#mishka posting

[devotion-disorder]

You ever think that elves have beauty standards like we do? Like how low/down pointing ears is considered an "ugly trait" but having high/up pointing ears is considered a "pretty trait"?

oh absolutely!

Having long, symmetrical and slightly upward pointing ears is thought to be a symbol of wisdom and grace. Having luscious, healthy hair also signified your elegance and self-regard etc etc. For example, here's a very old portrait of Lieutenant Mikhail (or Mishka as he's fondly nicknamed), who has made many an elf swoon back in the day.

[stillw4t3r]

day 1: from the other side

[imagination-0011]

Photo by: Dominika Mishka Klimczak

Muse: gwynblath

[dropoutfailure]

Would absolutely love to hear more about mishka and gus? Like anything really. Maybe you could explain the timeline of how their story happens (i love that kind of thing) or just tell me something you find interesting about them or just ramble whats on your mind?

I'm excited to answer, but are YOU excited for the wall of text you're about to see?? I probably overthought and revised this answer for way too long. these OCs have wayyyy too much lore and backstory which I might draw at some point. eventually.

backstory in short:

Mishka is a 22yo depressed lonely college dropout NEET trans guy. he's in love with his dad, bc he can't connect to new people easily, and his dad's the only one who has just always been there for him, unconditionally.

his 45yo dad Gustav is a woodworking teacher. a single father who's doing his best. caring, and maybe even lenient with his precious son. he does not reciprocate though. at first.

backstory in long:

so basically Mishka was doomed from the start. his mom was not good at being a mother (violent) and gave him childhood trauma. she left eventually, and dad became a single father when Mishka was 7-9. he comes out as a trans boy in his teens, 14-15. his dad is accepting but his school is not. he makes no permanent connections in 12 years of being in school. just internet friends.

Mishka drops out of college at 22 because of many problems piling up there (adhd, loneliness, misunderstandings, transphobia) and overwhelming him for months. he breaks down in the middle of his last year of undergraduate (he probably could've weathered the storm and finished...), gives up, drops out, goes home and holes up in his room, in his dad's apartment...

Mishka developed a crush on his dad while halfway through college, at around 21 yeard old, but thought he'd get over it and not feel that way anymore when he got back home. lol. lmao.

when dad hugs him after he gets off the train, that notion quickly disappears.

at first he tries to hide it. he doesn't want his dad to hate him. Gustav is happy to see him again, and can tell something's bothering his son, but can never get a straightforward answer. he's worried.

confession scene comic drafts:

eventually, after a month of being back home, Mishka says "fuck it, I've already fucked up my life, I'm already a social outcast, I'm already a garbagefire, I have nothing to lose, I'll tell my dad and either he feels the same or he disowns me!!"

(here, I'll add some sketches I've made for the confession scene. amongst other sketches.)

Mishka confesses kinda hopeful (delusional) that maybe his dad might feel the same.

...but dad does NOT feel the same... he takes some time to process what he just heard.

Mishka is red in the face, sweating, panicking, tearing up bc this is humiliating and painfully awkward and he "should not have told him, should have taken it to the grave!! fuuuuuck"

Gustav is confused and concerned. it doesn't register until he asks again and Mishka's like "this is humiliating enough, don't make me say it again...."

(I need to work out the dialogue here I think..... Gus doesn't disown him, he's extremely uncomfortable with the idea, but ALSO doesn't want to reject Mishka!! he's at a loss and doesn't know how to respond so he's like "it's late, I need some time to think, let's talk about this tomorrow")

he loves his son. but not like that.

(extra long post and more sketches under the Keep Reading)

and then there's an awkward moment / fake-out where Mishka may or may not have been aiming for a kiss. dad turns that down real fast though, uncomfortable. Mishka fears this may have just caused a permanent rift between them, that they can never be affectionate again, and begs him to forget the whole thing.

Gustav can tell that Mishka's gonna be agonizing over this (oh, Gus is too. but doesn't want to double the panic here*) and tells his son to not hurt himself. (Mishka tends to pull at his hair and scratch his skin up to release emotion)

*main things on Gustav's mind: since he's a teacher, he would not only get fired, but hunted for sport if he was actually in an illicit relationship with his son, so he really doesn't want to even entertain the idea. especially since he already feels like he's on thin ice at his workplace - he's good at his job, but it's an open secret that he's "gay" (he's not even gay, he's bi!!)

they retreat to their rooms to turn in for the night. Mishka writes to his bestie Kaito who's the only one he talks to about his feelings for his dad (strangers on the internet and people who took his incest vagueposting as a joke don't count haha).

Gus looks to the internet for any advice on this situation he never expected to be in as a father. "wtf do I do when my own flesh and blood, my own son, half my age, is in love with me, romantically? and maybe sexually?? how do I turn him down without hurting his feelings" he somehow phrases it in such a way that he mostly gets porn results, which is the opposite of what he's looking for! XD it's a very popular porn category and that makes him feel even worse.

here's another WIP I'm trying to work on about this scene. the confession, plus a moment when Gus remembers fearing homophobia in his teen years, but confessing to a classmate regardless (he's bi but most people assume he's either gay or straight)... and immediately shuts it down, thinking to himself "wait that's not even remotely the same thing!! s-some things are societally unacceptable with good reason!"

I'm just trying to work out the dialogue more, to better show Gustav's confusion, apprehension, empathy and an attempt at a gentle rejection.

afterward, they try to go on as normal but now that it's out there, Mishka gets bolder with his affection. and gets reprimanded. occasionally. Gustav's body welcomes the touch, but Gus himself is not happy with this for a multitude of reasons!!!! it's ok, he gets over his incest aversion. he may have felt some sort of way about Mishka's scruffy facial hair and deeper voice when he saw him again for the first time in half a year, but chalked it up to aesthetic appreciation? "what the hell, my son's grown so much... he's so cute... uh, objectively."

they got some mutual desperation and loneliness going on, they're perfect for each other.

I like this fragile and uncertain time in their life and relationship the most so I draw it the most. guilty and hesitant indulgence in forbidden fruit... typical will-they-wont-they situation. but it's like they-probably-shouldnt. but they will.

thanks for asking!! 💘 hope this has been an interesting read. glad you like my characters. :) if this caused more questions than answers, feel free to ask more about them!

[fauville]

ALSO my zero attention span brain has totally skipped over the fact that you can choose A to be your handler instead of rebecca

[pinkfey]

it’s so cute to see everybody on a twc kick i love when the dash has a unanimous interest 😭

[sorrowandpride]

Finding obvious ana food while looking for healthy (keyword: HEALTHY) recipes on the clock app like what in the Kate Moss cocaine coquette nicotine addiction Lana Del Rey diet Coke is this

[msommers]

MAEVE SOMMERS wayhaven chronicles au

[templates]

[tommyssupercoolblog]

coward. miscecanis tumblr users on our way to eat him alive i don't care that he's dead and a fictional character the cyclone didn't malfunction for ur gay ass to fear the omegaverse

[movingpawns]

We haven’t done much yet.

[pissanddie]

Mishka Henner, The Fertile Image, 2020. Parent Set #7, Archival pigment prints on Baryta paper, 30.5x38.1 cm

[devotion-disorder]

How would the elves react to Mc being very scared of spiders? I can just imagine either their deadpan or amused expressions lmao

wait i kind of misread the ask as how the elves react to spiders but here it is anyways lol

as for how they'd react to their human being scared of spiders:

Depending on the size of the spider, Asa might try to brave through it for you. He might "tactically retreat" and cling to you though. Both of you can huddle and scream for someone to help :D and you better hope that someone is Mishka, who traps and releases the spider calmly. He's secretly amused at your reaction and fantasizes about you clinging onto him out of fear, giving comforting rubs to your back to calm you down. But it's an understandable reaction, he reasons, spiders are kind of creepy. That's not what Yuri thinks though, who is probably the worst person in this scenario to be around. Yuri is thoroughly entertained by your distress and would play around with the spider to see what kind of other reactions you have in store for him. Then, your best bet is to either wait for Yuri to find another target for harassment, or pray that Killian comes along. Strangely, the spider (and all other animals in the vicinity) seems to shrink away at his approaching footsteps. He remarks that he's glad the source of terror is gone, but he's definitely making a mental note of your intense fear of spiders for...future reference.

[seraphinitegames]

FINALLY! Mishka has her new, shiny ergonomic keyboard to help ease the pain in her wrists as she types out Book Four at a furious speed! ⌨️ Keep checking in for updates and posts :D

[imagination-0011]

Photo by: Dominika Mishka Klimczak

Muse: gwynblath

[dropoutfailure]

Mishka's final art college days before dropping out on a whim. he has some backstory for ending up as a shut-in. not that I'll ever finish the backstory or this WIP. basic concept:

he goes to art college abroad and it goes well for 1 year, but he starts struggling during the 2nd year. typical ADHD shit. undone work, unfinished work, half-assed work. no confidence in his work.

also kinda autistic things like not getting along with anyone new. it's hard connecting to people and making friends.

his dad supports and encourages him, and calls often... Mishka develops a crush on him.

he makes a joke tweet/tumblr post? about it and gets called out and panics. also gets confronted IRL and everything (online, real life, academic, emotional, psychological) adds up and he can't take it anymore and goes home... Mishka's thinking / hoping that he's over his dadcrush. he's not lol

[crownleys]

F Hauville Week - Day 3 - Fantasy

Last month Mishka posted a short on Patreon about going to a Renaissance festival, and the second I saw the prompts for today I knew I wanted to get to draw Farah all dressed up and ready to go! @happyhauvillebday !