#my brain is an asshole

[emlynphoenix]

If this isn’t the truth! Zonisomide was making me have tonic-colonic seizures. Now that I’m off, I haven’t had one since. Medication making life hell…

[wildemaven]

Did a little writing for Joel… and a little planning for Javier— oof!

[ligayaharukadiwata]

Late night brain fart: P5 Protagonist is a magical girl (well, boy technically).

[riotgrrrlhole]

I just mf love that when I’m in depression mode all I do is sleep and cry and that when I’m in normal mode I get insomnia but feel better

[lavoixhumaine]

me: braaaaain, look! i’m writing i am writiiing! we might actually update early this week!

brain: that’s cool but like check out this new makoto shinkai film and don’t you want to like rewatch some violet evergarden because your soul doesn’t look like it’s been crushed recently…?

me: the fuq…

brain: kthxbyeeeeeee

me:

[darklydeliciousdesires]

Me, on my first of five days off: I shall sleep in, yes. This is a good plan.

My brain at 7am: SHALL WE GET UP NOW THOUGH, SHALL WE, SHALL WE, SHALL WE??? NO MORE SLEEP FOR YOU I AM IN FULL SWING, RISE AND SHINE, GOOOOOOOOD MORNING VIETNAM ETC… LET’S GO BISH!

Me: You’re a twat and I hate you.

[sparklev0id]

does it even count as non consensual if youre pressured into saying yes to something and have mixed feelings about it the entire time

[mydnyt02]

[clownpi]

The writing process

Had some time to write in between grinding for that Janna skin and you know what my brain did? Got me to write a 3k moth girl Jinx fic instead, not any of my ongoings.

Before that? Some Star Guardian angst, also not an ongoing.

The most I have done for actual ongoings is a good chunk of the next Void fic chapter, lots of fluff in the part 2 of the Wedding arc date, and a little on the next part of Delinquent Lux.

I’ve at least decided that Jinx’s Hellcat and Piltover part of Sentinel Jinx will end pretty soon (once I get around to writing them...) so that should hopefully give some breathing room. Alligator Powder is sticking around at least until the two dorks confess to each other, with a likely part two (mini maybe) to bring the rest of the Crownguards in, maybe have a kidfic after that once they’re married idk.

[quintenrosenburgwrites]

me: alright i'm gonna sleep at a semi reasonable time because i am tired as fuck. maybe i'll get decent rest? my brain: abracadabra alakazam you're waking up at five in the god damn am me:

[blue-madd]

Girl help my paras were fighting about something last night and I can't remember what it was this may have serious repercussions on my whole paracosm I can't cope with this rn

[lupinedreaming]

I want to enjoy the Halloween vibes but I’m tired and vaguely sad today 🙃

[grab-the-bananaguns]

me tryin to go to sleep: ok brain quiet now I don’t want to be tired tomorrow

my brain: you don’t know for certain if everythin outside of your room is as you left it

me: don’t

brain: what if everyone is dead, what if everyone is undead, WHAT IF YOU HAVE TO KILL ‘EM AGAIN

me: please… sleep….

brain: everythin out side your room is probably like like that tho…. anyway sleep well knowin these great things

[bruh-please]

Me: *minimizes my trauma* yeah, but she wasn't mean... enough

My therapist: 👁️👄👁️ yeah she sounds like she was a straight up bully, no one has to be "mean enough" to be considered a bully if they are harming you

💃✨🕴🏻😼🐄🦆💥

n e ways sometimes it's crazy to actually analyze all you've been through and realize oh snap I am carrying ✨trauma✨

[cherrycro]

[quiggel]

“He would not fucking say that” but instead of fanfiction it’s my brain giving me really fucked up intrusive thoughts that are extremely different to my actual feelings and beliefs.