#my mental is great rn
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my 69th fic has to be a smut but…of who
#maybe overwatch?#im kind of on a jjk/obey me kick rn#also have a cal kestis WIP so we could do Star Wars??#unrelated but i turned off my phone for two days and watched 3 seasons of criminal minds#my mental is great rn
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no thoughts just hugging mammon with everything you have and crying into the nape of his neck while he hugs you just as tight, just as hard, just as desperately, but also so gently because he’s afraid he’ll break you with how delicate you are right now.
no thoughts just slumping against him after crying out everything left in you and falling asleep while he still holds onto you and kisses the crown of your head because he knows you won’t notice.
no thoughts just his heart breaking because if he had his way he would take your pain onto himself in a heartbeat but he can’t and that’s what hurts the most.
no thoughts just mammon staying with you like that the whole night and checking your pulse occasionally and feeling relieved at it’s presence because it means you’re still here with him.
no thoughts just falling asleep with your first man and having him treat you like you’re the most precious thing in all of the three realms.
no thoughts; just mammon being your rock like he always is.
#sorry guys the mental illness has been mental illness-ing and i just need my bf rn. i wuv him forreal#obey me swd#obey me#obey me shall we date#obey me mammon#mammon obey me#om! mammon#mammon#mammon avatar of greed#mammonobeyme#the great mammon#mammon x gender neutral reader#mammon x me#mammon x y/n#mammon x you#mammon x mc#mammon x reader#swd mammon#mammon fluff#mammon angst#obey me x reader#obey me x you#obey me x gender neutral reader#swd obey me!#obey me x y/n#obey me x mc#obey me shall we date mammon#shall we date mammon#mammon headcannons#obey me comfort
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LOOK AWAY, GIVE THEM PRIVACY-
#WHY ARE YOU STARING AT THEM LEAVE THEM ALONE :(#utmv#ut au#Traditional scribbles#undertale#Sans aus#horrortale#horror sans#dusttale#dust sans#murder sans#horrordust#bad sanses#Horror x dust#or not 🤷🏽♀️#Guys dust is just really happy I promise#His brother told him he loved him guys he’s so happy and healthy rn#LEAVE HIM ALONE HES FINE-#Big horror >:)#Honestly dust is soooo mentally stable and great and healthy that horror should just like- date me instead??#Hahaha like dust doesn’t need him PFT wdym#Horror cmere bbg#*gross smooching noises*#…gn#My art
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IM BACK AND BETTER THAN EVER HAVE SOME WINTER SHASSIE!!!!!!!
#forest draws#psych#shawn spencer#carlton lassiter#shassie#I GIT A SAMSUNG TABLET IM BACK IN MY DIGITAL ART ERA WOOOOO#once i get used to ibispaint imma open commissions byt for now were just having fun 🎉🎉🎉#im also happy to report my mental health is great rn :D
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pictured: the christmas party animals
#and by that i mean the christmas snoozers#my art#bittybones#crumb#so many christmas parties and events im so socially run down rn#explodes into 10000 pieces#im so worn out by things constantly happening rn my mental state is awful but i'll swing back eventually#got a lot of art i jus need to clean up so i can post them#yea thats a real sweater i have and its great#ghghgg
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DPXDC Prompt #70
Danny and Damian are twins and they are unfortunately forced to fight each other for title of heir at the age of 5. Danny dies after losing and Talia desperately throws him into the lazurus pits. He doesn’t come back out.
5 years later they throw a one Jason Todd into the pit and he also doesn’t come back. But Danny does now 10 years old but he has white hair and glowing green eyes. Oh wait it’s back to normal black hair and blue eyes now. Talia is majorly confused and she grabs both of her sons to take them to live with their Father and gives Damian the order to protect Danny from harm.
Jason wakes up in front of two kids one wearing a red cap and the other was goth as fuck. What the hell happened and how was he here?
I was basically wondering what would happen if Jason and Danny where thrown into the pits and turned on the portal at the same time and what if they swapped places.
#dp x dc prompt#dp x dc#dc x dp#danny fenton#danny phantom#danny and damian are twins#poor danny#writing prompt#Danny and Jason swap places#I kind of figured Danny wouldn’t be spared if he was just some random kid so hence twin au#The was I’ll handle character death is#is it described at all? If it goes into great detail than yes but if it’s just casually brought up by Danny then no#I’ve had a bad depression spiral lately and I know I need to look for a new job but I’m also so fucking tired of life you know?#My mental health is really bad rn lmao
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been sober for 4 days so far & it’s been hard but slowly falling in love w/ my sober mind and excited to see how far i can go ❤️
#i just smoke too much weed to the point where it’s like not conducive to my mental health#like ive smoked almost every single day of my life since i was 16-17 ish till now & like#while u can’t od on bud now that im growing older it’s just like#hmmmm maybe needing a psychoactive substance to end ur day with and watch shows & eat food with#isn’t great :/#idk the goal yet i think ideally I’ll indulge every now & then bcs i do love being high ngl lol#but rn I need to not NEED it so slowly making those steps to end my reliance !!!!!#sorry for ranting probs will delete but just thinking out loud lol
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“You know, Damian’s half convinced you let it happen.” Tim scoffs. “Sounds like him.” “Not like that. He’s different now, he wouldn’t say that.” “What the hell else am I supposed to think?” “You confronted Azrael alone, in civvies, after he’d already beaten you up once just for getting in his way. Is it that much of a stretch for Damian to think you might have had a death wish?” “I didn’t have a death wish.” Steph gives him a long look. "Sure."
missed posting my annual november reverse robins timsteph angst so to make up for it here's an even angstier than usual painting from this AU <3 more coming soon hopefully!!
#tim drake#reverse robins#ev sketches#tw implied suicide#(in the knowingly putting yourself in a very very dangerous situation but not consciously or personally killing yourself kind of way)#if i had the skill and the motivation this was gonna be two panels bc this is what damian discovers when he books it to the cave#he and tim bond for the first time when tim is like all of my friends and family are dead you are literally my last choice.#but can you help me with this azrael thing. do NOT tell bruce he wants to retire and i can't take that from him.#trying to shield him from this has nothing to do with my dad very recently dying because of me being a vigilante btw.#and damian's like this is a bad idea and he's very obviously unwell and injured and we do hate each other but like. yeah. fuck bruce rn.#he literally hired this insane person to be interrim batman over me so yeah sure let's team up.#and then they hang out for a while and having a common enemy is awesome and bitching about bruce to someone who gets it is kind of. great?#and damian's like wow maybe it's not too late to have a relationship with this kid (my future brother????)#so they make plans to stop azrael and fix everything without even calling bruce once and they're like wow we make a good team!#like a day before they put that plan in action azbats kills someone very publicly#and damian is like oh god tim (very mentally ill) is about to do something so stupid.#and he is! but damian is in bludhaven when he hears the news so. too late. :(#when tim gets resurrected he's blind in one eye (azrael's sword) and can't always breathe right (died from blood in lungs)#he does not get the jason lazarus pit dunk 😔#at least not right away 😈#rr tag
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jason thinks he should be dead (sometimes he thinks he IS dead), he's just what crawled out of jason todd's grave but he IS jason todd why cant you see that im still the same person. but im not who i used to be and you have to accept i'm different now but i'm still the same bc i'm still your son and your brother and your friend but i'm not 15 anymore (but i am i never grew up i'm still stuck in that warehouse watching the seconds count down the joker is still laughing and i'm still in pain and broken and bloody and beaten and the warehouse is everything and i'm 15 i'm 15 i'm 15) i'm an adult now i'm not a sweet lil daddy's kid anymore i've grown up (i haven't. do you remember when i played with legoes? when we went to football matches togetehr? when you drove me to school and called me chum and smiled at me gently and put your hand around my shoulder and squeezed? i loved you.) when you look at me all you see is who i used to be, you don't see ME, you just see who i used to be and i can never measure up to that, i can never be as good or kind or gentle or loving as the ghost of me that lives in your brain, but when i look in the mirror my eyes are dead like a fish's and my corpse is still in the ground and i'm not breathing because my insides are decayed and gone but i'm still standing here like a zombie, like a bad dream, like a fraction of who i used to be because i'm dead and i'm 15 and i never grew up but i'm somehow still an adult and how dare you not see me for who i am because i'm still the same but i'm still different but aren't i your son? am i at least still your son? you took me in and you loved me and you cared for me and you were my father my god my everything? i'm still your son. i'm still your son. i'm still your son.
Do you love me? Can you prove you love me? Can you prove i meant anything and can you prove my death was real?
(I love you. Please say it back.)
#my dc posting#jason todd#dc#red hood#...so how's everybody else doing!#i'm doing fine thanks for asking#sorry i was having thoughts abt jason and i feel like this is the only way i can showcase his mental state#cus like. theres contradictions and hypocrisies and everything stacked up on top of each other#all of it is him and all of it is false and he doesnt know who he is.#he's whatever's opposite of what you think of him#if bruce says he should never have been robin then fuck him. jason was a great robin and it was everything to him and he is not just a mist#ke.#but if someone else then says being robin was perfectly fine for jason and he chose it and it's his own fault he died#then no fuck that guy what the fuck is wrong with bruce to throw children out there in colourful undies and a cape?#etc etc like. DO YOU GET ME RN#ueghhj#this is only like 1% of what i'm rotating in my mind about him rn#jason loves bruce and that's the issue!!! that's the problem guys!!!! because he loves his dad too much to ever let go!!!!!!!#and he just wants his dad to say it back (to prove he means it to prove it's not too late to prove that theyre not too far gone yet)#AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA#i have jason todd disease. when instead ofbrain there is. jhason
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I felt sad
#killer sans#sans au#something new sans#sigh#sorry just wanted to at least doodle something after the lack of any artworks as of late#great now watch me start rambling in rhe tags#i love how when someone feels like shit their first thought is to drag their fav character down w them#basically what im doing rn#i need to reply to my rps what am i doing#aaaaaaaaaaa#panicks in lowercase#but i wanna draw too...#BUT AT THE SAME TIME I NEED TO STUDY....??#AUGH I HATE THIS#crying#sorry killer#(not really)#but if i have ti suffer you're going down w me#as i say while i rp killer angst w a bestie#mentally punches the wall#im not okay#fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck#i already want to throw myself in a hole#and never crawl out#i just want to lay down in peace#mizu art
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i think it should be possible to scream without making any noise or disturbing anyone or inviting any questions . just sometimes . as a treat .
#hhhhHHHGHGHHHHHH#jay screams into the void#(deeply personal rant incoming feel free to ignore)#a friend of mine has just been undiagnosed with bpd which . lovely for them but it sure as fuck invites a Lot of questions#suddenly a great deal of previous shitty behaviour that was excused on the basis of bpd has a lot more to answer for#(obligatory I Know BPD Isn't An Excuse To Treat People Like Shit . im aware . i have bpd myself and i have v high standards re my behaviour)#(however allowances were made bc they were unmedicated & out of therapy through no fault of their own)#(and our whole group has enough experience with untreated mental illness to understand that it can make u a bitch sometimes)#but yeah no there have been a LOT of instances of b&w thinking + manipulation + unfair judgement + high emotion + snap reactions#and every situation Could be explained by untreated bpd and the bad times have never been prolonged or often enough to outweigh the good#but Hoo Boy if that wasn't bpd then what the FUCK was it#like either the new psychiatrist is wrong (possible but i seem to be the only one questioning it) or they're just Like That#and again . not enough to outweigh their numerous positive and loveable traits#but the whole group has been destabilised on a number of occasions due to their actions during a bad spell#and i'm really not sure Any Other Explanation is enough to justify that#ah well . this seems like the kind of thing that will eventually come up during a sleepover heart to heart#but rn i'm stuck in a bubble of MAJOR rsd & brainfuck abt it . which is unfortunate bc now is exactly the time i Don't need brainfuck#anyways ✨ goodnight tumblrinas i am . kind of hoping nobody read this bc i fear i sound like a bitch#i am genuinely happy for their undiagnosis it seems to have put many things into perspective for them & theyre v happy about it#i'm just . uncomfy w some aspects of it that i have only been halfway brave enough to discuss with them personally#That's One To Bring Up With My Therapist In A Few Weeks#Bit Of A Shame I'm No Longer In Therapy And Now Have Only 2 Quarterly Reviews Left Before I'm Discharged From The Service
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idk if i timed it right (cant possibly comprehend the timezones correctly) in any case, pretend that its on time 😭😭😭
HAPPY BIRTHDAY @paintpaw !!!!!!!!!! thank you so so much for all the support, youre the best mutual ever!!!!! i just wanted to draw something silly for you, because im still ashamed of the fact that I not happybirthday-ed you the last year. youre the coolest person ever i love your blog and your drawings and your headcanons and your comic (@trialbyfire-comic) and im super super glad youre my mutual :)) HAPPY BIRTHDAY AGAIN!!!
#fallout#fallout new vegas#fnv#the great khans#jessup#chance#nightstalker#other people's ocs#also im sorry its just sketches :( im just not in a very good mental state rn but still wanted to draw something#its the best way i can express my gratitude 😭
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i’m having a bad day at work aha
#working in corporate america blows#killing me in any way possible would hurt less#john’s mental breakdown is my mental breakdown rn#my doctor is sending me to a psychiatrist sooooo#i’m doing great! 👍🏻#personal#but daddy i’m back on my bullshit
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I love my f/os. I love the joy they bring me. I love the comfort they bring me. I love the safety they bring me. I love the constancy they bring me. I love the creativity they inspire within me.
I just really love my f/os. Sometimes I don’t know what I’d do without them.
#self ship#self shipping#self ship community#self shipping community#f/o community#selfship#selfshipping#eve gushes#not feeling great mentally rn and all I can think of is how much I love my f/os ;_;#it feels so reassuring to be able to turn to them whenever I need them. I’m sure others feel the same
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rn i feel like im just flipping between the most depressed ive ever been (which doesn't mean much because im hardly ever depressed, the last time was like 2+ years ago but u think its pretty bad? idk how to judge it), my normal amount and type of mentally ill, and really really great but in a way that sane people dont like and would probably also get me hospitalised really fast. so. idk.
#im always like this but a lot less extreme and lot less frequent#like ive gone from really fucking depressed could not get out of bed to piss to really really good to normal in one day#and im not sleeping more then 3-4 hours#gods fucked off which is freaking me out#i seriously do not want to live through new years#idk i just dont feel great or safe#like im fine rn but idk#i probably wont be in a few hours or in the morning or maybe a few minutes#i wanna cut again but im not meant tooooo ughhhh#oh and im really not taking care of my cuts#like im bad at that already but even less#and i think i hit fascia#i haven't showered in almost three weeks and ive been wearing the same clothes for a week and i have no clean clothes#im really gross rn haha#idk what ill do when school starts again#ill probably cut again i dont care#tw mental hospital#i hope it kills me
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Hm. Oh no
#my periodical depressive slumps! wuh oh!#idk feeling very down lately. the. gestures. everything. does not help#im like. so stressed rn the past few days have not been great#i miss having close friends i think#crane screams#ive been feeling bad physically too and idk if its bc ive been off my meds for almost a month or judt bc my eating habits have been awful#genuinely idk what constitutes as a healthy meal anymore. realizing açai bowls are probably not super healthy despite having fruit#head in hands. whatever. i can blame my slump on my lack of medication(its not even a mental health med)#see this is why bluesky scares me. how am i supposed to ramble on in a place no one will see over there#thank you tmblr tags ily tmblr tags#ok whatever#good night
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