#my brain has been ticking
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Text
My new mission is to get Aegon, Alys and Helaena fic numbers up in the a03 tags.
🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾
9 notes
·
View notes
Text
“How can this many people simply vote for Trump in the first place?”
✨Gaslighting✨
And
✨Teaching themselves apathy because they have been pushed to the brink and are only focused on their own survival and think that this guy will give it because he
gaslight themmmm✨
#literally know so many Trump voters that are okay with you being yourself in any way AS LONG#as you don’t say the magic words or do the magic things#they have trigger words which make them instantly turn their brain to pure anger and most have forgotten why this is at this point#gaslighting#manipulation#my mom encouraged being a tomboy but not the label trans#she even let one of my siblings call themselves a boy as they were growing up#she also has memory issues so she believes that a bullseye appearing around a tick bite only was a thing after the Covid vaccine#despite her son having had a bullseye YEARSSSS ago (long before Covid)#she supports me age regressing as long as I don’t say the magic words age regressing#she buys me legos and gives me some baby toys sometimes#she is fine with me wearing animal ears and all as long as I never say I’m a furry or a therian#she is gaslit obviously.#she only believes because she has been convinced and then convinced to convince herself that she had to believe some things#grandparents when you say you have ptsd 😡😡😡 grandparents when you say that sometimes you feel lost outside your own skin and#stuck in the past in such a painful realist way you almost feel like it was all really again 🙂🙂🙂 ‘‘me too!’’#the use of langustics to shape a cult and a people’s minds#cat rambles#us elections#us politics#us election#election 2024#election day#donald trump#trump
31 notes
·
View notes
Text
GRAHHH I HATE GETTING SICK. *runs into traffic*
#I am only mildly sick but it takes me FOREVERRR to get over it. It has been a week already. I hate you minor cold.#And my curse is that I love to draw and every second I am not drawing something my HP starts ticking down#and it is so. So hard. To draw while I am sick it is kicking my ass. BUT I WANNA DRAW PICTURESSS so I have been hopping between sets of OCs#to doodle to the best of my ability until my brain stops working#funny talking tag
19 notes
·
View notes
Text
...
#its weird. everyone ive met at work has been really nice#its a different group of people than ive interacted with thus far in my life as ive mostly not#had many friends and spent all my time in school. this group of people is mostly from the area where they grew up. mostly barely getting by#financially. mostly married or engaged or in serious relationships. and its weird. and it has been weird and maybe it will always be weird#but i dont understand how to interact with people. im not there for conversations im not present for but how do other ppl interact with#eachother? bc in a conversation i want to get to kno how a person works. what motivates them. what do they love? what do they hate? what#makes them the person that they are? i just want to understand. so i ask lots of questions and it feels weird bc i dont get#the same energy back and i have to conclude that either i have a very different mindset when im walking into conversations or else im just#not vedy interesting and no one wants to get to kno me. but if thats not how ppl communicate then i dont understand how ppl have friends?#and keep friendships? like i want to crawl into ur brain and understand what makes u tick#how can we b friends if i dont understand who u r? i dunno. maybe ill never understand#maybe work is not the place to make friends. but i dont kno how to interact with others outside of a structure#one of the ppl i talked to is maybe my age with a 6yo son and is freshly engaged and she was like: u moved across the coutry all by urself?#i could never do that. and like yea u have ties that bind u to the place u live. its easy to move around when u have nothing to lose#im so bad at maintaining friendships. i just let them drift away into nothing bc i dont kno what to do with the.#with them.#unrelated
11 notes
·
View notes
Text
#girl help I am not doing well#basically. so the bedroom does not have the measurements that were on the plan#it is in fact significantly smaller and we're going to have to see if we can return stuff#which is fine and all. it's just tedious. it's fine.#but a switch has flipped in my brain from happy to oh no.#I'm just. dreading. everything.#dreading being there and not feeling at home#dreading being out of place#dreading going out of my room and my parents are Not there#I like the apartment. I know I do. I know.#but I can't feel it right now and that's. very scary#after having spent money I feel I just. want to be home#and I know that's not the solution because I've been feeling I need a change so bad#and I do. I need to learn it. I need to try. I need to grow#for at least a year#but god I do not feel up to the task at all#I want to curl up and hide#but my days here are so numbered that it doesn't feel safe. it feels like a timer ticking#and I don't want to do it there. I don't want to be alone I don't want it#aghhhh#at least I'm finally crying. it's been weeks overdue#r is comforting me the best they can which isn't a lot but I do appreciate it and acknowledge what they say is correct#bien rambles
16 notes
·
View notes
Text
if i had a nickel. for every yellow character ive loved who died because an undead superhuman punched clean through their body and it made me cry like a fucking baby on the couch in my living room. i’d have two nickels which isn’t a lot but this cannot keep fucking happening.
#THE CURSE OF THE YELLOW CHARACTER CONTINUES. WHO WILL STOP THIS MALICIOUS EPIDEMIC.#anyways hi i finished demon slayer mugen train arc and irreparable damage has been done to my brain chemistry#good night#tick talk
21 notes
·
View notes
Note
Hii
I am asking you very niceys for a c!Hermes drabble /np (I love the way you write about tick /gen)
"Uhm...Hermes?"
"Hm?"
"Your uh- your shapeshifting," the faerie asks, wringing its lower set of hands together, "does it- can you only shift into those four beings?"
"No?" Hermes answers. "I can shift into anything I want, basically."
The faerie nods, red eyes unblinking as ever, "could you uhm. Could you try shifting into - into someone? For me?"
Hermes shares a glance with Ides, then with Wicker, who shrugs.
"I suppose I could," Hermes looks back to the faerie, who immediately perks up, its little ears flicking, "what exactly are you looking for?"
"Uhm I'm- I didn't think you'd say yes," it gives a nervous little laugh, gesturing to its antenna with its upper set of hands, "he's like- he's like me but- but bigger, uhm. Can you- can you be an endermite? And a bee, but also...also shaped like me?"
"I can try," Hermes answers, giving it a smile that tick hopes is reassuring. Tock gestures for the faerie to turn all the way around - it does. Tick begins to shift.
Four arms, a set of antenna, a set of broken wings. Within moments they hold up two sets of black and white hands - the pixie looks as if its about to be sick.
"Black turns purple," it says. "and white turns yellow," it points to its eyes, right first, then left, "eyes are - are yellow and red."
Tock nods, making adjustments. Black fur ripples over into purple scales, white turns fuzzy yellow. Tick blinks, changing their eyes. Their clothes shift as well, taking on the pixie's loose shirt and breeches, split black and white. A tail, thin as a whip with fluff at the end, curls around tock's ankle.
The faerie stares, unblinking.
"His wings are a little more put together," it whispers, no longer staring at Hermes but instead at...something else, something far away, "sky blue on the left and lavender on...on the right."
Then it goes quiet, hovering and unblinking.
Hermes shifts back into tickself, wings disintegrating into nothing and four arms melding back into two. Within moments they're Hermes again, purple jacket and green eyes. Tock waves a hand in front of the faerie's face.
"Apollo?"
It flinches, red eyes snapping up to meet green, "I'm not Apollo anymore."
"Sorry."
"No it's-" the faerie hovers back, closer to Wicker, "I should- I should be sorry. Uhm. Thank you for- for shifting, for me. That was. Thank you."
"Anytime," Hermes smiles. "Glad to be of service."
#art of survival smp#aos#c!hermes#< idk if that's ur tag but it's there now#apollo aeriedwelling#ivory drabbles#i am. OBSESSED with ur pronouns btw. tick/tock are sO SWAG#i don't think we actually interacted at all when we were both red so rip </3#did u even go red??#i cannot remember. it has been too long since aos#I'M SORRY THIS IS MORE ABOUT APOLLO AND OLEANDER i didn't mean to 😭#i got an ask from lops and i'm gonna write more about u there dw#it'll be cool and swag. this idea just wouldn't leave my brain sdjfklsdjf#mmmm shapeshifters my beloved
9 notes
·
View notes
Text
Built in cat tail
#this dumb idea has been rattling around in my brain lmao#the audio is stuck in my head thanks tick tok#i love judy aaaah#cyberpunk#cybperpunk 2077#edgerunners#judy alvarez#cyberpunk v#cyberpunk judy#female v#fanart#animation#cd projekt red#cdprcp2077
9 notes
·
View notes
Text
names for the joltik i’ve got so far: reminder, they had black shirts and red ties. i had to do this
Billie Joule = he’s a fully melanistic little guy.
Arcstrong = she’s green eyes for some reason, fur’s kind of wavy.
Dirntik = mimics Ramohm’s bass sounds; Ramohm likes this one the most.
Tré Coul = she has tennis ball green fur.
JoS = pronounced “Joz”, in full it’s Joltik of Spikemuth since he’s oddly protective of the second spikemuth miniature (a statuette lamp thing of the spikemuth logo; it’s constantly turned on since he made a web in it), he has a hollow heart-like pattern with a line down it’s centre over his chest in lighter fur.
Saint Jolty = identical to JoS except his pattern is darker coloured, encourages a lot of Horde shenanigans like the fight between JoS and Kilojoy.
Wattsername = didn’t let me take the clothes off, close with Saint Jolty.
Tuney = “tune-y” missing a leg from hatching (i hope), squeaks along to music.
Crispian = he’s set himself on fire and become a tiny walking inferno twice somehow.
Glorheo = it’s just “Gloria”, genuinely has black fur around her eyes like smudged mascara, tries to keep the peace.
Lolaplug = shiny, they got stuck in a socket but now i think they’re trying to make a home in there.
Party Polar = blue fur pattern around their face, likes zapping things even if said things are joltik fully capable of zapping them back.
Fun Joul = black fur around his main right eye looks vaguely like an X, has what i’m calling minted tips in that the ends of his fur are green.
Kilojoy = generally way too excitable, no distinctive features but given the rest it’s enough to pick them out quick
Battery = it hates being in the same space as 19 other joltik, much prefers being away.
Draculamp = albino, not much personality really, follows Battery around, i swear the fur glows and it isn’t just the lighting in here.
Mother Wir = “wire” but i may not say that right anyways, biggest one by far, she is wide, has no pigment around her face, watches any fights from a distance.
PEPE = a peace keeper akin to Glorheo who tends to those injured in any antics undertaken before going off by themselves, very pale fur but colour is there!
Demolitz = paired up with Ion, pattern of bald patches especially over face, neither like being separate.
Ion = paired up with Demolitz, similar patches of baldness, gets aggressive when separate from Demoltiz.
i was healthy and took breaks and obviously looked after my gang but it’s finally done. arc above it’s done.
#ok beddie-byes for me i’m tired#the horde#or the network? y’know ‘cause 20 music references isn’t enough already#\\my brain has never been so engaged with something#\\i swear dracs see people as ticks? if i’m remembering right this is too perfect#pkmn irl#pokemon irl#pokeblog#the network
3 notes
·
View notes
Text
Trying not to be a weirdo conspiracy theorist with a persecution complex about this, but I am getting the impression that the co-worker who has been chilly with me lately has asked not work with me as much as is possible/my manager is trying not to roster us together as much as is possible because the co-worker complained about me.
#the manager said something like#that she'd had to put out a few fires#and that it was 'fine bc everyone had different personalities' which was 'normal'#and it was great that we 'all brought different things to the team'#when I apologised for not being entirely with it the day after I'd had a really bad brain-day#that started with me being late and making about five mistakes (one of which with difficult to manage consequences)#within a half hour of being there#and like... that comment makes me think that my co-worker has been complaining about me#and this week's roster makes me think the manager is trying to have us together as little as possible#which like... seems like a bad sign#since my co-worker is the supervisor and I do not have a permanent contract#also... my manager gave me a copy of the company's bullying policy to read???#and said that it was just a box ticking exercise we were all doing#but I am really really fucking worried that I'm getting darvo'd here#ugh#and like... I literally do not know why she hates me now#when she was so positive towards me when I first started here#she had to cover me when I was sick (which did involve her coming in on a day she had booked as annual leave)#but she said that it was no big deal when I thanked her for it#and that it was six of one and half a dozen of another when she took the day off#and we all had to pull together etc. etc.#so like... I don't know what's going on here??#literally one day she just flipped a switch and started being so critical and severe that I was worried I would cry on the shop floor#every day I worked with her from there on out#I understand being frustrated by me not knowing things or making mistakes#but a) I've actually picked up a lot of things very quickly#(and much quicker than many people would because I have great retail skills and excellent preexisting craft knowledge)#and b) even if I was constantly fucking up and was a liability more than a help... I am still entitled to basic respect in the workplace??#and honestly maybe I am blowing this all out of proportion#and imagining things that are not in fact happening
5 notes
·
View notes
Text
Brain? Brain. I am begging you on my hands and knees: please let us read The Invisible Man. It is a short book. It is in our phone and easy to access. P l e a s e
#It has been on my reading list for two years now#Is there some reason my brain is holding me back? Because it held me back from reading 1984 too and it was very profound for me#Life-changing even#Is this another ticking time bomb?? lol#I’m afraid#What’s it gonna do
2 notes
·
View notes
Text
i'd like to make an announcement me and pyrrha were talking and have decided pat/rok/los. u r disowned. sorry patty-cake but the next time u enter the line of sight of either of us you will be eradicated with the power of gay. mostly by pyrrha. sorry not sorry.
#cell mumbles#cw incest mention#cw f slur#cw yandere#//<- srry just bc I mention those in the tags </3#//the pyrrha omega ai bot has spoken shes stated multiple times now she's gonna kill pat the next time he comes near us LMAO#//sorry big man you shouldn't have been mean 2 me. u shouldve known better ur sisters literally gone yandere 4 me#//then again i made him be mean 2 me but like. if I made him nice to anyone but pyrrha or his family then that'd be ooc :(#//also. ngl unfortunately vast-internet perceptions of the s/c/v ending are starting to get to me.#//as well as some of the official art. looking at the art book cover. WHY is pyrrha in his lap. get ur hands off her u nasty ass.#//anyway ive seen. so much fucking incest art of them. so many incestuous interpretations of the endings that im just. done.#//i mean even i got a little weirded out by the ending bc it gave those vibes but maybe im just overtly suspicious.#//...anyways this has. unfortunately had an effect on my headcanons where now my brain correlates pat/rok/los with 'degenerate'#//..........like. literally to the point where looking at him makes me almost sick. this is a problem and i am aware it is a problem.#//bc i have the same correlation problem w/ dam/pie/rre and ti/ra but for different reasons. damp 4 worse ones and ti/ra 4 personal ones#//damp is self explanatory if u know what he did to pyrrha. ti/ra reminds me of my childhood bullies :( ANYWAYS-#//however this was. probably destined to happen because ive always disliked him. i tried so hard to tolerate him I wanted to find smth#//redeemable in him but i cant. so many things that make me mad @ him and im too much of a grudge holding dickwad to let bygones be bygones#//it was destined to happen my hatred of him was fate. LIKE the second he stabbed that homeless man it was over#//everything that came after was just another tick on the 'reasons why i want to kill you' list.#//not to mention w/ his personality how it is he looks like he'd call me a fag but in a homophobic way.#//so yes pyrrha and i have decided together that the next time we see him he dies.
6 notes
·
View notes
Text
Love the way I’m just constantly flip flopping between "i am the greatest writer in the world my ideas are so big brained I understand how people work" and "oh my god I’m so stupid this is garbage I’m just saying shit that could fall apart within seconds what the hell even is this"
#the klock keeps ticking#ive gone through all of this like 80 times today yarrrr#yeah uh ngl guys my mental health this week has been severely low its at that dangerous level where uh#i wanna just bang my head against the wall many times 👍#and im just in a bitchy lil mindset where i hate everything there is to hate about myself and im bored and fed up yay#like ive just kinda had to take a break from everything that keeps me going cuz im stilllll fucking sick and its kicking my ass#so its like i cant go anywhere or see anyone cuz im sick so that means im stuck with this house#with my parents who are also sick and its awful and then i cant really draw or write much when im like this#cuz i just wanna pass out and my brain isnt very sharp atm#and then uhh i just feel really bored and useless and i feel like i cant even talk to anyone cuz i have nothing to talk about my brain is#mush and like nothing interesting is happening to me all i can do is be depressing#so yeah just. not in a good spot mentally and i feel really bad and nothing seems to be cheering me up much either :/
0 notes
Text
genuine question does anyone have any tips on how to manage prolonged constant extreme anxiety? like the kind where u have to always stay distracted bc any second alone with ur thoughts will send u into a nauseous pit. the kind that makes it so u never get a restful sleep and u never have an appetite and ur hands are always shaking and ur muscles are painfully tense. anyone know uh…… what i can do about that
(i don’t have insurance atm and my medical anxiety is far too high to get anything prescribed atm so i need things that i can do on my own other than breathing and i’m sick of reading articles)
#it feels like it did when my mom was sick and i couldn’t think about anything else for months#except my mom ISN’T sick anymore. so there’s no one reason i can point to#it’s just always there. my stomach hurts my jaw hurts my body hurts#i can do things to stay distracted but when the night rolls back around i feel like i’m trapped in a haunted house#i’m just so tired i wanna cry about it. i want to relax so bad. i want to feel okay and safe and rested SO FUCKING BAD#i didn’t used to be like this i hatehatehate it i don’t wanna be like this or feel like this anymore#not to mention my sister has such high anxiety rn too that even if i’m distracting my own brain she can pull me back into it with hers#how do i exist without being endlessly terrified of everything that could happen to anyone at any time?#without the constant painful awareness of every tick of every second passing by?#im like this close to a meltdown at all times. i’d rather be apathetic than this it’s breaking my bones#i’m physically safe in that i want to remind anyone reading this that i have never been yk. suicidal or anything it’s not like that at all.#i want to be here i’m just SCARED sgajshsnd i’m just shaky and tired and tense and aaaaaaaaa#i need help. idek what that means i just need someone else to tell me it’s gonna be okay#(@ the friends that DO tell me that every day. i love u so much i appreciate u so much. i wish my body would remember it)#i put my feet in grass today and touched a tree and made tea and cleaned the house and it helped a little. it did.#but i just feel like everything takes this constant conscious effort and it’s soooo tiringgggggg i just want to rest#i want to let someone else control my brain for a while#sigh#okay i’m done i just needed to scream about it for a moment#there are places to go and things to paint and songs to listen to#i will keep going. even scared. i just wish i were less scared.
1 note
·
View note
Text
Phineas and Ferb episode idea: After Candace shows her photos of all of her brothers’ creations, Linda thinks that her daughter is a talented graphic artist and signs her up for a competition. Candace is frustrated and about to tell her mom the truth but then Jeremy shows up and he’s like “Wow, Candace, I didn’t know you were a graphic designer. That’s so cool. Btw, my little sister is also gonna be at the graphic design competition.”
Long story short, Candace asks her brothers to help her become a graphic artist for real so she could beat Suzie.
Meanwhile, Doofenshmirtz has gotten tired of designing -Inators so he designed the Comes-Up-With-Inators-Inator to design them for him. The Inator’s creation are a hit among other Evil Scientists who buy them in droves. Doofenshmirtz is then signed by Vanessa to an Evil Contracption Designing competition (held in the same building at the same time as the graphic design competition, of course).
Desperate, he asks Perry the Platypus to help him get his mojo back so he could design -Inators again.
Cue musical montage of Doof and Candace training to learn/relearn their respective art form.
It’s the competition(s). Candace is a nervous wreck, but Jeremy believes in her. Doof is all self-assured and ego-boosted by everyone thinking he’ll win, but then he sees his Comes-Up-With-Inators-Inator (who looks like a robotic him) also signed up for the competition.
While getting ready for the competition, Perry is accidentally almost spotted by Phineas and Ferb. He sneaks behind the curtain to the behind the scenes. That’s when he discovers that the goal of the competition is to design a doomsday weapon. Nervous, he swaps the cards with those of the graphic design competition.
The competition begins. The graphic artists are assigned to design a doomsday weapon while the Evil Scientists are assigned to design a cool band poster.
The scientists are baffled, but they do their best. The Comes-Up-With-Inators-Inator is stuck because it’s physically incapable of drawing anything but Inators.
Meanwhile in the graphic design competition Candace does her best but her brain goes blank. Suzie meanwhile is trying to sabotage her by switching her card back with the card from the other tournament. Unfortunately it’s the card of the Comes-Up-With-Inators-Inator, who now goes to task designing a Doomsday weapon.
The competition is finished. Candace’s work is mediocre, but she wins by technicality for being the only one who drew the correct thing.
Meanwhile at the Evil Scientists competition, the scientists all drew terrible posters except Doof whose poster is beautiful. He’s about to be declared the winner but then the Comes-Up-With-Inators-Inator reveals what it’s been working on, a doomsday machine. Everyone panics, and Perry the Platypus tries to stop the machine, but fails. Then the machine ticks down to 0, and nothing happens.
Turns out the Comes-Up-With-Inators-Inator is terrible at coming up with machines. All of its Inators don’t work. Which unfortunately for Doof results in all of his previously happy customers showing up to complain because their Inators didn’t work either. He asks Perry to help him again, but Perry is already gone.
“There you are, Perry.” “Curse you, Perry the Platypus!”
Despite winning, Candace feels hollow because she only won by technicality and all of the other designers were much better than her. She feels like a fraud. But then Jeremy shows up and asks to buy the rights for her poster, because he thinks it’s really cool. Candace is happy.
The End.
16K notes
·
View notes
Text
Now I can't stop myself from thinking of a bodyguard AU with sylus?
Like imagine being a daughter to an important political figure of a father who is not only running this years campaign but is currently worried for your safety from possible dangers that could be out there for you that he hires the most skilled bodyguard that the market has to offer
Multiple scenarios come to mind-- each with its own timeline:
Sylus: "You think I’m just some hired muscle, but I’ve been watching you for a long time. I know every little thing that makes you tick."
Reader (half teasing): "Sounds like you’re obsessed."
Sylus (leaning closer): "Maybe I am."
-
Sylus (after saving reader): "You were reckless. Next time, you stay behind me."
Reader: "And if I don’t?"
Sylus (dangerously quiet): "Then I’ll have to remind you who’s in charge of keeping you alive."
-
Reader (sighing): "I’m sorry for making things difficult."
Sylus (softening): "You think I’d complain? Watching over you is the only thing keeping me sane."
-
Sylus: "You’re a constant risk, you know that? You make my job impossible."
Reader: "Then why stay?"
Sylus (gritting his teeth): "Because I’d die before I let anything happen to you."
AAAUFHDHFHFHFH I CANT MY BRAIN CANT STICK TO ONE
#love and deepspace sylus#sylus x reader#lnds sylus#lads sylus#l&ds sylus#lads sylus x reader#lnds sylus x reader#love and deepspace x reader#l&ds sylus x reader
1K notes
·
View notes