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It's amazing how quickly people can perceive and pick up on other people's trauma but cannot do it for themselves because of how we cope, we can twist our reality into something more manageable for years, and then one day it hits.
#there's plenty of traumatic things that I've experienced that I've downplayed for my sanity and so i can continue my life#and randomly all the work I've done to ignore it ceases to matter because it hits with full clarity and it takes my breath away#and wonder if I'll ever be able to breathe again and i will I'll keep moving because i have to if not for myself - for others#until the next thing hits and then I'll be knocked down again and i have to teach myself how to move on again#this happens so often and i don't know if I'm relieved that no one seems to notice or worried how normal it is and how i can present myself#idk#just watching shows recently#criminal minds esp and thinking about the people who've hurt me#and how many of them i just didnt process - like I've been kidnapped before#multiple times last year#but didn't perceive it as exactly that bc i wasn't physically forced but was with my situation#and while i wasn't ever hit or tied up - i wasn't able to get up and leave#and had to endure whatever they decided#and a lot of it was food scarcity and lack of electricity#and refusal to help us while they played a savior role while purposely preventing us from getting out of the situation#i just don't understand the cruelty in people to do that to supposed family and kids nonetheless#like sure i was an adult but how are you going to do that to kids no older than ten?#just stuck thinking about these things
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got an ipad so i had to draw my son in his many positions of rest
#patches#domestic shorthair#digital art#things i make#catblr#i got an ipad last year but took it back because my wacom had started working#well between then and recently the wacom has made decisions to do all but work#making it where i would have to go deep into the guts of my computer to delete every associated file and reinstall the driver#just to get it to work. happened multiple times and support was like ‘weird. just use this old update indefinitely’ so like. that isnt ideal#so i got an ipad (again)
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#selfie bee#good evening friends!! how are you doing! C:#I'm very very sleepy I got a new ikea office chair and I build it all myself#I think it went okay! I don't think I pulled the back screw tight enough and now the back is a bit loose#I can probably fix it but I can also ignore it for the next 18 years#thats how long the old chair held up!! in germany it could now drink vodka and drive a car!!#not at the same time that is illegal! not at the same time!! (❁´▽`❁)*✲゚*#but the day is not over yet my uncle asked me for a big art quest and I do not want to disappoint#he wants a muppet tattoo and asked me to draw it#my uncle has started to get tattoos a few months ago#as far as I know he has now gotten 3 note clefs 3 stars a flower and multiple birds#he also started getting piercings but so far I managed not to know exactly where#I think tattoos are super cool (´。・v・。`) I wish I had a good idea for a tattoo but the last time I was very sure about getting a tattoo#it was heath ledgers face as the joker#at that point I was 12 and would not see the actual movie for two more years#a muppet tattoo is a way better idea!! he asked for the count van count! that is also one of my top 3 muppets ₍՞◌′ᵕ‵ू◌₎♡#I always thought I knew a lot about muppet lore but since I started looking up muppet pictures I think there are still a lot of secrets#can the muppets from the Sesame Street actually leave the Sesame Street?#I think Kermit is both on the Muppet Show and on Sesame Street but he is also like the boss muppet#he might have special abilities#I hope you're having a good day friends!! C:#I think I'll post a Sherlock comic later this week#miss you!! ♥♥♥
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Another year, Another lesbian pride gown moment🌸
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#deliart#pride 2024#jjba#jojo's bizarre adventure#jolyne cujoh#hermes costello#jolymes#stone ocean#I MADE IT . LAST DAY BUT I MANAGED TO FINISH IT BEFORE JUNE ENDED#This artwork file ended up with well over 500 layers#i would check the specifics but im not gonna open that thing and wait for a solid 3 mins for it to load LMAO#there are soo many things i wanna change and do differently but its the last day of pride month so times up!#wait i had to change a thing so i opened the clip file and we were on 546 layers not counting differently named ones#like copied layers. of which there are multiple. “layer 133 copy 2 copy 1”. its bad. im NOT gonna merge layers tho.#either way. i wanted the dress fabric layers to have a bit of a butterfly wing feel but i got a little sidelined#maybe ill make a more direct version next year?
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team fortress 2 finally getting rid of the bots after 5 years
work on the team fortress 2 comic continuing after 7+ years
half life 3 development looking more likely than ever with legitimate code, file, and voicework leaks referencing a new non-VR single-player game from valve featuring a HEV suit wearing protagonist and Xen creatures and concepts
shoutout to the valve fan that found the genie lamp. you a real one
#liz blogs#valve#team fortress 2#tf2#half life#half life 3#what did i say. what did i fucking say.#once again the impossible becomes commonplace#valve exists as a company to walk into the gaming industry. slap their dicks on the table. and yell THIS IS HOW ITS DONE#and the gaming industry has never been in a more sorry state than it is now. maybe second only to the 80s i think. something something ET#in b4 its called Half Life Xen as all the files reference ''hlx''. hl3 fakeout. but its another half life game.#half life 3 has been ''made'' multiple times in various states but its never been up to standards. whatever this project is though sounds l#like its very far in development. maybe they didnt give up this time#ive never been closer in my life to actually saying half life 3 confirmed. its not confirmed but its looking really good for once#crazy year to be a valve fan i'll tell you what#its only the actual objective most anticipated game of all time. no biggie#edit - added a link for the comic news for those who dont know. and the bot bans havent been announced in one place anywhere#but you can literally just look it up on youtube or twitter. valve has been mass-banning bots for the last month. fixtf2 worked
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My less popular opinion (and what I believe to be implied by the art in Lost Days) is that rather than waking up in a fully grown body Jason didn’t actually complete his puberty until after his Lazarus pit dip while he was on his murder tour. Imagine you’re tied up in a basement in Berlin getting interrogated by a teenager and his voice is cracking the entire time and if you laugh he’s going to shoot you
#Late puberty Jason truthers rise#Egon calling up Talia like ‘did you send me a middle schooler what is this’. ‘He’s technically high school aged actually’#he would’ve been like 18 when he finally regained consciousness but the way he’s drawn could easily be mistaken for 15#I know people love the body dysmorphia angst of Jason waking up big but I offer you this: Jason wakes up looking basically the same to a#world that has moved on without him and is unrecognizable. His death/injuries stunted him he existed for years in a state of suspension#while the world passed him by. He was on pause while everyone kept moving on and he didn’t get unpaused until the Lazarus pit and he has#to scramble to catch up. He’s actually 18 but the last thing he remembers is being 15 and his body reflects this state#and then once his mind is finally back online puberty hits him like a truck. Just look at the difference between how Jason is drawn#immediately after his dip in the Lazarus pit vs the end of lost days when his training arc is over#It implies it could’ve been multiple years but in order to fit with the timeline of other comics I personally don’t think it#would’ve been that long. I think he just sprouted up like a weed#Jason Todd#dc#I think Jason is technically still growing by the time he’s red hood. In my personal mindscape he doesn’t reach his peak buffness/height#he’s like 21 and he’s 19 in utrh#Sorry for my 1538283th post about red hood lost days I’m obsessed with his little fucked up coming of age story#Red hood lost days
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En server is getting Glorious Masquerade and I am also hoping the be cool line is there—-we are also somehow getting the SSR Grim Platinum Jacket for Disneys 100th (which makes me hope they will add Grim to the alchemy lesson rotation because otherwise nobody will be able to unlock the groovy since there’s not stamp quests to get the little lollipop)
AH HECK I forgot Platinum Grim was also this month! dangit I need to reprioritize everything now. gotta save some keys for the boss in his snazzy little suit!
(I think pre-lab Grim you could just buy his candy for alchemy coins, and that's also what they're doing for Rollo, so that's probably what they'll do! someone correct me if I'm remembering wrong though)
#art#twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland spoilers#kind of maybe i guess?#sorry mal i love your little tricorn cap but i'm not waiting another 100 years for an anniversary grim rerun#this does make me wonder again what they're going to do for the fourth year anniversary#unless they go back and give him a tiny little sports uniform?#twst devs being like 'aw heck. aw no. we didn't think it would last this long. uhhhhhhh (draws grim in a hot dog suit) is this anything'#and who's going to show up to his party. when are we gonna get to see some fourth-years huh.#(seriously you've brought up the fourth-years multiple times now and yet refused to show us any. twst c'mon.)
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There's this face Astarion makes sometimes and I'm not entirely sure what emotion he's trying to convey but he fails at it regardless. ID in alt text
#astarion ancunin#baldur's gate 3#bg3#bg3 astarion#for context this screenshot was taken by me after you first meet gandrel#so this specific instance is ''i'm trying not to look like a vampire and i'm about to say something racist''#but he makes this face multiple times. each time more confusing than the last#this is what not having a reflection for 200 years does to a man.
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Howdy My Beloved
(I’m so down bad for him it’s horrifying)
LMAOOO mostly mutual howdy love
speaking of howdy iv been seein cowboy/Wild West aus for welcome home and I decided to dip my toes in it a lil while I was hyper KXHDGDH
cw poorly drawn guns and messy sketches
I was just gunna make Home a sheriff’s buildin’, but I thought it would be cooler if he was a big bad spooki
also howdy’s lil bugdega is both a convenient store and a restaurant/bar (same building, all shopping stuff at the front while the restaurant is in the back) howdy can make a mean beef n cheddar KDHHFH
#Welcome home#welcome home howdy#welcome home wally#welcome home barnaby#welcome home home#howdy pillar#wally darling#barnaby b beagle#yeehaw#Also Funfact#Iv been gettin a lot of people asking me how I draw so much in such lil time#It happened last year and now this year JDHDHDJ#But I have a thing where if I get extremely hyper focused on something I basically draw-stim#It’s a huge itch that I gotta draw SOMETHING#And if I don’t it plagues me#Up side to it I consistently post like twice a day with multiple doodles and I don’t get bored by it#Downside I wanna play monster hunter so bAD BUT MY BRAIN WONT L E T M E#Thankfully my sketching has gotten a lot faster throughout the years so I’m able to put all my dum lil ideas down#And still have time to play games I wanna play and get stuff done
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SUMMARY: idia shroud celebrates your birthday!!
COMMENTS: a birthday present for @twstchatterbox the MOON to my SUN the DYNAMIC to my DUO the BLACK CAT to my GOLDEN RETRIEVER!!!! i love you lots and lots i am so glad we are friends i am squeezing you so tight from the other side of the world.
i wanted to keep this a surprise and i HOPE I SURPRISED YOU i hope you didnt see this coming sjdjdsjdj you have given me so many gifts from your doodles of me to your doodles of US to all the interests you've shared with me to looking out for me all this time AND EVEN STAYING UP LATE TO TALK TO ME?? I AM SO SORRY FOR YOUR SLEEP SCHEDULE
i hope you have the best birthday ever you deserve so much so take this awkward gamer boy. you know your lore. i know your lore. i tried to incorporate it and im sure only you will understand it but thats the point isnt it?
THIS IS GOING ON TOO LONG. I SHOULD HAVE MADE THIS A SEPARATE POST. ANYWAYS. GO READ IT I LOVE YOU
You cross your arms over your chest, amused as the blue package floats silently over to you. It stops right in front of you and a flickering screen loads from a small projector propped on the top of the box.
accept quest?
yes. no.
It’s ridiculous of him to put a no option. You press the yes option and a cheerful jingle rings from the speakers as the package drops at your feet. Bending over, you scoop it into your arms, a delicate smile on your face. You can feel quite a few gazes on your back but you opt to ignore them, walking out of your dorm and towards the source of your gift.
Ever since the events of winter break, you’d become far more accustomed to the halls of Ignihyde. The students seem to have grown more accustomed to you in turn, although some still scamper away from you.
There was only so much that could be done, you think. Besides, your presence here was not because of them. You were here for their Housewarden.
As you reached his door, you wasted no time reaching out to knock. Each tap of your knuckles against his door was crisp and loud, just in case he was wearing his headphones. The corners of your lips lift into a smile as you hear him shuffling around, no doubt checking up on his room to make sure it’s just the normal amount of messy but not too messy lest you get suspicious that he’s a slob or that he cleaned just for you.
You already know he did, though.
“Are you going to keep me waiting?” you call out teasingly, tapping your foot on the polished floors.
The door creaks open slowly, and the soft pink glow of Idia's hair lights up his face. Your heart takes a tumble in your chest.
“Hi.” you breathe, “I wanted to open your gift with you.”
Idia squeaks and opens the door to let you inside, rocking back and forth on his heels.
“Um, okay. Thanks.” he says, mumbling each word as if he isn’t sure what he’s saying at all, “You, uh, didn’t have to do that.”
“But I want to.” you refute, and you both understand what would have come after that.
So let me do this.
“Okay.” he jams his hands into his pocket and shrugs, always so awkward around you but so obvious, “I hope you like it.”
“I’ll love it.” you reassure him.
After all, a heart as kind as Idia Shroud’s wouldn’t pick anything but the best.
#auburn's fics <3#rubia <3#twisted wonderland#twst#disney twst#disney twisted wonderland#idia shroud#idia shroud x reader#idia x reader#twst idia#twst wonderland#idia shroud fluff#idia fluff#RUBAI WOULD YOU BELIEVE ME IF I SSAID I CHECKED MULTIPLE TIMES TO MAKE SURE I HAD THE DATE RIGHT#I KEPT. THINKING JUNE 20TH JUNE 20TH JUNE 20TH SINCE LAST WEEK#BUT WHAT IF YOUR BIRTHDAY CHANGED FROM LAST YEAR????#I DONT KNOW DID IT CHANGE#AM I EARLY?? LATE???#THIS IS THE PROBLEM WITH SURPRISES I AM ANXIOUS#currently queueing this for midnight where you are i hope i did my mental math right and that it'll BE midnight#i will never recover if not sobs
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UPDATE: i fully misremembered the 'grammar, stanley' scene - I thought Ford said 'he and I' (which would be wrong, and is what the original post was about) but he said 'him and me' which is fine. imo ford is still wrong though, it's a minuscule detail, and he's still lording his knowledge of academic "Standard English" over his brother who was forced to drop out of high school.
I do stand by that language is mutable and many different cultural and regional dialects use terms, phrases, and grammar that could be considered "incorrect" in "Standard English" and they're all completely valid dialects worthy of respect. Ford doesn't know this because he majored in cryptozoology and probably avoided humanities courses like the plague.
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ok but can we talk about how when ford says 'grammar, stanley' he's fuckin WRONG? 'between me and him, i'm not always the bad twin' is a completely grammatically correct sentence.
like people do say 'between you and i' colloquially, language is mutable and many different cultural and regional dialects use terms, phrases, and grammar that could be considered "incorrect" in "Standard English" and they're all completely valid dialects worthy of respect.
but obviously that's not what Ford's doing. he's specifically referring to "Standard English", to the kind of grammar you use in a textbook. and he's wrong. when used with a pronoun, the preposition "between" takes objective pronouns (me, him) not subjective ones (he, I).
the reason people do this is usually due to hypercorrection - in trying to avoid making one grammar mistake, they make another. someone probably corrected Ford once on switching "he and i" & "me and him", maybe even in a different grammatical context, and he took that correction and applied it to everything, because he's terrified of being wrong and obsessed with appearing intelligent.
like. even if he had been right, it's a shitty thing to say, especially given the context, but i think it says a lot about Ford's character that he was wrong because he was trying too hard to be right.
#said with love#ford is an all-time fav but boy howdy he needs to work on himself#ford pines#stanford pines#stanley pines#stan pines#original post#gravity falls#grammar stanley#oops#sorry yall last time i watched it was multiple years ago
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When Katsuki Bakugo needed saving, Izuku came up with a plan where Todoroki, Iida, and Kirishima went rocketing across the sky to reach him.
When Izuku Midoriya needed saving, it was Katsuki, Todoroki, and Iida who went rocketing across the sky to reach him.
Both times, our Twin Stars decided to set their own needs aside and allow the other’s trusted friend to take the lead in bringing them home. Izuku knew Kirishima was the right choice to get Katsuki away from the league quickly and safely, and Katsuki knew Iida was the better man for the job of catching up to Izuku and bringing him back.
Can we please just take a moment to appreciate the parallels. Please.
#bkdk#bakudeku#mha#bnha#I was rewatching Deku vs Class 1A#(easily in my top three favorite eps btw)#(if not the top)#and the parallels slapped me in the face multiple times#Katsuki really is showing how he’s finally pulling even with Izuku emotionally#he’s been beaten over the head with Save to Win for literally the last two seasons of not longer#and his guilt for how he treated Izuku for years has been eating up at him#he has to bring Izuku back to UA and he has to apologize#but he let’s Iida take the spotlight#he recognizes he’s not the right person for what needs to be done so Katsuki helps Iida get there and let’s himself wait for his turn#he’s working as part of a team#he’s putting Deku’s needs first#and he’s determined to apologize for a lifetime of what he acknowledges at last were very bad and hurtful decisions#and we see it in how his rescue of Izuku parallels Izuku’s rescue of him#i can’t with these two I really can’t#twin stars but actually#wonder duo#happy ending when because I literally cannot accept anything else at this point
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one of my D&D characters, Hailen. I’ve been told he is the most pathetic podcast protagonist guy ever
#I didnt want to finish this painting so i didn’t 🙏#i like it for the most part!#moo’s words#moo’s art#art#After artfight is over i actually think i’m going to stop drawing for a little while#i’m not burnt out or anything#it’s just that i haven’t been able to improve in the way i want to for a very long time#Despite my studies and research#so art isn’t really that fun for me anymore#So this will probably be my last personal piece for a little while!#I’ve been drawing basically every day for 8 years so this is really weird lol#and ive drawn multiple hours a day every day for the past 6 months or so#So i’m going to have a looot of new free time now lol#hopefully i will be able to pick up writinf :)
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I'm on artfight come get me
#My page and characters are still a WIP but I have multiple refs uploaded for all the big ones#Will probably add a few not human characters by the end of the week for the exclusive furry drawers out there.#Also I probably won't start participating until this weekend but I will try my absolute best to revenge anything I get#I found the login info for the account I made and never used LAST year so did not have to remake a 4th time yayyyyy
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I need some prayers. My health is really bad right now, and i might lose my job.
#i had to go home on Saturday because I had a fever and wasn't really able to function#I took Monday off two weeks ago so I could see a doctor about some of the health issues I have#then today I had another COMPLETELY unrelated health problem that sent me home (it's sent me home from my last job on multiple occasions)#i don't know what to do#i keep getting sick#(fevers puking and lung infections)#and i can't kick it#and that's ON TOP of the other chronic issues I've been dealing with for the last three or four years#i'm so discouraged and upset right now and i have no idea what on earth I'm gonna do#i just want to get better and not have to deal with this#i have never been this sick for this long in my entire life#but I've been sick for month long stretches three times already this year#i don't know what to do at this point#i hate this so much
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Only update I’ll be posting for now is that I met Max early this morning. He was coming down the stairs with his dad and I asked if he can sign my hat, he said yup, signed it then I asked for him to sign a second one, and he said sure, signed it, was so sweet.
As I was shaking and freaking the fuck out after, a marshal who was standing by came over, and he was like “you’re lucky, you know. That doesn’t always happen” and then we had a solid 10 minute convo where he told us about how he’s known Max since Toro Rosso. How he’s one of the nicest guys, got into Red Bull and had a single focus and has since relaxed. How when his dad is around he’s a bit more tense, but that he’s so genuine. He said he doesn’t always talk to people when he’s stopping which is why he said I was lucky.
Feeling blessed on the eve of my 30th birthday.
#we also met Daniel multiple times#he looks happier and healthier than last year by a long mile#I had a quick little talk with him#and he was SO happy and sweet#I have a video#and then I told Blake#wtf is up with the pop up#and he laughed so hard lol#my post#my COTA 23#the max stuff we knew#but it’s nice to have actual info#from someone in this
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