#my brain doesn’t shut off
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simp4katsuki · 1 year ago
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Thinking a lot about murky water. Watching your spoon disappear from view as it touches the porcelain bottom of your cup of tea, glass surface swallowing it up. Dropping small stones into a lake and following their sideways descent as they shudder against the pressure of the water, turning green and then blue and then fading away. Fish rising to the surface of the ocean from a bottomless black well, shifting from formless shapes to crisp, scaly, unseeing eyes. thinking a lot about how things disappear
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thespaceyace · 5 months ago
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today’s doodle page ft. loid and yor
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napping-sapphic · 8 months ago
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Love is so freaky and messed up to the point that sometimes i do wish and hope SO badly that no one ever has to suffer being in love with me specifically because it honestly sounds absolutely unbearable
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diremoone · 5 months ago
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C5 Kaveh without getting Navia 😮‍💨😮‍💨 thank god. I think I’m gonna have to stop there. used up my intertwineds this month on stardust for that too phew
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askamnesiamoonjumper · 9 months ago
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me after editing the aau prologue for the bajillionth time
#First chapter I changed the opening bc I always thought it felt off/abrupt and wanted to have it be prince pov from the start#I wanna get in his head more ok sue me#Beyond that tho it was just some wording edits#Specifically with the internal dialogue moments I helped them flow more/feel more like thoughts#Also mj gets a bit more of their usual edge/pessimism bc the prologue they always felt a bit too “ówò sad poor smol bean” or whatever#That’s it tho chapter 4 I didn’t change bc it’s peak#Did add some teases to later things tho like snatch senses mjs soul at the end of his chap but doesn’t realize it#Or like I added the Not Now running thing in the earlier chapters bc it was more of a chapter 4 thing so I wanted 2 set it up more so boom#I think that’s all the notable edits ig like I said just description additions the only actual new thing is the opener for chap 1 👍#Also also I got to include a hc that I have that I neglected to do before but I hc a!prince used plural internal dialogue#Because lol we love dramatic irony in this house#Grace post#this reminds me tho one of these days I should look through heart strings chapter one to look for editing things#Bc I think I did that recently but I don’t remember it much tho#Mostly just when the Hat stuff starts that was the parts I never directly rewrote I just edited them so they feel out of place in my brain#Also I’d wanna edit her dialogue bc it *was* in character (after rereading her diary’s to confirm) but I wanna have her be a bit more snark#Hat is Hard bc i Need the balance of cute little kid and also smug little shit (affectionate) like she is a pain to write man cries#This is just me rambling lol ignore it I just wanted to spam aau thoughts#In other news I made shapes redesigns but I’m on the fence on posting them bc idk if I wanna spoil or not hhhhhhhhh#Nowadays I’m more chill w spoiling things than I used to be#But there are a handful of things I’ve kept shut about (ex being princes name or mjs species stuff etc)#So I’m not sure if this thing with shapes i should keep secret or just post bc I used to spoil it but idk now#Shrugs#maybe I’ll do a poll later I dunno#Ok yapping over byeeeeee
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nightmareonpeachstreet · 1 month ago
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I can’t tell you why I suddenly lose motivation/interest in games when a character I’ve been waiting for finally gets released, because I don’t know either, but it happens more often than I would like to admit
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writinandcrying · 1 year ago
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Me engaging author mode: Alright this fics needs more actual lines between the characters, this can’t be hard, right? you have conversations in English all the time this is gonna be super easy
Brain: *absolutely forgets how ppl have normal conversations, specially siblings teasing each other *
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neoflames · 4 months ago
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Its paranoia hours 🔥 (my brain has me convinced that every sound in the house is someone breaking in to kill my family)
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trevisos · 1 month ago
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i truly didn’t want magpie to be someone who cares about crow politics but unfortunately she and viago have forced my hand. i don’t think she pays much mind to politics when making decisions bc she is simply too impulsive but i do think she is painfully aware of at the very least how people feel about viago specifically. which means this will happen tenfold with her new pet first talon. and will likely make her insane. bc if viago’s ascension to fifth talon and his subsequent place in that position was precarious at one point lucanis’s is…. like ten times worse. there are twoooo members of house dellamorte alive and the first talon is a literal abomination like… the target on his back is massive unless a very solid alliance can be formed with both house de riva and house cantori and even then nothing is guaranteed. and then there’s neve! a non-crow that both the first talon and the fifth talon’s protege are in love with? she’s literally the perfect target for someone trying to get to lucanis. which like okay she can definitely hold her own if she’s targeted for whatever reason but she still Could be targeted. idk where i’m going with this except that i think lucanis being first talon is truly so so so wild and is going to make everyone’s lives harder. which is awesome
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millyrocking · 7 months ago
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question for the culture — why don’t we ever really discuss the massive amounts of sexual assault, domestic abuse and misogyny entrenched within professional wrestling?
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swordmaid · 9 months ago
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DO think that yves is heavily scarred esp after kressa’s….experiments. her past scars (usually from self inflicted flogging) would be fading but still rather apparent, but the ones she received from kressa are newer and they look more grisly bc i don’t imagine kressa rlly cared about patching her up properly. since she’s a cleric I do think she’ll try to heal them or at least correct the stitchings so they don’t look as crass, but then she’d find herself weirdly fascinated by how haphazard the scars and stitches look and the more intrusive part of her would want to open up the stitches one by one - just like a little present - and open it to see her inside
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killingmoon · 9 months ago
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haaaate that crying is the way i process things. i may not even be that upset i just need to let it sink in but i will be SOBBING. why???
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ickypuppi3 · 2 years ago
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one of my biggest pet peeves has to be when i tell someone i can’t do something (academically) in casual conversation and they take it upon themselves to try to ‘teach me’ even when i’ve explicitly told them not to like !! don’t piss me off ..
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milo-is-rambling · 2 years ago
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Omg yesterday at my moms therapy I said how well I had been doing and feeling like I can actually handle life and my mom was immediately like “that’s because you’ve been taking your meds regularly again” and like completely brushed off any progress I had actually made and I had to be like yeah totally that’s it that’s why exactly when I haven’t taken my meds for a week straight in idk how long
#I was like yup totally that sure is why I’ve been feeling good totally#not at all that I’ve been spending time to do things I like and journal and process my feelings in healthy ways or that I am consciously#making strides towards regular person sanity#and she fucking brought up adhd meds again like FUCK OFFFFFFF HOW MANY TIMES DO I HAVE TO SAY I DONT WANT TO TAKE THEM BEFORE IT CLICKS#I. DONT. WANT. TO. TAKE. THEM. they are a tool in MY mental health toolbox bitch back off my toolbox I know you fucking live adhd meds and#won’t shut up about them but I am happy now and I don’t like my brain on adhd meds and the only reason you want me on them is because you#like me more when I’m doing stereotypically productive tasks so you’d rather have me cleaning the house and not doing the shit I love than#you would have me not taking my meds and making art and writing poetry#like god#she just doesn’t fucking get it#I cannot create when I take adhd meds. that part of my brain just like dissolves.#the way I work is that constantly I have a million projects on the back burner in my mind and when I get inspired I make one#when I take my adhd meds I can’t just pick up a fun project I don’t get those ideas I can’t write poetry I can’t make art it’s like it sever#severs the line between my creative mind and my regular mind and I have nothing in my life that I need to be THAT focused on right now#but I have my perscruption still! like if I ever need it it’s there but that’s not your fucking decision that’s mine and you need to back#off my brain because it is a delicate fucking ecosystem up there in my head and I’m not going to fuck with anything until I have to#god. sorry. went on a bit of a rant. I am just so sick of arguing over my mom wanting to control the way I medicate myself. I am an adult#and she is not inside my brain so she needs to listen when I tell her how things affect me#she takes adhd meds like twice every day and hates the feeling of not being on them but I just don’t like them and she won’t fucking drop it#okay I am getting mad about adhd meds and my mother right before I have to be in the car with her all morning i need to relax#we’re going to psychic we’re gonna have fun#we’re not going to argue about this again.
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primordial0riginator · 1 year ago
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Had a dream about mini black holes being on Earth… like just in varying places for some reason that nobody knows in this case. They were just… there. And surrounded by stars and essentially mini galaxies, they moved around but very slowly so they were just doing their own thing
The whole thing was genuinely more disturbing than any murderer chasing me dream I’ve ever had, I cannot describe the feelings it gave me
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willowser · 2 years ago
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sometimes i get the urge to write the biggest au's for no reason LOL
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