#misgendering 🥰

[eye-of-yelough]

one person said they were interested so…

The updated Aeryn (my Dark Urge) intro post! This freak 👇

Backstory/Key Points: Bhaal created Aeryn with the idea of a whole new race of pure waterbreathing bhaalspawn (pure because of githyanki asexual reproduction/egg laying) he used githyanki as a sort of “base” for their psionic abilities and rapid aging in their hatchling years. Aeryn is a slightly canon-divergent durge, he was supposed to mother this race who would take over the world, not take it over himself. He was found as an egg in a swamp by a drow scientist/scholar and his human wife, they raised him less out of the goodness of their hearts and more to see if a Githyanki could be normal (on that Society Of Brilliance grind) despite this they were very loving and made sure to drill empathy, humility and morals into him from a young age, to ensure he doesn’t follow in the footsteps of his brutal kin. (they had no idea how right they were, the sorry bastards) He blacked out, killed them and left home at age 10 because they tried to have the piano teacher who groomed him arrested.😬 he was taken in by a Warlock who introduced him to the world of crime, dark magic and hellian shit as he came into his Bhaalspawn self. eventually he became too much for the warlock to handle and he sold him to an entity that would eventually become his own patron. a few years later he was spat back out into Baldurs Gate and that’s when he met Sceleritas and joined the cult, at 21.

He works as a nurse and mercy killer, and clings on to his sanity for dear life by convincing himself he’s an angel who was sent to ease the world’s suffering by ending it, The Mercy Dagger. enter The Iron Fist, who comes along and uhhh basically just fucking breaks that boys brain over the span of 12-13 years. soulmates but make it platonic and a horror story, that’s the aeryn & gortash vibe. They’re two highly delusional people t fanning the flames of each others bullshit, sometimes intentionally, sometimes not. One of Gortash’s main weird Things is a very sincere, very dangerous belief that Aeryn, born within a month of him being sold to Raphael, stole his heart that day. Somehow it’s the only way his insane brain can rationalise the fondness he feels for him. He is uhh. very weird about Aeryn’s heart. likes to press down on his pulse at random moments even in public just to make sure His Heart is healthy, and feel it speed up in anticipation. kinda turns him on. they’re really normal about each other i promise.

Extra info: uhh hes hypersexual and deeply genderweird and those things are kind of intertwined in a very fucked up way. he wears masks day to day pre tadpole to hide his githyanki (ish) features because they make him very conspicuous and some people straight up physically recoil at the sight of his face.

here’s my fave screencap of him and a little moodboard (?) of some very aeryn-coded posts 👍

[jugsonmydick]

Unggf. There's nothing that turns me on more than taking a fat-tittied fakeboy and turning her binder from a safety item into something that just perpetuates her dysphoria even more.

Uh. Yeah bud, you totally pass.💕 That's why I'm still staring  STRAIGHT at that completely unsubtle lump in your hoodie that those spine-straining milkers are making. 

No, REALLY, keep it on, please! 🥰💕Nothing turns me on more than watching those jugs spill out the sides and make those melons seem even MORE obvious, after all. 💕

[bunnyboy-juice]

bunny butt: shiny edition ✨

[op is a femme dyke, he/ze/bun pronouns]

[non-un-topo]

I think I made my MIL uncomfortable yesterday when I admitted I enjoy it when cishets get nervous about offending me lol

[bigbrotherismyreligion]

THIS HAS ME ROLLING it reminds me of when I looked up Quinn on google and immediately there’s a popular search about his gender😭😭😭😭😭

[that-one-paintbrush]

Look at his queer ass sitting in mcdonalds!! /aff im queer too

Uh... this is a Burger King.

[galaxostars]

i love cutting my hair short bc the number of people who see me from behind and go “sir—” only to then proceed to see my face and have a huge panic in which they apologize and probably don’t know if they should apologize or not and go “uh miss or uhm—” and stutter over their own words and meanwhile I’m just like 🤭

[sealab420]

can i just say how over the fucking moon i am about all this non-carabiner uwu crust punk transmasc rep like god damn it’s nice to see more trans femboys

[lilyftm]

sitting here so wet thinking about him filling me and telling me I’m a silly confused girl and he’s going to correct me and fix me and show me who I really am because that’s what my pussy is for after all.

[your-ftm-puppygirl]

I love having a misgendering kink bc I don't have to worry about calling my pussy what she really is 🥰 I don't mind words like cunt, vagina, clit, all of it is okay for a little fakeboy like me! It's silly to say anything else hehe.

[guiltyidealist]

And that's not even to mention the gendering part.

"Trans men are welcome on my Females Only Men Fucking Die Challenge blog! 🥰" should rub you the wrong way. It should rub anybody the wrong way

It really says something about the way they view trans men, as pointed out above, and in gender too.

They view you, trans man reading this, as a woman. They see you as one of them -- a victimized female -- but a victimized female groomed to think "she" should be *gag* male... groomed by males of course, from the "transgender cult".

That's why they just want to "cure" you. They look at you with pity. You're a ~poor girl~ in need of ~curing~ in a TERF's eyes.

Aaaand that's why we look through Shinigami Eyes kids ... Stay safe and minimize your exposure to raddies folks

Terfs will say shit like "this blog is safe for trans men :)", but as a trans man, I will never feel safe on a blog that excludes my trans sisters. I will always choose them over someone who wants them dead, even if it doesn't actively do anything for me. Leave my sisters alone.

[radfemsilv]

yall are like .. i can excuse misogynistic slurls 🥰 but i draw the line at misgendering 🤬😠

[capnsoapy]

my "don't misgender me at prerelease" 'fit paid off 🥰

[jenny-in-a-jar]

🩷🩵🤍 5 Days Until my Surgery 🤍🩵🩷

(Picture taken September 1, 2022)

I'm very very excited for my surgery (it's my second gender affirming surgery but this one is more significant to me since it'll be top and bottom surgery) and I'm obviously counting the days until it and I thought some people might be interested in my trans journey 🏳️‍⚧️ So see part 6 below the cut.

Part 1 here

Me and my partner got back together and got a place together and we still live in this apartment together 🥰 I also worked at worked at a local amusement park over the summer that had some fun but mostly was horrible due to angry customers that kept misgendering me and kids making fun of me 🙃 But also I'll say I had one of my most euphoric moment when this little girl pointed to her winged eyeliner and said "you're just like me!" Bc I also had winged eyeliner at the time 🥰

(Picture taken June 6th, 2022)

Also, if the last Era was the peak of my egirl era on twitter than this was the fall of my egirl era 📉

I remember reaching 10k followers and thinking "ok I have enough of a following to try to make money off this." It's what a lot of egirls on there did and as I stated above, I hated my job. I thought briefly about streaming and YouTube but I don't really have the personality for streaming and was too self-conscious of my voice to do YouTube. And there were a lot of sex workers on twitter that I knew, followed, and admired. And there was quite the market for trans sexual content. Also I wanted to basically be paid to look pretty all day 🤷‍♀️ So, I made a OnlyFans account and started promoting it.

(Picture taken May 9th, 2022)

And I quickly got shadow banned for it 😂 And frankly, I wasn't really meant for sex work. I'm not really a sexual person. I do enjoy sexual acts but doing them for money killed my drive for it. I made a few hundred dollars but I didn't make enough content for it to keep it up.

Also, the shadow banned revealed how unhealthy my relationship with Twitter was. My self worth would be highly dependent on how well my posts did that day (I was still posting pictures daily). And I was hypercritical of my picture quality and my physical features. And developed a bad habit of comparing myself to girls I considered prettier than me. And with the constant misgendering from work, I was at a big low 🥲

(Picture taken September 17th, 2022)

I remember this was when there was first talk about Elon buying Twitter and I was looking for an alternative and well... ended up here.

(Picture taken June 2nd, 2022)

I remember the idea between this pic was clothes and accessories that weren't explicitly queer but gave queer vibes.

Also talking about queerness, I also participated in a Drag Show! I played a mushroom fairy!

(Picture taken August 13th, 2022)

It was organized by this local queer nonprofit that did a lot in the community and was already a big part of my life but would become a bigger part of my life.

Also this was when I was done with the curly girl method. And I like how my hair looks like this and it's easier 🤷‍♀️

(Picture taken September 4th, 2022)

Also love how often I get used out of this mushroom beret 😁🍄😁 (which is why I have 2 pics with it on this post lol)

Also an update on my love life at this time. I at one point had 4 partners very briefly and was part of a polycule over over 22 people. I remember one of my metamours made a chart showing all the relationships and it was complicated 😅 Also it was mostly online. Like 2 of my partners were long distance relationships.

(Picture taken Oct 2nd, 2022)

Around my 23rd birthday, I decided to do what was best for my mental health and quit twitter. But I had two last pictures because I got them from some followers who bought me things from my Amazon wishlist I made for my birthday.

(Picture taken October 29, 2022)

This one would be useful for the next era. And you can see a small part of my large collection of plushies (which I have a project in mind for 👀)

(Picture taken on November 8th, 2022)

And this was the last picture I posted on Twitter before quitting at 36k followers. I had already stopped posting on it for awhile so you can imagine my surprise when I got a big pink teddy bear 😱 And for all the work I put into that account, I consider this a pretty good prize 🧸💕

I consider Tumblr my last attempt with having a healthy relationship with social media. If this account goes away, I'll probably be done with Social Media 🤷‍♀️ I think I'm getting better at breaking those bad habits I developed on Twitter while still trying to enjoy the art of dressing up and taking selfies. But, I don't know if I'll ever have the drive for it like I did during my twitter days.

With my summer job ending and twitter as a way to make a living out of the window you may be concerned with how I recovered but I got really lucky and I'll go into detail on that tomorrow 😁