#my ideal way of talking about my ocs or interacting with others' ocs is to just

[blobbei-art]

I recently archived all of the old art on my DeviantArt accounts I still have and 14 year old me actually was onto something with pixel art?

Also I dearly miss the experience of this Team Rocket Roleplay(ish) DeviantArt group I joined 2015/16. Having a public group where your OCs just exist very close to one another/live together so you included each other a lot. Very good times!

I hope all these people with their edgy Pikachu OCs are doing good out there nowadays.

[diy-fire-water-pups]

WELCOME TO OUR BLOG!

This is a blog for you to interact with some of the Paw Patrol pups: The Firefighter and EMT pup, Marshall; The Recycle Do-All pup, Rocky; and last but not least, The Cool Water-Loving pup, Zuma.

Before you can send asks or start a RP, please check the rules under the cut first. Hope to see you around and have some fun!

Ps.: Askbox opens from Friday to Monday early morning (GMT -3). It's closed as soon as I wake up.

RULES FOR INTERACTING

1- Be respectful. There’s an actual person sitting in front of a computer or holding her cell phone here, spending time to play as her favorite pups, interact with people she doesn’t know and have fun; Time which she could be using for working and earning money to not worry about what to eat tomorrow, if her own dog and cat will have their food too and if the bills will be paid in time or late again. I’m here to have a good time. If someone starts being a bother, I’ll make use of the block button and delete asks or whatever’s sent my way. I’m not wasting time with assholes.

2- Same goes for the pups, actually - if I feel someone’s bothering them, I’ll do the same as above. Even if I’m not the one affected but I feel the pups would be. 

3- If you wish to RP, please send a DM to my other sideblog, self-indulgent-paw-patrol, so we can discuss about plots first. You don’t need to DM me if you just want to send asks or interact with the pups, though, that’s only for RPs.

4- EDIT! Thanks to some encouragement and the positive reception this blog has been receiving, I'm willing to try RPing crossovers again (Never did it here before, but I've done in other askblogs I've moderated in the past in other fandoms). The thing is, PLEASE TALK TO ME FIRST! Sometimes I don't know your muse at all, so it would be good to get to know them a bit first, before we plot anything. The ideal is for you to have an "About" page for your muses so I can check them out!

5- I’m willing to RP ships, be it platonic or romance, but absolutely NO NSFW will be allowed here. From the possible ships with the pups in this blog, my OTP is Rocky x Zuma, followed by Marshall x Everest and Chase x Marshall. I’m open for shipping the pups with OCs, granted I get to know the OCs first.

6- Feel free to reblog any posts you may find in this blog, including the pups' answers to asks they get. The only posts you shall NOT REBLOG (but you can like) are the posts tagged as #RP if you're not the one participating in it. That's basic ancient Tumblr etiquette!

7- M!A (Magic!Anons) are not allowed. One too many people have tried to force stuff that was way past my limitations, even sounding like they just wanted free art out of it. I don’t have time nor patience for that.

Rules may be subject to change in the future as I see fit. For now, that's about it!

Now I'll take the chance to promote some other askblogs in the fandom too just because I can XD Make sure to read their rules before interacting!

@jurassicsnowpups - an askblog for Everest, Rex and Tracker!

@pcwpatrol - an askblog for Chase!

@taking-to-the-skye - an askblog for Skye!

@stretch-n-fetch - an askblog for Liberty!

@paw-patrol-pack-leader - an askblog for Ryder!

@clumsycapn - an askblog for Cap'n Turbot!

@rubble-the-bulldog - an askblog for Rubble!

@wheelerpupfan - a blog for Wheeler from Rubble & Crew!

[k0setsuch1e]

Kosetsu Chie

🌊✮ ⋆ 🦈｡ *⋆｡

(Sorry for any misspellings I'm writing this at 1am..)

(Number one this is a BSD oc. Number two...I'm kinda new to this place in general so if I don't pick up on certain things here it's simply bc im new

- I'd like to set some boundaries.

-Mod is a minor so no nsfw

- any other fandom can interact

-Also, I will be just using normal text in character or quotation marks.

-If im ooc it will say so in tags

Also mod of this would like to remain anon even though my watermark is all over my art. whoopies...I'm not active on my main which is funny.

Mod's name is Yuma, you can refer to me as Yuma when talking to me ooc

Magic anon is allowed jst nothing nsfw ofc and you can't turn him into a baby bc no <3

Time zone btw: UTC-8. Mainly active on fridays through Sundays. or after school: 5-8pm)

yapping below this!!

IC STUFF

"I understand our way of justice is warped but my loyalty doesn’t lie with you."

Name: Kosetsu Chie Age: 22

Pronouns: He/him

Sexuality: Pansexual, Ace.

Height: 6'2 ft (190cm)

weight: 170 lbs (77kg)

Blood type: O

Ability: "Usurp one's Fortitude" - he can use any ability of an ability user he's touched.

(note about his ability: it takes a HUGGGEE mental toll on him, he'll be more irritable after using it. He can fuse abilities together but his physical state will become weaker, so he usually focuses his ability into his Katana. He doesn't have a completely natural ability up at face value, so he tends to have another person’s ability up and in use in the front of his mind.)

Some info with him and the Hunting Dogs: he's the closest with Teruko and Tachihara. He doesn't believe in this from of justice, but also doesn’t care. Others (The Hunting Dogs) ideals are more important to him. He doesn’t really care for the ADA, only the members that used to be in the PM and he wants them dead.

Likes: Warm tea, stars, sleep, reading, taking care of his hair, his katana, cats, slow paced games, silence, The members in the Hunting Dogs, cooking, justice. (no duh) Cakes (preferably Cheesecake)

Dislikes: PM, DOA, some of the ADA, injustice, Hunter Shin [@looksatyouwithmybiggreeneyes], cruelty (unless called for), sexual themes, physical touch, bright lights, loud noises, strong smells, weird textures, uncertainty. SPIDERS

Voice claim: EN Saiki K

He is quite literally the embodiment of a caged bird.

Universe headcanons and extra info

Kosetsu art

Blooming (kosetsu art)

Not actually Teruko Headcanons

Backstory

Stories:

It almost worked (<- kosetsu tries to khs)

Bird in a Cage (<- 10 y/o Kosetsu)

(Reference sheet. art by me :3)

Kosetsu au's so far:

@ih8chaos (young kosetsu

Doa au; @lawandsuffering

[ox-imagines]

I'm Yours (In This Life and the Next)

Pt. 1 | Zenji x reader/OC (Tokyo Debunker)

!! Major spoilers for chapter five of TDB ahead !!

Content warnings: mentions of death

Before my eyes opened, I could smell that something was off. The air was sterile, scented with metal and fresh cloth and… something else I couldn’t quite place, but I was definitely somewhere medical. My whole body felt a general achiness, my neck stiff and sore and my head pounding. Finally, my eyes blinked open. I squinted at the fluorescent lighting, trying to remember what had happened, how I could’ve possibly gotten here.

It was a lovely day out. The sun was gently blanketed by clouds, providing the ideal amount of light as I walked arm-in-arm with Zenji through a secluded part of the Darkwick campus. I’d started at Darkwick the previous school year, having just moved to Japan in order to attend the prestigious academy as a ghoul student. I wasn’t exactly outgoing and being in a new country didn’t help, but getting placed in Hotarubi seemed like a lucky break for me; the other two ghouls, who were also first-years, and all the general students I’d interacted with were so friendly and good-intentioned. Zenji was a particular help in getting me settled here. He was an odd boy, a bit eccentric with a flair for the dramatic, but also one of the most understanding, caring people I’d ever met. Lively ruby-red eyes, shiny deep-purple hair, a touch of eyeliner and lavender eyeshadow, with unique yet fashionable style and a stunningly sweet smile; that was Zenji. Needless to say it didn’t take long for me to completely fall for him. We ended up spending almost every day together, studying side by side, sharing our projects, occasionally getting R&R permits to go on little off-campus dates and day trips so he could show me his favorite places.

Over the spring break between academic years, I'd gone back home and missed being with him, but we texted and called when we could, working around the timezone difference. When we returned this year, it was like we’d never been apart. Haku, a fellow second-year ghoul from Frostheim, transferred to Hotarubi and his easygoing attitude quickly espoused him to our whole house. Zenji also made friends with a sweet, playful new ghoul from Jabberwock named Towa and we spent some of our days with him. Often though, it was still just us. I tried to ground my thoughts and remember the last thing that had happened. The birds were singing quietly as we walked, Zenji rambling about his latest novel idea. That’s how things usually went: I was content to listen to him and give him whatever feedback he wanted, and he was almost always bright and talkative, though always sensitive enough to know when silence was valuable. Even with the chaos and warring going on between the houses this year, his spirits couldn’t seem to be dampened. He seemed particularly vibrant today though… was it today? How did I get here?

All I could remember was him, his crimson eyes glittering, shining with adoration as he looked down at me, watching my reactions to his grand ideas. The warmth of his arm around mine, the lilt of his deep voice, the way he leaned in to gently kiss my cheek and the way his breath tickled my ear as he did so. The dappled sunlight filtering through the leaves added to his magnificence. And then… And then?

Oh.

Oh.

The ground trembled softly, Zenji’s hold on me tightening and his bright eyes clouding with alarm as he looked around. The ground started shaking harder, and over the crest of the horizon line a massive anomalous creature resembling a rhino approached. That wasn’t good. The other few students scattered around the lawn screamed and ran, one of them not lucky enough to escape the anomaly’s angered rampage and getting trampled with a sickening crunch. Zenji’s hand slid down and clasped onto mine tightly. “Run. We can’t outrun it, but maybe it’ll go the other way.” He was often a worrier, but the dark concern in his quivering voice didn’t belong there. Though he wasn’t particularly athletic, his long legs moved quickly to try and carry him away, his hand in mine pulling me along with him as I tried to catch up.

“Shit,” I gasped out, unsure whether or not we were successfully escaping the beast but unwilling to look over my shoulder.

“Shit,” Zenji nodded in agreement, one of the very few times I’d ever heard him curse. He did look behind us and his expression told me everything I needed to know. “Leia, don’t let go,” the fear in his voice and eyes chilled me and I held his hand tighter, his own grip on mine almost painful. “Keep running, don’t look back.”

A heavy force hit me hard from the back. I went flying and my hand slipped from Zenji’s. My conciousness faded as I hit a tree.

My heart was pounding and my mouth was dry; I tried to sit up, but a harsh pain in my side stopped me. Some machine I was attached to started beeping and Yuri, a first-year Mortkranken student with a cold, stern air about him and aqua hair that matched his house’s color, appeared promptly with a clipboard. He checked the beeping machine to record my vitals, not saying anything.

“Where, where is he? Where’s Zenji? Yuri…”

He turned to me, wearing an odd look I couldn’t quite discern. “Haku’s here, he’s been waiting for you to wake up. I’ll let you talk to him.” Yuri left just as quickly as he’d arrived. Moments later, a familiar figure stepped into the doorway, stringy green hair hanging over sad eyes and a bittersweet smile.

“Hey,” Haku stepped closer, clearing his throat softly and settling into the chair at my bedside. “You’re up; how do you feel?”

“I, I don’t know, sore? Haku, is Zenji okay?” At my sides, my hands were trembling. I looked down and noticed there were little crescent-shaped bruises on one of them from Zenji’s nails, from the way he’d held on to it so tightly as we’d ran.

Haku’s smile faltered and he looked down. “Leia, he’s… he’s gone. I’m sorry.”

“No. No,” I shook my head. “What do you mean, ‘gone?’ He had to be taken off campus for treatment?”

“Leia…” The boy reached into his pocket, holding something out to me. I held a shaking hand out.

It was Zenji’s necklace and glasses lanyard. I felt like I might be sick.

“His glasses themselves were broken, but,” Haku trailed off, shrugging and rubbing his neck.

I wanted to laugh, to tell him to fuck off with his stupid jokes and tell me when I could see Zenji, but the look in Haku’s eyes told me he was fully serious. “Oh, God,” the pain in my chest was so much worse than any of the other pain in my aching body. “Please,” I whined, my throat tightening. Hot tears ran down my cheeks without me even registering that I was crying.

Haku glanced at the spot between us, his golden gaze flickering, conflicted. He stood and strode over to the door, quietly shutting it. “Leia, the university can’t know this or they’ll make me put him to rest, but…” he carefully sat on the edge of my bed and took my hand that still held Zenji’s belongings. “Close your eyes, hold onto those tightly, and think of Zenji.”

I did as he said without having a clue what was happening and he began playing his flute. My hand was shaking, closed around the trinkets that Zenji virtually always wore, tears spilling silently from my eyes as I kept them squeezed shut. Suddenly, the very familiar sound of a certain stringed instrument joined Haku’s flute: Zenji’s biwa. Instinctually, I almost opened my eyes, but Haku rested a steadying hand on my arm.

The music stopped.

“Oh, my dear, I hate seeing you like this. I hope Haku is right about this working.”

“Zenji?” I cried, my eyes flying open as I lurched forward in the bed, ignoring the sharp pain in my side. Zenji sat at the foot of my bed, his clear porcelain skin puffy and red as if he’d been crying too. As he realized I could see and hear him, a wide grin split his face and his chest shook with something between a laugh and a sob as tears of joy gathered in his eyes. He leapt forward with his arms open.

My smile fell a bit as I felt a cool breeze rather than Zenji’s warm embrace. He’d passed through me rather than hugging me. “Oh,” he sat back, his crimson eyes saddening. He carefully reached out and my cheek felt cold where his hand was, his thumb brushing under my eye. “I’m so sorry this happened, my dearest.” 

I resisted the urge to lean into his touch, knowing I’d just pass through his hand if I did. I closed my eyes and let out a deep, shaky sigh. “It’s okay, baby. It’s just something new to figure out. I’m just happy I still have you, even if it’s in a different capacity.” That was partially a lie. I doubted he’d pick up on it, but Haku surely would have. How could I be happy with this? Zenji was only 19, and was a font of creativity and life and love; he didn’t deserve this, didn’t deserve to die so young.

“I will say,” Haku interrupted after a moment. “With some time and practice, you should be able to feel his touch, properly. Zenji, you’ve already figured out you can interact with inanimate objects when you want to and when you concentrate on trying to, and human contact will essentially work the same way. Have you heard of spirits physically attacking people? It’s the same premise, although vengeful spirits are usually tied to the physical realm more than you are, Zenji.”

By that point, I was only half-listening to Haku. My mind was racing, trying to figure out some way to fix this. I spent a decent amount of time with the Mortkranken ghouls, I’d always had a penchant for science and the morally grey ethics to match theirs, I just had a stronger tendency towards artistry that had landed me in Hotarubi. Between me and Yuri, we could surely deliberate a solution for Zenji, even if it was questionable at best.

“What if we found a way to make him, I don’t know, ‘real’ again?” I turned to Haku, trying to place my hand over Zenji’s on my lap and sighing as I once again passed through him. I flipped my hand over so he could set his on it.

“What did you have in mind, my dear?” Zenji’s voice held a note of skepticism, but his eyes shone curiously.

“I’m not sure yet, but it would have to involve Yuri. Haku, I know you didn’t want to tell anyone, but Yuri would much rather take the chance to play around and make up new experiments than he would turn over a potential test subject to the Chancellor.”

Haku’s brows were furrowed as he studied me. “I’m not sure what you want to try and do, but reanimation and possession are both testy subjects. You’re not wrong about Yuri, though, I’ll give you that.”

My eyes moved back to lock onto Zenji’s. “No matter what, I’m still yours,” I smiled at him, though I could tell it came out a little more lopsided and sad than I’d intended. “Could we go back to the dorms now?”

“Nah, you’re still stuck here for a couple days,” Haku chuckled. “You’ve got two broken ribs and a concussion.”

“Oh.”

“Yep.”

“I’m sorry I couldn’t protect you,” Zenji’s hand brushed coolly along my face again, his tone somber. “But!” It rapidly upticked into his usual dramatic bravado and I couldn’t help but grin. “I will be right by your side; I can read to you, or regale you, or play my biwa for you, or simply talk. I will watch over you all night, my dear.”

My heart swelled with emotion. Even in death, my sweet, perfect boyfriend was concerned for my well-being. There certainly weren't many people who could say the same, either. For better or for worse, this was the situation we were handed, and I’d be damned if we weren’t going to figure it out one way or another.

[reverieparacosm]

Yandere Gamer Boyfriend Headcanons

GN!Reader x Male Yandere!OC

Warnings: Yandere, possessive behaviors, manipulation, mentioned cyberbullying, stalking, A LOT OF FLUFF

Note: It's essential to remember that the concept of a "Yandere" character is based on unhealthy and toxic behavior. These headcanons are meant to explore a fictional scenario and should not be considered as a healthy or ideal relationship dynamic in any way. Ngl, I felt a bit lonely playing video games and then this OC came up xD

Your Yandere Gamer Boyfriend is extremely possessive and protective of you

He becomes intensely jealous and paranoid whenever you spend time with other people, especially if they're male

Gaming is a major part of his life, and he expects you to share that passion

When he perceives a threat to your relationship, he's willing to go to extreme lengths to eliminate it. This can range from cyberbullying and hacking your rivals' accounts to more dangerous actions like stalking or even physical harm

"I'll always be here to protect you, my darling. No one else can have you but me."

Your boyfriend is more comfortable expressing his love and affection online rather than in person. He might shower you with extravagant gifts in games or write lengthy love letters through text messages and social media

Your boyfriend is not exactly a romantic kind of guy

However, he knows exactly what you like and love

One day, you come home, and the entire room is covered in red hearts. There's also a giant bouquet of roses waiting for you. Your boyfriend had prepared a romantic dinner for two, complete with your favorite dessert. His goal was to show you how important you are to him, and he did just that

He closely monitors your every move, both online and offline. He keeps track of your social media activities, checks your messages, and might even install tracking apps on your phone. He wants to know everything you do and everyone you interact with, just to ensure that you're not betraying him

He loves to keep you under his desk and pets you while his game loads

He often plays video games, but he'll stop and set aside his controller whenever you want to spend time with him

He's the kind of boyfriend who constantly talks to himself out loud as he plays games. You find it endearing, and it makes you feel closer to him

Your Yandere Gamer Boyfriend is incredibly passionate about gaming setups and technology. He spends hours researching and planning the perfect gaming setup for himself and you

Whenever your boyfriend loses a game, he gets so frustrated that he can't focus on anything else. That's when you come in. You sit beside him, gently placing a hand on his shoulder and giving him a comforting smile. His anger slowly melts away, replaced with a sense of peace and calm. And, of course, you're ready to play the next round with him

"No matter how many games I lose, I'll always have you. And that's a victory in my book."

Whenever you have a bad day, he'll drop everything he's doing to come over and comfort you. He'll listen to you vent, make you some hot chocolate

He'll often tell you about game lore and theories that he's read online or heard from his gaming buddies. You don't mind because you love the sound of his voice and the way he gets excited when he explains things

Even though he can be a bit needy and demanding at times, he's always supportive of your hobbies and interests. He'll even try out new things just so you can spend time together

"Sometimes I can get a bit carried away with my video games, but you always remind me of what's really important in life. Thank you for being there for me."

Your boyfriend loves to tease you, often in the form of playful insults. But you know that it's just his way of showing his affection. One day, he takes it too far, making you feel insecure about yourself. You tell him how much his words hurt you, and he immediately realizes his mistake. He takes you in his arms, kisses your forehead, and says, "I never meant to hurt you. You deserve the best in life, and I'll make sure you always feel that way."

[calciferous-kelpie]

Hey btw if your ever in need of ranting about a blorbo/oc, this is an ask that tells your to do so. What is the most interesting thing about them? Do they have any symbolism to them and if so what is it about? Favorite ideal situation to put them in? Any romance ideas?

Anon, I want to start off by apologizing for taking EXACTLY A YEAR to reply to this! Happy One Year Anniversary! 💀😭 Obviously, I’ve been thinking about this a lot, trying to decide who I wanted to talk about and trying to put my thoughts into words. And, of course, it took even longer because I wanted to include drawings of the characters… 🤦‍♂️Anyway…

I’ve decided to talk about multiple characters of mine, since they are important for my upcoming comics: Boxman’s mother, father, and sister! I have some New™, Fresh™ information to share about all of them today! Hope you enjoy my ramblings!

MEREDITH (Boxman's Mother)

Most interesting thing: Hmm, well… the things I find most interesting about Meredith are kind of spoilers for my comics, but an interesting thing about her is her special ability! (“Every proper siren has one, darling.” 💅) It’s called Eye of the Storm, and it allows her to summon and control a raging thunderstorm at will. Obviously, this sort of thing takes a lot of energy to maintain, so this ability actually comes with a secondary feature: Meredith can occasionally choose a victim to steal the energy from, and all she has to do to steal said energy is to make direct eye contact with them. The lady’s got a mean glare as it is, but with this power on top of that? Wowza. Watch out.

Symbolism: Given my answer to the previous question, you won’t be surprised to know that I associate Meredith with storms! She is a passionate character with a wild side, and when she truly gets going, she will step aside for no one.

Favorite situation to put them in: Meredith is a complex character with a lot going on, and I don’t want to reduce her to just an antagonist… but MAN, does she make a good antagonist! 😆 I love to put her into situations in which she terrifies/intimidates other characters, and trust me, she will have a lot of chances to do that in the comics!

Romance ideas: Meredith isn’t much for romance. At least not anymore. Heron was her first love, and after her relationship with him went south, her trust in men was destroyed. (To be fair, it was shaky to begin with.) She has, however, made an attempt at another relationship or two for monetary reasons. If that even counts lol

HERON (Boxman's Father)

Most interesting thing: Heron has had a wide variety of experiences across his lifetime, and during that time, he has developed many, many skills. These skills include (but are not limited to): farming, fishing, sailing, cooking, baking, sewing, crochet, whittling, building, juggling, and playing the banjo! Just… don’t ask him to sing, okay?

Symbolism: Heron’s symbolism is… probably pretty obvious, huh? I mean… he’s got an anchor… tattooed… on his back… *ahem* Anyway. The anchor is connected to a lot of Heron’s positive attributes—loyalty and sturdiness being the main ones. But it is also connected to some of his character flaws and the way he views himself. In a way, Heron himself is an anchor, for all the good and bad that entails. ⚓

Favorite situation to put them in: Despite the immense amount of comic outlining and scriptwriting I’ve been doing for Siren Theory, I can say pretty confidently that any scene in which Heron interacts with Professor Venomous is one of my favorites. It’s partly due to the “meet the parents” trope, but the other part of it is that Heron is just an unusual guy who does unusual things, and having a stranger witness that firsthand is hilarious.

Romance ideas: While Heron has had his share of crushes in his youth, he has never been in a serious relationship with anyone but Meredith… and he would like to keep it that way. He still feels like he’s putting the pieces of himself back together after their messy separation.

REBECCA/SIRENA (Boxman's Sister)

Most interesting thing: I think the thing that I enjoy most about Rebecca is the duality in her personality. She is very charismatic and graceful onstage as Sirena, but offstage, when she’s just Rebecca, she can be pretty socially awkward and kind of a klutz.

Symbolism: Some of you may have made the connection already, but Sirena’s real name, Rebecca, is a nod to Rebecca Sugar, the creator of Steven Universe and the spouse of Ian Jones-Quartey (creator of OK KO). This name was actually a suggestion by my sister (Thanks, girlie!) because she knew Sugar sang the end credit song of OK KO, and that little song was one of my inspirations for creating Sirena in the first place. Since then, the name has really proven itself to be a perfect fit for my little superstar siren! The meaning of the name Rebecca is “to tie/bind,” and Rebecca really is the character that ties her family—and the narrative of a lot of the comics—together!

Favorite situation to put them in: My favorite moments for Rebecca are the ones in which she is emotionally vulnerable. It isn’t always easy for her, but there are some things that will happen in the comics that will force her to wear her heart on her sleeve. I’m excited for that!

Romance ideas: Honestly, I’ve come up with so many ideas for OK KO that I won’t have space for all of them in the narrative, even though I’m planning to create, like, 19 comics! 😂 One of those things that won’t get a lot of time in the spotlight is Rebecca’s developing romance with a certain someone. That being said, it wouldn’t be a big spoiler for me to say… Plazecca! 🎵

Thank you so much for asking, Anon! Truly, you have enriched my enclosure. 💖

[prismatoxic]

So like,why do you ship Laios and Chillchuck? This isn't anon hate it's just a ship i never really thought about and now I'm curios and I like hearing people rant about their blorbos

for many reasons! but let's start at the beginning, shall we?

i didn't know dungeon meshi existed until early february. i'd seen some media for it in the past, but didn't know any of it was related nor was i interested enough to dig further.

the very first fanart i ever saw for dungeon meshi was this one (it was on a different site though):

i didn't know who the characters were, but the dynamic spoke to me. it reminded me of two of my partner's OCs that we've been shipping together for nearly ten years: a big buff blonde guy who loves animals and seems stupid but is just socially stunted, and a short aggressive rogue with reddish hair and brown eyes who doesn't take other people's shit and is damn good at what he does. yes, it's that specific. these are them:

even without that foundation to work on, though, chilaios interested me. i love size differences and i love ships between nice guys and angry guys. that said, i mostly put it out of mind after nick's first fanart, but it posted some more not too long later which got me thinking about it again...

and by then more people were talking about dunmeshi because the anime was getting underway. i spotted chilchuck and laios in posts about the series and realized that was where they were from, and that there was an anime, as well as a manga. that was all i knew, but their dynamic was intriguing me more and more, so i told my partner about it and said chilchuck and laios reminded me of harry and jeffrey and showed him some of the fanart. neither of us tend to start new media very often (i'm significantly worse about it, it takes a lot to get me to try), but eventually i looked into the series and found that the anime was brand new (5 episodes at the time) and the manga was completed. both of those facts were ideal for trying to get into it.

we didn't start watching until the week episode 9 came out, not for lack of interest but because there just wasn't really any incentive to get a move on. by then we'd both recognized that we'd be insane about chilchuck in particular, because we love his character type and he's very, very cute. and we were right! you could practically hear the canned audience applause when he showed up onscreen the first time.

we didn't watch all 8 episodes in one sitting, but we did watch several of them, and i think it was clear to us both that chilchuck and laios absolutely had a fun dynamic. eventually we'd go on to read the entire manga, and we're fully caught up on the anime, watching the new episodes every thursday.

the basic thing i like about their sort of setup is the way laios respects chilchuck and never doubts their relationship, while chilchuck is frequently aggressive and critical but staunchly sticks around and keeps helping anyway. it says a lot about them as friends: laios isn't worried that chilchuck actually hates him, and chilchuck's actions speak louder than his words, always staying and doing the best he can even if he complains. he wants what's best for laios, even if he never says it, and laios trusts him completely.

i love that chilchuck cares even if he pretends he doesn't, and i love that laios has utmost faith in him. i love the little intricacies of their individual backstories and the ways they compare and contrast. i love the way their personalities collide, independent of their existing relationship (as in, i'd ship them even if they interacted less). i love their size difference. i love them individually, as really well-written and fascinating characters, and i love thinking of new ways to pair them together and seeing what everyone else does with them. i love chilaios!!!! it makes me very happy and they are a perfect ship for me.

look at that. goddamn. the way the shot lingers. the way laios grips his hand. 10/10 effervescent would ship again

[sky-drgn]

Becoming Belle

Pronouns: you/your, reader described as wearing a skirt and heels Word Count: 1,397 Warnings: Spoilers for chapters 1 and 2 of Chevalier's route, contains dialogue from these chapters Notes: Part of the Secret Princess universe, my OC's universe. This is written as a reader insert! References to Flower Crown, the first fic in this universe, you don't need to read it to understand this one, it might help, but you don't need to.

Banners by @/cafekitsune

How did you become Belle? Honestly, no one knew. To be Belle you needed to possess a beautiful, pure heart, something you, the newly appointed Belle, do not normally have. 

Sure, you had worked at a bookstore in the capital of Rholidate for the last three and a half years. It’s peaceful in the capital of Rholidate; never once had there been a cause for you to show the impurities of your heart.

Now, here in the castle, those opportunities arose. Being in a position where you needed to keep your heart as pure as possible was not ideal.

The morning was relatively simple; you had introduced yourself to the princes of the domestic faction. The evening was fading into twilight as you were getting to everyone in the foreign affairs faction. Only to open the office door into one of Clavis’s traps. Flower petals rained down on you as you opened the door. Despite how easily some of them brushed off, you found more later when you changed for the night. With most of them brushed off, you asked where everyone else was. Clavis said Nokto was off doing other… activities… and Luke was probably taking a nap. But when Clavis started talking about Chevalier, you knew he was up to something. The way he asked if you were curious about what Chevalier was doing just before dragging you out to where he was before you could even finish answering. 

You couldn’t help but marvel at the rose gardens. A sea of different shades of red roses laid out in front of you. It was unlike the gardens you were used to seeing. Less colorful. That did not make the sight any less beautiful.

In the middle of it all was Chevalier. Clavis persuaded you to go up to the blond prince alone. Somehow that did not surprise you, having known he had a plan up his sleeve before the two of you even left the foreign affairs office. Knowing all wasn't as it seemed, you proceeded with caution, trying to take in all that could as you approached the blond.

“Good afternoon, Prince Chevalier.” 

His cold blue eyes met yours as he turned to face you. Blue eyes that scared nearly everyone. You were not scared. You remember those blue eyes. His name you could not pronounce as a young child. Yeah, he did not scare you in the slightest, not even the dark red stain on his cloak. The dyed red roses. The deathly still man lying on the ground. It did not scare you. You knew exactly what happened here. 

You watched as Clavis and Chevalier interacted. You are supposed to choose the next king, and since you could not use a pure heart to choose the next king, you decided to fall back on logic. You took in how they talked to each other, and noted how Chevalier seemed upset that his clothes were stained. 

“Why didn’t you- Ah no, never mind.” You decided it was best to cut yourself off, realizing he has his reasons for doing what he did in the way he did it. 

Noticing he was coming closer, you ungracefully stumbled back onto the grass. You blamed the high heels. Honestly, who wears heels in the grass and dirt? Normally you have perfect balance in any situation. Just… not in high heels. They have never been your first choice of footwear, recognizing when you needed to wear them and when you didn't. 

Thankfully, Chevalier didn’t say anything about your ungraceful fall. But his sword glittering in the setting sun caught your attention. The sound of something rustling behind you also drew your attention. You quickly understood that Chevalier was no threat, but what behind you was. Thankfully Chevalier handled it. Or, maybe not so thankfully, as you felt something warm on your skin. That something undeniably blood. 

“What you were about to say might have been a grave mistake on your part.” 

Asking why he killed them instead of knocking them out with the sheath of his sword might actually have been a grave mistake in this instance, but you didn’t have a comeback for that. Instead, you looked up at him with a slight glare, not knowing what to say. Admitting defeat was not something you were fond of. 

“If you don’t want to end up like those two, I suggest you learn your place, fool.” Chevalier cleaned off his sword with a flick of the wrist, sending the blood onto the grass nearby. “Now, what business do you have with me?” 

Deciding you did not want to have a conversation with a prince while he looked down at you, uncomfortable on the grass, you stood and brushed off your skirt. Dirtied from the fall and bloodied from Chevalier’s actions. You grimaced at how dirty your appearance was, uncomfortable with the bloody setting for such a conversation. “My apologies for having interrupted you. I’ll catch you at a better time.” You decided it was best to introduce yourself another time when you weren’t uncomfortable in multiple ways. 

Swiftly walking away you left the two brothers alone. You wanted to get onto a solid path with your heels still sinking into the grass. Going out into the gardens always meant flat shoes or staying in areas with pavers. You sighed when you realized you would have to get used to it. This place was not your home. You could not get a change of shoes so easily. Another sigh escaped your lips at the thought as you bumped into Luke.

The conversation with Chevalier came later than you expected. You knew that you would be busy learning what you needed to to be Belle and that Chevalier, as a prince and leader of his faction, would be busy as well. However, you thought you might get one chance to talk to him during the day. You almost thought he might be avoiding you. Clavis seemed to have another idea as he convinced you to talk with Chevalier, tame him even. You questioned how he didn’t notice that you don’t need convincing. You quickly realize he likes leading conversations, so you let him go on. It was a good way to obtain information. Like how Chevalier called you a simpleton, and how they think you are a rabbit, a bunny. While the animal is adorable, and you were fond of them, you almost found it insulting that they had been comparing you to such a frail animal. 

Hearing a sigh and a wish to be left out of his little brother's schemes, you turned to see Chevalier. You wondered how you didn’t notice his presence. Having prided yourself on knowing your surroundings, who or who might not be around, you wondered how you had slipped up twice in as many days. Noticing the light move of his eyebrow, you realized you had done nothing but stare at him.

“I don’t believe you have what it takes to tame a beast,” Chevalier said, and for the first time, you saw him smirk, an almost smile. However, it was only for a moment. Sounds like a challenge you readily accepted.

Noticing him walking away with his cloak fluttering behind him, you grabbed onto his cloak asking, more like demanding, him to wait. An action that does not please the blue-eyed man as he glared at you. You just met that gaze head-on without a hint of fear. Your actions are very much one of a “simpleton” as you learned he called you. Well, if he thinks you're such a simpleton and you are supposed to be a commoner, why not play into it a little bit.

“The business I had with you yesterday evening. I would like to formally introduce myself-” 

“Unnecessary.” 

“What do you mean?” 

“Instead of giving me your name, show me your worth. Show me why you deserve to have me listen to what you have to say.” 

Well, you weren’t going to give him your name, just what you have been going by. However, you liked the sound of his words. Proving yourself was something you have done over and over. Not that you believe this time will be any easier than the others. In fact, this time will probably be the hardest. 

Maybe being Belle won't be as boring as you had been expecting it to be.

IkePri Masterlist | Hidden Princess Masterlist

[praetoravila]

15, 20, 25, 38, 40 (a new one! not one we've talked about👀), 51, 69, 72, 83, 99, 100 (if you're up for it!) <333 for jelisa !!!

HIIIII thank you ash!!!!!

15. How do they comfort one another when the other is upset?

elisa is a physical touch person, so usually a hug and a kiss or just generally hanging around in james’ presence is enough to help her, while james prefers getting to talk it out (he also likes a good mope session)

20. Who handles the spiders? Who screams directions in the background?

neither of them LMAO! elisa grew up with bugs all around her in brazil and her immediate reaction to most of them now is, danger will kill you, so she just doesn’t do anything until it’s gone. and james…. well it’s james. he doesn’t like dirt and anything involving dirt. tião (elisa’s uncle) is usually called in as bug reinforcement

25. Do they have any pet names for one another?

YES!!! stealing this one from you lol, but james calls elisa songbird, along with your standard babe, baby, and babygirl - babygirl usually being one only for more intimate moments. elisa calls him pet names mostly in portuguese but a few english ones sneak in there as well. her favourites are: meu príncipe (my prince), lindo (handsome), and meu gato (my hottie). technically she could also call james tiago since his name and that name are derivative from the same word but it’s too close to tião so absolutely not LOL

38. What would be their ideal evening in?

elisa’s not very picky, so honestly, just lying around w james in bed or on the couch doing nothing is sufficient for her. james prefers doing something of some sort so either watching a movie together or cooking a simple meal together - he loves learning about elisa’s culture and hearing her speak in portuguese as she’s explaining things to him

40. What is a song that reminds you of the OCs' relationship?

oooo okay choosing a song, that we haven’t already talked about, stuck by big time rush in my head is the first song james writes for elisa. it’s written post mid s2, when they first start dating and gustavo informs him that he can’t talk about their relationship publicly bc he’s the heartthrob of the band, and the fans won’t like the idea of him

not being single. he just wants everyone to know how in love he is, but he can’t, and it’s killing him lol. for a elisa song, flip the script by prima j is her song. when she first starts falling for james, she had no intention of getting into a relationship at all, she’s still struggling with her immigration and her homesickness + her fears about not being good enough for los angeles. james is one of the first people in la to remind her that she is talented enough and that she’s done the work to prove it and herself. it doesn’t fix her fears, but it sates them, and its one of the first real, intimate moments they share that makes her realize her feelings for him!

51. Are there any characters who ship them?

is it a cheat to say all of btr? lol, but yes, james’ friends are all very supportive of their relationship, particularly kendall and carlos who are the quote unquote matchmakers. kendall points out to james that he has feelings for elisa in the first place, and carlos finds ways to insert the two of them into shenanigans where they have to interact so they became friends and eventually more. elisa’s best friend back in São Paulo, fernanda (fernie for short) is also their biggest supporter, and she gives james the shovel talk (in portuguese. at 2am. right after a concert lol)

69. If they were to go shopping, who holds the bags? Who decides where they go?

james is the one who usually holds the bags, he’s a gentleman okay? he’s also usually the one who decides what stores they go into. elisa isn’t a big fan of malls, they overstimulate her too much, especially with the smell of american fast food (girlie hates the smell of refined oil) but when she’s in charge of the mall trip, they usually end up in american eagle, anthropology and Aeropostale (or the triples a’s as she calls them lol) since those stores are her vibe

72. If someone flirted with or showed an interest in their S/O, how would the other react?

oo!!!! i think it’s nuanced. elisa knows that james is famous, and that he’s the heartthrob of the band, so she’s kind of resigned herself to knowing that people will flirt with him, and that she is going to have to learn to not be jealous. but i think if someone is flirting with him when he’s just james and not specifically being james from big time rush, she gets a little bit peeved bc she wants him to have that distinction from who he is in the band. james on the other hand is a jealous man. he doesn’t like people looking at or touching what’s “his”, and that includes elisa lol. it’s part of why he hates jett for so long, bc jett would NOT get the hint and kept flirting with elisa. she would obviously turn him down and be polite, but james could tell it was making her uncomfortable which made his anger turn up 100 times more

83. Who gets frustrated more easily? Who does the other calm them down?

james does for sure! he’s passionate about everything he does, even if it’s not always the smartest thing, and one thing in particular he gets frustrated about is people comparing him and kendall. he’s very insecure about it, and elisa’s good at picking up on when he needs a moment to be in a kendall free zone and just rant or hug it out or whatever it is that he needs. elisa sometimes gets frustrated w her health issues, especially when her thyroid problems start acting up. james is good at spotting when she needs to take a break and stop for a minute, and he’s particularly good at enforcing the routine of eating and drinking water for her (she forgets to do it all the time. like seriously elisa, girl it’s a problem)

99. Who gives off "they said no pickles" energy?

elisa!!!! she’s the mom friend, and james is very picky about what he eats and she will go to the poor 16 year old running the mcdonalds counter and chew them out in english and portuguese for putting pickles on his cheeseburger when he asked for no pickles!

100. Make a meme of this ship.

okay not memes that EYE made, but here some silly goofy ones that i think fit them.

i went off a little bit lmao

[ayphyx]

tell me ab ur ocs.

YIPPEE

Ok so i actually have a shit ton of oc but the main ones are Maria and Aelius as they are the main characters of a story I’m making. My friend’s oc Romeo is also important to the story

I have two oc stories, one doesn’t really have a name but basically takes place over tens of years in medieval Europe (basic i know) but it follows the rivalry between a knight named Courage and an “oracle” named Destiny. They’re both immortal btw and they’re basically humanized concepts of courage and destiny. I do have a drawing of Destiny posted. It should be in my “oc: destiny” tag.

The other story is actually a collection of stories. The series is called god & goddesses bc i don’t have a permanent name for it.

So far there’s 4 stories which are all interconnected and two are sorta interconnected but the most developed, important, and oldest one (4 years old!!) is the last story.

I’ll try to summarize it in a way that is still understandable but it’s basically colonization and genocide through the eyes of a god.

Ok some background information bc you’re gonna need it:

There are several religions existing in the world. These religions are divided into major (large) religions and minor (small, folk) religions. Every god from every religion (granted that they have enough believers) exist

Gods from the major religions (major gods) created something called the Major Pantheon which is consisted of every major god

The major gods created a sort of government to basically make sure major conflicts between religions don’t break out

The people in the government are called Higher Gods

There are laws in the major pantheon that apply to all gods

There is a social hierarchy but its not as important to this story

I’m not gonna list all the laws out but the important ones are (the bully points after this isn’t indented bc idk how to indent on mobile):

Gods are not allowed to create cults, encourage the creation of cults, or engage with cult members

Gods are only allowed minor interactions with humans (there’s more to this law but the rest isn’t that important to the story)

Maria is a major goddess of spring, she has a younger sister, Anastasia, and two older sisters, Tatiana and Olya (if you recognize these names from somewhere, no you don’t). Theta recall based off of seasons, Tatiana is especially important because she is also a higher god. She is also mixed white and indigenous (located around Eastern Europe and north Asia)

Aelius is a sun god from another religion (which i will call the Old Religion). While he is powerful and trusted, he is not a higher god. He is white (would be Mediterranean irl)

Romeo is in love with Aelius and a human, he is a poc

It’s told as a myth from a young woman, a foreigner, to a boy who’s native to the village the woman has immigrated to.

The myth tells the tale of Maria who is forced to leave her home and disguise herself as a human after Aelius destabilizes the major pantheon, murders and influences gods to murder each other, including Maria’s family. After the village she was hiding in is taken over by Aelius’s soldiers, Maria is forced to relocate to the Empire which is under Aelius’s control. There she finds an underground revolution and joins in. When the Revolution breaks out, it seems to have a chance of actually succeeding until the military is called in and crushes the Revolution in a massacre. Maria is distraught but then creates a plan to infiltrate the religious system and get close enough to kill Aelius. She is taken in as a seamstress’s apprentice. She eventually meets a man named Romeo who wanders in, wanting to be taught how to sew. They end up striking a friendship and Maria becomes comfortable enough to talk about her ideals and goals of revolution. Turns out, Romeo is actually the leader of Aelius’s religion, and disguised himself as a commoner to escape his role that he feels uncomfortable and unfit for. Romeo doesn’t dare to expose his identity but he does end up internalizing some of Maria’s beliefs and working to subtly implement them. Maria does eventually find Romeo’s true identity and feel betrayed but decides to use her friendship with Romeo to her advantage. Before maria kickstarts the revolution, she does confront Romeo about being in universe pope, they basically talk it out and shit. Maria begins the revolution by fighting and murdering Aelius and then sets fire to the capital of the empire.

There’s more to this and i can explain it to you in detail if you want but yeah that’s basically the summary of story 4 of g&g. I also would love to talk about certain themes of story 4 like divinity as dehumanization if you want me to. I also have several Pinterest boards of Maria, Aelius, Destiny, courage, and more if you want me to share them to you. 👍👍👍

My oc tags start with “oc:” if you want to know a little bit more about their personality through tumblr text posts. Aelius also used to be called sunny so when you see “oc: sunny” that means Aelius

Have a wip of Maria burning down the capital as an extra for reading literally all of this

[maagi3]

Fandoms and Characters

Because it's so relevant in the purview of my current fandom obsession, I wanted to put my thoughts out on fandoms and the characters that people latch onto.

When someone latches onto a character, there's usually a reason for it. Whether it's their physical appearance, their personality, their aesthetic, their voice, their story -- there are so many ways someone might attach to a character. And the creatives of the fandom will, of course, create.

What I don't get, and something that continues to baffle me especially with characters I like, is how someone can claim to be a fan of a character (or characters) and yet strip every single identifying feature of said character in their creative work. What part of the character do you like if you're going to entirely change their personality and their interactions with other characters? Especially in the written word, what is the point of writing a story if the character no longer resembles their namesake?

It becomes even worse in the shipping part of fandoms. People are, of course, allowed to ship the characters they want to ship. I can happily block or mute the tags associate (which, of course, requires the creative to tag things properly). But that doesn't stop me from questioning how someone can like a ship when they completely change both characters and erase every identifying feature they have from the source material. I suppose the superficial idea of two people that someone likes physically and doesn't care about any other trait could explain it, but it just feels like you should be writing OCs at that point. When the character is tagged as coming from a source material yet doesn't look, act, or sound like said character, why bother tagging them at all? And it isn't necessarily a case of characterization preferences -- many characters have clearly defining features that, when removed, make them seem very unlike the character they're tagged as being.

It's particularly relevant now with my current obsession/ship. Anyone that looks at my blog or my AO3 would, of course, know what I'm talking about, but for the sake of keeping this more general I won't post them here. I simply cannot read almost any fic written about my current obsession because the characterization of these characters is so thoroughly botched that if I see them in the tags, I just assume that they aren't the characters that I'm looking for. And I won't sit here and say that my writing keeps them in character any better than others, but I do actively try. I want them to sound like they're supposed to sound, be who they're supposed to be, not some idealized version of them from a source separate from the canon. Even for AUs, I want the characters to still be recognizable. And regardless of opinion, I like to think that I'm successful.

I don't really have anything else to say, it's just something I wanted to get written out somewhere. It can be cathartic to blog about it somewhere that isn't just private, that is open for others to read, even if I'm not really looking for a debate or responses from anyone. At the end of the day, the only person I can control is myself and the content I create. Which I will happily continue to do.

[ussenterpeen]

jeebies' most wanted!

Hi! I'm Jeebies (32, cisfem, queer, EST, been roleplaying for 20+ years) and I am a writer and moderator on Denouement, an 18+ pan/multifandom roleplaying site that's been going strong for over two years. We have a Jcink hub for apps, lore, and basic info, but most of the writing/RP takes place via real time chats (utilizing Tupper), post-by-post threads, and comm threads on Discord. We also use Cbox for RP, particularly for real time group RP. What makes Denouement unique is the sheer variety of fandoms/muses represented -- anime/manga, live action tv & movies, novels & comics, musicals & podcasts. It's truly a panfandom experience -- not leaning towards one genre or medium or another. We welcome the most niche fandom characters as well as fandomless original characters. Our members love sharing their OCs and hyping up others' as well. Below, I've written a few detailed blurbs for characters I'd really like to write against. The character wanted is in bold, and I write the character in italics.

Rebecca Welton for Ted Lasso (platonic or romantic)

I took Ted from the end of S3, leaving for Kansas City. Writing him against a Rebecca from S1 who is still bitter and an emotional mess could be a lot of fun; Ted would be able to use his therapy techniques and improved emotional intelligence to help her adjust. Talk about a reversal of which fish is out of which body of water! I think being stranded together, desperately clinging to one another for sanity and security, could be the spark of potential that leads to a slow burn Tedbecca relationship -- though I am absolutely cool with keeping them platonic/unrequited if that's not your speed.

Dean Winchester for Castiel (platonic, ideally romantic)

My Cas is from the end of S5, and I have also put him on the Summer Path, meaning he has all of his angelic powers but no memory of who or what he is. So far, he's been working as a humble gardener and beekeeper, interacting with other non-humans to try and figure out who he might be. Having Dean show up and try to help him remember things would help reshape Cas back into the being he's meant to be. And maybe they kiss a little along the way?? Plus, Denouement's got a whole lot of baddies to gank!

Tony Stark for Peter Parker (familial/platonic)

My Peter is from the end of No Way Home, so he arrived in Denouement under the impression no one would know or remember him, with both of his closest parental figures gone. He has MJ, a beacon in the darkness, but he's struggling to decide if he needs to give up being Spider-Man for good, lest he destroy this new world the way he nearly destroyed his own. Having his mentor back to help him find his way would be so great for his development. Also, if you pick up Tony, there's already a Stark Industries waiting for him to play with (and I also write Steve Rogers which could make for some draaaaaamaaaa). Plus, we have a whole cast of Marvel chars to write with.

Leonard 'Bones' McCoy for James T. Kirk (platonic)

I pulled Jim from the end of STID, so I am looking more specifically for an AOS Bones to write against, but also happy to write against TOS Bones if that's your vibe! Jim needs his bestie, and no world will ever test Bones' patience like Denouement; there are so many strange and hazardous situations that need a doctor. We have an AOS Spock, a DIS-era Pike, and a few other Star Trek OCs to write with as well!

Here's some helpful links to get started!

Guidebook Taken Canons Reserves Path/Ranking System Discord

I also write: Eddie Munson, Edwin Paine, Emma Meyer, Fiona Goode, Five Hargreeves, Joel Miller, Karen Page Rey, and Steve Rogers. I'm happy to toss plotting your way with any of these folks should you choose to join!

Aaaaand, a few other of my wanted fandoms/fandoms I just wanna see:

Star Wars, Stranger Things, The Umbrella Academy, The Last of Us, The Boys, Gen V, American Horror Story, Kingsman, X-Men, The Adventure Zone, Yu Yu Hakusho, Avatar: The Last Airbender, Barbie, Dead Boy Detectives, Doctor Who, Severence

[jadeacereigen]

20 and serizawa (:

Waaah Cass thank you

(ask game)

20. Which other character is the ideal best friend for this character, the amount of screentime they share doesn't matter?

Okay THIS is an interesting question hmmmm

I think the obvious answer would be Reigen but that's way too boring of an answer. There's also Mob, Shou, and Tome but like. they're also literal teenagers while Serizawa is 30 so idk if that would be considered "ideal" 😭 Same goes for Minegishi. So maybe one of the other ex-Claw members? Maybe the ex-Scars of the 7th Division, that would be an interesting interaction.

It's funny this question came up for Serizawa cuz this morning I literally just remembered these OCs I had in my head that I never talked about. I just thought it would be cool/funny if Serizawa got "adopted" into this friend group consisting of three ex-convicts who were all in the same prison block and now attend night school/live together. I never named these three ladies but I could totally picture Serizawa talking to them about Reigen and one of them's just like "DON'T FUCKING DATE YOUR BOSS" and the other one's like "come on let him live a little life is short" and the third one's just like "I think he likes you too (:"

Sorry for rambling about my OCs unprompted this was not really what the question was asking 😭

[elixirvitae]

If you would indulge me since OC's are on the table - I'd like to mention my OC, Specialist Corporal Zemira Makhabi. She's a grizzled, cartoonish and potty-mouthed Hellsing trooper as well as a consutant on Judaism (which you can bet she and Alucard have some fun deep talks about) but I created her to have a type of attitude that would really challenge Alucard's ideals and throw some of his hypocrisies in his face. They have a very hot-and-cold, chummy-one-second-and-predator/prey-the-next kind of dynamic. One of these interactions, I am curious to your take on.

There is a scene in which Alucard is interrogating Zemira about what she intends to do with herself in the event she is turned into a vampire. Her response is to scoff and say "Swan dive onto the nearest stake, why?" And this answer really gets a raised eyebrow from Alucard. Zemira then insists that Alucard swear an oath to personally put her down, should she ever turn. This is, of course, rather unusual to Alucard’s perspective.

Herein lies the quandary: here is a human Alucard has come to somewhat respect and care about - in a fucked up, possessive, maledom kind of way, of course - who he has gone on record saying she would make a bad vampire, saying she would ask him to kill her if she turned. Kind of goes against the common image of vampires as intrinsically power-hungry and selfish. Me personally, I think that even if he does fully believe that humans who turn to vampirism are now lesser, unless Integra orders him to, he'd have trouble doing something like this - and even if she did, he wouldn't be thrilled about it. What's your take on this premise? If it was up to him, would he honor his promise? Or would he try to force someone like this to adapt to their vampirism, be it out of a sense of possessiveness or something else? This concept endlessly fascinates me, but perhaps you think it's rather simple. Really dig this blog!

Oh fuck yeah! Judaism has some really cool lore and mysticism. Is her name a reference to anything?

The one thing Alucard emphasizes when asked about Seras, and why he got so angry at the other vampires and at Anderson, is choice. He suffers the consequences of his poor choices, and the way he sees it, so do the others. After Mina, he has no sympathy for people that share this poor choice. I think he'd agree to promise that if it ever came to that, he would ask her again if that's what she wanted. If Zemira were to come unto vampirism against her will, he would absolutely put her down if that's what she still wanted in the moment. I think he asked for orders to kill Walter because he didn't want to risk making the wrong choice and suffering further for it. Because his lack of autonomy is a scapegoat for not having to make any decisions for himself beyond a surface level. He didn't choose to turn Seras, she did. He didn't choose to kill those human soldiers, Integra did. He didn't decide Anderson had to die, Anderson did. He didn't decide to kill Walter, Integra did. If he put Zemira out of her misery, it would be her decision.

[sophieinwonderland]

Hyptheticals: Endogenic heamates in traumagenic systems

When I talk hypotheticals about traumagenic systems with endogenic headmates, I'm usually imagining what I'll call "verifiably endogenic" headmates.

There's a lot of gray area where it's impossible to tell if a headmate is "actually" endogenic. Are childhood memories of always being a system actually reliable when most people can't remember before the age of 2? Is a spiritual headmate really a spirit or is it just a psychological headmate with vivid pseudo-memories of being a spirit? Even tulpas from OCs can be questionable because those OCs can actually be based on existing headmates which existed first, opening up a whole "chicken or egg" dilemma.

So let's propose an ideal circumstance for verifiable endogenesis and explore it and its ramifications.

The Tulpa Creation Experiment (With Singlets)

Take a large group of singlets with no known dissociative disorders, plurality or PTSD.

Each participant is given instructions on how to make a fixed tulpa. Where most tulpas are created by the tulpamancer themselves, this group would be given source packets and essentially instructed to make a fictive based on the original character presented in these packets. It would have a fixed name and history to start with that participants would be instructed to read and study before they start communicating with the tulpa. This would ensure it wasn't a character participants had an existing attachment to.

Also included would be guides on creating a tulpa, combating doubt and learning how to switch.

My prediction is that, in a year's time of daily interaction with the tulpa, the majority of singlets in the experiment would end up with a fully autonomous, self-conscious headmate.

The headmate will often have some pseudomemories based on the source given to them. The participant won't be consciously controlling the headmate. The headmate will communicate with an inner voice that sounds similar to internal thoughts but distinct from the participant's own mindvoice. They'll have their own thoughts and feelings. There will likely be passive influence where emotions of the new headmate will bleed over. The new headmate will be able to switch and take front with the aid of the dissociative practices outlined in the guides for switching. And there will be a disconnect between memories of the host and the new headmate. (So-called "emotional amnesia." But there will not be blackout amnesia that's common in DID.)

Not everyone will succeed, since there does seem to be some underlying propensity for plurality. But I think most will. I also would predict that, like studies into people who hear God, the successful tulpamancers will have higher levels of Absorption.

This would be as close as we could get to confirming definitively that headmates can be formed without trauma.

The Tulpa Creation Experiment (With CDD Systems.)

Run this same experiment with a second group made up of DID and OSDD-1 systems.

My prediction is that you will get similar results to the first. Most will succeed in creating headmates. These headmates will have distinct identities and autonomy just like the first group. They will communicate through mindvoice like the others. And they will have the "emotional amnesia" of the first group between headmates.

I also predict certain differences based on reports from tulpamancers with CDDs vs the singlet group.

First, while I believe a majority of both groups will succeed in creating a tulpa, I think it's likely a greater majority will succeed in the CDD group as they already have a high propensity for plurality. People who are already plural appear to have an easier time making headmates, whether their plurality is endogenic or traumagenic.

Second, based on people who have both, I believe alters and tulpas are fundamentally the same thing and are just affected by the presence of a dissociative disorders in different ways. What this means is that in addition to the switching, passive influence, internal communication and "emotional amnesia" of the first group, the tulpa will often be affected by dissociative symptoms affecting the rest of the system despite being created endogenically. They may experience inter-identity amnesia, switching may be a triggered sometimes, etc.

(This is also incredibly important for prospective tulpamancers with CDDs to remember. I've gotten asks on this blog from DID systems surprised when they couldn't remember what their tulpa did in front because they heard you don't have amnesia with tulpas. My warning is that if you have a CDD and want to make a tulpa, you will be making an alter, and they'll often still have associated features of the disorder. That's not saying you shouldn't. I just want everyone aware of the risks and to not be caught off-guard.)

Questions This Raises

These predictions are based purely on my own observations of anecdotes from the communities. But I do believe these would hold true. And if they do, there are a few questions I believe should be considered.

Are all headmates in traumagenic systems traumagenic?

A common talking point from anti-endos is that if the system is traumagenic then every headmate that exists must be traumagenic too. But I believe, in the above hypothetical, we could engineer a situation where headmates could be created in both disordered and non-disordered systems through the same exact methods.

If this method is used and produced results in both disordered systems and singlets, would this show definitively that traumagenic systems can have headmates who aren't traumagenic?

What are the implications on the diagnostic criteria of OSDD-1a and DID?

OSDD-1a is a community term for a presentation of a OSDD that's similar to DID where alters are less distinct.

If an OSDD-1a system with less distinct alters were to undergo the above tulpamancy experiment, they would now have a headmate who was much more distinct and personified. Would this make them technically a DID system now?

If it does, would that make their DID technically iatrogenic?

That inherently feels wrong, especially since tulpamancy is often beneficial. Instead, I think the way to avoid a scenario where a nonharmful practice is considered to make a disorder more complex is to just roll OSDD-1a into DID. Stop treating levels of elaboration as differentiating factors in the diagnosis.

This way, they would just be considered to have DID both before and after the experiment.

Many DID experts have already been advocating for this for a long time given how unclear and ambiguous the directions are for differentiating levels of distinctiveness is. Maybe this could give the final push to just group OSDD-1a into DID.

What are the implications for the Theory of Structural Dissociation?

Does the ToSD only apply to traumagenic headmates? Would the tulpa created in the above experiment be categorized as an ANP under this theory since it's not an EP? And if so, what are the implications for the conception of tertiary dissociation?

If a system with secondary dissociation (having one ANP and multiple EPs) under this theory created a headmate, would they now have tertiary dissociation? (Multiple ANPs, multiple EPs.)

If yes, you run into a problem similar to the above, where the experiment itself would make the disorder more complex.

If the endogenic headmates in traumagenic systems don't count into this equation, then how do we differentiate between them? How can we say if a headmate is endogenic or traumagenic with certainty outside of these engineered experiments?

These experiments need to be more than thought experiments!

Again, everything I've said thus far has been predictions based on anecdotes.

To really start to understand plurality, we need actual hard data from actual psychologists and psychiatrists.

I don't expect everyone to agree with my predictions. That's fine. Disagreement is a natural part of discourse. But I think everyone should want these answers.

And given that all current research into created systems is into tulpa systems, supporting research into tulpamancy should be the highest priority of anyone who actually cares about advancing the science into systemhood.

[corpse-water]

my only tenno oc is a grendal main named ramovk and he's all the more weird for maining a guy whose main ability is "i can cannibalize guys real good"

like... he's very attached to that frame in particular but he's also attached to the idea of literally eating his enemies. this is the thing that has helped keep him and other people safe so the idea of like "hey maybe the ability to eat guys real good is a bad thing" hasn't really struck him. even when he's all grown up and can't really work as much as he used to, he still kind of idealizes this frame and talks very casually about the horrors

he's a scary guy! i think all of the tenno are. but ram especially really has a hard time relating to people. he genuinely believes that his family doesn't like him / sees him as less deserving because he can't work as much / thinks he is inadequate in some way. he takes that as just... Fact. and then when he feels bad or frustrated, doesn't understand that it stems from this believe in specific.

also he gets very obsessive and sucked into things so sometimes he'll just want to talk about this new historical thing that he found with little regard to whatever else is going on. he'll just kind of forget social interaction is a two way street.