#my hand washing compulsion

[ashersbraincell]

Me, making my not so merry way to the bathroom for the nth time because I convinced myself my hands may smell just a little but funny and hence I need to wash them for the nth time

[weepingwillows-sweethibiscustea]

It is soo fucked up that managing OCD means ignoring your compulsions… what do you MEAN to make the gross feeling go away I have to STOP washing my hands?

[saritaurez]

Was having a conversation about this and now I’m curious.

What do you prefer: Automatic dishwasher or hand washing dishes?

Do you have ADHD or OCD?

[carlyraejepsans]

toriel... what are your toriel takes today

i have a headcanon that toriel has a hand-washing compulsion where she does it wayy more thoroughly than needed, instinctively trying to scrub under her claws even when they're perfectly clean because she can still feel the phantom of dirt under them from the time she dug chara's grave.

[dersandmannkommt]

when I mention that I have OCD and people think I mean I'm an organized perfectionist, but then they find out I'm actually constantly bordering on psychosis

[ociels]

i feel so pathetic for feeling like this

[tele-mesmerism]

the dx req(?) for ocd being that it takes up at least an hr a day is idk interesting to me like you cant get dxd if youre doing better for a bit? mine is a little bit of numbers and cleanliness compulsions that are always the same amnt of time & ive had them since middle school so they dont rly take up much time ive got this shit streamlined. but the majority of my ocd is specifically non religious moral scrupulosity but im doing better this yearish than i had been for a few years since that developed. for sure in the worst of it i was spending hours daily obsessing over morality and compulsively educating myself & it heavily affected my interactions with others. but ive been doing better the past year trying to not be insane abt these things & i think meds have helped somewhat as well as a partner who keeps some of it in check, its harder to let yourself spiral and indulge compulsions when you have someone there to say youre being weird for it. with all that im definitely down to on average less than an hr a day with only occasional flares. its just a bit interesting like you can have ocd for half ur life but as long as its worst moments dont coincide with meeting with a professional who would label it as that (and/or you keep your obsessions and compulsions secret because they're shameful. esp with forms that are just. you absolutely cant talk about. im not even mentioning mine.) you just dont have it recognized

[anatheyma]

tism sensory issues have taken me to places i wouldn't even go with a gun (i eat cheese balls with a fork because i hate the dust on fingers)

[bigshort2015]

today i was such a good boy.

i...

neatened up my room (which involved cleaning up/organizing my desk, unpacking my overnight bag, and putting away my CVS purchases that were in my tote bag)

cleaned out expired stuff from the fridge and finally threw out some leftovers that were wayyy too old and washed the tupperware they were in

did TWO loads of laundry and TWO loads of ironing!!!

dusted and wiped down surfaces in the apartment

vacuumed and swiffered the entire apartment including moving heavy furniture to vacuum and swiffer behind/under those as well

vacuumed the couch and cleaned the fabric

ran errands and got some random kitchen gadgets ive been meaning to buy since moving in (garlic press & potato masher, mainly)

and now i am all done and its only like 4:30pm 😊 and later im going to get very spicy soup from the place near our building and my roommate is going to show me more of scream queens. i still have a little bit of a cough but overall life is good!!

[awetistic-things]

goddamn this contamination ocd shit kicking my ass

[da-janela-lateral]

Me when the mental illness actually makes me feel bad and uncomfortable and puts problems in my day to day

[skeletons-in-ur-closet]

not to self diagnose but i gotta have some type of ocd bc my thoughts are absolutely ridiculous

[androidboy]

my gf heard me washing my hands over the phone and said “i love that you wash your hands whenever you come in from outside” very fondly and idk i told her about my ocd last week and i’m so used to the routine i didn’t realize it was something notable so it was nice to hear that

[llamagoddessofficial]

What's your favourite banana flavour?

dude I just absolutely love banana flavour. Banana is my favourite flavour and also my favourite food of all time

[ashersbraincell]

Not my hand washing compulsions coming back byeeeeeeee

[dersandmannkommt]

i wish ocd was taken more seriously. like i know how silly and stupid it may sound when you can rationalize a fear away, and still be afraid. but like thats the problem. i know im ridiculous. i know im crazy. i know i have ruined friendships because i couldnt handle a trigger. i know that. you dont have to tell or show me that im being irrational. im fully aware. and yet im still terrified. thats what it means to be sick. im sick; there is something broken inside of me

and ocd is so watered down that when i try to explain these things to my friends and family they brush it off. and when something big happens (because something always does), they treat me like im some monster that's just now rearing its face. like. i begged my mom for years to get me help, and she never took me seriously. then cue 16 yr old me scrubbing my body with bleach- yes, bleach. 7yr old me with hands so dry from washing washing washing that they were constantly bleeding (this still happens from time to time). 13 yr old sitting on the kitchen floor sobbing because im disgusting and contaminating everything around me. and everything around me is contaminating me. and im contaminating everything and everything is contaminating me and there are germs and diseases everywhere. the trigger you ask? someone touched a bowl that i ate out of.

im sick and no one will take it seriously until they can make me out to be a monster. my mom gets offended, my dad scoffs and rolls his eyes. as if im somehow ruining their time. like?? sorry that you guys are suffering from my ocd. im sorry that being your daughter is such an inconvenience. its not like you couldnt have gotten me the help i needed sooner?? was it not clear from the beginning?