#my blog my rules ig

[farceargon]

my love my dear <3 blows u a kiss. 1, 20 and 30 for the asks :-3?

HIII MWAH!! I push you down the stairs beloved!!!

1 . what are 3 things you’d say shaped you into who you are?

Oh you had to pick the hard one huh. | I really have no idea about what shaped me... I suppose that dinosaurs did? Classic kid thing to start fixations with, those things consumed my childhood and I still love them. It's thanks to them that I branched into drawing dragons, then got to where I am. Casual eldritch/biology enjoyer. Games for sure, 100%. Honestly I think my neighbour falls into this place too. He was the younger brother but I got on way better with him. I'd say we were almost best friends, we'd spend majority of our afternoons throughout all his primary school years (+2 of my high school years) playing Skylanders together and talking about Pokemon. We saw each other almost daily!! I don't know where he is now or how he's doing, but I hope he's doing great out there. He was a good kid, I wouldn't want anything else for him and for how much he helped me become who I am today. I hope he knows how much he still means to me after all this time.

Music. I think would have to be the last thing I can think of. My music taste has changed so much since the start of high school but regardless it was my crutch. My silence was always filled with music if I could help it. On the bus, in the car, at home. It's still the same now too. Music stops me from overthinking and fearing and I always tend to tear up at random moments listening to random songs. I would and do always daydream to it and it powered/powers my thoughts like nothing else. Music kept my creativity alive, especially when I developed some intense anxiety/depression during early years of high school. For that I owe it everything.

20. favourite things about the night?

Oh yes an easy question, PHEW. It's dark, quiet, peaceful, nice on the eyes and generally peak hours 'cause everyone's asleep. Nothing is nicer than having a window open to the darkness outside, hearing the wind blow a cool breeze by. Orange streetlights over the road or Christmas decorations in the dark. Nothing quite as hypnotizing as driving at night and seeing the lights go by in spotty patterns. During the day people are active and about, supposed to be awake and full of energy. I'm a very chill, tired person most of the time and the night is so much less stressful to me. It's down time for everyone and that means I can vibe at my most comfortable. Did I mention it's dark? Light hurts my eyes </3 That's also why I love cloudy af days.

30. what’s one thing that never fails to make you happy/happier?

Cat. My cat. Idk how you're supposed to not feel happy when you're near a little, fluffy creature that loves you. Easy mood booster.

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Hough... This one ended up a little more than I meant. Actually I think both asks did, my bad dfgnjdfh

Thank you for asking though!

[doggerell]

[w0nd3rlessix]

guys when does memory loss become an actual concern rather than just a silly but extremely annoying thing that occurs

[jamesaday]

15.

[pennysucks]

I'm in love with the idea of a swap au now so I'll be posting about it, live with it

PLS IMAGINE A HERMES-EURYLOCHUS VERSION OF MY GOODBYE

I'M NOT GOOD AT CREATING LYRICS SO I CAN'T REWRITE MY GOODBYE TO FIT THEIR CHARACTERS BUT JUST TRY AND IMAGINE IT 😭 I would tweak irl

[hermitcraftx]

just got a dm abt one of my posts and y'all please don't try and show the hermits (or any minecraft youtuber or content creator for that matter) my posts, i'm uncomfortable with it and don't want any of my posts shown to a cc. if they stumble upon it naturally that's unfortunate but i can live with it since i do maintag a lot (something i REALLY need to stop doing tbh i already know i need to make a tagging system just for my blog that wont clog results) but going out of ur way to show a cc is entirely different and something i am not comfortable with.

no hate to the person at all but even if i wasn't a little silly and weird with it sometimes i wouldn't be comfortable with it, i want my blog to be a purely fandom only space with none of the creators involved <3 please respect this

[hollypies]

I was really nervous but I figured I'd post this just incase any of my friends wanted to see it-

It isn't really relevant to any art and stuff that I do but uhm.

Look, I'm really struggling right now, trying to do things for me more often again. It's reallt stupid, because like, this is mt blog and I should be able to post about what I like and I should feel ok doing that but I just feel like I've hit a wall. Im so nervous all the time now, like I'm going to be annoying for writing/drawing/talking about my interests. I'm trying not to do that so, uhm. Here's a first step in the right direction ig

Tldr. Having a hard time, trying to enjoy doing any type of art for myself again .

[luvrxbunny]

soooo um guys! please don’t be this person!! i think i made it clear that i’m a sensitive person, so if don’t ask for criticism…

don’t give it!

i only ask for criticism if i know i can handle it and i really didn’t want any so i didn’t ask for any

but if you’re just going to ignore the fact that i didn’t ask u for criticism… and u give it anyway. i least make it polite and constructive

i know there are other comments telling me about the spanish but this one was particularly rude!

i really don’t know what you guys want me to do..? i don’t speak spanish.. i tried my best so :/

i’m not the kind of person to talk abt someone behind their back so @itsmenickiandari just letting u know that ur a prime example of someone that i wouldn’t mind if they just avoided my blog in the future :)

[rin-nohara-anon]

There's reasons I don't step into the N*ruto fandom from this blog. There's reasons I post abstract fluffy shit instead. The amount of gatekeeping, trolling, self entitled, self obsessed, rude to violent and hateful spiteful venom I encountered while rping "" has given me permanent pause and distrust of the fandom as a whole. I will never rejoin the meta side of the N*fandom. My entire experience of rping "' was a lesson in how to navigate the trenches of that insane group and there's no way I will ever forget any of it. So for whoever is like, what does her blog have to do with N*ruto I honestly could not care any less. I'm going to rp Rin how I want. And be very careful with this blog. This isn't a discourse blog about characters it's a role play blog, and fleshing out a character is fun for me at least. When I'm ready to reach out to other rp blogs I will. Maybe that's being selective? Good for me. I've rped for a long time and this fandom is one of the worst in terms of dishing out the judgement. I'd rather do what I'm doing then go through all that again.

[hellceo]

munday fun day and all but tbh this is mostly just an excuse to show off my awesome new shirt that got here today !!

[echoes-abound]

??? tumblr please my hobby account just vanished?? I'd like it back tumblr please???

[tachyon-omlette]

Hmmm, this is too much power my friend. XD

📦, 💤, 👗 or 🏨?

wait. wait whyd i put so much effort into this. wait wai

[majicmarker]

there is nothing that inspires Rage within my body like having to input basically the same book search keywords with the bare minimum of tweaks to check their competition analytics

(i.e., when i'm doing promo text and marketing, i have to brainstorm keywords potential readers might use while they're book-browsing online so we can get our clients' books into their orbit. we have this program that analyzes estimated monthly searches, number of similar products, forecasted earnings, etc., based on popular keyword searches. very nifty!!!!!!!!!

(however.

(when i have to separately input, say, "search for a killer" and then "search for a murderer" and then "search for a criminal" and then "hunting for a killer" and then "hunting down a killer" and then "hunting for a murderer" and then "hunting down a murderer," u see where this is going, ON AND ON, because none of them are projecting the kind of results deemed worthy of use? that's it. i've lost my whole mind.)

[pennysucks]

Oc

[bogirltalk]

This isn't necessarily related to the topics on this blog, so I apologize, but I came across this video today and I think it's so relevant and useful that I can't not share. The topic is "de-centering." The part that stuck out to me the most in particular is when she says the following:

"Hate and love are a type of care - extreme care. If you are extremely emotionally invested in the perception of others or how you perceive another group... (there's some nuance, but-) I would say get more towards neutral than negative. Because it's easier to steer your own ship when you're at the helm, and it's not hatred in your sails pushing you in one direction."

What is being discussed here reminds me of the quote that says, "The opposite of love isn't hate, it's indifference." And a comment I read online recently, "There is a thin line between love and hate - both of which take energy, time, effort, and ultimately means you care a lot about someone/something."

Although the examples used in this video and the context the topic is being discussed in isn't necessarily the same as what I'm speaking about here, I still think it applies. This is very apt for online spaces in general, but since we here are Bad Omens fans I would like to relate this to how a lot of Bad Omens fandom spaces online are currently. And of course that's not to say that all fandom spaces (or even all fans individually) are like this, I'm just speaking in generalizations here.

I see a lot of vitriol against certain people surrounding Bad Omens and the people within the fandom. People making entire accounts just to spread hate about someone, going out of their way to leave nasty comments expressing how much they "hate" someone, and even encouraging others to do the same, etc.

All of this ultimately reflects back on the band and our fandom. Can people not see how the way a lot of people in our fandom are conducting themselves is directly impacting the way the band engages with us as fans? It's cyclical: fans spread negativity/hate > band draws back or reacts in a way some fans don't like because of the hate > fans complain > repeat.

The best thing you can do is block and ignore. Time and attention is currency. Remember that you choosing to actively "hate" someone is you giving them power over you.

Sometimes you can hate something so much that you end up promoting and supporting it.

Foster what will help us and the band grow, and put energy into what will positively affect us. You give life to what you give energy to.

*Note: Please remember there is nuance to everything - life is very rarely black or white. I think it goes without saying I am not applying this logic to things like abuse, oppression, bigotry, etc. Remember: nuance.

[ghostificati0n]

like how am i supposed to break out of this shit? ive been stuck w my art for fucking years and i dont know what to do about it

study the basics? again? and again? even though im not excited about it anymore so i dont really ever wanna do it?

do studies? even though they dont communicate anything like other peoples work does? even though i cant find anything to communicate?

make shit art on purpose? for what? i dont enjoy the process anymore. i dont want a notebook fully of shitty abstract garbage paintings made by me

make art for myself? what the fuck do i even want !!! how are you even supposed to tap into that !!!

its my own fault but my art is so intrinsically tied to money and others approval that it feels impossible to do anymore im just so tired of trying anything like im just gonna be mediocre no matter what and im just gonna look like my fmaily doing it, so why try