#I’ll take just about anythin if it means I can sleep

[grab-the-bananaguns]

me tryin to go to sleep: ok brain quiet now I don’t want to be tired tomorrow

my brain: you don’t know for certain if everythin outside of your room is as you left it

me: don’t

brain: what if everyone is dead, what if everyone is undead, WHAT IF YOU HAVE TO KILL ‘EM AGAIN

me: please… sleep….

brain: everythin out side your room is probably like like that tho…. anyway sleep well knowin these great things

[thetriumphantpanda]

you, her, me | joel & tommy miller

Summary | It was never going to be as easy as getting pregnant on the first try. Tommy is away, working on some project out of town, when your next ovulation test tells you it's time to go. You resign yourself to another month without what you want the most, until Tommy suggests distance needn't change your plans.

Warnings | Y'all. You know what this is. Alcohol consumption, Girlfriend sharing, breeding kink, fingering (F), oral sex (F receiving), unprotected PiV sex, Tommy yet again getting cucked (but softly), phone sex, praise kink, Joel just being a fucking stud and a dirty talking menace once again. No use of Y/N, no outbreak AU.

Word Count | 3.8k

Authors Note | Well. Part one blew up, and it was never going to take first time around was it? Thank you for all the love on this first time around. Hope you enjoy this one just as much. If you like this, please consider reblogging, commenting or popping into my ask box with some love!

Part One | Main Masterlist

It’s not like you hadn’t expected it, but that single line on the pregnancy test still annoyed you. You’d done everything right, waited until the perfect possible time to let Joel fuck you and it still hadn’t taken. Tommy had been incredibly understanding, squeezing your arm and resigning both of you to the fact you’d just have to try again. Not that it would be a terrible thing to have to try again. Joel had been…. Well, Joel had been incredible, and if it were going to feel like that every time you had to try then you surely wouldn’t complain, especially if you could have Tommy’s eyes on you the whole time. 

That’s why, when you take the ovulation test the next month, and that smiling face is looking up at you, your stomach drops, because Tommy isn’t here. He’s gone for the whole week, working on some project out of town so Joel could stay with Sarah. You resign yourself to another month with an empty womb, throwing the test in the bin with fury. 

Tommy phones you that night, fills you in on his day on the jobsite, tells you exactly what he had for dinner, exactly what was on the TV, before he picks up something isn’t quite right on the other end of the phone. 

“What’s wrong, sugar?” His warm voice soothes down the phone pressed to your ear. 

“Nothing is wrong,” Your tone dismissive yet defensive, all at the same time, you sigh, this man knows you more intimately than anyone else, he knows something is wrong, “I took one of those stupid tests and it says it’s time to try again, guess I’m just frustrated that this is another month wasted.” 

He chuckles on the other end of the phone, “It doesn’t need to be wasted.” 

“But you aren’t here.” You point out. 

“Do I have to be?” You’re silent in response, “I don’t physically need to be there to keep an eye on things,” You can almost hear the smirk in his voice, “Or an ear.” 

The coffee you’re drinking splutters from your mouth as you cough, understanding exactly what Tommy is insinuating, “You want me to phone you?” You ask, making sure you’re understanding correctly, “Phone you whilst Joel fucks me?” 

“I sure do, sugar.” 

“And you’re cool with us being here alone?” 

“Shouldn’t I be?” He asks, “Like I said the first time, it doesn’t mean anything, I know he ain’t gonna try anythin’ stupid, so I don’t see why you shouldn’t be able to take what you want from him.” 

“Okay,” You relent after a few moments, “I’ll call him tomorrow, it’s getting late.” 

“Alright sugar,” Tommy replies, “Sleep tight and I’ll speak to you tomorrow.” 

You don’t know why, but it takes hours for you to build up enough courage to phone Joel. Maybe it wouldn’t be so bad to wait this month out, wait for Tommy so he could be here. It wasn’t that you didn’t trust Joel, far from it, but there was something about knowing the love of your life was in the room whilst his brother tried to get you pregnant that put you as at ease with the situation as you could be. 

You’ve spoken to Joel countless times on the phone, but in order to even dial his number, it takes nearly 24 hours and a glass of wine. When you hold the phone to your ear, you almost hang up, but you leave it too long because Joel’s sweet Southern drawl is greeting you. 

“You alright, sweetheart?” 

“Oh yeah, I’m fine,” You reply, “How are you?” You curse yourself, inwardly cringing at how unsure you sound. 

“Yeah, m’all good over here,” He responds, “You need somethin’?” 

“Well, actually yeah, I do,” You rub at the back of your neck, “I um… I did one of those tests and it says I’m good to go, to like, try again, so yeah, this is me phoning to say that and make a really fucking terrible job of asking if you’d help again.” 

You hear him chuckle on the other end of the phone, “Sarah’s at a sleepover tonight, I can be with you in an hour?” 

“Okay, yeah, that sounds good, I’ll see you in a while.” 

“See you soon, pretty girl.” 

Pretty girl? Fucking hell. Joel had always been a flirt, smiles and smirks and little nicknames, but he’d never once crossed the line with you. Knew you had eyes for his little brother, would never get in the way of that. He’d never crossed that line until you’d invited him, point blank to do so. You had to remind yourself that he was only doing you a favour. A really massive, incredibly fucked up favour, but a favour none-the-less, and once that had been achieved that was it. He’d just go back to basically being your brother-in-law, wouldn’t he? 

An hour later, you’d swapped the wine for a glass of whiskey, just like the first time. There’s a tentative knock at the door, which has you downing the last of the liquid before you open the door for Joel. He’s similarly dressed as last time, dark jeans and a flannel shirt open over a dark t-shirt. He’d obviously showered before coming over, hair mostly dry apart from the very ends of his curls. These damn Miller brother’s won the gene jackpot because in the setting sun, Joel is fucking beautiful. 

He leans down, pulling you into a hug, “Evenin’, darlin’,” He whispers into your ear before letting you go, “You gonna invite me in?” He asks, when you don’t move to let him in. 

“Oh, yeah, sorry!” You exclaim, stepping back, “Come on in.” 

When you close the door behind him and turn around, you can feel the tension in the air. He’s wandering aimlessly through the open living space, standing with his hands in his pockets. It’s weird. You can feel the butterflies settling into your tummy already. 

“You know, you don’t need to make me feel good, right?” You muse, stepping from foot to foot by the door, “You can just fuck me and leave.” 

His head drops as he snorts through his nose, “Darlin’, I can’t in good conscience let you conceive a child if you don’t come at least twice.” 

“But….” 

Joel interrupts, “Answer me this, pretty girl,” He growls, “If I were Tommy right now, how many would he give you?” 

You think for a moment, “Probably three,” You shrug, “Once with his fingers, once with his mouth, then he’d make me come on his cock.” 

He smirks, knowing you’ve proven his point, “Well then, get that pretty ass over here and let me make you feel good.” 

He’s holding out a hand for you, coaxing you to come towards him, which you take gladly, suddenly feeling like you’re in some weird form of trance. He takes your hand in his, leads to you the couch and sits down. You’re standing in front of him, his face level with your tummy. He takes those wide palms and drags them up the backs of your legs, under the material of your dress to settle on the supple skin of your ass. 

“I gotta call Tommy,” You speak quietly, “Wanted to listen in.” 

“You can call him in a minute,” Joel’s voice is commanding as he kisses your tummy through the material of your dress, “Let me give you one first, get you nice and relaxed, yeah?” 

Joel puts his palms on your hips and turns you around, puts his fingers into the waistband of your underwear and drags them down your legs. When they pool at your feet, you step out of them, Joel’s hands keeping you balanced before he’s pulling you down onto his lap. He’s got his legs closed together, yours straddling either side of his. One of his hands is pressed on your tummy, pulling you flush back into him, the other is already snaking between your thighs, held open by his legs in the middle. 

You take a deep breath, and let yourself sink into his body, broad chest acting as a weighted comfort. His lips start to trail hot kisses down the side of your neck and onto your shoulder as he runs his fingers down the seam of your pussy. Joel’s fingers dip just below, and you hear him gasp and then chuckle when you’re already wet. 

“Pretty girl,” He coos into your ear, “You been thinkin’ about me? Thinkin’ about how good I made you feel last time?” 

You don’t reply, just tip your head back to rest on Joel’s shoulder, sighing in pleasure as he drags his fingers through the folds of your pussy, fingers brushing ever so gently across your clit, “So fuckin’ wet for me, darlin’,” He groans, letting his fingers dip back down, “So wet, so easy for me to do this.” 

He slips two fingers inside your pussy with ease, immediately hooking them in just the right way that has you keening, hips bucking in time with his slow thrusts. The hand he had on your tummy is moving downwards now too, dragging slowly across your mound until he’s got his middle finger touching your clit, two fingers still buried inside you. 

“Joel – fuck – Oh God.” You moan, his fingers applying more pressure to your clit now, setting your skin aflame. 

“You like that, huh?” His lips are still trailing hot kisses along the skin of your neck and shoulders, “Can feel that pretty pussy clenchin’ around my fingers already,” You can feel his smirk on your skin, “Gonna be so easy to finish you off, pretty girl.” 

He proves his point in minutes. His fingers begin speeding up, thrusting into your aching heat, curling just right to his that spot inside you, whilst his finger doesn’t let up with its tight circles across your clit. 

“I’m gonna – fuck Joel, I’m gonna come.” 

“That’s it baby girl,” His voice is low and you can feel his solid cock under your ass already, “Let go for me.” 

You do just that. Thighs shaking, Joel’s name falling from your mouth as your first orgasm slams right into you. He’s pulled his fingers from your pussy, walls clenching around nothing, but his fingers are still tracing those gentle movements along your clit, working you through the aftershocks. Once he’s sure he’s milked you for every second of your orgasm, he presses a chaste kiss to your cheek. 

“Up you get.” He taps his hand on your thigh, helping you to stand. 

He switches your places, you sit on the couch, legs spread with your wet cunt on display, him dropping to his knees in front of you, hooking your legs over his shoulders. You’ve barely had time to catch your breath before his mouth presses a soft kiss to your clit that has an obscene moan dropping from your lips. 

“Phone him,” Joel murmurs against your skin, motioning to your mobile phone on the side table, “Bet he’d love listening to you gettin’ your pussy ate.” 

You push yourself up just far enough to be able to grab your phone, fumbling with the keys as Joel continues to press teasing kisses along the skin of your thighs. You hit dial on Tommy’s number, listening as it rings three times before he picks up. 

“Hey sugar.” He greets. 

Joel can obviously hear his brother’s voice, because he chooses this moment to take his tongue and lick a wide stripe up your sex with the flat of his tongue, dipping between your folds to flick your clit. 

“Hey baby,” You reply, looking down at Joel’s face between your legs, “Your brother is here.” 

“That so?” You can hear him shuffling about on the other end, “You wanna tell me what he’s doin’?” 

Joel uses one of his big hands to spread your pussy open for him, taking his tongue all the way down to your weeping core, where he literally drinks from you, lapping up your slick like he’s gone forty days and forty nights without water. 

“He’s got his face between my legs Tommy,” You groan, “Eating my pussy so fucking well for me.” 

“Let me hear you, sugar,” Tommy coaxes, “He makin’ you feel good?” 

Joel’s tongue works its way up your pussy, tracing circles over your sensitive clit with the tip of his tongue. You let out an obscene moan down the phone, hips moving towards Joel’s face to chase more. You need more. You want more. His mouth needs to be closer to you. 

“So good baby,” You moan, free hand tangling in Joel’s hair, as he focuses all the attention of his tongue to your clit, “He’s going to make me come.” 

“Go on baby,” Tommy speaks, you can hear the clinking of his belt in the distance, and you know exactly what he’s going, “Let go for him.” 

Joel doesn’t even have to add his fingers to the equation this time. He wraps those perfect lips around your clit and sucks, tongue still flicking desperately over the sensitive bud, and you’re gone. Body arching off the couch, thighs clasped around his face as you cry out. You can hear Tommy on the other end of the phone chuckling, coaxing you through it, telling you what a good girl you’ve been. 

Joel finishes between your thighs with a final kiss to your clit before he’s pushing himself up off the floor. You’re taking deep breathes, pulling the phone from your ear to put Tommy on speaker phone, setting the phone back down on the side table while you stand, shedding your dress to leave you completely naked in front of Joel. He eyes you as he takes off his own clothes, letting out a low whistle, turning his head to the phone. 

“Fuckin’ hell brother,” He comments, letting a low whistle out, “You’re a lucky son of a bitch, getting to see her naked like this every day.” 

The tinny reverb of Tommy’s voice barking a laugh down the phone makes you smile. The way these two men have opened up and worshipped you, both in their own ways, but worship none the less, makes you feel like a goddess. Makes you swell with pride. You watch intently as Joel sheds the last of his clothes, letting your eyes drag over every inch of skin he reveals to you as each second passes. Then, once he’s as naked as you are, cock sprung to attention, he sits himself back down on the couch, guiding you to straddle his hips. 

“Gonna take what you want from me, pretty girl?” Joel asks, looking up at you with those big brown eyes, his big hands are guiding your hips, head of his cock nudging through the wetness of your slick cunt to push ever so slightly inside you. 

You let yourself sink fully down onto him, throwing your head back as that feeling off fullness you remember from last time. Joel drags his hands up your body, resting both on your ribcage, head coming forward to capture one of your tits in his mouth, sucking a nipple into his mouth to shower attention to it with his tongue. 

You grind your hips into his own, reveling in the way his palms squeeze your sides, teeth sinking into the skin of your breast. You settle your arms around Joel’s neck, one hand tangling in the curls at the nape of his neck as you lean back a little, hips grinding into his. The angle has you grinding your clit into his skin in just the right way. 

“Fuck,” He hisses, pulling himself away from you, “You’re gonna come again, aren’t you?” He teases, “I can feel that cunt clenching my cock baby.” 

You can hear Tommy groan on the phone, “Sugar, you’re so easy to please.” He speaks out from the side table. 

Joel’s hands grip your hips, guiding you to keep grinding on his cock like you are. It’s overwhelming, there is no other thought in your mind right now other than chasing the next high you can feel building in your lower body. Focused on nothing but grinding your body into Joel’s solid presence underneath you. Focused on listening to Tommy continuously praise you for being a perfect girl for them both. 

“Tommy, fuck-” Joel breathes out, “I wish you could see her right now; she looks so fuckin’ good bouncing on my cock.” 

“Brother, I get to see her like this all the time,” He groans, “You enjoy her for yourself right now.” 

“Joel- please…” You beg, orgasm so close you could reach out and touch it, “I’m so fucking close.” 

“Go on, pretty girl,” Hands on your ass to continue the guiding of your movements, “I know you can do it for me.” 

And he’s right. He’s always fucking right. You grind yourself into him a few more times before white spots burst into your vision, and you feel yourself let go in a way you’ve never known before. Slick dripping down Joel’s cock, a literally scream on your lips as he pulls your body to his, finally slamming his cock into your tight cunt in earnest. 

“There’s three, baby girl.” He whispers into your ear, just for you to hear. His brother doesn’t need to know he’s issued himself a personal challenge to make you come more than he does. That’s just for the two of you to know. 

Your forehead is rested on his, cock stilled inside you to give you a moment to gather yourself. When you look into his eyes there’s something in those brown orbs, something daring you to lean forward. Press your lips to his own and let him devour you entirely. Let him have every piece of you. You almost do it, then you hear Tommy moan on the other end of the phone, breaking the spell between you and Joel. 

Something snaps behind his eyes. He gathers you, flipping you over until he has your legs hooked around his elbows, pussy spread for him, bent almost in half before he slams his thick cock into you, setting a bruising pace that has your breath hitching in your throat. It’s so hard and intense that tears are gathering in the corners of your eyes. The sounds of Joel’s skin slapping against you and his groans, your high-pitched whines drown out any noise that Tommy might be making over the phone. 

“Don’t worry,” Joel manages to breath out, seeing the tears dripping down your face, “Gonna give you what you need, hot mama.” 

“Please,” You beg, the sound hitting your own ears, weak and pathetic and truly at this man’s mercy, “Fill me up Joel, fuck a baby into me.” 

“Touch yourself,” He demands, “You got one more for me, I know you do, pretty girl.” 

It takes all your strength to do as he asks, fingers seeking out your clit. The touch you place to it is blurring the line between pleasure and pain, but when Joel is looking down at you like he is now, watching his cock split you in half, watching your face as you moan, touching yourself, you resign yourself to keep going, chase one more high with him. 

He drops one of your legs from its place hooked around his elbow, big hand coming to rest over your tummy, “Fuck Tommy,” He calls out, clearly only moments away from coming deep inside you, his fingers stroking the soft skin as his eyes train on your belly, “She’s gonna look so good when I finally knock her up for you, all swollen and perfect.” 

It’s the image that finishes you off this time. You close your eyes tight, pulling your hand from your clit as soon as you’re arching up into Joel, calling his name into the dark of the room, hands gripping at his biceps, nails forming perfect half-moons in his skin.  

“Good girl,” Joel praises, “Gonna fill you up now baby, you ready for me?” 

“Give it to me,” you demand, hands flying to grip the cheeks of his ass, bringing him in closer to you, “Joel please.” 

You don’t need to ask twice. Joel stills inside your spent cunt and you can feel his cock throbbing inside you, coating your walls with his seed. He rests his head on your chest, pulling in as much breath as he can, before he’s groaning, pulling himself out of you. He leans over and picks up the phone, taking it off speaker to hand it to you, then he disappears to the kitchen. 

“You okay, sugar?” Tommy asks, voice soft at the other end of the phone. 

“Yeah, I’m good,” You mumble, closing your spread legs and bringing them up to your chest, trying to keep as much of Joel’s cum inside you as possible, “Tired.” 

“Did so good for us again, didn’t you?” You smile, responding with a quiet ‘mmm hmm’, “Yeah that’s right, so good for me sugar,” He clears his throat on the other end of the phone, “You make sure Joel gets you to bed alright?” Another response that’s just a noise from you, “I’ll see you tomorrow.” 

You mumble a goodbye and hang up the phone, just in time for Joel to appear with a glass of water. He sits on the edge of the couch, helping you to sit up so you can take big gulps of the liquid. One of his hands is settled on your thigh, rubbing soothing circles with his thumb. 

“Y’alright?” He asks. 

“Yeah, I’m good,” You smile, “Tommy says you have to put me to bed.” 

Joel chuckles, “Course he did,” He stands, taking the almost empty glass from your hand before he slips one arm under your knees, the other across the small of your back, lifting you easily from the couch, “Come on then.” 

He walks you up the stairs and into your bedroom. You’re warm and pliant and you smile as he pulls the duvet up and over you, settling you into bed with a soft kiss pressed to your forehead, “I’ll see you in the morning, pretty girl.” He muses as you drift off to sleep. 

Joel lifts himself from the bed when your breathing settles, stopping briefly to look at you from the doorway before he heads back downstairs and dresses himself. He pours himself a glass of Tommy’s finest whiskey, letting his head drop to the back of the couch. He would stay tonight, downstairs, just in case you needed someone. Just in case you woke up and needed someone to soothe you. He didn’t know how Tommy had been last time once he’d gone home but he bets you needed the comfort. Someone to tell you it would be alright, that you’d done the right thing. It takes all his strength not to stand, strip his clothes back off and settle himself in bed behind you, strong arms wrapped around you to keep you safe. Make you feel secure. He would stay here tonight, just in case you needed him. 

[ruporas]

post-trimax vash meets stampede wolfwood

[ID: Black and white comic of Vash and Wolfwood of their Stampede versions. The comic starts with Wolfwood continuing off a conversation, saying “I didn’t mean t’say anythin’ bad to her. She just took it the wrong way. But anyway...” Wolfwood speaks with a hand gestured flippantly while Vash, who’s seated next to him, just listens. Vash thinks to himself, “Talks more about himself... Honest expressions... Immature, though he was pretty immature too.” He smiles and continues to think, “And yet...”

A panel of Vash’s eye directed now to the sky. He thinks, “Some things are bound to be the same with us...” He thinks of a memory, the version from Maximum of him and Wolfwood, back shown as they chatted underneath two moons, one moon with a hole through it. Vash continues, “Isn’t that right, W-“ His thoughts are interrupted by Wolfwood coming into a view, a close up his deadpan expression. Vash utters out “-olfwood..?” with a nervous expression. He starts to explain, “Um. Sorry if it seemed like I wasn’t listening, I was! So, let’s keep talking?”

Vash smiles and puts his hands together as he says, “okay?” Wolfwood glares at him with gritted teeth and Vash immediately remembers, “Right, he’s more short-tempered...” He continues to think, “Maybe Plan B works with him—“ before he’s grabbed by his coat collar aggressively and changes thoughts, “OK, never mind, brace for impact..!” But he’s surprised when he’s tugged instead, him and Wolfwood flops against the ground. Wolfwood puts an arm over Vash and says, “I don’t need to be entertained, blondie. If yer tired, we can go to sleep.”

Two close up panels of Wolfwood and Vash’s eyes looking at each other, Wolfwood taking off Vash’s glasses as he says, “Am I wrong?” Vash thinks to himself, “Actually... I was being genuine when I said I wanted to keep talking. I don’t feel tired at all. But, I think you know this body more than I do.”

Vash’s thoughts continue, “I can’t deny the me you’re fond of from being taken care of. And I could never deny your kindness. Even though...” Vash finally smiles and says, “You’re not wrong...” Wolfwood smiles back before tugging Vash closer and says, “Then, let’s sleep.” Vash asks, “Should we get a blanket?” Wolfwood asks, “Why?” before kissing Vash on the cheek, “I’ll keep you warm.” Vash puts his face into both his hands and flushes. Wolfwood smiles cheekily and asks, “What?” Vash responds, “I was caught off guard..” Wolfwood says, “You’ve said worse though.” Vash responds, “Did I...” The panel phases out and the dialogue returns to Vash’s thoughts. He thinks, “I want to stay a bit longer. Talk a bit longer.

You’re tired here too. The future is always going to be unfair to you. I want to protect you from it. I want to hold you close so you won’t go far.” The thoughts overlap the scene of Wolfwood now sleeping peacefully against Vash with an arm over him, Vash’s jacket draped against him as a blanket. Vash looks at him and a small thought bubble thinks, “He can fall asleep first...” His previous thoughts continue, “I know I can’t. I already had that chance.” A close up of Vash putting his hand over Wolfwood’s. He continues, “I wasn’t capable once, I can’t be sure I’d be capable a second time. And in a way...”

Vash’s thoughts continue with the back drop of the sky, Stampede’s sky of two moons without holes, “Some things are bound to be the same. But I know you’ll be loved again and again in a way I’d never know.” A split panel, one half contains the sleeping face of Wolfwood from Stampede, the other of Wolfwood from Trimax. In turn, the Vash lying down looking fondly at Wolfwood shifts to the post Trimax Vash while the other versions, Stampede and earlier Trimax, are faintly drawn next to him doing the same. Vash closes his eyes and finally drifts to sleep as the final text reads, “Goodnight, Wolfwood.”

[cultofdixon]

What Happens Next

Daryl Dixon • She/Her Pronouns • The archer was given the best news of his life, and one would say he’s one of the more involved in every single thing that has to do with his future child • ANGST/SFW/NSFW • TW: Pregnancy & Birth / Anxiety / Scars / Injuries / Sleep Deprivation • Ignoring Canon, cuz I can

Requested by: Anon

Daryl stared at her dumbfounded and a little taken back by what his wife had just told him. He had to sit down and the silence started to worry Y/N.

He doesn’t…

He doesn’t want this

We should’ve been more careful

Fuck he’s probably mad

What am I supposed to do—-

“Hey…hey…darling, what’s wrong? You’re crying” Daryl frowns as he has risen from his seat when the tears rolled from her cheeks abruptly. He carefully took a hold of her face wiping away the tears that kept falling. “Sweetheart…”

“I should’ve been more careful…”

“Y/N”

“You don’t want this—-“

“Love—-“

“Daryl I’m so sor—-“

“I want this, I want this if you do” Daryl states holding her face as the tears came on faster but no longer from her anxiety. He couldn’t help his own as he wipes the happy tears away before bringing her close in his embrace. “We’re gonna be parents”

“We’re gonna be parents”

First Trimester

“Are you going on the run tomorrow?”

“I’ll have to ask Y/N” Daryl states helping Rick pack up the truck for the overnighters as the retired sheriff gave him a confused look.

“Ask Y/N? Really? You usually never asked her before you did anythin’. Tell her yeah but—-“

“Things have changed. No more worrying of Negan causing hell on us anymore. I ain’t leaving her in the dark of anythin’.” Daryl shuts the trunk before making his way back to the house. “I’ll ask and let yea know”

“Okay…” Rick continues to have some suspicion about what’s hidden behind his words.

As Daryl enters the home he spotted Y/N immediately as she was sitting on the kitchen floor. He quickly ran over to her thinking the worse but she gave him a reassuring look that made him sit with her instantly.

“Are you alright?”

“Just felt icky when grabbing something to eat…had to sit down”

“Quickly I assume”

Y/N hums tiredly in response as she rests her head on his shoulder feeling his instantly rest on hers. “Did you tell anybody yet?”

“Am I allowed to?”

“Yes…but I wanna tell Carol. You can literally tell anybody else but this is my one. And Maggie.”

“If I tell Rick or Michonne what makes yea think they won’t tell others? Rick also doesn’t know how to keep his mouth shut” He laughs making Y/N do so as well snuggling into his side. “He’s going on a run tomorrow, wondered if I’m going”

“What’s stopping you?” She asks as the silence gave her her answer. “Oh, me? I never stopped you before”

“Mm. Told him I’d ask yea if I could go…” By the way he said such, Y/N knew he didn’t want to go. Leave her for too long…she couldn’t help the smile on her face.

“I don’t want you to go”

“Then I’ll stay. Take care of yea”

“Speaking of such…I’m hungry, but I don’t want to lose it instantly”

“I can make yea toast. Prob one of the few things I can make without burning it” He smiles listening to her laugh to such before slowly getting up and offering a hand to help her up but she shook her head. “Still icky?”

“Mhm. Besides I like the view” Y/N winks smiling up at her man while he groaned to the comment.

A few days went by and today was the perfect opportunity to tell Carol. Alexandria took a big hit after the Saviors War along with the Kingdom that they have been going back and forth to help rebuild each other’s communities with the help of others. It was the Kingdom’s turn to come to Alexandria which meant Carol coming by. But Y/N went on an infirmary run with Siddiq to the other communities. This meant Daryl has to bite his tongue from telling Carol.

Even though Daryl’s silent moments that was him biting his tongue, concerned Carol.

“How’s the house holding up?”

“What do you mean?”

“Well this place was set on fire and our first job was fixing the houses. Was wondering how yours and Y/N’s is doing. Anything you add since I’ve moved to the kingdom?”

“Nope” Daryl lied of course because he can’t talk about the nursery they are starting early before Y/N can’t help physically. “Only got the guest room set up for you. That’s pretty much the only thing we did to the place”

“Uh huh” Carol squints at the man waiting for him to reveal more but he didn’t. “Well, the crops aren’t going to take care of themselves and you’re certainly not helping by drowning the potatoes” she had to take the hose away from Daryl since his mind was elsewhere and that made her worry even more.

She was even more worried and a bit suspicious when Daryl stayed outside that night with the universal radio talking to who she assumed to be Y/N.

“You feelin’ alright, darling?”

“Yeah…Maggie made sure I didn’t overwork myself once I told her”

“She happy?…for us?”

“Why wouldn’t she be? She’s a bit surprised it didn’t happen sooner. Given yknow. The times she walked in on us”

“Do I still have to apologize for the first time in Alexandria or?” Daryl smiles listening to her laugh on the other end. “It’s about to get harder to hide certain things. You better get your ass back before I blab”

“You better fucking not Dixon”

“It’s either I—-Or Rick”

Bingo. Carol knew exactly who to go to and it’s the blabber mouth. Rick can keep secrets when it came to death level situations but life? The man will fold.

“Rick!” Carol calls out to the retired sheriff while he was carrying Judith on their morning walk. “Want some company?”

“Uhm. Sure?” Rick sets Judith down as she instantly reached to hold Carol’s hand as well as her dad’s. “What’s up?”

“Daryl is keeping a secret from me and I overheard him last night talking to Y/N on the radio”

“Why are you eavesdropping on the two?”

“Because they are my family and if something serious is happening…I want to know. I’ve lost enough” She knew playing the guilt card will get Rick to fold but Judith, as young as she is, knows when her father is about to fuck something up.

“I WANT MOMMY” She screams and let go of the two’s hands to sprint in the opposite direction they were heading.

“Sorry Carol I gotta—“ Rick gestures to where his kid is running as Carol waved him off.

As Rick catches up to Judith he quickly picks her up once again as she held her hand out. He immediately took out a hard candy from his back pocket giving it to her.

“You’re a life saver”

“Can you open it daddy?”

“Of course, sweetheart” Rick smiles helping his kid on the way back to their house.

Finally, Y/N returns home with Siddiq who on the drive back was telling her about the pre-natals they had and if she ever got too sick to move that she should see him right away. He was freaking her out really with everything he was talking about. The baby book that Maggie gave her already stressed her.

“Siddiq, I love yea. But please shut up”

“Sorry. Did I go too far?”

“Yes…” Y/N sighs laughing after.

Siddiq drove up to the infirmary and parked, Y/N quickly stepped out grabbing her duffle. “Let me get you the vitamins before you head back home, okay?”

As Y/N waited on the porch, it didn’t take long for Daryl to reunite with his partner knowing she would’ve stopped there first. He was also getting restless not being able to tell Carol the news and needed her to tell her. But she looked exhausted when Daryl drew close.

“You alright?”

“Been doing check ups all day…and driving back from the Sanctuary was physically and mentally exhausting…”

Daryl didn’t know one of their stops was the Sanctuary and felt awful knowing she went there. He took her bag for her and the timing was perfect when Siddiq came out tossing the bottle to the archer.

“How many times a day?”

“It says it on the bottle, but should be once. I’d take it around noon” Siddiq advises patting Y/N on the shoulder before going to unload the truck for them.

As the two made their way back to the house, they were welcomed by Carol standing obnoxiously in the middle of the foyer.

“So what’s going on between you two?”

“Daryl didn’t tell you anything right?” Y/N asks watching the confusion grow on her face. “I’ll take that as a yes…but I’m so exhausted…”

“Carol can she tell yea in the morning? It’s nothin’ bad” Daryl frowns rubbing circles on Y/N’s back as Carol’s expression softens before inevitably nodding.

“But if you forget, I will yell at you”

“Promise” Y/N gave her a soft smile approaching her and hugging her family. “I’m so happy you’re here”

After their small moment, Y/N didn’t wait any much longer to climb into their bed and get comfortable. Daryl brought himself to her side of the bed helping her get out of her shoes and her jeans so that she could be more comfortable.

“Yea need anything from your bag downstairs?”

“Mmm. Besides my shorts, can you get me water while you’re down there?” Y/N smiles as Daryl snuck in a quick kiss to her lips before doing such.

As the archer made his way downstairs he spotted Carol at the dining room table where he put Y/N’s bag…and the bottle.

“Shit”

“You fucking hid this from me?! I wouldn’t have reacted badly—-“ Carol stops when Daryl started shushing her. “Excuse me?”

“Y/N wants to tell yea. She even got mad at me about it. She really wants to be the one to tell you that she literally gave me a list of who I could tell and you were off limits. Same with Maggie.” Daryl took the bottle from her and stowed it away in Y/N’s bag. “You can’t say shit”

“Well can I say—-“

“You can say it in the morning when she tells yea”

When he turned toward his best friend he saw the permanent smile on her face as he clenched the shorts Y/N had him get for her.

You’re gonna be a dad Carol mouths to Daryl with her smile following as she held in her squeal to hug him just for a moment before letting him get back to what he needed to do.

The morning came and Carol anxiously waited at the dining room table for the two to emerge. But only Y/N woke out of them and by the looks of it, she woke up to puke and Carol couldn’t help the worried look.

“I’m pregnant”

“I know”

“I’m too tired to kill Daryl”

“He didn’t tell me, love. I found the prenatal bottle in your bag because Daryl wouldn’t tell me anything that I had to investigate. Even Rick didn’t tell me”

“Mmm…that’s impressive” Y/N was a bit proud of Rick for not spilling the beans. Then she started tearing up which lead to her close friend rising to her feet and making her way to her. “I’m so scared Carol…” she sobbed hugging Carol back once she wrapped her arms around her.

“Oh hun that’s normal. Trust me. You are going to be a great mom, and I know that man of yours is going to be a great dad by how over protective he is and the little one isn’t even here yet” Oh Y/N knew that the archer was looming around the corner as he didn’t want to ruin their moment but also didn’t want to leave her alone in case of anything. “Now come on. You go back to sleep and take it easy today. Dad-to-be and I will hold down the fort” Carol directs Y/N back to the stairs as she stopped to hug her husband feeling him tighten his grasp on her kissing her temple.

“Come find me if yea need anything”

“Mhm” Y/N hums happily parting from him to head back to bed.

“You are going to be difficult to ask for help that takes you away from Y/N, huh?” Carol smiles watching Daryl nod. “Then go! I’ll tell Rick you’ll help out later”

The first three months was a breeze even with the morning sickness and overly tired days. Daryl wouldn’t leave when the days were bad even if Y/N insisted he’d do something other than watch her sleep. But he didn’t care. He’d even catch up on some sleep as long as it meant being with her. Carol started visiting more and Maggie would give her items that helped her during her pregnancy with Hershel Jr. She’s honestly relieved that Y/N wasn’t pregnant during all the chaos, all that was happening was just rebuilding the communities. Some part of her really wanted to physically be there but couldn’t for reasons.

“Y/N, Carol is making me read this and it’s already fuckin’ terrifying” Daryl thought something like the prison flu or another asshole threatening their lives would be the thing he worries about. But there’s so much more to it and the new world changes a lot of it.

“You don’t have to read it if it gets too much” Y/N grumbles to herself as she struggles to her favorite jeans on.

“I wanna be prepared. Even if I have no idea what colostrum is…” Daryl stops reading the page he was on when listening to Y/N’s annoyance get louder. He dog-eared the page he was on setting the book down on the dresser approaching his partner to help when he noticed. “Stop. Wear something else”

“I’m working on the farm all day. I want to be comfortable”

“If comfortable is crushing my baby, I don’t want it” Daryl unbuttoned her jeans as Y/N looks at him confused feeling her face flush when he pulled her pants down low enough to show her in the mirror. “You popped”

“Don’t ever say that again” Y/N laughs resting her hands on her small bump feeling Daryl’s gaze burn into her as she took his hand to rest on it. “Your big ass hand makes it look like nothing”

“It’s still somethin’” Daryl couldn’t help his smile forming as Y/N kisses his temple while he continued to hold her bump.

Second Trimester

It was the first deer she has seen in a while, given she usually gets rabbits and squirrels once she learned how to use her bow. Y/N snuck up on the creature perfectly as she readies her bow, the first time she had to readjust given what she was carrying. She took the shot once it was clear and managed to get the deer.

“Yes!” Y/N cheers putting her bow back on her back approaching the downed deer, pulling the arrow out once she put it out of its misery. She heard the walker approaching and given her knelt position it was going to take her a minute to get up but she was going to take it out before it got near dinner.

Then an arrow shot past her taking the walker out as Y/N quickly turns around finding her man had took the shot and gave away his position.

“I told you I could’ve done this alone”

“But yea ain’t alone, and I didn’t make any promise to the peanut. Ain’t leavin’ her alone”

“You really want a girl don’t you?” Y/N smiles ignoring how she felt a second ago to gush over the fact that Daryl really wants a little girl and how cute it was that he did.

“I ain’t calling the baby an it that’s for sure” Daryl scoffs going to retrieve his arrow and help her carry the deer back, and by help, do it himself. “Yea feel anything yet?”

The archer has been reading the baby book given to him non-stop. He’s already protective of those who’s he cares about, and the book only made it 100 times worse because of all the scary things that could happen. But there are good parts. In this regard, the baby kicking.

“I just got to five months. It won’t magically happen instantly”

“I know…but I wanna be there”

“You most likely will. You don’t leave me alone for more than a minute” Y/N laughs quietly as the two got closer to where they’ve been staying for a month. The Sanctuary. Rick had asked Daryl if he could watch the Sanctuary for a few weeks just until they’re comfortable knowing not another Negan will emerge. He also promised Y/N that it would only be a few weeks and then they can be back home enjoying their lives just the two of them before their new addition joins.

It’s been a month and Daryl hasn’t seen anything happen with the ex-saviors but has seen his wife become more anxious the longer they stay there.

“I’m talkin’ to Rick tomorrow about going home. I think the place is fine without supervision. Just as long as someone checks in every now and then…” Daryl frowns looking at Y/N who was actively ignoring the conversation knowing Rick is only going to ask for another couple days. But he was persistent this time. “Y/N. We’re gonna go home. Not have to worry about anythin’ else but gettin’ ready for the little peanut”

She really wasn’t there mentally when Daryl would talk about that. All she did was give him a small smile before hesitantly heading inside the place.

“You can go back if it’s that bad”

“Rick fuckin’ owes me this time. It’s one thing dealin’ with my own shit. But Y/N not saying more than five words a conversation while in this hell, I ain’t having it anymore Carol” Daryl frowns gripping the radio in his grasp as he tried not to lose it while he stepped outside for a moment even if his anxiety was telling him to not leave Y/N. “I need to go back inside”

“You should”

Daryl looks up from his lap finding Carol in the protective gear that Kingdom guards wear as she brought herself to sit beside him. “When did yea—-“

“You’re not the only one with access to that radio.”

“She’s talkin’ to yea and not…Carol if something serious is—-“

“Don’t. Don’t jump the gun. It has nothing to do with her state or the baby. For the most part” Carol set her pack down going through it and handing Daryl a few things at a time. They were all baby related and some clothes for Y/N that would make her more comfortable even if wearing Daryl’s sweaters were enough. “We talk about her and the baby in good terms. Whenever I do bring up the Sanctuary, she goes quiet and doesn’t want to talk about it at all. She doesn’t want to be here. So I am helping y’all get out of here and if whoever has an issue with it, they’ll talk to me”

“Or me. I don’t want Y/N to stress just from being here.” Daryl frowns holding a Fox plush that was in the pile. “Rick should’ve thought this through”

“Mm. He should’ve. But right now? We have our priorities”

Y/N was sleeping uncomfortably in one of the rooms at the Sanctuary as she would wake to every noise she heard and didn’t like being so close to the cells knowing where Daryl has been held captive for weeks. Her anxiety was the worse that night Daryl and Carol decided to sneak her out in the middle of it, the door opening lead to Y/N taking her gun out from under her pillow.

Daryl held his hands up watching Y/N relax but also break out into tears. “Hey…no I’m sorry. Shouldn’t have snuck up on yea or anythin.” He frowns sitting on the side of the bed wiping away her tears. “We’re going home, not waiting for Rick or anybody else for that matter. We’re going now”

“But—-“

“Nah. I need my wife and baby safe, and even if everything is fine here. You don’t feel safe. I need yea safe” Daryl presses his forehead against hers resting his hand on her belly and that’s when it happened. Right at that very second, Daryl suddenly pulls back keeping his hand cemented on her belly as Y/N rests hers on top of his laughing through the tears.

“Timing couldn’t be more perfect”

“Peanut didn’t like it here either” Daryl kept his attention to the movement until it stopped for the time being as he brought Y/N close to hold his family. “We’re gonna be okay. I promise”

Nobody questioned their return, and Rick definitely didn’t bother asking because he knew he’d get chewed out. But a huge part of him was thankful to have them back.

“Daryl told me to check on yea while he’s gone, but by the looks of it…” Michonne enters the nursery. “You’ve been busy” she smiles seeing all the work Y/N had managed to get done.

The walls were already a grey and Daryl found paint cans in one of the garages that matched the shade enough to fix the spots. The one part he didn’t let Y/N do because of fumes. Even though he did try to convince her to let him move furniture but she would yell at him every time he tried. It’s the simple stuff. The closet had the extra supplies, there was a dresser that held the baby clothes Daryl found and hand me downs from Maggie, a basket on top of such that held cloth diapers and burp clothes, a crib, and the rocking chair Y/N was currently sitting in that was gifted to her by someone at Oceanside. There was still much to be done but she was exhausted when Michonne came in.

“He’s on a gas run but knowing my partner he’s going to come back with things. He never comes home empty handed” Y/N shifts a bit getting used to being a growing planet of a human being as she rubs circles on her belly. “Wish he’d be back already”

“You want company?” Michonne smiles watching her friend’s eyes light up to those words.

The party of two became three and then four. That being Rosita joining once she heard a girls night was commencing in some way and Carol joining after she came to visit to do her usual check in on Y/N. Daryl isn’t the only hoverer. At first it was talking about the changes happening in the others’ lives and then the talking became talking and working on the nursery with the directions given by Y/N.

By the end of the night, Daryl came back with Rick as the two were heading toward the Dixon residence.

“You excited?”

“Who wouldn’t be?”

“I was terrified with Carl and that was before the outbreak happened. Then Judith, same feelin’ but with the undead around. Y’all having a kid with the sickos still walking. Just thought you’d be a bit more—-“

“Scared?” Daryl chuckles gripping the strap to his crossbow. “Never said I wasn’t scared and as much as hell continues to surround us, as long as they’re safe and well, our bubble can stay intact.”

“You did seem to be a natural with babies when Judith was small. I know for a fact you’ll be great” Rick pats his brother on the back watching Michonne step out of the residence with a smile on her face and immediately hugging her man.

“Have a good night” Daryl tells the two as he enters his home seeing Carol and Rosita in the kitchen cleaning up their mess but also enjoying dinner. “Hey”

“Hey, look who’s back”

“Y/N misses you. Should go check on her” Rosita states watching Daryl give her a questioning look by how she said such before doing exactly that. Since it was his plan the second he entered Alexandria.

Daryl’s first stop was the bedroom half expecting her to be in bed already. But since she wasn’t there, he knew to check the obvious and he was surprised by the finished nursery. It was very gender neutral even if he was convinced and convinced Y/N that they were having a girl. But he loved everything about it.

“You’ve been busy”

“I had help from my girls” Y/N smiles happily from the rocking chair that now had a blanket resting on the back of it. It had little woodland creatures on it. “Do you like it?”

“I love it, love it even more if you didn’t lift a finger”

“I didn’t. All the moving was done by them and Carol told me off every chance I tried” She laughs leaning forward when Daryl brought himself over leaning into her to kiss her as she met him halfway. “How was your day?”

“Found enough gas for a few more trips. Gonna try Maggie’s alternative and see if we can eventually change to that” Daryl brought himself to sit on the floor beside her enjoying the feeling of her hand running through his hair. “Did get more stuff for her”

“I figured. But you should look at one of the shelves before you bring the new items in” Y/N states watching Daryl get up with a slight groan after having an exhausting day as he goes to the shelves finding some of the plushies but books they found on display.

But there was a solo shelf above the dresser that held knickknacks. He felt a warmth in his chest finding little wooden carvings that represented each member of their family. Crossbow…arrow…sheriff hat…katana…knife…baseball cap…and the last item was a framed Polaroid that the two had taken with their family all the way back to the prison.

“Eugene whittles and got them done perfectly in my opinion. He also felt like he owed me for the time I was three months and he made me cry for an hour” that got a laugh out of Daryl even though he remembers the day perfectly where he didn’t even know his own strength by how he managed to lift the poor guy off the ground for scaring him in thinking he hurt his wife. “I think it’s perfect but we’ll need something temporary to mount them”

“I’ll think of something but they’re fine where they’re at for now” Daryl smiles returning the picture back on the shelf.

Third Trimester

I’m a fucking goddamn planet Y/N thought as she tries to look down at her feet from sitting on the bench at the end of their bed. Seven months wasn’t so bad. Eight is fucking hell.

Daryl came upstairs once he stood at the front door for too long waiting for Y/N. He thought she was right behind her but she wasn’t.

“What’s the matter?”

“I’m huge. My back hurts…and I can’t tie my shoes” Y/N frowns lifting her feet up and setting them down gently as she readjusts from her seated position holding her belly.

“You should’ve just asked for help, love” Daryl knelt down once he got close enough and helped tie Y/N’s shoes feeling her distract herself by messing with his hair. “Why are you even wearing this pair? I got you shoes without laces”

“You found shoes without laces and I forgot where I put them” Pregnancy brain is a bitch. “Why are we doing this again?”

“It’s a walk around Alexandria. It’s five to ten minutes top. You also bugged me to remind you of such the past few days we’ve been doing this” He tried really hard to contain his laugh but his grin was prominent. “Helps the swelling in your legs”

“Sometimes I wish you’d listen to my tired brain over my screaming one from a few days ago”

“When we get home I’ll rub your feet”

“Sold” Y/N stops messing with his hair, fixing it quickly before he stood to his feet holding his hands out to help her off the bench.

Daryl gave her a quick kiss, then one to her bump. He’s been doing that every day since her bump became more noticeable.

It was a cool fall afternoon that the two were walking around Alexandria as Y/N watches all the familiar faces go about their day along with the new ones. This community expanded like the others and her heart swelled over the fact that this little one has a village in case of anything. But boy did her man make sure everything would go smoothly.

“I’m not naming our kid after any dead relatives”

“Middle names are fine. But you also have to give me boy names” Y/N watches her man roll his eyes as she was just preparing for that just in case. “C’mon baby. We don’t know the gender and our already huge list of girl names over power our list of boys that is literally nothing. It could happen”

“It ain’t but fine. What are yea thinking”

“I really like Shepherd”

“Done. That’s the name if we have a boy—-“

“Daryl!” Y/N smacks him in the chest lightly. “Actually come up with one instead of instantly agreeing with me. What would you like for a boy that would be on the same level with your favorite girl names?”

“Robin can go both ways”

“Okay, fair. But come on” Y/N returns her hand to holding Daryl’s as he was silent for a long time before actually thinking of one.

“Andy ain’t bad”

“Short for Andrew? That’s cute. Andrew Glenn Dixon” That sounds nice.

“Mmm. Gregory”

“No” Y/N immediately shot down. “Steven?”

“Not my first option, but an option. Mmm….” Daryl looks around the place thinking something would inspire him as Y/N tugs at him to take a seat at the gazebo. “Josh—Nah that didn’t sound right leaving my mouth”

“I had an ex named Josh in the old world”

“Then that’s a fuck no” Daryl leans back into the bench resting his head on top of hers once she placed herself on his shoulder. “Can we just agree on Andrew or Shepherd for the boy names?”

“Then Robin or Evelyn for our top girl choices” Y/N sighs happily knowing she doesn’t have to stress about that. “Glad we got that covered”

The two were simply enjoying themselves as a party of two for a little while longer. Listening to the wind of autumn…watching life continue even while outside the walls was a scary place…Daryl couldn’t help but think about the future. Would he mess up? Would he turn out like his father? But those thoughts washed away every time Y/N would look into his piercing blue eyes with her beautiful E/C ones. She’s always been the light that lead him back to reality. He knew he’ll be fine with her by his side every step of the way.

A few nights have past since that calming moment, Daryl brought his arm around his love bringing her close even if it meant her back flush against his chest. Y/N shifted slightly in her sleep out of discomfort from the size of her belly and the movement of the baby. She brought her hand on her belly hoping rubbing circles would soothe it but instead the discomfort got worse.

“D…”

“Hm?”

“Your baby won’t stop moving” She sighs feeling Daryl shift behind her enough to bring his hand to her belly. Her hope was dad’s touch would do something but it didn’t.

Daryl got up entirely from the bed moving himself to her side watching the discomfort in her face grow as she tries to hide in her pillow.

“Imma get Siddiq”

“Please don’t leave me…” Y/N sobs feeling his calloused hand brush the hair out of her face before taking care of the on-going tears.

“Hun if you’re in labor we need the doc”

“My water hasn’t broke yet…”

“Y/N. I don’t want to take any chances here” Daryl frowns hating that she was already experiencing a lot of discomfort that they both knew was only going to get worse. “The second it breaks I’m getting Siddiq. But what do you want me to do right now for you? Just name it”

Early stages of labor was mainly discomfort and the body preparing itself. Daryl didn’t like anything Y/N was suggesting they’d do before her water breaks.

Like the walk they were taking at 3AM and Daryl growing frustrated every time Y/N would smack his hand away when he tried to hold her in some way. She was starting to feel crowded in her own person making her stop suddenly in the middle of the street.

“What’s happenin’” Daryl frowns resting his hand on her back as she tensed to the touch. “Y/N. Tell—-“

“Shut up. I don’t want to walk anymore” She groans turning herself around and waddling incredibly slow back to their place.

The sound of a door opening caught the archer’s attention as he quickly noticed Rosita stepping out of the house she shared with Eugene and Gabriel. She looks at the two confused as Daryl tried his best to tell her what was happening with hand gestures. Rosita is a smart woman she caught on without Daryl’s gesturing as she went back inside to get her shoes on and leave to go get Siddiq for the Dixons.

“She’s in the bath”

“Hm. That makes sense” Siddiq rubs the sleep out of his eyes as it was now around five in the morning and her water hasn’t broken yet. “How do we know these aren’t Braxton?”

“The fake ones? She’s in a lot of discomfort. I doubt it’s fucking fake” Daryl frowns his anxiety was spiking his rage slightly. “I gotta check on her. Just. I’ll come and find yea—-“

“I’m already here. I’ll just be on the couch until anything. Okay? But if it gets worse, I have to check her myself to see how dilated she might be”

“Alright” Daryl quickly went back upstairs, surprised Y/N even wanted to be back up there. But it meant having their kid in their bedroom if it comes to it.

Y/N was comfortably uncomfortable in the bath as she didn’t say a word when Daryl entered, only looked at him with tears still blurring her vision.

“How bad is it?” Daryl sat on the edge of the tub taking her hand into his, feeling her crush his hand instantly. “Fucking hell”

“You should’ve told me sooner if you were a big baby.”

“I wasn’t?” Daryl knew her emotions were going to be all over the place, and her anger is starting to get there. “I was premature.”

“You gave me a big ass baby” Y/N squeezed her eyes shut and the grip on his hand got tighter indicating the pain getting worse. These weren’t fake. These were real contractions. “God she’s going to fucking rip herself out of me”

There’s a mental image Daryl is never going to forget, and the man has seen Alien. Okay now it’s worse applying a chest buster to labor.

“Siddiq has to check yea to see how dilated you are”

“Only you can see me fucking naked. I need to get the fuck out and put a shirt on before that happens”

“Are you even ready to—-“

“NO” She snaps wanting to remain in the tub for a little while longer.

Word got out that Y/N was in the early stages of labor and as more of their family entered the living room, the more it progressed. Siddiq had left to get everything he’ll need from the infirmary given this is now happening in their home. Oh what the doc would give for a hospital right about now. He knows what he’s doing but he still feels inexperienced every time.

Y/N wore one of Daryl’s shirts covering most of her as she felt like a tiny person carrying a planet even more now that her water has broke all over their floor. She leans against the bed gripping the sheets trying to distract herself, appreciating Daryl’s hands working their magic on her back to ease the pain while she took deep breathes.

“I hate you”

“Mm. Fair.”

“No don’t agree with me I’m not serious” she started to sob again. Nice job Daryl. “I love you…I love you so much and I’m excited for this chapter but HOLY FUCK DOES IT HURT” she screams as it startled Daryl a bit, especially their friends in the living room.

“I’ve gotcha love” Daryl brought himself beside her resting his head against hers feeling her lean into him. “Just a few more hours and it’ll be all over”

“I can’t…Fucking, I can’t” Y/N sobs into him feeling his arm wrap around her shoulders to bring her closer.

“You’re the strongest person I know. You can, and you will.” Daryl states kissing her temple before helping her back into the bed.

A few hours have passed and Siddiq checked how dilated she was once more before giving Daryl and Y/N a look that it was time. While he got himself prepared, Y/N gave her partner a horrified look.

“I’m not ready”

“Love, it’s time”

“Daryl I’m not ready” She cries. “What if I’m a terrible mom? What if I mess up so bad that she’ll resent me? I-I…”

Daryl squeezes her hand bringing it up to his lips kissing the back of it before resting his forehead against hers. “You’re going to be great. No one is ever ready. I’m scared shitless. But I know I’ll be great with yea, Y/N. We’ll be great. We’ll mess up and take care of it along the way. It’s bound to happen but again, we’ll be great. We have a village. Have each other. I’m right here, sunshine”

His words made her cry even more but in ease. Siddiq was finally ready and bringing the blanket up checking her once more when Daryl got an idea. He kicked his shoes off and had Y/N sit up enough for him to slip in behind her. She instantly presses herself against his chest feeling his hand move to her knees after instructed to do such.

“Okay, push on the next contraction” Siddiq states letting the nature take its course.

Y/N started to get anxious when the contraction hit her like a truck which lead to her pushing given her instruction. Daryl felt her hands grip onto his forearms as he moved one of his hands off her knee a second to grab her hand letting her squeeze the hell out of it while he brought her leg back into position.

“Good. Good” Siddiq made sure everything was happening smoothly. “Only push on the contractions, Y/N. Or you’ll tear”

“I want to push now…” She sobs feeling Daryl rest his chin on her shoulder.

“Just wait love” Daryl squeezes her hand and her knee with the other one as she rests her head against his.

Push

Push.

Push!

It felt surreal, like how the hell did this even happen? How did they manage to create this perfect little human being that was currently crying up a storm on Y/N’s chest…Daryl couldn’t help the tears that breached from his eyes as he watches their little girl sob into her mother’s chest.

“We did it love…”

“You did it, sweetheart” Daryl kisses Y/N’s temple continuing to keep his full attention on their little one. “She’s perfect”

As the day progresses and the news of little Robin Elizabeth Dixon spread through their entire family, the day felt as if it slowed for just a moment. That moment being Daryl holding his little girl for the first time, letting his wife rest as he took care of her.

Daryl hasn’t stopped smiling since he first saw his daughter and how perfect she came out. He didn’t have to worry about losing either of them during the process, and she was a healthy little girl that calmed instantly in her father’s embrace.

“Are you happy, Daryl?” Y/N smiles tiredly watching the two from her spot seeing his smile grow.

“Yeah, yeah I am”

[azulera]

Rashy noticing that's something has been wrong with you for the last few weeks and you just won't tell him and he's stressing trying to figure it out

azulera

Don’t Leave Me Alone

Pairing: Marcus Rashford x Black Reader

Words: 3.5k

Notes: ngl recent events have made me not even want to post but i already had this done and as i said, i do value that ppl like my writing enough to send requests. so here is this! hope u like it anon

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They'd picked the summer time to move in, late May to be exact, and Marcus was sure it was the smartest decision he’d ever been a part of. The prem season was ended, Y/N was out for the semester, they both had at least five weeks free to travel and relax, and there’d be no cold for the mover’s fingers to go blue in. The transporting itself had gone smoothly, each of her things finding its place in the huge expanse of his house, and the past month and a half of eating, sleeping and waking next to each other had been as nearest to perfect as Marcus thought life might get. So he couldn’t explain what, in the last seven days, could have possibly gone wrong.

“Is everythin alright, love?” He asked over the dinner table, which was sanded wood and brought over from Y/N’s apartment, much smaller than the one he’d used before.

She looked up from her plate and blinked. “Do you mean about dinner? I think I finally got the potatoes right this time, yeah.”

“No, not the food.” The side of his mouth lifted. “You’ve just seemed a bit down, this week, I don’t know. Just wanted to ask, see if there was anythin buggin you?”

“Oh,” She passed a hand over her hair. “Just tired, I guess. It was a rough semester.”

“Yeah, it was – you smashed it, though. But,” He paused until she looked at him, and was immediately taken by her brown eyes, which, unreadable as they were, he’d always found incredibly beautiful. “If anything’s wrong, you can tell me. I’d want to help.”

“Mhm.” She replied, and flitted her eyes away, pushing up from the table. “Let’s clean up?”

He nodded, though he wasn’t convinced, and stood up to take their few dishes to the kitchen. They rinsed and loaded in a silence not as comfortable as it ought to have been, and soon finished, Y/N pausing in front of the rumbling machine. From behind, Marcus pulled her into an embrace, fitting his hands around her waist and mumbling into her neck.

“Wanna come cuddle wi’me for a bit? We can watch the next Narcos.”

He felt her take a deep breath, and then lightly pat the hand that held her.

“I’ve got a little headache, actually. Think m’gonna lay down for the night.”

Marcus frowned. “You want me to watch the next episode? Without you?”

“Yeah, go ahead – I’ll get caught up when you’re on your trip next week. I’d just really like to lay down.”

Fatigue colored her voice, and Marcus felt a little more sure that she really was just under the weather, and not anything worse.

“D’you want me to bring you tea? Water? Medicine?”

She shook her head “no”, and turned around, another sigh hitting the fabric of his t-shirt.

“S’alright, then. Hope you get feeling better, babe.” He leaned in, pressed a kiss to her forehead, and then two to the dark spirals of her hair. “I’ll be up in a bit. I love you.”

A near silent “thank you” left her lips, and she squeezed his hand once. And then Marcus was left in the kitchen alone.

~~

After a mild pre-season session the next day, Marcus skipped showering to go straight to his car. When he’d seen her that morning, Y/N had still seemed poorly – she hadn’t left bed for tea and breakfast with him, and no silly texts or memes had come into his phone, the way they usually did during his long hours of training. Leaving now, he'd felt a strange, strong urge to get to her, like the sooner he did, the sooner things would go back to normal.

When he keyed into the house, however, her usual lounging spot – in the center of the living room sectional – was empty. As were the kitchen, bedroom, gym and laundry room that he walked to after. He found her instead on the back patio, cuddled into herself on the sunbed, with her curls spread wild and loose about her shoulders. A book was opened up and settled on her knees, and a pile of crumpled tissues sat just to her right.

“Hey, was lookin for you.”

The jitters that assailed him finally began to slow as he approached her, but didn’t fade completely.

“What’s all these for? You wasn’t crying, were you?”

“No, no, not really. It’s just this book. It’s pretty sad.” She tried to laugh at herself, but the sound came out wet and dull. “Or maybe I’m just dramatic.”

A range of emotions swept over him as he considered her pink, puffy eyes, the way she still wouldn’t hold his gaze for too long. His anxiety flared again, but he continued on with the plan he’d devised in the car, hopeful that it might still work.

“Well, I’m just about to run a bath, didn’t have time to shower after training. It could cheer you up, maybe. Did you wanna join me?”

It’s something special they do, just for them, a quiet and closeness involved that Marcus enjoyed far more than he’d ever said aloud. He hoped it would be enough to break through the wall he felt sprouting between them.

“But you’re all sweaty.” She said flatly.

He sucked his teeth, and sat alongside her on the thin mattress.

“That never stopped you before? When we were squeezed up in the one at your flat.”

“Right.” Her face fell, suddenly, as if she’d remembered something unpleasant. “But I’ve already showered, actually, a bit ago. Went out for a run.”

“That never stopped you before, either” Marcus wanted to say but didn’t, and focused instead on fixing his face to not reveal his disappointment.

“Okay.” He stalled a moment, weighing his next move. “Babe, are you sure everything is okay with you? M’a bit worried–”

“It’s fine, Marcus. It’s going to be fine, just …” She closed her eyes, and they glistened when they opened, focused seriously on his own. “I’m fine. Just stop pushing it, please.”

She gathered her book and trash and walked back into the house, which hurt him, but her last sentences hurt worse. If he wasn't meant to push, then what could he do? Sitting back and watching her pull further and further away from him was tortuous and seemed the opposite of what a good partner should do. Still, he nodded, even though she had already gone, and let his head fall into his hands.

A few hours later, in the bath, the jacuzzi jets going but alone, nothing was as it should have been. Already he missed the slide of her wet skin against his, how the brown of it went faintly pink the hotter she ran the water, which was scalding enough by Marcus’ standards. Now it felt lukewarm at best, the bubbles even less fluorescent, less bubbly than usual, without her there to scoop handfuls of them to paste on his face and chest, making herself giggle and cleaning their bodies in the process. He missed that, too, he realized, her body – it’s softness and strength, and how easily it yielded and came alive under his hands, but more concerning was her mind, which was somewhere outside its optimal state, and seemingly getting worse by the day.

He leaned his head back against the tub’s edge and sighed. It was a soft sound, quickly lost among the hum of the jets and the noise of his muscles singing and thanking him, but then he heard something else. Crying. Quiet, choked-off sobs from the other side of the en suite door, that he knew Y/N was trying to hide, but didn’t know why. The sound alone carved a hole deeper in his chest.

Before he realized it, he’d risen from the bath, shampoo still in his hair, and pushed open the door to their bedroom.

Squinting through the dark, Marcus could tell she was in the bed, asleep, or at least pretending to be. He debated whether or not to wake her – his every instinct begged him to, but the noise of tears had stopped, and he’d been specifically, harshly instructed not to “push”.

He waited several moments anyway, eyeing her sleeping form, burning up inside, but when she didn’t budge, he stepped back into the bathroom, mindful of the growing puddle he’d created on the carpet.

Under the shower head, he rinsed his hair and dried off, putting on his lotion and moisturizer in record time, all the while his mind racing, trying to settle the unease twisting up his chest and throat. When he got to the bedroom, he set his alarm and settled in under the covers behind her, as close as he dared.

Though her breaths came and went evenly, something in him, maybe something of his own creation, told him she was awake, that she could hear him. He felt free to unburden himself, and say what he wanted her to know.

“M’here for you, Y/N.” He used one arm to hold her against his chest, and the other to fix her hair scarf where it had ridden up in the back. “Hope you know that. Whatever it is, we can … fix it, talk about it, at least, together. Love you ... don’t wanna lose you.”

He knew the words were true, and could feel their sincerity aching somewhere deep in his bones. But he feared he was running out of ways to make sure Y/N believed it, too.

~~

By the following day, Marcus decided “not pushing” was no longer a viable option. Y/N was gone from bed even before him, and he turned to his night-table to find a message saying she’d gone out for an early run again and to get coffee. It wasn’t a strange occurrence on its own, but the way the last few days had gone, weeks really, this latest change to their patterns was enough to set him on a nervous edge. All through the day, his head was gone, drifting and distracted while training, and his thoughts sprinting to the worst - Y/N wanted to move out, she wanted to break up with him – in any moment he had idle.

But when his third check-in text sent from the rain-wet bed of the physio suite went unanswered, as did the two facetime call requests, it became slightly harder for him to breathe. The PT scrunched his face, but Marcus didn’t explain, wasn’t sure he’d be able to speak if he tried, and he’d been forced through two rounds of deep breathing before he’d let him off the table.

As soon as the gaffer released them, Marcus raced home through the rain that had begun to pour, calling one more time to no avail, but trying to stay rational. He imagined her sat in her spot on the big sofa in the sitting room when he arrived, apologetic and with some perfectly logical story of what had kept her from her phone all day, and what had depressed her mood the past few weeks.

He opened the front door, however, to silence, and her car keys still gone. His stomach dropped, and an icy, despairing prickle crawled over his skin. Was he overreacting? Or should he have pushed more?

Somehow he knew the rest of the house and even the back porch would be empty, just as silent, and found himself climbing the stairs anyway. His legs stopped by the room he used as his office, and he threw himself into the desk chair. He felt more calm, serious in there, for some reason, and composed himself enough to check her location, which was inconclusive, and click her contact another time. It went to voicemail once again, and he cursed, pulling at his hair.

After one heavy, frantic beat, he picked up the phone again to dial the only other number that would be useful at a time like this. The call picked up on the second ring.

“Mum?”

~~

Marcus’ car had been in the driveway when you pulled up, but when you stepped into his house – your house, now – there wasn’t any trace of him. Late afternoon training usually left him in the kitchen or theater room, scarfing down whatever meals his nutritionist prepared before conking out in his-your bed for a few hours until dinner.

You checked your phone, which had been dead up until the last five minutes when you’d connected it to the car charger, and realized it was closer to dinner time than you’d thought.

Dropping off your raincoat and bag, you went in search of him. The blaring missed calls and texts deserved a response, as hard as it would be to face him in person. You didn’t want him to worry any more than he already did, even though you felt there was little, if anything, he could do.

“Marcus?” You called up the stairs, but there was only your footsteps, the patter of rain, in answer.

You began climbing anyway, sure the sounds of the house would lead you to him, and eventually heard his voice, muffled through the closed door of his office. You stopped, and leaned against the wall to listen.

“She won’t talk to me, mum, she won’t, I’ve tried everythin. She’s not physically hurt, no, but something is wrong. I know that much. It’s like she don’t even want to be around me.”

There was a pause, and an ache began in your chest. The distress in your partner’s voice was palpable.

“But I’ve gave her space. And I’ve even asked her up front what’s wrong, and still nothin. I'm leavin for my trip in a few days, and I won’t be able to fix anythin from there. Reckon she might even be gone by then.”

Each second you listened, you fell further and further into the mire of guilt, and it seemed impossible to get out. Some external force, whose name or origin you didn’t know, forced your hand onto the knob and pushed into the room.

You met his eyes, cautious, but found nothing but relief, unshed tears in them.

“Y/N. Baby.” His voice cracked around the words, and he flew to your side of the room, crushing you to his body, burying his face in your damp hair.

“Are you hurt? Are you okay? Where were you?”

You tried, but couldn't speak around the lump in your throat. All you wanted was for him to hold you again, and to apologize for everything.

“Y/N. You’ve gotta talk to me, please. M’goin mad here, I’ve been goin mad–”

“I’m okay, Marcus. I’m not hurt.” You squeezed at his hands, trying to loosen their tight grip around your back and also trying to ground him. “Went for my run and coffee like I said, and then around to visit my mates at my old flat. My phone died, and I didn’t realize. I should’ve known you would worry.”

He looked back at you with wide eyes still, nodding slow like it was taking serious effort to comprehend the words leaving your mouth.

“I’m okay, baby. I promise.”

When he finally spoke, his voice was gravelly, but much quieter, and none of the terror gone from it.

“Y/N, look, know you asked me not to push, but I can't just do nothin while–”

“Wait, Marcus – can we sit and do this? Please. And you’ve gotta get out of this jacket, babe, it’s soaked. You’ll catch a cold.”

The familiar sound of your fussing seemed to center him further, and he slid the jacket off, settling stiffly on the futon along the opposite wall. His legs were spread wide, and he raised his hands to his knees, fingers digging into them.

Hesitantly, you followed, standing between his legs, watching his eyes, which you’d missed, and his lips, which you’d possibly missed even more. You paused before lowering yourself onto his knee.

“Is this okay?”

“‘Course” He breathed out, pulling you the rest of the way down and rubbing his hands gently up and down your back. It was the first moment you’d felt at ease in the last two weeks, and you took the time to just hug him, wiping at a drop of water puddled along his hairline. Gradually, everything that had been pent-up seemed much easier to face.

“I’ve been real distant the past weeks, haven’t I.”

“Yeah.”

“It’s cause I’ve been confused.”

“Confused about what?”

The intensity of his eyes suddenly became too much, and you pressed your cheek against his shoulder. You made sure your voice still reached him clear.

“Confused about my feelings. About us, about us living together.”

His stomach had gone cold with dread again, but you took the silence as a license to continue. You knew he would stop you if and when he’d heard enough.

“It’s been great, it really has, Marcus. You’re my favorite person to be around – you know that.” His insides smiled at the mention, since the past week had convinced him of the opposite. Still, his expression remained the same.

“And you seemed so happy, having me here. But sometimes, lately, it got — I don’t know, overwhelming? Like, I had my friends in my last flat with me, and it feels like I spend so much time here alone. When you’re here, I don’t feel like that, but that don't feel fair to you either.”

He bit his lip. “I don’t understand.”

“I know, it’s confusing, but it’s like, I’m used to my roommates, us all together, a lot of noise – even when you’re alone you’re not really alone. So whenever you get here, I want to recreate that, spend every second with you, if I can. Didn’t want you to think I was clinging, though? ‘Cause I know how that feels, too.” You paused to take a breath, and Marcus rubbed your back, silent encouragement to continue.

“Thought you should be able to come home and spend your time on your own, too, if that’s what you wanted. So I was moping, but trying to give you that, for a while. Thought that if I could give you some space until your trip next week, I’d be okay. I could use that week to get myself together, stop being ungrateful. ‘Cause I am so lucky, aren’t I? To be able to live with this person I love so much. But I guess I only made it worse.”

“So it’s findin a balance, then, that was hard. Findin ... where you and I, personal time ends, and where “us” time begins.” Marcus summarized.

There was an unspoken “Why didn’t you just say so?” at the back of his statement that your partner was too kind and too patient to say. But you deserved it, so you said it yourself.

“Exactly. But I should have told you that it was eating me up. Not tried to isolate myself, or shut you out. And I’m sorry, about that. ”

Marcus let the apology ring out, and laced the fingers of one of your hands together, a quiet absolution. You felt lighter, now, after having spoken your piece, but knew that didn’t mean the conservation was over.

“Don’t think I need to say I forgive you, because,” He leaned his chin into his palm thoughtfully, before looking up at you. “Because I really get it, you know. I do. I understand that you need your own space, to feel like your own person still. And also that I’m gone, and it’s just you here, a lot, which is new for you. I get that it’s overwhelming, that findin the balance bit. But– I’ve never done this, moved in with someone before, either, have I? It’s excitin, but it’s a lot of other emotions, too. You can’t assume how m’feeling, or how I want to spend my time, just like I can’t read your mind about what's got you upset, innit?”

He paused.

“And it’s like, we’ve gotta figure it out together, don’t we?”

You nodded.

“So when -if, you’re feelin like that again, you’ll tell me? Even if you think it’ll hurt my feelings, or whatever. And if you need to go spend extra time with your mates to feel alright, we’ll sort it. And I’ll do the same. Yeah?”

“Yeah.”

"You promise?"

You promised, wrapping your arms around his shoulders, and chin against his head. With the most difficult part of the conversation over, your senses opened up enough beyond Marcus to notice that the sound of rain outside had ceased. The wet, grassy smell of his training kit finally entered your nose, and your good humor began to stretch its legs.

“So I don’t need to go pack my things?” You mumbled into his shoulder.

“No.” Marcus snorted. “Not unless you changed your mind the last 15 seconds.”

“Nah, I reckon I’ll stay. I'd miss the jacuzzi tub too much.” You sighed. “Saying no to that bath with you was the hardest thing I ever done.”

Marcus chuckled, enough air in his chest to do so now, and kissed you lightly on the lips.

“Fancy one now?” He repeated, and your “please” was fast and enthusiastic. He scooped you in his arms, and you held tight to him, murmuring quiet “I love you”s and knowing as you walked through the house –your house– that you were exactly where you were meant to be.

[sunflower1experiment]

Role model

TW/ Canon event (for reader)

Spoilers

“Oi, ya done wif the shower love?”

|Name| ignores him silently acknowledging the knocks before they got up from the shower floor and open it. He sighs, “Come on love, chin up. Don’t let em tear ya down ya gon ‘ave a ‘appy endin no how wit that attitude. Eh?”

Giving a nod they back up so he can come inside and hug their smaller form. “Ay? You head on back to your universe an I’ll take care of tha meal ya made.”

Cleaning up after themselves Hobie notices a picture, |Name| and their little boy. He sighs grabbing it carefully before walking through the portal to an empty house and a couple of bottles of soda as well as a phone playing some whale noises to calm the mood.

Once |Name| sat down Hobie hands them their picture, “See you tomorrow aight? Look, chin up.” He gently nudged their chin.

“You’re my role model and I’ll be your role model. Much as I hate labels anythin for you |Name|…eh no, don’t..”

“Was there any way I could’ve changed this canon event before Miguel trapped me?”

Hobie sighs, “I’m…I ain’t really got a Scooby Doo love..if anythin I’m sure there’s a way to stop the madness and pain but whout are we ya do ya know…Ah ain’t ever seen it you ain’t either. Only thing we can do is hope for the best.” As he turns to walk off they gently hold his sleeve.

Later on the two were sleeping next to one another comfortably while |Name| lays against his chest. “Sorry |Name|…” he rubs the sleeping spider being’s hair slowly then swipes over to a picture with the three of them and the boy.

“Man…you really named em after me…even after your ex..” he sighs. “Crazy times hun, crazy times.”

It was as if that terrible nightmare was yesterday, sure three weeks later is long but.

The horror in their eyes.

—

“Look, I don’t want to ruin whatever this is between you both but you can’t. Not until your canon event happened. And right now I can’t bare to drop that detail-“

“What canon event? Miguel I already had one, my ex’s parent died I felt bad but I moved on ever since Hobie came to my life I’ve been…” Hobie looks at |Name|.

“Ya named little guy after me eh?”

“Yea..um..sorry I never told ya but yea.”

“Figured, he always answers when ya call me.” The two share a small chuckle but they noticed Jessica’s hurt look of defeat.

“What?” They look over to the other spiders, “What’s this canon event about?”

“|Name| the problem is that because your canon event happened and it didn’t affect you as much you maybe forced through another one but- Hobie won’t…he’ll be apart of it..”

They go silent, “A-Alright for what? It’ll be easy I can just…I can save them a canon event maybe canon but we can change it right? It’ll still be canon and..”

Miguel reached over and held their shoulder. “I’m sorry, I was trying to understand it myself-“

“No! That’s my child I- when will it happen I just need to see them one last time If I could just- I’ll make them avoid it. Please Miguel you can’t do this to me! I’ll struggle through an anomaly just please-.”

Miguel gave them a firm warning, “You and I both know that’s naive and selfish of you. Risking the multiverse for something unattainable and inevitable is not going to…I understand what this means believe me.”

Miguel stops when they start tapping for home, grabbing |Name| by the wrist in the process. “I’m sorry |Name| I swear , please don’t make this hard for you.”

It goes quiet. Hobie grabbed his guitar ready to attack Miguel if needed but he noticed how scared |Name| was, and knowing they were outnumbered even without the right form of surprise and ammunition towards their success it was a good percent chance of failure.

|Name| was willing to take the chance, tapping on their controller until they suddenly felt their surroundings become sheltered and they were in a room. “Is this the conservatory room…Miguel let me out, let me say goodbye to him please.”

“It’s for your own good…”

It was for their own good, and yet..

—

Hobie looks down at them, their health deteriorated so bad. Miguel didn’t even care to check on them; it was for their own good, what about the one they lost?

Why? Why did he do that was it because you were one of the many uncommon canon events with kids involved? He didn’t know, right now he’d have to stay beside |Name| until they healed, but for now he was stuck with a mourning parent, who was in dire need of his love.

[dialovers-translations]

Diabolik Lovers LOST EDEN ー Yuma Ecstasy [02]

ー The scene starts with a black screen

*Rustle rustle* 

Yui: Uu...Yuma-kun...!!

ー She wakes up in the guest room at Kino’s manor

Yui: Haah...haah...Was that...a dream just now?

( It was terrifying...A dream about Yuma-kun being gone... )

*Rustle rustle* 

Yui: Huh? ...Yuma-kun...?

( I could have sworn he was here when I fell asleep so...Where could he have gone? )

( Don’t tell me he left me behind...No, that can’t be. That was just a dream... )

( But what if it becomes reality...? )

...!!

*Rustle* 

Yui: ...I have to go look for him! Yuma-kun...!

ー She runs to the door as Yuma enters the room

Yui: Ah...

ー Yui bumps into him

*Thud*

Yuma: Woah there...Watch out. What’s with the hurry? 

Yui: Yuma-kun...? It’s actually you, right...!?

*Rustle rustle* 

Yuma: ...!

Yui: Thank god...

Yuma: ...

ー He steps back

Yuma: Sorry for leavin’ without lettin’ ya know.

...I just went to get some fresh air, that’s all.

Yui: Yeah...

Yuma: Relax. I won’t leave without sayin’ anythin’ again.

Anyway, weren’t ya asleep?

ー He sits down on the bed

Yuma: Come on, I’ll lie down next to ya, so come ‘ere. 

Selection

→ Thank him and do so (M)

Yui: ( If Yuma’s here to sleep besides me...It’ll be okay. )

( I won’t have that scary dream again, right? )

ー She joins him in bed

*Rustle rustle*

Yuma: Ya can wrap yer arms ‘round me any time ya want if you’re feelin’ anxious, ‘kay?

Yui: Ehehe, thanks...

*Rustle* 

Yui: This really helps me calm down...

Yuma: ...I see. 

*Rustle* 

Yui: ( Yeah...I’ve relaxed quite a bit. )

Yuma: ...Everythin’ alright?

Yui: I’m fine. ...Because you’re here with me.

( But like this, it’d be kind of a waste to fall asleep... )

→ Say that you don’t want to sleep (S)

ー Yui walks over to the bed

*Rustle* 

Yui: ...I don’t want to sleep.

( I mean...I just had such a horrifying dream. )

Yuma: ...Are ya tryin’ to tell me somethin’?

Yui: Eh? ...N-No!

Yuma: Hehe. I know, don’t worry.

But don’t ya think ya should get some more rest?

Otherwise you’ll have a rough time tomorrow.

Yui: ( I mean...He does have a point. )

Yuma: Guess ya leave me no other choice...Then.

*Rustle* 

*Smooch*

Yuma: Nn...

Yui: ...!!

Yuma: I’ll give ya some goodnight kisses, so hurry up and go to sleep. 

Yui: Ah...

( This’ll only make it even harder to sleep...! )

Yuma: ーー Oh shit. I might not be able to stop myself.

...Guess I should call it a day. 

Yui: ( Eh? ...He’s stopping already...? )

Yuma: Haah...How many times do I have to tell ya not to give me that look?

Yui: Eh...?

Yuma: That sorta expression makes me want to take it a step further.

*Rustle rustle*

Yui: Uu...

Yuma: I was gonna let ya sleep but...Scratch that.

You’re the one who put me into the right mood.

So don’t come crying to me if you’re sore in the mornin’, ‘kay?

Yui: What do you meaーー Nn.

Yuma: Shut up...Nn...

*Smooch* 

ーー TO BE CONTINUED ーー

[flyingwargle]

whumptober day 31: "i'm alive, i'm just not well."

tw: aftermath of suicide attempt, discussion of suicide, mental health

suna wasn’t supposed to be alive today, and yet, he stands on the balcony of his apartment, arms leaning on the railing, staring at the storm clouds in the sky, city covered in a light drizzle. how easy would it be for him to jump, to climb over the edge and fall from three stories high. he thought about it before, wondered who would find his body, whether it’d be a mess of twisted limbs or a peaceful sight, but what ultimately deterred him from it was the possibility of survival. humans have fallen from higher and survived; he didn’t want the possibility of waking the next day.

which was why he jumped from the bridge into the river, but the water decided it would not become his final resting place, jostling him until he was deposited onto the rocks. where water failed, he turned to hypothermia, but even that denied him. in fact, while he was sprawled on the riverbank, bruised and frozen, the air whispered into his ear.

you still have much to live for, so we won’t claim you yet.

the balcony door slides open. osamu stands beside him, close but not enough to touch. they’ve barely exchanged more than a sentence since leaving the hospital, suna instructed to live, and osamu instructed to ensure he lives. their schedules are clear – well, suna didn’t expect to have a schedule, and osamu left the restaurant temporarily to his manager. it’s how he stayed home for the last two days, doing nothing more than cook his meals, stand by his side, sleep in his bed.

suna starts to shiver. osamu slips away, returns to drape a blanket over his shoulders, pulls his own jacket sleeves over his hands. it’s an ejp jacket, yellow and white, suna’s name on the back. since leaving the hospital, osamu started wearing it more, probably because suna refuses to touch it. no team would want a player who attempted suicide.

he glances at osamu, his gaze unfocused, eyes swollen, lips pressed together. they’ve had so many arguments, screamed at each other, slammed doors in each other’s faces, yet he’s still here. is it out of obligation, because of what the doctor said? is there still any love left? surely the water swept it away, as it was supposed to take suna? osamu wouldn’t have to deal with the distance anymore, could live the untethered life he wanted. instead, he’s stuck here, stuck as his caretaker, away from his own success.

“rin.”

osamu moves closer. their arms brush. suna holds his breath. “i love ya. d’ya know that?”

he closes his eyes and doesn’t move. osamu presses closer. “i’ve loved ya since the day we met. i loved ya even when we fought an’ got into those awful arguments. i love ya still, an’ i don’t think i’ll ever stop lovin’ ya. this doesn’t change anythin’. yer still the man that i fell in love with, all those years ago.”

“even when your man tried to kill himself?” suna whispers. “even when he thought he didn’t have anything to live for? even when he’s fucked to the point that no one can save him?”

“yes. because livin’ means havin’ time ta find somethin’ ta live for. it means havin’ time ta heal.” he exhales, noisy and heavy. “death is lonely, but livin’ isn’t, even if it feels like it, a lot o’ the time. i’m here, an’ i will never leave you.”

suna opens his eyes, turns to him. fire smolders in the depths of his gray eyes, although tired and hooded. the jacket fits snugly over his shoulders, sleeves slightly too long. it looks good on him, better than suna. “i thought, after i was gone, that you’d find someone better. someone that you could return home to every day, who wouldn’t argue with you over dumb shit. i can’t give that to you.”

“i return home ta ya every day,” osamu murmurs. “we haven’t missed a phone call in years, haven’t we?” the truth strikes him. ever since they graduated and went their separate ways, they always called each other at night, even after arguments and confrontations. even if those conversations were stilted, they still called, still told each other good night.

the only time it stopped was when suna went to the bridge.

“god.” a sob works its way into his throat. he lowers his head, tries not to cry. “i’m fucked. i’m so fucked, ‘samu. you can’t love me like this.”

“but i do, an’ there’s nothin’ ya can do ‘bout it.”

tears fall from the corners of his eyes. an arm wraps around his waist, and gradually, osamu’s warmth envelops him. the drizzle stops, and the first rays of sunlight peek through the clouds. it rained that day too, all the way until now, as his own tears fall.

i’m alive. i’m just not well. how long will it take until he is, if ever? how long will it take until life feels like it’s worth living? how long will it take before he can stand by his boyfriend’s side and love him with all his heart?

“ya already do. yer doin’ that by bein’ here, with me.” osamu hugs him tighter. “live for yer friends, yer family. live fer me.” live for the nightly phone call that brings the end of the day. live for the small visits throughout the month, the warm smile that greets him, along with the freshly made onigiri. live for the sun that warms the land, the breeze that makes the trees dance, the air that makes him move forward.

suna turns to hug him in earnest, burying his face in his shoulder to muffle his sobs. he will cry today, and probably tomorrow, and likely the days that follow. he will apologize, over and over, and osamu will forgive him, over and over. the days will hurt. the nights will be long. the ache will never fade. but he has a second chance to try, and perhaps, this time around, everything will be a little less dark, and the light will be a little more.

he'll be okay. and even if he isn’t now, there will be a time when he will be.

[mephinomaly]

[TL] PYSCHOBREAK/Chapter 7

[ This post uses Ois~su ♪ ]

Time: That day, in the middle of the night.

Location: In a dream after taking sleeping medication

Rei: Fumu.

Seems I have safely made my way into the world of dream once more.

Rei: Hmmhmm ~...♪

Rei: There is old me, walking along bursting with confidence. He seems well.

Nay, rather I am attempting to shake off my sorrow by acting tough. How pitiful.

This is… This is the truth, I am drifting overseas.

I am away from my home, troubled, full of grief, searching for something entertaining.

You won’t find your bluebird of happiness like this, young me.

Anyhow. According to the AIIE experiment manual, if you can remember the keyword before entering a dream state—

It is possible for one to interfere with the dream state you are in, or rather, interfere with yourself.

However, I do not have the freedom to move as a video game character would.

Though it is multides better than simply standing on the sidelines.

I am no longer a silent reader.

I am alive.

Location: Livehouse

Koga: ♪~♪~♪~

~...♪

Rei: —Yo~, Rei Sakuma-chan has returned.

Koga: Sakuma-senpai.

You- uh, I um uhhh.

Rei: W-what’s up? Your whole body’s twitchin’, you comin’ down with somethin’...?

Haha. You’re a weird kid, Wanko.

Koga: S-shut up… Don’t talk to me.

I was tryin’ really hard to stop myself from huggin’ you and goin' “waaha! Sakuma-senpai! WooOO!”

Rei: C’mon, no need to hold back. Good boy～♪

Koga: …eH!?

Rei: Goo~d boy, good good boy… You were lonely without me, weren’t ya? Sorry, Wanko.

Haha. When I was younger, I used t’hug my lonely little bro like this all the time.

Koga: ...! ...! ...!

G-get off me… You’re someone who everyone admires ‘n shines from afar, you don’t hafta be nice t’me.

I’ll get you dirty.

Rei: What are you talkin’ about, stuuupid. I can hug who I want when I want, yeah?

That was a real sad story, wasn't it?

Koga: ...?

Rei: Anyway. This sort of sixth sense—Nah, more like a weird feelin’ that told me I hadta hurry back home.

So I came back as quick as I could. So, what’s happenin’?

Were you able t’exterminate those “vampires”?

Well, it’s kind of my job but ya know.

Koga: Uh, nothin’s really changed…

They quietened down for a bit but then when you left, they startin’ actin’ all crazy again.

Now they’re still non-stop complainin’. It’s fuckin’ annoyin’.

But don’t worry about it. Hasumi-senpai’s is usin’ the Student Council to put school rules into place, ‘n creatin’ an environment where people don’t turn t’do shit like that.

But if you ask me, I don’t really get it. Don’t think shit like that is gonna make a difference.

Rei: Right. Just ‘cos you put a sign up doesn’t mean anyone’s gonna read it. It’s like an annoyin’ little fly at most.

Koga: At the moment, not even a magic card could change anythin’.

Rei: Magic card? What are you on about?

Koga: Uh, um, it’s uh. I like card games. That’s all.

Rei: Yeah? Is it fun? Next time you got some free time, teach me how to play ♪

I’ve been so fuckin’ bored lately, I’ll take anythin’ at this point.

Koga: That’s not… Sakuma-senpai, please do something. Glasses is way out of his depth.

Rei: “Way out of his depth”? Haha, wish that was true.

He’s got a long way t’go. Even if he ain’t enough on his own, until he can be my playmate again—.

Koga: ...?

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Chapter 6

Chapter 8

[twilightmalachite]

Hermitage - Tuesday 2

Author: Nishioka Maiko (with Akira)

Characters: Mika, Shu

Translator: Mika Enstars

"…What’s this absent-mindedness? We’re in the middle of practice, mind you."

[Read on my blog for the best viewing experience with Oi~ssu ♪]

Season: Winter

Location: Dance Room

Shu: —So, that’s why I thought to make the movement here a little more harsh here. What are your thoughts, Kagehira?

Mika: …

Shu: ? Kagehira?

Mika: …

Shu: Kagehira. Are you listening?

Mika: Eh?! W-What? Oshi-san?

Shu: …What’s this absent-mindedness? We’re in the middle of practice, mind you.

Actually, you’ve been out of it all day today. Do I need to remind you that we are in the middle of vital training? Get a hold of yourself.

Mika: Nnah~, sorry, Oshi-san.

Shu: ? You’re acting awfully strange today. Did something happen?

Mika: Nn~…Not really, no.

Although, I did had a weird dream of sorts, so maybe I didn’t sleep too well…

Shu: So that's all? Goodness… You have horrid self-management.

Mika: Ehh~? I can’t stop myself from dreaming, though? I think I’m able to manage any problems.

Shu: If you neglect your body, it will cause strange dreams like that.

Well, no need to worry about it now. As long as it doesn't affect dance practice. You know this already, Kagehira.

Mika: Yes, I’ll take care~!

Shu: Let us begin, then.

Time passes…

Mika: ♪~ ♪~

Shu: ……!

Kagehira, stop for a moment.

Mika: …Huh? Uhhh. Did I mess up somewhere, Oshi-san? I didn't think I’ve messed up yet, or have I?

Shu: No, not at all. Rather, I’d like you to dance on your own, Kagehira.

Mika: ? Sure, I guess… Umm—

♪~ ♪~

Shu: (There’s no mistaking it. His precision has gone up since yesterday…!)

(Isn’t this quite a lot of visible change for just one day, though…? Perhaps he was able to recall the old days and quickly got the hang of it.)

Kagehira. Your precision has improved since yesterday’s practice. In all honesty, I expected you to still be making mistakes just a day later. Just what approach did you take to achieve this?

Mika: Eh? Fer real?! I’m so glad…♪

But, it’s not like I did anythin’ special. I did practice on my own, though. Nothin’ more, truly!

Shu: Hm… Well, that’s good. If it means your quality rises, then it’s better than doing nothing. You were able to grasp something through practicing on your own.

Do it one more time, so you do not forget this sensation.

Time passes…

Mika: ♪~ ♪~

Shu: ♪~

—Alright. Kagehira, let’s end here for the day. Now that your precision has improved, tomorrow we discuss outfits next—

Mika: Hey, Oshi-san. Can I request somethin’?

Shu: What is it? You seem serious.

Mika: D’you think you could give me some more time with this?

Shu: You want more time?

Mika: It’s not that I don't wanna work out the outfits, but I wanna have another dance practice tomorrow.

I was jus’ thinking, if I was able to improve my precision in jus’ one day, if I’m on a roll or somethin’, I’m wonderin’ if I can get even better with a bit more time…

Shu: Hm… Well, if you wish to improve yourself further, it is welcome news to me. I personally am also concerned about how the new song will turn out.

I approve. Tomorrow, we shall spend more time on dance practice.

Mika: Thank ya kindly! Tomorrow, I’ll show you even more precision than today. I’ll knock ya off your feet, Oshi-san~! ♪

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[ineedtosleep-taylorsversion]

PART TWO BABYYYYY

REBLOGS ARE VERY APPRECIATED!!

TW: Hospitals, mentions of death, mentions of hallucinations because of grief, mentions of drowning, lmk if I missed any <3

When he woke up a million things registered in Tommy’s mind.

This included: dried tears on his cheeks, the steady beeping of a machine, a sterile smell, a mask of some sort on his face, though it was just covering his nose (it reminded Tommy of the mask he had to wear to get laughing gas when he got some teeth pulled one time), and, of course, the fact Wilbur wasn’t here.

Prying his eyes open, Tommy looked around the room. However, most of the room was hidden behind a curtain that was there for his privacy. 

Wow, that’s nice, he didn’t even get his own room. 

Either way, Tommy knew he was in a hospital from the moment the sterile smell hit his nostrils. 

Beside his bed in a chair was Phil, and in another chair, but with his forehead against the bed, was Technoblade. They were both asleep, but something seemed to startle Phil awake.

“Tommy?”

“Yeah, dad?” His voice was scratchy and he definitely needed some water. 

The memories of almost drowning to death flashed through his mind and a shiver wracked through his body. 

“Oh, Tommy. We were so worried. Is this about Wilbur?”

“Could I have water first? Just before I…”

“Sure, kiddo.”

Phil helped him drink the water, his body too weak to hold the weight of the plastic cup. 

“Dad, I was imagining him.” Tommy’s new tears followed the same tracks previously on his face. The words were phrased like a statement but it was more of a question.

“Yeah. Tech and I were worried, but if you need to we can talk about this later. We will talk about it either way, but that might be easier.”

“No, I wanna talk about him /now/. I think he deserves it after I pretty much ignored what happened for so long… dad, I feel so bad about it. I couldn’t even fucking admit that he is gone. Am I that fucking weak?” 

“Oh, no, Tom. You aren’t. Everybody deals with grief in different ways, mate. That doesn’t mean there aren’t negative ways to cope, but there are also positive ways. You unfortunately went down a negative path, and I’m so sorry we didn’t see it sooner.” 

Philza, the only man ever, was crying too, now. However his tears were less messy and he wasn’t full on sobbing like Tommy was. 

“I miss him.”

“I do too.”

A voice interrupted their conversation 

“Heh? Tommy you’re awake? Why didn’t you wake me up?” Techno sent a glare at their dad.

“Mate, you’ve been up for like, 32 hours, you needed that sleep.”

“Oh. Okay, then.” 

“You didn’t miss much, I was just about to ask Tommy about it.”

“‘It’? What does ‘it’ mean?” Tommy was so incredibly confused.

“Therapy, Toms. It’ll be hard, but I think it’ll be good for you.”

“Mhm. And don’t worry about feeling weak or anythin’. A lot of people go to therapy and ask for help, it makes them stronger.”

There was a stretch of silence as Tommy debated his options. Therapy did seem daunting, having someone pick apart his brain and dissect his thoughts.

But the alternative of imagining dead people because he couldn’t fucking cope was way, way, worse. 

“Okay. I’ll go.” 

Three breaths no one knew they were holding were released at the same time. 

A tension no one previously felt slipped away, and the family seemed to have a more hopeful future.

Everyone will continue to mourn Wilbur, and miss him forever, but that’s the road to healing. 

Sometimes it's a wound that takes a long time to heal, and sometimes it never fully heals. Instead it’s a scar that reminds you of the pain every time you think of it.

The healing for Tommy wouldn’t be easy, and healing isn’t linear, but maybe one day, Tommy will feel alright again. 

In the future there are family dinners with a person missing from the table, but knowing that person is gone feels a little less sad than pretending that person is still there. 

In the future, the Minecraft family heals after losing one son and brother, and almost losing another. 

VERY FIRST THREAD FROM TWITTER!!

TW: MC death (kinda?), injury, car crash, lmk if there is anything else.

please reblog and interact with this <3

Crimeboys au where Tommy finally got his driver’s license, and was very excited to show off his fucking amazing skills to Wilbur.

After what felt like relentless begging on his part, Tommy finally convinced Wil to go on a drive with him. 

Getting in the car, Tommy waited for Wilbur. /Why was Wil taking so long?/ Tommy thought absentmindedly. 

What felt like in the blink of an eye Wilbur was out of the house and getting in the car.

“It’s about time dickhead.”

Wilbur only rolled his eyes and buckled up. 

It had been agreed earlier that they would just go for a drive, with no real destination in mind. 

Tommy put the car in reverse, and began driving, looking at Wilbur every now and then out of the corner of his eye to see his reaction to his incredible driving.

“Hey, Wil?”

“Yeah, gremlin child?”

“AYE, I’m a big man! Anyway, put some music on, man!”

With that, Wilbur blasted music out of the speakers, and Tommy yelled the lyrics alongside Wilbur. 

It was just like they had done as kids when Phil was driving them around.

They had been driving for only about 15 minutes when it started raining, and at first it just added to the whole vibe of the drive, but then it started really pouring.

The windshield wipers were going at max speed, but Tommy still couldn’t fully see. 

Tommy looked over to Wilbur who seemed relatively calm about the whole situation, but he had been pretty calm about everything for a few weeks now. 

He couldn’t even remember what made Wil so chill. He used to be so worried about Tommy’s every move.

“Wil, the roads are getting really slippery. I don’t know how to deal with this.” Tommy felt his voice shake slightly, but couldn’t find it in himself to care. 

He was *scared*. He didn’t know what to do.

“It’s alright Toms, you got this. Go on this road and over a bridge then there is a pitstop you can go to and wait out the rain.”

Tommy nodded and went towards the road, but the turn was just too sharp. The water on the road didn’t allow the tires to get enough traction as he slid towards the bridge. 

The breaks weren’t working and he was gaining speed. Tommy couldn’t even turn the car to keep on the road. 

They were headed towards the rails of the bridge.

“WILBUR! HELP ME!” Tommy felt tears stream down his face. 

“Oh, Tommy. I can’t. I’m sorry. You know I’m not actually here anymore.”

“WIL YOU AREN’T MAKING SENSE. JUST HELP ME.”

“Tommy…”

At that moment the car crashed through the rails, and the car went soaring into the coursing river below.

“Wil, Wil, Wil, help me man.”

The car hit the river, and the airbags blew up. Tommy felt light headed from the impact, and could feel blood trickle out of his nose. 

Wilbur didn’t seem affected at all.

“Just think about it, please. We both know I’ve been gone for a few weeks. I’ve been gone since November 16th. I’m nothing but your memories.” 

Tommy struggled with his seatbelt, but it wouldn’t unbuckle. Water started leaking into the car as it sank under the water. 

“Wilbur. Wilby, please.” He was out of breath at this point.

“The explosion, Tommy, it killed me. I’m not real, you are just imagining me. I love you so much, but you have to let me go if you want to live. I can’t escape from this vehicle.”

“I-“ Tommy knew. Deep down, he knew Wilbur was gone. It was difficult to process he was gone, and Techno and Phil would always give him a strange look when he would talk about Wilbur. He now knew why. 

“But I miss you so much.”

“I know, but I’m still with you, and I’m not in pain from my injuries anymore. I love you, Tom.”

“I love you too, Wil.”

Tommy cried as Wilbur disappeared.

The seatbelt finally unbuckled, and Tommy broke the car window to get out.

The river was so cold, and the currents were fighting against him.

He was about to give up when he saw a rescuer dive into the water. Tommy swam towards the person, letting them hold him and swim the both of them up to the surface.

Tommy closed his eyes as he mourned his big brother. 

[hotforharrysheart]

Playing With Toys

Too many late nights had caught up to you, and Harry had to take a call, so you decided to take an afternoon nap. In the bedroom you closed the curtains, striped down to just your panties and snuggled down into the duvet for some well-deserved rest. It never failed to amaze you how the smell of Harry, even just on the sheets, could lull you to sleep. A few hours later your eyes fluttered open gently. You could feel is arms wrapped around you and hear him behind you breathing deeply. Apparently, the pull of a nap had called to him as well, because he was spooned behind you deep in sleep. His even breathing was lulling you to that place in between sleep and wakefulness. You smiled to yourself and wiggled back against him and laid there with your own thoughts, listening to his light snore. There were times when it still seemed unreal that you were here enjoying this time with him, but you didn’t fool yourself into thinking that the “together” time was unlimited; soon he’d be off on the road working. How’s that going to work, you think to yourself. How in the world is this going to work when we’re apart from each other? God, I’m gonna miss him….GOD, I’m gonna miss sex with him!

“Babe, ya gon’ lay there thinkin’ that loudly all afternoon?” He mumbles in a sleep heavy voice.

You smile and bury your face in the pillow blushing from you last thought, “my thoughts wake you?”

He nuzzles his nose into your hair just below your neck, “Ya breathing changed and it woke me up.” He said placing kisses behind your ear.

“I don’t know what to think about you being that in tune with my body,” you say softly drawing his hand up to your tits.

“Mmm…wanna get to know your body even more…” he whispers running his hand back and forth across your chest.

“I wanted to ask you about something, H…” you say hesitantly, then roll your eyes, wondering how in the world you’re gonna ask this question and feeling ridiculous trying to broach the subject.

He kisses your ear. “Sure, love.”

Stammering you say, “I just…umm…well, like I was wondering what…I mean, how…”

He turns you over to your back. Propped on his elbow he brushes your hair to behind your ear, “Just spit it out, babe, can ask me anythin.”

“How do you…ugh this is hard!”

“Oh, baby, we can definitely talk about hard. I understand hard. I mean, just fee-“ He grabs your hand in an attempt to pull it down…

You pull your hand back and shove at his shoulder, “Stop, I’m struggling enough already…stop distracting me…”

He runs his finger down your cheek, “Ok, baby, sorry, so what is it…what’s gotcha all flustered?”

Biting your bottom lip you muster bravery and say, “How do you get by without sex when you’re used to having it, but you’re by yourself? Like my body’s used to getting this great sex…and I dunno what I’m gonna do when I have to go without.”

Smirking, he says “great sex, huh?”

You slap your hand over your face. “Don’t tease me, Harry…this is serious to me!”

“Well, ya can’ deny the sex we have is amazing,” he says leaning forward to kiss you, garnering a smile from you.

“Of course it is and that’s kinda why I asked. I, umm… don’t want it to stop.” You say, fiddling with the bed sheet.

“Well, me, I’ll have a nice wank, ya know.” He says grinning like a teenager, “s’pose you’ll do the same thing.”

“But, how do you make “having a wank” just as good? I mean, I want to feel you as much as I can when I can’t have you and I know the time is coming when,” you take your eyes off him, “we won’t be together physically, and I’m just wondering if you’ll miss the way I feel as much as I’ll miss the way you feel.” You say solemnly.

He pulls your chin up, “M sorry babe, know it’s not a very conventional relationship. Here sit up.” He situates you between his legs with your back to his chest.

“Ya have toys, right?” he says whispering in your ear.

You nod, “mmhmm.”

He leans over and grabs his phone and pulls it around to in front of you, where you can both see it. “How about we find something together.”

“I’d like that. I want…I want to think of you and if we select it together…” you trail off running your hand up his arm, leaning your head back to kiss under his chin, “then I’ll think about us. Together. Now that I know what you feel like and sound like…I mean…I’ve thought of you, when I did it solo for a long time…” you say shyly, turning you head back to face away from him.

“Jesus, ya gonna have to tell me more about that sometime…” he says beside your ear, pulling you in closer.

You blush and bite your bottom lip, “Yeah, I used to think about you all the time when I masturbated…especially after having been around you.” You bury your face in your hands, “God. I can’t believe I’m telling you this.”

“Ya did?” You can hear the smirk in his voice.

“All. The. Time.” You mutter on a breathless whisper. “Sometimes I couldn’t get home fast enough…..” your voice trails off.

He runs his hand down his face muttering absentmindedly, “must be the thickest idiot around…”

“Who me?” You shriek.

He hurries to kiss your ear chuckling, “No, not you babe, me. I’m a thick idiot.”

“Well, if Gemma hadn’t ratted me out, you still wouldn’t know!”

“And thank fuck she did.” He says talking to the ceiling, “Remind me to get her a BIG Christmas gift this year.”

“Did ya cum?” He whispers in your ear.

“HARRY! What on earth?”

“When ya’d wank?”

“Jesus, you need to stay on subject, H.” You giggle.

“Well?”

Fingers to your mouth, “Harry…” He pulls your fingers down.

“Every time.” You say softly. “And it was good…but now that I’ve had the real thing, I’m afraid it’s not gonna be the same…it’s just…,” you huff and turn your head up to him, “…so good now.”

He kisses your nose. “Gon’ be hard for me too, ya know,” he says seriously. Looking at his phone he opens a browser and starts scrolling through an online adult store. “Hmmmm…what abou’ something like this?” He shows you the phone.

You slap your hand over your mouth giggling like a little girl, “Sorry buddy that’s a 20 inch, double ended dildo.”

His eyes go large and he opens his mouth, “WHAT?!” He takes look at the screen and throws his head back laughing, “Shit, musta clicked on somethin’ when I handed ya the phone. God, I hate it when that happens.”

“Uhh yeah, especially when it’s a huge ding-a-ling.”

“Did ya just call my cock a ding-a-ling?”

“Jesus, be serious, Harry!”

“Let’s try this again, how bout this one, it’s uh…remote control operated by a phone app and I could control it.” He says, eyebrows waggling up and down. “We could talk and I could talk ya through it.”

“That’s incredible!...Ooo, Harry, it’s rechargeable with a USB!” You say, sounding thoroughly impressed.

Harry chuckles, “Ever the practical one, huh?”

“Yeah, well, batteries pollute the Earth.” You say, indignantly.

“Plan on needing lotsa batteries, eh, babes?” he teases.

“You lean up to kiss him, yeah, something like that…” You smirk. Turning back to the phone you take a closer look and comment, “It’s kinda pricey though, H.”

He laughs that breathy little laugh, “Umm…. not an issue, baby.”

“I mean, I know it’s not an issue Mr. Money Bags, but I hate for you to spend your money on me,” you say sucking in your bottom lip.

Looking around you say, “I don’t even want to think about how much it costs to rent this cottage!”

He smirks. “Doesn’t cost a thing…”

You laugh out, “Oh really? How is that possible?” You say, distracted by the phone.

He smiles and kisses your shoulder. “Because I fuckin bought it.”

Your head turns around so quickly you bump his nose, “You what?!”

“Ouch, careful, love.” He says backing his head away.

You sit up straighter, “Harry!” You exclaim. “When?! Are you kidding?! Was it even for sale?!”

He shrugs humbly and meets your eyes, “I bought it three days into this trip. No, it wasn’t for sale, but you’ll find tha’ Jeffery, when he isn’t annoying as fuck, is quite persuasive.” Smirking he furrows his brows at his phone, “Umm, can we get back to this toy now? My cart’s gon’ expire.”

Still staring at him with an open mouth like a fish out of water, you find it unbelievable that he’s scrolling on the phone, brows furrowed, unaffected, like he didn’t just drop a bomb.

“You B-B-BOUGHT this beautiful place?” You stammer, “Like, you OWN it now?” You question grabbing the phone from his hand.

“Did you really think I’d let someone else fuck in this cottage after what we experienced here?” He says with shy humility. Looking straight into your eyes he simply asks, “Pink or purple?” and he takes the phone back gently and begins tapping away on the keyboard.

Shaking your head, you look down at the phone, then back up at him, then around the room, then back at him…he just smiles and kisses you on the tip of your nose.

“I can’t believe you!” you say grinning like a impressed teenage girl.

“Pink.” He kisses your lips, “Or Purple.” He kisses you again…smirking, dimple on full display.

“Umm… pink, obviously.” You say smiling with your own dimples on display astonished at how embarrassed he is about the “I bought our cottage” gesture. “It’s your color, sweetheart. It’ll remind me of you…”

“Kay, I’ll overnight it to my place,” he says closing the browser on the phone and tossing it to the side of the bed.

“But, H, how will I get it?” you say turning back around and resting your back against his chest again.

“Why doncha stay at mine fo’ a little when we get back?” he says kissing your cheek and down your neck, hands splaying on your midsection “Ya can help water my plants...feed the cat.”

You giggle. “What cat?”

“Oh, I have a pussy…” He smiles against your shoulder. “S right here…,” he runs his hand down low on your tummy. “Ya can stay and play with my pussy’s toys…” He says running his nose down the side of your neck, “Wait, ‘m sorry. Did I say cat?” He runs his tongue on the outside of your ear, “I meant cunt.”

You shiver and goosebumps break out all over your body, “Harry Styles…”

“Wait, we didn’t see how that thing worked,” you whisper, stretching your neck so he can have better access to the skin on your neck.

“Oh, I’ll be showin’ ya personally, long before ya need to use it alone” he murmurs, “Looks to me like it went here…” his hand runs down the outside of your panties making your pussy flutters.

He mutters in your ear, “And all I hafta do is access a button on my phone to make it work…Anytime. I. Want. From…Anywhere. I. Am.“

You shiver and his hand cups your center, presses in harder.

“Y’ok, love,” he smirks against your cheek.

He slides his hand inside your panties, his middle finger running down your over your clit and then circling your entrance.

You moan, “Mmm… I’ll miss your fingers.”

“I’ll miss my cunt.” He says nipping your earlobe. “The way ya get so wet for me…the way ya open up for me…”

You arch your back groaning and turn your head toward his neck.

“Let’s get these off, yeah?” he says hooking his thumbs in the waistband of your panties and pulling them down past your knees for you to kick off the rest of the way. “Pull your knees up babe.”

He puts his hands under your knees and drapes them over his bent thighs holding your legs open wide. You tremble at the cool air that wisps across your wet cunt.

He whispers in your ear, “Yeh, alright?”

“Mm-hmm…”

“Show meh how ya gon’ touch yourself when ‘m gone…” he mumbles against your cheek.

“H…no. Want you to touch me, right now,” you whine.

He takes your hand and places at your wet cunt. “Please, baby, do as I ask. I’ll help ya along…”

Guiding your fingers, he rubs your first and middle fingers over your sensitive bundle of nerves. He kisses your shoulder as he peers over at your hands, “Don’ stop sweetheart,“ he groans, “How’s it feel?”

“So good, so sensitive…” you whimper out softly.

He runs both nail polished hands along the inside of your thighs while your fingers still work on your clit. “Baby, ya so beautiful, I love seeing ya play with yourself.”

Resting your head back on his shoulder you turn toward him, “Kiss me, Harry, please.”

He brings a hand up to your cheek, cocking his head to kiss you deeply, he pulls away with your bottom lip between his teeth.

The sounds of your fingers stroking through your wetness fills the space, “So fucking wet, baby.” He reaches down past your fingers and runs his finger around your entrance, “This is where our toy will go.”

Unconsciously, your hips thrust up, trying to get him inside you. “Tsk, Tsk, not yet.”

He runs his fingers back up to where yours are circling your clit so he can help you move them faster. “Baby, I’m gon’ be able to make ya cum hard no matter how far away I’m am. I promise.”

“Ahhh…Ah ah ah….” You squirm.

He pulls your hand away causing you to gasp loudly. “I’ll even take you to the edge if I wan’” he smirks against your neck and threading his fingers in yours holding them tight.

“Please, H!” you whimper, “Don’t stop, why are you stopping?”

He’s rubbing your lower tummy with your joined hands while he whispers, “Could make ya use a blindfold…make ya tie your legs open just like this…make ya talk dirty to me over the phone and tell me how wet our cunt is…make ya FaceTime me and show me.”

“Harry, touch me, please, I’m begging, I want your fingers inside me, please!”

“Patience darling.” He unthreads your fingers and brings them to your nipple, “Touch your tits for me. Pretend it’s my fingers. Pinch those rose-colored nipples; know ya like tha’.”

Your hips are thrusting of their own volition. You can feel his hard cock rubbing against your bum.

“Don’ squirm, sweetheart “

“Harry, I need more!”

His hands go to your tummy to hold you still, “talk to me, what do ya need, Princess?” he widens his knees just a little farther, “Wide open, baby.” Nibbling the shell of your ear he murmurs, “Can smell ya.”

“Harry, when you talk like that…” your body trembling, “Please, I need you inside me!”

“Wha’ dya want inside ya?” he smirks.

You’re panting, “Anything…everything…your fingers, your mouth, your cock..anything, please, please.”

“Look at my beautiful cunt jus’ drippin’ wet…little clit pokin’ out,” he mutters loving how the dirty talk is affecting you.

“Touch it Harry, please…” you’re barely able to speak filled with such desire.

Hand on your tummy, he says, “Tell me, love, ya fillin’ up in here?”

You try to close your knees just a little.

He presses down harder on your tummy, “Ahhh! Fuck!”

“Stop tryna close up.” He demands.

He threads his fingers with yours and runs both your hands up the inside of your thighs. A shiver runs through your body, “Harry…”

Moving your hand to your pussy, he whispers close to your ear, “Put your middle finger inside.”

“But I want your fingers!” you say frustrated.

Using your finger he says, “Put this finger inside.” and he pushes both your middle finger and his forefinger inside you.

You try to move your finger, but he stops you, “Not yet. Rub ya clit with the palm of ya hand, like this.” His palm presses down on yours and he curls your fingers up to rub your g-spot causing you to roll your head and moan loudly.

His chin is resting on your shoulder as he looks down. “So fuckin’ hot. How does it feel, love?”

“I can’t…it’s just…” You’re whimpering almost in tears.

“Tell me…. look at our fingers fucking ya, and tell me…” he demands.

With a shaky voice you say, “It’s so sensitive and I need to cum so bad…”

“What else?” he asks.

“I want more … “you whimper.

“Baby, can feel how full ye are, ya gon’ come in your special way…like ya only cum for me.” He ask with a smirk.

“Harry…” you squeal, “I…I think so…it..it’s full…feels like too much…!”

“Not too much… baby, it’s never too much, I love the way ya cum.” He encourages.

You’re vibrating from holding back, “I can’t think!”

He kisses your tear-stained cheek, “Don’ think, feel it, honey… feel me.”

Tears rolling down your cheeks. “Think you should stop Harry.”

“No, babe, focus on how our fingers feel.” He soothes.

“Wha’ would happen if I press ya here too” He presses gently on your lower tummy

“Shit, shit, shit….!!!” you say shaking your head, “N-n-no more!”

“Shh, babe listen to my voice, kay?” he states calmly, “I wan’ ya to ruin these sheets, please, wan’ ya wetness on this bed.”

You exhale deeply and cover your face with your other hand. “It’s so full, it’s cumming!”

“Do it, do it for me!” he demands.

“No, move your hand Harry…m-m-m-move your fingers away!” You exclaim.

“No fuckin’ way! I need this from ya…need it so bad. I love it.” He says his lips against your cheek.

“No, no, nonononono…. Unghhh…ahhhh!” You shriek.

The gush flows out over both of your hands. “There she is….don’ stop love…Don’ stop!”

You couldn’t stop if you wanted to. You try hard at pushing his hand away, but you have to just give up. It’s no use. Your head falls over until your face is buried in his neck.

“Fuck, I’ll miss that so much, darlin’” he mutters.

You whimper and don’t even feel the tears flowing down your face.

He gently closes his legs and pulls your knees off them. You immediately pull them up to your chest. You’re shaking desperately. Reaching your arm around his neck, the sobs wrack through your body.

“Heyyyy…you’re ok, love, ‘m here, ‘m right here. Jesus, did I take it too far, baby?”

You can’t answer either yes or no at the moment.

“Lemme see your face.” He says trying to pull your face out from his neck, “Babe? Look at me.”

You shake your head, and he pulls you tighter against him.

“Just…just give me a m-m-minute…” you choke out.

“Take you time…shhh…I love ya so much.” He croons. “Wan’ some water?”

You nod and grabs the half-full glass from the bedside table, and you try to grab it, but your hands are shaking so bad. “I got it..” he holds the glass to your mouth as you take a sip and sigh “Better? Yeh wan’ me to go get ya some juice?”

“No! Don’t leave me, I’m g-g-good. I’m sorry you’re sitting in a wet spot.” You apologize.

“Fo’ fucks sake baby, I don’t care, besides ya have my cum on your arse.” He smirks.

You look up at him, “What?”

“Ya dinna think I could watch tha’and not cum?” He shakes his head, “Came like a fuckin’ teenager “

“I can’t believe that happens to me,” you say into your hand.

“I fuckin’ love it!” he says, “let’s go for a bath, yeah?”

“I’ll strip the b-b-bed.” You say still shaking all over.

He shakes his head, “No way, bath first, I need to hold ya, hang on.” He slips off the bed and turns around and slips his arms around your back and under your knees, “up we go, let’s get ya warmed up in a bubble bath, mkay?” He says kissing your forehead and heading toward the bathroom.

[pantoneyoongi]

neon signs | those are called dates

title ; those are called dates pairing ; campus crush!yoongi x campus crush!you 

notes ; 

this is part of the neon signs drabble series, where drabbles are released in random order (but listed chronologically in the masterlist!) 

series description ;

namjoon doesn’t think it can get any clearer outside of yoongi building a giant neon sign saying i have the absolute biggest crush on you but apparently, book smarts don’t exactly translate when it comes to you and your massive crush on min yoongi. 

(alternatively: namjoon and hoseok try for three years straight to get you and yoongi together.) 

word count ; 1.5k

tags ; fluff, they’re just so soft, there’s a pov switch, pls go to masterlist for more / general tags 

the only reason yoongi thinks this class is worth it is because you’re in it with him. 

yoongi’s resting bitch face is particularly aggressive in the mornings, largely because it’s not resting, it’s active. he hates mornings. with a passion. if someone who isn’t you talks to him (hoseok and namjoon included), they’re bound to be on the receiving end of a very sharp glare. 

so it’s fortunate that you’re smart. smart in a way that nobody else he knows is, though he supposes hoseok might contend as a runner-up. 

chinese cinema runs from 8am to 11am every wednesday, but because the building is so far from his dorm hall, yoongi has to wake up at an unholy hour just to get there. but on what was supposed to be a miserable first lecture in a series of miserable lectures thereafter, you’d showed up like sunlight breaking through gloomy clouds, a fresh cup of coffee in hand. 

“i knew you’d choose sleep over making coffee,” you’d teased that day. “you can’t be mean to me today, okay? i got up early to make it.” 

(yoongi’s never mean to you. he simply doesn’t know how to be.) 

he swears he could’ve melted into the ground that day. granted, it took him a couple minutes’ buffer time to understand the picture before him, of your sleepy smile and the coffee your hands presented to him, but when it finally clicked that you - who barely even likes coffee and only drinks it when desperate times call for it - brought it just for him - yoongi’s pretty sure his heart jumped the gun from crush to in love for a hot second. 

honestly, he still has that image of you memorized, tucked close in his memory bank of moments with you that feel like they belong just to him. your rosy cheeks, still flushed from the early morning cold, the way your eyes were hardly open, the warmth that emanated from you in spite of the temperatures outside. everything about you from that day sits sweetly in his chest, a reminder that pushes him out of bed every wednesday morning to come see you. 

a month and a half later, your weekly chinese cinema lectures have now become a trade of food and drink between you and yoongi. you bring the drinks; yoongi prepares the snacks. he spends a little extra time the night before to pack them up, making sure not to forget them in the mornings (if they need to be fridged, he sticks post-it notes to every possible surface he might walk into so he won’t forget them). 

“mmph,” you don’t even say words when you walk into the classroom today, just make a noise and hold out the thermos for yoongi. your eyes are practically glued shut today; you almost miss the seat when you go to sit down, yoongi narrowly grabbing onto your elbow in time and tugging you just enough so you don’t tip over. your head lolls forward, and yoongi kind of wishes there weren’t arm rests between seats. maybe you’d lean on him the way you sometimes lean on namjoon when you’re tired. 

“late night?” yoongi asks gently, resisting the urge to tuck your hair behind your ear. you look terribly cute like this, lips pouting slightly and head bobbing. 

“mhm,” you hum. your head swings slowly up to look at him through half-lidded eyes. “i don’t think i’ll make it through this movie today. will you take notes for me?” 

yoongi would do absolutely anything for you whether or not you asked. 

“sure,” he says instead, because that’s what normal people do. he can’t help it when he reaches over to pat your head, and you lean into his touch a little. yoongi’s heart might give out. 

professor li gives some vague speech about today’s film, then dims the lights and starts the movie. on cue, your eyes fall shut, entire body tipping slightly to the side. 

it takes yoongi an embarrassing amount of willpower to pay attention to the movie. he could blame it on the godawful time of day, but truthfully it has less to do with his anti-morning agenda and more to do with how utterly distracting you are beside him, curled into your chair as small as you can get, a soft cardigan wrapped around your body. you just look so cozy. he wants the rest of the room to disappear, have you tuck yourself into him, like it’s weekly movie date night and you’ve fallen asleep watching like you always do. 

except you and yoongi don’t have weekly movie date night, and he has no idea if you actually would fall asleep every week if you did. the desire to know makes his heart feel a little tight in his chest, like it’s been looped on a string and is being tugged towards you. 

he doesn’t mind. he’s come to terms with his heart being subject to your any and every whim - and he has no qualms with it. 

as the movie slowly comes to a close, yoongi finds his gaze dragged over to you once again, resting his cheek against his palm, trailing his eyes over your features. the lights from the movie cast different colors over you, until it turns into the dim lighting of the credits rolling across the screen. yoongi gives you a slight nudge, one hand resting on your shoulder to gently shake you awake before the harsh lights are flicked on by the professor. 

god, there’s no way his heart can handle the way you blink slowly at him, hands coming up to rub the sleep out of your eyes. he chuckles softly when you squint a little when the lights flick on, yoongi himself blinking a couple extra times to adjust. when you catch his eyes on you, he clears his throat quickly and lifts his notebook, waving it slightly. “i took notes,” he mumbles. “i’ll type them up and send them to you later.” 

“i could just take a picture,” you offer, but yoongi raises a brow at you. 

“you sure you can read my handwriting?” 

your hand which is holding your phone freezes mid-air. your lips flatten together. “never mind.” 

he grins, beginning to pack away his things as professor li lets the class go. “come on, sleepyhead,” he swings the bag over his shoulder. “let’s go get lunch.” 

.

.

.

you wouldn’t say you’re a morning person, but it’s not nearly as offensive a time as yoongi makes it out to be. then again, you’ve never met someone more averse to being awake during the day than yoongi, so maybe he doesn’t make for the best example. 

regardless, there’s something about knowing you’ll meet up with yoongi first thing in the morning that never fails to get you out of bed on wednesday mornings just a little extra early to make him coffee (it’s instant coffee; you might like him but you’re still a broke college kid). it makes you feel a little fuzzy inside knowing you almost always go to lunch together after, both of you free for the afternoon. 

“dates,” namjoon always insists. “those are called dates, y/n.” 

you always wave him off. “i go out to eat with you all the time, joonie.” 

the resounding groan he responds with every time makes you smile even when you’re just thinking about it. exasperating namjoon may very well be one of your favorite pastimes. 

besides, it’s not like you’re wrong. you eat one on one with namjoon all the time. sometimes hoseok, too. there’s nothing date-like about grabbing a meal with one of the boys, so you don’t see why it’s any different with yoongi. 

you know, minus your stupid huge crush on him. 

your eyes follow yoongi as he heads up to place your orders at the counter. it makes you feel insane, the way he makes even a simple grey hoodie and jeans look incredible. you have to busy yourself with your phone so you don’t stare too long. when he returns with the food, he comes with a glint in his eyes that makes you tilt your head at him. he smiles like he’s got the best secret stored away, and reveals it in time with his grin as he pops a bag in front of your face. 

“matcha cookie,” he looks at you like he’s extremely proud of himself. matcha is your favorite anything. he sets the wax bag down in front of you. “copped the last one.” 

it’s not a date. you don’t go on dates with min yoongi. but he does things like this that namjoon and hoseok and sometimes even seokjin don’t do, and it makes you wonder if this is exactly what going on a date with min yoongi would be like. when he sits down and leans forward on his elbows against the table, the way you look back at him hides nothing of your adoration for him, entirely enamored by him and the way he remembers even the tiniest of details about you. his eyes crinkle back in return, and there’s simply no denying the way your heart flutters for him. 

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[sublimecatgalaxy]

Can i request something angst but fluffy in the end?

Like Reader finding Daryl’s note for Leah in the cabin? Huge fight, silent treatment and probably sleep on the couch with Dog for week!

I mean comm’on “I belong with u, find me” UHH WTF, I’ll go crazy angry if I read that!

I GENUINELY LOVE THIS REQUEST. OKAY BYE- WRITING IT.

It's as if he can't find any words to explain the weight behind the words scribbled out on the paper in front of me, my eyes scanning the scribbles over and over again as my backpack hits the floor with an abrupt thunk.

He looks speechless, jaw dropped, eyes wider than normal and there's a sad look in his gaze as he looks between the note and I. I'm calmer than he thinks though, my breathing steady as I seethe silently, my mind wracking through what this could possibly mean.

"Who is she?" I ask, my voice trembling a bit as angry, hot tears fill my eyes, threatening to pour over at the slightest movement. I set the note down beside me on the table, sniffling loudly as I take a look around the cabin- or should I say, love nest.

"No one." He responds cooly with a simple shrug of his shoulders but it just makes me more angry, a loud scoff echoing in the room around us. Everything feels cold; my mind, my words, my hands that shake at my sides. He's so far away from me though just feet away, close enough to touch if I reached out.

"Obviously fucking not." I grit, jaw tense as I take as deep of a breath as I can, looking away from him, disgusted at the assumptions my mind is making from his silence. He looks guilty, his own eyes avoiding mine as his feet shuffle beneath him, an obedient dog not too far away from where he stands, looking up at him, a sense of loyalty in his eyes that Daryl doesn't seem to share.

A few moments go by, tense and a bit awkward as I try to put the pieces together as to how a man I loved so much, trusted so much, allowed himself to get sucked into something else, with another woman that wasn't me.

"You're not gonna believe anythin' I say. So why fight." He mutters, folding his arms over his chest and my brows skyrocket in offense.

"Why fight- Daryl, what the fuck is wrong with you?" My words are like venom shooting at him, my feet carrying me one step closer to him as his face falls in realization. "Fight for me, you asshole."

"That's not what I meant-"

"That's what you fucking said." My whole body is trembling, from the cold that runs through my veins and the anxiety that swarms around me, making my head spin like an uneven top. "I can go- especially if you're gonna go chase after some red neck mistress, by all means-"

"Would you fuckin' stop for a minute." He finally snaps, shaking his head as his shoulders tense, eyes flashing in something resembling impatience and frustration. Why on earth is he the one who's angry right now?

"You know damn well you don't deserve five more seconds with me standing here, giving you a chance to spew some bullshit about her not meaning anything." His brows furrow, arms falling to his side as he takes a hesitant step towards me, biting at his lip as he thinks of what to say.

"I didn't think you were coming back." His argument is weak but there's a part of my heart that understands where he's coming from. The last time that him and I saw each other, we were having a similar fight as we are now. When I left, I didn't plan on returning until I stumbled across Michonne in the woods. She told me that Daryl was hidden away somewhere, grieving after losing Rick and I knew that I needed to go to him. To comfort him.

I never would've expected to come back to this.

"So you replaced me?" I ask, my anger fading and sadness now consuming me as my heart drops in my chest, the tears in my eyes finally spilling out over onto my cheeks. Daryl's face cracks at the sight of my tears, his strong, tough demeanor crumbling by the seconds.

"No, 'course not." He takes one final step towards me, the tips of his boots hitting mine as he looks down at me, lips parting in a quiet explanation. "I found her damn dog, she came along after."

"Why'd you write that?" I ask, referring back to the note and he huffs with a simple head shake.

"I don't know- she found me after you left, was a fucking mess." His words are vague but I understand what he's trying to say. He latched onto someone else quickly after thinking he lost me, needing comfort and solitude in someone. "Now she left too." He mutters, eyes flickering down to the floor.

"She worth it?" I ask, knowing the answer just by the look in his eyes. He reaches out towards me, taking my hands timidly in his with a shake of his head.

"Worth losing you?" He asks, scoffing as my head bobs in confirmation, a tired look taking over his expression at the thought of me worrying that he could find someone better than me. "Nothing's worth that."

"You mean that or are you saying it?"

"I mean it." He promises, swallowing deeply before choking out through his hoarse throat. "On Rick's life, I mean it."

I look up at him, eyes analyzing his every glance, wanting nothing more than to dive into his brain and figure out exactly what happened, what I did wrong or what happened with us that lead us to this situation.

We used to be inseparable, attached at the hip practically. Rick used to joke that we were better partners in crime than him and Michonne were, always on top of things (and each other) and we were always just so in sync. Now it feels like we couldn't be farther apart from each other, especially emotionally.

But I'm not about to let him slip away from me without a fight.

"You're sleeping out here." I offer, watching a shocked look pass through his eyes as he pauses, his lips parting as a smile 'okay' slips from his lips. "The dog too." I allow myself to chuckle, slipping my hands out of his and taking a tentative step back from him, finally breathing my own air.

"That's fair." He nods, turning to look down at the shepherd with a smile, the dogs head tilting at Daryl with a sideways look. "I gotta earn my keep form now on?" He asks with a scoff and I nod, folding my arms over my chest.

"You know it."

"That's fair too." He smiles sadly, reaching up to itch at the back of his neck boyishly, his shoulders relaxing a bit in relief as he lets out a sad sigh. "'m sorry." I can tell he means it just by the fact that he rarely ever takes responsibility and he rarely every apologizes, but I can also tell by the bittersweet smile on his lips.

"You better be."

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[rvbelhearts]

“I mean, if you wanna smother me with them titties, I ain’t about to complain. Not for a second cause, you be doing it anyway when I’m sleep. Sometimes I wake up and wonder why the fuck I’m suffocatin!” Once again, Jey tried moving out of the way, but it was no use, because Nattie was a tad bit quicker than he was, and he found himself on the receiving end of another playful hit, but once again, whatever put a smile on Nattie’s face, was all that mattered. Her happiness was all that mattered to him, and Jey really felt like being a mom would make Nattie more happy than she even realized, and he was more than willing to make that happen for her, because Jey had wanted another child ever since his baby son Jeyce had gotten older. There was nothing in the world he’d love more than to have a little girl, and a mini version of Nattie running around already filled his heart with so much joy, but he hadn’t even thought about the fact Nattie was a little bit older, although he wasn’t too concerned about that, because he’d known women older than her that had conceived children with no problems at all. “Hey, you could never ruin my mood. You know you can talk to me about anythin, anytime, baby girl. Come here.” Once he placed his game controller on the table, Jey reached over so he could pull Nattie into his arms. “I’m willing to do whatever it takes to make this happen, so if we have to go to a doctor to get you checked out, I’ll be right by your side baby, but, I just gotta make sure this is what you really want. Like havin a baby, you’re sure you wanna do it? I never want you to feel pressured just cause I want to have another kid.”

J E Y:

“What?! It’s not like I’m lying, am I? I had you sweatin, screamin, cryin out my name. I’m just speakin facts here, sweet thang!” Jey moved away from Nattie a bit, before his arm got hit again, but his laughter soon filled the air, because the look on her face was too funny, but he loved this. Loved seeing his lady so damn happy, because it had been a long time coming. It brought a smile to his face when Nattie said his sons had been teaching her to play video games, because she had no idea how happy it made him that the three most important people in his life were getting along so well, but, it also made him think about something he’d wanted to talk to Nattie about for awhile now. “Using my own kids against me, I see how it’s goin down! You know, you really are amazing wit them, and they can’t shut up about you. Be makin their mama mad, but you know, does bein around them ever make you think about havin a little one of your own?”

“Oh my god!!! Shut up before I smother you with a pillow! I was about to say my boobs but you would actually enjoy that!” As he backed away she closed the distance, hitting any part of him, trying to keep a poker face on but of course around him it didn’t last long. Jey was the kind of person who knew how to make her laugh or smile literally without even trying. He made her the center of his universe since they got together and Nattie has never been happier. Additionally, him allowing her to an important piece of his life in the form of his sons, was a huge step in their relationship. They hit it off so well that she would wonder if he considered having one more child, but with her instead? “Pfft! You don’t believe that yourself, I can’t help it that they’ve grown to like me more! And honestly, the thought had has crossed my mind once or twice, maybe more than that.” Nattie set the controller down, turning in his direction because this was a serious topic now. “Like hanging out with my nephews and now your sons, a part of me does wish that for myself. I hate to admit it but I’m getting up there in age and I’m not saying it’s impossible for a woman to conceive in their forties but the odds are much less.” She sighed, chewing on the inside of her lips. “Perhaps we should go to a doctor and see what they say, just to be safe? I didn’t ruin the mood did I?”

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Double Vision

*This is completely self-indulgent as I officially have to wear glasses now and got my first pair today, but I figured to give you guys some content in between me being stuck on the two stupid drafts that I'm writing, I'd give you this I guess this is a series of shorts?? Either way, enjoy! -B*

Summary: It's the night before the first major test of the RAD school year, and MC has been holed up in their room all day. The brothers are concerned and go to check in on them, but they notice something different - MC is wearing glasses

CW: Asmo being Asmo. His bit is a little suggestive at times

LUCIFER

Although he'll never admit it, Lucifer was really concerned when you had disappeared for the entire day.

He was so used to hearing you laughing amongst his brothers, or pestering him in his office, or even just lounging in the living room that your absence had left him feeling like something was wrong.

Using the excuse of bringing you food to prevent you from starving, he comes to your room and knocks once before entering.

"MC, I know your studying, but do try not to forget that you...need..."

He's cut off mid-snark as he saw you staring back at him behind a pair of framed lenses.

His heart stuttered in his chest and Lucifer Morningstar is left speechless.

Your hair was a mess from the countless times you had run your hands through it. There were bags of exhaustion under your eyes, and there was a hand-shaped mark on your face from where you had been leaning into your palm.

But with those glasses, you looked studious and sharp.

If the eye-wear added this much to your beauty when you were clearly sleep-deprived as you were, he couldn't help but imagine how you might look dressed up in business wear with them.

"Lucifer?"

He snapped his head up, as you caught his focus one more, and noticed, with a frown, how you had removed your glasses.

"Did you come here for something?"

Lucifer walked over to your desk and set down the plate in front of you. "I was ensuring that you actually ate some food between all the reading you're doing." He picked up your glasses and casually inspected them (although mentally he was taking note of the style so that he could buy you more). "I was unaware that you wear glasses, MC."

You rolled your eyes and took a bite from the food in front of you. "That's because I don't need to wear them all the time. Just when I'm doing activities that can strain my eyes."

Lucifer hummed and looked closely at you. You rose an eyebrow at the demon, questioning his odd behaviour. Before you could say anything, he leaned forward and gently slid the frames onto your face.

You felt your cheeks heat up as his eyes remained locked on yours, and a sly smile graced his lips. "You should wear them more often," he whispered softly. "You look lovely in them."

MAMMON

Mammon sighed heavily as he sat upside down on his bed.

He was bored. You had locked yourself up in your room all day for that stupid test and had kicked him out since apparently he was "distracting" and "prevented you from getting any work down."

Well, fuck that! He wanted to spend time with you, damn it!

Mammon marched down the hall and banged on the door once before throwing open the door. "Yo human! Studyin' time is over! It's Mammon ti-...time..."

He trailed off for a moment as he noticed you glaring heatedly at him. However, it wasn't the glare that made him surprised. No. It was the fact that the glare was being filtered through a pair of glasses that he had never seen before on your face.

"When the fuck did you start wearin' glasses?!" He screeched and marched over to you, grabbing your cheeks to pull you closer and get a better look.

You let out a noise of frustration and swatted his hands away. "Mammon quit it! I'm trying to study!"

Surprisingly, he pulled back his hands, but he remained barely an inch away from you. "I didn't ask if you were studyin'! I asked about the glasses!"

You felt yourself blush and pulled your face away. "I've always had glasses. I just don't always wear them. That's all. Wh-Why does it matter?"

Mammon opened his mouth to give a retort, before snapping his jaw back shut. His face grew rapidly warm as he scratched the back of his neck. "I-I was just wonderin'! You've been down here for what? 3 months now? And I ain't ever seen you wear them."

You averted your eyes from the clearly flustered demon and nervously played with your hands. "Yeah, well, I didn't really want any of you to see me in them. I look pretty silly and-"

"What the fuck are you talkin' about? You're adorable!!" Mammon shouted before slapping a hand over his blushing face. The two of you stared at each other with wide eyes full of shock. "I-I mean, glasses are cool, ya know? I wear glasses all the time! And if the Great Mammon knows anythin', it's style! So, of course, you look cute- I mean good- I mean gorgeous- I-I mean GAH!" Mammon turned around and stormed out of the room.

A couple days later, you found a pair of tinted glasses, identical to the ones Mammon wears, in your prescription sitting by your door.

LEVIATHAN

Levi groaned as he looked at the books in front of him.

He wasn't the most studious of his brothers, and this test was draining the life out of him. He wanted nothing more than to curl up with you and watch anime, but because of this stupid test you were both holed up in your respective rooms studying.

Leviathan let out a huff as he laid his head on his desk and glanced over at his manga collection. His gaze paused on the side of a particular school manga with the two main characters studying on the cover.

Levi shot out of his seat in realization, "I can just go study with them!!!"

Levi quickly gathered all his textbooks and went straight to your room. He knocked on the door and nervously waited for you to answer.

As the door swung open, Levi's jaw dropped and his books went scattering across the floor.

Glasses. You were wearing glasses. Glasses that made your eyes look slightly bigger and just overall made you so freaking cute. Oh goodness. He didn't know that you could pull off the cool, studious type so well. You were just so cute!

"Oh shoot, Levi! Your books!" You bent down and quickly began to gather them for him. It was just like a scene from an anime!

"S-So kawaii," the otaku muttered, as he tried to hide his red face behind his arm.

The reddening got worse as you looked up at him and tilted your head. "What was that, Levi?"

He frantically waved his hands took his books back from you, "N-NOTHING! Just, um, I-I was wondering if we could study together? I'm not having much luck on my own, a-a-and you look smart, especially with your new glasses, which look amazing, and I-I thought maybe..."

You smiled softly at the otaku's mumbling and grabbed his hand. "Of course, Levi! I'd love to study with you!"

As you pulled him into your room to sit at your desk, Levi blushed and followed behind you, mentally thinking of the number of glasses-wearing cosplays he could get you to try.

SATAN

Satan took a sip of his tea as you sat down at the library table beside him.

Test season had always been a favourite of his for a number of reasons, but this year, those reasons could all be narrowed down to one big one: he got to spend more time alone with you.

It made him more grateful than ever that his brothers were morons and that he was the only dependable demon in the house that you could study with.

He had constructed an easy-to-follow study guide for the two of you that would guarantee both your success for this test. You'd get good grades and avoid Lucifer's wrath, and he'd get to spend time with you. It was a win-win.

He flipped through a textbook to find the subject of the test. "Alright. We should get started if we're going to stick to the plan. Now, how comfortable are you with..." he stopped short as he looked up and saw you staring at him with a pair of glasses on your face.

He blinked.

He had never seen you were glasses before. He couldn't help but think that now that he had, he never wanted to see you without them again. You look so stunning and elegant with them on. He absolutely loved it.

Of course, he couldn't just tell you that though.

Instead, Satan tilted his head and smirked. "You are aware that just because you're wearing glasses, it won't make you any smarter?"

You gasped in mock offence and lightly hit his arm as Satan laughed. "I'll have you know these are prescribed! I have to wear them when I'm doing any strenuous activities."

Satan flashed a roguish smile and went back to flipping through his book. "Pity. I'd rather like to see you wear them more often. You look wonderful," before you even got the chance to respond or acknowledge the light blush on his cheeks, Satan cleared his throat. "Now, on page 364, you'll see..."

ASMODEUS

Asmodeus hummed to himself as he walked towards your room with a basket full of facemasks and nail polish in one hand and a bottle of wine in the other.

You had been tucked away in your little room all day studying, and he just knew that you needed a break. That's where he came in of course, offering you all the love and self-care you could ever desire.

Asmodeus joyfully knocked on your door before slipping inside. "MC dear, I've come to free you from your..." he inhaled sharply at the sight before him.

You were laying on your stomach, kicking your legs behind you as you read whatever book you were studying from, dressed in an adorably oversized sweatshirt. That alone would've been enough to make him squeal.

But you were also wearing glasses.

Asmo shrieked as he jumped onto the bed with you and tackled you.

You let out a yelp as the two of you tumbled to the floor. "Wha- Asmo! Get off!"

Asmodeus giggled and sat up beside you. "Sorry, darling! I couldn't help it! You look so cute with your little glasses. AH! It's delightful," his eyes sparkled with intrigue and pleasure. "Sexy even," he purred as he leaned in close.

You chuckled and pushed Asmodeus away as you stood up. "I'm just studying. The glasses are so I can read without getting a headache."

The demon hummed as he walked back over to the door to regather his supplies. "Well, have you ever considered buying some for accessories? I have a pair or two that would look gorgeous on you. It'd be a shame if the only person who ever got to see how scrumptious you look with glasses was your books," he smirked knowingly as he turned around and saw you flustered.

Asmo grinned and held the basket and wine bottle. "Now enough with the studying. It's time for a break. So sit back and relax, and let me take care of you."

You raised an eyebrow at him, and damn that glare was more effective from behind a pair of lenses. "Asmo," you warned, causing the demon to shiver.

Asmo pouted and gestured to the basket. "Self-care of course. Gee, MC, why must you think such filthy things."

BEELZEBUB

Beel made his way towards your room with his arms full of snacks.

He was proud of you for taking your test so seriously and really putting in the work to do your best, but he was also worried. He had barely seen you come out of your room even once today, and that meant that you probably hadn't eaten enough.

Seeing as you were always carrying around snacks for him, he figured it was time that he returned the favour.

He frowned as he got to your door and realized that he had no hands to knock with. He tried rearranging the food in his arms but nearly dropped the entire load. Beel huffed and stared at the door for a couple seconds before leaning forward and butting it with his head several times.

He heard a groan and some shuffling on the other side before the door opened.

His eyes widened as you stood before him, yawning as you rubbed your eyes underneath your glasses - yes, glasses.

You were always small in comparison to Beel, but now with the glasses, there was something about it that made you look even more delicate.

"Cute," Beel said as he looked down at you.

Your face instantly flushed as you blinked up at him. "H-Huh?"

Beel smiled softly and felt his fingers twitch with the urge to ruffle your hair. "Your glasses. They look very cute," he explained honestly.

You squeaked and quickly took them off, too embarrassed by Beel's forward compliment. "Th-Thanks Beel. They're um, they're just for studying."

The urge to ruffle your hair, or pat your shoulder, or even simply touch you grew stronger, but Beel's hands were still full. So, much like with the door, Beelzebub thought of an alternative.

He leaned down and gently kissed the top of your head. His warm gaze met yours as he gently whispered, "You always look pretty, but with them on, you look even prettier," and then, as though he hadn't just stolen your heart, he grinned and held out the food. "I brought snacks."

BELPHEGOR

Belphie had been wandering around the house late at night in yet another round of restlessness.

He had just walked past your door when he noticed your bedroom light was still on. Belphegor tsked and began making his way over. It was bad enough that he wasn't getting any sleep. He didn't need you picking up on his awful sleep habits just because of some boring test.

Without bothering to knock, Belphie opened your bedroom door. He opened his mouth to tease you but found his words catching in his throat.

You weren't awake after all.

You were passed out on your desk, face smooshed up against an open book with a pair of glasses sitting uncomfortably askew on your nose.

Belphie felt his cold heart melt at the sight.

He let out a deep chuckle and walked over to you. He carefully removed the glasses from your face and snorted at the red lines that had been left in their wake. He pressed gentle kisses to the marks before scooping you up in his arms and carrying you over to your bed.

"Silly MC," he whispered as he draped your blankets over you. "Everyone knows that you're not supposed to sleep with glasses on," he smiled tenderly at your sleeping form as he brushed a few hairs from your forehead. "No matter how cute they may make you."

*And that's that! I hope you enjoyed this cute little thing I just threw together! Sorry I haven't been able to write as much lately. School and work have just been insane and I honestly don't think the workload is gonna get any lighter. Thank you for your patience and your support!*

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