#my problem is im just like love starved so i fall in love with everyone i meet instantly

[star-sim]

your lips, my lips, apocalypse ☆ heeseung lee

☆ non-idol! heeseung x fem! reader ☆ summary: sex, love, and romance tasted like poison on your tongue, a secret that you held close to yourself for years. unfortunately, when heeseung kisses you, he, too, could taste that poison. ☆ genre: hurt/comfort, angst, veeery suggestive but no smut, implied college! au, unclear relationship status but can be viewed as friends to lovers ☆ warning(s)? implied s*xual abuse, hypersexuality as a coping mechanism, if youre not comfy with these topics don't read! ☆ word count: 2.0k ☆ atp im just writing my entire playlist... based off of apocalypse by cigarettes after sex <3

Heeseung should have known the moment that your first instinct was to lower your head in shame and unbutton your shirt, revealing your lacy undergarments and bare skin, because you thought your then-boyfriend was angry at you.

He should have seen the signs when you had no problem shoving your tongue down every team captain's throat for everyone to see, but danced around the topic of sex, shifting uncomfortably in your seat as you clutched onto his sleeve.

He should have noticed the way you changed, how you slowly showed more and more skin, yet said less and less, shrinking into yourself whenever a pair of eyes glazed over you, almost like you were afraid.

But most of all, Heeseung should have known the moment that you attacked him with your lips, hungrily kissing him like a starved hyena.

He hated himself for realizing so late into the night. 

There the two of you were, sprawled across your bed. You had your back flat against the soft, white sheets, your bare skin so pretty under the warm light. Heeseung, shirtless in his own right, hovered over you, admiring you.

Both of you were breathless, lips swollen and eyes blown out as you ached for each other, spending the last hour teasing each other.

What started as a calm night with his dear friend became an impromptu makeout session, that then became the two of you half naked in your bedroom.

The first sign should have been how you faltered at Heeseung's mindless mention of his love-life, the way your expression pinched briefly. You let out a few sad words, yet your tone was so happy that Heeseung didn't notice the way your brows furrowed, sinking your teeth into your lips pensively. 

The second sign should have been the cloudy glaze over your eyes the moment Heeseung's hand accidentally brushed up against your thigh, and more importantly, the way your eyes were glued to his hand as he pulled it away, a small "sorry"falling from his lips.

The third sign was the way that you paused for a moment, giving him a confused look after you crawled on top of him, your lips attached to his neck. Heeseung's hand ghosted over your hips and waist, asking breathlessly, "Can I touch you here?" 

This should have been the nail in the coffin, the way you looked so quizzical just because he asked permission to touch you.

But now as Heeseung pinned you under him, his large, doe eyes gazing down at yours, he felt his heart pound. You looked so beautiful. The sight of you under him was something that he could only dream of, but now that you were right in front of him, Heeseung felt dizzy.

All these years, he'd been waiting for his moment— to be so close and intimate with you, you who he never really escaped from.

Heeseung could feel the warmth of your skin against his, the feeling being so delicious that he wanted to bask in it forever.

As his long fingers slithered down to the hem of your panties, dipping into them, Heeseung watched your face. 

Your head was thrown back, gazing up at him like he was a god. Your pretty lips were wet and parted, sucking in sharp breaths and letting out small sighs as Heeseung worked on you.

But what made Heeseung falter was the look in your eye.

He'd always known you to be bright-eyed; it was within your eyes that he could see the universe unfold before him, without a single speck of dust obstructing it.

But this time, your eyes told something different.

Earlier, they were filled with excitement and desire. But now, they were dull; storm clouds shrouded the sky that was your eyes, shedding a murky and foggy cast that was so dark that it bled onto the rest of your face.

Heeseung was no stranger to your past.

It was no secret that you had many sexual partners, almost to the point of being rumored to be a 'whore' or 'slut.'

Heeseung didn't know for sure, but he was perceptive enough to understand the link between the older boy that you dated for years in high school who was known for preying on younger girls, and your transition into being more sexually-charged. He had a feeling that your sudden change into being more sexual had something to do with the predatory nature of your relationship back then.

All this time, you'd told him that you were okay, that you'd moved on and did things because you wanted to do it, that you were no longer haunted by the memory of your sexually abusive ex-boyfriend from when you were seventeen years old.

But Heeseung could read you better than he knew.

From your eyes, he could tell that you were desperate.

Not desperate for sexual gratification or pleasure.

Not desperate to be touched.

Not desperate to be satiated by some sort of sexual hunger.

No, you were desperate to be healed, desperate to be held.

Of course. You were turning to sex to fix your problems. You were finding value in relationships and yourself through sex. 

You didn't want to have sex with him.

Slowly, Heeseung removed his hands from you, pulling up your panties and getting up to find your shirt. Without a word, he slipped your shirt back onto you, his hand fixing your disheveled hair.

Sensing that something was wrong, you gently grabbed his face, pressing your lips against his. For a second, Heeseung forgot everything, only relishing in the way that your lips felt. His body was begging him to relieve him of his desire. Atlas wanted you. Oh, he wanted you so bad. He wanted you selfishly.

But Heeseung wasn’t going to have sex with someone that didn’t want it.

“No,” he mumbled against your lips as he tried to pull away. “[Name]-”

You only pulled him closer by the shoulders, squeezing them. Your lips were now crashing against his aggressively and with a passion that felt artificial. “[N-Name],” he tried to pull away. “No.”

“I just—” you said in-between kisses, “I just really want you.”

Heeseung could have easily pushed you away, given your strength difference. But he refused to hurt you. With a firm jerk, he was able to get himself free of your grip.

"I can't do this with you," was all he said.

You looked like you were about to cry. Heeseung felt a pang in his chest, but all he did was shake his head. Heeseung silently got off of you, finding his pants on the floor and slipping back into them. He went to your bathroom to get a warm wet cloth to clean your wet thighs up, his hands gently grasping your skin as if you'd fall apart if he was too rough.

Just as Heeseung was about to throw the towel into your hamper, you grasped onto his bicep, digging your nails into it. You looked up at him with tearful eyes, your brows knit together as you began to sniffle.

"I-I'm sorry," you whimpered. "Did I do something wrong? A-Are you mad at me?"

Heeseung immediately tossed the wet cloth aside somewhere on your bedroom floor.

"What are you talking about?" He wrapped his arms around you, pulling your head to your chest, feeling your tears stain his bare chest. When Heeseung pecked your forehead, you wailed even harder, your arms coming up to pull him closer to you, holding him like he'd save you. "Why would I be mad at you?

"W-Why don't you want to h-have sex with me then?" you shakily choked out. "Am I— Am I not good enough?"

"No," Heeseung's eyebrows crashed together, his eyes narrowing. His words were serious, but his voice was soft, as soft as a feather for your delicate ears. "I could tell that you didn't want it, Baby. I would never get mad at you for that. I hope you know that."

The sound of your sobs must have been the worst thing that Heeseung had ever heard in his life. He didn't like it one bit. Those hot tears were tiny droplets of all the pain and abuse that you've suffered from. 

"I'm s-sorry," you whimpered. "I-I'm s-sorry."

What did they do to you? What have they done to you that you apologized so much?

Heeseung clenched his fists. His chest burned with a different type of anger, an anger that was so great that it was overwhelming, eating Heeseung alive and chewing him into dust. He'd kill them, he'd kill the son of the bitch that hurt you so much like this with his bare hands.

"Fuck," Heeseung cursed under his breath. In a single movement, Heeseung hoisted the both of you up, so that you were on top of him, your head rested on his chest. As tears spilled from your eyes, clinging to Heeseung, he petted your head. 

Heeseung was warm, warm in a way that you couldn’t describe. You wanted to fall into him, let your eyelids flutter down peacefully, and relish in what was his essence. 

You felt apologies prickle the tip of your tongue. After all, other than letting others use your body, saying sorry was the only other thing you knew how to do. You felt weak, helpless, like a wet dog at the mercy of its owner, yet you felt more sorry for Heeseung, who was now stuck with you. 

“S-Sorry—“

“Shhh,” Heeseung whispered into your ear. “Don’t apologize, Baby.”

“But—“

Heeseung hushed you. 

When your breath didn’t slow, in fact speeding up to the point that you were huffing in quick breaths and pushing out even shallower ones from your chest, Heeseung grabbed your hands. 

It felt like the entire world was crashing down into your shoulders, hitting you all at once. Everything hurt, your body was trembling yet you couldn’t feel anything. You should be okay, right? After every one-night stand or sexual partner that inevitably used you like a doll, you were always left alone and cold. You experienced this exactly, and you’ve dealt with it every time alone. You can do it again, right? If you’ve been alone all this time, you can deal with it this time alone, too—

“Hey.” 

Heeseung’s voice forced you out of your head.

“Hey,” he repeated, rubbing circles on your back. “Breathe.”

You swallowed down the sob that threatened to spill out. “I’m o-okay.”

“You aren’t,” he said simply. “I know you aren’t.”

You shook your head, pulling away from him. You wanted to shrink back into his warmth, to be sucked back into the paradise that was the comfort that was Heeseung, but you couldn’t bring yourself to do so. You were scared.

Why would he want to be around you? Why would he even want to have a burden of a person like you to hold? You were a mess, a wreck that had too many problems to count. You were unlovable, broken, fragmented and with missing parts because of all the men that have robbed you of your identity, your autonomy, your ability to love, and—

To your surprise, Heeseung simply pulled you back in. His hands gently slinked to your wrists, pulling you back into him. Your mind told you to run away and hide, but instinctively, you melted into him.

“Let me take care of you,” Heeseung said. His voice was calm, light on your ears in a way that made your heart ache. He took your hand again, squeezing it. “I don’t care what you say, I’m not leaving you.”

“Please d-don’t,” you whispered back, so softly that your voice was barely audible. “Don’t leave.”

“I won’t,” was all Heeseung said. “You can count on it. I won’t.”

[spencer-sweets]

Marvel Fic Recs |James Logan Howlett/Wade Wilson

so like everyone with eyes - i found deadpool and wolverine wildly homoerotic. so, i have been keeping my eye out for some good fanfic of them. while i love the honda odyssey fics, this list is mainly longer narrative or character driven fics. I'll add more as they are completed and I read them.

Unwanted, Dead or Alive by fanficbug Explicit 29,666 “Logan,” Colossus chided. He turned his rage back on Colossus. “No. Fuck you, bolts for brains. No Deadpool? No. Fucking. Wolverine.” *** The X-Men of this universe want Logan to rejoin, but he's not interested unless they let Wade join too. Meanwhile, another threat makes itself known in the form of a skull-faced mercenary.

this one had a nice dose of action and pining and its just really great. i always like when these fanfictions feel like they are actually set in the world they are supposed to be in - with villains and danger just lurking about - and i always enjoy a good fight scene.

Newton's Third Law by capitalismwasamistake Explicit 30,385 “Come on, Wolfie, let’s not fight!” Wade sings as he evades the first swipe with an absurd dance move. “We’ll go dancing tomorrow night!” He retaliates with a kick to Logan’s jaw then both his katanas enter play. “Sorry, I know you wanted more of that song, but we don’t have the licensing budget. How about this instead? Stop!” “In the name of love–” “Before you break my heart–” *** Or, Logan is thrilled he can finally fight someone without holding back. Wade is horny and touch-starved. Oh, and there's The Problem.

this fic earned it's explicit rating. the dove is dead with this one folks. there is a lot of gore and fighting and a vivisection involved but it is a sweet story with a happy ending.

i’m just a human trying to avoid my certain doom (that is falling in love with you) by dazecorr  Teen+ 44,493 He shifted in his seat, the leather sticking to his skin as he absorbed Wade's colourful description. Gun. Even a knife would do. "Trust me, DP." Dopinder’s voice was earnest, almost pleading. "You'll see, everything will play out fine." With a final eye roll, Wade ended the call and slipped the phone into his pocket. As he opened the passenger door and climbed back into the Odyssey, Logan caught the tail end of a begrudging sigh. "Alright, Dopinder's playing the role of our cross-country cupid, so I guess we're doing this." Wade said, his voice cutting through the tension with its playful edge. "But if I end up thrown out of this 'soccer mom special' in the middle of the desert, I'm haunting you first." "Haunt away, you’ll just get a fist-full of salt thrown at your face." Logan muttered, a smirk threatening to break the stern façade. "Keep your hands off the radio." OR WHERE dopinder's getting married, vanessa is the best wing-woman, ellie is a gossip and logan is a very homosexual train wreck OR a poolverine slow burn-ish road trip fic in an immortalised honda odyssey.

im not typically a fan of road trip fics but i really enjoyed this one. it was quiet and soft story between these two. it explores both of them and their characters without the action or violence of the d&p movie.

[yoyokf1]

The Sun, the Earth, and the Moon

Summary: Not too sure what to put here cause I dont really know what this is about

A/N: I was kinda imagining a story where the mc was in love with a guy but he didn't love her back and idk i put a bunch of references to the balls in the sky in it so yeah also i know nothing about how space works so dont call me out, i doubt anyones going to really see this but i also have no idea how tf to use tumblr im just bored so try not to judge too hard

Warnings: slight mentions of mental health problems? maybe ED's or SH oh and very very slight mentions of drugs/alcohol, bad writing (i dont understand the english language and its the only one i know), is angst a warning?? i think this is angsty, yapping.

WC: 491??

It didn't take much to fall in love with him. He was the Sun, bright and overwhelming in every aspect of his being. I was nothing but the Earth rotating meaninglessly around him. Without him I would be reduced to a dark point in the universe, a void with no life.

My affection for his was endless and I would do anything he wished just to see him happy, to see him smile and laugh, to know that I was the one who made him do it.

Unfortunately though, love is not always reciprocated, and he had no need for me in his love, not in the way that I needed him. So, I hide my feelings, for his friendship is better than him not being there at all, some light is better than none. What more could I want when just a glance in my direction gives me hope and strength so that I stay another day? And why should I ask for more when he is already happy shining his brightness fully on someone else? Why would I be selfish when it is directed to someone more deserving of it than I would ever be.

How could the Sun ever love the Earth? The Earth with its inner poisons and deadly mindsets, how could the Sun love something that is sick? Something that is dying from its own actions of cutting, starving, poisoning.

Yes, it is better that he is shining his light onto someone else.

So, I drift away to be with the Moon, dark and brooding, a reflection of the Sun being the only thing that makes him alive to me. The Moon circles me just like I circle the Sun, but he does not truly care for me. We are both just a means to an end to one another, a person for which we can find solace in as we slowly self-destruct ourselves, hiding in each other's embrace and silently wishing that we were different people.

And the Sun does not care, why would you care when all life revolves around you? Why would you care when you already have everything you need? Why would you care if I stopped showing up? Why would you care if I slowly disappeared? Why would you care at all?

The Moon revolves around me, for I am his darkest desires and his guilty pleasures, he does not truly know or understand me. But who does? I entertain him as when I look at him, I see glimpses of the Sun, even when they are polar opposites. Perhaps it has something to do with the way they both neglect my needs. But everyone is leaving, the Moon is drifting away from me and leaving me alone, and as I too gradually depart from the Sun's warm embrace he does not notice, I am just a means to an end, why would someone want me for who I truly am?

[cyrusthedragon]

Hi so basically im the anon and since ur just as starved for miraxus as i am, here i go- like, how about a fanfic where mirajane falls first and confesses but laxus doesnt think they can be more than friends, what he doesnt realise is that he has loved her all along. Its when Mirajane decides to move on then he feels bad and eventually comes to conclusion that he loves her and they need to get together :D

So u mean basic ass teen!miraxus fic with mira feeling fuckin' OBSESSED and laxus like 'damn, puppy, good for you, tho, but naah...' and then she's like 'ok he rejected me so i need to stop annoying him ok im gonna do it for him i like annoying him but i don't like ANNOYING him ykwim!!' and then laxus is kinda '...the fuck is that little shit going?... NO ONE'S GONNA STEAL MY HEADPHONES NOW? MIRA-'

Actually, i love it so much. Like. Really. AND!! I HAVE SOMETHING ABT IT.

Teen!Mira: *annoys the shit out of teen!Laxus*

Teen!Laxus: *plays cool but still cold, grumbles, rolls his eyes*

Teen!Mira: *finally confesses love because she can’t stand it anymore*

Teen!Laxus: I'm... Ah... I'm sorry, I can't. You're a child.

Teen!Mira: *backs up to not bother him with her emotions, sincerely doesn’t wanna put pressure on him, kinda ashamed*

Teen!Laxus, when for the third day in a row no one touches him, pokes him, irritates him or plays on his nerves and steals his headphones for *her* pretty similar but still shitty music just because: ???

Teen!Laxus: the fuck

Teen!Laxus: WHERE YOU THINK YOU'RE GOING?!

Teen!Mira: *literally causing no problems* wh-

Teen!Laxus: *silently grabs her and sits her next to him, puts headphones on her*

Teen!Mira: *blushing & squeaking* EXCUSE ME?

Teen!Laxus: will not. You're stuck with me.

Teen!Mira: YOU CAN'T JUST SAY ME TO SI-

Teen!Laxus: says who?

Teen!Mira: *embarrassed & kinda happy & giving up sounds* you're an asshole, Dreyar.

Teen!Laxus: good to know.

Btw, he's not just greedy, he actually panicked cuz she's his favourite kid among allll the children of The Guild, she's the one matching his crazy energy. No one else can do that, everyone's just too clingy but with that also too dumb (hi, Natsu) or too strict (hi, Erza) or even too nice (he likes Lisanna, Lisanna is good, she's like baby sister, but still), and, except teen!Mirajane, no one's literally as aggressive and explosive as he is, no one understands his music, his lifestyle, his decisions even. Even then, he felt safe with her, cuz he known he will be understood, cus most of the time they have almost same thoughts. So he's.. He's happy with that brat around. He's okay with her. She's okay. He doesn't feel any romantic feelings abt her, she's 13yo, c'mon, but he can enjoy her presence, she's chill but emotional, she's rude but loyal, she's annoying but interesting, she's acting stupid but she's really smart, she plays independent but she LOVES hugging. He can tell she'll be a damn good person. And strong. She is strong. He still wants to protect her (even if he's not showing it, he wants to protect all of them, but her especially), but he can see how much power she actually possess. That's even cooler. One day maybe they can spar. Why not?

Teen!Mira: *looks at him, sitting next to him, headphones on, frowning* 'fuck are you looking at?

Teen!Laxus, instantly frowning in response: you have a problem, demon?

Teen!Mira: *explodes* WHO THE FUCK DID YOU JUST CALL A DEMON?!

Teen!miraxus: *aggressive 'fight'*

Greedy jealousy teen!Laxus supremasy who's like 🙄🙄 ah that stupid little shit with her stupid music but also HEY she's MY stupid little shit, DONTCHA DARE GO AWAY. Adult!Laxus is not like that, BUT THE TEENAGE MAXIMALIST LAXUS? GOD, YES. He's not aggressive, he won't start a fight just like that, but DAMN bro's really fuckin' greedy.

[flaringfoxsoul03]

greetings and salutations, hope I don’t bother you too much by sending in such a random ask. may I please have a romantic matchup for welcome home? Feel free to send a matchup my way in return.

I use they/them pronouns and I’m pansexual. my myers briggs type is INFJ and my star sign is taurus.

Im about 4’11..not to happy about it. I’m kind of introverted, and can be considered not a people person. I find life a little nihilistic. I’m into dressing in all black and taking a liking to gruesome and morbid things like slashers, analog horror, witchcraft, true crime, necromancy, anatomy, etc. I typically consider myself a "gorehound" ig. I also like to visit abandoned places just for fun, along with playing quite a few escape rooms. I just have a genuine comfort in the uncomfortable.

I’ve come to the conclusion I just scare people off. In reality, I’m intimidated by everyone around me and find it hard to start taking, which may or may not come off as rude to people.

when I become comfortable with someone I start to become really sarcastic and joke around with them with witty banter. most of my humor comes off really insulting, and I’m brutally honest, but I’ll apologize and say it’s a joke or I didn’t mean it if it becomes a problem. even though I do have a hard time understanding physical social cues.

lots of people don’t like me or stay away from me because of my rude behavior. I’m not good with overly sensitive or overly annoying people at all because of that, and I can’t stand kids. Idiocy can get on my nerves too sometimes. I’m a huge animal person though. I have my moments where I can get really feisty, or very quiet and closed off. I’ve been told I’m also a laidback person. I’ve also been told I never know when to quit, and I find I hold grudges for certain things.

I’m the type of person that has lots of opinions on things but I keep them to myself and bottle them up. If pushed far enough I’ll become unforgiving, and aggressive. especially with the types mentioned above.

I find the most comfort in just being in my room drawing, listening to music ( pierce the veil, deftones, system of a down, slipknot, rob zombie,,, sometimes radiohead, insane clown posse, jazmin bean or mother mother, etc. ), or even occasionally playing video games, reading, writing, or talking about a random conspiracy theory I have. I do acting in my spare time as a small hobby too, and I’m learning how to play electric guitar.

I’m a plushie maniac and when I fall asleep you can always see me cuddled up to one of them. I find it because I’m really touch starved. I also have this specific blanket I can literally not sleep without. Im also a caffeine addict, and I’m guilty of being very submissive and maybe even masochistic- and a bit of a pyromaniac. I dissociate or daydream a lot, so you can often catch me starring.

I suffer from a handful off mental and physical syndromes like asd, insomnia, asthma, depression and anxiety. These have all been diagnosed professionally, and I’m definitely not trying to make myself "quirky". unfortunately health problems run in my family.

I’m very fidgety, and often bite the inside of my cheek or bounce my leg rapidly. you don’t need to rocmantasize this stuff ofc, but I think it’s good to know so the person can tolerate me.

you do get to this, thanks for your time. <3

It was kind of a pickle trying to choose who’d be best for you, but I think I choose a pretty good one that matches up well with who you are!

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I match you up with…

Julie Joyful

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Julie Joyful would love to have a partner like you! Her best friend is Frank Frankly, so it wouldn’t be too far of a stretch to add another grump into the mix. Unhappy and in the blues? You’re getting dragged into another one of her made-up-on-the-spot-games! Frank will try to run damage control, but you’re going to end up laughing with the sparkling joy it is to be around Julie!

A new Neighbor has been added to The Neighborhood, and it’s a gloomy bat puppet! You’re often secluded on the edge of The Neighborhood nestled right at the crest of the woods surrounding The Neighborhood in a cryptic cottage and was introduced just in time for Halloween! Unfortunately, no one was bold enough to try and approach you and your unsettling attitude, your terrifying demeanor, your intense glares… Except Julie Joyful of course! She thought it was a game and immediately dragged your booty out of your cottage to play bowling hopscotch with Sally and Frank, which both were immediately scared of just how oblivious Julie could be when she thought it was another game to win! Luckily, this allowed your relationship to blossom forth and create an intense emotional bond between the two of you!

Julie loves to play, play, and play! If you have any active games from your personal hobbies, she would adore to learn and how to play them. This is good for a few reasons, mostly because you can set the rules and Julie will follow them to the T! Even foraging for wild flowers and herbs in the nearby forest will be a game she plans to win, though you often show her going slow and steady wins the race.

Julie, more often than not, ends up tuckered out playing her own games and watches you doing whatever little thing you’re doing, whether it be witchcraft or reading your necromancy books, she just enjoys spending time with her favorite person. She’ll even want to get in to playing the analog horror videos with you too, though expect a few scared shaking cuddles while you’re at it.

She will make plushie forts out your plushies and you will have a plushie war with them. It’s not even an if, it’s a when. Be prepared to have your entire day derailed when she gets ahold of them for more than an hour.

Sometimes you can’t do much other than dissociate, functioning effectively through life is tough. Even Julie can’t pull you out of those trances sometimes. What she does, instead, is she’ll do quiet activities nearby you. Julie refuses to let you out of her sight as well, wanting to make sure you’re doing alright once you come out of your dissociation. Whether she’s styling hair, coloring a color book, or even reading your books stacked nearby, she won’t leave you. She’ll start leaving her flowers around your place so they can keep an eye on you, letting her know the next time you wander nearby them. She worries about the times she can’t take care of you for all the times you take care of her energy.

Loves it when you play your electric guitar for her, loves how the sounds of the strings make her feel like she could make games to this depending on the best of the tune. Julie will always beg you to play if you’re feeling well enough to pluck away at the chords. If not, she’ll buy you more strings and guitar picks to match your aesthetic (the picks only if you use them of course)

She now has to avoid certain Neighbors in The Neighborhood, especially if you’re currently beefing with them because the messed around with you and were finding out what that meant with you. Especially Barnaby, he did not know when to stop and you certainly didn’t mind showing him what’s good. She had to go get Eddie and Howdy to pull you guys apart once you started brawling with him because he insulted your beautiful Julie over a joke she made trying to connect with him. That was intolerable and you even were nice enough to call him out and insist he give an apology or else. He left that fight with more spots than he came with after you pummeled him. Julie was grateful you called him out on being mean, but that did not mean you needing to bruise up Barnaby. You were lucky Wally wasn’t there to witness it outright…

While you and Julie are on different energy spectrums, you both still draw each other in completely and entirely. You show people their inner darkness while bubbly Julie shows them their inner light! You draw in the quiet and slow and peace while she brings the fast and chaotic. While she’s a slight people pleaser, you are not tolerable of other people’s issues with the two of you. You often enjoy spending time together regardless if you’re both present for it or not. You wouldn’t choose another sun to rise with.

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The follow ups are:

Frank Frankly

And

Eddie Dear

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That’s all folks!

~Fox

[beetlebumeffect]

hi everyone

i might be writing this for no one to read, and it’s for no one in particular, just gonna share some things

i’ve had this tumblr for at least 6 years and it’s been an on and off relationship, mainly cause I don’t use tumblr anymore, but also because i’ve been up and down in terms of my eating habits.

life has been better since my last food rant 3 years ago. i have gained more weight, 14 kg more from my last weight in here to be exact. i’ve also gained love, a job where im appreciated, some friends that support me and love me, my own independence (i live alone now!) and my own freedom. while all of this was happening I stopped worrying about what I looked like, I actually learned to find beauty in the way I looked. when you have people around you telling you you’re beautiful all the time you start to believe it.

recently I haven’t felt so beautiful tho. i’ve felt the weight (no pun intended) of all these years in the way I looked. i’ve had some instances where i was reminded how bigger i actually got and I won’t lie, I fell into bad habits of starving to maybe, somehow, fall back into the same pattern. this did not work. i’m not the same person I was when I was at my lowest weight, because I was at my lowest emotionally too. I was 16 and depressed. I always had problems with food, unrelated to weight, so that point was just what broke the camels back. i’m 24 years old now. i’m an adult. I have a job, a boyfriend, a friend group. I have an actual life. I don’t want to spend it starving anymore.

thats why I decided to do things the right way. I’ve been having two meals a day, eating below 1000 calories daily. I eat everything I like just in smaller quantities, or replace things i used to love for things that are healthier but give me the feeling of still enjoying what i like. i’ve also been more active. i work from home so big portion of the weight i gained was from eating poorly and not moving at all during the week. so i’ve bought a bike that i use everyday and i take walks every week, at least 2/3 times a week. i started about 3 weeks ago. so far I lost 2,5 kg. i’m working towards losing 28 by the end of the year but there’s no rush. i wanted to change my habits rather than just feel like im on a diet everyday. i’m trying to heal my concept of food, my relationship with it. it’s hard sometimes when i just want to have more or just want to eat something that i know is full of calories. but i work around it. learning to eat mindfully and not because i Want to eat is what’s been helping a lot. I’m also fasting for about 18 hours a day. I have an eating window of 6 hours but I don’t eat snacks or breakfast. it’s been working well so far, but if im hungry after a meal I’ll definitely have a banana or something lol, even if its considered a snack. i’m trying to not be too strict with myself, still making calorie efficient choices but not punishing myself if i have a bit of cake at a birthday party. its hard for me, but im getting there.

anyway this turned out to be a big ramble, i guess what i want to share in here and the reason why i wanted to post it is because sometimes all you need is one person to love you right, to love you the way you deserve. someone to change your perspective on you, to show you how great you are and that you’re more than what your head tells you. i wish and pray for everyone to find that person, whoever it is, a friend, a lover, a family member. we all deserve that love and connection, it is healing, freeing.

i will try i to come in here from time to time and update or try and keep this semi active. I like having a place where im no one and i can just share my thoughts freely.

if someone actually read all of this, thank you! i hope you wish me luck on my journey and I wish you all the best on yours, wherever you are in it.

[reomikagekin]

greetings and salutations, hope I don’t bother you too much by sending in such a random ask. may I please have a romantic matchup for bsd? (Also take your time, not rush at all. Life comes first.)

I use they/them pronouns and I’m pansexual. my myers briggs type is INFJ and my star sign is taurus.

Im about 4’11..not to happy about it. I’m kind of introverted, and can be considered not a people person. I find life a little nihilistic. I’m into dressing in all black and taking a liking to gruesome and morbid things like slashers, analog horror, death games, true crime, necromancy and anatomy. I typically consider myself a "gorehound". I also like to visit abandoned places just for fun, along with playing quite a few escape rooms. I just have a genuine comfort in the uncomfortable.

I’ve come to the conclusion I just scare people off. In reality, I’m intimidated by everyone around me and find it hard to start taking, which may or may not come off as rude to people.

when I become comfortable with someone I start to become really sarcastic and joke around with them with witty banter. most of my humor comes off really insulting, and I’m brutally honest, but I’ll apologize and say it’s a joke or I didn’t mean it if it becomes a problem. even though I do have a hard time understanding physical social cues.

lots of people don’t like me or stay away from me because of my rude behavior. I’m not good with overly sensitive or overly annoying people at all because of that, and I can’t stand kids. Idiocy can get on my nerves too sometimes. I’m a huge animal person though. I have my moments where I can get really feisty, or very quiet and closed off. I’ve been told I’m also a laidback person. I’ve also been told I never know when to quit, and I find I hold grudges for certain things.

I’m the type of person that has lots of opinions on things but I keep them to myself and bottle them up. If pushed far enough I’ll become unforgiving, and aggressive. especially with the types mentioned above.

I find the most comfort in just being in my room drawing, listening to music ( pierce the veil, deftones, system of a down, slipknot, rob zombie,,, sometimes the radiohead, insane clown posse, jazmin bean or mother mother, etc. ), or even occasionally playing video games, reading, writing, or talking about a random conspiracy theory I have. I do acting in my spare time as a small hobby too, and I’m learning how to play electric guitar.

I’m a plushie maniac and when I fall asleep you can always see me cuddled up to one of them. I find it because I’m really touch starved. Im also a caffeine addict, and I’m guilty of being very submissive and maybe even masochistic- and a bit of a pyromaniac. I dissociate or daydream a lot, so you can often catch me starring.

I suffer from a handful off mental and physical syndromes like adhd, insomnia, asthma, depression and anxiety. These have all been diagnosed professionally, and I’m definitely not trying to make myself "quirky". unfortunately health problems run in my family.

I’m very fidgety, and often bite the inside of my cheek or bounce my leg rapidly. you don’t need to rocmantasize this stuff ofc, but I think it’s good to know so the person can tolerate me.

you do get to this, thanks for your time. <3

i match you up with...

dazai!!

(Reminder i do not takw any matchup requests after this!! Tho ill finish all my other asks.)

•he loves how short you are,he loves to tease you (but also feels the need to protect you)

•he loves your style! I feel he would also be interested analog horror (idk why-)

•when he first met you,he noticed how quiet you are,but tge more comfortable you are,the more saracstic you became and he loves that.

•Tho people find you rude,he loves to be around you

•if things ever get to much,or your just really uncomfortable,he will take you to a place more quiet.

•he also suffers withd depression and insomnia (i think he does suffer with insomnia-?) He will be there for your and he will help you with a way he can. You have an asthma attack he will get your breathing tube and give it to you(idk what its called-)

•he finds it ADORABLE when you cuddle up with plushies.

•he will most definitly get you fidget toys if you ever need them.

[rize-is-writing]

greetings and salutations, hope I don’t bother you too much by sending in such a random ask. may I please have a romantic matchup for bsd?

I’m 19, I use they/them pronouns and I’m pansexual. my myers briggs type is INFJ and my star sign is taurus.

Im about 4’11..not to happy about it. I’m kind of introverted, and can be considered not a people person. I find life a little nihilistic. I’m into dressing in all black and taking a liking to gruesome and morbid things like slashers, analog horror, death games, true crime, necromancy and anatomy. I typically consider myself a "gorehound". I also like to visit abandoned places just for fun, along with playing quite a few escape rooms. I just have a genuine comfort in the uncomfortable.

I’ve come to the conclusion I just scare people off. In reality, I’m intimidated by everyone around me and find it hard to start taking, which may or may not come off as rude to people.

when I become comfortable with someone I start to become really sarcastic and joke around with them with witty banter. most of my humor comes off really insulting, but I’ll apologize and say it’s a joke if it becomes a problem. even though I do have a hard time understanding physical social cues.

lots of people don’t like me or stay away from me because of my rude behavior. I’m not good with overly sensitive or overly annoying people at all because of that, and I can’t stand kids. Idiocy can get on my nerves too sometimes. I’m a huge animal person though. I have my moments where I can get really feisty, or very quiet and closed off. I’ve been told I’m also a laidback person. I’ve also been told I never know when to quit, and I find I hold grudges for certain things.

I’m the type of person that has lots of opinions on things but I keep them to myself and bottle them up. If pushed far enough I’ll become unforgiving, and aggressive. especially with the types mentioned above.

I find the most comfort in just being in my room drawing, listening to music ( pierce the veil, deftones, system of a down, slipknot, rob zombie,,, sometimes the radiohead, insane clown posse, jazmin bean or mother mother, etc. ), or even occasionally playing video games, reading, writing, or talking about a random conspiracy theory I have. I do acting in my spare time as a small hobby too, and I’m learning how to play electric guitar.

I’m a plushie maniac and when I fall asleep you can always see me cuddled up to one of them. I find it because I’m really touch starved. Im also a caffeine addict, and I’m guilty of being very submissive- and a bit of a pyromaniac. Someone more dominant would be ideal. I dissociate or daydream a lot, so you can often catch me starring.

I suffer from a handful off mental and physical syndromes like adhd, insomnia, asthma, depression and anxiety. These have all been diagnosed professionally, and I’m definitely not trying to make myself "quirky". unfortunately health problems run in my family.

I’m very fidgety, and often bite the inside of my cheek or bounce my leg rapidly. you don’t need to rocmantasize this stuff ofc, but I think it’s good to know so the person can tolerate me.

you do get to this, thanks for your time. <3

I found your match! Come to meet them, c'mon c'mon!

You hit the the jackpot.

Yosano as we all know has a love for the gruesome and gore, I'd totally agree that she would be enthusiastic about it with you, if her enthusiastic way is something you like of course. But I'm afraid she knows too well how it is the insides of human body, and is too happy to be able to...

As you want, she is a more "dominant" partner. I would say more assertive, the first to worry about your health in any situation and probably when out with you has already everything ready. As a doctor herself she understands the importance of health as foremost, and your care is important and not something to be "tolerated" as if it was a bother, simply to be supported and cared for in more critical moments.

(hope I am not romanticing ir though, the least I want to do is to make my readers uncomfortable. If I did, do not hesitate to call me out on it, and I willing edit this immediately!)

Definitely a bit fussy around your pyromaniac tendencies and your caffeine addiction, not really supportive on them- even though that might be hypocritical given how easy bottle is for her, and her little questionable hobbies to dissect her friends... I just hope bad arguments don't raise-

Anyway, Yosano as we know is quite the fashionable person so I think she would definitely make the most of your style for you, buying clothes and such (and have an excuse for you two to go out). Would find your love for plushes adorable so expect maybe some extra ones for your collection.

As for your general behavior around people, I don't think Yosano would be much of bothered by it, knowing her maybe sometimes will even back you up or laugh at some jokes (especially if about gruesome stuff) but if it goes too far will be the first to step in and talk to you. She is mature, and would be aware that you don't mean any harm in what you say, so in this case comunication is simply the key, as always.

[tv-g1r-l]

greetings and salutations, hope I don’t bother you to much. may I please have a romantic matchup for sonic? Not sure if you even do matchups anymore, so if you don’t have lease fully delete this and Ignore me, ty.

I use they/them pronouns and I’m pansexual. my myers briggs type is INFJ and enneagram type is 4. my star sign is taurus, moon sign is gemini.

Im about 4’11..not to happy about it. I’m rather introverted, and can be considered not a people person. I find life a little nihilistic. I’m into dressing in all black and taking a liking to gruesome and morbid things like slashers, analog horror, death games, true crime documentaries, poetry, necromancy and anatomy. I typically consider myself a "gorehound". I also like to visit abandoned hospitals and houses just for fun, along with playing quite a few escape rooms. I just have a genuine comfort in the uncomfortable.

I get a lot of monikers from friends and family like "discount vomitboyx", "doomer boy", and "basically daria" before. I’ve come to the conclusion I just scare people off. In reality, I’m intimidated by everyone around me and find it hard to start conversing, which may or may not come off as rude to people.

when I finally become comfortable with someone I start to become really sarcastic and joke around with them with witty banter. most of my humor comes off really insulting, but I’ll apologize and say it’s a joke if it becomes a problem. even though I do have a hard time understanding physical social cues.

lots of people don’t like me or stay away from me because of my rude behavior. I’m not good with overly sensitive or overly annoying people at all because of that, and I can’t stand kids. Idiocy can get on my nerves too sometimes. I’m a huge animal person though. I have my moments where I can get really feisty, or very quiet and closed off. I’ve been told I’m also a laidback person. I’ve also been told I never know when to quit, and I find I hold grudges for certain things.

I’m the type of person that has lots of opinions on things but I keep them to myself and bottle them up. If pushed far enough I’ll become unforgiving, and aggressive. especially with the types mentioned above.

I find the most comfort in just being in my room drawing, reading and or listening to music ( motionless in white, deftones, system of a down, slipknot, rob zombie,,, sometimes arctic monkeys, insane clown posse, jazmin bean or mother mother, etc. ), or even occasionally playing video games, reading, talking about Greek mythology or some random documentary I read. I also do acting in my spare time, which I find really fun; and I’ve been learning to play guitar. my interests tend to be very restricted, and I shut down easily trying to get into something.

I’m a plushie maniac and when I fall asleep you can always see me cuddled up to one of them. I find it because I’m really touch starved. I’m guilty of being very submissive and maybe even masochistic- and a bit of a pyromaniac. I dissociate or daydream a lot, so you can often catch me starring.

I suffer from a handful off mental and physical syndromes like autism, insomnia, asthma, gerd, depression and anxiety. These have all been diagnosed professionally, and I’m definitely not trying to make myself "quirky". unfortunately health problems run in my family.

I’m very fidgety, and often bite the inside of my cheek, pull my hair, crack or pop my bones, pick at scabs, fidget with my fingers or toy and bounce my leg. I also been developing an eating disorder. you don’t need to rocmantasize this stuff ofc, but I think it’s good to know so the person can tolerate me.

you do get to this, thanks for your time.

Hello hello! Sorry I didn't get to this, but, I match you up with..

Knuckles!

First of all, you both would be so cute together! Knuckles, though not understanding what you like, loves to listen to you in his spare time, it's almost a hobby at this point.

From you taking a liking toward gruesome things, Knuckles often finds himself liking them aswell. He wants to get into it cause he wants you to feel listened to, asking Shadow about information on these things from time to time.

He often finds going into abandoned hospitals and houses a bit.. creepy, but gets used to it after awhile. In fact, he takes you on dates to them sometimes. He's the strongest echidna, he's got to develop some immunity towards these things, right?

He LOVES spending time and giving gifts!! Gifting you small trinkets like a black gem necklace (which Rouge stole.. but he doesn't tell anyone about it.) or just some plushies to go into your collection!

He also loves giving you forehead kisses and hugs, while the typical couple likes the normal kisses, he thinks your height is perfect for it and he wouldn't change it for the world.

When you both met- he wasn't afraid of you at all, rather, he found you interesting, eager to talk to you every time he got the chance.

He enjoys your sarcastic humor, riffing along with it as he tries to make you feel more comfortable. In conversations, he asks for your opinion on the matter so he could make you feel included.

He finds that your poetry helps him learn reading and writing, so whenever you write poetry, hand it to him! It's great practice and he loves the way you write, even if sometimes he doesn't understand.

Whenever you feel down, Knuckles is there for you. Not mentioning the situation at hand, but talking about his day, asking about your day, etc to make you feel distracted. He also loves holding you while doing this, randomly giving you kisses on the cheek.

No matter what goes on, Knuckles' love is undying for you. No matter what health issue, or anything. He likes you for you, nothing can change that.

[justsomeoneintoomanyfandoms]

greetings and salutations, hope I don’t bother you too much by sending in such a random ask. may I please have a romantic matchup for bsd, aot and mha ? (no pressure ofc, do whatever you’d like.)

I use they/them pronouns and I’m pansexual. my myers briggs type is INFJ and my star sign is taurus.

Im about 4’11..not to happy about it. I’m kind of introverted, and can be considered not a people person. I find life a little nihilistic. I’m into dressing in all black and taking a liking to gruesome and morbid things like slashers, analog horror, witchcraft, true crime, necromancy, anatomy, etc. I typically consider myself a "gorehound" ig. I participate in "Vulture Culture"; and I also like to visit abandoned places just for fun, along with playing quite a few escape rooms. I just have a genuine comfort in the uncomfortable.

I’ve come to the conclusion I just scare people off. In reality, I’m intimidated by everyone around me and find it hard to start taking, which may or may not come off as rude to people.

when I become comfortable with someone I start to become really sarcastic and joke around with them with witty banter. most of my humor comes off really insulting, and I’m brutally honest, but I’ll apologize and say it’s a joke or I didn’t mean it if it becomes a problem. even though I do have a hard time understanding physical social cues.

lots of people don’t like me or stay away from me because of my rude behavior. I’m not good with overly sensitive or overly annoying people at all because of that, and I can’t stand kids. Idiocy can get on my nerves too sometimes. I’m a huge animal person though. I have my moments where I can get really feisty, or very quiet and closed off. I’ve been told I’m also a laidback person. I’ve also been told I never know when to quit, and I find I hold grudges for certain things. It’s not as common now but I used to get called a vampire by other kids when I was younger since I had oddly pointy canine teeth. I find it funny, seeing how I am today.

I’m the type of person that has lots of opinions on things but I keep them to myself and bottle them up. If pushed far enough I’ll become unforgiving, and aggressive. especially with the types mentioned above.

I find the most comfort in just being in my room drawing, listening to music ( pierce the veil, deftones, system of a down, slipknot, rob zombie,,, sometimes radiohead, insane clown posse, jazmin bean or mother mother, etc. ), or even occasionally playing video games, reading, writing, or talking about a random conspiracy theory I have. I do acting in my spare time as a small hobby too, and I’m learning how to play electric guitar. I also work as a scare actor.

I’m a plushie maniac and when I fall asleep you can always see me cuddled up to one of them. I find it because I’m really touch starved. I also have this specific blanket I can literally not sleep without. Im also a caffeine addict, and I’m guilty of being very submissive and maybe even masochistic- and a bit of a pyromaniac. I dissociate or daydream a lot, so you can often catch me starring.

I suffer from a handful off mental and physical syndromes like asd, insomnia, asthma, depression and anxiety. These have all been diagnosed professionally, and I’m definitely not trying to make myself "quirky". unfortunately health problems run in my family.

I’m very fidgety, and often bite the inside of my cheek or bounce my leg rapidly. you don’t need to rocmantasize this stuff ofc, but I think it’s good to know so the person can tolerate me.

you do get to this, thanks for your time. <3

Hi Coii! I might have to request something from you at some point...your blog is so cool! Thank you for your request! I hope you like your matchup!

In Bungo Stray Dogs, I match you with...

Dazai is immune to people who give off scary vibes. He was in the Port Mafia. He's used to it by now. In fact, he loves that about you!

Would enjoy listening to music with you. He doesn't mind more "intense" music like Slipknot or Rob Zombie but I see him as a big fan of Mother Mother. Some of their songs like "Burning Pile" give me Dazai vibes.

Will ask you to scare him whenever and wherever the mood strikes you. In his words "To pass away from heart failure when my love scares me would be a fine way to die."

Don't listen to him. But do scare him. He deserves it.

Definitely struggles with his own mental illnesses so he's sympathetic regarding your own struggles. He'll do his best to support you but feels like a hypocrite while doing so. He's still actively avoiding working on his own mental health but he might be encouraged to start when things you do to help start to help him as well.

Dazai loves listening to your conspiracy theories! No matter how far fetched they get, he'll always listen attentively and give them consideration. He might tease you about some of the more outlandish ones though...

Will absolutely tease you about your plushies. But at the same time, he'll make sure you have them when you go to sleep and will buy you new ones when he's out.

Use him as a plushie as well. He'll love every second of it. He's just as touch starved as you are so it's a win-win for you both!

In Attack on Titan, I match you with...

You and Annie are the scary power couple everyone in the 104th is just a little bit scared of.

Annie loves that you're into horror stuff and more gory things. Even though she kind of hates that part of her life, she appreciates that you're not going to faint over a bit of blood.

Modern au Annie is definitely a horror movie fan. If you name it, she's seen it. And she's more than willing to watch it again.

Touch starved matchup part two! Annie is definitely touch starved and too proud to admit it, so you'll have to take the initiative there.

Her favourite time of day is when you can both cuddle together and not worry about the outside world.

Would love doing escape rooms with you! She's really good at them so she likes more challenging rooms that take a while to work through.

Another one who would love your taste in music. I see Annie as someone who listens to music while training and your taste in music is perfect for that kind of thing.

Annie would love to spend time with you, but each doing your own individual thing. She'll usually be training or reading while you do drawing or writing.

Things your affection for your plushies is cute. She does get a bit jealous sometimes; she just wishes she was being hugged in the plushie's place. Please make sure you give her some hugs and she'll be back to normal.

In My Hero Academia, I match you with...

This was a close call between Shinso or Aizawa but in the end, I think your vibes match Shinso a bit better.

Touch starved matchup part three! Wow, I've really matched you with one type of person huh?

Loves hugs with you. They make him feel warm and safe and he hopes you feel the same way about his hugs.

Another one who struggles with some mental illnesses. Shinsou is really good at reminding you to take any medication you need or doing thinking exercises (or any other methods of dealing with your mental illnesses you may have).

Would love it if you're willing to share your plushies with him. He may not seem like it but he's a fan of hugging them as well. They're comforting.

When you both have a day off, Shinsou would love to stack all of your plushies on your bed and lay there with you for the whole day. He might finally get to catch up on some sleep...

Enjoys watching horror movies with you. He hasn't see a lot of horror stuff but he's enjoyed what he has seen. Always open to suggestions on what horror movie to watch next.

Definitely down to have horror movie marathons with you. Neither you nor he sleep anyway so you're good to watch until morning.

[dracones24]

greetings and salutations, hope I don’t bother you too much by sending in such a random ask. may I please have a romantic matchup for bsd? nsfw parts are up to you, surprise me.

I’m 19, I use they/them pronouns and I’m pansexual. my myers briggs type is INFJ and my star sign is taurus.

Im about 4’11..not to happy about it. I’m kind of introverted, and can be considered not a people person. I find life a little nihilistic. I’m into dressing in all black and taking a liking to gruesome and morbid things like slashers, analog horror, death games, true crime, necromancy and anatomy. I typically consider myself a "gorehound". I also like to visit abandoned places just for fun, along with playing quite a few escape rooms. I just have a genuine comfort in the uncomfortable.

I’ve come to the conclusion I just scare people off. In reality, I’m intimidated by everyone around me and find it hard to start taking, which may or may not come off as rude to people.

when I become comfortable with someone I start to become really sarcastic and joke around with them with witty banter. most of my humor comes off really insulting, but I’ll apologize and say it’s a joke if it becomes a problem. even though I do have a hard time understanding physical social cues.

lots of people don’t like me or stay away from me because of my rude behavior. I’m not good with overly sensitive or overly annoying people at all because of that, and I can’t stand kids. Idiocy can get on my nerves too sometimes. I’m a huge animal person though. I have my moments where I can get really feisty, or very quiet and closed off. I’ve been told I’m also a laidback person. I’ve also been told I never know when to quit, and I find I hold grudges for certain things.

I’m the type of person that has lots of opinions on things but I keep them to myself and bottle them up. If pushed far enough I’ll become unforgiving, and aggressive. especially with the types mentioned above.

I find the most comfort in just being in my room drawing, listening to music ( pierce the veil, deftones, system of a down, slipknot, rob zombie,,, sometimes the radiohead, insane clown posse, jazmin bean or mother mother, etc. ), or even occasionally playing video games, reading, writing, or talking about a random conspiracy theory I have. I do acting in my spare time as a small hobby too, and I’m learning how to play electric guitar.

I’m a plushie maniac and when I fall asleep you can always see me cuddled up to one of them. I find it because I’m really touch starved. Im also a caffeine addict, and I’m guilty of being very submissive and maybe even masochistic- and a bit of a pyromaniac. I dissociate or daydream a lot, so you can often catch me starring.

I suffer from a handful off mental and physical syndromes like adhd, insomnia, asthma, depression and anxiety. These have all been diagnosed professionally, and I’m definitely not trying to make myself "quirky". unfortunately health problems run in my family.

I’m very fidgety, and often bite the inside of my cheek or bounce my leg rapidly. you don’t need to rocmantasize this stuff ofc, but I think it’s good to know so the person can tolerate me.

you do get to this, thanks for your time. <3

I pair you with.... Kouyou!

Kouyou is unbothered by gore or darker content, but she also isn't well versed in it, so you could spend a lot of time showing her things

Your music taste shes more hit or miss on, but she never minds you playing it and often looks up the lyrics

She is deeply endeared by your love of plushies, expect new ones gifted Regularly

Kouyou tends to keep her opinions under wraps, too, but with her gentle encouragement I could see you opening up

Being a dick isnt really a love language for Kouyou, but she has a thick skin, you're unlikely to ever hurt her feelings, and she seems to always know when you mean it and when you don't

Kouyou is reserved but passionate, unlikely to get on your nerves

Kouyou actually kinda likes how you can tear into someone, she likes that kind of strength in a partner

She would run a soothing hand along the nearest accessible place when you get fidgety, wanting to provide stimulation for you to hopefully settle you

Youre 4'11, shes like 5'7, so when she wants to she can use the height gap to seem more dominant, but mostly its easy not to notice, shes not the sort to joke about your height much

Kouyou also is great about your pronouns and she keeps careful track of which gendered terms you are or are not comfortable with, shes also zero tolerance for anyone else misgendering you Ever

She is the sort to scoop you up and carry you though

Shes a gift giver, expect thoughtful presents Always, from luxurious clothes to stuffies to fancy coffee related things to records

She likes to read anything you write, shes got amazing grammar if you ever wanted a beta

Dont tell her you're a pyromaniac, she Is in the mafia and Would take you to watch arson from a safe distance like its a date

Kouyou may not be a chatterbox, but she has alright social skills, and she makes up for your more standoffish nature

She is also quite touch starved, and roves her hands over you whenever youre alone, her PDA is more chaste, never exceeding hand holding or a kiss to the cheek, but alone? Her hands are always trailing over you

She has zero qualms about playing the dominant role, though for special occassions she'd switch things up

Kouyou loves to be eaten out, if thats something you came to enjoy, she'd gladly slip you under a desk or play with your hair and praise you while she sits on your face

She also isnt put off by your masochism, in fact she'd make good use of it. Expect claw marks from her nails. She never is Too rough on you because she hates to see you truly Hurt, but she definitely isnt put off by some rough play

If youre into wax, I think that would be a favorite for her, its a lot of intense senations without her needing to worry about harming you as much as she might with heavier impact play or something

Wanna be stepped on? Shes got you covered there too

She can also be really gentle though, making love to every inch of you diligently, spoiling you with lingerie or your preferred form of empowering clothing, its almost worshipful the way she kneads her fingers into sore muscles and kisses along the way

[lizlemondyke]

We lay on her bed and watched Broadchurch, while all around us our friends and floormates descended into chaos of their own creation and we, mercifully, did not have to care. Throughout the episode I tried very hard not to think about the fact that our legs were touching and that I could feel her arm next to mine and she tried very hard not to think about the boy next door and I tried very hard not to think about her thinking about him and there was something calm and bright and peaceful in the air, tinged yellow around the edges

[crymeariveronceagain]

River's Thoughts after reading Lodestar again:

Wow did this book rip your brain out and stab it

also i highkey had a mini breakdown in the middle of this book, took a break and read a comfort book, and then went back to reading it today. So like. Yeah, progress?

Literally this has been the most sophitz up to this point and do you know what? Keefe is still a better love interest. I could write an essay on how Shannon is making us want Sokeefe unconsciously. Everything she does, every good moment we get with Fitz, it is always overshadowed with a love for Keefe. Shannon is making us think about Keefe at every single moment of this book. And it's like she specifically doesn't want us to focus on Fitz's newfound feelings for Soph.

I'm not afraid to say it. Sophie Foster loves Keefe. So much. It's apparent in every way she interacts with him. It's obvious in every way she comforts, every way she screams, every way her heart is caught up in him and his wellbeing and him him him him him. Sure, it's not the healthiest atm, what with the world falling to pieces and the trauma both of them are steadily living through, but holy mother trucker like a butcheek on a stick do those two love each other. Keefe is literally willing to do absolutely anything and everything for her, at the cost of himself, and she is willing to do anything and everything to protect him. My stars. These idiots got a whole fandom of middle schoolers up in arms over what was obvious from book five. They love each other, madly, desperately, and hopelessly. And sooner or later, they're gonna have to look each other in the eyes and face that fact.

my copy of lodestar is falling apart

i'd like to take a moment to tell my ex that he can go screw himself because that's not how you treat a lady's books.

Screw you, PJM. You know who you are, asshat.

Mr. Forkle went straight back to dehumanizing Sophie. Like, he took a break from it in Neverseen, but in this book, she is a weapon, a creation, a project, everything in between. No one thinks she's real. She's just a piece of a greater plan. And Mr. Forkle does not shy away from telling her so. At the end of the book, during the Summit, he has the actual gall to act like she's taken control of herself like, no, idiot, you raised her like this. You created this. You made this. You designed this. You may not be pulling the strings anymore but this little girl was still designed to be your puppet.

Gethen is the best Neverseen Member, I love every scene with him in it, thank you for coming to my Ted Talk, I'll be here all weekend.

Brant is... so very. Much. All of the time.

Oh, my stars, I have so many problems with the Enhancing ability you don't even understand. Like, literally, strip her freedom away more why don'tcha. This was just an asinine move in every way. Don't give your weapon something like this. Don't design her this way. Don't be an idiot, sure, she may be an asset to you, now, but she's an asset to everyone else, around her. Like, once anyone knows that she's got this power, it's game over. They literally just capture her and force her to hold their hands like she's some kind of toy. Battle won instantaneously.

Oh, Sokeefe, how I love thee, let me count the quotes I've underlined with such captions as "t h e m".

I tried there's too many.

Okay, but the thing is that Linh literally throws herself backwards when she finds out Sophie's an enhancer. Linh's terrified of this new ability. Grady hates it. Like, does no one else see the downfall of making Sophie dangerous to the touch? Like, this poor girl is already so affection-starved, we're just gonna take it all from her???

EDALINE!!!!!! SO AMAZING!!! I'D KILL AND DIE FOR HER!!!! LOOK AT MY MOMMA BEAR GO AT THE END OF THIS BOOK SLAY QUEEN.

Keefe is just so traumatized. And everyone's like, "clearly, he's evil" and sophie is like "no, he's flipping traumatized" and everyone's like "what's trauma lmao" and sophie's like "im not a psychologist but i feel like it's when bad happens" and everyone's like "nah let's not take that into account" like what don't be idiots this is a kid without a support system not the evil spawn of satan

Actually Grady calling Keefe "That Boy" is disgusting, it's the first thing I've strongly disliked that Grady does, and I'm never going to be over how quickly everyone in this fandom just took the nickname and decided it was a joke, instead of how Grady says that Keefe doesn't deserve to be referred to by a name at all, and says he'll have to earn his own name back. Like, ehe, no, Dad of mine, please be kind to the poor kid.

Grady was honestly pretty out of character in this book. I love the guy but jeepers someone tell him the separation between violence and the elven mind is imaginary and created by society and let him go batshit crazy on every single person in the lost cities who hurt his daughter, and also let him stick up for Keefe and see the similarities between Keefe and Jolie, doing dangerous things for the people they love, and all that.

if i have to hear one more thing about how the neverseen distract from the problem and the black swan doesn't im going to start hitting people(probably forkle)

council is so bloody fricked lmao there's no way they're making it out of this book series with any sort of governmental claim over actually literally anything

Oralie is so very Sophie's mom it's kind of startling to look back and see. Like, even Sophie expects Oralie to be her mom.

Okay, I'm sorry, but the way the Neverseen knew how everything was going to go down seems Deus Ex. Not even going to lie. I feel like it was something that Shannon needed to happen and so she just lined up the dominos. It feels very Deus Ex. Or, *coff coff* Neverseen Alden.

Oh, how I want to slap Gisela Sencen hard enough that her pea-sized brains rattle in her ginormous skull made out of her own ego.

I love how the fandom highkey forgets actively how much of a complete psycho Fintan is. Like, we all just see flamboyant arsonist and make grabby hands while canon Fintan is sitting in the corner talking to himself about blood and how pretty your skin is.

Y'know, I actually am beginning to think that Gisela would be the parent who would actually get around to hurting Keefe. I seriously think that Cassius wouldn't hurt his kid. Maybe if really angry, but not purposefully, or with intent to punish or harm. I think Gisela would. Like, if one of the two adults actually ever hit Keefe, ever actively used it as a punishment and did it more out of "this is the only way you'll learn" I honestly feel like it would be Gisela. Hmm. Time to write a fic about Keefe experiencing some severe physical pain and having no clue why. Or why he's flinching so bad at nothing when he can't remember anything coming at him like that. Because Gisela definitely gets his mind washed often.

"Did they just admit they're training us to kill" yes. They are. Get over it, Sophie. It's just a little violence. You went to exilium. You've got this handled.

Oh, my gosh, the way the Song parents makes me want to claw my skin off. That's just... that's so accurate as to how awful parents are around the public eye. They're just... good people, would never hurt their kids, so sad they've lost out on things, and yeah. Like, it's just something I never picked up on before. Tam and Linh are severely traumatized by their parents. And in the first scene you meet them, the Songs are nice people. Reasonable. Their children ran away. Don't you feel bad for them?

No, I sure the heck don't. <3

Fitz listens to his dad's secret conversations. No thoughts, just a comment.

Emperess Pernille and Oralie are best friends someone please write me a fic

Okay I have so many thoughts about the end of Lodestar i don't even think i want to write them in this post because it's just so very much to think about

i suppose i can try to summarize?

every other species(sans gnomes) commits murder under elven standards.

the summit was right to listen to Fintan Pyren.

The Council and The Black Swan do not listen to the Neverseen and try to fight them without knowing what they want, really.

Fintan says the problem is humans, but talks like they are really the solution, the catalyst, the final piece to the puzzle, the way to connect all the dots.

anyways this book screwed with my head and i equally never want to touch a volume again and immediately begin Nightfall just so i can kiss Keefe full on the mouth for existing in person again.

[technowoah]

Cant Handle This

Quackity's facade keeps breaking, and he tries to keep the pieces together. You're the only one who can make him show his true self

- Quackity x gen neutral reader

- this is a long one yall.

Now playing...

Can't Handle This (Kanye Rant)

Bo Burnham

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⚠︎ swearing, angst, mentions of mcyttwt, based on the song above, and ofc its not proofread

Part of my Inside Special!

Quackity sat in his chair currently streaming right now, he seemed like he was having a good time from your spot on his bed. You were currently laying on his bed after he invited you here to relax.

You two had laid in his bed just enjoying eachothers company until he got a call from Tommy saying he was ready for the lore stream which sent Alex into a frenzy. Alex sent out a quick "Im sorry" about the lateness of his stream and then quickly set everything up.

He then started to stream which left you alone on the the bed to your own devices. You were scrolling through Twitter looking at Alex's fans talk about what's happening on the stream and posting screenshots of his character and himself.

You admired him from afar as he ended the lore part of his stream, he took time to type on his phone to text you that he decided to stream longer to talk to his fans. He looked to you and you have him a nod with a smile and he gave one back.

"Hey guys! That's the end of the lore!" He exclaimed to his chat as he types at his computer setting a new background.

You continued to listen to him praise his chat for supporting him and making him be able to make those types of streams. You were always proud of Alex no matter what he did, you were always his number one supporter no matter what happened in reality or on the internet.

"So anyways! I wanted to talk to you guys! How are you all?" He smiled at his camera looking back and forth from his chat.

◇T0mm71nn1t: THE STREAM WAS SO GOOD QUACKITY

"Oh thank you! Im glad I could share this with you. It takes so much to put into these movite type streams, so I know now it is all worth it."

Quackity's pov. . .

He felt so overwhelmed, he shouldn't have began to stream again. The stress of putting everything together, plus being late to the stream made him rush into it more. He just wanted to lay back down with his lover who was enjoying watching him stream, and that's the goal he wants. His goal was to entertain, it was his job and he doesn't want to fail, he doesn't want to crack.

◇Mayatooni3: WE LOVE YOU QUACKITY

◇catiiequak: QUACKITY ITS MY BIRTHDAY CAN I GET A HAPPY BIRTHDAY??

◇yriaaolic: 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜

"Happy Birthday!" He said seeing the comment pass in a second. "Happy Birthday to anyone who's Birthday it is today."

Right now it was hard. It was hard to keep up when there was always a constant demand, the constant need to be perfect, his past being brought up, and trying to one-up his content everytime. He loved this, but at the same time it had the same weight as a job.

In the back of his mind he knew the "When is Quackity streaming???" is mostly lighthearted, he never wants to leave.

"Quack are you okay? Im fine! Just thinking about how to get something to eat at 2am." He laughed lying to his fans, he wanted to stop this stream.

He kept looking over to his lover lying their head on his pillow scrolling through their phone and alternating their vision from him and their phone. He always caught a glimpse of their small smile everytime he looked. He was doing something right.

"Do yall think Taco Bell is open? The only problem I have is that Im fucking starving."

He paused for a moment taking a deep breath trying to keep his emotions down. The stress was getting to him, and he fucking knew it, but he didnt stop. He was going to get burnt out eventually and stop streaming and YouTube all together, but he needed this. He needed a break, he needed to take time for himself and stop putting on a happy face when he isnt.

TTS ◇pulixsaxe: "Did you see what was happening on Twitter quackity?"

"Wait what's happening on Twitter?" He asked with a weary laugh.

I can sit here and pretend like my biggest problems are

Pringle cans, and burritos

The truth is, my biggest problem's you,

Your eyes widened as he mentioned Twitter. Truth be told he was trending because of his stream, yes, but also they brung up stuff from his past again in the wake of another content creator's past or present being brought up. You hadn't paid attention to that, you were only getting fueled up from Twitter bringing up an issue that he already had addressed.

Tempted to speak and tell him its fine, he already spoke up before you.

"I bet it's fine! I dont wanna... I don't need to look." He said with a smile. He always had that smile on.

Either it was a full smile or a half smile. It never left his face and it comforted you somehow. Maybe it was that you were his significant other, but you always wondered if anyone saw the same things as you. The things like his smile that never left his face.

"Yeah! I dont need to look at that." He waved his hand dismissing the comment away. He then sighed letting his shoulders relax as you saw his smile fade and his eyes close for a second and immediately put that small smile back on his face while his eyes were glossy, but bright.

He needed to end this stream soon. You saw his face fall then in a split second come back to life except his eyes were glossy with tears. You wondered if anyone else noticed.

"I want to please you

But I want to stay true to myself

I want to give you the night out that you deserve"

His eyes tearful as he tried to blink them away trying to not make a scene.

"Sorry! Allergies ugh!" He said as he wiped his tears away claiming them as allergies.

"Are you crying? No! Im not a pussy!" He yelled at his chat in a joking manner.

He was crying and he felt weak. He felt emotionally weak, and weak as in not strong, he didn't feel strong and his lover who was sitting on his bed with a concerned look on their face always told him that it's okay to feel weak. The only meaningful thing is how you pick yourself up, they always told him, bur now he felt at rock bottom.

He wanted to give his fans "himself", the goofy, lovable, loud, quick-witted, Quackity. But then again his lover always told him to separate Quackity from Alex. He wanted to give himself to his audience, he wanted to be authentic and share himself, but he cant. Alex isn't all laughs, he is serious, calmer, and when he gets on the screen is when he lets it all out then goes back to his more calmer self. That's not what they want.

"But I want to say what I think

And not care what you think about it"

Giving himself meant dialing back, he wants to tell how hes actually feeling, he wants to say what he thinks about Twitter, what he thinks about certain friends, about his fanbase, and then leave it alone. He wanted to delete social media and then speak his mind without knowing what anyone is saying about it. It was paradise to him, but of course it cant be that way and that's what he hates. He feels like a actor when he really wants to be himself.

"A part of me loves you,"

Alex loved his fanbase, he had such a supportive fanbase that loved his content. Some of them did atleast he didn't fully know, but they gave him the courage to do this time and time again knowing that his content is at least taking them from the harsh reality of real life for a few minutes or hours. This was the reason he did this, for them.

Alex would never admit this but they boosted his ego too, it would for anyone. The fact that there were people who wanted and enjoyed content from him made him feel good about himself.

"part of me hates you"

He hated the contant criticisms, he hates that they feed his ego so much that it makes him want to stream more to feel good about himself and to make people get away for awhile. Alex knew inside of his heart he couldn't truly hate his fanbase, they gave him everything he ever wanted. He hates them for that and that's such a scary thing. He never fails to wonder if he did the things to deserve all the love and hate he gets.

"Part of me needs you,"

They feed his ego, they make him want to go above and beyond. Alex knows that his fanbase is the reason he is here in this chair infront of three expensive monitors. He knows that this is some sort of a job that he needed. He needed the push to keep going and that was them, it was the 200k people watching his stream watching him answer questions about him and

"part of me fears you"

He was fearful of loosing himself to them. Loosing his authenticity to them was something he feared. He didnt want his funny, loud persona to consume him and make him forget about Alex instead of Quackity. He fears what they think as well, he claims he doesnt care, but he does he wants to please them. It feels like two parts of his brain fighting about if he should care or not.

"And I don't think that I can handle this right now"

The text-to-speech bot continued to speak out people's comments that theu paid for while he sat there quietly. He bit his bottom lip trying to not break down infront of everyone he needed to be strong. He needed to be strong.

If he looked up at the camera everyone would see his tears, they would see him breaking.

He played it off as he brough his shirt up to wipe the tears away, claiming it as sweat.

"Im good! Im sorry I spaced out for a second." He shook his head.

He saw you look at him with that same concerned look on your face. As he switched his gaze between you and his computer, he felt his tears come back again.

"I don't think that I can handle this right-"

"Alex." You tried to get his attention.

"Yeah guys Im fine!"

"Alex"

"I don't think that I can handle this right-"

"I have plans later for another lore stream, so Ill start doing that later tonight."

"ALEX!" You yelled and his head turned around to face you.

"What?" He laughed, biting his lip again.

You couldn't stop him doing this, you could try to course him into going to bed, but right now you couldn't find the words. You just stared at him while he looked at you with a somber smile trying to tell you that he was okay.

He felt his mind telling himself that he need to rest. He wouldnt allow himself to and thats why he was breaking down.

"I don't think that I can handle this right-"

Alex was blinking rapidly trying to keep his breathing and tears at bay while he answered his fans.

"My allergies are fine! And I drank water today."

◇moonchild21: WE LOVE YOU

◇sopusand: Why do you look like that?

◇wuackityoo: are you crying??

"Crying is for the weak! I am a strong manly man! Im crying cause I noticed how alpha I am!" He tried to play it off as a "Im a man" joke but you could see right through it.

"I don't think that I can handle this right-"

"I don't think that I can handle this right-"

You had sent a quick text to Alex which told him to end the stream for his own mental health, but he left the message unread. He began sniffing and the wiping his eyes again. It was a wreck and you couldn't seem to stop it without literally dragging him out of his chair.

Meanwhile the screens were getting to Alex. Alex's eyes were getting tired of the bright screens and the rapid messages that popped up on the screen overwhelmed him for what it seemed like the first time ever in his strraming career. He wanted to give them the fun night they deserved and wanted, but he knows it's getting hard to. He dosent know how long he can keep this up.

As Alex kept joking around about his eyes and physical state the chat was filled with "LMAO" and "HAHAHA" which fuled him more and then at the same time makes him want to stop.

Look at them, they're just staring at me, like

"Come and watch the skinny kid with a

Steadily declining mental health, and laugh as he attempts

To give you what he cannot give himself"

He cannot give himself the luxury of happiness. As he went on with his career it became more and more like a chore, there was mostly down days and of course there were up days, but recently Alex gave his fans the happiness and laughes they wanted while when he turned off the camera he couldn't replicate that same energy as he had before.

It messed him up, he felt himself become separated from his streaming. He wasn't being himself anymore he was being Quackity and that became more apparent as the days passed. He wanted to be himself on camera and at first thats what he thought he was doing. He was himself then it turned into a persona.

Alex wasn't okay and he he needed to take a break from the internet for a while, but he tries to act like he dosent have a dilemma going on inside of his head everytime he sits in this seat. Its for the fans.

"Think that I can handle this right-

I don't think that I can handle this right-

They don't even know the half of this right-

They don't even know the half of it"

"Alex you need to end the stream. Please?"

He looked towards you again where you moved your position from the middle of the bed to sitting up on the end of the bed.

"Ive told you millions of times." He paused for a moment looking down at his lap before looking back up to you. "Im-Im okay." He nodded trying to convince you.

"But I know I'm not a doctor, I'm a pussy, I put on a silly show

I should probably just shut up and do my job, so here I go"

"Cant you belive them!" He laughed to his camera. You scoffed at his comment but still kept an eye on him as he talked.

You didnt need to baby him at all, but right now you were worried about your lover.

Alex continued talking and talking, which you drowned out. You were focused on his face and how he faltered time to time just showing a small frown.

He laughed and showed them a good time even though he was hurting. He kept going and going and you were convinced he was going to hold out until you heard him sniff multiple times while trying to make a joke about the new Minecraft update and how the glow squid has no use.

"Stupid ass squid! Why- why? Its no use expect for glowing ink. Who voted for that!?"

You can tell them anything if you just make it funny, make it rhyme

And if they still don't understand you, then you run it one more time

"Dumbass squid!" He pulled up a picture if the squid as he yelled at it.

You began to worry even more as you saw tears running down his face. He quickly tried to wipe them away, but he knew everyone saw.

Handle this right

You don't even know the half of this right now

Right now (Haa!)

Now

Handle this right

I'll handle this right, I handle this right now

Alex leaned back in his seat and had a blank stare towards the monitor. Looked down for a second and then you heard sobbing coming from his spot. Alex had his head in his hands and was crying harshly into them.

He had finally broken, he couldn't stop the tears from coming and the loud sobs that came from his mouth. He was trying to desperately breathe in to be able to sob, but ended up hiccuping while doing so.

Your eyes widened as you rushed to him resting your hand on his knees and you kneeling infront of him.

"I cant do fu-fucking anything!" He yelled into his hands.

"Hey! I know. Its okay." You tried to console him.

"Its not I try so hard! And I-"

You cut him off. "You are a hard worker Alex and you deserve a week or two off. Take care of you self babe." You stood up bringing his hand with you and trying to make him stand up. He followed your movements and stood up with you putting his head on your shoulder crying into it.

"I just ca-cant right now!"

"You dont have to do anything right now babe."

"Im sorry!" Alex sobbed.

"Dont be." You said bluntly trying to get your lover to calm down.

You rubbed his back soothingly as he sniffled into your shoulder. "Im sorry for ruining your shirt." He tried to laugh through his tears.

"Dont be sorry! Please. You just need rest okay?" You kissed his forehead and he nodded in response.

Alex raised his head up an started to pepper kisses all over your face as you laughed. He gave you one last peck on the lips as he walked away to quickly change into night clothes. You smiled as he laid underneath the covers and continued to softly cry into his sheets. At least he was in bed and not makijg himself even worse.

He couldn't stop the tears from flowing, it was like a flood that could only be stopped with time. He felt like a boulder was lifted off his shoulders only to be replaced with smaller rocks. The smaller rocks was the guilt he held. He felt guilty of making his lover worry about him, he didnt want you to worry.

You rushed over to his desk and turned off the stream and his computers not even bothering to give them a goodnight or goodbye. After the computer lights were turned off it was quite dark in the room except for small light.

Finally you were where you wanted to be all day, in bed with Alex. But this wasnt the predicament you wanted.

"Forgive me. I just cant do shit right can I?" His eyes were still full of tears and he was getting tired.

"Alex dont listen to anyone but yourself." You tried to console him.

"That's what I'm telling myself."

Silence filled the room as you looked at him through tearful eyes of your own.

"Alex, you're so amazing and I cant even tell you how much I appreciate you, and how much you change my life. You do so much shit right its scary sometimes. Some days I think you're perfect, but there's-"

"There's no such thing as perfect." Alex finished your sentence.

"Exactly! Even the best people have their downfalls, they just dont show it. And Alex I know you struggle with that! All I can say is that I love you for you." You finished.

"Can I talk to you about my dilemmas?" He tried to laugh again.

"Tomorrow we can talk. We both need the rest." You said to him as he closed his eyes and nodded in response. He gave you a kiss on you lips before laying back down to sleep.

"Thank you."

"Thank you

Good night

I hope you're happy"

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[ticklish-n-stuff]

WonderlandsxShowtime tickle headcanons

This has been in the works for the longest time. I'm sorry if they're a mess aishaisjaisy

Hope you all enjoy either way~!

Tsukasa:

From the moment I read his profile I already knew he was gonna be a fave of mine, idk I guess I have a thing for loud and obnoxious characters aksjaisjakjs.

He's quite relatable. I'm typically more shy and quiet but when I get comfortable around someone I can get as loud as him LOL. And we both have a fear of insects haha... ;D

I just assumed WxS would be the comedic relief group, which it is, but the characters also deal with their own fair share of problems. Idk that just made me like them more as a whole, especially Tsukasa and Emu.

My fave cards of him are from the pop in my heart event, for starters I really like the outfit he comes with, plus the fact he made a 'lil girl cry with his awful english is just peak comedy to me (I feel like such an ass SKSKSKSKSJ).

DANCE!!! AND!!! SING!!!

I also really like his torpe card, I'm still sad I wasn't able to get it *sobs*. But atleast I got Rui's (he looks so hot cute in his 'lil fedora).

Ok so the actual tickle hcs, my man is a lee-leaning switch. He's a sad and lonely kid who's most likely attention starved, so pls GIVE HIM ALL THE TICKLES!!!

Dude is so so ticklish it's so funny and cute. Literally a single poke will get him shrieking. But his most ticklish spots are his tummy and feet, absolute killer. Idk in my brain cute character=ticklish tummy aksjlaajja.

His face will go beet red when tickled in those areas. His laugh will either be ear-shatteringly loud or silent and wheezy. When tickled in his tummy he will wrap his arms around it and curl up to try to protect himself it's so cuteeee~!!!! *squeals*.

But be careful when tickling his feet, he's an absolute kicker! Idk why but the image of Saki sneaking up on him while he's relaxing on the couch and she tickles his feet, and then Tsukasa loses his shit and accidentally kicks her and then gets all concerned and worried- *sobs* (but she's fine, he's just an overprotective bro).

The people who tickle him the most would be Rui, Emu, Saki, Toya and Akito! Like I mentioned in my VBS hcs (shameless plug), Akito likes to mess with Tsukasa...A LOT, and he loves doing so by tickling him ofc! And Toya likes to help him out however he can, including with comfort/cheer up tickles!

It should be a law at this point that siblings get into tickle fights (except me, im very touch starved SKAALSJAKSJ). So ofc Saki and Tsukasa have them all the time (Saki wins like 90% of them, she knows EXACTLY what to do to get her bro squealing LOL). She's also big on cheer up tickles whenever Tsukasa is having a bad day, even if he pretends that he's fine, Saki can easily see through his bs.

I feel like when they were both kids, Tsukasa would play those cutesy tickle games with Saki to cheer her up like this 'lil piggy and...whatever other games you can come up with (im not very knowledgable in this area LMAO). And as they got older, ofc Saki still has fond memories of those times and will do those tickle games on Tsukasa whenever he's moody. It absolutely flusters him cause 'he's not a kid', but Saki will still do it~!

Ok the idea literally just hit me, Tsukasa's thighs. One squeeze and he's a goner! Super ticklish there, pls someone save him from the menace also known as Rui SIAKSIAKSJ.

Speaking of Rui, he's like Tsukasa's #1 tickler. Absolutely loves all the goofy and silly reactions he makes when being tickled, it's like a drug for him aksjaljskahs. Will tickle him anywhere at anytime and has 0 shame. Knows exactly what flusters him and how to get him laughing all silly.

On the other hand, Emu is also addicted to Tsukasa's cute and goofy laughs akshaksjaksj. Will always tickle him when he least expects it. Will give surprise tickles to Tsukasa all the time, and somehow he always falls for it lol.

Poor Tsukasa is just everyone's choice for bullying with tickles LMAO

Ok I've talked enough about lee Tsukasa, but what about ler Tsukasa...👀

As a ler, he tries to make himself seem like this big scare ler, but in reality he's just a big softie lmao.

He loves making people smile so ofc he loves tickling others (as long as they're ok with it ofc).

Constantly checks in on his lee to make sure they're having fun and are comfortable. Will also give some good aftercare like cuddles and hugs.

He loves giving out comfort tickles/cheer up tickles to his friends and family whenever they need them.

His ego gets a bit inflated when tickling others and will relentlessly tease his lee, gotta take advantage while he's not in the receiving end of them aishalsjakdh.

His tickles are very soft and playful, like feathery touches that send ticklish shocks through your body aishaljdoshd.

His main lees are Saki, Toya, Rui, Emu and Nene.

He mainly tickles Emu and Rui out of revenge for all the torture he puts up with them. He occassionally tickles Nene when she's being a bit too sassy, or when she feels a bit nervous.

Lots of cheer up tickles for Saki and Toya.

As a lee he's very shy when it comes to asking for tickles (Rui loves abusing that fact), but as a ler he's not afraid to pounce and go to town!

Emu:

My fave pink menace 💖

My cousin and I are very big Emu fanatics SKAKSHAKSJ

I still can't get over the fact I couldn't get her smile of a dreamer card in en nor in the jp rerun (atleast I got Nene ;D). That card actually haunts my dreams.

It was also the smile of a dreamer event that pushed me to read the stories and learn more about the characters, so you have that to thank for me writing these fics.

Emu is a pure switch. She's very playful by nature so ofc she enjoys tickling others. Her main targets are Nene, Tsukasa and Honami (i'm not too sure who else she's close friends with). She also attempts to tickle Rui but he's too good at avoiding her, one day she'll get him tho!

She and Rui are like the resident tickle monsters

On some of the side stories I've seen her sneak up on Honami or tackle her in a hug, which causes her to squeal. Idk I just find that so cute (and the tickle potential like c'mon). I can imagine Emu surprising her by squeezing her sides. Or if Honami is looking a bit down she'll start poking her to try to cheer her up.

Loves to torment Tsukasa with tickles. Thinks his reactions are hilarious.

Same thing with Nene. When she found out that the greennette was ticklish she felt like she won the lotterry. Loves making her more serious friend have a good laugh. Will also tickle her when she's feeling down.

As a lee, Emu has a lot of stamina so she can handle being tickled for long periods of time. She also has 0 shame for her liking of tickling and will directly ask any of her friends for tickles. She will mainly go to Nene, Tsukasa or Rui.

She loves being chased, it makes her feel giddy for what's to come.

She's typically a cheerful person. But like imagine a sad Emu 'cause the sun is setting and the others just shower her in comfort/cheer up tickles. I can also imagine Honami giving her cheer up tickles. Like that time Emu was sad 'cause the park was under inspection I think, and just imagine Honami giving her soft tickles to help cheer her up.

Emu is one big tickle spot, I can't think of a specific spot that would be more or less ticklish akshaisjaosj

Ok but like imagine WxS having a sleepover and Emu is feeling too energetic so they all tickle her until she's fast asleep.

Going back to ler Emu, she has small fingers so she can easily get into any nook and cranny. Her tickles can be a bit on the rougher side, but still playful.

Nene:

My fave sassy 'lil diva 💚

Unrelated, but I love how in the game they all treat Robo-Nene as it's own person qksyqihsiqhs

She's not one to like being touched or touching others (atleast with people she's not too familiar with), besides all the years that Rui has tormented her with tickles SJAISJSISJS

Yo imagine 'lil Nene having enough of 'lil Rui always tickling her and one day has the idea to fight back and that's how she finds out just how ticklish the purple blob is SLAJAKAJSJS (will never let him live it down LMAO)

She's a switch. Will tickle Rui when he's a bit too cracked out (same thing with Emu, god forbid they get cracked out at the same time JSAJJSKHS).

Her tickles are soft but very fast (probably from all the videogames she plays aoshaishaj)

Will also tickle Tsukasa when his ego is a bit too inflated (or just to mess with him 'cause she felt like it lolol)

She can be quite the teasy ler (it's all that sass in her lol). But as a lee she's so shy it's so cute!

Gets so easily flustered when in a lee mood. Will refuse to ask directly for tickles till the day she dies (Rui also likes to abuse that).

Mainly gets tickled by Rui, Emu, and Tsukasa

If Rui and Emu ever gang up on her she will actually pass away akshaisjaksh

She's the complete opposite of Emu, has 0 stamina and can't handle being tickled for too long.

Prefers much softer tickles over the rougher stuff. Her partners always make sure that she's comfortable when being tickled.

She's a big squirmer, not afraid to throw a punch or a kick LOLOL. I can imagine Rui has random bruises from when they were kids aishisjlaaia

Rui:

Ok I know I've made it clear I'm a h*e for Akito, but Rui is fcking hot okay?! SKAAJAKAJAKJ

His torpe card is literally the sexiest thing ever (god I feel like such a degenerate LMAO)

And his voice is actually eargasmic SKAJAIAJSISJ

Ok I'll stop being a simp

Anyways, he's a pure switch. An actual menace when in a ler mood. His main victims are Tsukasa, Emu, Nene and Mizuki

He likes to tickle others when he's feeling all playful or just wants to mess with them. But he also sees it as a form of affection. He just enjoys making people smile and laugh.

He's been tormenting Nene with tickles since childhood (someone save her!). Poor Tsukasa is his main victim nowadays (rip). Rui and Emu constantly team up to torment the others, but he still gives her her fair share of tickles.

It doesn't happen as often, but I can imagine he and Mizuki would have playful tickle fights whenever they meet up at the rooftop.

Let's be real, Rui would use tickling as a form to get his way. Tsukasa won't let him send him into space?? Tickle him!

Rui's tickles can vary depending on who he's tickling. He can go from gentle to rough, depending on how much the lee can take. He's like a mind reader when it comes to figuring out his lees.

I don't think it's a surprise to anyone that Rui is a teasy 'lil shit. Absolutely loves to verbally tease the others (and is very good at it).

Now Rui as a lee, hoo boi... I think I've made it clear I'm a sucker for lee Rui akdhakdhaj

There's something about imagining this teasy bastard being a very shy lee that gives me all the good emotions LMAO

As a lee he's very different compared to when he's ler. Very shy and easily flustered, especially by verbal teasing (poor bby can't take what he dishes out).

He is very ticklish and will probably deny it till the day he dies.

He's not embarrassed necesarilly by his sensitivity, it's more because of his liking of tickling. He feels...vulnerable when showing that side of him, so he's very skeptical with who he chooses to share it with (let's be real, I'm just self projecting at this point. I do this a lot with Rui I'm sorry SJAKSHAISH). You can imagine his relief when the others didn't find him even more weird because of it, and even engage him in such activity.

Ok so he's pretty much ticklish in most places. His armpits and ribs being his death spots.

Ok but like I can imagine he'd be so flustered if his ler told him to keep his arms up (he'd still do it tho lolol).

Anyways, his neck and ears are very big giggle spots for him.

And I can't say this enough... HIS PALMS ARE SO TICKLISH!!! Like just softly stroke his palm and he's a goner. Gets very flustered when tickled there.

He mainly gets tickled by Tsukasa, Emu, Nene and Mizuki.

Like I said, he and Mizuki get into tickle fights.

When Tsukasa found out that this bastard was ticklish, his ego just skyrocketed LMAO. After enduring so much bullying from Rui, he can now give him a taste of his own medicine.

Like I mentioned previously, Nene tickles him when he's being too extra. And Emu just loves seeing the dude's reactions akshajsjajsh

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This thing has been in the making for the past like 10 years (or atleast it feels like it)

Also I'm sorry for making the Tsukasa part soo long KASJAKSJAJJD

[strawberrieas]

Hi I love your writing style and agree we are starved of Asura content so any Asura x y/n headcannons!!

DATING HEADCANONS // KISHIN ASURA

# GENRE. general

# RUNDOWN. my thoughts on what dating Asura would be like that no one (except for this lovely anon) asked for <3

# WARNINGS. not proof read, scratching at skin, mentions of killing but it’s the physical embodiment of fear and madness what did you expect <3

# NOTE. i was praying for someone to request something Asura related, love you for this anon❤️now everyone keep in mind that dating hot psychotic death gods is looked down upon and you should never do it because i’ll be insanely jealous

✁ First of all, what fucked up trauma did you have to go through to make you willing to date the fucking Kishin in the first place

✁ You either dig the whole “i can change him” stereotype, are into mentally deranged men, have a bondage kink, or just like him because he’s super hot

✁ Not that I’m judging since I fall into most of those categories

✁ You’re delusional if you think any relationship with this man wouldn’t be toxic and unhealthy, but im delusional too so let’s get into it

✁ It’s unlikely that you’d last a week just being around him before you lose your mind, and that’s assuming that you have the mental strength to withstand the amount of madness being inflicted on you by just standing next to him for longer than a minute, but for the sake of romance you’re different and it’s not a problem

✁ It’s a miracle that he didn’t end up killing you out of fear alone

✁ Props to you for managing to put up with him

✁ Dating Asura absolutely is not a walk in the park so please be prepared you will be put through hell

✁ Assuming you’re anything other than human since I doubt you’d last long enough for him to take interest in him with a short mortal life, you got together well before he was locked away

✁ If you were willing to be with him despite the fact that he was killing hundreds of thousands and even swallowed his own partner, then there’s a good chance that Lord Death threw you in a sack of your own skin too for fully supporting and encouraging Asura

✁ As he should you crazy bitch

✁ If he for some reason showed you mercy or you managed to get away and didn’t get locked up, then you’re the first person he thinks of going to the moment he’s freed

✁ Onto the actual relationship, you’d be entirely grateful that Asura wasn’t afraid of you enough to deem you as a threat and someone he needed to get rid of, meaning you were safe from him and had no reason to worry that he’d ever think to harm you

✁ Try not to think too much about the fact that his scarves are made from his own skin, because he definitely uses them a lot on you

✁ You’re sitting to far from him? He’s lifting you up using the scarves and setting you down beside him just because he likes it when you’re close

✁ You’re wandering too far off when it’s dangerous every once in a while? There’s a bandage wrapping around your wrist and dragging you back too him anytime you get too far for his liking

✁ There’s literally no escaping him. If the two of you are sleeping together and you try to get up for whatever reason, don’t be surprised if you feel yourself getting tied up and practically yanked back into bed with a pair of arms wrapping around you

✁ If you try to get him to let you go he’ll try to play it off and act like he’s asleep but you both know he’s wide awake and can hear every complaint from you demanding he let you go so that you can go to the bathroom

✁ Likes being held by you and resting his head on your chest, we all saw the way he was laid up with Arachne🤨

✁ You’re his personal pillow and frankly the only one he likes to use, get used to it

✁ The only time it’s reversed and he’s holding you is when he’s feeling possessive

✁ His mood shifts a lot and it’s extremely hard to keep up with his scrambled mind so trying to understand him is a task in and of itself

✁ Whenever he’s having moments where he’s spiraling into madness, scratching at his head and destroying anything that isn’t you within a 20 mile radius, completely in his own world, try to help bring him back down and regain his senses

✁ You’re probably the only person in the world that can pull him out of his own fear driven self inflicted attacks, which is most likely because you’re the only one who has the guts to approach him when he’s in that state and clearly not in his right mind

✁ A lot of normal relationship things are out of the question for the two of you for obvious reasons, so you make due with what you have

✁ Likes receiving affection from you more than he’d like to admit, but returns it in very strange ways, if at all

✁ Asura thinks things like wrapping you up and keeping you by his side at all times is a sweet gesture, after all you’re spending time together aren’t you??? Get used to you not having to walk because he’ll be carrying you (and by carrying you I mean wrapping you in a bandage and bringing you alone like a stray balloon) 24/7. It’s the thought that counts I guess.

✁ He bites. Not in a sexual way, not most of the time, anyway he just sinks his teeth into your flesh any time he’s near any exposed skin and doesn’t pull away until there’s a clean bite mark left behind. You’ve asked him many times why he does it and to fucking stop because it hurts like hell his jaw game is no joke but never get a direct answer from him.

✁ Whether that’s because he refuses to tell you or because he doesn’t actually have a reason for it, you’ll never know

✁ Isn’t against laying his head in your lap, whether it’s to have you play with his hair or for you to calm him down when he’s losing it, thrashing around and clawing at his own skin

✁ Asura is also a cynical bastard that will poke fun at you whenever he gets the chance, so get used to him teasing a lot

✁ In canon? Please run for the nearest exit and pray you make it in time because there’s no way you’d be able to withstand Asura

✁ I also feel compelled to add the fact that it is canon that Asura likes baggy clothing and wearing lots of it so stealing and wearing his clothes would be comfortable as hell

✁ He’ll get annoyed with you for taking his clothes since he prefers wearing as much as possible, but doesn’t complain too much since he also enjoys seeing you in his clothes that are almost always guaranteed to be way too big

✁ He doesn’t really need to sleep, but after you two get together he finds that he can’t sleep without you

✁ Asura is known for quite literally being afraid of everything, so he sees you being the one person he doesn’t fear as a good thing, now you’re somewhat of a safe zone and guardian

✁ You take care of the small things that he is afraid of, even when he’s more than capable of handling it himself. The occasional bug that would be seen crawling around, any type of wild animal you’d come across that’s too noisy for his liking, curious humans who are unlucky enough to stumble across the two of you and serve has not only a threat but a source of human souls. You name it, he’s afraid of it and you’re getting rid of it.

✁ Whatever you two have going on, it’s both dangerous and oddly secure for the both of you.