#my cousin is long gone
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COSMO🍓🍞🍰✨!!
Character from Roblox Game:
'Dandy's World'
Human version fan design I made ♡
I have so many doodles on random notebooks.
Should I upload??
#cosmo#rollcake#artists on tumblr#fanart#my art#finger artist#dandy's world rp#dandys world#dandy's world fanart#dandy's world#dandy's world cosmo#fruitcake my beloved#fan design#fan human design#human version#I've fallen into the fanfic rabbit hole#i didn't fall into the actual game rabbit hole#staying strong#my cousin is long gone#omg first full body drawing#but it's chibi#lolz#dandy's world oc#sprinkleberry#dandy's world fruitcake#dandys world fruitcake#i don't think this counts as sprinkleberry#after reading that one Ao3 fic 'decadence' i can't stop imaging them as humans#I've made so many fruitcake fanart on paper#should i upload them?
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My cousins 14 year old has been messaging me all the time because my cousin has the moral backbone of a slug and is now pretending to be hardcore conservative just becuase her new shit cunt of a boyfriend is a peice of shit right winger and its clearly deeply upsetting the 14 yr old so she's venting to me a lot and everyone is like "Well it's good she has you" and obviously it's good she has me but she should be able to rely on her own fucking mother not to be a weak minded, pathetic, loser who let's some random hateful man into the house
#Truly I am so glad I don't have that obsession with relationships so many women in my family have#They accept anything so long as they can claim a man is theirs and it's so fucking depressing#Now the poor kid has to deal with all this shit and she doesn't deserve it#Extra funny though bc my cousin always claimed my aunt was evil and the worst for doing the exact same thing#Prioritising a man over her well babe you've gone and repeated history- don't be shocked when the kid grows up and hates you
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in dawn of destruction i just love that little moment of pause snotlout had when hiccup came back from his small trip with astrid to find the edge being attacked. hiccup gives out orders, snotlout just stares at him and hiccup stammers to asks him ‘what is it, snotlout?’ to which snotlout replies, ‘nothing. it’s just well, it’s nice to have you back.’ and it’s with so much sincerity and even a hint of relief and it’s just so !!! snotlout looks up so much to hiccup and it grounds him (and the rest of the gang) for hiccup to BE there and to be the leader their team needs and has. it just shows how much faith and trust they have in each other and no matter how much he complains all the time, snotlout will always and undoubtedly have hiccup’s back and vice versa.
#this scene is actually only 5 seconds long but my brain went ACTUALLY !#the growth in their friendship is everything im gonna start eating my hand#IM GONNA GO FINISH THE EPISODE NOW#i just love them ok#average snotlout hiccup cousin dynamic#snotlout#hiccup#jackshiccup text#rtte#race to the edge#dawn of destruction#rtte s5 e7#i need to read snotlout hiccup character study fics soon or else ill explode#also snotlout was actually such a good leader when he took the initiative in leading the rest of them when hiccup was gone#and hiccup ACKNOWLEDGES that#oh brother ill cry again#AND dont forget the fact that snotlout saves his life by parrying krogan’s shot at hiccup with hookfang’s fire
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#this summer was the first time i tried to have a love life#has not gone particularly well#cant do this for the rest of my life ready to marry a doctor from Pakistan my dad has picked out im even learning pukhto#as long as its not my cousin#ill let you guys know in October#summer of love to autumn of arranged marriage#im being dramatic
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havent vented about how bad the hurricanes fucked up my family, the few outside of my siblings of people in this world i actually give a damn about because i figured i vent about plenty already but there is little more sickening to me than pretending so many deserved to die because of what strangers believe. you rant about your racist uncles and grandparents every thanksgiving, christmas, holiday, even joke about them. they are in your lives all the same. do you deserve to have your life, your entire life, past, present, and future, destroyed because your weird boss voted trump? then what about my family? our families? my family has voted blue, but would it matter? even if they voted red as blood, would they not have children? even then, neighbors? even then, strangers? none of it fucking matters, how they hell could it.
my close family, parents and siblings, are lucky enough to live elsewhere, but where we were raised and made our homes are histories are not. i never had a childhood home because hurricanes have destroyed every where we have tried. because we couldnt afford any better. same with most people. should we fucking die because of it? should the homeless die because of it? because of some snowbirds? i thought you didnt like 'boomers' controlling your lives, or thinking and acting like they do. so how come you let them control ours?
#emergency broadcast system#ive been trying not to be so emotional lately because my oma was so close to being freer than shes ever been#she was so close. no one deserves it more than her.#and the home she was going to make the rest of her life she has with us in? even if it was a dinky apartment complex? gone. destroyed.#not even in florida. fucking greenville. she was supposed to be safe. my baby cousins were supposed to be safe.#my great aunt was recently discharged from the hospital currently healing after fucking sepsis. they had over four days without electricity.#not to mention countless others i know. but i know no one actually cares about them. as long as theyre poor theyre allowed to die right?
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i suspect that there's more to the faked death situation than anyone remembers/is willing to share at this point - he might've been abusive or an alcoholic etc. but my great-aunt (the only one still alive who remembers this) said she was really amazed at how normal it seemed at the time that a man would permanently disappear to try and keep his family from being ashamed of/shamed by his financial failure, and how bizarre and pointless it seemed to her now that she was in her 80s. lot of shifting cultural and economic expectations...but also idk. at some point people just still being in your life probably starts to seem more valuable than anything else.
#and how much of that was like. specific '2nd generation german immigrants who had previously been very successful and now it's the 1930s'#not related to this really but her daughter/my cousin died of an accidental fentanyl overdose last year#right before someone else i knew died the same way#and it's strange and sad and surreal to know that 60 years from now they're going to be part of the same kind of history#things that happened to a lot of people a long time ago that (i hope) will seem very removed in many ways to the 20 year olds of the 2080s#but that at the time were just. life. people who were in your life and then for horribly mundane reasons were gone.
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I’m seriously not made to be alone, it’s only been a day and I’m like this
#can’t wait for tomorrow Puppy too he’s so sad and dosen’t care about me imm not mommy bfkdbdj#and I’m playing Pokémon all day so it’s not that I’m bored I’m just lonely af kfbdkdns#my pets are sleeping and ignoring me so I can’t talk to them ckdbdjd#why I still live with my parents#i mean I don’t have money at all for moving anyway#but i try to imagine myself living alone while my parents are gone and I want to cry ckdbjxbdjd#and I’m terrified of stranger so no roommate#my friends are married or in a relationship so (one live 2 hours away) glndkdkd#my cousins have kids#i’m fucked for now bfkdbxn#anyway no money and won’t have enough for a long time cksbjdns
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so nervuos for tmrw bc im seeing my cousin
#i love her so much But#Its my dads side of the family and i dont see them often at all and everything is always so awkward and#they dont know i dropped out of school and everytime my grandpa sees me he asks about school#and i havent seen him since before i Would have graduated this past may#like i would be graduated hs right now but#im not SO IF AYNYNE ASKS ABOUT IT IM GONNA LOSE ITTTT#god#hopefully my grandparents just wont be there Idk why they would bc im just going to hang w my cousin#but they tend to jumpscare me sometimes when i go out to see her#Gahhhgaaahhhhhahhaooouuoououou#i could just tell the truth bc idec about them knowing i dropped out its just embarrassing bc i lied for so long#buti just did bc when i first stopped going to school my mom told me not to tell anyone on that side of the fmaily..so..#i dont think shed care anymore either but its just been so long and ive never told them Augh#and my grandpa really wants me to go to college which i straight up just dont wanna do. not rn at least#and id need to get my ged first which ive been procrastinating on the entiire year Oopsies#my aunt always tells me not to listen to him thoughand that i dont have to go to college if i dont want to i am grateful for her..#shes always protective of me from him LOL i love my grandpa and he means well and stuff but#he will just say anything#and he always makes me cry in public or at family gatherings bc he starts talking to me about my dad#i knowppl just aska bout like school and plans for the future and stuff bc they care but i wish they wouldnt bc i do not know anything#i dont know a single thing about how my future is going to go or what i even want it to be or how im going to live and its stressful enough#already when im not being interrogated about it#Like lets just talk about something else. Lets talk about enstars#Isnt it crazy that shinobu has gone going on 15 months without a new 5*?..i think its a little crazy and i miss him
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#having a day full of mixed feelings#I suppose this is how life goes#I'm officially done with my Bachelor's degree as of today#obviously I'm proud of myself for the accomplishment and I was excited to be celebrated today#it was a long and difficult road and there were many times where I didn't think I'd live to see it through but I made it#I'm the first person in my family to get this degree and I was really looking forward to having today be my day#I had a really lovely morning and then things kind of waned#there were a few arguments. someone I spent the day with repeatedly made negative comments about something I care about#it felt awful. I know it was intended as more of a playful jab than anything but I directly asked for the comments to stop and they didn't#it especially hurt that it was a fandom thing and the person is so invested in their own fandoms yet they felt it fair to step on mine#even though I've never done that to them#then people kept talking over me and acted like I was wrong for trying to interject to finish my own sentences#also as I said in the last post I was deeply upset by how my family members spoke of my 12 year old cousin#she's just a kid and some of our close family members have such a nasty opinion of her. she's so young and she's had a rough few years#but it seems like no one except my brother and I are willing to give her any grace#I think everyone else has forgotten what it feels like to be a kid and feel as if the world is against you#on a more positive note. I had a decadent slice of chocolate cake. it was heavenly#unfortunately I was really too in my head to fully enjoy it#literally every day for 3 weeks I've been talking about the lunch I planned to have today#I knew exactly what meal and dessert I wanted from the restaurant. it's my absolute fave and isn't available at any other local restaurant#I was totally starving by time we got to the restaurant. we were out all morning and I ate a tiny breakfast in anticipation of this meal#when we got there we found out they removed what I planned to order from the menu. I was devastated.#I know it's stupid but like this was the one part of my day that I've had planned for MONTHS and I've been thinking about it for weeks#we had a 40 minute car ride where I mentioned my excitement for the food no less than 10 times so this crushed me#also I'm just really picky in general and typically restaurants only have one or two things I'm able to eat#I offered to just eat the dessert while everyone else ordered food because they were all really hungry too but they wouldn't allow it#we left the restaurant and I still feel horrible for walking out. if I had known the item was removed we wouldn't have even gone there#it happened so recently though and I feel dumb for not even thinking to check the menu online beforehand#so we went to another restaurant and I barely ate anything and now I have no appetite for dinner and I feel bad for ruining the afternoon#even though it's my day and my celebration and I feel like I'm entitled to a slight amount of unreasonableness
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Dusty already knows, but I decided to share with ya’ll that I’m into Helluva Boss/Hazbin Hotel now!!
Now if you may recall I made a post about a horror-style OC I had that I worked on with my teenage cousin (I have a teen cousin in high school! She’s v mature and the only minor I ever let see my stuff) and she’s actually transgender. I never posted her official design but she’s been repurposed and now…
(Please excuse the obvious Angel Dust-copied hands)
Meet Candace Kayne! She went from serial killer to ridiculous party girl who drank too much, popped too many pills and had too much sex. But she didn’t die of any of those things, oh no. Bar fight. Some asshole brought a machete and sliced her in half, hence the thin red stripe in the middle of her dress. She’d been doing disguised drugs as standard candy since childhood. Now she’s in Hell.
In one quote:
“You can take the girl out of the party but you can’t take the party out of the girl.” *proceeds to chug rainbow cocktail with valium at the bottom*
In short, she’s insane.
For height reference she’s a teensy bit shorter than Angel Dust and Alastor but that’s ok because her full demon is MENACING (and I can’t draw it but I swear I know what it looks like)
And my cousin’s ok with this btw. Please don’t attack me over letting her see this shithole, this is just how high schoolers are these days.
#hazbin hotel#helluva boss#hazbin hotel oc#candace kayne#the red spots are eyes just like angel dust’s “freckles”#her horns do actually taste like peppermint#the braids aren’r real they’re bubblegum#she’s a bisexual transwoman#she’s at the hazbin hotel#she thinks she’s too far gone but charlie’s not giving up on this one#imagine angel dust but more drugs than sex by a long shot#she couldn’t hold a job#she was 34#sorry for all these tags#after my cousin gave me free reign with her i just went wild#she’s absolutely pickpocketed overlords
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i just realized tomorrow would be my grandads 84th birthday. and i would have called him and asked him what did it feel like to be 48 cuz ever since he was in his 70s he switched the numbers around and thought it was so funny. and i can’t remember exactly what his laugh sounds like anymore and my heart is hurting so bad.
#id cal him and he would jokingly go ‘oh my word is that today?’#and when id ask him how it felt to be 48 he’d chuckle and go ‘well baby ill tell you’ and he’d tell me a rambling story that somehow got#back to the grace of god cuz he is a reverend thru and thru and loved talking about god#and I haven’t felt god since he died like my world makes no sense like how am I still here and he’s gone?#like I get he was old and im so thankful I had him as long as I did but fuck. he’s not gonna see my sister get married or meet any of our#kids and he would have fuckin LOVED to have met his great grand kids from me and my sibling like my cousin had some#but like the 5 of us grew up in his house it woulda been different for us man#idk im sad and i cried twice already and ill cry a few more times tomorrow#I just wonna hear his voice man
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what's the first anime you remeber watching?
dragon ball z! i was immediately exposed to it growing up because my older brothers were hugely into it, so it's one of the first pieces of media that i was exposed to.
#ask#anon#i remember we had these old wall stickers of most of the characters on the wall next to our bunk bed.#but yeah i remember having dreams and memories of wanting to be trained by piccolo but uh#i was far too young to understand what piccolos actual intentions were for doing so#as a kid i misinterpreted a lot of stuff about DBZ because i didnt have the right contexts#like i thought yamcha was gokus brother. i thought piccolo and goku were really good friends.#i though raditz was tricking goku when he said he was his brother#i thought kame house and kami were related. and i was always so confused why god had his own merch and a house he didnt live in#oh. i thought ox king was like. a dude chi chi was dating while goku was gone. or like goku just lived with them.#it took me a really really long time to learn who ox king was. and that he was chi chi's dad.#but anyway yeah. we had a fair ammount of DBZ merch and games. though the games were region locked#so my brothers had to use something that hooked into the ps1 to play those games#i dont remember what or how though#we had... Ultimate Battle 22 and... Legends? the latter had a dark gray border around the screen and icons of the characters faces#but it wasnt until i owned DBZ Budokai that i fell in love with the show#and was my first exposure to Zarbon#it came out in november 2002. so i was 4 when i got it. cause i let my cousin borrow it for his birthday when he turned 3.#i never got that game back from him cause everytime i asked back then hed always make an excuse to never give it back#he doesnt know where it is these days which sucks cause i want a physical copy again...#and btw its not an exaggeration when i say Zarbon is the reason im the way i am#literally the moment i saw him i was like ''wow. he has long hair. jewelry. pink attire. and a regal voice? wow. a guy can be that?''#and then he turned into his monster form and i was like ''oh this dude is so fucking cool''#and now i am bisexual because of him#anyway thank you for asking anon! :)#sad to say that idk what other animes i wouldve watched around that time if we wanted to put up another likely source#i also didnt know what an anime was as a kid. it was just cool brutal cartoons to me
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Okay but something about being a trans masc person and seeing the Barbie movie with a group mainly made of cis girls just feels so isolating
#I don’t quite know how to put it into words#but it’s something in the way I was one of the only ones not crying#because I wasn’t thinking about the same things they were in the final scene with Ruth and the montage of real women#I was thinking about the little girl that’s long gone and how even though it was an incredible movie I just couldn’t relate to anyone in it#and then after words it was me and the other guy taking pictures of them in their pink outfits#even though I had also dressed up for pictures#it just wasn’t excpected of me to even want that#and even a few weeks ago I told my cousin I was excited to see it and she was like#‘really? you’re excited for it? that’s surprising’#and there’s more than that#that I can’t figure out how to say#I guess it was just kind of a realization for me#like an actual acknowledgment that the little girl I used to be is gone#but I’ll never actual be able to or even want to fit in completely with guys#I’ve just been stuck contemplating#because none of my friends are having the same experience with this movie#barbie#barbie movie#barbie 2023#teddy 06#teddy06
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I just talked to someone I know at the gym and I feel like the fellow gym goers who have been seeing me here several times a week for four years and have never seen me open my mouth are adding that to their internal lore about me
#also I hope that girl is re-downloading all the information about me she has stored the way I'm doing for her now long after she's gone#like oh you're so and sos cousin. whose wife had an affair with my good friend while the cousin and the friend were both in theology school#that's you
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ngl im impressed with my grandmother. All throughout the day she's managed to be shitty about near all of my marginalized identities in some way to my face, completely oblivious she's talking abt groups im a part of
#the list of groups is as follows: autism/anxiety/mental illness in general (she literally said mentally ill with so much disgust)#repeatedly misgendering and talking about genitals and surgeries of my aunts ex gf who was a trans woman#referring to my cousins as 'homosexual-like' and repeatedly laughing at my male cousin wearing a long coat that looked like a dress#repeated other comments about 'what has this world come to' bc of trans surgeries and shit#all things considered her quinceañera is one of the best things shes said to me all day. i need her to be gone so bad#.ares
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everyday i am reminded im too gay.,
#i do. not get men#my men-attracted friends and cousins have shown me celebrities they have crushes on and friends they have crushes on#an i just. i have tried to get it i just Dont#like. whag/#i have gone a long way from realizing i like girls and shoving it down until i forgot about it to never being capable of imagining myself w#th a boy.#like damn. i just cant#its not like im digusted but like its a weird feeling#its just literally impossible to imagine myself with a man romanticly my brain just Wont
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