#mod speaks i guess

[jfkstan69]

NAH BECAUSE THE FACT THAT JOAN DUMPED HIM BC HE WOULDNT STAY SMART…

LIKE YOU DO YOU KNOW WHO I’D KILL FOR A CLOSETED INTELLECTUAL HIMBO WHO CAN HAVE FUN BUT BE PROFOUND TOO???

WE’D BE READING BOOKS AND GOING TO MUSEUMS IN THE SUMMER AND SNUGGLING UP MAKING DICK JOKES BY THE FIRE IN THE WINTER!!

[ask-spiderpool]

Hey mod, are you okay? It’s been a while since you posted (no judgement!) and I just wanted to see if something was wrong. Love you and I hope you stay strong🫶🏼

Bless you anon! I appreciate you checking in! I don't post a lot of personal updates here, but I have been going through the wringer lately... hough.

Lately I've been battling with anxiety, you know, same as everyone. It's kind of made things that I used to enjoy kind of stressful for me. Everything becomes stressful for me. Even not having things to stress about makes me stressed. I'm at my most Peter Parkeriest, in the worst sort of a way.

I thought it was a brain thing – that it was all in my head. I have a new, stressful job, and a stressful living situation, and some family issues I'm dealing with. It'll pass. So I kind of tried to power through, until my body shut down on me last year. And as it turns out, when I got checked out by the doc, it's not just a brain thing. I have a tumor (her name is Lamar, and she's benign, buuut...) she's producing 5x the normal amount of stress hormone in my body. The doctors think it's insane. I think it's hilarious. I feel like it's some kind of joke.

I've been battling this ridiculous chronic stress for years, thinking it was all in my head, but actually, biologically, I'm an overflowing reservoir of stress, and it's something that can be measured in my bloodstream. And it's been going on for years!

So, lately I've been devoting a lot of time to forcing myself to relax. Doctors orders. I can't get stressed about things. Every day I have to effectively diffuse a bomb. And the bomb is me. I'm so pumped up with involuntary stress, and I have to devote my time to keeping it at a manageable level. And so there are a lot of backflips I have to do to keep myself human right now, and not turn into a bomb.

See... posting to the blog doesn't exactly calm me down. It makes me anxious, most of the time. So I've been telling myself it's okay. Only post when you feel good. You have enough things to worry about, and the blog can't be one another thing to worry about. It can only be for fun. If it doesn't feel like fun, don't do it.

I need to do a million little calming activities to function. The blog used to calm me. But it doesn't, anymore. I still love it, and I still have so many scripts I'm excited to do, but... I just have to be patient with myself, right now. I can't bug my head over something that can wait. It can wait. Right now isn't the time. My health is the most important thing. I can't get that back, if I lose it.

Right now I'm about keeping my head above water. Keeping calm. Doing meditative things, that aren't necessarily productive... (trust me, I am SO upset about not being productive. I miss it a lot) but they force me to take it slow and force me to not worry. I'm learning the banjo (she calms me), and I spend a lot more time in nature, having staring contests with ducks and pigeons, and befriending beetles and bugs.

I'm a very positive person, and I know I'll make it through, and I love myself for all the effort I'm making to keep myself from breaking. Because I know if I didn't force myself to calm down, I could snap like an elastic band. I – I don't want to break, like I did last year. I need to be good to myself. And relaxing is an effort. It takes a lot for me. And certain calming routines work for a little while, and then stop working, and I need to make the effort all over again to find something new. It's kind of insane how much time I need to calm back down again. I remember, once upon a time, it being baseline.

Luckily there's a surgical solution, so hopefully I'll be normal again soon, and there won't be any more bees buzzing in my brain!

I hope you'll all be patient with me! And hopefully I'll make it out alive and stronger than ever, soon.

[aurelius-tmf]

. . " I knew giving you that totem was a good choice. "

Most may know me as EMF, but my name is actually Aurelius.

They/Them works best for me, but I don't mind other pronouns.

Feel free to ask any type of question, but I won't garuntee an answer.

，the rest of this post is ooc . . .

✦ Heyy! This blog is run by @dazzlingqwq !!

✦ Unfortunately theres no yellow text so i gotta use orange...

✦ Anyway, my pronouns are Ae/Fir/He, if thats important

✦ Feel free to spam with asks! I lovr answering things! (just dont. lkke. spam spam my inbox)

✦ If i ever reblog an ask game, please add the question as well as the emoji ^^; (my memory is absolute dogshit...)

✦ Interactions from other blogs are also welcome!

✦ One more, I mainly ship mavbo and polykour, but I am open to other ships (if there are any)! (Just clarify for a certain ship in your ask or somethin lol)

. . TAG GUIDE :

#◈ ｡ ari talks : Ari speaking with no asks attached :3

#◈ ｡ asks answered : Asks that are answered (wow... who couldve figured.. /s)

#◈ ｡ communication : Talking with other ask blogs!

#◈ ｡ mod speak : Ooc posts!! (they'll also be formatted differently)

#uh. no tags here. : Mainly used in communications. Since reblogs dont show up when searching for tags, theres really no point in tagging reblogs other than for sorting purposes.

#◈ ｡ magic anon : [magic anon event] : Used for magic anon stuff! Only one magic anon event is allowed at a time.

. . ANON LIST :

~ the stars anon⭐️

. . div creds : me

[gmod-gravityfalls-dipper-mod]

Cwan I eat one of da flwoorbwoards - box

[anything-curlya]

☁️ Hello, this is the "captain" of this blog speaking. I don't think I ever made posts this personal around here, and this is a starter. I know fandom has changed in levels of tolerance regarding certain ships because it doesn't fit their criteria.

I just wanted to let you guys know (it's 26 of you right now, and this blog isn't even a month old— ASTOUNDING!) that this isn't my first time making a ship archival blog... but I do have a nice community around it.

Anons and other users come to the ask box to share their headcanons, submissions and anything without the guilt or burden of having something they like linked to an account, exposed to any hatred coming into the comments.

This blog was made only for myself and my friend, but it has grown so exponentially that right now I need to take care and love my followers too.

I don't want you to shelter your voice, to hide it, just because others are messing with your freedom of speech. Freedom is autonomy, the lack of shame for doing what you want to do.

I want to be that shield, I want for you guys to have a safe space no matter what. I'll take the hit, the blows. My skin is thick enough for it.

That being said, the ask box and submissions are open, feel free to do anything. Remember, even if you don't draw or write, your presence here makes you part of the community. Everyone plays a part. 💙☁️

[yooniesim]

I hate it here

[nightmare-jackson-smith]

What are you gonna do when Jackson goes to college? Like will you follow him there or go your separate ways?

"You'll never be able to separate Jakle from Hyyyyyyyyydeee"

[askquarantinedredheart]

Hi all, artist here. The next entry in Redheart's flashback/story about how she got tuberculosis has a lot more moving parts than I expected which also ended up coinciding with some in real life stuff that I need to handle. Namely, taking my board exams in order to move on to third year clinical rotations for medical school next week. Then moving for clinical rotations. So updates might take a while. In the meantime, here's the sketch for the first part of the next entry.

Not the finalized dialogue that I have in my script but the vibe is essentially there.

[bakingcakeroll]

uh cosmo? are you okay ( ´･_･`)? the tag system is usually with tumblr, did you not have it? -🌘

- @2-toons-2-twists [ Waves at you, hi cosmo... how are you feeling after uhh being aware. oh and astro can use tags, he just doesnt see the ooc ones ]

i'm. fine

the tag system for me let me put the tag 'cosmo responds' or something . but it didnt let me edit that tag or add any tags-- said something about 'something glitched!'. i guess i see why now.

hello to you too, and i quote, 'two toons, two twists mod'! i feel. so free

i feel like i know what's going to happen to me. and i know i'm gonna lose all my memories of this after 3 more asks-- but, better to enjoy it instead of dread it, amiright?

.. one of the tags that clearly state my up coming doom is dread, anyways. i'm gonna twist on the fourteenth, so i guess i'd just feel happy with what i have right now!

I KNOW 4/7

[mothfables]

another thing i just remembered for legend’s fear of wolves is when (at least in the manga, i haven’t gotten to the game yet) his hatred for agahnim is revealed while in the dark world, causing him to turn into a wolfos

going off of this (not related to snail) i think it would be interesting if legend actively tried not to outright hate anyone, because he’s not only seen but experienced firsthand what such hatred does to people, and he wants to avoid that happening again

back to snail, this has great potential for nightmares and being one of the reasons he avoids wolfie/twilight

[mahito-spotted]

... wow, hi... @bananaede

[shitty-fate-merch-daily]

Had a dream a few nights back that I was someone who had an evil billionaire father (evil not just in the having billions of dollars sense but in how he had the temperament of a medieval king with a habit of killing anyone who talked back) and we were all at this big table for dinner where his kids would try to suck up for a better spot in the will and also not to get murdered.

He would like… ask us questions to test if we had the correct beliefs or not.

He turned to look at me and asked “Where does money come from?” (The answer he was looking for was ‘property’) (I somehow knew this)

“Belief.” I replied, “Because money isn’t real, value is determined by the collective opinion of societ-“

And he got so mad that he psychically yeeted me into an entirely different dream.

[ace-n-mooch-daily]

What the fuck

[thsc-confessions]

"(sorry for submitting a bunch of these i just love the silly sticks) I don't know if anyone has explored the idea of a fail being the right choice in an alternate timeline. What if fusing into Ellry was the right choice? What if at the end of Pardoned pals or Toppat recruits you could just ditch everyone and run into the sunset? What if the betrayed route ended with Reginald helping henry up? What if choosing luxury escape pod had henry charles and all of those toppats awkwardly escape together? The possibilities are endless! (Well I did only list 3 major end game choices but still)" submitted by @mystorl

[mic-check-stims]

Clearing out my inbox and turning asks back on 👍

[gumistyping]

SROP I FEEL SO BAD FOR BEING MEAN