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If you or someone you know is struggling with an eating disorder, you are not alone.  

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[babydollmitsu]

AHHHHH UNDER 50

IM 49KG FEELS SO GOOD LIKE I STOPPED CALCULATING CALORIES AS I TRIED TO GET MY HEAD OUT OF THIS SPACE AND I'VE BEEN ACCIDENTALLY EATING LESS AND NOW IM UNDER 50KG!!!!! I love summer so much as I can just drink all my calories and if I'm drunk I dont need to eat!!!!

[ivehadthatdream]

Just a reminder that people only see you if you're not fat.

I definitely can tell I get treated differently when I'm at my heaviest vs when I was at my LW. It sucks but its true. If you're fat they can't see you. They just see a fat person, not the soul you are.

Every. Fucking. Day. I wanna rip myself apart for gaining all my weight back. I miss being at 220. Even tho 220 is still fat, people could at least see me. They treated me so much better then, vs now with me being 290 *yes I've gained even more weight :(((((*

I want to crawl out of my skin. I hate myself.

[perfect-little-mess]

yoooooo I’m able to see my ribs again when I arch/twist my body 😌😌

⭐️🌸🩷

[mmrrow]

one thing abt me is i will always eventually log back into tumblr when things get bad

[just-another-dani]

Lmao

[skinnyclue]

Okay y'all, genuinely asking for some consensus here. I know I could probs get backlash for this kinda thing so the poll is below the break.

Tw: ED shit

I am currently going through some medical stuff that means I'm probably gonna go into menopause before 30. Shitty I know, that will come with challenges. HOWEVER, I'm here bc I am having to try for my last baby NOW if I want one more (which I and my husband both do want another), before I'm infertile

In my previous pregnancies I've read that trying to lose weight as an obese pregnant person is not looked down on and even recommended in some medical communities. I would want to move at a healthier rate than Ana typically allows me, maybe 2,000 to 2,250 cals a day. But I would probably still use edblr and I just wanna be sure I'm not gonna get shat on

[witch-of-thorns]

Nature Grunge Thinspo 💚

[callmeskinny-butitsnotenough]

good morning from me and my favorite mug

[lizzie-mcguire-04]

Current Breakfast Fixation - 300 cal

1 slice whole wheat bread, toasted - 120 cal

1 hard boiled egg with 1/2 Tbs mayo, mustard, and seasonings of your choice (I used garlic and paprika) - 140

Fruit - 40 cal

[mindlesswonders]

I don't want anyone to know that I have an ED until I am skinny!! I DON'T NEED HELP!! I NEED TO BE SKINNY!!

[blond-b]

None of my clothes fit anymore 😭

None of my clothes fit anymore 🤭🥰

[ivehadthatdream]

Anyone on here who is not a child? Like 20+? I felt weird enough still having ED tendencies still at 19 and being on here, but wow, now I'm 22. I know EDs don't have age requirements, so anyone else out there who is a similar age, and ESPECIALLY if you're someone who is plus sized eating disordered, and have yo-yoed the same 50 pounds back and forth, like this so we can follow each other. Definitely 18 and older though please ❤️

[mydisorderedassfoodblog]

Lost 2.4 pounds yesterday.

Made 4 days of this chicken bowl. 220 cal total. To be clear I’m not posting these recipes so others follow. I’m posting so I can come back later and not have to re calculate everything.

Chicken 112 grams 120

Corn 62grams 35

Beans 47 grams 45

Salsa 10

Seasoning 10

Total 220

[beetlebumeffect]

hi everyone

i might be writing this for no one to read, and it’s for no one in particular, just gonna share some things

i’ve had this tumblr for at least 6 years and it’s been an on and off relationship, mainly cause I don’t use tumblr anymore, but also because i’ve been up and down in terms of my eating habits.

life has been better since my last food rant 3 years ago. i have gained more weight, 14 kg more from my last weight in here to be exact. i’ve also gained love, a job where im appreciated, some friends that support me and love me, my own independence (i live alone now!) and my own freedom. while all of this was happening I stopped worrying about what I looked like, I actually learned to find beauty in the way I looked. when you have people around you telling you you’re beautiful all the time you start to believe it.

recently I haven’t felt so beautiful tho. i’ve felt the weight (no pun intended) of all these years in the way I looked. i’ve had some instances where i was reminded how bigger i actually got and I won’t lie, I fell into bad habits of starving to maybe, somehow, fall back into the same pattern. this did not work. i’m not the same person I was when I was at my lowest weight, because I was at my lowest emotionally too. I was 16 and depressed. I always had problems with food, unrelated to weight, so that point was just what broke the camels back. i’m 24 years old now. i’m an adult. I have a job, a boyfriend, a friend group. I have an actual life. I don’t want to spend it starving anymore.

thats why I decided to do things the right way. I’ve been having two meals a day, eating below 1000 calories daily. I eat everything I like just in smaller quantities, or replace things i used to love for things that are healthier but give me the feeling of still enjoying what i like. i’ve also been more active. i work from home so big portion of the weight i gained was from eating poorly and not moving at all during the week. so i’ve bought a bike that i use everyday and i take walks every week, at least 2/3 times a week. i started about 3 weeks ago. so far I lost 2,5 kg. i’m working towards losing 28 by the end of the year but there’s no rush. i wanted to change my habits rather than just feel like im on a diet everyday. i’m trying to heal my concept of food, my relationship with it. it’s hard sometimes when i just want to have more or just want to eat something that i know is full of calories. but i work around it. learning to eat mindfully and not because i Want to eat is what’s been helping a lot. I’m also fasting for about 18 hours a day. I have an eating window of 6 hours but I don’t eat snacks or breakfast. it’s been working well so far, but if im hungry after a meal I’ll definitely have a banana or something lol, even if its considered a snack. i’m trying to not be too strict with myself, still making calorie efficient choices but not punishing myself if i have a bit of cake at a birthday party. its hard for me, but im getting there.

anyway this turned out to be a big ramble, i guess what i want to share in here and the reason why i wanted to post it is because sometimes all you need is one person to love you right, to love you the way you deserve. someone to change your perspective on you, to show you how great you are and that you’re more than what your head tells you. i wish and pray for everyone to find that person, whoever it is, a friend, a lover, a family member. we all deserve that love and connection, it is healing, freeing.

i will try i to come in here from time to time and update or try and keep this semi active. I like having a place where im no one and i can just share my thoughts freely.

if someone actually read all of this, thank you! i hope you wish me luck on my journey and I wish you all the best on yours, wherever you are in it.

[just-another-dani]

Some of the things that I do when I feel that I'm going to binge:

1. Chew gum for like an hour (My personal favs are watermelon and blueberry)

2. Go on long walks

3. Watch other skinny girls so I can imagine myself as one of them

4. Listen to ed music

Here are them:

(this playlist is not mine and saddly I don't remember who Made it :ccc )

5. Vape or smoke

6. Sleep (sometimes this won't work because I'm very anxious so yeah)

7. I know some people recomend drinking water when that urge appears but personally that doesn't work for me :/

8. Go on stores just to get unbored

Algunas de las cosas que hago cuando siento la necesidad de un atracón

1. Masticar chicle por 1 hora o hasta que pierda su sabor (los que más me gustan son los de sabor a sandia y a mora azul)

2. Hacer caminatas largas

3. Ver otras chicas que sean delgadas para así motivarme a mi mismo

4. Escuchar música que toque temas de desórdenes alimenticios o me recuerden a ellos (las canciones ya están arriba)

5. Vapear o fumar

6. Dormir (aunque a veces esto no me funciona si ando con mucha ansiedad por comer)

7. Se que algunas personas recomiendan tomar agua pero personalmente eso me hace sentir más de la mierda así que solo lo coloco acá por si alguien esta buscando consejos y cree que esto le va a funcionar

8. Ir a tiendas a desaburrirme viendo cosas bonitas