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transs3xualmagg0t · 2 years ago

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family stop outing me as trans to people i haven't told yet, challenge level: impossible

#maggot musings #like i get ur trying to help or whatever #but ur not #and i get its difficult 4 u to switch between my name and my deadname #but i need u to try #ik for a fact my parents don't understand my gender #my sister kinda gets it but not rlly #she knows I'm nb which is enough #but the idea that I'm not a man or a woman completely trips my mum and step dad #i should be allowed to come out on my own terms #for me with family it's personal #it's something I'd want to have a one on one conversation with them about #but ur robbing me of that and its upsetting yknow #u can't do it the justice i can do it #and i can barely do it justice #but at least i can try #at least i know what I'm on about

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https-reverie · 5 months ago

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My ass is NOT used to genuine words despite how much/how many times I receive them

#[ ★ nervo yaps ]#like okok I might tag this as venting #but like yes I get stuff like “I'm here for you” from my family and stuff #but it just feels so different and sm more meaningful for me to hear it from my friends #but even then it's like EXTREMELY complex and hard to explain #like it means the fucking world to me when a friend offhandedly affirms me #or like they indulge in my stupid rambles #with my family it just feels like the “love your family unconditionally” kind of thing if that makes sense #it takes out the genuine part for me for some reason idk #and my mom and sister call me Ajax or masculine terms as a way to get my attention or like fun at me and it doesn't even happen often #and my dad just straight up pokes fun at me #no jokes to be made #like again they rarely even acknowledge my identity as a trans man #they occasionally acknowledge me being bi #but rlly only my mom does #my dad just nods along kinda #like he agrees but he seems indifferent to the point where he just does not care #and not in a good way #It's also when a friend says “you deserve it” (looking at devil rn) I get all giddy #that's smth I don't hear often at ALL #and it's abt smth I hold dear?#like fr???#Idk. someone put me to bed I cannot be having these thoughts at almost 4 am

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yardsards · 2 years ago

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s1 luz was at least a little bit gay for willow i will not be told otherwise

idk if it was a full on crush but it was at least one of those types of nebulous not-quite-romantic not-quite-platonic "hahaha, unless..." type friendships that a lot of queer teens have, u know the ones

#girl was just walkin around sayin shit like ''you're right! my friend IS very cute!''#which can be just regular platonic bc luz is friendly like that but in this case i feel like it's A Little Bit Gay #eliot posts #toh #the owl house #luz noceda #willow park #just. remembering why i liked willuz/willumity so much.#i kinda headcanon willow as grey-aro and polyam (this literally came to me in a dream)#and i feel like her ideal relationship IS a kind of ambiguous sorta-but-not-quite-romantic sort of dealio #tho i also like the headcanons that she's just plain bi or pan or lesbian in this context too #bc again that sort of ambiguous friendship seems to be VERY common among queer teen friend groups (and not just aspec queers)#like it was A Thing between some of my high school friends and many other queer ppl i've talked to have said similar lmao #tho i also find the headcanon that she's 100% aroace and also uninterested in any relationships outside if friendship to be v fun #just like. basically everyone falling in love w her but her being totally uninterested #but being her friend is so Delightful that none of em rlly have any complaints there #like that scene in carmilla where dani turns down kirsch and says she just sees him as a friend and he gets really excited like #''yes! i am in the friend zone! she sees me as a friend!!! she's so cool i am excited to be her friend!''#willow taking after canon aroace icon lilith ''constantly turning down suitors but keeping their gifts'' clawthorne #my sister is just straight but this one time when she was in hs a guy asked her out w a massive tub of cheese puff balls #(she was obsessed w those things)#and she turned him down but kept the cheese puffs and ate them for like a solid month

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kitttwilight · 6 months ago

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i've been a zelda fan for more than 4 years. my biggest embarrassment is that i own all of the games (except four swords xd) but have only beat ... like 3 of them

#kitt.txt #im ALMOST done with majoras mask ok????#i left off in the stone tower temple.#and then I'm in the water temple in oot #and uahhh im almost done with totk now #i could've beaten phantom hourglass but I kinda dont like that one #I only beat like one dungeon in spirit tracks #same with albw #I think I beat like 2 dungeons in alttp. I REALLY love that game tho #I LOVEe oracle of ages and seasons BUT. i got stuck at some part in ooa and didn't finish it xd #ALSO... bro. SKYWARD SWORD. ive missed out so much with that game bc i never rlly played it much #i dont think I even got to the first dungeon LOLLL but I do love it #then uhhhsh zelda 2. i own it but I hate it so im not gonna even try to beat it. i mean maybe i will idk #also zelda 1 is fun but I only got to like level 3 or 4 #OHH i do kinDA own minish cap?? my sister owns it but ITS IN MY HOUSE. lol. and I have it on my 3ds too. I never really got that far in it.#actually I do have four swords on my 3ds? i couldn't figure it out tho #i have triforce heroes too but no one likes that game idc abt it #O YEA LINKS AWAKENING.#i didn't even get to the first dungeon bro #i think thats all of em yea #i used to be able to name all these games in chronological order #zelda

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catinasink · 20 days ago

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my irl got me a bunch of thigh highs so now i have variety n my bf got me cake n a bookmark n he said that his other presnets havent arived yet (whcich wow i didnt know peolpe cared that much abt my bday hjfhdfjk) an my other irl got me a bunch of stickers n my other irl got me ice cream n hjfdjsgfghjd :333

#cat's rambles #cat's schoolposting #rlly rlly happy :3 #my parents got me uh headpgones n my sister didnt get me anything i think #and my dad commented kinda rudely on my earrigns which. ow #but overall rlly good birhday!!!

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slashersweethearts · 28 days ago

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sometimes it hits me again that melina and sam are second cousins and i can never stop laughing abt it bc. well. sure she has a surface level problem w sam (read: she ‘doesn’t like her’ bc amber doesn’t like her n melina will be damned if she misses out on those brownie points) but that’s not even the issue. it’s the fact that of all ppl in their like tiny 2 streets and a cornfield population of 15 on a good day town, she has to share a (obvi distant in her case) relative with fucking tara 😭

#like my girl is always in a mf situation 😭#hates tara w the fire of a thousand suns LITERALLY TRIED TO KILL HER #tara’s deadbeat half sister she only Vaguely knows abt rolls up in town after tara gets jumped #melina gets stabbed in the shoulder by her own girl but thats another issue the SAME DAY #only after that does her dad think to be like #oh hey by the way. ur grandmas dead sister nancy? nancy loomis.#her dead sister’s dead son we literally have never mentioned by name? billy loomis!#so that might be why you got stabbed. whoops. we kinda did not ever wanna tell u but maybe we shouldve!#she gets like .5 seconds to process that b4 sam rounds the group up for Baby Daddy Billy Lore Drop #and SAM is the one shes indirectly related to like this still gives her #no relation to tara whatsoever. she just doesnt mf like it #bc its still Too Close and she wants tara DEA-#its such a hyperspecific problem to have too 😭 like its rlly a nonissue SHE would just absolutely get stuck on it #JUST bc of that detail. like if sam was idk liv’s half sister or smth or other #it literally wouldnt matter 😭#— ♡ 𝘤𝘶𝘱𝘪𝘥'𝘴 𝘤𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘢 𝘩𝘰𝘮𝘪𝘤𝘪𝘥𝘦! // melina bates.#— slasherverse posting.

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c4tb1t · 2 months ago

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also fun fact abt my brother is that he turns into a bird when he is under extreme sudden stress or gets startled. He sounds like a crow he's very odd . What's his problem.

#tetotalk #Kinda ironic that my brother sounds like a crow and sometimes reminds me of one with his vibes and behavior. U wouldn't get it.#But then there's me who mimics sounds I hear . Something corvids can do #Amd we both have funny problem solving skills. And are creative #My brother can and will fashion sticks into primitive tools you can't stop him #The cherry on top is that my mom really likes corvids and desperately wants to befriend the crows that hang around near our house #I guess my sister would probably be a magpie #Idk what im yapping abt rlly. Watch me forget later.#The corvid siblings.....what the freak

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abyssalreds · 11 months ago

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gege needs to retire his character death note and hand it off to asagiri i swear 😭

#my sister (misinformed) told me yuta died in the latest jjk ch and i was so nervous looking at leaks #bc its smthn gege /would/ do and i really like yuta #thankfully he’s fine he just made an appearance in the latest ch thats all #tell me why my first thought after was ‘man that was a thrill i wish new bsd chapters made me feel like this’ 😭#my biggest gripe w. bsd will forever be how all the characters always come out of battles completely unscathed #nevermind the 500 injuries they sustained #nobody ever dies or gets new battle scars or life changing wounds etc etc it kinda makes the stakes boring when you know the character will #be fine when alls said and done #and honestly this wouldn’t be problem for me if ! asagiri didnt deathbait so damn much !#he’s allergic to actually killing off a character and thats how i Know fyodor prob isnt dead #and neither is sigma bc fyodors ability is still a big mystery and we need them to reveal it for us #bc asagiri never killed anyone major off in the main manga before its hard to believe that he killed these two off 🤷‍♀️#and ig fukuchi but all those theories of him being the masked man at the s5 cliffhanger has me squinting suspiciously #tbh idc if its my fav character who dies if it’ll make the plot more interesting then send them to the gallows !!#(okay maybe not lucy but she barely gets any panel time shhh)#like i like fukuzawa but i also think itd be interesting to see what would’ve happened if he died in the battle vs fukuchi #bc the aftermath would be a change in status quo and it would’ve been interesting to see the change in dynamics in the ada and #how they deal w. his loss !!#on the other hand gege killing off his characters too frequently . . . doesnt rlly need an explanation #(jjk spoilers?) now w. yuta going up against sukuna . . . please keep him safe gege i beg 🥲#anyways. enough rambling now to go back to shoving bsd to the back of my mind lol #ayra croaks

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tomwambsganshater · 2 years ago

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everybody always talks abt how insane oniisama e gets with mariko and rei stuff but nobody ever mentions the scene when borgia and mona lisa fucking lure nanako into an abandoned empty apartment and try to force her into revealing fukiko's secrets like they dangle her over the edge of the building she almost falls to her DEATH. this is over high school drama

#oniisama e #the whole sorority abolition plotline is insane in general but this was the peak imo she was rlly abt to get murdered #revealing fukiko's secret would have been so much too rjfjjfjf they would NOT have believed her #well u see. she prioritises me bc shes in love w my middle school teacher so she tried to make me fall in love with her so i woudlnt be her #rival. except im not in love with him im in love with her sister. whos kinda in love with HER. and its kind of a lot

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nervocat · 7 months ago

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MYAHAHHAHA U KNOW HOW IT FEELS ON BOOTHILL THIS USED TO BE ME WITH ELYSIA A CHARACTER FROM HONKAI IMPACT 3RD BUT IM NOT INTO HER ANYMORE

stop cause boothill and Sunday are both MAKING KE CRAy Robin for me is like kinda similar but it’s more like “I super duper LOVE your design I wish I can stare at you forever” that is me with furina a lot & been thinking of making my room to a similar vibe to furina now I kinda wanna do Robin too for my room :33

I DO KNOW HOW IT FEELS.. a lot of my friends know if his name now bc of my feelings <33 I FEEL LIKE BOOTHILL MIGHT MAKE ME CRY BC AVEN ALMOST DID.. UMMMMM and Sunday is a character I want to heavily analyze and look at his lore.. he is attractive but like. His lore?? I wanna know???? Like what are you plotting bro. What are you doing you silly goose.

AND ROBIN OMGOMGOMG she was actually like THEE character that made me stop questioning my bisexuality HAHA and I love her design sm too.. her and Boothill are my wallpaper and sometimes I turn on my phone and look at their designs. Like they're so cool?? And pretty???? It's like that with Furina too for me she's very cool and pretty and her lore is very good. Definitely another one of my favorites 👍👍

#💬 — ⌗nervo replies . ★#🗨️ — ⌗arii . ★#I'm also so close to yapping abt these two to my mom #and I've kinda mentioned Boothill before but not even his name or character was mentioned #“I rlly want him to come home”#“come home? Is he lost??”#“yeah 😔😔”#Is essentially how my conversation went with my mother. she also laughed and said math like “omg rlly??”#we were in urgent care for my sister btw #she was out getting and x-ray for her knee and I was playing hsr #“do you need to catch him or smth”#“yeah 😔😔😔”#“wait is that rlly how you get characters??! 😨😨”#“no you use tickets in the game 😭😭”#that's also how the last part went #she said smth abt catching I can't remember exactly tho #but yeah Boothill brainrot strong 🙏🙏#my sister hasn't escaped him either #I remember seeing his design leaked tho like half a year or smth before his release and I'm like #“wow he's pretty cool and attractive. I'll indulge myself more when he comes out”#now look at me 😔😔

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cookiescr · 2 years ago

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I thought i wasn’t like too affected by being bitten by dog but i may still be a litol shaken because i almost cried because the dog that bit me uhh attacked the dog in front of me and i thought i was gonna get bitten again 😭

#vent #I’ve been telling my sister to get a muzzle for him #for a bit because idk she’s not rlly doing much about the behavior ckjdmd #I’m still kinda :( that when i got bit my sister got annoyed because i supposedly could have moved out of the way #i was scared man #i was between ur dogs y’all kinda acted too slow #which is fine i get it y’all just woke up it was like 6 am #but :( she was so clearly annoyed at me #rants n rambles #her dog kinda had a tendency to like attack our other dogs and it just so happens that i was going down the ladder #other dog greeted me so i greeted him #and then the other dog got fucking angry and ran to dog i was greeting #then boom i was between then and then i got bit

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zemnarihah · 2 years ago

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much to think about.

#i had lunch w my sister today and she was talking abt our dad and abt how him being like emotionally abusive made her a huge people pleaser #and she was like yeah i think you didnt get that as much #you were always the one who stuck to your guns or just didnt talk to him #and at first i was like what bc i literally dont think anything i ever did could be rlly described as actually sticking to ones guns i alwa #felt like i was so avoidant of any conflict w him bc yk i was like. terrified of him. but i was thinking abt it and compared to her i think #like yeah actually shes right? bc i would avoid conflict w him but i did that by like fully cutting off our relationship as much as #possible and she did it by trying to please him all the time. which probably neither were that healthy obviously they were jsut like. our #instincts for how to protect ourselves yk. but the thing is for the past few months i thought i had been learning how to not be so scared #of making ppl mad and to be more assertive and stuff. but i think actually i probably have always had that strength maybe it was just.#kinda beaten down for a while since standing up for myself always made things worse. so the other option to not allow him to treat me like #that was to cut myself off from him. But i still did that yk? idk.#like i was thinking more abt it and #i was the one who left the church at 18. after i moved out but i did. and i didnt hide it after that. my sister has apparently been mentall #out for years now and nobody in our family knows but me. bc she is so scared to disappoint him. and like idk. i always was like why couldnt #i get out earlier bc i know so many ppl who just said fuck you im not going anymore at like 14 or smth and i was like why couldnt i do that #but i guess looking at it from my sisters pov our situation was just really fucking hard. and i guess im realizing i was honestly a lot #stronger and braver than i thought i was that whole time. idk.#lol its like bittersweet. bc it makes it so much more real that it was actually super fucked up. the way we grew up. like i think sometimes #the easiest thing is for me to go haha yeah my dad was kind of a dick and whooaaahhh so crazy i grew up mormon hahah! but its like no that #was fucked up. but look at how i made it through that yk. its kind of making me. idk. develop some more respect for myself i guess #idk idk #ignore me i am just journal posting . lol #exmo tag

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teruthecreator · 2 years ago

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nooooo no it’s great no personally i LOVE when things just stop fucking working -__-

#in neg city #it’s literally like one thing after another with me nowadays #like first i have to bend over backwards to get a suit #which ends up being something that i don’t even think my sister LIKES bc i facetimed her abt it today and she sound so unenthusiastic #it made me wanna hang up the phone and just not go to the fucking wedding #but it’s like yay don’t have to worry about spending money on that now right?#WRONG bc now my computer isn’t charger and w how bad it’s been acting up lately it’s either one of two things:#either it’s the charger (which i’ve already ordered a new one which i won’t get until friday) OR the computer won’t take a charge anymore #either way that’s money i’m spending and if it’s the second one then i’m really fucked bc i was hoping to have another money of income #or cushion making that purchase bc like. i need a computer to get through my days it’s necessary #so if it just craps out now then it’s like i gotta get a new one NOW instead of waiting until long after the wedding #not to mention there’s the hair stylist and makeup artist for the wedding itself #plus my haircut #plus my ebt hasnt been filled yet AT ALL THIS MONTH #so really i’m just constantly stressing myself out with money and rlly it just never fucking ends does jt #i’m so tired i just wanna be done with life if i’m being completely honest #the way i’m living now is kinda hell on earth #ugh. whatever. need to sleep

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woolydemon · 2 years ago

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tf:p is popular and probably better quality media in comparison to the rest of the tf catalogue but also everybody is annoying about it and the cgi faces are kinda ugly so I don't like it

#rando thoughtz #i am petty enough to just dislike things bc the fans are annoying i am not above it <3 #for example i hate tf:a blitzwing bc ppl are annoying abt him #i also have a bit of distain for megatr.on & starsc.ream for similiar reasons #(though i cant say its hate its more indifference and slight annoyance which is p good considering im a massive hater)#tf.p i will be honest i havent finished but its kinda bc i got bored at a point and fell asleep and couldnt keep up when i woke up #my sister loves the show though (i was watching it w/ her btw) so i will grant her that grace #she also rlly rlly loves . all the characters from it that annoy me a bit #bc of fandom oversaturation to be clear not bc of the character themself #like tfp starscr.m 🤢#and k0bd which ok i am indifferent towards idc. i did buy her k0bd stuff for xmas bc i know she likes them #its just. idc i dont care for the show that much its hard for me to watch #bc again their faces are so weird to me i cant get over it #tf:e got the cgi faces down a lot better like thank god for innovation #yeah i think my problem is. its not earth.spark i just like earth.spark more #OH ESPECIALLY since theres less focus on op & megs And Instead focus on a well written bee and new fun characters #plus a rlly nice plotline abt unity and solidarity between earth & cybertronians which is one of my fav parts of the franchise ok #i know this is like The Opposite of what the typical tf fan wants out of the franchise #but i think we established by now i am not the typical tf fan #so tf:e is my fucking bread and butter this is the ultimate thing i want out of the tf franchise #so yeah to summarize i am just a hater in the tf fandom and i dont like any popular takes on anything here

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ppulverse · 3 days ago

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#rant cw #🌙.txt #sorry lol but it's 5am and i should be sleeping bc i've been sleepy since 7pm but i keep THINKING #there's this emptiness in my chest and it's not exactly sadness but i feel like i'm longing for something that's just unobtainable yk.#it's kinda weird #i feel lonely but also whenever anyone tries to get closer to me i build these walls #bc after everything i've been through this year i truly feel like i shouldn't get too comfortable with ANYONE #which sucks obviously #i've also dreamed a lot about my younger sister (whom i'm not on speaking terms with rn lol) lately #and it's been bothering me bc i miss having a sister lol #i also dreamed about That One Dude™ the other day and it always leaves me feeling weird for a few days whenever it happens #which is funny bc technically i am over him but i feel like there's always gonna be that feeling of #''oh that was a good friendship that we ruined by being two pieces of shit''#it's hard to explain bc like .#i'm mostly ok with it but it's this thing that's gonna stay at the back of my mind for the rest of my life apparently #and there's also the fact that we're rlly low on money rn and it's been stressing me out #and all the resentment i've been feeling lately #i keep digging up things from when i was a kid/teen 😭 it's hell #idk there's just a lot going on in my head rn #i wish i could go back to being 17 posting ugly oversaturated 1d gifs on tumblr.com #not that i was much better then 😭 ur girl has had so many breakdowns since she was very young #anyway. enough oversharing for today

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narutomaki · 3 months ago

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hey genuine question here: why does it cost me nearly 80$ to ship art from an American store regardless if size but under 1kg ... but it (would) costs me under 60$ to get 0.7kg of (art) stuff from Japan? both I'd be getting charged the same amount of import fees on if any.

#is shipping just THAT cheap on the Japanese side of the equation?#im so fucking confused #i mean trust me i was more confused when i was like oh yay a sale i will order 2 print and 1 pin from ray #why is the shipping 150 dollars 🧍‍♂️? (pre covid).#that was the at check out price estimate. deranged. any way.#the items themsleves cost like.... 25$? idk wtf was going on in the back end or if it was a calculation error or a surcharge due to holidays #but i have never even seriously considered even thinking abt looking into ordering any of his merch again LNAO #ray can you please just send it yo me folded up via letter mail? ill unfold it. its okay. skip any fancy packaging #any way my fav japanese fox artist opened an international store and i have a cart worth 172$ after shipping costs waiting for me #once i get my tax refund (i will probably not end up buying any of it)#(i can not justify that expense)#(but i wpuld very much like them. the shipping isnt even an issue. its about half the total cost. which. its coming from japan. Yeah. Duh.)#lays down. fox.#they have three little charms i want to bad. i want essentially yheir entire stock. there liks 3 things i dint rlly want and even then im #like idk maybe i do kinda #also asidr aside they have a piece of three toxes that sent a bilt if sheer terror theough me but i added it to my cart and thiught #well if i invite the three sisters in they canthurt me #all defiant.#and well the fear left #why did no one tell me it was that easy #unralted to the three sisters food crop #more related to the three sisters greek wiyh the eye ball except they are thosw girls #these are specifics spectres that haunt me and only me to try and rip my soul from mybkdy when i least expect it #but suddenly im lime. nah rn? wete good :) they cant hurt me! i invited them in! that would be rude of them. and they cant be rude!#i havent slept in. almost 24 hours now and i barely slept last night i am getting too old for this (is 27)

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