#my own brain 👍🏻

[expectiations]

The Husbands of River Song is not and has never been about the Eleventh Doctor being a deadbeat, distant husband (gross mischaracterization by the way) and the Twelfth Doctor being the "better, more mature, affectionate" husband.

It was about River Song. It was about River and how the events in Manhattan took such a toll on her. It was about letting us see River dealing with grief the way The Snowmen showed us how the Doctor coped after losing believing he had used up all his time with River.

Looking at THORS now with The Ruby's Curse in mind, I get the instinct (for lack of a word that I cannot remember) that the Manhattan incident Blue Roach read from River's diary was not the Manhattan episode that we saw in series 7.

On that note, I'd also like to bring up the fact that the Doctor grounds River and River grounds the Doctor. As Tree talked about in one of her tags, River's empathy is more cognitive than emotional and after musing on it for a bit – considering that the Doctor can no longer go to Manhattan (which may have changed in later series but I wouldn't know at the moment because I have yet to overcome series 7b) and that River does spend time with her parents in Manhattan post-TATM, would the latest Manhattan incident in River's diary be the funeral for Amy? Amy's death? Perhaps even Anthony's? I mean, we already know Rory died five years earlier than Amy. So, knowing how deep River's love for her mother is, it's not too farfetched to say that River spent that time with them. River was by their bedsides as they drew their last breath.

Then Rory's gone, Amy's gone, Anthony's gone. Where does that leave River? Where is the Doctor? (sulking on a cloud on top of Victorian London? trying to figure out the mystery of his newest companion? all while constantly mentioning a certain Professor Song who actually turns out to be his dearly sort of departed absolutely beloved wife?)

Without her parents (and her husband) to ground her, she goes on this maddened, grieving space Robin Hood spree. She seeks fun to fill in the void and takes up marriage as a hobby/side quest. Does she look for the Doctor? Perhaps. Yes, actually. Considering she crashed her latest sort-of-husband's ship onto a planet where she purported the TARDIS to be.

But... she's stealing the TARDIS. She could have just called the Doctor, yeah? So, she doesn't want the Doctor to know then. Well... yeah, considering she has two sort-of-husbands in hand.

So, River would just have gone on from one space Robin Hood spree to the next had the TARDIS not sort-of-stranded herself on Mendorax Dellora to make sure her Water stopped being stubborn and reconcile(?) with her Thief?

Also taking note of how River has read stories about them and knows that Darillium is purported to be their last night together (I could also bring up the fact that this is why I find it easy to digest the "River meeting regenerations of the Doctor younger than the Tenth Doctor makes sense and doesn't break cannon nor ruin SITL/FOTD" but that would take a whole other post). Does this River believe her time with the Eleventh Doctor has ended? The same way series 7b Eleven believed his time with older versions of River has ended? Is this all part of some grand fuckup in communication all thanks to their tangled timelines?

Maybe. Maybe not.

But has River not just been running from her family's death? Has River been running from her supposed last night with the Doctor?

"But River doesn't run." Oh yes. Yes, she does. She knows when to stand her ground. She knows when to charge. And she knows when to run.

"That's out of character for her." No, it's not. She's not invincible. She's this well trained assassin, yes. But invincible? No.

Invincible from the tendency to be blinded by their emotions? Obviously not.

River lies. And River runs.

She is not afraid of her death. She is afraid of the day when her husband, her Doctor, looks into her eyes and looks right through her. And it shouldn't kill her but it does. It did.

So she ran and ran until her bigger-on-the-inside Mum gently reached out and put her back together with the only person left who could ground her. Who she didn't recognize at first but still fell in love with (and would have loved even if he hadn't been revealed to be her actual, long missing husband). Who finally found out their last night wasn't just any night – it was a twenty-four year long last night. Who finally gave her a breather from all the running she'd been doing.

And oh what a night that was (it was the talk of the universe).

[shirogane-oushirou]

hi, i had a dream that my family and i were on vacation and i met a guy who wasn't ren but looked almost exactly like him. he was a linguist and very, very cute. we were immediately flirty, and when my family was being My Family, i'd go over to his place and we'd parallel play read together. i woke up before we could actually kiss (my family kept interrupting), but we were otherwise very affectionate. at one point i fell asleep against his shoulder and he shifted so it'd be more comfy + so he could hold me closer aughhghghh he was so nice to lean against. anyway. feeling normal about him rn.

[gregmarriage]

it’s so hard being a lesbian, bc it’s in our nature to bring out the u-haul immediately, but also, i have a really bad habit of rushing things in an unhealthy way, and losing myself. so now i’m trying to take things slow with ppl (it’s…difficult 🙂)

[sunnnfish]

Okay OKAY I wasn’t gonna propagandize the summer hikaru died but ive been thinking a little too much about it. SORRY I’ve been basically recommending a hundred different series. If you think my posts are all over the place you should see my brain. Anyways.

The THING about the summer hikaru died. The many things about it. That are getting to me. Number one the overwhelming feeling of SUMMER. Almost every page has the sound effects of cicadas or rain and sweat on everyone’s bodies. It’s so immersive, to me at least. It’s like it never lets you forget. A constant droning it feels like everyone has to speak a little louder to be heard. Something oppressive lives here, and it’s not just the eldritch horrors.

Number TWO. Grief. But in like that horror way. Mourning somebody no one else knows is gone. I’m just gonna say it bc it’s revealed in like the first 5 pages it’s body replacement. Some.. thing replaces the main characters best friend and it’s like. The twisting feeling in your gut looking at something that you should know but knowing it’s not the same anymore. It’s someone else. Look at this page I can’t stop thinking about it

[ID: A panel from Hikaru ga Shinda Natsu. Yoshiki sits with his head on his desk, drawn so his face and body are streaking down the page in smears of black. Around him float black text bubbles with scratchy text saying "To move on." Then he lifts his head with a gasp when someone exclaims, "Finally! There you are!" End ID]

That’s fucking GRIEF a sinking terrible grief. That nobody in their right mind could understand. But it’s also like. Christ it’s the mitsuba sousuke tbhk dilemma it’s that this new thing is it’s own person too. They aren’t the same but it’s damn near impossible to separate them because they look the same and act the same and desperately want to be the same. They want to be alive.

THREE. Cannot forget the queerness. The queer allegories and actual queerness are intense. Grotesqueness and horror at being different. Feeling like you know something is bad but you can’t help but enjoy it. Gut wrenching desire mixed in with every complicated feeling about losing your best friend while something pilots his body almost perfectly. It’s very fucked up. ALSO. Fear at being found out. Self hatred for being grotesque and different and not what everyone wants. Not what he wants.

Anyways uuuhhhh.yeah the summer hikaru died is fascinating to me. I love the feeling of it. Gives me chills. It’s cool 👍🏻 ALSO THE ART IS SO. GOOD. Haunting. I love it.

[its-short-for-jackalope]

🗣 DELLA WHERE'D YOUR HAIR GO?!??!

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reblogs = 🥰 / reposts = 😡

ohhhhh man. So the entirety of VHSCC has its grip on me, but especially this part of the show (Panic Attack: The Song, my beloved <3) and what started as a mindless sketch got my brain going and here we are 19 hours later, lol.

also Della and Jim now own a solid 80% of my heart??? I will absolutely be making more art of both of them and that is a threat.

if tumblr likes me today, there'll be an alternate version & close-ups under the cut! 😎👉🏻👉🏻

I spent so much time on the clothes patterns so please appreciate them lmao 🥲👍🏻

[xxsycamore]

👻🕸️🦇 IKEVAMP SUITORS IN A HORROR-MOVIE SETTING ! 🦇🕸️👻 (headcanons)

Happy Halloween! Yes, this includes all 17 suitors. I'm no expert on the genre but I thought this might be fun! Some of them die. I'm sorry. Warnings: everything that can appear in a horror movie really, including mentions of death, mass murder, blood, gore, torture, cults.

If you feel like reading something more goofy where everyone lives, try Pumpkin Carving Competition At Saint Germain’s Mansion or maybe even “Welcome to Saint Germain’s mansion, please have a fang-tastic night.” 

𝐍𝐀𝐏𝐎𝐋𝐄𝐎𝐍

The "okay guys, we need a plan" guy and welp, he has a sword, he is willing to walk in front, why not trust him? 👍🏻✨He's totally the one to hide being infected because come on, how are they gonna get out of there alive if the leader is down? Has a dramatic scene where he's fighting off the transformation in secret. Ends up being saved by someone and survives.

𝐋𝐄𝐎𝐍𝐀𝐑𝐃𝐎

Leonardo is the one you find along the journey, mistaking for an enemy at first as you get into his trap... when it actually turns out he's been there long before you, surviving all alone in this post-apocalyptic setting, adapted to it, prepared for every danger out there with gadgets he made himself! He might not stay alive until the end but plays a key role in the plot.

𝐌𝐎𝐙𝐀𝐑𝐓

He tried to warn them not to do anything stupid... He's now stuck suffering from the group's bad decision-making. He doesn't even know how he ended up there. Mozart is that one character that you're supposed to hate for being an asshole. At one point he falls in danger that specifically relates to a fear of his, and when everyone expects him to sacrifice another person to save himself, he does the opposite. He seemingly dies right there, breaking everyone's hearts, only to be revealed at the very end that he managed to survive!

𝐈𝐒𝐀𝐀𝐂 (credits for the idea goes to @scummy-writes guys she can write a whole fic of those I swear,, it's been such a pleasure listening to her)

Isaac needs to be saved five minutes into the movie... which writes him off as the weaker one from the get-go. This is going to be bad if the situation comes to "we gotta leave someone behind or we all die here!" - but hey, DON'T LEAVE ISAAC BEHIND IF YOU WANT TO SURVIVE! Because the next thing you know everyone falls into this deadly trap that only HE can figure the way out of, using his big brain skills. His worth has been proved! Everyone loves him now! And all he wants is to go back home and never go on a trip with these guys ever again!

𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐇𝐔𝐑

I'm sorry, Arthur dies first. The others are trying to warn him about the cases of victims who've been sucked to a dry husk and he's like "later virgins, i have a date tonight". Yeah his date totally killed him. Bonus points if we're dealing with vampires here, because irony. It's fine though, he's still important to the plot after he dies, because we find his writing diary and he left important cues there while trying to escape from his killer. Maybe he even came close to the truth! He knows his mystery genre stuff after all...

𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐎𝐃𝐎𝐑𝐔𝐒

Theo just does NOT believe paranormal exists, not even after witnessing it with his own two eyes. Worst part, he tries to convince the others too. "My broer IS NOT POSSESSED!" Uhuh! Okay Theo! You just saw cryptic images appear on his canvas without him even moving the brush but I guess he was just trying a new painting technique!! And he levitates too and his eyes are tar black but what do we know... Once Theo realizes the situation, he's out there swinging a bat (sexy), ready to beat the shit out of whatever caused this, and he's good at it. Don't worry about him dying.

𝐕𝐈𝐍𝐂𝐄𝐍𝐓

Poor baby Vincent is every sinister ghost/demon's number-one target. Vincent listens to the voices. He sympathizes with them! He makes friends with them! Maybe he doesn't even need to be possessed at this rate... Same story with joining a cult, honestly. When their bad intentions begin to come to light, Vincent puts up a fight and is suddenly not as easy to control as they thought.

𝐉𝐄𝐀𝐍

Jean might take some bullets from our main cast while someone shouts "IT WON'T DIE!" but it's fine he's used to it... he's been dead for quite some time and not just inside. Jean is probably the result of some sick experiment about making an immortal army of warriors and. It's sad. But it's fine because he joins the protagonists now! He's friend! I hope they apologize for calling him a monster. No, he doesn't die by the end of the movie, but at what cost?

𝐃𝐀𝐙𝐀𝐈

"Oh, it was just Dazai." Of course it was, someone has to be that one idiot that scares the shit out of everyone until he becomes the boy who cried wolf. Which usually ends with death! I'm sorry Dazai. At least they can take him seriously now and pay some more attention to the strange things he kept on saying.

𝐒𝐇𝐀𝐊𝐄𝐒𝐏𝐄𝐀𝐑𝐄

A very old-school villain! Bonus points if the setting is modern yet he still has a villain's lair and all that. There's something beautiful and tragic about him and he probably dramatically lets himself be defeated even if he had a chance to escape. Everyone will remember him. Mostly for the mental and physical torture, but still.

𝐂𝐎𝐌𝐓𝐄

"But we have one hour left until the curse kills us all, how are we gonna get there on time?!" *sounds of safari jeep pulling over* "Someone ordered a ride?" - yeah. Comte is here to save the day with the power of money friendship. And not just that! Who is the one who suddenly remembers a family heirloom that is as old as time and suspiciously shaped exactly like the key they're searching for? I also want him to lose an eye or a limb for some reason... just for a little touch of gore maybe?

𝐒𝐄𝐁𝐀𝐒𝐓𝐈𝐀𝐍

Gods, Sebastian is the only prepared one, bless him for that. He's read all about that urban legend while everyone's been busy denying its existence. He is not scared at all, too... you might wonder if he's just geeking out during all of this bloody mess or something. He's so important, please don't let him die please don't let him die... he died.

𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐋𝐄𝐒

The villain's aide that infiltrates the protagonists' group. By the time his betrayal scene happens and he nearly kills three members of the group with a chainsaw, we get a glimpse of his trauma and that's the key to sucessfully talking him out of doing it, eventually disarming him and catching him. He manages to escape and maybe later returns as an ally! Yay!

𝐅𝐀𝐔𝐒𝐓

Gods he's scary. I'm not watching this. Of course he's the killer, what did you expect? Has a tragic backstory of being used by an even more fucked-up killer in the past to do the dirty work for - and kept doing it even after getting rid of them himself, because that's the only thing he knows how to do. You can't fix him.

𝐕𝐋𝐀𝐃

IT'S HIMMM he's the scary little boy from the photos and the same scary little boy that always shows up in the rose garden and his soul just won't rest in peace!! Shows up in his adult form plenty too, just expect his expression to twist into something horrible every second. He needs to be sealed forever somewhere and it would take three sequels to get to know what would actually defeat him once and for all.

𝐃𝐑𝐀𝐊𝐄

... I'm sorry but there definitely is a lighthouse in this movie. And you can totally trust Drake! The poor guy's body just washed up for you to discover, tragically drowned-oh, wait no, he's breathing. He's totally not the same sailor who died around here many, many years ago. He's gonna keep you good company in the lighthouse alone for miles.

𝐆𝐀𝐋𝐈𝐋𝐄𝐎

Galileo is the one who saw the Thing™ with his own eyes, while he was watching the stars one night ages ago. He dedicated not only his massive research but also his life to this, yet noone believes him. If he somehow manages to find that one missing piece that connects everything together, he will die a horrifying death before he can even share it with the main cast. Rip...

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[brendaareiss]

GIVE ME MORE HEADCANONS AND MY LIFE IS UOURS.

MORE 🔥

- Andre's fav drink is probably beer, while Cal's is powerade

-Cal is the type of guy to whenever Andre tells him to shut up or to stop doing anything, Cal would be like: "why" "whyy" "ok but why"

- Cal's normal order at McDonald's is a happy meal

-Cal is a masochist 🙏

-Cal would probably force Andre to wake up at 3 am because he's starving and he doesn't know how to cook

-they would DEFINITELY watch snuff movies together

-they would be clingy in their own ways. Andre in the hugs from behind, having Cal's head resting on his shoulder or chest, playing with Cal's hair way, Cal in the "I WANNA LIVE INSIDE OF HIS SKIN" way

- Cal's the bottom, Andre's the top (NO-ONE COULD EVER CHANGE MY OPINION ABOUT THAT.)

-in prom night, right when Cal ditches Rachel to go meet Andre (to do the tape) Cal's wearing one of Andre's shirt

- Andre's the one who actually made the plan, Cal was the mosquito on his ear going: "pew pew, blood, death, destruction, guns, boom, big boom, brains, knifes, blood, blood, blood, did I mention blood? Blood, blood"

- Cal's the one who would be into weird edgy and gory stuff, while Andre mostly takes inspiration from war, Cal takes inspiration in weird books, comics, movies...

- Cal's favourite superhero is spiderman, Andre's wolverine

-They would both enjoy the other's music taste (like, they are so similar, why wouldn't they be similar in the kind of music that they like???)

-The hangout house is Andre's, they rarely hang out in Cal's because of his siblings

- When Andre's like, REALLY mad, he would start stuttering like crazy, trying not to scream his lungs off because Cal hates when people scream (Cal would make fun of his stuttering, Andre would end up exploding and finally screaming at him)

- Andre's the type of guy to hate a person so fucking much that only hearing his/her name would make his head hurt

-Andre is more of a nerd that he would like to admit

- Andre explaining maths and science to Cal, and Cal like this: 🙂👍🏻 (not understanding a single word.)

-Cal would have a crush on the most horrendous and horrific beings in fiction

I FEEL LIKE THERE'S NOT ENOUGH 😭😭

[studentbyday]

{ 30.10.24 } · { 50 days of routine } · { day 1 }

actually got out of bed at 7:30 though i woke up at least half an hour before... but i slept at midnight last night (need to schedule proper wind-down time), so i was very sleepy and felt awful all around

*struggling through immunology discussion post due today*

i napped later in the morning for an hour and that's when my two mushrooms died bc I didn't wanna be tempted to use my phone when i intended to nap but the other timer i set to wake me up (in case the forest ding didn't wake me up) went off slightly before the forest timer was up and...well, they're dead now. it was a good nap tho and it gave me the energy i needed to go on with the rest of my day

worked on pathology group asst (not scheduled for today but...i did it anyway bc i felt compelled to, not sure if that was a good idea in hindsight...)

sort of reviewed for the microbio quiz but it was half-assed bc i was impatient and then i just did the quiz anyway...it was more stressful than it needed to be bc of my poor memory and i felt bad about that... we'll see if i actually was able to find the right answers in the end when the answers are released...

continued struggling through that immunology discussion post but we made it in the end (i mean, we had to)

walk and read (maybe 30 mins? started reading about cbt and working through the workbook and i like how it seems to be almost exactly like physio appts but for my brain...sometimes i try to work through my issues on my own through word-vomit journaling, but increasingly it's getting difficult to even know where to begin and how to move forward when it both really matters and i'm so tired and clueless and don't wanna give up, so having someone help you make a sane roadmap that aligns with your own goals is nice 👍🏻 there were some reflection activities in the workbook which i filled out too...)

might actually end a little later tn (goodbye proper wind-down time that i was supposed to have, but hopefully making significant progress on my schoolwork + the journaling i did as part of the cbt workbook will have helped satisfy the part of me that usually resists going to sleep immediately) because i have to finish (or get as close to finishing) a microbiology assignment due tmr morning (not first thing, thank God...i don't even remember how i got to be so late with this...gah so many things happening and the non-urgent stuff gets pushed later and later until woops the deadline is tmr!!! 😣😮‍💨) (update: i'm maybe halfway??? luckily it's just a first draft we need to be sending but omfg do i have my work cut out for me tmr morning 😭 icandothisicandothisihaveto)

[jade-green-butterfly]

After watching Dawko's Indigo Park playthrough (and a few others) I found myself hooked on the newest mascot horror game, thanks to a certain adorable raccoon...🦝🤭 I am of course, not really an AI fan HOWEVER...this cutie, I can make an exception~😌Especially with such a catchy theme song from Chapter 1, great fanart and an adorable limited edition plush (which I pre-ordered recently)😚🎶 So much so, that I found myself having Rambley brain-rot and created a sona for the growing fandom, with a cute 80's cartoon vibe~🌈📺I was even inspired to draw Rambley himself and I am SO chuffed with how he turned out for my first attempt!✨😁 I can see myself as a new resident of Indigo Park's hometown/city and hearing so much about this once-popular yet now-rundown amusement park (let alone getting a Rambley plush as an early surprise birthday present) it sparks my curiosity, and I decide to check out the place for myself...only to become the own 'attraction' to the main mascot's eye...~👀 I also included a darling stream doodle I requested of Rambley and me, drawn by none other than the awesome, @gloryraiin🫂😊Thank-you ever so much, buddy - I absolutely LOVE it so~!🥰💖💖😍I hope you all like too, I will draw more in the future~👍🏻😉Enjoy!🫶🏻💕xoxo.

*~Reblogs are also deeply appreciated as well, so please do reblog as well as like! Thank-you kindly!~*

Rambley The Raccoon (c) Indigo Park/UniqueGeese

Indigo Park-sona (c) @jade-green-butterfly (Me~!)

Stream Doodle Request (c) @gloryraiin💜

[xcarlet1211]

Hi there! Big fan of your Showtime Colleagues AU, I can’t wait to see where it goes! :) Do you mind others making content based on your AU? I’ve got my own colleagues/office AU in the works, but your concept of Caine being in the art department is so galaxy-brained and I want to write about it lol. (Totally fine if you’d prefer me not to, I just wanted to check beforehand 😊👍🏻)

Hi, I'm so glad you liked my AU!!!

Well is that I'm new to this, if you wish you can do it and you are free to credit me if you wish anon.

Regarding Caine I will share my idea: If he is the one in charge of adventures, knowing the world and appearing things, what better than making him an artist who creates his world? Caine would come to be (in my Au) an artist/animator passionate about his work and what he does.

Once again I'm glad you like my Au, I look forward to seeing your ideas!

[steddieas-shegoes]

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for @steddiemicrofic's prompt 'suck' (the 2nd of 8000 at this rate) wc: 480 rated: M cw: finger-sucking in a nonsexual way tags: idiots in love, getting together, fluff, first kiss

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Steve falling asleep in Eddie’s arms or on his lap wasn’t out of the ordinary, not anymore, not since they figured out that spending their nights together kept the nightmares at bay most of the time.

But waking up with Eddie’s thumb in his mouth? That was new.

Steve didn’t panic, though his brain was wide awake within seconds, eyes wide as he took in Eddie’s sleeping form.

Steve’s head was in his lap, where he’d fallen at some point during the second movie they were watching the night before, face turned towards his stomach.

Eddie had a hand in his hair, fingers tangled up in the ends with a soft grip, and his other hand was cupping Steve’s cheek.

His thumb was in Steve’s mouth.

Eddie’s head was tilted back against the couch, eyes closed, lips slightly parted as he breathed slowly.

His thumb was still in Steve’s mouth.

Steve should remove it, take his hand gently in his own and pull it out of his mouth, maybe dry it off with his own t-shirt as a silent apology for getting him messy.

But he didn’t want to.

Eddie’s thumb was comforting, just enough weight on his tongue and against his lips to make Steve feel right.

He exhaled through his nose and let his eyes close again.

“Stevie?” Eddie’s sleep-rough voice whispered.

Steve could pretend to be asleep, Eddie wouldn’t know.

But Eddie’s gasp when he realized that Steve had his thumb in his mouth was all Steve needed to open his eyes and blink up at him.

Steve made a small noise, just an acknowledgment that he heard Eddie and was waiting for him to react in some way.

Instead of saying anything, Eddie smiled fondly at him. His fingers in Steve’s hair started stroking through the ends, lazily tugging through some of the tangles.

Steve let his eyes close again, smiling around Eddie’s thumb as he fully relaxed again.

They stayed like that for a few minutes, the only sound the static of the TV.

Eddie’s lips against Steve’s forehead broke him out of his borderline unconsciousness.

He smiled, reached up to tug Eddie’s thumb out of his mouth, placed a kiss on the tip.

“You missed,” he said, his voice quiet.

He should be nervous. He should be worried that Eddie will suddenly decide this was too weird, that Steve is too weird.

But he isn’t.

“I did?” Eddie’s brows furrowed, confusion on his face.

“My lips are further down.”

Eddie’s eyes glanced down at them for a moment, then back at Steve’s eyes.

“They were busy,” Eddie argued.

“They aren’t now,” Steve argued back.

“They will be.”

Eddie’s lips lightly brushed his, softer than Steve pictured their first kiss, or any kiss between them, being.

His tongue darted out to lick along Steve’s bottom lip.

When Eddie pulled away, Steve kissed his thumb again.

[an-albino-pinetree]

Content warning for dark subject matter/thoughts, and talk/spoilers about the 4th TADC episode-

I’m gonna start this off, by saying I’m fine now, and you guys don’t need to worry

But I was dealing with suicidal thoughts and urges, days before, and leading up to, this episode launch. Self harm is something I’ve struggled with my entire life, and I’ve had the odd irrational thought. But the true ideation, and vidid picturing of it was very new, and very scary.

Like I said, we’ve somewhat gotten to the bottom of what was causing them, and I’ve got a support system 👍🏻

But it was definitely linked to how I’ve been feeling about my life, and my job, in the service industry, that I’ve been pushing through in, for almost 3 years. It doesn’t feel like a valid sob story, but it’s mine.

Anyways- Gangle’s breaking point, in this, hit way too close to home, for what I’ve been dealing with. Even the character expressions, just hit differently (so, really well done). Upon watching the episode a few more times, it’s more clear Gangle didn’t mean to jump in front of that truck- but that was not my first impression, and it really made we concerned about my own brain, where I’m at, and why I went “there” instead of an accident.

[perplexingluciddreams]

Today I spent much time editing AAC! The main thing I did is, make all top bar navigation/action buttons have only picture, no text label.

[Image description: a picture taken of the screen of an AAC device. It shows Supercore 50. The top bar has five navy blue buttons and a white speech bar. There is two buttons to the left of the bar, and three to the right. In order, they are: magic wand, jump back, speech bar, speak, delete word, clear. None of the navy blue buttons have a text label, only a white symbol. End ID.]

The symbol is easier to process on its own for me. Faster and less overwhelming, already reduces amount of words on the screen that my eyes dart between. My brain is determined to read every word that it possibly can, even if the meaning is not processed at all (which it often isn't).

So having a label on "action buttons" like this, means I struggle to connect the words on the button with the actual action it does. So then I press things I don't mean to, and it increases motor impulses (like pressing automatically buttons I don't want/mean to press). Simply because I see words and brain goes "Words! I know what those words look and sound like!! Press words!".

The lack of labels will make it less distracting and give a better distinction between "writing buttons" and "action buttons".

I had to go into EVERY folder and copy-paste the same top bar into each one. There is even three different variations on the top bar (one for home page only, one for self-closing grids, one for non-self-closing grids). The only difference is whether the button in top left corner is: magic wand, jump home, stay here. There is so so many folders and sub-folders in Supercore! So much time editing. But so worth it!

I think I might remove button labels from other places (like folders I frequently open by accident/impulse). It seems to help 👍🏻. Very glad I figured this trick out!

I did some few other things, so if anyone wants to see (specific pages or in general), just ask!

[secularprolifeconspectus]

I’m the same OP who has congenital disability. The pain and trauma I’ve endured through my life don’t make any sense to me. I think my brain is literally damaged from complex trauma and all the medical procedures, now as result I have multiple mental illnesses along with neurodevelopmental disorders, and I’m extremely tired and angry. It seems like you don’t understand me to the core, maybe our disabilities are too different or it’s double empathy issue. I’ve dreamed about having my own kids since I was a girl, I love babies, but no way I will give them my genes and make them suffer like I do. Because IM NOT SELFISH.

Trust me, yes, I’d still choose to be aborted in womb, as I’d most likely didn’t feel anything and remembered anything, even if it’s cruel. Bringing a child to the world that will never be really happy and normal - it’s egotistical, period. And I’m not talking as an eugenic fanatic, I’m talking from my own experience, that NOT being born is NOTHING compared to things that kids with severe disabilities experience. For me, abortion is a mercy. Think about those DISABLED kids, not their parents in a minute. Everyone is like «Aw, what a strong mother/father you are!” or whatever, but nobody GAF that their child suffers immensely.

You think I'm not suicidal too? Lmao my brain is fucked. I'm just not feticidal. I may want to die, but I don't want to murder babies. Abortion is homicide. (Don't worry friends, I'm on extensive psych meds and in therapy. I have help 👍🏻)

I feel a lot of sympathy for you, it sucks that you've suffered so much. You're probably right about C-PTSD. I think the compassionate response to human suffering isn't to get rid of the sufferer, especially not through violence. That's what euthanasia is, and abortion. It sets up a horrific double standard that while abled and "healthy" people get suicide prevention, disabled and sick people get suicide assistance and "mercy" killing. I think that's wrong. I think that's legal murder.

If you don't want to pass down your genes, then I highly recommend getting sterilized. Because once you fertilize another human being, it's too late, you've passed down your genes to another person, and abortion would murder them.

So your argument is that lack of pain perception and cognitive inabilities disqualify humans from being people? I think that's an ableist framework to be working from. Not to mention, a medically inaccurate one; pain perception likely begins as early as 12 weeks, and at just 8 weeks an embryo begins to flinch if touched. Just because another human doesn't process pain the same as you doesn't make them subhuman.

And bodywide memory begins at fertilization; our body absolutely keeps the score of the traumas inflicted upon us early on, remembered in our very cells. This is why abortion survivors often exhibit C-PTSD symptoms; their bodies absorb the attempt on their lives, even though they cannot consciously recall it. Their body-minds do. We've also seen in case studies that the siblings of twins who are selectively aborted have worse life outcomes due to the early trauma of experiencing their sibling's demise.

And none of this even addresses that much of in-utero testing happens after the first trimester, when some disabilities first become detectable. So disabled and sick babies are often killed in later abortions after 20 weeks; they are premature infants, they absolutely have pain perception and early cognition. I made a masterpost about later abortion here.

Abortion is literally suffocation, poisoning, and dismemberment. It's not mercy. It's deliberate violence. I think about disabled kids all the time, and I think they deserve better than being murdered. You really think Harriet is better off because her brain got sucked out of the back of her neck? You think that's love? Nah fam. Bonkers shit.

[the-blind-assassin-12]

HAPPY TWOSDAY! 🥳

It’s time for TWO more series, one shot and art recs! This week I went with three characters, two recs each for Joel, Ezra & Oberyn. And I loved them all to bits and pieces. 🤎💚💛

Two Series Recs:

LEAVE OFF YOUR WANDERING by @oonajaeadira

Joel Miller x F!Reader

Rugged because TLOU, Soft because Adira

I fell behind on this absolute stunner of a story, so I had the joy of catching up with the two most recent parts all in one go. And let me tell you, for as much TLOU typical tension and angst as there is in these latest two parts, they truly were a joy to read. Because one of Adira’s many strong suits is balancing soft with hard, safety with danger, joy with fear. Watching Joel slowly open up, watching Reader learn how to reach him, watching Ellie get to have more normalcy? It’s beautiful. It’s got my heartstrings all knitted up all warm and fuzzy like, and simultaneously has me ready to stab anyone who hurts a hair on any of their heads with a knitting needle. But Joel’s got that covered, doesn’t he?

OBERYN & HIS MERLING by @grogusmum

Oberyn Martell x GN!Merling Reader

A fairytale romance with a bittersweet touch

I recently treated myself to Hazel’s Seven Tears and absolutely loved every mythical second of it. So when I saw that she also had a story centered around a Merling Reader, I KNEW I’d love it just as much. And I was right. Everything from the visuals of Reader’s Yew Forest to their appearance was magical, and the lengths that Oberyn (and Ellaria) go to for his Merling to keep them safe and happy for so perfectly with what we know about him - that he’s a lover, a protector, an open mind and a full heart.

Two One Shot Recs:

TALK, REFINED by @ohforficsake

Ezra x F!Reader

Soulmates/ multiple lifetimes AU

This is one of those stories that is going to stick with me for a long time. I’m gonna be like that meme where it’s like hey you okay you’ve been quiet what are you thinking about? And in my brain it’s just “the warrior and the blacksmith and that iris charm” but I have to be like “I’m fine 👍🏻”. This story won my heart, broke my heart, and fixed my heart as I followed a pair of fated lovers finding each other through three different lifetimes, and it did so in truly beautiful fashion. The repetition of certain motifs, the way gorgeous lines are sprinkle throughout this whole piece like glitter, the bond between these characters, these souls… it’s perfect.

IN BLOOM by @maggiemayhemnj

Ezra x GN!Reader

Fluff + pup + blossoms

EZRA. AND. A DOG*!😀🥰 *A troublemaking little rascal who is just like his owner, as dogs tend to be. I love that Ezra has a companion to keep him company, and I love even more that this companion (Peanut! 🥹) seems determined to get his human a human companion …. By any (thieving) means necessary. Everything between Ezra and Reader falls so naturally into place and how could it not with him being so charming and Peanut being such a peanut? I also truly loved the thought of Ezra creating his own little Green haven in his backyard. Hope I get to spend some more time back there someday soon. 😌

Two Art Recs:

OBERYN + RED VIPERS by @rimermin

This is so freaking COOL! Surrounding the Red Viper with actual red vipers is such a striking visual. I love the colors and the expression he’s wearing here. Just stunning!

JOEL + SARAH SNAPSHOTS by @alyssamariag

Listen, I ADORE these. SO MUCH. Look at their SMILES! Look at Joel and his Dad Strength™️. The note from Sarah because let’s face it, he absolutely needs the reminder. The watch. Just… 🥹🥲🥰 perfection.

[joey-smack]

i’m bored so here’s all the phases i can remember going thru in my life

2012-2014: thomas the train. i was literally so obsessed with that stupid show. i had hundreds of trains & had my bday at a train station when i was 3 (which, somehow i can remember back to 2 years of age — but i cannot remember yesterday. very strange.)

2015-2017: my little pony, monster high, lps. i was soooo into collecting mh dolls & lps it wasn’t even funny. i think i’ve seen the entire mlp series at least 4 times + the equestria girls movies (THEY WERE SO GOOD.) also, i do not care for the newer monster high movies. pre boo york was PEAK.

2018-2019: twenty one pilots, star wars, fnaf. actually, i started liking star wars at 8. i put it here for convenience. i still love fnaf & tøp to this day tbh. star wars has been pissing me off, though. anyways — padmé made me realize how amazing women are #gayforpadmé. love you natalie portman </3. i also obsessively watched thinknoodles play granny during this time 👍🏻. i liked that guy that took apart phones as well (i forget his name? i know there’s a bunch of people that do that. i was a weird kid.)

2020-2022: eminem, tyler the creator, radiohead. there were a few other small obsessions i wont mention, cause they were just strange. i was borderline insane for tyler and all of odd future tbh. i am thankful enough to actually own stuff from OF & gold wang 🙏🏻. i was honestly really cool when i liked them. i miss that era quite a bit. radiohead kinda happened in the middle of 2022 and then leaked into ‘23.

2023-2024: metallica (+ megadeth), radiohead, hole, nirvana, basically any band i listen to now, tcc. i don’t even know what i’m into right now — i am very confused. my brain is dying. speaking of borderline insane, radiohead!!! i quite literally convinced myself that me and jonny greenwood were MARRIED and knew each other personally. i don’t know how i didn’t get sent to a mental hospital. i listened to thom yorke talk so much that i can still hear his voice in my head sometimes. haha. normal stuff. uhh anyways i went a little crazy for metallica too, i have a shit ton of their stuff. i don’t think my hole obsession has died out like, at all. i am scared to see the next thing i fall in love with.