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never thought id do this but screw it
if this post gets 500 notes i will stop hurting myself and try a healthy coping mechanism
#pls dont worry im fine ....mostly#ur allowed to spam#it might help if i know someone cares#even if its someone online#just punched a wall till my hand became numb#sorta realized i should not do that
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trying to make fanart of leona from @kiame-sama's humans are extinct twst au (warning it is a yandere au and 18+ so minors DNI)
#art#mine#my art#leona#leona kingscholar#twst#twisted wonderland#humans are extinct au#aint it funny that we both used the same card as the base for the pictures?#i promise i didnt copy your idea i legit just eanted a pose that easily showed his legs#also lion paws are surprisingly hard to freehand?#i swapped out the skull in his hand for a chess piece for a few reasons#one bc he's never eaten a human so i didnt want to feed into the stereotype of sunset savannah folk eating humans#and two bc of the metanarrative of it seeming racist for the place where beastpeople are also being the ones who ate humans most often#not that i think kiame had any intention of that sorta thing i think it's just a really unfortunate coincidence#but it starts out with the weirdness of the canon africa stand-in also being mostly known for beast people living there#as in actual animal people#and there's way more horrors about real life colonial history that make the twst au feel...weird to have those real events flipped#again im not upset or calling out the author of the au or anything im just sharing my perspective and comparing and contrasting this au#it's mostly an interesting exercise for me rn#but anyway! i got tired and never finished coloring the sketch but i really liked the sketch so here!
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got an ask ab them on my sp so i figured id share these old wips lol u guys can have em too
#theyre so silly#feel free to ramble ab them on this post cuz i dont see enough people talking about them#unfortunately im only able to . use silly drawings to show what i feel ab something so !!!#op#one piece#sanji#usopp#nami#sanusona#sanusonami#cat burglar nami#black leg sanji#vinsmoke sanji#god usopp#sanuso#usosan#sanami#usona#i love them tho i think theyre awesome#in a very gnc sanji unlabeled usopp slaying nami sorta way#the girlfriends ever#i didnt finish these cuz they were so ugly to me but whatever i might as well just share them cuz i think i stayed up till 4 am#trying to get it to look ok IDK WHATS WRONG MAYBE IDK HOW TO DRAW NAMI PROPERLY#i mostly draw sanuso usosan whatevers i need to learn how to draw the others more ough#mintart#my art
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i very much like. small franks
#marvel#frank castle#the punisher#posting stupid shit because i feel weirddd#also i have a frank daily account on twitter now. i post a frank a day there. nothing groundbreaking but yk#i mostly do it cuz i miss him and i want to spread punisher classic propaganda#i also................ sigh.................. i also played fortnite..........................#i suck at it kinda sorta but im practicing for marvel rivals more than anything. because hes in there#uughhh im going back to college on the 2nd. ill have to pick a ba seminar#i dont want to write a ba cant i just get good grades and go home 👉🏻👈🏻 pls#i dont even have a topic. two dudes that have seminars about games have it about mechanics or some vague shit i dont get#sigh sigh. ill make it somehow
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first time posting something that isnt scp related and its this fucking thing
yeah
#shitpost#this is actually my attempt at buttering you all up for when i eventually post my 13 extremely cringe rwby#(just ozpin mostly)#+honkai crossover drawings#i dont go here#i mean sorta#just lurk is all#dont follow me over my non-scp stuff btw i doubt thisll last#hate to disappoint#rwby#yikes#professor ozpin#yikess#honkai impact 3rd#hi3#otto apocalypse#lmao#help girl im fixating on old green men again#also hi hi3 people#oh shit#doodle#fanart#yeah why not#not scp#hm#art
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malenmalenmalenmalenmalenmalenmalenmalen
#princess tutu#malen#fanart#my art#these are all from p much the same big file as well as the innblings doodles#they've just been on my mind from time to time this is all scattered ideas coming to me sporadically since...im gonna say april.#correct me if im worng im too lazy to check#these were mostly me trying to figure out her wardrobe#cos tutu has that anachronistic feel#where nothings really pinned down#and like. yall saw how much personality ducks fun littel casual fit has#i watned kinda to figure out something similar for malen?#capture that sorta outside-of-time feel+see if i can make her personality shine through#.......whatever it is its not like we actually know#i think i make her a bit more somber than shy/anxious?#but idk i wanted to give her a hint of something More than what we saw in the anime#author is a useful hint here#like i know theyre not cannon siblings im playing with my dolls here ok leave me alone#like. seeign where she could be similar to him and where they might clash. its all so fun#also some extra info i found on the image that started this madness within me is making me rethink their situation/dynamic#so yeag#anyway#aco udri 'post'
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nene in mermaidcore or smth :3c
#im into fashion just heard some ppl talk abt in on tiktok and thought omh nene#so judging off pics i didnt exactly dress her correctly bc also wanted to make it look more like smth i thought shed like#i dont evem kmow tho if she actually would but aneyway#nene kusanagi#wxs nene#pjsk fa#project sekai fanart#komashkart#im feeling a downgrade in silliness in my art but thats mostly bc of almost half a year sorta hiatus idk#also tbh just rlly like drawing w/ pens and translating that look into digital stuff too#*****i meant to say im not. into fashion. but forgot to type the not. pleas never take me seriously
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Guys you're not gonna believe this. The books are wrong again
At least this time I didn't even get half of them and half of what I did get was damaged...? So I only have another 70 books to deal with... This time they're soft touch......
I've got so many of book 2 it's not even funny
#aaaaaa#emailing w customer service#they're sorta going like 'prove it'#not really but..#soft touch and matte are visually very similar#so its hard to show clearly that they are different#and i reported all the damages as well#mostly to be like hi. can they please be packaged properly when theyre replaced. the books were shrink wrapped wrong#and completely unpadded#so over half of them had bends in the spine#or the corners#or peeling laminate#or overgluing...#like. come on.#I'm gonna idk make art out of them or something i cant keep all these around hoping to sell damaged copies#ill try to make something of it#but this is delaying my Kickstarter packages so much 😭😭😭#y'all im trying and I'm so tired#its been one thing after the other#it's. fine. im just...#it's fine.#hopefully they replace them and hopefully they take extra care to actually do a proper fucking job of it#this isn't even that big a deal. < repeating to myself#its only a big deal if i have to buy more books. cause. i uh. didnt budget quite fo THAT#anyways.#text post#vent#Kickstarter stuff#book saga
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I dont think I'm like a therian or w/e but I do seem to occupy a niche wherein I definitely don't feel like a Human Person™️ and people irl tend to treat me more like a pet or other animal most of the time and sometimes it feels good to be treated that way and other times it feels like I'm not being taken seriously bc im just a silly little critter or something
#smokey talks#like. i get away with saying or doing something or being in certain places bc im not taken seriously i guess?#its small things here or there mostly but. being the exception to a rule for a reason i dont understand can be... alarming?#its a phenomenon ive noted a lot more in my adult life frequency wise but like. its sorta always been this way#in a 'she doesnt know what shes doing but its ok' or a 'she thinks shes people' type way#idk how to explain it#but i dont always feel welcome bc of it its definitely very 'othering'#like it feels like im often just being humored or tolerated rather than accepted or valued specifically sometimes#i hope this doesnt get me clowned on bc of the stereotype
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mann im going to get my blood reports tomorrow and im lwk scared
#mostly it's fine but i looked up this medicine the doc prescribrd me and she said it's for weight loss#but i looked it up and everywhere it said it's for type 2 diabetes#to control blood sugar levels when it's so wildly out of control that nothing is fixing it#why would she give me that??? i mean im obviously gonna ask but tab tak ki anxiety bhai#i have barely processed the fact that pcod is a chronic illness which means im going to have it forever im mostly avoiding thinking about#it cause it feels too big and unbearable#diabetes would be fucking wild man im 21 years old#i am doing so terrible in not turning out to be like my dad lol i want to cry#i just hate hate hate this so much#like i was trying really fucking hard but depression wasn't getting fixed and i kept eating sleeping being in bed all day#like how can one illness cause another be frr man give me a break 😭#and i cannot even officially say depression i just sorta googled thr symptoms and relate to them most days but not everyday#so like#what is all this for#ugh goodnight i hope i wake up and it's all alright#i don't want to be a calorie counting sweet avoiding freak i love chocolate
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givin the characters their own shapes s fun
#mx24#messy doodles#undescribed#[ face lol ]#[ (also. not rlly a doodle im just visualizin how i usually draw em) ]#[ Kris' hair is sorta similar to Suz' mostly w that sharp swoop at the front-top but in the back their hair is mostly#straight n the ends don't swoop inward n only sometimes flare outwards. im not super consistent w this shit tbh tho lmao ]
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Also forgot to share this beauty i drew a few days ago
#localgardenweed#the weed is rambling#hetalia#hws#hetalia japan#hws japan#i need him carnally#what who said that#who said that#i just like giggle and tee hee#I drew this during class and idk why i felt sorta embarrassed cause i always worry i come of as one of *those* people when it comes to japan#like i know its not that deep but ive always been paranoid about itNOOOO NOOO GUYS WAIT NO#IM NOT THOSE ‘OH SUGOI JAPAN IS SO PERFECT AND HEAVEN THEY ARE SO ADVANCED AND I JUST WANNA BE JAPANESE’ NO NO NOOOOOOOO#IM JUST A GIRL WHO JUST LIKES A MANNWHO HAPPENS TO BE THE PERSONIFICATION OF JAPAN HIMSELF#IDK WHY IM SO FREAKED OUT OVER IT CAUSE LIKE#HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO TELL ANY NORMAL PERSON I HAVE A CRUSH ON HETALIA WORLD STARS JAPAN#I SOUND CRAZY#I AM CRAZY#anyway i do love drawing him and i wanna still figure out how to actually draw his body cause i end up making him super twinky#half my drawings kinda do anyway cause i struggle at widening shoulders and chests but I WILL NOT LET HIM BE A TWINK#In my mind he is a upside down triangle ontop of a rectangle like broad shoulders and then the rest of his body is hust a straight shot down#i think mostly his clothes give him different shape languages like seen here like his oants flare out so like its kinda hourglassy#anyway imma shut up now i must attend to my duties
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realized today that i am a very disturbed, strange and off-putting person and men are deeply afraid of me but try to laugh it off and act like they aren't cause i am hot, really confident and they wanna hit
#i have talked about torture methods on a first date#i know a concerning number of deeply disturbing world war 2 facts#i also will make jokes about stabbing you multiple times#but its always done in a sorta ditzy funny haha with an underlying of darkness way#so men are scared but they mostly think its quirky#when im fact i have bpd and autism and just happen to be hot in addition to what makes me strange#rants and ramblings
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WIP TAG GAME
Rules: share a snippet of whatever you've been working on and tag 5 people
Tagged by @japril12 THANK YOU 💕 my current WIP is not greys, so I'll just share some of the last greys wip I was working on instead 😊
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The words registered and April felt her heart drop to her stomach and leant on the kitchen counter in front of her for support. “Jackson? What happened to Jackson?”
“He is okay, April. But there was an incident during one of his ride alongs with Ben in the PRT. He's getting treated right as we speak.”
April cast a look over at Harriet, but she was still coloring, unaware of anything amiss. “An incident? What exactly happened, Bailey?”
There was a long pause. “A drug addict held them up for drugs. There was some kind of altercation and he was shot in the leg.”
At the word shot, April was transported back a decade, to falling over her best friend's dead body. She couldn't stop herself from picturing that it was Jackson instead before slamming closed that train of thought. Bailey said he was okay. He was fine.
“And is Ben okay?”
“Ben is a little shaken but not hurt at all. And Avery is getting pampered by every single nurse in the place and being grouchy about the attention.”
April smiled at that, sounded about right.
“Thank you for telling me, Bailey. I appreciate it.”
“Not a problem, I know how you two are. I've got to go. Give it half an hour then you should be right to call him, he's still getting stitched up.”
They said their goodbyes then hung up and April immediately went over to Harriet, picked her up and held her close, breathing in her comforting scent.
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Tagging whoever sees this and wants to do it 😊
#this is sorta mostly finished#i just been busy with other wips im trying to get finished lol#tag game#japril
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wish i could stop falling asleep first at sleepovers. not my fault its the only time i feel safe sleeping
#like i usually fall asleep around 3 or 4 outside of sleepovers cause im like. scared#but when theres other people in the room its like. better chance of two of us noticing los espookies before they can get us at least#and i sorta feel the pressure not to seem neurotic lol#but i think its mostly cause if its just me in my room i can only keep an eye out for things in my line of sight#but if theres two or more people in the room we can see more of the room at a time#and they might protect me but not really that. cause if someone died protecting me id like... kill myself#i sound insane. sorry.
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I have officially edited and updated my DP fic recommendation document
I've so far only used it for friends but now I'm wondering if any of you guys would be interested...
#lots of people make rec lists and i sorta feel like i have a lot of the same ones that everyone always does#but also that could just be the curse of knowledge where im like “yeah ofc everyone knows about X Fic!!!”#when in fact maybe they do not :wheeze:#anyway. just wanna gauge if anyone would want it#idk how often ill update the list#i have a shit ton of DP fics on my To Read/Bookmarks and if i haven't read at leaat enough to make a judgment#i dont put it on the rec list#I've been mostly focused on working on getting through my unread book collection at home rather than fics atm BUT#the list is both a way for me to keep track of my fave fics and also when friends outside the phandom wanted a rec i could ask what#flavor of thing they wanna read and then pick something or send them the doc so they could pick#Everytime I work on the list I start thinking so hard about fics I read years ago or on FFnet and I can't remember the names#Or more than a few scenes....#Rip the real ones from back in the day#I'll at some point be making a new pinned post and so if people do want this I'll post it and then link it in my pinned post#so it's easy to find#danny phantom fanfiction#Danny Phantom fanfic recs
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