#my theory is she's bi-polar

[nostalgic90s]

“Crazy bitch.”

Lila Valeska, who was fully prepared to go home after winning, dragged herself back to the table. She slapped a hand over Terry’s folded cards. “Come again?”

“Oof.” Zach shook his head, something akin to pity in his eyes when glancing over at Terry. “Don’t use the C-word, man.”

Terry snapped his eyes. “So, you’re okay bein’ a cheating bitch? But crazy is where you draw the line?” He shook his head.

Zach tried to warn him, but the stupid fucker didn’t listen. He sighed and casually started collecting the cards to reshuffle for a new game.

Avery and Bert exchanged glances but said nothing. They knew Lila well enough to avoid her triggers.

Lila fake laughed in Terry’s face. “Hah…hah…hah…” She accentuated each syllable by moving closer and cocking her head side to side. Like a snake. Like Shiba – her pet boa “Say it again. I dare you.”

“Bitch” Terry spat, clearly annoyed he lost his money.

“M’gonna take a piss” Bert said with urgency. He scurried out of the tent with Avery following him.

Zach shuffled the deck quietly. Terry was the new guy and he’d only been with the circus for a couple weeks. He couldn’t blame him for running his mouth, but he would soon find out what happened when he did.

Terry crossed his arms and looked up at Lila, sneering all the while he spoke. “Crazy, cunty, fucking, bitch.” He mocked her movements with exaggerated flair.

Zach began dealing the cards out. He figured Avery and Bert were done for the evening and only dealt Lila and Terry.

“Warned ya” Zach murmured.

“What?!” Terry snapped, turning his attention away from Lila.

Big mistake.

Trainers don’t take their eyes off snakes.

The results could be…. Fatal.

Lila sank a pocket blade into Terry’s neck.

Terry’s eyes widened in shock and pain. He tried to look to Zach for help, but Lila shoved the metal deeper into his neck. His flesh twitched and spewed blood all over the table.

Zach watched with feigned boredom, but his heart was pounding inside his chest. He blinked a few times, feeling blood splatter onto his face.

Lila yanked the knife out and stabbed Terry again…. And again. And again. She screamed and rammed it into the poor guys’ eye.  

The eyeball popped like a water balloon and with the pocketknife still buried deep within his eye-socket, Terry sank to the floor. He was on his side, twitching and grabbing at nothing.

Zach scraped a hand over his face, sighing irritably. “This is the third guy this month, Lila.”

“Yeah, and?” She placed her hands on her hips and scowled at her older brother.

She was just as scary as she was beautiful. Zachary grumbled under his breath and placed the deck of cards down on the table. “You gonna help me this time?”

“Maybe.” Lila shrugged.

Movement on the other side of the tent caught their attention.

Lila stomped towards the crate of hyenas and grabbed whoever was hiding behind it-

Jerome yelped fearfully.

“Eavesdropping, are we?” Lila gripped Jerome’s wrist so hard that it had the boy crying.

Jeremiah suddenly appeared behind the cage. He walked over to his mother and placed a hand over her arm. “Please don’t hurt him, mother. It was my idea… I wanted to watch you play cards.”

Lila released her son’s wrist.

Jerome latched onto Jeremiah with a one-armed hug, his wrist aching terribly.

Jeremiah wrapped both arms around his twin and rubbed his back in an attempt to console him. “It won’t happen again. Promise.”

Lila rolled her eyes. “Shut the hell up. I didn’t squeeze you that hard.”

Jerome sunk into his brother’s chest and whimpered quietly.

“Speaking of cards…” Zach gestured to the table where the cards are waiting. “Might as well teach them now.”

“….Fine. Whatever.” Lila stepped over Terry’s now motionless body and sat down on the available seat. “Well? C’mon then.” She pointed to the empty chairs.

Jeremiah and Jerome looked at each other.

Jeremiah nodded.

Jerome went first and took a seat next to his uncle.

Jeremiah sat down next to his mother.

“Texas Hold Em’, that’s the name of the game” Zach said. He dealt an additional hand to Jerome. “It’s all in the eyes. You either got a poker face or ya don’t.”

“And if ya don’t,” Lila said, glancing at her cards, “Don’t bother coming home.”

Jerome and Jeremiah stared at the dead man on the ground, whatever-his-name was.

Jeremiah reached out and tapped his knuckles on the table. “Hit me.” It was a counting game. He had nothing to bet with, but Zach and Lila would probably figure that out later. Those two are scammers, but Jeremiah and Jerome are smarter.

[blue-the-bluest]

Welcome to Ink Machine Chronicles!

Ink Machine Chronicles is a revised Bendy and Boris; The Quest for the Ink Machine series that was made by TheGreatRouge (Who we don't support in this account), I fixed the big mistakes and questions Rouge left out, I also combined my theories and hypotheses into one whole comic!

As you can see, my art and account is still under construction due to school and house issues, but I'll happily answer your questions if you have some about the revised comic. Ask appropriate and nice questions please!

I'll add in the info for no reason in particular

Benjamin "Bendy" Drew

Age: 16

Sex: [FTM] Male

Sexuality: Bi-curious

Parents: Mother - █████ ████ | Father - Joey Drew

Personal Connections: Boris (Best Friend) - Felix (Parental Figure)

Mental Issues: Lcheu's Genesis (Ink Illness) is a condition characterized by black pure eyes and it is caused by a curse. Lcheu's Genesis is also characterized by ink spilling out of the eyes, mouth and nose. | DID disorder (Dissociative identity disorder)

Background Info:

Born as a female, Changed into a male

Lived with Boris, Alice and the butcher gang for his whole life before escaping at the age of 14

Is a master thief and parkour climber

Was born by the blood of the Devil and Joey's soul

Is Street smart

Bennett "Boris" Drew

Age: 14

Sex: Male

Sexuality: Straight Ally

Parents: Mother - █████ ████ | Father - Joey Drew

Personal Connections: Bendy (Best Friend) - Felix (Parental Figure) - Mugman (Best Friend)

Mental Issues: Separation Anxiety | Selective Mutism

Background Info:

Was born by the blood of the Devil and Joey's soul

Inseparable to Bendy

A fast runner with his legs (can run in 4's but rather not)

Has sensitive hearing and an amazing sense of smell

Left the studio when he was 12

Consider Bendy as his older brother

Is Academically smarter

Maverick "Mugman" Inkwell

Age: 14

Sex: Male

Sexuality: Straight Ally

Parents: Mother: ████████ ███████ | Father - Black Hat

Personal Connections: Cuphead (Biological Brother) - Boris (Best Friend) - Felix (Parental Figure)

Mental Issues: ADHD

Background Info:

"Experiment #1034 is a controversial case of a young boy, known as “Maverick”, who was born in a laboratory as a result of being experimented on. The experiment was conducted by a team of scientists led by Professor Black Hat, who used in vitro fertilization (IVF) technology to create the child and his sibling. This experiment was extremely controversial, as it raised ethical and moral questions about the use of technology to create life, and it sparked a great deal of public debate."

Christian "Cuphead" Inkwell

Age: 17

Sex: [FTM] Male

Sexuality: Bisexual

Parents: Mother: ████████ ███████ | Father - Black Hat

Personal Connections: Mugman (Biological Brother) - Bendy (Friend) - Felix (Parental Figure)

Mental Issues: Bi-polar

Background Info:

"The birth of Experiment #1033, "Christine" was born in a laboratory, is an intriguing and concerning development in the field of science. Though the exact details of the experiments conducted on the girl are unknown, it is clear that the scientists involved in the project have had difficulty in controlling the girl’s behavior. She is reported to be aggressive towards the scientists, yet strangely calm when in the presence of Experiment #1034."

Felix Tom Sullivan

Age: 27

Sex: Male

Sexuality: Bi-curious

Parents: Father - Pat Tom Sullivan

Personal Connections: Bendy (son figure) - Boris (son figure) - Mugman (son figure) - Cuphead (son figure) - Oswald (Best friend) - Sheba (Cousin) - Inky & Winky (Nephews)

Mental Issues: Anger Issues | Depression | paranoia

Background Info:

Lived a poor life but an amazing imagination

Explored since he was 5 (ongoing)

Famous writer and Adventurer

Is the parent of the group

Once had a crush on Oswald but it died down (knowing it wasn't correct)

Academic and Street smart

Sheet Drawings will be posted soon!!! Feel free to ask questions!

[struggling-author]

Hey what are your avatar otps besides azulaang?

oh umm… I wouldn’t call them OTPs since that is exclusively Azulaang, but my bi Azula headcanon lives in a variety of ships. Azutara, Azuki, Maizula… not Tyzula tbh because that feels like… imbalanced? and not Tophzula because they are menace-besties but not romantic, but with any of the other girls I think it could be great. Azutara has the enemies to lovers from Azulaang but with more spice and less forgiveness, they‘d tear eachother apart first but that makes it even sweeter if they eventually fall in love. Azuki is kind of different because Suki is more rational and holds less of an emotional grudge, it‘d be difficult for Azula to earn her trust but she would not be openly hostile to her unless necessary. I imagine this one could only happen if Azula is already in the middle or post redemption though, because Suki would not put up with any EtL shit. I guess that is exactly why it intrigues me too, I feel Suki would be more willing to give Azula a chance, more than Katara for example, but at the same time it would be impossibly hard to win her trust and I‘d like to see if Zula can manage it. Lastly Maizula, and I prefer this one over Tyzula because I feel Mai is more capable of holding her own against Azula in a relationship. It’s a complicated version of childhood friends to lovers and I‘m kind of here for it. No idea how it would work though lol.

Aside from Azula ships, I think Zutara is pretty cool and works well alongside Azulaang. Kataang is kinda cool in theory too, but I don’t like shipping Aang with anyone except Azula, it feels wrong 🤷‍♂️ The only other Aang ship I can imagine liking is Zukaang, but I don’t talk about it much.

Oh and I have to give a shoutout to Sokkla, I don’t particularly vibe with it but they’re the sister ship to Azulaang and I do see the potential of the two genius strategists, so if Aang didn’t exist I would definitely ship Sokkla instead. Nothing but love to the comrades over there. 🫶🏼

edit: totally forgot this but I actually also love Tylaang aka Ty-Lee and Aang, it just has absolutely no fandom so it’s hard to get the ball rolling. I just feel they would be such a wholesome bubbly cute ship, and I dig the Ty-Lee airbender ancestry theory so she‘d love to learn all about airbender customs and they‘d have so much fun and probably a huge family 😅 anyway I think party of why I ship this is just because I think these two deserve the world and it represents my wish for them to be totally carefree and happy. you can also add Azula and make this a throuple, I think that would work because you have Tyzula as the polar opposites and Aang in the middle to bridge the gap.

speaking of throuples I enjoy the idea of… Azutaraang? (Azula/Katara/Aang) but it is very difficult to make work. The only way I can see it is if Azula and Katara fall in love first because nothing good could come of them fighting over Aang. or maybe I could see like a stranded on a deserted island AU where the three of them have to work together and learn to rely on eachother… idk, difficult but not impossible.

Oh and I love Zuki too (Zuko x Zuki) …damn I guess I do have quite a few non-Azulaang ships. anyway this is essentially a bodyguard AU and it’s actually my favorite Zuko ship (sorry Zutara) not much to say about it cuz I’ve barely engaged with it, but I love the idea and think they would just work really well together. I also can see this as a throuple with Sokka again. I don’t really vibe with Zukka on their own but if you add Suki then I love it, because Suki deserves two good boys and it’s more fun for everyone involved if those two good boys are in love with eachother too.

final edit hopefully: Sokka Azula Aang is good too, for the same reasons listed for Zuko Suki Sokka, I swear that’s it now. goodbye lol.

[thekeeperof-thefandoms]

Fine. I need mutuals to lose my sanity with so I give you my Hazbin Hotel hcs based off my OCs.

Please I am so fucking abnormal about my OCs and would love to elaborate on them any time!!! Please if you want specifics about their interactions with their respective partner or character sheets (I cant draw vivzie style good and I have some generic AI art of them I refuse to post it because I don't believe in using ai art for anything other than private use. I paid money for the one that's my profile pic cuz its my dnd character.)

Vox with a big tiddy goth girlfriend reader. Short, chubby, v insecure. Also feral adhd gremlin who copes with dark humor. Makes Vox's ADHD worse. They give each other vocal stims. Call and response echolalia. Vox is constantly assaulted by memes now. Honesly they bring out the inner goblin in each other but it's fine cuz it helps Vox unwind and emotionally regulate finally. She's bi too so anytime Vox (who canonically is more into men) finds a guy he likes they can totally bring him in for a threesome. She leans towards women so it goes both ways. She's a sub for women but tops for men (especially Vox's bratty ass).

Alastor with a skinny non binary autistic person. People mistake them for a twink. Some days they're more fem cuz they want to be pretty. Usually anxious, quiet, enjoys reading and listening to Alastor's music or radio static. Then you get them to unmask and they're a barely stable perpetually exhausted creature thriving off of caffeine and memes. Alastor adores their chaos and listening to them ramble. Appreciates they try to find modern culture he'd relate to and enjoy. They spend time co-existing to bond, doing their own thing next to each other. No pressure to initiate intimacy or anything other than friendship. Autistic person gets a lot of Alastor's sensory ick (esp about touch) without being nosy and just accepts their murder gremlin radio friend. (Accidental platonic partners).

Valentino getting a fucking therapist (he needs one. I see the bi-polar theory and as some one who worked with bipolar people I can see it but he could just be a terrible person). That therapist having two main personalities after death (based on a book a read where a person's ghost was split into two people from before and after their trauma). Both are qualified therapists. One's a 2000s emo boy who's esthetic is Laughing Jack. Except plot twist they're from the south (based on a kid I knew in high school). Puts Vox in his place more often than not by just tying him up and whisking him away to have his tantrums in private (they probably [definitely] fucked.) Tough love kinda but in a way that actuall forces Valentino to confront his issues and deal with it. The other is basically if Harley Quinn got a Homestuck Trickster design. Very sweet. Very blunt. Chaos incarnate. Elaborately finds ways to put Valentino in situations that make him uncomfortable so he has to deal with them and then pavloving him with candy or sex when he's a good person. They're both helping in their own way because now Valentino has to think about his actions, emotionally regulate, and is rewarded for good behavior. The whole dynamic is cute and sexy but also kinda twisted.

Plot twist, Alastor's accidental QPR, Vox's chaos thicc witch, and the unhinged therapy duo are all besties from when they were alive and it means Vox and Alastor have to be civil to each other cuz their partners are friends and they don't wanna upset them.

Bonus points cuz they make friends with Angel and Angel gets to watch two candy themed clowns walk his boss's ass like a dog.

Lucifer gets the AUDHD diagnosis he didn't know he needed ("oh, that's what's wrong with me"), lots of comfort and validation, and a healthy dose of therapy as well.

[empatheticnymph]

I feel safer on this platform than any other social media site.

I love the blog type feel and artist oriented than anything. Blog below 👇

That being said: I’m a Mental Health Advocate due to personal experience and circumstances.

As I navigate my own healing journey, I’ve come across many tests, physical and emotional, since I was 17. Recently at 31, My Therapist ( and later to be discovered my psychiatrist also) had high suspicion of personality disorder along with my Bi-polar 2 diagnosis.

The test came out positive with me having not 1, not 2, not even 3; but 4 Personality disorders. 3 of them are new to me, I had no idea these were classified as their own disorder.

In the end, all personality disorders mean, is that extreme (and sometimes constant) trauma, happened to the person diagnosed. The effects of that trauma mentally altered their way of thinking, processing, accepting and responding to life situations. Now depending on, the life situations can be triggers; which sends people into a reactive and not normal response to the event. There’s more but, that’s main idea.

Mine are as followed:

1. Borderline personality disorder

2. Avoidant personality disorder

3. Dependent personality disorder

4. Paranoia personality disorder: non schizo.

I cried when after she read them to me. Not even fully understanding at the moment, not until I read the book on cognitive theory of personality disorders. Thats where I found the 3 I didn’t know, weren’t subcategories; But their own.

I keep reading the criteria and they almost all check off. Some doctors hate diagnosis’s because it can cause a lot of inner turmoil, like what’s going on with me.

I feel broken, and just too much to fix. how many more years of this? I try telling myself…

You made it this far with all these disorders and, you’re not even a little proud?

[tea-with-evan-and-me]

“she may have a mental illness. Possible bi-polar or a personality disorder. And maybe Evan was trying to give her the benefit of the doubt. That's why I do think he is protective (at least somewhat) to his SO's.”

just to clarify, i know it's not anon's intention and i'm only gonna use this as a hook for my thoughts on that.

i get so sick at people making theories about her being bipolar/bpd to "soften" her actions. "oh i think she's bpd" and? that doesn't change anything. ofc mental illness affects your entire life, mostly these two disorders but that shouldn't be used as an excuse for her irresponsibilities and being a bad person.

idk if i already have a short patience with that bc i had a friend who would use her self diagnosed bpd to justify every bad thing she did. like, she'd do the worst things to her friends and then say "unfortunately i have a disorder that affects my personality, and if you're my real friend you have to understand and deal with me because that's what real friends do" like???????! that's fucking manipulative

pls don't get me wrong, bpd is a real thing and should never be demonized or neglected. i'm just so annoyed at some (not all) people using such an important and delicate situation to play the victim after being simply evil

i appreciate your thoughts, anon. you are entirely correct - mental illness isn't and should not be used as a shield against accountability and a free pass to hurt people. no one, not even friends and family, are obligated to sit around and let a mentally ill person mistreat them.

[ficsand]

In a world with no psychiatry, and no medical diagnosis, what do you think they call mental illness?

My theory:

Mind of Tui - depression, bc it feels like drowning+black and deadly. (Our life come from the ocen)

"he has the mind of Tui" , "she is in the depth of Tui", "we lost them to Tui's pull"

light of La - Mania, bc feels like high, bright, strong - but also can't sleep, reckless etc (our strength come from the moon)

"enlightened by La"

Tui and La - bi polar

(I know it's very simplified, but as a starting)

Also - some link between anxiety+panic attacks to air? The unnameable winds?

Or opposite - to earth, bc can't breathe?

Or by agni? Bc feels like little shocks, and burn your air?

Hilusination and delusions (positive symptoms, addings) - agni's touched? Or air - bc like seeing/think things other can't see?

Catatonia, harder to think, words mix - maybe earth? As in getting earthy, closer to ground (give a new view tothe phrase "stoning")

(important message - not that it is, by any way, implied that it IS any divine. As a past explanation. Like how they describe "malancolia" as too much black,,, thing, can't remember the word).

I don't know.

it can be an interesting discussion 🤔

@a-witch-in-endor @mostly-mundane-atla @muffinlance @wingsfreedom

What do you think?

[jitterbugjive]

I hate when neurotypical people assume certain tasks are ‘easy’ and ‘common sense’ for everyone.

One of my mom’s crap friends was complaining about how she doesn’t really dust her apartment and has issues with clutter. She’s not a hoarder, but she has ADHD and bi-polar which can give long bouts of depression and a lot of procrastination. And this lady’s sitting there saying “Well all she has to do is take one day of the month to tidy up” and it’s like yeah, in theory that seems logical but mental illness can REALLY get in the way of what might be simple to a neurotypical person.

My mom’s been trying to get help, a caretaker of some kind, because she just can’t keep up with cleaning, so it’s not like she’s not doing anything at all, and she does keep the place clean enough to have guests over. But because she’s not 100% on top of keeping her place clean, she’s ‘lazy and absent minded’ according to people who clearly don’t understand how mental illness works.

[hysydney]

Colours of the Crypt

Once upon a time I blogged about the colours in various episodes of the MFMM series, using Goethe’s Theory of Colour to frame the various analyses: MFMM colour themes. 

I thought it might be about time to attempt the same for The Crypt, given the extraordinary settings, contrasting locations and vibrant spectrum of colours of the film, and what they might tell us about the dramatic and aesthetic narratives.

Goethe’s theory was that colour is a sensory interpretation shaped by perception as well as elements of light and darkness.  Unlike Newton’s scientifically-based theory, Goethe argued that colour needs darkness, and that most colours contain elements of it: 

Light and darkness, brightness and obscurity, or if a more general expression is preferred, light and its absence, one necessary to the production of colour . . . colour itself is a degree of darkness. (Goethe, Zur Farbenlehre, 1810)

Goethe’s Colour and symbolic wheel (1809)

Part 1: A line in the sand

Goethe based his colour wheel and published writings on a yellow/blue polarity; that yellow and blue  are the only pure colours; all other colours are degrees of these two. 

Yellow is a light which has been dampened by darkness; blue is a darkness weakened by the light. 

This yellow/blue polarity and its manifestation in shades, tones and hues of the natural and built environments, the garbs and settings of The Crypt of Tears, bring this duality into focus.

In Goethe’s colour wheel, yellow (good ’gut’) is the colour closest to light, and therefore both ‘pure and beautiful ... serene, gay, softly exciting’. But he acknowledges too the impact of combinations, of blending and shading, which he claims can produce ‘a very disagreeable effect’. The soft, stark and muted tones of desert towns, villages and landscapes represent, while not always disagreement, wariness and foreboding.

By a slight and scarcely perceptible change, the beautiful impression of fire and gold is transformed into one not undeserving the epithet, foul; and the colour of honour and joy reversed to that of ignominy and aversion. 

Of blue (common ‘gemein’) he also suggests some caution:

As yellow is always accompanied with light, so it may be said that blue still brings a principle of darkness with it.

This colour has a peculiar and almost indescribable effect on the eye. As a hue it is powerful — but it is on the negative side, and in its highest purity is, as it were, a stimulating negation. Its appearance, then, is a kind of contradiction between excitement and repose.

The opening scenes of The Crypt provide an opportunity to consider the contrasting effects of the two pure colours. Jerusalem, in British-occupied and administered Palestine, is set in the yellow-browns of mudbrick and cobblestones, of ‘ignominy and aversion’, and this provides a backdrop to the complexity of the intrigue that is to follow. 

Phryne erupts onto this scene in a tribute to blue’s ‘excitement’, robes whirling, glittering and billowing in her escape from the local administrative officers who are suspicious of her motives for being in Jerusalem. Her abaya and niqab with coin face veil contrast the muted, sandy tones of the squares, high walls and alleyways where the escapee jostles with crowds, donkey carts, baskets of commerce and motorbikes. 

Her silhouette against a pure blue sky highlights the contrast.

Indeed as if to reinforce Goethe’s yellow/blue polarity, Phryne abandons her blues for yellow’s purest form, 'the beautiful impression of fire and gold’ and the scene is set for the next escapade, to rescue the young dissident, Shirin, held in prison for her anti-colonial views. Fire and gold from pistol to toe.

The yellow/blue contrast is reinforced in the scenes of Shirin’s imprisonment; the blue of her robes mirroring Phryne’s earlier dress, distinct from the dull yellow mudbrick prison, the walls and cobblestones of the square and the desert beyond.

The blue of Shirin’s robes are a recurring motif, not limited to her incarceration but always reflecting its distinction from her surrounds. in her memories of earlier times, Goethe’s description of blue generating the ‘kind of contradiction between excitement and repose’ is brought into sharp relief. In each of the flashbacks of her childhood in a village in the Negev, blue dominates the sandy backdrop of social life and interactions. 

These early memories evince repose: the calm and order of village life and her relationship with her mother. They reveal love, warmth, closeness as well as indications of future agency.

Shirin recalls a task assigned to her, that of collecting honey from the hives on the hills above the village. Although the purpose was unclear, she knew that one day the tradition would be revealed to her by her mother. The image of her journey on the fateful day of the attack foreshadows markers in a later scene. 

Away collecting honey saved Shirin’s life just as its role was the preservation of another young woman. Her absence distanced her from the sudden and shocking assault which decimated her family and the entire village.  In her recollections, the blue of sky and robes is set against the gold of honey pot and honey; the shattered ceramic and spilled contents parallel the death and destruction in the village below.

As the sandstorm engulfs the village and the curse is set in motion, Shirin’s only desire is to be enveloped within it, the blue to be absorbed into the raging ochre dust.

Part 2: Rapprochement

Maybe it’s too long a bow to draw to use a term usually associated with international relationships, but I’ll linger a little longer on the metaphor anyway. We need to consider the alliance between the central duo of the film, Phryne and Jack. An entente cordiale between them is necessary to reconnoitre with a stranger, explain a mystery, break a curse, unravel a crime and, ultimately, resolve a romance.

Phryne interrupts her own memorial service with a spectacular entrance in a  yellow/blue dichotomy (aka biplane). 

The rapprochement gets off to a rather shaky start: Jack is hurt, Phryne bemused.

J: Do you have any idea what it was like for me... reading that you'd died a horrible death in a foreign country? 

P: Why are you so angry? 

J: I wrote a eulogy for you. 

P: My apologies for the wasted effort. 

J: Oh, don't worry. It won't be wasted. I'll save it for the appropriate day.

It isn't long before circumstances see their reaching an agreement to prolong the colour scheme, brokered by a mysterious sealed missive, encounters in rain-drenched alleyways, and in a journey across the Negev to find the site of Shirin’s village and the key to an ancient curse.

For Phryne and Jack this means some stunning silhouettes both in London and abroad. A precursor to purple rain perhaps:

Any mutually-acceptable, bi-lateral agreement requires time, patience and some give and take in the negotiations.  

The desert landscape, like those of Jerusalem and in the scenes of Shirin’s childhood village, constantly reinforce the complementarity of sky and sand. Goethe’s ignominy and aversion of muted yellow and stimulating negation and contradiction of blue accompany the journey.

There are traps for the unwary: a dishonest cameleer for example ...

And in policy positions, stated and ceded:

P: Well, maybe I'll be absolutely fine without having to explain myself to you or any other man. And if I need your help, I'll ask for it. 

J: I won't hold my breath.  

P: Jack? 

J: Don't worry about it. 

P: I need your help! It's quicksand!

But the film isn't just about ignominy and aversion, negation and contradiction. Goethe’s colour wheel can provide the methodology for more insights - other symbols, senses and emotions circle around, wheeling about plot and character. What of red and green, purple and silver, ebony and ivory?  Now there’s some food for thought.

To be continued...

[satoriberry]

hello!! can i request a romantic matchup for timeskip haikyuu?

i’m bi and go by she/they pronouns. i’m 5”5 with long wavy platinum blonde hair with bangs, dark green eyes, fair skin and a slim thick figure. people see me as arrogant or intimidating by start, because i’m pretty blunt and i don’t really care much about people’s opinion. i’m very adventurous, pretty laid back, crack jokes and like letting loose. but i’m also very mature, analytical and quick-witted. i’m very observant, loyal to my friends and give great advice, even if my actions are questionable and my words come out harsh. my friends also see me as the personal bully, out of affection, a huge petty tease and very mischievous, call me a chaotic neutral.

i’m a virgo and intj and my favourite colour is purple. i daydream a bit and like to question the universe, theories and existence. i'm optimistic, competitive, not really quick to judge someone and hope for the best in people. my aesthetic or fashion style is something like 70’s, mid 90’s and dark fairy core.

i love travelling, horror, philosophy, astronomy, animals, music (mostly indie and rock), video games, plants and nature, fashion, cooking, chess and physical activities.

thank you for reading and i hope you have a great day 💜

A lovely passerby with the name @bimbodemongf put their fate in my hands, let’s see what I have to offer....

↬ Berry's note: tumblr has the shiddiest formatting ever omfg just let the photos stay side by side 💔💔

Fate chose Yamaguchi Tadashi as your suitor! Want to have a look at what it’s like?

- First of all, you two are practically polar opposites (some similarities tho!!!) which is so fucking cute in this case OMFG.

- He's very timid and people tend to walk all over him, so when he saw how you don't take people's shit, he was so infatuated with you <3

- Since people are intimidated by you before getting to know you, he was probably very awkward and nervous (scared) around you at the start. Because 1) your personality and 2) how you looked, like???

- Help??? You're so gorgeous??? He couldn't even imagine making eye contact with you because your eyes were so mesmerising and your hair looked so nice to the touch and wait fuck he's staring too much.

- He wanted to talk to you so bad but everytime you even walked PAST him, he felt his knees get weaker (help the poor boy)

- But he's lucky because you two got to know each other through a mutual friend, and after seeing how you interacted with people, he was,,,,even more interested in you. You looked so intimidating but in reality, you were so genuinely nice and fun to be with?

- He just blinked the entire time as he watched you talk about the most random shit with your friends, poke fun at them (consenually 💪🙄) and be an overall chill person??? Help you're so good at being amazing??

- He got closer to you by asking you out to have some drinks and talk a walk around his university's campus

- You were really rowdy with your friends but right now, while having a 1-on-1 conversation, it was like you were slightly different. You were rambling about a new horror movie that just dropped in cinemas and even though horror movies weren't his cup of tea (he probably cried when watching courage the cowardly dog LMFAO), your smile was so charming, he missed half of the stuff you said.

- Let's get into your life as a couple 👹

- First of all, he most definitely thinks you're the coolest person alive, especially your clothing style!

- The first time you two went out on a date and he saw just what kind of fashion you were a fan of, he was so stunned?? You looked like one of those badass, kinda evil but still likeable characters from teen movies made in the mid 80s (think JD from Heathers without the mental issues).

- I like to think he has a more casual/soft/preppy aesthetic, so the contrast between your appearance and his own was so cute <3

- WILL ACCOMPANY YOU ON HIKES! Even if he's never been on one before, he'll gladly enjoy hikes with you because he knows just how much nature is beautiful to you (and in general too!)

- As a part of your nature activities, he also likes to have picnics with you. Like, just a tiny picnic for you and him on a Sunday afternoon, under the shade of a tree,,,,,,yeah <3

- He notices how you sometimes space out and get lost in your own thoughts, but it doesn't matter because your relaxed expression was such a beautiful sight (yes he's very in love with you) and he knows that when you snap out of it, you're gonna share your new theories on space and life.

- DINNER DATES!! but it's homemade because power couple shit.

- He ADORES cooking with you, he gets to spend time with you AND gets to eat something his lovely S/O made with him? He thinks he saved an entire family in a past life to deserve all of this.

- He loves how you're such an open minded person because he knows you would never make him feel judged. He feels comfortable talking about his problems with you, he doesn't have to bottle it up if you're there for him :(((

- In conclusion, Yamaguchi Tadashi is so in love with you. Your personality, your attitude, your style, how pretty you were, how you made him feel at ease. Mans will eat bullets for you <3

Runner-ups!

↦ Sugawara Koushi!

↦ Yachi Hitoka!

↦ Semi Eita!

I hope you enjoyed what I assume is your suited one....

↬ Berry's after-writing note: fuck you tumblr for having the worst image formatting EVER WHAT THE FUCK?????

[onisiondrama]

PART 18 - videos #34 &35

(Click here for video mirrors) - These are not my words or thoughts, I’m just summarizing what Greg / James is saying in his videos. Apologies for any offensive language or comments that may appear. - I am not repeating stories anymore and will replace these stories with brackets describing what he’s talking about. If you don’t know these stories you’re going to have to go back and read previous parts or watch his previous videos.

asking you [deleted?]

- He’s asking you to do something because he doesn’t know if he’s allowed to. He forgot to crop the top of a screen shot and he lost his Patreon, Younow, a couple other things, his twitch was temporarily suspended. He can’t do much to defend himself so he’s asking people to not be a sheeple. Look closely at what Sarah said in the beginning about grooming and photos and look at what she said recently. This is how you expose a liar. Their story changes based on their emotions and not reality. Classic BPD. Sarah’s twitter might disappear because of this video. [Threatened him, laughing at burning house, cocaine, prescription drugs] Document all these facts for him. She got a lawyer to silence him. Download all her videos about Greg and Kai. All someone would have to do is show them in court. Boom. Conflicting statements. When nothing adds up, you lose the court case. He asks you to make a video of all her statements. - He wants people to research. [She went after him because his BPD video.] Someone on discord said everyone involved has BPD. Greg says Billie doesn’t. The person says it seems like Billie just does what everyone tells her to do and agrees with them even if it’s not true. Greg says Ayalla has BPD or bi-polar and is Billie’s best friend. When Social Repose was threatening to expose Ayalla if she kept hanging out with Greg, she was running around crying. He doesn’t know if Ayalla will admit this, but she was marching around in his basement doing the sieg hail while saying the n word. He says she might be Jewish so he doesn’t know if that’s ok. Greg says he’s speechless. There were witnesses. Billie and Sarah saw it and Kai might have been there too. Greg says he dressed up as Hitler for a comedy sketch and has done the sieg hail as that character, but the hard r. He says he’s bleeped out “nidder” to sound like he’s saying it. - They have a text from Sarah saying it’s funny Ayalla is going after them when she tried to get Sarah to starve herself and sleep with her. This whole thing is a mess. - You can get this info yourself. You can look back at everything he said about Shiloh in the last 8 years. He says it’s weird Shiloh is older than Kai. - Someone wrote to Greg about when Shiloh was talking about BDSM, Greg doesn’t think their relationship was BDSM. He wasn’t into the collar stuff until Billie. She was the first person he explored that with. She was cool about it, even the basement thing until he broke up with her. This person said listening to Shiloh aroused him and he couldn’t control himself. Greg says that’s weird and he can’t use that in a video.

the episodes

- Greg announces he has things to do today so he doesn’t have a lot of time. - He was written again by the guy that gratified himself after hearing someone’s story about their relationship with Greg. This person offered Greg $250, Greg doesn’t know why. The guy’s email pointed out it’s weird everyone who is talking about the past seems so satisfied with themselves and not very sad about it. Greg says it’s weird Sarah created a twitter account just to attack him. You have to ask yourself what a victim would do and what someone who’s malicious would do? Would a victim start a twitter to obsess over and attack someone for 6 months? Probably not. [Real victims don’t want to talk about it, blah blah] It’s not like anyone who has PTSD from going to Iraq want to talk about how they accidentally shoot a little boy in the desert. One of Sarah’s first tweets was “I F-ED ONISION.” He says a real victim’s first tweet would be “please respect this. I’m talking to the police or a lawyer. I need to keep this private to keep the case integrity intact.” Going on a tirade of hateful tweet after hateful tweet and laughing at this person’s misery is what she did. [Laughed at his house burning, she said she would assault him.] Says a real victim might threaten to assault someone, but not laugh at the thought of someone’s house burning down. - Apparently a pizza delivery guy’s name was Greg and Sarah recorded herself telling him he has the same name as her ex boyfriend. She told him he was cuter than her ex, then gave him the tip. This is obviously not normal behavior. - Person in the email points out Chris Hansen’s dissatisfaction when Sarah admitted nothing happened when she was underage. Apparently Hansen was very upset about that because his whole thing is catching people who do things with underage people. When the main person who is behind all this is saying nothing happened when she was underage the whole thing would fall apart. - Greg has a theory you guys are dysfunctional or you would have seen the signs of Sarah doing things victims don’t normally do. You don’t go around bragging about it. You enabled her because you wanted it to be real, You need to look in the mirror and see what you’ve done. You raised tens of thousands of dollars paying a liar, good job on that [sarcastic]. - Multiple people sent him all of Sarah’s tweets so he could use them in court. He hasn’t reviewed them yet or the streams because they're painful to look at. That’s what people normally do when they don’t feel good about someone. They don’t start twitter and obsess over them. They want to avoid that person, that’s why he kicked her out of his life. - The person in the email said they gratified them self after hearing Shiloh’s story. Greg says that’s weird and odd, but this person told Greg what Shiloh said and that was the first time he heard it. [He broke up with Shiloh, she cheated, baby] Ever since then she’s been creepy with him. Shiloh, Sarah, and Billie apparently have been very good with keeping up with him, which is weird. Move on already. - He says apparently Shiloh said they would do it three times a day. Greg says that’s accurate, but then says it’s not. The first time they met, they had sex 8 times in 12 hours. The second time, he was moving to Canada for 3 months, they slept together 7 times in one thing. He was puking orange juice because he had too much vitamin C. She was rubbing his back and was very sweet and considerate. Says Hansen implied BDSM, but he doesn’t remember being kinky with Shiloh. He just got out of a marriage with someone who he barely slept with. - Greg says there is a person on adult sites who always rolls her eyes back and has seizures from the joy her body’s feeling. That’s what Shiloh would do all the time, which was crazy and awesome. Shiloh would tell him it was insane he could keep going and going with her. That was intense and cool. The first girl he was ever with and Shiloh had a weird thing in common. At some point they would zone out while doing it. [He demonstrates] He would ask if they’re ok and if he should keep going. They would tell him, “yeah, keep going [in a whisper]”. Greg says it’s weird, like they’re taking a break. That’s why he doesn’t know what anyone’s talking about with BDSM. That’s the weirdest thing they did. - Greg says there’s a similar video to the fake seizure video, the video where Shiloh keeps saying she loves him while pretending to be in an altered state. If you watch it you can clearly see something is mentally wrong. If a therapist or a psychologist looks at the footage they could probably diagnose her. It was one of the weirdest things in the world. She portrayed it to be real. He thought it was partially fake, that’s why he recorded it. Back then he was one of those Youtubers who would film anything because he wanted views. - There was another video where she reverted back years in her life and acted like she didn’t know who he was or where she was. If you see these videos, you know they’re fake. She’s very good at pretending. He recommends you watch them all to build a mental profile and realize there’s something wrong with her.  [cheated, baby, Aliana] - Chris Hansen was willing to believe the most nonsensical stuff because he wanted something to be there. People watched Billie, Shiloh, and Sarah. He doesn’t know how people feel about Billie. They were upset she was boring because she didn’t have enough dirt, probably because she doesn’t have BPD. Sarah and Shiloh most likely have BPD. Sarah was on meds. If you look up Shiloh’s last boyfriend, he went in depth about what she did to him. [He went to jail, text got him off.] You see a lot of intent and evil. [Not how victims behave, he dumped them, malicious] It’s obvious when you look at it for what it is. Get woke.

[gascon-en-exil]

Oh, I’ve thought of something I can do as regards final(ish) evaluations of FE16. Last spring I made a personal tier list of the series’s lords, and I’m now familiar enough with the four lords of Three Houses to add them. Using the same categories as that earlier post:

S Tier - interesting, narratively engaging, and (usually) fun to use

Dimitri (probably above Micaiah, definitely above Eliwood) - It is so strange to me to see Dimitri end so high up overall, because going into the game there was a lot riding against him. Marth and his various imitators have never interested me much, and Dimitri’s post-timeskip design is so distastefully haggard that I guessed that he’d be distinguished from that lot in ways I didn’t care for either. But like Eliwood before him Dimitri makes the earnest all-loving hero work, splicing it with a lot of background trauma and even more moral greyness that gets to look and feel off-putting for a good half or more of his Part 2. Placing the onus for Dimitri’s change of heart on Byleth’s personality-deprived shoulders is a big letdown, more so when you realize just how much the writing of Azure Moon has to contort itself to make it happen, but at the end of the story he’s well on his way to recovery regardless with the potential for some happy years ahead of him that do not necessarily involve Byleth in any major personal capacity...which is more than you can say for Edelgard. He doesn’t want to conquer the continent but gets the whole thing dropped in his lap anyway, and we can hope he acquits himself better than the likes of Ephraim or Ike when placed in similar situations. And speaking of Ike, I like him less now that Dimitri exists as a same-sex-inclined male lord far more to my personal taste. He may have the marriage endings that Ike pointedly lacks, but not even the game can write around the bond he shares with Dedue without (sometimes temporarily) killing one of them off. Also, lance lord - not as sparkly as light magic, but he’s got some of that too if you’re determined enough.

A Tier - fun unit and may have interesting character potential, but I’m less invested in exploring them

Claude (between Hector and Lucina, approximately) - Delightfully broken as a unit, and even though I could do without the persistent fans that insist he’s got to be bi while ignoring that Dimitri already very much is that’s not so different from the issues I have with the fanboys of Sigurd and Hector and their spiritual successors. It occurs to me that, for all that his naked manipulation of the game’s self-insert is completely unlike anything we’ve ever seen before in a series protagonist, Claude effectively blends a bunch of traits from past characters and still comes out feeling fresh (and maybe just a little evil). He’s got Lyn’s biracial backstory, Quan’s ambitions of conquest with good PR, Lewyn’s wind association and carefree façade, Ike’s simplistic takes on how to fix racism, and the collective no homo-ing ability of the entire cast of Awakening. I like how he’s the quiet political threat waiting in the wings once Edelgard and the Agarthans have been dealt with in Azure Moon and Silver Snow, but it’s a threat the game never belabors since one supervillain house leader is more than enough. That he exists as such while also being the lord with the most effective in-game press and a clear, morally-driven goal in mind is nothing short of remarkable.

B Tier - either overwhelmingly average, or with both strong positive and strong negative aspects that balance each other out

Edelgard (above Corrin, if I’m being charitable) - Ugh. I was tempted to put her lower, but to her credit she is more compelling than Marth and the like. Too bad that half of why she’s so compelling is the inconsistency of her character; the way in which Edelgard is crippled by the game’s writing (a contractual requirement for female lords) is that it asks her to be both an imperialistic, dictatorial villain and a personally and politically sympathetic antiheroine. If only she’d been allowed to be a pure villain character she would have been fantastic, and I might have even ranked her above Claude. Her traumatic past feeds into her motivations such that it allows her to think that she’s doing the right thing even though she’s not (important for any well-written three-dimensional villain), and the revelation in Verdant Wind that her crusade was based almost entirely on false information adds to the dramatic irony and the inherent tragedy of her character. It is my personal belief that Crimson Flower is best approached by following Hubert’s example and going full Evil Overlord with it, and then it becomes so much easier to handle an ending where Edelgard has been set up by the very people who destroyed her family and childhood to throw Fódlan into chaos and replace the continent’s oldest institution and all its former governments with an alleged meritocracy where all her friends - most of them nobility - get to rule everything and she probably won’t live to see it all collapse. But no, on every route you’ve also got to deal with her bizarrely-expressed attraction to Byleth, and this just drags her overall presentation down even as it’s trying (very awkwardly) to humanize her. It’s little wonder that Edelgard is so polarizing, and I can’t say I’m a fan.

D Tier - OP unit, terrible character

Byleth (above Robin) - Like Edelgard, Byleth suffers because the developers couldn’t stick to one script on what to do with them. They’re less of a self-insert than previous Avatars on account of significantly limited customization options, and yet (in theory) more of one because the player can now choose dialogue options at points in the script, usually to no meaningful effect. They’re a mute amnesiac thrust into the role of teacher at a military academy, which lends itself to all sorts of wacky school shenanigans in fandom and allows the player to superimpose a personality onto a mostly blank slate - at least until Byleth is revealed to be the mortal vessel of a goddess and the child twice over/grandchild/sibling/parent of one of the game’s major players who they incidentally also have the option to sleep with. I’m not sure who Byleth is meant to appeal to, really; fans of Avatars will dislike their preset characteristics both as a self-insert and as a unit, while fans who dislike Avatars (like myself) will hate how the writing forces them to be important to the plot and to other characters’ arcs even outside the whole dragon/goddess angle. I would place Byleth over Robin, however, for two reasons. One is that their plot significance is telegraphed from the very first cutscene and not held off until the game’s final chapters, and that on three of the four routes they are clearly secondary to that route’s house leader in overall importance. The second is that their lack of a proper voice unlike all the other characters makes it less irksome than it otherwise would be for me to have to use f!Byleth to bang most of the male cast. In a game that almost completely flubbed its self-insert M/M options and left all the good stuff to Dimitri’s harem and a few miscellaneous guys, I’ll take what I can get.

[adrienandmari]

Adrien is a Sentimonster (did I spell that right?) Theory!!!!

By: @adrienandmari

Hey guys- I know this isn’t the usual but I kinda fell down a wormhole today.

Ok so I’ve been reading/watching lots of theories that prove Adrien to be a sentimonster. It’s so hard not to believe it right??

But I was thinking about MLB today and was like hey why is Gabriel Hawkmoth?

Like what on earth is his motive??

Well we know for a fact that he is using the butterfly miraculous to get the ladybug and cat miraculouses. He wants to use them to make a wish.

We can infer that the wish has to do with his “missing” wife Emilie.

We think that she was the peacock before Nathalie, since he keeps the miraculous next to a picture of her.

We know that he and his wife went to Tibet together. We also know that Emilie is in fact not missing- she is rather in a coma in the Agreste’s basement (kinda creepy right?).

So it makes since that he is going to wish to revive Emilie.

We also know that Gabriel wishes he could let Adrien in on why he is doing all this. He knows that Adrien would understand because he knows Adrien loves his mom.

He even goes as far as to say that everything he does is just to make Adrien happy again...

I KNOW FOR A FACT THAT EVERYONE HAS HEARD THIS LINE BEFORE...

and that’s because we’ve all been upset and quick to judge saying that if Gabriel really cares about Adrien being happy he would start spending time with him. (Hopefully you remember know)

But then now we are left with a crazy new theory:

Emilie’s revival is not the motive.

But instead Adrien’s happiness is.

Gabriel wants to bring Emilie back, we assume, because he wants Adrien to be happy. He wants to be a family again.

So if Adrien was a sentimonster- would his happiness really be a super villains motive?

If Adrien is considered such baggage to Gabriel- why not just use Mayura to retrieve his amuck. We all know that this can be done after Feast, since Mayura was able to threaten the s-monster with retrieving its amuck, even though we didn’t create him.

So this makes me believe that Adrien is NOT a sentimonster. Sure some of these theories actually make a lot of sense- but when you look at the whole picture it just would make the plot line crash. There would be literally so MANY PLOTHOLES that no one could explain.

But then we are left to think about how Emilie went in to a coma:

My top three reasons are:

A. She created a very powerful sentimonster like the one in Feast

B. She created a bunch of little sentimonsters that slowly drained her

C. Just wearing the miraculous and interacting with the very bi-polar Duusuu caused her to take on the peacocks wounds.

Although there are many other reasons why she is in a coma I think it is very important that we first learn what on earth happened to the peacock miraculous because we know it was fine when Master Fu used it as a boy. We can rule out feast as being the reason why it is broken because then the miraculous ladybugs would have repaired it along with all the others. And we know that it was found in the same region as the butterfly- so why wasn’t the butterfly affected?

So to summarize that we basically need to understand who used the peacock in the past and what is has been used to do.

Ok ok sorry went really off topic there-

But back to the main idea now that we have gathered some evidence and reasonings:

I think that since Adrien is so publicized that it would be easy for people to notice that he always looks the same/ never ages. If he was really a sentimonster, his dad would not want him in the limelight where people would notice that something is very off.

Also the picture Adrien drew as a child- this signifies the fact that Adrien does have substantial memories and emotions related towards his childhood that would be impossible for a sentimonster to understand, even if Emilie tried to explain it to him. Even though it is strange that we never see any photos of Adrien as a child around the house-(he’s only a teen in all the photos) we can guess that he did in fact have a solid upbringing that he was present for.

So back to my original theory that Gabriel’s motive is to make Adrien happy again.

I think that Gabriel doesn’t want to just awaken Emilie, he would then have to explain everything he’s done- after all she knows he has the miraculous and has been listening to his annoying rants in the basement for over a year now. (That is if she is in a coma where she can still hear)

I think Gabriel wants to change the timeline to back before they went to Tibet and found the miraculouses. Then he would be able to convince Emilie that it would be unsafe to go. I have a feeling that their trip took place a year before the first season aired- meaning Adrien would be born and all would be normal and Emilie wouldn’t be in a coma/dead yet.

This way he wouldn’t be paying for it by risking someone’s life- instead the balance would mean that they would undo an important event in the future that would affect someone in the show greatly. And it would mean that Marinette and Adrien would never be chosen to be miraculous holders, since we can assume there would be no Hawkmoth.

A parallel in the series to this is the theme behind the snake miraculous in Desperada when Adrien keeps turning back time to before anything bad happens to Ladybug, so that they can change their strategies. Am I the only one thinking that this could be a major hint at the future finale for Miraculous?

Thanks for reading my rant behind the craziness of this new theory! If you liked it or thought it was something interesting-repost and share!

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[colossalbeltloop-art]

Oh...

I think I know where this is going.

So the Agreste's have a foundation, eh?

Why do I get the feeling that this is an Emilie idea, and not a Gabriel one?

And why do I feel like the foundation involves sick, ailing children?

I'm sure many of those kids are sad and despairing. Hmmm, seems like ideal territory to bestow "protection" and other acts of superhero kindness. A very noble cause. Seems very Emilie-like, given Adrien's particular attachment to her.

Finally, the Peacock miraculous damages the user, right? (apparently to death if the power is abused. Yes, I really think Emilie is dead, and that's why there's a massive funeral portrait hanging above the stairs, Gabriel moved his wedding ring to his middle finger, and also allows Nathalie to get handsy with him without so much as a complaint.)

Anyway, what does all of this mean? Here's a theory...

I think Emilie wanted to help the helpless, especially regarding kids. By whatever means she obtained the Peacock miraculous, she viewed it as a force for good and used it as such, with only Gabriel knowing her identity and intentions. With his help, I think her goal eventually became "their goal" and it led to starting their own foundation. And if you wanna real tear jerker, maybe that promise included having more of their own kids, or maybe she was unable to have more after Adrien, thus leading her to adopt a building full of disadvantaged ones.

Perhaps part of their promise was to continue and expand on this. When Emilie's health started to fail, she was willing to endure the suffering, even as it became evident to Gabriel that the toll was becoming dangerous and not just painful. Imagine the sad circumstances they must have been in, being both contentious, stressful, argumentative, but also loving each other and willing to suffer for the other--all for the sake of what was originally a noble idea.

I'm not sure if they took a single trip to Tibet, or if they took multiple ones. But a strong case can be made that their last one was an attempt to either find a cure  for Emilie, or to fix the Peacock miraculous. Whatever the case, they obtain the grimoire, and hope seems to be just in their reach when the worst happens.

And the most heart-stabbing thing of all? It may very well have been Adrien who unknowingly made her succumb to her final act of protection. Perhaps when the family structure was slowly falling apart, with no apparent reason Adrien could see for himself, despair took over, as did Emilie's nature to be a protective mom. She may have overcompensated when using her power, feeling guilty for a perceived neglect of her own son because she was busy taking responsibility for so many other ailing children. (The irony of her actions causing not just a short stint, but a daily lifestyle of neglect and loneliness for Adrien is damn depressing and wonderful entertainment. More please.)

This could explain Gabriel's really strange, unexplained disdain for Adrien. It's a Catch 22. He loves his son, but knows that he is the direct cause of Emilie's death... but also can’t blame him for it. (Combine this with my theory that Chat Noir will have to be the one to destroy the coffin a la Cataclysm, either by directly touching it, or indirectly by destroying the entire Agreste mansion and all of its weird mom idols. You’d have one helluva beautiful tragedy).

So to poor Adrien's confusion and frustration, he experiences these sporadic, bi-polar episodes from his dad. And even when Gabriel is being "nice", he has a bitter and bristled demeanor, compounded with a misdirected anger he can't shake. Thus, Gabriel puts a really determined distance between himself and Adrien, partly for his own sanity, and partly as a peculiar sort of mercy for Adrien.

I don't know. Maybe I'm just messed up in the head and drama is neat, and this show has rich enough potential to go that direction. Who knows. I hope the series doesn't get nerf-batted in the knees by the "kid's show" baton. :P

[ivory-haired-queens-blog]

What it's like to be in a real lockdown

So, I'm not making a joke, and by no means am I trying to one-up those who have been in an active shooter environment or had an actual bomb planted in their school. Now that that's clear, on to the story.

So, I may have posted about this in the past, but here's the full story.

My school had a bomb threat.

Of course, sitting in the classroom, we didn't know this.

So, when the lockdown alarm went off, we were all like "Oh, another drill? I mean, okay."

None of us took it seriously.

And they didn't inform the teachers either, as to not cause panic. Because some teachers may have tried to leave the school, and if someone called a bomb threat to lure kids out of the school, that would be very bad.

Anyways, I know exactly where I was. Even though this was five-six years ago.

I was walking back to class after lunch. I was in fifth grade, which in my school was counted as middle school. To get to the fifth grade classrooms, you had to walk past the sixth grade classrooms.

I was near the sixth grade classrooms when the alarm went off.

Nobody thought it was serious, as we have like 10 lockdown drills a year.

And the teachers thought they weren't told about the drill because in past drills they haven't taken it seriously.

Anyways, I end up in the Ela teachers room. She ushered me and about twelve other fifth graders into her class.

Our drills last 5-10 minutes tops.

So, we were all whispering amongst ourselves on the floor, and one of the kids who is overly prepared goes "guys, it's been ten minutes already."

And we were like "oh, maybe they just haven't checked to see if all the doors were locked yet."

At fifteen minutes, we were all kind of scared. Not terrified, but we knew something was up.

At a half hour, one kid was having a panic attack, and I was close there myself.

After doing breathing excersizes and managing to calm myself down, it had been 45 minutes since the alarm.

We sat in that classroom for another hour.

People I didn't even know who still had their lunch boxes from lunch were offering us snacks, to try to calm us down more than anything.

I'll never forget how in a time of crisis, people always show who they really are. I know it sounds cliche, but it's true.

Suddenly the loudspeaker came on, and I was convinced that it was gonna be a shooter or terrorist saying they were in control or something like that, but it was a police officer.

And he said "please remain calm, teachers, evacuate to (our evacuation spot)

And we were all freaking the fuck out. I wasn't crying, as my hyperventilating caused me to think about not suffocating.

So we evacuated, and i had heard a few theories of shooters, a gas leak, whatever.

So we're all there, and the buses came to pick us up. We have our stuff still in our lockers, and we can't go get it.

We were all scared to go to school the next day. In fact, less than half of our grade showed up.

Anyways, this isn't some fucking "story time" thing. This does have a message. Several, actually.

1. LET YOUR FUCKING STUDENTS CARRY CELL PHONES. look, I get it. "It can be a distraction." But I was absolutely certain I was going to die in that classroom, and I had people I wanted to tell that I loved them. I know, it would cause panic amongst the parents, potentially causing more problems. But if I'm going to die, I want the last thing that I ever say to my mother to be I love you. We weren't allowed to have phones, so if it was a real bomb, I don't know what the last thing I said to my mom would've been.

2. If you're pro-gun, gtfo my blog. Unfollow me. Block me, idc. We need fucking gun laws, and if I had it my way nobody would own a gun. There are other ways to kill people, and a gun is most efficient. Efficient isn't always good, especially if we're talking about plowing down middle schoolers. And I know, this was a bomb threat, not a shooting threat. But even if you arm teachers like people want to do, what the fuck will a gun do against a bomb? If you want a gun for self-defense, just take a fucking self defense class and protect the lives of your children.

3. Police officers a should be stationed at all schools at all times. 4 or 5. Idgaf about your reasoning for not agreeing, I'd like a trained professional who knows how to stop a dangerous person in the same school as children. Police officers in our town were away doing something else and that's why it took almost two hours to evacuate us. We need them at schools. We just do.

4. MENTAL HEALTH & SPEAKING UP. BOTH IMPORTANT. The girl- yes, a female- who called the bomb threat on the school was diagnosed with severe depression and I think bi-polar. By no means am I saying that people who are bi-polar or depressed will do this, it's just that she wasn't being properly cared for with her mental illness. Also, apparently, and I don't know if it's true or not but these are the rumors, the girl had made several "jokes" about bombing or shooting up the school, so strangely placed in conversation that it put her friends on edge. Her friends felt that something was wrong, but didn't report her. ALWAYS SPEAK UP. EVEN IF YOU'RE WRONG, IT'S BETTER TO BE WRONG AND REPORT IT THAN TO BE RIGHT AND NOT REPORT IT.

So, if nothing else, take from this that everyone has their own story for their opinions and why they think them. I know I have no tolerance for pro-gunners, but I can at least acknowledge that they have opinions (hopefully) based off of fact and expirence.

[milesxmccoy-blog]

hi friends!! a lil late to the party but — my name’s nicole ( 21, est, she/her ) & i’m so excited to be here. allow me to introduce you to my overdramatic, conspiracy theory lovin’ child, miles mccoy !! under the cut is a lil bit about my boy. just hmu or like this post if you wanna plot. also, sorry this got kinda long lmao

[ john boyega, cis male, he/him | plot 10, muse x ]  —» ( pink + white ) by ( frank ocean ) was playing earlier, and as usual, it reminded me of ( miles mccoy ). if you didn’t know,  the ( 22 ) year old has been living in sundance for ( twenty years ) and they're pretty busy as a/an ( waiter at sunrise diner ). when they're not working, you might find them ( googling conspiracy theories ). if you do see them around, keep in mind that they can be ( neurotic & overdramatic ), but also ( conscientious & dependable ). —»

meet miles mccoy, the human embodiment of a rain cloud on a sunny day at the beach combined with chuckie finster from rugrats.

he’s lived in sundance for as long as he could remember. his parents moved there when he was two so this is home.

he lives life with a pout on his face. major resting bitch face. but that doesn’t mean he doesn’t smile. he’ll smile. you just have to deserve it.

he’s the most overdramatic person in the world & if you’re friends with him, i bet you’ll constantly be rolling your eyes at his antics and incredibly long rants.

everything in the world is WRONG in his eyes & you can’t convince him otherwise. the government in corrupt & watching everyone through our laptops & phones. love at first sight is a sham. aliens exist. robots are going to take over the world. the zombie apocalypse will actually happen. name anything, he’ll find a problem for it. 100% guaranteed.

he loves conspiracy theories & is a firm believer that the man on the moon is a big ol’ hoax.

he’s a BIG hypochondriac. everything and anything is going to get him sick, so you better believe he carries around a shit ton of meds and hand sanitizer in his backpack to defeat all the germs.

he’ll google his symptoms and think he’s going to die in a week to ten days tops. also determined that his cause of death is going to be from high-fiving a toddler because they’re the most bacteria-ridden people on earth.

all his negative aspects aside, he’s an extremely good friend & will drop what he’s doing if someone’s in trouble. he’s always prepped for the worst anyway.

he’s also good to talk to if you don’t want someone to lie to you about what you need to do. boyfriend/girlfriend being shitty to you? dump their ass. don’t think you can keep going because life’s too hard? suck it up, you’ve made it this far. have a hangover? here’s some pedialyte. now shut up.

in sundance, he works as a waiter at sunrise diner, which isn’t the best gig for him if we’re all being honest. socializing with strangers isn’t his greatest talent, so uhhh... tips aren’t too hot for him. but he hasn’t gotten fired, which is great!!

after college, he basically worked internship after internship and has applies to hundreds of jobs. however, nothing’s really worked out for him. he wants to edit videos for a living. be videographer and all that. 

but his dreams haven’t come true yet. what a bummer.

he’s in a bit of a lull in life, but he considers it his quarter-life crisis. putting it into perspective — he doesn’t have health insurance yet so he’s FREAKING OUT.

wanted connections:

polar opposite friend that keeps him balanced

ex? crush? anything romantic because thinking of miles real mushy feelings is hilarious to me (side note: bi af so literally anyone’s a go !!)

archnemesis

literally anything else, just lmk !! i’m down for anything.