#muse: natasha rostova

[melpomeneprose]

// so went through the stickied parts of my copy of w.ar & p.eace (aka the everything that is not g.reat c.omet) and i just finished my comet / w&p playlists… and now i am sad about the K.uragins but especially Elena, cause … at least Anatole showing remorse for his impetuousness and begging forgiveness and then dying (in war) makes sense, and for however much T.olstoy hates not men he is fine to Sonya, Mary and Natasha. Hélène is just … more or less punished for everything after what makes up comet (cause it is only 1/3 of the story - the middle part the impulsive bisexuals - the Kuragins & Natasha making bad choices), but no Elena is not even given a semblance of redemption arc. She dies before being able to get out of her mutually bad marriage and tries to convert to r.oman c.atholicisn and then just dies by poison(?) overdose and no one cares… or rather everyone who would care is dead already, then the French take Moscow and it burns (yeah we know Napoleon loses but still..) :(

// also have the Anatole (in w&p canon) death fic I wrote forever ago…

[auditioheros]

i'm gonna listen to the great comet all day and it's all bc of @eclipsemuses smh

[storiesbreathed]

it’s an emoji based starter call , theater muses edition ! : react with one or multiple to let me know who you want a starter from, specify your muses if you are a multi!

also note : all of these will be put in a queue when i write them and will slowly be dropped onto the dash!

if you cannot send an emoji just toss out who you want :)

🐠~ariel ( the little mermaid | live action & musical )

🎁~belle ( vhs christmas carols / a christmas carol ) 

💜~dea ( the grinning man / the man who laughs )

✂️~della ( vhs christmas carols / the gift of the magi )  

👠~ella ashmore ( cinderella’s castle )

👛~elle woods ( legally blonde ) 

🧹~elphaba thropp ( wicked [ w/ novel influences when i finish it ]  ) 

🥀~eurydice ( hadestown and mythology ) 

👑~fairy queen of sweet dreams ( cinderella’s castle )

🫧~glinda upland ( wicked [ w/ novel influences when i finish it ] ) 

🪻~ilse neumann ( spring awakening ) 

🕊️~johanna barker ( sweeney todd )

🗡️~juliet capulet ( romeo and juliet )

🤠~laurey williams ( oklahoma 2029! )

🪡~martha crachit ( vhs christmas carols / a christmas carol )  

🎆~mimi marquez ( rent ) 

💫~molly aster ( peter & the starcatcher ) 

🎹~natalie goodman ( next to normal ) 

🪗~natasha rostova ( the great comet / war & peace ) 

🌹~orpheus ( hadestown and mythology )

👗~putrice ( cinderella’s castle )

📸~rose red & all incarnations ( ghost quartet ) 

🩸~satine ( moulin rouge ) 

🪴~seymour krelborn ( little shop of horror )

⚔️~tadius ( cinderella’s castle )

🔫~tatiana slozhno ( spies are forever — VERY HEADCANON BASED )

⚫️~wednesday adams ( the adams family musical )

🎀~wendla bergmann ( spring awakening ) 

[scripturiaent]

temp pinned. low activity multi ft. muses from musical theatre, literature, television and film. written by hestia, 28, she/her.

temp muse list

christine daae - poto erik - poto raoul - poto natasha rostova - war and peace andrei bolkonski - war and peace elle tomkins - the society cassie howard - euphoria jj maybank - outer banks sarah cameron - outer banks alicent hightower - hotd aegon ii - hotd aemond - hotd helaena - hotd tyler owens - twisters

[chmerical-a]

late night poooost!!! my muse list had been updated ( both mobile & carrd ) to add the following:

katarina 'kat' stratford - 10 things i hate about you grace chastity - hatchetfield series emma perkins - hatchetfield series satine - moulin rouge nini - moulin rouge natasha rostova - natasha, pierre, and the great comet of 1812

[breekelly]

"War and Peace" by Leo Tolstoy: A Timeless Epic of Human Existence

Introduction:

Leo Tolstoy's "War and Peace" stands as one of the most monumental and enduring works of literature. Published in serialized form between 1865 and 1869, this epic novel weaves together the lives of aristocrats and commoners against the backdrop of the Napoleonic Wars, offering profound insights into the human condition. In this summary, we will delve into the key themes, characters, and Tolstoy's philosophical musings that make "War and Peace" a timeless masterpiece.

Plot Overview:

At its core, "War and Peace" revolves around the intertwining lives of four central characters: Pierre Bezukhov, Prince Andrei Bolkonsky, Natasha Rostova, and their friend-turned-foe, Prince Anatole Kuragin. Set against the canvas of historical events, including the Battle of Borodino and Napoleon's invasion of Russia, the novel captures the grandeur of war and the intricate tapestry of peace.

The narrative unfolds in four parts, each exploring different aspects of life and society. Tolstoy seamlessly blends history, philosophy, and fiction to create a multi-layered narrative that transcends time and place.

Themes:

1. War and its Impact: Tolstoy, a veteran of the Crimean War, offers a stark portrayal of the horrors and futility of war. The Battle of Borodino, depicted in vivid detail, serves as a microcosm of the broader human tragedy that war represents.

2. Philosophy of History: Tolstoy challenges conventional historical narratives, arguing that historical events are shaped by a multitude of factors beyond the control of individuals, making it impossible to attribute success or failure solely to the actions of leaders.

3. The Search for Meaning: Through the characters' personal journeys, Tolstoy explores the quest for purpose and meaning in life. Pierre's spiritual awakening and Andrei's existential contemplations reflect Tolstoy's own philosophical inquiries.

4. Love and Relationships: Natasha and Pierre's love story, alongside the complexities of other relationships in the novel, underscores the importance of human connections in navigating the tumultuous journey of life.

5. Social Critique: Tolstoy critiques the aristocratic society of his time, questioning its values, norms, and the inevitability of social hierarchy. He offers a nuanced exploration of class distinctions and the impact of historical events on different strata of society.

Conclusion:

war and peace by leo tolstoy summary stands as a literary giant, not just for its sheer scope and complexity but for its profound exploration of the human experience. Tolstoy's timeless insights into the nature of war, the complexities of human relationships, and the search for meaning continue to resonate with readers across generations. As we delve into the lives of Pierre, Andrei, Natasha, and others, we are invited to reflect on our own existence, making "War and Peace" an enduring masterpiece that transcends the boundaries of time and culture.

[onlydanciing]

33 - natasha for nikolai? who's def gonna end up on this blog lbh who am i kidding

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BFF - the spongebob musical

“We’ll have fun if we go out and just sit around doing nothing!”

[iwillmakethem]

@stcrchildrcn​

     Oh, she remembers her well.   Natasha’s cheeks had warmed at the sight of Meinen approaching, and the heat rushed with even greater intensity at the suggestion of a waltz. That rapt expression of Natasha’s face, ready for despair and for ecstasy, suddenly lit up with a happy, grateful, childlike smile. Finally. With ready tears, she raised her hand to Lise’s shoulder.

[musicalmumu]

natasha rostova tag dump

G E N E R A L

❝ NATASHA IS YOUNG​ ​​❞ ╱ natasha rostova 

「 aesthetic 」 natasha rostova

「 canon 」 natasha rostova

「 headcanon 」 natasha rostova

「 inbox 」 natasha rostova

「 musing 」 natasha rostova

「 thread 」 natasha rostova

「 visage 」 natasha rostova

V E R S E S ( explained here )

tbd

R E L A T I O N S H I P S

「 natasha ft. anatole 」 ♡ ˙ ˖ ✧  ❝ THERE IS NO BARRIER BETWEEN US​​​​​​​ ❞

「 natasha ft. andrey 」 ♡ ˙ ˖ ✧  ❝ I’LL NEVER BE THIS HAPPY AGAIN​​​​​​​ ❞

「 natasha ft. pierre 」 ♡ ˙ ˖ ✧  ❝ I LEAVE THE ROOM ... SMILING. ❞ 

「 natasha ft. sonya 」 ♡ ˙ ˖ ✧  ❝ COUSIN ‚ DEAR ‚ I LOVE YOU ; TRUST NO ONE BUT YOU ❞

[melpomeneprose]

// (sighs dreamily in ‘r.omanticizing’ bisexual social ruin <- false and outdated construct today, apparently. Then promptly curls into a ball and cries)

*Same image, different font. T.olstoy I see you and you are not subtle… at all.

*mentally ill bisexuals making bad decisions cause they are lonely and have good coping mechanisms.

[terrainofheartfelt]

Gossip Girl Playlists: Theatre Kid AU edition! —Blair’s

[Dan's] [Nate's] [Serena's]

I don’t even remember exactly how this started, but it’s @strideofpride’s fault. 

The concept began as: if they were in this world, what would be in the GG mains’ MT books? What would be their go-to song? Their 16 bar cut? And then, I got on spotify, and got wayyyy too carried away (typical me), and it sort of morphed into: what are the NJBC’s (plus Daniel’s) senior musical theatre recital programs? And now I have this: a quartet of playlists of repertoire handpicked by me for these fake people, and I am very proud of them. 

All selections based on my very particular taste, honed from a childhood in community theater, an adolescence in high school musicals, and a 4 year degree from a majority musical theatre school

And, as in the tradition of Glee and all plays within a play, the rep reflects something profoundly personal about the character, because you know I love a theme. 

the meta:

Blair could be nothing but the ingenue right??? She wants to be the lead, the romantic girl, the one who gets to fall in love and gets the happy ending at every curtain. She wants to be the star. 

Her voice: born to be the golden age ingenue. I actually have a lot of Thoughts on how modern singers sing this music (snobby bitchy angry thoughts), and I am inclined to think Blair would agree with me. And I didn’t quite know what it was until I was talking with my dad about a production of Fiddler I just saw with the worst “Far From the Home I Love” I ever heard but I digress and I told him: “these women. Sing like they know what an email is.” and that’s the thing. Blair as an MT though, she would bring in that warmth, that roundedness. 

References: Kelli O’Hara, Audra McDonald, Pippa Soo, Cristin Miloti, Judy Garland, and a girl in my class in undergrad who I swear to god was Shirley Jones’ second coming. She’s also a pageant queen, so let’s call her Miss Iowa 

the tracklist:

The Beauty Is — The Light in the Piazza

Now, most people would go for the title song of this musical, but I think Blair would prefer the technical challenge of the ingenue’s first solo. 

Now, there was once this guy, Richard Rodgers, and he was a god of song, and he had this grandson, Adam Guettel, and Adam Guettel is a god damn genius, and has, sadly, written so few masterpieces for us to enjoy. (is it bc he and his muse Kelli O’Hara broke up? Who’s to say). But he gave us this opus, a neoromantic musical callback to his ancestor’s work, about an american woman and her daughter that travel to Florence on vacation, and they get swept up in the city, and ROMANCE. 

Clara wanders the Uffizi Gallery, musing about humanity and thinking about the boy who saved her hat from being blown away

Much More — The Fantasticks

It’s the world’s longest running musical ever, so it must be doing something right! It’s an inverse Romeo and Juliet. Two fathers pretend to feud for years, to reverse psychology their children into falling in love. There’s also this spanish bandit? Idk. the fathers go a bit overboard with the plot and some strife happens, but there’s a happy ending!

The sheltered, but ambitious dreamer Luisa sings about living a grand life. She’s a little….out there, in a way that reminds me of baby blair of the early seasons. “Please god please don’t let me be normal!”

No One Else — Natasha, Pierre, and the Great Comet of 1812

Dave Malloy knew that, unlike Les Mis, the only way to get away with a War and Peace: The Musical musical was to zero in on only one section. Galaxy brained. And you just KNOW that Blair Waldorf would be so so so into playing Natasha Rostova. (Pippa Soo leads with the belt in the recording, bc she’s amazing at it, but I see Blair adding her own Kelli O’Hara mix to it).

This has become thee ingenue song of contemporary lit. Natasha Rostova, dreamer and romantic, waits and waits and waits in Moscow for her fiance Andrey to return from the war. 

Just You Wait — My Fair Lady

Blair would ever-so-deftly do a Pygmalion/Taming of the Shrew set for her recital. I just know she would. 

Eliza Doolittle, fed up with her tutor Henry Higgins’ bullshit, is determined to prove him wrong. She shall be a lady, and show him the fuck UP.

I Hate Men — Kiss Me, Kate

A play within a play! Lilli Vanessi is playing Katherine in a new musical of Taming of the Shrew, which forces her to work with her ex. She is Not Amused. 

Show Me — My Fair Lady

Another song where Eliza Doolittle has HAD it. This time with young Freddy, whose more a words than actions guy. 

Everybody Loves Louis — Sunday in the Park with George

Sondheim wrote a whole-ass musical based on a painting and it is a goddamn masterpiece! Plus like, the name in the song, it was too perfect to pass up. 

Famous (not yet) painter, George Seuraut’s love interest Dot (I know lmao), compares the absentminded George to the attentive baker Louis, and makes her choice. 

Getting Married Today — Company

Next in her Sondheim set, from the classic introspective comedy on adulthood and adult relationships. Patter song of all time. Also so very close to blair’s show arc that I HAD to do it. 

Amy gets a mad case of cold feet right before walking down the aisle to marry Paul. 

Raunchy — 110 in the Shade

From the dream team that gave us the Fantasticks: this bop

Lizzie, a lovely, headstrong spinster, spry of wit and sharp of tongue, day dreams about stepping out of her comfort zone, and being the center of attention. 

Sooner or Later — Dick Tracy

Not technically a musical, Sondheim wrote this for the 90s movie Dick Tracy & Madonna. The definitive femme fatale ballad. 

Breathless Mahoney—I swear to god that’s the character’s name—is a nightclub singer and mobster girlfriend and should probs be in witness protection. She sings this song instead. 

Its Gotta Be Bad to Be Good

A cabaret song by Lenny Bernstein. I like this recording bc it’s the right balance of schmultzy and technical. And it fits how I imagine Blair would sing it. (like the float at the end? So very Blair.)

Circus

Again, not from a show, Drew Gasparini is a fabulous composer, but as of right now, most of his releases are great concepts for shows that haven’t been on a major stage. Maybe if we stopped all this jukebox nonsense but that’s none of my business

Anyways, I love this song. He really did write Victoria Pedretti in You, the Song, before You was even a thing. It’s that right level of batshit insane that Blair inhabits so well, but rarely really shows. I can see the gang convincing her to program this because it plays to a different facet of her personality than all the ingenue stuff. And that facet is: terrifying. 

Honey Bun — South Pacific

Blair was born to sing all the R&H girls. Nellie I think is one where her and Serena’s types and strengths overlap, which of course is rich with story opportunity!

The nurses and GIs at this WWII base put on a Follies production of their own for some holiday cheer. Nellie closes out the show with this number. Idk if they meant for it to come off so gay, but I aint mad about it. 

People Will Say We’re in Love (duet w/ Dan) — Oklahoma!

This was a late addition, but when I thought of it I couldn’t NOT. It’s about the Plausible Deniability™ 

In a small cowtown (where a certain blogger went to preschool winkwonk) Laurey and Curly insist that they do not like each other! Nope!

What Do You Call A Man Like That? — The Bridges of Madison County

Mmmm okay so, this is one of my favorite musicals ever, and it may just have to do with the time in my life that I got into it, but I think it is truly underrated and beautiful and really the only JRB that’s worth the hype of his name (she says even though there is a L5Y playlist on Spotify that she made herself). It’s based off the novel and the film (starring Meryl Streep!) and it combines the lady country heartland style of middle america with big sweeping italian romanticism, giving us this golden age in the 21st century sound and we didn’t appreciate it enough!!!!

(maybe I only like it because Kelli O’Hara sings it and Steven Pasquale is a DILF, idc. I’m right.)

Francesca, an Italian war wife who moved to Iowa after marrying an american GI, is now a housewife with two teenage kids. Her husband and kids go away for a farmer’s convention (county fair), and while they’re away, she runs into and falls for Robert, a Nat Geo photographer who, again, is a hunk. She sings this song after their first meeting and trip to the famous covered bridge. “He’s so sincere, what the fuck is up with that?” daircore

The Gentleman Is a Dope — Allegro

Daircore

Kind of an oddball complicated flop for R&H, but it brought us this song, so it’s a winner. Emily, Dr. Joseph Taylor Jr.’s colleague, thinks he’s an idiot [affectionate].

If You Want Me — Once

A departure from the old world mt that’s dominated this playlist, but I think, in a world of Blair, consummate theater kid, who absolutely stuck with piano because it suited her ambitious end to stardom, would be really good at this role. Is it because I think Meester and Milioti have similar voices and vibes? Maybe. But the contemporary music in this isn’t like 21st century MT. it’s folk and indie, and I think Blair could inhabit that very well. And she’s got the range for this vocalizing

Brought together by music, a Girl in Dublin plays another song written by some Guy, hinting that she’s begun to fall for him. even though she’s married 

The Hill — Once

All of the above. And just think about her sitting at the piano and singing this, like — 

It’s The Number, the italicized “oh” number. 

The Man that Got Away — A Star is Born (1954)

The second film in a legendary saga. Really a vehicle for Judy to make us FEEL things. Like with this number. You may recognize it from the other GG. 

La Vie en Rose — as performed by Ute Lemper

You know she would. 

What Good Would the Moon Be? — Street Scene

The Weil Foundation owes me money for talking up this show, but honestly, it’s so good. At least, the half-hour chunk I’ve shoehorned into these playlists is. 

Rose’s skeazy boss insists that he could make her a star, but she elegantly and eloquently shuts him down with this cavatina

Simple Little Things — 110 in the Shade

It’s about the pure and simple love, babes!

In a deep philosophical discussion with the handsome stranger that’s new in town, Lizzie defends her own dreams

When Did I Fall in Love? — Fiorello

I may have gone overboard with the schmulz in this playlist, but like, it’s Blair, so…

Thea LaGuardia, as her husband Fiorello runs for mayor of NYC in 1929, is shocked to discover she’s actually in love with the guy. 

Time After Time — Cyndi Lauper (as performed by Morgan James and Doug Wamble)

guitar!Dan agenda strikes again.

[ldreamofgenie]

Angel of Music

dano!riddler x opera singer!reader

Summary: Edward would do anything to hear his angel sing once more.

Warnings: stalking, attempted murder (not in detail, just implied) not proof read, very poor understanding of opera, implied afab reader, reader is also barely in this lol, my first fic so it’s a little rough but i’m ready to learn !

Edward read in the Gotham Times that you had a pollen allergy. Please don’t let hydrangeas have pollen.

He read in the Opera Now that your favorite color was pink. So, he asked for pink ones.

He read in the GothamOpera subreddit that you had studied at the Oberlin Conservatory of Music in Ohio. That you were a soprano. That Gotham was likely your first stop on your road to the MET.

He read in the Oberlin Alumni Magazine that you would be replacing Lucille Raoul, the current principal performer, following a tragic career ending accident. After months of understudying, mentorship, and participating in company, you were finally a principal performer.

He read on your Instagram that tonight was your first night.

The Gotham Opera House was performing Profokiev’s War and Peace. Edward had prayed that you’d be cast as the graceful ingénue Natasha Rostova. After hearing you sing at the Gotham Opera’s Spring Showcase, he was permanently enchanted by your spell. You sang Ave Maria. That same night, he began his plans for change in Gotham. Your voice was his epiphany.

He’s been following you ever since.

But no. To his dismay, Lucille Raoul was cast as Natasha. But to Lucille’s demise, Edward always had a plan.

He read in the Gotham Times that Lucille’s throat had been slit due to an armed robbery. She wasn’t dead or anything, but her career surely was. Just shy of a week before her first performance of the season as Natasha Rostova. Tragic.

Edward was jittery in his seat, the cloth fibers prodded into his back as he bounced around. This is the night he’s been waiting for forever. He needed to hear you again, your voice was better than any narcotic out there. He owed his entire world to you.

The curtains began to rise. It was excruciating how tedious the process was. He wish he could jump up the stage and unwind them himself. All so he could hear your voice faster. See your beauty in all his glory.

Then, there you were. His frantic breathing had ceased. Heaven had opened up and revealed to him his angel of music.

You stood on a platform in front of a black backdrop littered with flickering stars. Your collarbone created a stark contrast with the baby pink regency wear they had you dressed in The fake moonlight they created lit you up as you stood against it. It was almost ironic that you began to sing about the beauties of a garden brightened by the moon, because Edward couldn’t take his eyes off you to see it.

Your angelic voice fluttered until to his ears; every note wrapping a reassuring hug around his brain, making his throat clinch with unimaginable melancholy. Months of agonizing yearning have come to a halt. He could see you, and hear you, and feel the vibrations that your sound created in his soul.

Then, almost too quick for Edward to notice, your eyes briefly faltered from your cast mate right to him in the front row.

His cheeks burnt at the contact, but his heart was riveting. He had yet another epiphany: Eros had come down and cast a spell on you in that sliver of a moment to bestow your eyes upon him. You sang about love and looked directly to him. You were practically calling for him. Begging for him.

Edward had come to realize in that moment that you two were made for each other. You were his moonlight, he was your garden. A match made by the gods themselves.

The first scene was complete and met with a standing ovation. Edward was the first to stand up and last to sit down. He would stand and clap for you for eternity if it was necessary. You were the epitome of love and talent blessed by the muses. It was almost impossible for him to fathom that you were real.

Edward made sure he clapped louder than anyone in that crowd for the rest of the night. That rush of dopamine your glance gave him was invigorating. Maybe if he was loud enough, you would look over again.

At the end of the performance, he threw the hydrangeas on stage along with a riddle he had picked up during one of his nightly escapades while everyone was throwing their flowers during the bows.

Saturday morning, Edward read in the Gotham Times a review of the performance. On the cover you sat in your dressing room teary eyed with a bouquet of hydrangeas in one hand and a ripped opened greeting card in the other.

[amantesmultorum]

Interaction Call

By liking this permanent interaction call you are giving me permission to invade your inbox, and notifications to send you memes and starters from muse Natasha Rostova, whenever I may like. You may also reply to this if, you have multiple muses, if there is only certain muses of yours that you wish for my muse to interact with.

[withswagger-blog]

( ooc ! ): tag dump !

[psychewrote]

❔

marsali fraser and lizzie wemyss for murtagh fraser

kitty shcherbatskaya for hélène bezukhova and / or natasha rostova

philippa featherington for daphne bridgerton and / or lady danbury

mimi marquez for roger davis

send ❔ and i’ll list a couple muses that i’d like to throw at yours !

[carinasfm]

*  mona  lisa  saperstein  vc  *  i’m  so  friggin  excited  right  now  ,  i  could  crap  my  pants  !  hi  y’all  ya  girl  mae  (  21+  +  she  /  her  +  est  )  is  here  with  her  dramatic  daughter  carina  !  she’s  the  broadway  actress  you  didn’t  ask  for  ,  yet  here  she  fucking  is  !  i’m  so  excited  to  play  her  ,  i’ve  never  gotten  to  play  her  before  +  my  muse  is  Inspired™  !  you  can  hit  me  up  for  plots  here  or  on  discord  !  my  discord  is  𝑑𝑜𝑛'𝑡  𝑏𝑒  𝖘𝖚𝖘𝖕𝖎𝖈𝖎𝖔𝖚𝖘#4904  (  can  u  tell  i  love  mona  lisa  +  parks  and  recs  ?  cause  i  do  )  hit  that  little  heart  button  so  i  can  annoy  your  cute  ass  ,  okie  ?  thankssssssss !!

new  york’s  very  own  𝒄𝒂𝒓𝒊𝒏𝒂  𝒋𝒂𝒄𝒊𝒏𝒕𝒐  was  spotted  on  broadway  street  in  𝒸𝒽𝓁𝑜𝑒́  𝓈𝓊𝓈𝒶𝓃𝒶  𝒷𝑜𝑜𝓉𝓈  .  your  resemblance  to  𝒔𝒆𝒍𝒆𝒏𝒂  𝒈𝒐𝒎𝒆𝒛  is  unreal  .  according  to  tmz  ,  you  just  had  your  𝟸𝟺ᵗʰ  birthday  bash  .  while  living  in  nyc  ,  you’ve  been  labeled  as  being  𝒽𝒾𝓈𝓉𝓇𝒾𝑜𝓃𝒾𝒸  ,  but  also  𝓅𝒶𝓈𝓈𝒾𝑜𝓃𝒶𝓉𝑒  .  i  guess  being  a  𝒍𝒆𝒐  explains  that  .  3  things  that  would  paint  a  better  picture  of  you  would  be  𝓈𝓉𝒶𝓃𝒹𝒾𝓃𝑔  𝒸𝑒𝓃𝓉𝑒𝓇  𝓈𝓉𝒶𝑔𝑒  𝒾𝓃  𝓉𝒽𝑒  𝓈𝓅𝑜𝓉𝓁𝒾𝑔𝒽𝓉  ,  𝑒𝓂𝓅𝓉𝓎  𝒷𝑜𝓉𝓉𝓁𝑒𝓈  𝑜𝒻  𝑒𝓍𝓅𝑒𝓃𝓈𝒾𝓋𝑒  𝓇𝑒𝒹  𝓌𝒾𝓃𝑒  &  𝓉𝒶𝒸𝑜  𝓉𝓊𝑒𝓈𝒹𝒶𝓎𝓈  𝑜𝓃  𝓉𝓊𝑒𝓈𝒹𝒶𝓎𝓈  𝒶𝓃𝒹  𝓉𝒽𝓊𝓇𝓈𝒹𝒶𝓎𝓈  .  (  i  was  sexually  assaulted  when  i  was  thirteen  by  my  teacher  )  +  (  cisfemale  +  she  /  her  ) 

𝒕𝒓𝒊𝒈𝒈𝒆𝒓  𝒘𝒂𝒓𝒏𝒊𝒏𝒈  :  pedophilia  +  sexual  assault  

𝒷𝒶𝓈𝒾𝒸𝓈

𝑓𝑢𝑙𝑙  𝑛𝑎𝑚𝑒  :  carina  dulce  jacinto 𝑛𝑖𝑐𝑘𝑛𝑎𝑚𝑒𝑠  :  cari  ,  rinny  ,  cj  ,  jace  (  ha  -  say  ) 𝑑𝑎𝑡𝑒  𝑜𝑓  𝑏𝑖𝑟𝑡𝘩  +  𝑎𝑔𝑒  :  august  12th  ,  1996  +  24 𝑎𝑠𝑡𝑟𝑜𝑙𝑜𝑔𝑖𝑐𝑎𝑙  𝑠𝑖𝑔𝑛  :  leo 𝑔𝑒𝑛𝑑𝑒𝑟  +  𝑝𝑟𝑜𝑛𝑜𝑢𝑛𝑠  :  cisgender  female  +  she  /  her 𝑠𝑒𝑥𝑢𝑎𝑙  +  𝑟𝑜𝑚𝑎𝑛𝑡𝑖𝑐  𝑜𝑟𝑖𝑒𝑛𝑡𝑎𝑡𝑖𝑜𝑛  :  pansexual  +  panromantic 𝑒𝑡𝘩𝑛𝑖𝑐𝑖𝑡𝑦  :  mexican 𝑛𝑎𝑡𝑖𝑜𝑛𝑎𝑙𝑖𝑡𝑦  :  american 𝑚𝑜𝑡𝘩𝑒𝑟  +  𝑓𝑎𝑡𝘩𝑒𝑟  :  claudia  jacinto  +  mateo  trevino 𝑝𝑙𝑎𝑐𝑒  𝑜𝑓  𝑏𝑖𝑟𝑡𝘩  :  phoenix  ,  arizona 𝑝𝑙𝑎𝑐𝑒  𝑜𝑓  𝑟𝑒𝑠𝑖𝑑𝑒𝑛𝑐𝑒  :  manhattan  ,  new  york 𝑜𝑐𝑐𝑢𝑝𝑎𝑡𝑖𝑜𝑛  :  eurydice  in  hadestown  on  broadway 𝑎𝑐𝑡𝑖𝑛𝑔  /  𝑠𝑖𝑛𝑔𝑖𝑛𝑔  𝑖𝑛𝑠𝑝𝑜  :  phillipa  soo  ,  taylor  louderman  ,  eva  noblezada  +  anna  kendrick 𝑙𝑎𝑛𝑔𝑢𝑎𝑔𝑒𝑠  𝑠𝑝𝑜𝑘𝑒𝑛  :  english  (  primary  )  ,  spanish  (  secondary  )  ,  italian  +  french  𝑓𝑙𝑎𝑡𝑡𝑒𝑟𝑖𝑛𝑔  :  passionate  ,  eloquent  ,  captivating  ,  focused  ,  observant  ,  confident  ,  intuitive  +  witty 𝑢𝑛𝑓𝑙𝑎𝑡𝑡𝑒𝑟𝑖𝑛𝑔  :  historic  ,  critical  ,  indulgent  ,  opinionated  ,  mercurial  ,  candid  ,  pretentious  +  realistic 𝑑𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑚  :  to  win  a  tony  for  best  performance  by  a  leading  actress  in  a  musical  

𝒷𝒶𝒸𝓀𝑔𝓇𝑜𝓊𝓃𝒹

carina  was  born  to  a  young  single  mother  in  phoenix  ,  az  

her  father  high  tailed  it  out  of  the  picture  once  he  found  out  carina  was  on  the  way

carina’s  mother  had  big  dreams  of  becoming  a  hollywood  actress ,  wanting  to  

carina’s  mother  was  the  one  that  pushed  her  daughter  into  acting  ,  signing  her  up  for  local  commercials  +  the  likes  until  she  gained  some  traction  as  a  popular  baby/toddler  in  commercials

after  a  few  years  of  continuing  on  with  commercials  carina  finally  took  a  break  when  it  was  interfering  with  school  ,  much  to  her  mother’s  dismay

but  still  carina  had  the  acting  bug  +  wanted  to  do  community  theater  in  her  free  time

when  she  wasn’t  preparing  for  play  ,  she’d  make  one  up  herself  +  act  it  out  for  her  mother  if  she’d  let  her  ,  if  not  she’d  just  rehearse  by  herself  until  she  memorized  all  the  lines  she  wrote

this  continued  into  middle  school  ,  where  she  became  “  that  girl  ”  the  theater  girl

she  didn’t  mind  the  label  ,  in  fact  she  took  advantage  of  it  +  became  THE  theater  girl  of  her  school

the  english  teacher  that  was  also  the  theater  teacher  praised  her  for  her  work  +  they  grew  to  have  a  very  close  relationship

he  was  a  father  figure  that  she  never  had

until  he  wasn’t

𝒕𝒓𝒊𝒈𝒈𝒆𝒓  𝒘𝒂𝒓𝒏𝒊𝒏𝒈

mr. guzman  saw  how  alone  carina  was  +  while  for  a  time  he  was  an  authority  figure  that  helped  her  ,  he  soon  became  so  much  more

it  started  with  a  ride  home  after  theater  practice  ,  the  young  tween  had  called  her  mother  to  no  avail  ,  but  she  hadn’t  picked  up  +  home  was  a  two  mile  walk  .  doable  ,  but  mr.  guzman  saw  she  was  in  need  +  offered  her  a  ride

in  the  car  it  was  really  the  first  time  that  carina  had  been  alone  with  mr.  guzman  in  an  enclosed  space  ,  if  they  were  alone  it  was  usually  on  the  stage

the  drive  was  pleasant  ,  they  made  small  talk  +  he  asked  her  how  eighth  grade  was  going  ,  she  was  in  seventh  when  she  had  him  as  her  teacher

when  they  finally  pulled  into  her  driveway  she  thanked  him  +  started  to  get  out  but  his  hand  grabbed  a  little  above  her  knee  +  soon  it  was  moving  its  way  up  her  thigh

only  13  +  dubbed  as  “  the  theater  girl  ”  by  her  peers  she  never  had  any  romantic  or  sexual experience  ,  so  she  froze  unsure  of  what  to  do  or  say

that  first  night  it  ended  with  a  soft  pat  on  the  thigh  before  she  was  able  to  run  out  the  door

but  soon  the  rides  were  a  regular  occurrence  +  his  hand  didn’t  stop  at  her  thigh

after  months  of  this  continuing  on  carina  lost  her  love  +  passion  for  theater

𝒆𝒏𝒅  𝒐𝒇  𝒕𝒓𝒊𝒈𝒈𝒆𝒓  𝒘𝒂𝒓𝒏𝒊𝒏𝒈

she  quit  theater  +  became  a  recluse  all  the  way  up  until  junior  year  of  high  school

she  again  grew  close  to  a  teacher  ,  this  time  a  female  teacher  ,  her  us  government  teacher  that  often  brought  up  difficult  subjects  for  the  students  to  discuss

after  hearing  +  reading  about  different  hard  topics  ,  carina  finally  told  mrs.  reyes  what  had  happened  to  her back  in  middle  school

it  was  the  first  time  that  she  had  ever  told  anyone  what  had  happened  to  her  +  though  mrs.  reyes  pushed  ,  carina  didn’t  report  or  tell  anyone  else

but  with  mrs.  reyes  by  her  side  her  senior  year  she  got  back  into  theater  .  falling  back  in  love  with  the  thing  that  held  a  lot  of  emotions  for  her

after  graduation  carina  was  all  set  to  attend  nyu  with  a  double  major  in  performing  arts  as  well  as  film  +  media  production

she  moved  to  new  york  early  ,  wanting  to  get  a  head  start  on  moving  in  +  earning  some  cash  before  classes  started

while  she  was  working  as  a  barista  she  overheard  director  talking  about  auditions  for  an  off  broadway  play  +  this  grabbed  carina’s  attention

she  quickly  introduced  herself  +  snagged  an  audition  ,  she  landed  a  feature  role 

this  was  the  beginning  of  her  broadway  career  at  the  mere  age  of  17  ,  something  she  had  always  dreamed  of  

her  role  in  the  off  broadway  play  took  her  into  the  middle  of  october  +  in  september  she  was  already  auditioning  for  roles  in  a  broadway  play  while  she  attended  nyu

she  soon  gained  traction  ,  directors  were  discussing  her  performances  ,  even  minor  roles  ,  on  broadway

carina  still  continued  to  take  classes  at  nyu  but  her  focus  had  shifted  from  getting  a  degree  to  landing  a  leading  role  on  broadway

when  she  was  nineteen  her  dreams  came  true  ,  she  got  the  lead  role  as  eliza  in  hamilton  

from  that  role  she  sky  rocketed  to  fame  ,  she  performed  for  the  president  ,  beyonce  ,  oprah  ,  kristin  chenoweth  ,  meryl  streep  +  many  more

carina  was  barely  able  to  handle  how  fast  her  fame  came  ,  she  still  thought  of  herself  as  the  small  town  girl  from  a  working  class  home  with  a  young  single  mom

because  of  how  much  attention  hamilton  was  receiving  ,  carina  had  to  take  a  step  back  from  school 

she  took  a  leave  of  absence  ,  vowing  that  she  would  be  back  +  while  she’s  taken  some  classes  here  +  there  she  still hasn’t  gone  back  fully  due   to  her  continued  success  on  broadway

from  2016  -  2017  she  was  cast  as  sonya rostova  in  natasha  ,  pierre  +  the  great  comet  of  1812

in  2018  carina  became  regina  george  in  mean  girls

and  in  2019  she  claimed  the  role  of  eurydice  in  hadestown

new  york  ,  specifically  the  upper  west  side  ,  has  become  carina’s  home

𝒸𝑜𝓃𝓃𝑒𝒸𝓉𝒾𝑜𝓃𝓈

(  𝒓𝒊𝒅𝒆  𝒐𝒓  𝒅𝒊𝒆  )  once  the  two  met  they  were  inseparable  .  without  siblings  carina  thinks  of  them  as  her  own  family  .  she’ll  do  anything  for  them  +  hopefully  vice  versa  ! 

(  𝒓𝒐𝒐𝒎𝒎𝒂𝒕𝒆  )  the  person  carina  moved  in  with  when  she  started  out  in  new  york  .  they  could  still  be  close  or  they  could  not  talk  at  all  .

(  𝒕𝒉𝒆  𝒄𝒐𝒓𝒓𝒖���𝒕𝒐𝒓  )  they  see  carina  +  they  see  gullible  ,  gullible  ,  gullible  .  they’ll  do  anything  to  manipulate  carina  to  get  something  for  themselves  .

(  𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒂𝒕𝒆𝒓  𝒃𝒖𝒅𝒅𝒊𝒆𝒔  )  anyone  that  carina  has  worked  with  on  broadway  .

(  𝒅𝒊𝒓𝒆𝒄𝒕𝒐𝒓  )  someone  that  carina  has  worked  closely  with  to  ensure  an  honest  +  authentic  performance  .