly is to be married to someone you don't want to be with anymore and they're refusing to let you go. You do not know what real manipulation looks like.

A year after I had left him, he messaged again, asking if I was ready to come home. It took him a few more months to realize I wasn't coming back.

This is what I endured while you were spreading lies about me.

And I'm not playing dumb or playing victim. I have NO IDEA what I said or did that made people think this of me. And who did I supposedly groom?

Unfortunately we live in a world of guilty until proven innocent. And no one was mature enough to message me, show me proof, or let me know what was going on or being said about me so I couldn't even defend myself at the time.

Well there's no coming back once you've been accused, even falsely accused. I won't be active on here. This will be my only post. I'm locked out of my instagram fan page because I cant recover my password. I still have my personal page for those who knew me well enough to message me there. But I won't do fandoms or fan pages ever again.

The two people I talked to the longest and trusted the most were the fastest to accuse me and block me. Funny how that works.

And Hxytun I do wonder why you deleted all your Fei content as well. I was nothing but a friend to you. I listened to every rant, good or bad. Every conversation about your parents, your brother, you move across states.

Excalibur/feitansblood you're no better. You were a petrified little highschooler so I did my best to listen and give you advice because I knew how hard HS was for me. I was only ever a friend, to BOTH of you. And this is how you repay me. You yourself literally called me "mom" because I gave you advice like a mom would. Although I should've known you wouldn't have my back, seeing as you're pretty much Hxytun's lapdog and do anything they say. It's sad really. Also the fact you've been lying about your age on your accounts is shitty. Even a couple years ago when you were 15 you had your age listed as 19 so you could view explicit content. That's called catfishing btw.

But my heartfelt thanks to those who believed me and supported me. Makes me have a little more faith in humanity.

[strandnreyes]

I think that’s what a lot of people forget: it’s supposed to be entertaining and a drama show is all about drama and not a depiction of real life. It’s not about being perfect. And yes some things may have felt rushed but we still are so blessed: We got a beautiful wedding. Heartbreaking vows. A couple who will always choose each other. Gwyn. THE SONG! A glimpse of their honeymoon. Some promising storylines for the next season and some amazing actors who did a hell of a job! Of course one could always ask for more but I am glad we got so much wedding at all. In a lot of shows it’s a couple minutes tops. So yeah. I am glad and I enjoyed the finale even though I am still reeling. But like you said that’s what makes it good in the first place.

Of course I’m always going to want more. I’m at Olive Garden and tarlos is the parmesan cheese they grate on top of the salad and the waiter always says ‘tell me when’ like no you don’t understand. I want it pouring out of the bowl and spilling onto the table. I want to drown in this. there will never be enough.

Cheese analogy aside, what we did get of the wedding was beautiful. I don’t think I’ve ever heard better wedding vows on tv and I agree a lot of tv weddings I’ve seen are very short or have lots of drama/side plots with other characters

[themthistles]

not even joking i would kill for some kind of beyond evil sequel focusing on jihwa. it doesn't even have to be a full time drama. a mini-series, a movie, anything is fine i just need it

[ninja-boo]

ok nvm i got mad at transformers writing again. back out of sheer spite

[subconsciousmysteries]

love my bf love my life but that one song by Corey Taylor gives me war flashbacks to all the 48 combos I've loved before and I secretly listen to it sometimes when I'm bored with healthiness and I want to feel pain again

[penrose-quinn]

How does one recover after reading Chi no Wadachi? 🥲