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So I just spent the last ten minutes all-capsing at my mom over text about Kalluzeb, and she said this:
the holy grail of canon kalluzeb content, is adorable, so she gets it
#she saw about zeb and her first reaction was to text me about it#she knew I was gonna be smad#love her#and she like many of us Tumblr goblins has come to the completely accurate conclusion that kallus is at home taking care of the kids#take that filoni#also she says it's too bad zeb isn't enjoying a nice retirement#I sent her the pic and she was like wait is that legit? is that canon? and I was like yes indeedy-do it is#I told her about how apparently sabine just forgot to mention jacen (ain't seen the episode yet so idk if that's true but it probably is)#and how if she can leave out a whole kid she can leave out a whole marriage#and she was like well maybe sabine is just a bad storyteller maybe she should've drawn a picture#and then I put on my pixelated sunglasses and I'm like 'mother do I have news for you'....*pulls picture out of wallet*#favorite interaction of the week#kalluzeb#garazeb orrelios#zeb#alexsandr kallus#star wars#Star Wars rebels#ahsoka show#ahsoka series#martian's mom#martianbugsbunny ships
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Annabel Lee & Fears: A Short Essay Based On Ep70
Here it is, folks, the truest crux of Annabel’s character, her deepest fears is not going mad or even people discovering she’s not as put together as she tries to appear, but rather:
Was that gambit of constant scheming and using others worth it, Annabel? Was always trying to think ten steps ahead and always keep yourself in a position of power and control truly worth it, because how can you ever be trusted when all you do is play 5D chess with everyone?
There is is, folks!!! Just like her greatest strength- her cunning willpower- is centered around a certain bright moon, Annabel’s greatest fear is rooted in Lenore. The deepest, darkest trenches of her soul, the one thing that would shatter her heart and send her lungs choking fer breath? The killing blow that would end her and make all these charades worthless? It’s Lenore seeing her constant conniving and asking Annabel, “Why would I be any different? You already have no problem using everyone else as a pawn, how could I ever possibly trust you, Annabel Lee?”
The way Annabel is SUCH a great morally grey character, y’all tell me you love hot villains yet many a time I’ve seen people calling Annabel too heartless. She’s the opposite! She cares!! SO MUCH!!! She would burn the world down if it meant kissing Lenore one last time, to the point where her deepest fear is losing Lenore in the process of trying to protect her. All Annabel knows is using manipulation to gain the upper hand because simply being born a woman in the Victorian era she was so throughly disadvantaged by such a horribly misogynistic society that girlypop had to scrape together any form of control she could. Annabel wants so badly to protect Lenore but all she knows are her own methods of protecting herself, which involves plausibility deniability and facades and sometimes sheer cruelty, and that’s where the conflict arises. From the start Annabel assumed Lenore and her had the same understanding of this ‘fake enemies’ ploy going on but surprise surprise babygirl, not everyone is overthinking four parallel universes ahead like you do. This boils over into her lover having doubts on what’s real and what’s not, which then culminates into Lenore asking if Annabel is using her affections as empty currency to get what she wants, and Annabel’s first move to tell Lenore to fucken kill her????
“To you alone, I have left myself completely defenseless.”
The drama of it all!! The shattered facade leading to exploding vulnerability of it all!! The dim sun sparking out into a heat death just to prove her sincerity of it all!!! The exposed innermost organs ripping out my heart with my bare hands and begging you, “Do you see it now? Do you see the way it beats for you and only you? Tell me you see it, tell me you see me…” of it all!!
Oh baby the way Annabel still retains this deep fear of Lenore not truly believing in the “only thing that’s real” to her, the way her lover’s ghost still lingers and haunts her and is then ripped up from her innermost psyche like a desecrated grave and given form by Ada’s power. The way, after all this time- and I mean all this time from Lenore’s constructed resurrection, to their relationship blossoming into a wedding, all the fucking way up to that bell tower scene, the fucken way Annabel still never truly let go of her fear that Lenore doesn’t see her, doesn’t see how she alone bashed through all of Annabel’s walls and made a home where her heart laid. I’m sure during their living relationship all the way until the wedding Annabel’s fears were greatly settled, but it’s the fucken way these panels implied that this wretched heartache never completely left Annabel’s guilt-wracked soul.
I just know, okay I just KNOW, that even up until she was putting her wedding dress on Annabel still questioned if she even deserved this happy ending because she still feel phantoms of guilt fer this betrayal. This comic only furthers this implication of unabsolved guilt when it’s made clear as day that Annabel’s biggest fear is Lenore not believing in her love. And before anyone argues how Annabel can currently feel guilt fer betraying Lenore when she hasn’t recovered the memory yet, I’ll argue back that from the very beginning of the comic these two were inexplicably drawn to each other even when they had NO memories. Therefore, even if she doesn’t have the explicit memory, I highly doubt Annabel’s subconscious would ever let go of something as huge as deeply hurting the one person she truly cared about in such a wretched way.
Fuck, dude, I mean Annabel’s greatest fear wasn’t even Lenore dying- which was already a huge thing if y’all remember her tearstreaked, panicked, “What is left? If she’s not here, what’s the point?”- no her greatest is Lenore!!! Not!!! Believing!! Her!!! Like yeah losing Lenore physically definitely would’ve cut so deep even her bones would bear the scars, but losing Lenore in the form of the other woman walking the same ground as her but choosing to stay away?? Call her fucking selfish because some people would rather have their other half still be alive even if they’re not by their side, but Annabel ain’t one of them that’s fer sure. Babygirl has spent a lifetime perfecting the craft of deceiving others fer her own gain, but the ONE TIME she’s genuine her heart is to be called nothing more but empty??? Oh babbyyy that’s gotta fucken hurt.
The thing is, I don’t think Annabel really loves herself all that much. I really don’t. A huge focus on self-preservation doesn’t necessarily mean one really loves themselves, and when we add the aforementioned guilt she carries? Plus, the fact that Annabel being forced to swallow down her anxiety attacks from a young age could easily lead to her having a rather sour view of her 'not normal' self? Yeah no yeah, I truly don’t think Annabel loves herself that much, if at all. So really, this line is adding immense insult to already grievous injury. Not only does Annabel deeply fear Lenore not believing her affections to be true, she also fears the New Yorker misconstruing her as nothing more but a shallow as hell, prissy, little pampered damsel, a role pretty much everyone else regulates her into whether she wants it or not (right from the beginning, before she even set her schemes in full effect, Annabel was already explaining, “Ada wanted a queen, so I gave her one”). Lenore, the only one Annabel had believed to ever really see her fer her, is now discrediting Annabel’s vulnerable affections AND seeing her as that unloving ice queen like everyone else?? Horrible terrible horrible!!! She may have a ribbon threatening to strangle her right now, but it’s clear that ghost!Lenore’s words are what truly cut her down to size. Y’all seeing that fucken pain in Annabel’s eyes? Her worst fear is just so… personal.
Which actually leads me to my next point, which is how just before Annabel’s worst fear is revealed in stark, horrifying detail, we see Prospero’s. Lemme just preface this by saying what Prospero went through is n o t any less terrible and is a super fucken mega valid fear/trauma, but let me cook y’all just hear me out. Prospero’s fear seems to be about medical malpractice and/or being conscious during a painful operation that likely went south (aka ‘oh shiiitttt he fucken DEAD-‘), and that’s fucking tragic as all hell. Yet, okay let me cook here, it’s more… I don’t want to say general, because that does NOT mean his fear is any less significant but it’s like. Way back when, death via medical bullshit was more or less fairly common, especially during wartimes (which is the era I headcanon Prospero to be from); meanwhile, Annabel’s fear is so uniquely hers, it’s borne of a culmination of specific experiences tied together by her relationship with Lenore.
By contrast of a more common fear vs something so deeply personal and specific to this one person- because it’s not just unrequited love, it’s being so vehemently denied and misunderstood by the ONE (1!) person who you wholeheartedly trusted in your entire life who also oops mega died on you- this distinction gives way to an almost more raw, more visceral feeling to Annabel’s fear sequence. Again!!! I am not undermining Prospero’s own trauma, I promise!!! But you have to admit that there’s something, from a narrative standpoint, that hits so much harder with how deeply personal Annabel’s fear is. The contrast is even more great when you look at how Prospero’s involved a buncha bloodied hands not really tied to any faces or even any indication of personhood like accessories, scars, etc etc. It could’ve been a group of anyone holding him down hurting him; on the flipside, Annabel is being restrained by one very specific person we see in full view. The faceless crowd who could’ve been anyone at anytime vs the lone perpetrator whose history you know like a second name. It’s just!!! So personal!!!
In conclusion, on the surface level, one would think a character so deeply ingrained in using deceptions and manipulation would have her greatest fear tie into having her true nature revealed to everyone she’d fooled, but then it turns out it’s the complete fucking opposite. What homegirl fears the most is her truest, innermost self not being believed and accepted by just one (1!) person. The way it’s framed is just so heartstabbingly personal, especially when you parallel it to a previous fear sequence just a few panels preceding it. This is it, your honor, this is Annabel’s deepest driving force broken down to its bare essentials. To hell with whatever reputation she’s carefully crafted! Who cares what anyone else thinks of her if she doesn’t believe her, if she doesn’t SEE her. Really, truly see her. Lenore is the defining point that Annabel has revolves around so wholeheartedly, and there’s no point to anything anymore if Annabel loses her. This crux of her character, OHHH BBAAABBYY it’s just so well done because we, as the audience, have been given clear evidence to build up this narrative of Annabel’s characterization fer so long now and to finally see it come together in a fiery explosion of lesbian angst with this latest chapter??? Gods, the writing of Nevermore will never not drive me absolutely insane in the membrane.
#if yall think this essay went crazy i need yall to kmow i once wrote a legit MLA cited college research paper about mf Bumbleby#and I got a high grade and everything yall heard me it was 12 pt new times roman and had literal academic sources to back up my points#i had to cut it down from 15 pages to like 10 bc of a max word count my prof set it was so sad#so yeahhhhhhh your girl may or may not just go crazy on the fictional analysis#which makes sense when u know that imma character-driven writer#anyways in conclusion i be clocking in to fight fer annabel as an amazingly written character like its a 9-5 job#to all the ppl who doubted her how yall feeling rn hmmmmmmm#annabel lee whitlock ur just so much fun to dissect like a lesbian lab project#nevermore webtoon#white raven#annabel lee whitlock#lenore vandernacht#prospero nevermore#<—i swear i care fer the rat man guys i rlly rlly do#but man. the way annabel’s shit was just to personal. it rlly got me okay???
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will forever have a soft spot for chloe cause yeah dawg i get it we can try to avoid becoming attached out of the overwhelming fear of being abandoned again but miserably fail together
#she's not the best person ever#but no one is#and i'm not excusing a lot of her actions#like the way she acted when kate called max will always leave me biting my fist out of frustration#but people love to just stare at the surface n focus on the parts of her that aren't great#n don't bother to wonder what got her there#the part that jumps to conclusions and does things out of pure selfishness#and that part that doesn't really think things through...#like shooting that damn bumper#but i GET IT#putting so much trust and love into people just to have them disappear on you especially if you dont know if its intentional#not getting closure can do SO much damage it's not even funny#n it legit can just make you feel like an idiot when you look back like#why did i try so hard just to end up alone#like this girls life went downhill at the age of 14#she just like me fr 😭😭😭😭😭😭#no but#it's hard not to feel like the worlds against you#even at the end she acknowledges that she's been selfish#SO#i don't like believing that she chooses to be this way yknow like#i truly think that she believes acting like a hardass all the time is the only way she'll be able to get by anymore#she lost her dad n then max n then tried again with rachel and then lost her#i'd be fuckin insane too#girl just doesn't wanna be hurt anymore#there's better ways of coping and acting but overall i get where she's coming from#n ill always save her bc i genuinely believe that she deserves a second chance#to live her life and find happiness again#life is strange#chloe price
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This post gets a little into discourse, so if you want to avoid 9-1-1 fandom discourse I've put this under a read more/keep reading. I guess the TL;DR you can take from this is I'm likely not going to be posting the final chapters of my multichapter fic anytime soon, if at all.
The tags are *also* discoursey/venty, so don't hit the "see all" if you don't like discourse.
After my last post, I kinda went offline for a little while to rest and recoup. (I've lost access to my discord account because I've since got a new laptop.)
I've had my treatment and am, in general, feeling a lot better. But when I got back online after a week or so break and scrolled my dash a bit, I immediately saw shit slinging and aggression from everyone I seem to follow. Or, if it wasn't active participation in discourse, it was vaguing about ignoring discourse.
So, I logged off.
Then, I log back on a week later and I see even more discourse.
This time I blocked the tags of people I seemed to see the most, and moved on with it.
This week, I thought "third times a charm" and opened up tumblr. It is not the charm, in fact it is much much worse.
I'm not going to go into it, and I'm not naming names, but this is not my first fandom rodeo. I've been in a lot of fandoms over the years, and none (literally none) have ever come close to being this fractured and toxic to me (and I'm a fucking DC and SPN fan, Jesus Christ. I legitimately said to a friend of mine "take me back into the DC fandom, it's not safe in 9-1-1.")
I'm not going to "both sides are as bad as each other" but I am going to say I've never followed any actively 'Buddie' accounts, only BuckTommy's and multi-shippers, and all the shit I'm seeing? It's being slung by BuckTommy's. Back over the garden wall, for sure, but sometimes you're scooping out of your own toilet to throw at the people you're roommates with.
That's a messy metaphor.
Either way, some of y'all need the hiatus' you're saying you're taking. Wait for the show to come back, and all the trolls to get preoccupied with the new episodes, touch some grass, do some breathing, prioritize yourself and not people on the internet.
All this to say, I've never felt more demoralized and demotivated to write for other people before. I always have, and will continue to, write for myself. I post it to share for free so other people who might want to read what I do too, can.
Because of all the hate and vitriol, I no longer want to share it with you.
I had had plans to get the chapter beta'd this week and wanted the fic done by the time the new season hit (just in case my interpretation and HC's were severely contradicted) but that's no longer the plan.
I'm logging off, again, for the foreseeable future and taking my own advice. I'll be back when the new season starts.
#911 discourse#911 abc#fandom wank#fandom discourse#bucktommy#putting it in the BT tag because people who read my fic might see it in there#bucktommy discourse#'way to ruin it for everyone'#legit *kpop* was a more friendly fandom than this shit#honest to fucking god#if i come back i'll likely stick in my corner tbh#some of y'all seem to turn on each other just as much as the supposed 'Buddies' do#“don't tell people to harm themselves. it has no place in fandom”#“unless you disagree with me then swallow glass i guess”#y'all are exhausting#sorry to anyone who genuinely is excited for the conclusion of my multichap#but i can't even look at the draft on ao3 without thinking about all this shit#back to only sharing with close personal friends#when i log back on I *will* be going on a block spree#peace out#i wrote this last night to vent and slept on it#still agree#so it's making it out of drafts#also sorry to anyone not engaging in discourse who gets this on their page#i tried to tag the main discourse tags#and warned in the preamble
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I finished big o like a year ago but never went back to the manga-I really should-yet it’s still taken up so much space in my brain not only just because of how much of a unique mecha it is while still staying true to the genre but for the crazy ass shit the end of the show drops on you and id love to make a post about my interpretation of the ending cause ive thought about it a lot but the issue is even if i know most of my posts go over peoples heads and i can just put “big o spoilers don’t read if you haven’t finished/want to see it” at the top so people don’t accidentally read it I really don’t know how to DESCRIBE the twist.
Like this shit really makes getter being a cosmic horror be such a casual and normal statement in comparison which is something I never thought could be top given two of the major anime’s end with one or more of our protagonists going to fuck off land.
But at least I can tell you that happened where as big o it’s like “what the FUCK did I just witness what do you mean ITS ALL FAKE” and that’s as far and vague as I can go without spoiling it completely.
#meg text#the big o#I want to rewatch big o but I need to finish the manga or actually watch something new hmmmmm#I can say with confidence nothing will be more of a mind fuck then that ending and if there is I’d be scared as fuck#it’s not like it’s been done before but the way it’s executed it’s the most existential dread thing ever- and also again WHAT THE FUCK#legit after the ending this show left a permanent place in my mind next to being a good ass show#getter will always be my main fixation though like no one tops ryoma nagare but MAN#big o a fucking gem#but also the most confusing thing I’ve ever witness when you get to the end#so I can’t recommend it to everyone even if I encourage anyone who likes mecha to watch it#I feel like suggesting it to a non mecha fan is risky tbh#like even if it be a nice starter I feel mecha that genre people would think is confusing after seeing Eva or again getter endings#but it’s not REALLY it just depends on the show#most of them have a grounded conclusive ending#but the ones that leave a impact have the most ???? ones
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i get it i get it i really get it but also it's very frustrating when a work of fiction raises you expectations, makes you thrilled for The Big Confrontation, and then the next post-clifhanger installment comes and it goes "after everything was over,"
#shrimp thoughts#this is sponsored by the abysmal atz diary story that makes me legit CONFLICTED because the diary ver is now my favourite#but also it contains the diaries (deeply unfavourite (annoying (i don't want to throw the photobook but i'm scared i might)))#but also i've read some fics that did this and as i said I GET IT a fic is for fun and not for Achieving Perfection. and also being great a#writing yearning or suspense doesn't automatically being great (or comfortable!) with writing confessions/fights#i personally love to leave my fics 'unfinished' in that they don't end with a conclusive state of things but like. in media res so to speak#i do enjoy that discomfort of not knowing what happens or IF it happens. i also enjoy making things Not Happen (characters being#passive and confused and just Not Doing Things they 'should' do because they don't know how/are afraid)#even though i know it probably seems terribly pretentious/cheap to better writers#that being said. there are stories that just... by themselves make a reader envision and anticipate The Great Thing and it's... not great a#all when it simply doesn't happen/is glossed over#idk man i am but an armchair-dwelling whiner
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Gonna pin this because the tone of my complaining often sounds authoritative or something and it's not. All these things I complain about? Do them all at once, I don't care. I'm an adult so I use the tools available to me (blocking, muting, etc) instead of expecting everyone to cater to my neuroses. In general unless the post says otherwise I don't think any of this behavior should be banned from anywhere and even if I did it's not like I run any websites lol.
You wanna RP Bro Strider as a good, quirky, UWU soft boy? Go ahead! Want a tiny, annoying, blushing, stuttering, turbo twink as your John? Sure! I think your taste is trash and I also think that at that point, you should make an OC because if your character doesn't meaningfully resemble the canon character in *any* way then you're wasting everyone's time by rping what is functionally an OC under a canon tag.
But I also think that my complete disdain for "good guy" Bro Strider or pissy shitty tiny, submissive Johns should not dictate what anyone says or does or is allowed to say or do on any website. I just reserve the right to dunk on people's trash takes in (relative) private.
John Egbert enjoyer despite all the Dave content that's likely to be here. Dave is just more fun to ruin.
#chat#this is a space for me to bitch about the fandom after all#i dont take this energy into the broader community because im polite most of the time but my non homestuck friends dont understand lmao#so while they gracefully allow me to bitch and moan they dont geeet it#so this is my bitch place now#homestuck#cherp.chat#cherp#mxrp.chat#mxrp#john egbert#bro strider#i dont even dunk on people to their face legit ive never looked at someone and been like hey i hate your version of this character#the worst i do is bitch about it to people who either dont care or into an open space like this where no one is individually targeted#because again i just like bitching. its fiction and people can do what they want#dave strider#also ik with the homestuck kids they have no canon body types necessarily so thats not necessarily ooc its just ugly :(#and everyone who plays him that way plays him completely unrecognizably and after 10 years of scientific data i have come to the conclusion#that im correct and there is never any point in engaging with any John even remotely like this#its an extremely scientific process with no biases or margin of error at all obviously
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I love SJ!SQQ :) he's my little meow meow with a waterfall of angst and misunderstanding :/
#original shen qingqiu#shen jiu#my poor little meow meow#idk why but i stay away from shen yuan even if he's the mc of the story#sj!sqq#and i kinda dislike bingge and bingmei#one became a monster worse than his perpetrator and the other is easily manipulated or someone who jumps to conclusions too fast#im sad cuz what if shen jiu had someone by his side for support#yqy never truly supported him after bringing him into the sect tbh#sure sj was horrible for instigating some form of abuse to luo binghe#but like did he even know about ming fan and what he did to luo binghe behind his back#and in the end he was tortured so badly because luo binghe based his facts on rumors spread about sj#also hate qiu what's her name#he never even did anything wrong to women#he was just afraid and scared and alone and angry#like he didn't suffer enough in the qiu family#like he was legit tortured and potentially sa'ed there#luo binghe is an asshole in my eyes
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Only the most deranged and horrid content from youtube ads as per usual
#bad content#and i sincerely apologize#but i stared at this for minutes on end#just bad on so many different levels#why give the brains those bodies like this is some terrible fitness ad#legit thought this was yet another repugnant and terrible diet ads#but no its just some other repugnant and terrible scammy quote unquote services#i hate this and i hate seeing it but my horrible brain cant let me be alone with it#and i hate the rigid classifications when in reality its all just gradiations and variations and no one is going to fall into just one#meyers briggs shit all over again just with a new flavor#anything that purports to classify people like this is almost certainly unfounded and pseudoscientific and ultimately basically useless#got a little steamed there whoops#also whats the point? like you could just consider yourself and probably make some good conclusions re what youre better at#and worse at#it can be fun but i hate it being presented as if its something like backed by facts or science or whatever#anyway sorry have fun with things and if you find some personal use or positivity in them thats cool!#but i just worry about the scamminess of some things#and the potential to reduce oneself based on the narrow categories presented
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Don't get attached so easily I say, as I'm already attached...
#miranda talking shit#I am like an paranite with people help how do I stop#And my taste in people are always so wonky like really? This is the one we pick?.... Yeah#Too early to say I mumble after meeting twice and being attached already#Sweet... Nerdy and awkward is how I like my people :(#He smells so nice 😔 before I met him I was like yeah he's a bit cute duh otherwise I wouldn't meet him#But then I got to cuddle him and I'm like okoookokokokokok#I think it's legit now when I say smell is like 30% of my attraction at least... Linus smelled nice too#Eva... Yeah... I can be attracted to people even if I'm in different to their smell but MAN if I sniff them and like it? Uoouh#It adds so much.... I always feel weird talking about it like yeah you smell good... So I want to bury my face in your neck all the time#Sorry about that... I'm still hype after the two meetings aaaa#Sad I probably won't get to see him until the weekend again....#And I'm a sucker for just hearing cheesy small things. Asked him if he wanted a pillow and he was like “you're comfy enough pillow”#Ok you're maybe right but I'm not by your back#I'm twirling my hair again and I'm lame#He should be cuddling me in bed is unfortunately my final conclusion
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i hope everyone who was hating on eggy reads this and feels bad!
DRUNK WALK HOME
intermission (cont.): names
masterlist
"mom, i'm tired" -class of 2013 by mitski
cw: suicidal ideation, isolation, parental neglect (u can skip this one if u want)
She doesn't remember a lot from her childhood.
She remembers the night that her father left. She was pressing her ear up against the cold wood of her bedroom door, listening as muffled screams made their way to her. His voice was raw and rough. She held her breath but her eyes still watered. It smelled like cigarettes and a lavender candle. Her window was opened, and she wore Princess Peach pajamas. She remembers the sound of a door slamming, and of her mother wailing.
She remembers sitting alone at the kitchen counter, eating cold leftovers alone in the dark, her feet dangling above the kitchen floor. She remembers getting locked out of her house once and sitting on the cold ground for hours, too tired to cry. She remembers a lot of strange men coming in and out, staying and leaving.
Not their names, though. She could never remember their names. She just called them all 'dad.' It was all the same to her, anyways.
She remembers going hungry in the mornings and finding holes in her coat pockets. She remembers stealing snacks from convenience stores and she remembers how much it hurt when the store attendant caught her and gripped at her wrist. She remembers being good at school because it was the only thing for her to do. She remembers fighting with her friends a lot. She remembers being angry all the time. She doesn't remember ever knowing why.
She remembers on the night of her middle school graduation, she was supposed to die.
It was dark, and she stood at that bridge for hours, staring out beyond it, eyes blurring the ground and the sky, like she was waiting for some kind of sign. She kept checking her phone but no one ever texted her. No one ever called. She sat there until two in the morning, unbothered, untouched.
She remembers feeling disappointed, because there on that bridge, she realized that she didn’t even really want to do it. She just wanted to see if there would be someone to stop her. And there wasn’t.
She remembers that. She remembers going home because it was starting to get cold, and she was too afraid of feeling pain. She went home, and at two-thirty-seven in the morning, she poured herself her first drink.
She remembers that.
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#wow it’s almost like we should wait and see where the story goes before jumping to conclusions and being cruel#crazy how that works#anyways#i can’t talk abt this chapter bc i will break down#i knew i was too vulnerable to read it but alas#you can’t keep me away eggy you just can’t#one of these days i’ll find the right words to describe how i feel when i read your writing#because it’s just so impactful#legit changed my outlook on writing as a whole#and god these two intermission chapters were both so good and so compelling#i felt so so terrible for little akaashi#like i knew what was coming and i still got teary eyed#and at the same time i feel so so bad for little yn#bc she is me fr!#and i will do anything for her#if you hate drunk walk home yn you hate molly#thems the facts#eggy you are just brilliant#that’s all i really can say#this is going to be an incredible piece of art and i’m so glad you’re writing it#i want to write more tags but screaming doesn’t feel appropriate#i hope i’m conveying how much weight i’m putting behind these words#like i am 110% serious about everything i’ve said here and elsewhere#special tag for drunk walk home <3#mollys book reviews
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oh my god 15 days left at this job and im hearing word that at the last minute they're trying to snake back and barter to keep me after i've already mentally fucked off. fuuuuuck
#i hope it doesn't go through#i need to think about other options than this factory job thats grinding my bones down#im GOOD at this job and i like that i'm good at it#i like the people i've met. i liked the experience.#but its not for me forever. it was only supposed to be very temporary to begin with but that fell through#i feel like my old lead ALSO has this genie in a bottle feeling where he's looking for someone to pass this lamp onto#and he's like hoping i stay because it's legit just 3 people who do this. and every single person who does it is looking for an out#the guy i'm training as my replacement doesn't give a fuck at all#(he's going to crash when i leave i can smell it. but he's so overconfident and argues with me about what im teaching him that i can't care#(he gets EXTREMELY frustrated doing diagnostics. which is the entire job)#(he would rather immediately label a part worth thousands of dollars and time as unfixable than attempt to fix it and then ARGUE with me)#(''uhh actually in my time as a builder i know this is impssible to fix..'' whatch this buster *fixes it*)#who's training you.... listen to me like... LISTEN so you don't get stuck... one fucking issue on a chamber and you don't listen#brother there will be more chambers. there will be harder chambers. you have to be patient and not jump to conclusions#management will learn how much they needed stability in that position#3 weeks is not nearly enough time to train someone to do my job on their own and i told them and they were foolish to think otherwise#the other guy they're pulling in also doesn't give a fuuuck. he's walking into some shit and i told him#we're going to be FLOODED with systems as SOON as i leave and we lack capacity to hook any of them up and lack people to work them#because management didn't prepare and listen to me when i told them time and time again ''hey i need test bays'' ''hey i need equiptment''#''hey i need people'' and then insulted me and stripped me of my title when i tried taking initiative#these people don't know what they're doing and they're cocky#people say where i'm at is a great oppourtunity but they've jerked me around too much to care and i dont even want it
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This is all I'm going to say on the Neil Gaiman situation--
We do not have enough information yet. To both the people defending him and to the people striking him down, there is not enough information yet. Personally, I am going to wait and see if the bulk of the information is legit before jumping to conclusions
I also believe it is important to note that the writers of the article are terfs and that the main publications of this information have posted transphobic content in the past; it's a very common tactic of transphobes to publish misinformation on trans supporters to bring them down and I do believe it is foolhardy to ignore that
(But even so, this does not mean that the content is necessarily false, it just means to proceed with caution regarding it)
HOWEVER, if the information turns out to be true, then support the victims. If this is real, support the victims, this is not a situation to be taken lightly
And I believe the people who are posting about Good Omens right now and being all "but what about my show" should not be doing so. I 100% understand, but there are bigger issues happening that should be taking center stage over your concerns for GO
Like I said in the beginning, wait and see for more information, and in the meantime, proceed with caution. If this real, support the victims, do not make excuses for the perpetrator
That's all I have to say for now
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I can never express myself right
#I'm always jumping to conclusions or allowing the other person to just make me take theirs#I'm bad at when it's time to talk about feelings#I'm bad at not wanting to self harm while having talks#it's so hard and I feel like it's stupid that at 19 I don't have a better handle on my emotions#I feel like a child sometimes fuck it makes me so annoyed#my way of fucking coping is having so many narcissistic traits like I literally#have to stop myself from thinking that the universe is out to get me and everyone is an idiot except for me#I can't go into that thought process bro I'll legit be a Dick#can't trust for shit#im so tired and sad
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I won't lie I nearly fell into disliking this quest after seeing so much reactionary negative feedback immediately afterwards, but posts like these have helped me appreciate the quest better and calm down from that initial spike in discourse. I know that's still me building my opinions off of the opinions of others, and I really do need to examine my own susceptibility to being easily convinced, but actual constructive discussions and breakdowns over the last few days have helped assure me that no the quest is not some problematic mess actually, as some made it out to be.
I do still believe the somewhat vague writing that Warframe usually has may not do it favors when paired with what can be seen as a harmful trope in other media when viewed from a glance, and the game progression structure/narrative of gathering warframe blueprints and parts to pilot copies of them can be seen as rubbing against the nature of Jade's story in a potentially disturbing way. I think those things could have been handled better with more time to handle those nuances. But in the end, while I feel the empty spaces in the story can be interpreted badly if twisted enough, what the story does say tells a clear message of love and respect in the strangest of circumstances and tragedies, even if it doesn't line up with some of our ideal scenarios or comforts.
I'm glad that, at least personally, my view has stabilized, and it seems that the view of the community here in general has begun to stabilize as well. I'm happy to take in the designs these artists have made with a clearer head, and I hope they have not experienced too much turmoil following the release of their hard work. I'm sure there will still be people unhappy with the quest for a variety of reasons, but I hope people have begun to understand this quest as not some misogynistic fever dream cooked up by the same writers and creative directors and studio that has brought us the rest of Warframe prior.
possible spoilers for Warframe: Jade Shadows ahead
i wish people would stop, take a breath, and actually think about jade shadows from an analytical place before they leave their reviews rather than just going "i think it's icky" because like. obviously it isn't perfect, i don't think anyone's arguing that, but it isn't gross or wrong- it's art, it's evocative, and it's going to resonate differently with everyone. i want to pick apart some common criticisms i've seen here from the perspective of someone who's played a lot of warframe and thought about some of the heavier themes present in the quest quite a lot.
It's weird that Jade is pregnant because I'm afraid of it/it's gross/it's fetishistic
Personal feelings of revulsion are not a reason to judge something on an objective level. It's perfectly valid to come out of Jade Shadows feeling weird about it- I do think that's kind of the point. The quest has a content warning before you begin it, because the subject matter is something that is really uncomfortable for a lot of people- that doesn't mean that the game shouldn't be allowed to explore it. Also, even if it was wrong to include something like this as fetish content, this argument would imply the game has already gone to weirder places. Looking at you, Grendel.
It's weird that they make the operator give birth via transference
This argument has a little more ground, but also kind of misunderstands how transference works. Yes, it is a hand-wavy "linking of the minds," but we do see clearly in quests like The Sacrifice that when linking with the more sentient frames like Umbra for the first time, the Operator is not fully controlling the frame. I think Umbra is the most appropriate comparison- when linking with Umbra properly for the first time, you don't immediately control Umbra- it's a more spiritual "linking souls helping him find peace" thing. I'd also say that even in the case the Operator was fully in control, I don't think what happened was remotely equatable to literally giving birth. Like. She breathed for 20 seconds and then dissolved into light and died, then there was a baby there. I don't know if you've ever seen a birth, but that isn't how it works. I feel like after all the shit our Operator has been through, "giving birth" through transference is kind of a drop in the bucket.
It's misogynistic to have Jade die in childbirth
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Ok. So let's pick apart the possible reasons that this would be misogynistic. Maybe fridging the woman? But. Not really, because she isn't really gone- the game even acknowledges that she will live on through you and through the motes in Hunhow's message. You can literally craft her and then boom, she's back. She may not have a gigantic speaking role, but no warframe does- hell, even the Stalker barely grunts out single words.
Another one I see a lot is the argument that her sole role in the quest is the whole "her whole personality is motherhood" situation- and that is fair, her role IS that- but that is the point of the quest. They hid this in the teasers because they wanted the reveal to be significant, not to intentionally obfuscate their misogynistic writing- while I certainly do agree that it is all too common for female characters to be pushed aside and relegated purely to motherhood, particularly in fandom spaces but that's an entirely different discussion. I think Warframe handled the motherhood issue well- a person used as a tool of unjust death for years (remember the Jade Light?) giving her own life to finally bring life into the world rather than taking it away- it clearly had purpose and thought behind it, and Warframe has already spent years providing female characters that don't revolve entirely around motherhood- though they aren't pushed into your face and provided immediately without any exploration, so it makes sense that some people on Tumblr would miss them. Warframes don't generally have fully fleshed-out personality- the more sentient frames like Dante and Umbra are an exception. Jade was on the verge of death, it's not shocking that we didn't see much of her personality. I don't doubt that we'll get some codex entries explaining more of her actual personality and story- the quest was just not the place and time.
At the end of the day, Warframe is a game about love, family, and sacrifice. Jade Shadows ticks all 3 of those boxes, probably in the most on-the-nose way we've seen yet. I'd love to make a post soon lauding the things I liked about it, the real narrative depth it presented, the meaning behind and the significance of the discomfort rooted in its themes, and its connections to Warframe's broader themes, but I've seen more negativity than positivity thus far which is... genuinely shocking. When I played it I had nothing but praise. Warframe's writing is usually a bit clunky, so I hadn't noticed anything particularly out of the ordinary, but a lot of people seem genuinely convinced that this expansion was somehow the worst we've ever seen when that is far from being the case. Operation Belly of the Beast has been a ton of fun, and the seeming finite nature of what's left adds a real gravitas to farming for Jade. I'm not shocked the quest itself felt a bit half-baked, I'm surprised they released this at all with 1999 coming up- I'm just happy to get some new content and a new frame whose concept I really enjoy.
#tbh this has been my first time since coming to tumblr that i've experienced that tumblr flash mob hate train vibe lmao#i've heard about fandoms getting toxic in an instant before but actually seeing it first hand is wild#people i've interacted with multiple times getting bent into hate groups both here and on discord legit and unironically scared me#i felt sick after the quest but it was moreso in anticipation and as a result of people's reactions and not just from the quest itself#i don't necessarily blame anyone in those groups for being reactionary as i can see most of the points they make#some of which i still agree with to an extent#but that jump to conclusions and hatred with the hour was hard to bear witness to in a community i've otherwise respected for being chill#also ngl i think working on my hollowframe jade drawing has also helped me come to terms with her design#it's unironically helped further connect me with the vision of the artists behind jade and the quest even with its flaws#sorry for the rambles#warframe spoilers#jade shadows#jade shadows spoilers#this discourse is just gonna go on forever lmao#but oh well at least i got some thoughts in#gonna go back to my dumb hollowframe drawings lol
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@wolfythewitch ‘s Gravity Fowls au has awoken a lost childhood memory of mine recently, specifically because their au is so similar to one of my favorite books when I was a kid: Fantastic Mr. Fox
Basic summary of the book: Three Evil Capitalist Farmers attempt to starve local anthro fox family who regularly steal their products (chickens, goose, duck, turkey, and apples/cider) via bio terrorism, failing miserably at every turn.
Now, you may be wondering, what the actual fuck does that have to do with Gravity Fowls? Well, a major part of the book is that the previously mentioned anthro-fox family has been forced underground by previously mentioned Evil Capitalist Farmers, and so Mr. Fox (the mc) has to devise a fool proof method of getting his family food: tunneling farther underground toward the Evil Capitalist Farms and stealing their produce that way instead of the regular way. I don’t know why, but that just sounds like something Bill would do? Like it just fits his vibes.
So, I just had to draw Bill in Mr. Fox’s outfit!
Isn’t he just so handsome? I also drew one other fanart, and some quick context for this next one:
The Evil Capitalist Farmers also accidentally drive the other wildlife into hiding with their bio-terrorism, which are also anthropomorphic (note: all the animals are anthro, but not the chickens or other produce? Probably too dark for a kids book idk). The other animals blame Mr. Fox for being a fucking sneak, and Mr. Fox is like, woah guys! Don’t worry, I’ve fixed everything, I’ve got an infinite food glitch! We just use these tunnels me and the fam have dug to steal more food! I even got some carrots for the vegetarians! And the other animals are like, alright seems legit.
Why all this context? Because I drew Bill’s henchmaniac crew as origami animals based off the other animals from Fantastic Mr. Fox:
I imagine they still live in the nightmare dimension, but they just origami now. btw all the animals in the book have names like Mr. Weasel, and Mr. Mole, with wife and kids too, which is wild to me. Except Mr. Rat. He’s an aweful disgusting thief (which, who in this book isn’t??) whose constantly getting drunk off Cider (which, again, who tf in this book isn’t?? Even one of the anthro-kids gets drunk at some point??)
But I didn’t just make fanart that catered to me and only me, I also made this:
I had this thought of, what if during weirdmagedon, instead of just getting a 3D form, Bill turns into an actual fox, not just an origami one? So that’s where this came from. Also it should be criminal how long it took me to draw Stanford! I spent so long on that fucking chicken.
Uhm, conclusion? Gravity Fowls is awesome, and respect to Wolfythewitch for being able to actually draw chickens consistently well, I only dream to be able to master that skill.
#gravity falls#gravity falls bill cipher#bill cipher#gravity fowls#stanford pines#Gravity falls au#fantastic mr fox#oh my god that’s an actual tag#Is there a fantastic Mr Fox fandom?#Tell there’s a fantastic Mr Fox fandom#Excuse me while I check out the fantastic Mr Fox fandom
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