#minecraft boy did a good job

[mathswizard]

the people who make those videos of Privately Owned Spiral Galaxy but without the screaming are evil to me .... thats the best part of the song its integral to it .. . ..

[myrmica]

Heyy could we talk about the final scene at the end of season 4 with vitalasy asking the players if they had fun and to forget all their sufferings with each other and mapicc's whole "good job coming in second" thing because no one talks about and I feel like there's something to say about that moment simply because it's clear that no one wants to talk about it. During spokes livestream after the wormhole video was released where he explained a couple things the only thing he had to say about this moment was that it was "weird" and I agree it was weird but idk how to put it all into words and you're really amazing at articulating yourself so I'm just wondering what you thought of this moment? Especially after you pointed out that spoke refused to mention the whole vitalasy arc thing during his wormhole video.

YES!!!!! YES! I'VE THOUGHT ABOUT THIS SO MUCH. i have talked about it before, but it was in the replies to a post so i doubt anyone really saw that. you can go read the full exchange if you want but here's the meat of what i said there, lightly edited for clarity:

it's like… how can you Not resonate with zam if you're sitting there watching all of that. you're squarely in zam's head, while vitalasy is much harder to access, more obfuscated from the viewer, has less pov time. AND zam is actively misrepresenting him to you while you're trying to understand him. hmm… it's like, zam and vitalasy are the two most socially otherized figures in s4. and zam takes a lot of things out on vitalasy, turns the way people treated him back against vitalasy. and he does it in a way where he positions himself as "victim" and vitalasy as "aggressor," it says so much to me that when zam is legitimately victimized earlier in the season everyone calls him a freak for reacting to it, acts like it's his fault, mocks him. but here, when zam instead victimizes vitalasy, he's socially rewarded for it. everyone else mocks vitalasy With him. and in the end, despite wormhole being zam's lowest point by far, he's the one standing together with the rest of the server while vitalasy and subz are singled out on the other side of the circle, alone. vitalasy stands there and goes (in effect) (paraphrasing/expounding here) "i'm happy with this conclusion. i got what i wanted. it's good for me that spoke took the frontman role, played the villain when i couldn't, because i didn't want to be what spoke is." and nobody LISTENS to that, they all just keep making fun of him, saying things like "he's just going to cry about subz," going "too bad you came in second!" when he is explicitly stating that this was what he wanted! acting like his methods are inherently lesser, like he's this duplicitous person, but what SPOKE did was COOL. so it's not about the exploits, is it? it's about vitalasy. it's about vitalasy being the target zam takes all of his anger out on, the thing that allows zam to access a kind of social acceptance by distancing himself from and rejecting what vitalasy is/represents. “not letting him be true to himself because the only cool thing is violence” is really what it comes down to. this is why it's so crazy to me that eclipse was pretty much textually a romantic relationship, in a world where the only way two people can touch each other is through violence. you can say "we all sleep in the same bed," but you can't Do that, you're limited by what the game represents. if you want it to represent other things, you have to start playing pretend about it. that's always true of minecraft, but it's particularly acute on a pvp server populated primarily by teenage boys. zam being afraid of this relationship where vitalasy is trying to talk things out and compromise with him and so retreating back into violence, trying to goad vitalasy into violence, putting it back on lifesteal terms, is inextricable from his problems with the exploits rendering lifesteal's "natural" form of gameplay obsolete.

^ now you might notice that this is a pretty emotionally intense reaction. I had just finished rewatching s4 and got awfully vitalasybrained about the whole thing. which was a markedly different experience from the first time i watched s4, and found zam’s perspective much easier to access, thus taking much of her view of the world as the truth. I stand by my points here for the most part, but there’s still more to say about it.

some of that is all the stuff i get into in that last post, about the differences between spoke and vitalasy, how they play off of each other/use each other to their own ends in s4, and how zam's function as a camera is just as responsible for the position vitalasy ends up in as zam is on any direct interpersonal level. you have… many layers… of things people don’t want to talk about…. don’t know how to talk about… or, don’t want to present as part of their curated narratives.

it’s taken me forever to post this ask (it was sent on jan 10th) because i have found it impossible to come up with a concise answer. there is a lot going on here. let’s start by looking at that scene itself, The Lifesteal SMP Grand Finale, 5:58:24 - 6:15:00:

[spoke jumps in the void and /ops vitalasy.] Mapicc: Spoke, we kinda need you man. We might need you now.  Leo: I don't know about this anymore. I liked it when Spoke was flying, not Vitalasy. [vitalasy /kills everyone, attempting to bring everyone to spawn. no one understands what he’s doing.] Mapicc: Guys, everybody leave the server, don't give Vitalasy, uhh–any satisfaction. (...) Mapicc: Did we really just let Vitalasy end it? Zam: Yeah, I'm not okay with that. (...) Mapicc: Spoke just dm'd me. He said "Vitalasy and Ash have begged me for months to give them the same power. They had equal part in the creation of the exploit, and I just had better timing than them. Let's just hope they do the best with what they have." Zam: So Vitalasy and Ash both have op now. We have nothing 'cause all our items came from Spoke, so. Also, all our echests were cleared, so. I think we're more than fucked if we stay. Mapicc: You know what's crazy? At the end of the day, after all the shit Spoke talks, he still trusted Vitalasy more than us. Zam: I–that's a good point. Yeah, 'cause–that–wow. That hurts. Yeah. He–wow. Mapicc: Mhm.

note the way spoke phrases this message. vitalasy failed to do what spoke did, and then he begged spoke for that same power. this particular wording will be repeated.

a question is also raised in this exchange: it is ostensibly true that spoke trusted vitalasy more than he trusted zam and mapicc, but can it really be said that spoke trusted vitalasy? how much did spoke trust vitalasy? what does trust even mean here? we know that parrot is the only person spoke truly prioritizes in season 4; parrot opposes spoke, but he is collaborated with. vitalasy collaborates with spoke, but…

Zam: We didn't even get a screenie with like, everyone by the void!

in the ensuing chaos, vitalasy interrupts what everyone thought was the server’s final moment. everyone just wants this whole thing to be over, zam especially wants this whole thing to be over. i don’t think there’s anything vitalasy could have done at this point that would have landed. spoke hung onto his power until this last possible moment, /op-ing vitalasy only when there was nothing left to be done. If vitalasy was trying to usurp or upstage spoke, he would have been thoroughly defeated by this.

Zam: [reading a chat message] Vitalasy, mr. "I don't want to be god" Yeah, what the fuck. That's such a switch up, this entire time he's been begging for power? That's crazy. [spoke logs back on and tells everyone to join live 4. he organizes this little meeting, says “let’s give subz and vitalasy space to give their thoughts.”]

and spoke’s continued presence here is fascinating. that moment where he jumps in the void feels like it should be an ending, passing the baton to vitalasy, but that isn’t what he does. he hovers, directing the conversation. that isn’t how you handle this if you trust him. but it isn’t just that; there’s nothing left for spoke to lose, it’s all over. so he must want to hear whatever it is he thinks vitalasy has to say. 

Vitalasy: Hey guys. How's it going. How'd you like it? Was it a little thrilling, I hope? Zam: Like what? Vitalasy: The end of the season? Zam: [unenthused] It was a... crazy fight. Pretty cool. Vitalasy: Did you have fun? Zam: I'd go far enough to say so, yeah. Vitalasy: Awesome. Then I couldn't have asked for more, actually. [Zam does the thing where you zoom in on your own face in F5, looking into the camera.] Zam: Mhm. Vitalasy: I mean as Spoke said, we've been kinda orchestrating the season. Um, from the very beginning. Since the very first day, we've had access to such items, or such exploits–if you guys have any questions we're down to answer them, now that the uh, season's over and stuff. Umm. Spoke: Yo, can we like, all meet up somewhere? [Spoke teleports all of the Lifesteal members to the swamp outside of spawn.] Spoke: I wanna hear the master plan again. Zam: Oh god. Mapicc: There is no master plan. Spoke: Let's hear it, let's hear it again. Vitalasy: What–I don't know what master plan you're talking about. Mapicc: Yeah, 'cause you didn't have one. Zam: What's going on, yeah, I'm confused. Vitalasy: I just wanted everyone to have fun on the server. I missed the good old–I still do. I think–[interrupted by clutch still being banned] Spoke: Alright, keep talking, keep talking. Keep the talk. Vitalasy: I–I don't have much to say besides, I really hope you all had fun. That–that's it. That's what this game's for, that's why we play on the server. We can stop crying, moping, coping over each other. [Zam looks into the camera again.] Mapicc: You do that harder than anyone. [there's a weird, awkward silence.] Spoke: So, the console just de-opped both of you. Vitalasy: Hm? Mapicc: Parrot's on. Before he turns the server off, or does something drastic, good–[interrupted by Clutch]–shut the fuck up–oh yeah okay, you guys go. Zam: No, let Mapicc talk. Please let Mapicc talk. Please. Mapicc: Before Parrot turns off the server, or does whatever, 'cause he just got de-opped from console, good job coming in second, Vitalasy. I hope you're really glad. Vitalasy: What do you mean? Spoke: Oh my god bro. Zam: That was deep. That was deep. Mapicc: You're talking, you keep saying "we." Like you've really accomplished anything here. You turned people against each other and you go "hey guys! I really hope you had fun!" as if you planned all of this. Spoke did everything! You–you had to beg him for operator.

vitalasy showing up at the end here is pure anti-climax, of course nobody is fucking with it. and he’s kind of turning the anti-climax into the point, about how all of this only matters because they behave as if it matters, how the game itself doesn’t matter, but the people you’re playing it with do. except everyone he’s playing with is mad at him (barring itzsubz, who might be mad at princezam.) It is in fact patently absurd to walk up to a bunch of people who have spent the past several months loudly not having fun and go, i hope you had fun!

some of them probably did have fun with wormhole. but they’re counting that as spoke’s victory, something vitalasy had nothing to do with, so they’re mad at him for acting like he did. spoke’s word choice pops up again.

and then vitalasy does this, which is even funnier, because it reinforces the angle mapicc is taking here, even though it’s the wrong angle:

Vitalasy: Like I wasn't the one who gave it to him? Spoke: WOAH! WHAT THE FUCK! [continues shouting, incomprehensibly] Vitalasy: Alright buddy, calm down, calm down. From the beginning, from the beginning. Spoke: Yeah, you wanna rephrase that? Mapicc: HOW OLD ARE YOU GUYS?

this is the thing with vitalasy. he doesn’t want to do what spoke did, but he does want recognition.

Zam: I don't get this, what the hell? Mapicc: You know where humanity would be if gods acted like this, bro? How are you guys gonna call yourselves gods, you're morons. All of you. Well, except for Zam. Zam has a brain.

(funniest mapicc quote of all time. ZAM HAS A BRAIN?)

Spoke: I wanna say–I want a verbal apology, whenever, after you explain the plan. Vitalasy: No, I mean, we've been working together from the start of it, we've always been talking, no matter what side we've been on. Clutch: But how come it felt like you were in the background of it? Vitalasy: I–I don't wanna take the front and center. I don't like doing the whole–  Mapicc: [so much crosstalk happening] You weren't front and center, Vitalasy. Vitalasy: Hm? Mapicc: You–You're not... you're nowhere near as calm and collected as you say you are. Clutch: But, what did you mean by "we would all be okay?" When I called you earlier today? Vitalasy: That's for later. Clutch: LATER WHEN? WHAT? Zam: What does that mean. What does that mean. What later? WHAT LATER? Clutch: THE SERVER'S DONE. Vitalasy: Yeah. Zam: What do you mean? What? Mapicc: He doesn't know what to say. He didn't have this planned out Zam: I feel like, yeah, I feel like you just missed everything and now you're trying to like, pull something. I don't know. Clutch: You just came in and /killed all of us, and just–  Vitalasy: I was just trying to bring us back to spawn here, but. Mapicc: I think arguing is pointless. I just wanna say again, Vitalasy, good job coming in second. 'Cause if–that's what you accomplished. Vitalasy: To what? Mapicc: To Spoke! To everybody! At the end of the day, you have never been in first place, Vitalasy. Vitalasy: Why do I need to be? Mapicc: And I think it's starting to get to you. I don't think you need to be, 'cause you clearly aren't. I think you want to be, and I don't think it's gonna happen. So, go ahead and explain to us your plan, but at the end, Spoke is what–Spoke is what actually made change.

he’s fine with the role he played in comparison to spoke for a number of reasons, and one of them is the fact that he will get his video in the end regardless of all of this; whether or not you win at lifesteal doesn’t really matter if the story you’ve decided to tell is about the glitch itself more than it is about lifesteal.

but his scheme was also never something that disregarded lifesteal, even if that was how it felt to everyone else. we know that vitalasy tried to be careful in his execution of the whole thing, to keep things from being revealed too early and destroying the stakes, wanted it to be fun for the players. he isn’t without blame in things playing out the way they did, but comparing vitalasy’s side of the story with spoke’s, it really looks like spoke was actively lying to vitalasy as he went against that part of his plan.

when vitalasy initially takes the “breaking the cycle” angle with zam, it’s a combination character move and attempt at damage control (the prison was never meant to be bedrock), not something that reflects his true motivations. vitalasy wanted the game to continue; vitalasy did all of this in the first place in large part because he was trying to fix it, to re-balance it. but those attempts fail, and he is effectively pushed out of the game, reaching a point where his only real option is to ban himself because nobody is playing with him anymore. 

despite all of this, in This Exploit changed Minecraft HISTORY... vitalasy glosses over any and all possible tensions between himself and spoke: 

Vitalasy: Project Wormhole officially began on January 21st 2023. Our mission: use the exploit to increase server activity and fun. We’d accomplish this in three ways: firstly, for the next five months, we’d use the exploit to keep balance on the server, as the reason people stopped playing was because of the mass disparity between powerful and weak players. Secondly, we’d use the exploit to give players a genuine feeling of having fun playing the game. And finally, we’d create a mystery on the server, hinting at a doomsday in which we would finally destroy the server in order to prove to Mojang that this glitch had catastrophic abilities.

It’s always, “we,” “our plan,” presenting the exploiters as a united front. what stands out most about this is that he, personally, would probably look better if he pinned it all on spoke, or ash for that matter. you have a scapegoat for everything going wrong, he’s right there! you could try to absolve yourself. you could at least frame it the way spoke frames you? but in the video, things only start going wrong when 3ht finds the vault, an outside party to the exploiters as a team. he highlights the use of replay, and glosses over the actual reasons 3ht went looking; not because they were engaging with vitalasy’s game as he intended it, solving the mystery he laid out, but because they wanted to prove that he was lying to zam. of course, the tradeoff for not throwing spoke under the bus is getting to claim spoke’s successes as his own successes. and for all intents and purposes, they are.

Vitalasy: Everything was going perfectly as planned. Every day we were revealing new items or mobs to the server. And every day, the players would log on to see what was new. (...) But just when we thought our plan was secured, on March 27th, a player named PlanetLord was looking to solve the mystery of where these items were coming from. While searching for answers, he used a mod that basically lets you X-ray, and found one of the barrel stashes in which Project Wormhole was supplying from.

when he presents his own goals as shared goals, that includes his intention to patch the glitch, even though spoke didn’t know that was his ultimate goal. something he does tell zam, the one who was supposed to stay in the dark about this whole thing until the end–a fact that complicates the trust question. vitalasy, spoke, and ash were all using the exploit to completely different ends. spoke and ash’s individual goals align much better with one another than either does with vitalasy’s interests. for ash’s part, he seems to be a pure opportunist in all of this. he ends his video with the events of early february and barely mentions the wormhole proper; all he wants is the power to get a little revenge and carry out his ego trip, so it makes sense that he isn’t bothered about getting /op in the end, or interested in competing with spoke.

you have spoke’s plan, the heavy lifting involved in manipulating parrot–we know vitalasy was involved in the planning, we’re shown footage of them discussing it in calls together, testing the sign that will change the time of day and secretly pull a /gamemode, etc. vitalasy isn’t the one executing any of this but he has a vested interest in spoke’s success, since all of his plans rest on it. you have vitalasy’s plan which, aside from the part spoke wasn’t aware of, is interested in the presentation of it all; how am i telling this story? how do we reveal things over time in a way that keeps the other players invested? we get very little information on spoke’s involvement in any of this, and it would be fair to assume these things weren’t his priority. spoke cared about balancing things during wormhole, but did he care before that? vitalasy still refers to it as “our” plan even when he does acknowledge that spoke and ash went against it, but does that reflect them actually being on the same page? something tells me they weren't. If it’s true that the balancing aspects of vitalasy’s plan largely came into play post-dupe-war, in response to dupe-war, spoke must have been committed to his own plan and his own set of priorities before vitalasy laid all of this out.

details aside, not knowing that vitalasy had an ulterior motive explains why spoke wouldn’t consider that vitalasy honestly wanted him to be the frontman, even though vitalasy explicitly told him as much; why do all of this, if you didn’t want something more? he just incorrectly assumes what it is vitalasy wants.

Vitalasy: I'm... confused. You support Spoke? Spoke's plan? Zam: Yes. Yeah, that's–like, yeah. Vitalasy: Cool. I'm fine with that–  LifestealAdmin: Yo guys, can I get a word? Zam: What's up LifestealAdmin, please say whatever you want. Please, feel free. LifestealAdmin: So, uh... [bans Vitalasy and Subz] I just banned them. [everyone laughs, and applauds] Mapicc: Vitalasy, good job coming in third! Spoke: Hold on, hold on, hold on, actually–actually hold on. Let's unban Vitalasy, let's unban Subz. I actually don't want beef. I actually don't want beef. (...) Okay, I don't want beef, so I wanna hear, what–what is the–what is like, the last thing you wanna do before the server moves on to season 5. Because obviously like, I don't–I don't know, like, Parrot doesn't typically like, /op the server. Mapicc: Spoke, I want you to close the wormhole. Zam: Oh yeah true, can you get rid of everyone? Yeah. Spoke: Hey, I kinda said like, uhh, 11:59 was the end of the civilization event. Mapicc: Spoke, I want you to close the wormhole. Me and Zam joined you for one reason and one reason only, and that was for people to lose the ability to play. If there is a bunch of people on right now, it is completely against what me and–  Vitalasy: Bruh, that was literally what I was doing. Spoke: I have a–okay, I can /ban @a... yeah, that could work. Vitalasy: Dog, I was literally banning all the new players. Spoke: Yeah, okay, my bad. [Spoke bans all of the new players, and Subz and Vitalasy, and LifestealAdmin.] Spoke: Whoopsies. LifestealAdmin, I'm so sorry. [he unbans them.] Spoke: Okay, final–final plan. Vitalasy, Subz. I–I just wanna hear it. Because, I think–uh, from my perspective–from my perspective of all of this, like, we both had an equal hand in discovering, like, the exploit. I mean, we've joined calls with the–the literal, like, creator of it, that has spent the past like, two years of their life like, learning about it, exploring it. And, I mean, we pushed the boundaries of it together. We took it from what was once just a little like–like, chat visual glitch, to an actual like, physical, game breaking glitch. And, I mean, I can–like–I can't thank you enough for that. But, I knew when I first found it–I–and when I first learned the possibilities of it, that only one could get op. Vitalasy: Yep. Spoke: Now, with that being said, I wanna hear your final goal with all of this.

let’s pivot for a second. here’s exactly what spoke has to say about this scene in complete wormhole breakdown, 57:40 - 1:02:10:

Spoke: The two things I have not explained so far is, the dynamics between the rest of the players, and Vitalasy and Subz. And Ashswag. Now I also removed this from the final cut, but this was originally going to be a major plot point in the video, and I still actually don't know the full truth of it, and that's why I removed it, because I still don't understand the full reality of it. Spoke:  But, I am honestly under the assumption that Vitalasy was working with Parrot in the finale. That may sound like a crazy conspiracy, and it probably is, 'cause I don't think he actually did, but I fully believed he did. (...) Yeah, I fully believed that–[reading a chat message] I mean Parrot asked Vitalasy to help? YES! YEAH, I REMEMBERED–yeah, okay, yeah. I also–so, during, when I first got op, like the days after, Vitalasy was constantly messaging me to also get op. And now, I’ll give him credit, like, Vitalasy was the reason why I even found the exploit in the first place, and was the person who got me in contact with Silicat, but the reason why I didn’t give him op, and I told him like, oh it’s just like a safety hazard you know, like I’ll make sure to give you guys op in the very end, like, that’s what I told him, and I told Ash the same thing, but Ash was more like, he was like “okay, I get that.” He’s like, “as long as you can give me the force, like, wands i’m fine with that.” So, Ash was really chill.  Spoke: But Vitalasy on the other hand–Vitalasy, because he, I also didn’t say this, but in May 1st, Parrot reveals to me that Vitalasy did, um, help him with the ban thing. And Vitalasy never told me about it! Vitalasy never told me that Parrot and him were like, working together. And when Parrot told me about this, I assumed it was just used to like, to convince me to stop working with them, but that’s where I realized later that, Parrot and Vitalasy were probably in cahoots. They were probably–what was probably happening was, Parrot was trying to get Vitalasy to get op, so that then I’d show him to like, the control room, he can see all my repeating command blocks, and then once he can remove all of that, he could take me off the server. And… I knew /op-ing vitalasy would probably be the one way I would get defeated. So, that’s why Vitalasy never got op, and there was a lot more points, especially after the vault was found, where I was definitely consider–considering leaving the team entirely, to focus on May 1st myself. But I knew if I left the team, then the exploit would get out there, Vitalasy–or, Parrot would learn the truth, and then it would just… not work. (...) Spoke: This was also where I /opped Vitalasy and like, Subz and Ash. But… I wasn’t really… I don’t even wanna talk about this. I’m kinda tired, I don’t really wanna talk about this. ‘Cause then, they started just like killing everybody and banning people and then this final convo happens where they… uh, I dunno. It’s weird. It’s a little–it’s weird. I don’t really like this. I–I even messaged Parrot to hop on LifestealAdmin and ban them. And he proceeded to do that and it was really funny.

so, what was spoke expecting in this moment? what did he want vitalasy to say? presumably, he was looking for a reveal. he wanted to be proven right, that he shouldn’t have trusted vitalasy, that it was never collaboration. the exploit is like a loaded gun on the table, neither spoke nor vitalasy can take the other out of the picture without destroying the chance to see their respective projects through, only vitalasy needs spoke, and past a certain point spoke really doesn’t need vitalasy (though again, where might he have been without someone else to take the fall?). but spoke correctly guesses that vitalasy isn't telling him everything, and he doesn’t understand that vitalasy requires his success in order to succeed himself, so he plays against him. you could in turn say that spoke is the one being played, but that’s the wrong way to look at it, we’ve been thinking on spoke’s terms here. vitalasy presents them as a united front.

Vitalasy: I mean, as I gained the powers more and more, from you, and from the barrels, and all that, I realized it's... not that fun. To have it all. To have /op? To have everything? There's no difference. It doesn't–it doesn't make the game any more fun, and– 

of course spoke has no idea what to do with this. "I don’t really like this. It was weird." yeah, i bet it was weird, mr. "and that feeling... was pretty cool." 

and it still leaves the question, if it isn’t fun, why did you want it so bad? for this? to make a point? to prove something to yourself, to try to prove something about yourself to everyone else? …to prove that you’re better than i am?

in this regard, vitalasy is a fundamental threat to his power. not just being–in spoke’s own words–the only thing that could have defeated him in the end, if he did get op and choose to use it against him, but–assuming his fears were unfounded–in the fact that spoke was wrong to consider vitalasy a threat. that vitalasy only earnestly wanted him to succeed, was really only playing at opposing him. that at the end of the day, vitalasy wanted something different from what spoke wanted. 

an extrapolation: you are working with him but you know, in the back of your mind, that you have to beat him to the finish line. you reveal the exploits earlier than he wants, knowing it will lessen his chances and aid your own. In the end, you discover that it was never even a race.

Zam: So why'd you do it?  Vitalasy: I never wanted, I never wanted to be the one to take down the server, to be the tyrant, or any of that.

this is where vitalasy fails to fully articulate himself. he dodges zam’s question entirely. how do you gain enough of that power to realize you didn’t want it, if you never wanted it in the first place? i think we’re all familiar with the defense mechanism which supposes a realization as having happened sooner than it really did, allowing you to have never been wrong in the first place. he’s a little more forthcoming in Season 4 Is Over!, 31:00:

Vitalasy: I realized like, a few things this season. One thing is like, I learned a bunch about myself. Like, and who I want to be for future seasons. Another thing was like, I remember end of season 3, I was like "oh my god, I've never been the bad guy. I've never like, tasted the feeling of being a villain. And... once we had exploits, and had everything, all the power in the world, it... it just felt like nothing. Hah. And I mean, luckily Spoke is the one to take it to the extreme. But you and I stayed pretty chill on this, and–  Subz: We did have every opportunity ever to do exactly what Spoke did. Vitalasy: Yeah, we literally had access to the same exact items to get operator as well, so like. Subz: Yep. Vitalasy: I don't know. That just says something to myself, about who I am. Like, I can't believe I did that. If I told myself like a year ago, in season 4 you're gonna get op, you're gonna have the ability to get op? I would have taken it and gone crazy. But here we are. Like, barely used it, up until the very end.  Subz: I guess we just don't like exploits. We're just anti-exploiters. Vitalasy: Nah–no, no, I think–I wanted–I always had the idea of like, only use exploits if other people are using a worse exploit, basically. And it's funny, I think I told you this, like... they, Baconwaffles–like, Solar Union, um... and the entire server was mad at us and targeted us for having an exploit. Even though we were using that exploit to defend ourselves, against larger exploits to come. Yet, here we are with the larger exploits. And because I–we had gotten rid of so much of it, we weren't able to help as much. Subz: It was too late. Vitalasy: I just think it's ironic, and it's–ahh... lesson learned, I guess. Subz: Lesson learned.

here vitalasy admits that he did set out to be the “tyrant.” he wanted to know how it felt, and he got his answer. everyone knows that he did, intuitively, because it was obvious–and he had (obliquely) admitted the same to zam, before.

but that still isn’t a complete explanation. during wormhole, vitalasy is still suffering from the strange results of his attempt to split his in-game and out-of-game motives down the middle. It allows him to say completely contradictory things–i set out to be the bad guy, but i was only ever using the exploits for good, in self defense!–and mean them on some level, even though to everyone else it reads as nothing but lies–but if this is all he has to offer in the end, what were the lies in service to? why did he do all of this? and he still can’t explain it even if he wanted to, because the video he did it all for isn’t out yet. he’s still trapped in the web of stupid problems he’s created for himself even as he’s trying to explain how much he learned from said problems, and how different it’s made him.

everyone involved understands, on some level, that whatever vitalasy was trying to do has already fallen apart, but he’s standing here acting like he’s won something. they don’t understand how spoke’s victory can also be his victory. they are misidentifying what it is that has failed, and they’re missing the fact that, though he could have never known going in, he needed it to fail more than he needed it to succeed. that this is a victory of its own.

while everything is still going to plan, spoke’s role as the one orchestrating the wormhole makes it possible for vitalasy to play a character who will fight against it, and once everything starts falling apart, spoke’s presence is what allows him to step back and ban himself and get excited for the wormhole despite it all. this means that even before he’s experienced the full consequences of having set himself up to play the villain and failing to follow through, he still tends towards framing himself as somehow justified/right/good. It’s just that it changes over time from something he thinks is serving a dramatic reveal into something he needs to be the truth. i don’t know how vitalasy expected the server to react to him, or to his character, or to the revelation of his character as a construct–we know he wanted it to be fun, wanted things to unfold in such a way where the spirit of the game remained intact, but the original trajectory of it all makes him look so much worse than his failures do; lying to zam the entire time, knowing that zam might betray in the end and stringing her along anyway. 

the way vitalasy describes it in that behind the scenes video, he’s describing the videos he wanted to make. in phase 5, in my video, i’ll explain everything. but when do the other players find out? would this moment, the end of the wormhole, have been that reveal for them? look, i had all of this power and i only used it for good. but now there’s nothing left to reveal. you gave it all away, and all that’s left is yourself.

vitalasy was already placed in a position where there was nothing he could do to convince anyone of anything, for reasons largely beyond anyone’s control. if he could have just committed to playing the villain, it might have fixed everything. It would have given the bedrock prison a purpose, at least. but he couldn’t, because it would require compromising his own needs. and even if he had, they still would have been mad at him–there was no winning. If there was no spoke figure there to keep the plan in motion, if it was just vitalasy, things would have been much worse. vitalasy would have been infinitely more trapped in that position and if he had still refused it, there would have been no finale to deliver some sort of payoff.

as such, spoke and ash revealing everything too early is the pivot point that simultaneously destroys everything and saves vitalasy, in a weird way. It forces him to be honest with zam, to have to try and make it work anyway. to be himself, instead of maintaining the character split. It makes sense that vitalasy isn’t mad about it. it had to happen. the trajectory he was on wasn’t working.

season 4 is lifesteal as a system working against itself. they're being held hostage by the audience, by the secrets that have to be kept from the audience, and by the fact that they are people trying to function on narrative rules. some of them are manipulating each other for real; some of them are backpedaling on that trajectory hard and not being believed, because of the true potential to be manipulated for real. no one can explain anything to each other, there’s no pre-negotiation, no trust, no one can ask for what they want. you might hope that, having reached the final moment of it all, this would stop being true. but it doesn’t. no one is able to articulate it. they just keep on talking past each other. vitalasy tries to articulate it, but he can’t get all the way there.

[LifestealAdmin whispers to Zam: I'm having a LOT of fun!!!! :) x4] Vitalasy: Anyways, I'm very glad that I could be, you know–that you could have taken that role for me. [silence, for a moment.] Mapicc: That said, what is the plan? Vitalasy: Ummm, Minecraft? Clutch: Let's have a minecraft party! Vitalasy: You guys can move on to the new server if you want, but personally? I'd just like to go fishing with my friends. There doesn't need to be some big ending, why don't we just play? How we want to play? Mapicc: Because it's already way far past fishing peacefully in Minecraft right now. Look around you. Zam: I don't–yeah, no, this place is so messed up. I don't know how you could try to stay here.  Vitalasy: Exactly, that's what I'm saying. You guys can move on. LifestealAdmin: Boys, boys, I'm gonna be honest bro, like, I just think everybody's rationale is dookie booty, see you next season, boys. [Everyone is banned. Zam laughs.] Mapicc: You know what Zam, does that count? I'll take that. Zam: Does that count? That does count, yeah.

vitalasy’s wormhole video is, as far as i know, the only video to include this scene at all. It’s the final piece of lifesteal footage shown, before vitalasy ends it talking about how he succeeded in getting the glitch patched. we get one line of dialogue from vitalasy, and then it cuts away–knowing, having seen it, that this is because there’s nothing else of it he could have included without calling the rest of the video into question. not just the parts that make himself look better, all of it. he would have to acknowledge the fact that he’s tying it all up in a bow and the bow doesn’t fit right.

Vitalasy: As players flooded the server I smiled with glee, knowing that this was not only about to be the end of the server, therefore forcing us all to make a new server and start fresh, but also the ending of Project Wormhole. I fought against the wormhole with the other players to make the event fair, but the doomsday continued as planned. As hours went by, totems were removed, hearts were taken, and effects were cleared, all to build up to the moment when we could finally /stop the server for good. But the more I fought against the wormhole, the more I found myself… not… having fun. While the players had a goal, to survive the wormhole event, because I knew everything, I didn’t really know what to do. I could have continued mindlessly going into battle against the wormhole, but at the time, that simply didn’t seem enjoyable. For so long I had hidden behind the curtains of my great project, and now watching it unfold, I had no role to play. So seeing my best friend next to me, just as lost as I was, for the first time in eleven months, I decided to put the wormhole project aside.  [cut to recording; the end of their confrontation with zam, decontextualized.] Vitalasy: Why don’t we just log off? Don’t you remember like, the good old days? Days of minecraft. Building, just… playing minecraft. [cut] Subz: why the hell does it matter what other people want. Or, not really like that but like– Vitalasy: No, I get what you mean. We are doing what we want for us. Subz: Yeah, yes, yes. That’s what I meant. [back to voiceover] Vitalasy: So we waited and watched, as the server we used to care about crumbled. Because in the end it didn’t matter, server or not. We learned what mattered most. That's why we made Project Wormhole; to end the server while bringing its players closer together. Us included.

that’s why we made project wormhole; to end the server while bringing its players closer together. us included. 

[PARROT STARED AT ME, AS HE REALIZED: I DIDN’T JUST EXPLOIT A GAME, I EXPLOITED A FRIENDSHIP I HAD BUILT OVER YEARS. VIDEO AFTER VIDEO, I LIED ABOUT THE EXPLOITS, I LIED ABOUT THE STORY, I LIED ABOUT THE NPPP TO ARTIFICIALLY CREATE HIS PURPOSE. I LIED TO THE VIEWERS, I LIED TO MY FRIENDS, I LIED TO GET TO THIS PLACE, THE ONE PLACE THAT WAS DEEMED IMPOSSIBLE. BUT THE TRUTH IS? THAT ANYBODY COULD HAVE ABUSED THE WORMHOLE. BUT NOBODY COULD HAVE DONE WHAT I HAD ACHIEVED.]

and spoke thinks, why did you forgive me? I thought you’d hate me for it. but you don’t.

princezam says: you aren’t allowed to forgive me. 

vitalasy thinks: i wish you would forgive me. I wish you would forgive yourself.

vitalasy and subz stand there after she leaves and they say, maybe it was only ever meant to be the two of us–vitalasy bookends this same scene, decontextualized, with the sentiment that he and subz were brought together through all of this.

….at what cost? what a hollow win condition. It wasn’t about that. 

we’re doing what we want for us. and it is selfish, by some measures. by zam’s measures, and maybe by everyone else’s too, what vitalasy does in season 4 is selfish. the wormhole is, on the parts of everyone involved, a scheme prioritizing their stories over everyone else's in true lifesteal fashion, declaring narrative control, orchestrating the shape of an entire season; a year of everyone’s lives. vitalasy could not end further from where he began: there is no climax to my story, there is no twist ending, there’s just me. he set it all up with the intention of there being those things, and in the videos where he can gain back distance and narrative control, maybe there is. but over the course of season 4 it all unravels, until it’s just him. and isn’t this the same lesson zam had to learn with eclipse? that you can’t compromise yourself? that you might end up in a situation and realize that it’s not what you want, and have to find a way to get yourself out of it. even an inelegant one. It isn’t just vitalasy creating a role that zam can’t fill, it’s zam doing it back at him, too, building on the framework until the whole thing collapses for both of them. how do you explain the realization that you don’t want what you thought you wanted, but that all of the time wasn’t wasted, because you had to go through it to get where you are now, even though you would never do it again? you don’t. tie it up in a bow.

a contradiction: the server isn’t what matters, the people are what matters, but we refuse to give it up–we’ll be back. and what’s with his fixation on the day one fishing spot, anyway? this juxtaposition where it can be both the site of the exploit’s discovery and the epitome of normal minecraft the way vitalasy talks about it, some sort of threshold. what would that moment have been without the exploit, is that the question? no, because vitalasy doesn’t regret doing it. he needed to do this, to learn from it. but now he’s done. why does vitalasy want to revisit that originary moment–a moment spent with the other exploiters? us included. why does he want to stay in the world, explore its ruins, build an ugly house, hang all of his sentimental items on the wall? vitalasy and subz talk about zam like they don’t want to remember her, and she’s absent from these final videos, but she gets hung on the wall too.

two years later, princezam says: i need to forgive myself through you.

the locus of tension in the final eclipse argument–part and parcel with the things people will refuse to talk about, moving forward–is on the fact that zam hates herself and what she’s done and the situation she’s found herself in, but she won’t actually do anything to make it better. it takes her two years afterwards to even begin to work it out. that scene is the climax of their personal stories in season 4 and it amounts to vitalasy, having been changed so dramatically in large part because of the effect zam had on him, running into the fact that she is rejecting that same kind of change in favor of taking her anger out on the world and with it, herself. she wants to leave it behind, and she wants to forget it happened. spoke, for his part, seems to take about the same amount of processing time on all of this that zam does.

this final scene is just a nail in a coffin. people talking past each other. at that moment in time, vitalasy and the rest of lifesteal rendered incapable of understanding each other.

Zam: I'll talk to Bacon about it. (...) Maybe I can talk to Mapicc about it. [pause] ugh, but then I'm scared that they're gonna be like–nah, cause like, I don't–I don't wanna talk to someone about it and then they'll just be like, yeah, no, Vitalasy was like, evil. And then it's like–cause like–everyone–everyone on the server at that point strongly believed that he was, right? I don't know.

how do you talk about that? first, you just don’t understand it. you cannot seem to grasp what he’s telling you, nothing to be done with it. later… maybe you would understand it. but it’s been so much time, and admitting you were wrong is really one of the hardest things in the world (and telling someone else that they were wrong might be harder still).

[d1s1ntegrated]

hallo!! i rlly love ur hcs and just ur writing in general esp w/ shigaraki !! it’s so refreshing!!

I was curious if you could/ would be willing to make hcs r smthn of sub!shigaraki ? :3 would be super cool!! completely up to u tho!!

you ask, i deliver bby

sub!shigaraki hcs (nsfw)

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shig is a switch, but when he gets subby, he gets SUBBY.

will beg and whine pathetically, pleading to get fucked like the good boy he is

you have to tell him "use your words", otherwise he's a pitiful nonverbal mess

melts like putty at your words. specifically likes when you call him pretty baby, handsome, beautiful, etc.

prefers praise over degradation, will cum over and over just from you telling him he's doing a good job

really likes to make you cum all over him, it's his version of a gold star sticker

cums so fast when hes subby, but will go multiple rounds

cries, in a good way.

def has a mommy kink, but actually also other worship terms: i.e. mistress, miss, goddess, my divinity (personal fav), etc.

you can tell when he's feeling more subby, cause he'll wear lighter colors like blue and pink compared to his usual all-black wardrobe

suuuuper handsy and wants a lot of attention

only time he has manners. usually hes a generally crude mfer but when hes sub, its all pleases, thank you's, and excuse me's.

much quieter in subspace

prefers slow/cozy games like minecraft and acnh

has you speak for him during meetings when hes subby cause hes embarrassed (he always lies and says he lost his voice but in reality hes just too pathetic sounding)

if you are fucking him, he likes being on top, or doggy

if hes fucking you, its just oral, or fingering, so he can make sure he's doing the best job to make only you cum (if he puts it in, he'll cum immediately and feel bad)

gets hypersexual and just wants to be railed for hours on end

edges himself until you can help him or tell him he can cum

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this one did things to me, i fear

enjoy!!

[arseniy-arsenicum33]

All Hermits in Hero Forge!

Season 10 is coming! And I've finished modeling every Hermit (Thus far) in their TCG-cards poses!

Special thanks to Hoffen for their original minecraft models...

You've already saw these eight models in my Life-series minis showcase, slight tweaks and costume changes... I really need to buy Hero Forge subscription, so i can manipulate fingers individually... Now, for the new guys... Guess what?! I've figured out how to make links! Now you can see my references directly! Technology!

Ren got his cool casual look...

Docm77 inspired primarily by Belmarzi's design, such as this... It was very funny to suddenly stop in the middle of this project to model him hugging Snoop Dogg...

JoeHills, unsurprisingly, based on real-life Joe Hills... But I did have this comic by my side while modeling him, for moral support, because modeling someone's likeness is always stressful...

Cleo's pose pose a challenge, It uses a transparent one-legged skeleton inside the main body... Like a real armour-stand magic! I like how it turned out...

I've started watching Zedaph very recently, so both Noxolotl's and Applestruda's portrayals of him were very helpful in forming mine...

Blaise's Hermit line up was used for Cub and Hypno, which you will see down the line... Bee's art was helpful, once again, and these Cub-arts by Sylvan...

My main goal with Jevin was to somehow convincingly make a slime look slimy... I was so ready to make him as rotund as this art, but alas, program restrictions...

This art was used for False at the very beginning, but it drifted so much with the addition of cheekbones, that it doesn't look like it at all anymore...

Hypno had a surprise for me, because before making this model, I've never saw this brown line on his chest as a boob-window... But now, I am convinced... This is the art, that guided me to that conclusion... Ghostea's and Locus's portraits were useful for figuring out his face...

Iskall lifted from this art... Hero Forge doesn't have any cool one-eyed visors, so I've settled on monocle for him and Doc...

Hero Forge also for some reason doesn't have a hand-held flower, so pretend, that Stress doesn't hold a pen, okay? And has a cardigan... Based mainly on this and this art, which was also used for XB...

My best guess with Keralis was that he is doing Edvard Munch's "The Scream" ommage... Thanks to Myra and Cole , without them, Keralis would've looked more like a bug with them big ol' eyes...

Oh, boy, XB... A true enigma for me... Pictured here, lightly jogging... Only you could tell me, if I did a good job with him, I sincerely have no idea... Since this is in part a TCG-inspired project, it would've been wise to use references from the actual TCG-cards... To bad, I've came up with this idea near the end of a project...

I have made so many Xisuma-costumes, and only now I am showing you the main friendly-neighbourhood DoomGuy cosplayer himself... Do I need to credit id Software for this?

WelsKnight is my champion in regards to how many references I needed for him... 1 2 3 4 5 6 7! Despite how many armour options Hero Forge has, making something coherent out of them was difficult... Especially, keeping in mind, that one day I'm going to model HelsKnight as well...

And finally, TinFoilChef, based heavily on this stunning artwork... And somewhat on this skin by Ink-Ghoul... It all comes around...

And the Creator Himself! Beef! And his wonderful portraits: 1 2 3 4...

I actually going to use him as an example, to address something...

Here is how my screen looks, then I am working on a model... My method of creation is derivative by nature, it requires the art and creativity of other people... And I have SO MUCH anxiety about this... Not being an artist, but still trying to make something with my limited capabilities... And post it on the internet, oh horror...

With recent talks about plagiarism and AI-art, it has come to my attention, that I myself not so different from AI, just not so efficient... So, this is why I so obsessively document my influences, it is the least I can do... Credit the artists, that I stole from... Please, check out everyone mentioned, subscribe to them, commission new pieces of art...

And if you've liked my dorky "minecraft youtubers made in DND character creator" models... Thank you...

Sometime later there will be a google doc on my blog with links to every model I've ever made, go nuts with them... Try Hero Forge for yourself, it's fun...

[blue-jisungs]

streamer!bf jeongin

song inspo. item by stray kids!! woo!!

a/n. this jeongin lives 24/7 in my mind ?! also this is the last july jam session piece of writing <\3 oh and thank u @l3visbby for helping me out w this one mwah ily!!

pronouns. not specified/gender neutral

foxI.Ny was a small steamer that started with minecraft videos and tutorials

but with time he blew up, people loving his personality, voice and handsome face ^_^

he’s known for playing with his other 7 friends online, being the youngest amongst them

chill streams r one of his favourites, just playing animal crossing and talking to his fans

or singing

but his fans noticed that sometimes his gaze would linger off in another direction or his smile would become heartwarmingly wide upon seeing something behind his screen

so they were like ‘meh, those r probably his friends, right? he mentioned he lives with someone’

but one day during a q&a session while he’s rambling about some of his future plans connected with vlogging, the fans see a glimpse of hand and someone putting down a bowl of fruit

jeongin smiles, has literal hearts in his eyes… and chat goes crazy bc!! what just happened!! is this his s/o?! he HAS AN S/O?!

and he’s like “umm yeah 😁”

it goes trending and he’s so :(

“y/n i’m so sorry… what do we do now…”

so you discuss it and just… settle on saying that he’s taken and if and when you feel like it, you’ll show up on the stream ^_^

but in the meantime you continue to give him some fruits or water while he’s steaming

the fans go insane once u place a soft kiss on his forehead and run away giggling

like, they already love u

when the day comes… oh boy…

you pop in, smiling shyly and waving; jeongin is just staring at you in awe (as usual) and chat goes crazy

this is your chat now.

you even go trending on twitter

and the people want you on the streams 🫵

what people want, jeongin shall give… and well, you liked it too

so often he goes streaming with you, different kinds of games or just q&ns

animal crossing, the sims, minecraft, league of legends, the witcher, genshin, valorant…. you name it

even cooking simulators

he just wants you to have fun

and his chat js so :((

he’s stealing kisses from you occasionally or just kissing your temple

“good job!” “you’ve got this!” “you did so good, im so proud baby!!”

you two are goals ngl

JEONGIN IS JEALOUS THO BC THE FANS KEEP EDITING YOU TOO

“guys… i beg… i know my partner is amazing but please…”

and you’re like “hehe >:)”

yeah… fans truly love u 🥹

other than that you always have some kind of matching; whether it’s clothes in game, keychains, pfps on social media

he can be a sweetheart while playing games with you like helping you out or fighting mobs if they’re bugging you

but if he’s feeling mischievous he will steal your crops or hit you lol 😭

but oh man if you’re having an open mic in valorant or csgo

he will get defensive if someone insults you,,, he won’t let it slide

lol but also he’s like

playing with the boys, yelling being loud

it takes one (1) text from you

“can u shut up ‼️‼️‼️‼️🔥🔥”

or “be a bit quiet please i’m studying :(“

for him to quiet down lmao

you often hang out in his chat as well

and he’s so :”) when he realises

but gets pouty when you start flirting with his fans literally in front of his eyes 😔

sometimes switches to emote only bc of that LMAOO

but sometimes you just type that u “miss his stupid face” while you’re at work

and everyone is like <\\3

he takes you to diff events n all, you’re often featured in his vlogs

basically you’re the fav couple of the internet bc u can just feel the love between you two 🥹

and everyone loves you, seriously

who knows, maybe you’ll open your own channel one day?

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[tyttamarzh]

Midnight Ramblings about Missa (Or "character analysis focused on his seeking approval and how this influences his self-perception and in his performance") (Or "My boy just needs confidence and time to show how chingón he is.")

I have a thought… okay, okay, yes, Missa is a wet cat and he can't escape of that… but I think everyone underrate the ability of him for learn and improve…

When all came to the island, no one have nothing and everyone seems at the same level in general. For Missa was hard, but he adapted to life, he build a house, had an armor, went to mines and dungeons with his friends and even when others helped him, he always tried to make it on his own and search his own purpose. Everyday he gain more expierence and confidence and lost the fear to go out alone, he could fight for himself, he could survive. Then, when everyone was paired up to take care of the eggs and he met Phil, he tried his best for being useful, for help him.

He always does that, but this time he had just met him and he wanted to do his best to make a good impression on this new person in his life.

He had already done it before, that has a context, when he met the "Team Vacio Legal" (and was adopted), at first he was not considered part of the team, they treated him like an assistant, they called him his pet and they even told him that they would use him as bait, but Missa was so grateful to be with them, that he accepted all their orders willingly and strove to do the best for them (They were not just any team, it was the one that was considered the strongest and favorite to win, in fact, the winner was a member of this team). I remember that they ordered him to build a temporary house if he wanted to stay and at that moment he began to build non-stop, and he was doing it very fast, he was very concentrated on it, then Rubius, to annoy him, stand right where he was going to put a block and Missa stood paralyzed, neither of them said anything for a few seconds, until Missa, quite anxious, said: " Please, please, I'm just trying to do a good job…" and at that Rubius gave up the idea of joking with him and simply looked at him and said "You're doing very well" and moved, to which Missa He laughed and continued working until he finished. His dedication made everyone quickly become attached to him and at some point the line between being everyone's servant and being everyone's protected faded (even the 4 of them risked their lives to go save Missa's dog from acid rain), he went from not being considered part of the team to being the most loved by all of them, so much so that his death devastated them and they continued using his name as a banner until the end (ohh I really loved Extremo, sorry xD).

Even if Missa knows that he is not good at many things, he gives everything, he strives, learns and grows, to continue giving everything for those he loves, that is how he died in Extremo, helping Quackity (although Quackity did not even realize until later).

The point is, being with Phil, he helped in any way he could, he fought against the phantoms so that Phil could continue working and in fact he must have felt very good when the mission was "sing a song to the baby" because finally one of his abilities It would be necessary and useful.

Phil never had a problem with Missa in Chayanne's care. Missa was constantly striving to be competent and they didn't really spend enough time together for Phil to realize what Missa's level really was. The problem began when he was gone for so long, because everyone's level increased at the same time as the difficulty of the world, which made Missa's lack of experience very evident. And it wasn't just because he was poor and didn't have the resources to defend himself, as Phil thought at first, Missa missed out on a lot of growth and learning about Minecraft that he could have had if he had stayed on the server. Though he tries now, he doesn't He manages to cope with the current world, which made him tremendously insecure about his abilities, which is why on many occasions he no longer try and just lets himself die. Making it very obvious to everyone, even Phil, that he can't survive alone, since he's just a little wet cat.

There is something that I miss a lot about the dynamic he had with Spreen, you see, I know that many who watch QSMP did not know what their relationship was like and do not know why he is so important to Missa, but it is because Spreen never doubted Missa's abilities, even when no one, not even Missa, trusted his abilities, Spreen always trusted, he once bet on a fight that Missa had, even when Missa said she had no idea about PVP, he bet on him and to everyone's amazement, won and was like "I knew you could." Missa always tried hard to do things and get praise from Spreen, he saw him as a father he wanted to make proud and he jumped with happiness like a child when he achieved it and that's how he grew up a lot (Having the player who is considered one of the best treat you that way and praise you must be an incredible feeling).

Losing his brother not only affected him emotionally, it affected him in the sense that he lost that and that's why his self-confidence went down the drain, because when he fails he no longer hears the "calm down, you'll make it next time, champion" now he listens "Be careful, it's dangerous" "Stay away" and he is simply saved and protected by others.

I'm not saying that Phil is wrong to help him, but that made him somewhat dependent and added to his frustration at not being able to face the world alone, it made him feel like a burden to everyone (the fact that he doesn't log on doesn't help him). Somehow that made him have a kind of regression and he went back to being the fearful boy who needs to be taken care of, it's not even like in the early days of QSMP, it's like in the early days of Extremo, considering himself completely useless and stupid, struggling to try to do things right and receive some approval, but getting frustrated at not achieving it (which is why what Tina did in purgatory helped him a lot "Tina, better therapist than Melissa" xD).

Now… let's go to the present, because I saw something very different in Missa the last time. What happened in purgatory perhaps gave him more growth than we thought, not only on an emotional level by helping him decide to stay with Phil despite not feeling enough, but on a personal level. He said to Chayanne he had been working to be a better person (better player) and wanted to show what he had learned (now seeking Chayanne's approval), somehow he found that motivation again to grow and not just lamenting his situation (that implies that CC Missa he was really practicing. My friends, he didn't even do that for the squid games, he finished installing Minecraft and jumped into the water), that gives me hope that this time he is serious about stay and if he has enough time and if this time he really delivers with his promise to log on more we could see him grow and bring out his full potential (in Extremo 2 he was doing a great job until he died suddenly and became fearful again, in purgatory he was doing things well until he realized he had the wrong missions and felt sad and useless… he can do great, his ruin it is that he sabotages himself by his lack of confidence).

Possibly he will never stop being a wet cat, that is tattooed in his character, but I think that is precisely why everyone tends to underestimate him. I am sure that one day my boy is going to give everyone a big surprise… I believe!

I think my little late night thought turned into an analysis and then a Tesis, sorry about that… I hope someone finds my ramblings entertaining…

Thank you for reading!

[allurilove]

The wedding inspo was so cute!!!!!!! When I saw the David Guetta from husband’s dream scenario, it made me think, are there any other fun/embarrassing facts about the other OCs from their past high school/teenage years?

Well, yandere professors mother was an entomologist! She was super fascinated with bugs, and she had a whole collection of different types of beetles. When yandere professor was a kid, he liked to watch his mom dissect bugs. It sort of wanted him to become a doctor for some reason, and learn about the human anatomy. He would sometimes find dead bugs around school, take em to his desk and inspect it. To everyone else it was weird as fuck, especially when you see him take the limbs apart.

Yandere husband’s first job was working for his mother. I forget what I said that she did, but I’m sure I’ve mentioned that she was a bit superstitious. She had a side hustle, which was a tiny shop filled with crystals and tarot cards. She also sold books about spirits, ghosts, and folklore. Teen!yandere husband thought she was batshit crazy. But he does keep some sage on him at times. He mostly tided up the shop, sold some items here and there, and worked on his charm. Sometimes his older sisters would come by, but that was mostly to make fun of the crazy uniform he had to wear.

Yandere chaebol is sort of a mommas boy if you couldn’t tell already lol! He sort of fears and respects her at the same time. Whenever he got in trouble with his dad, he went running to his mother because he knew his dad couldn’t do anything to him then. On KakaoTalk (a korean messaging app) his mother is the first name that pops up. And her pfp is of her and teen yandere chaebol at his peek teenager phase. He has begged her to take it down multiple times. Even if it wasn’t an embarrassing picture, he still just doesn’t want to see it. Yandere chaebol was the guy that was annoyingly smart in school. He had the most advantage anyways, since his parents got him tutors in almost every subject. Yandere chaebol didn’t go through an awkward phase like yandere husband did. (a little clue of the yandere quiz).

Yandere stalker took art pretty seriously in school. Like, he would have a meltdown if it wasn’t up to his high standards. He would pull all nighters to put some tiny finishing touches on an art project, and it’ll affect his ability to do well in his other classes. He would be yawning in class, falling asleep, and his math notebook was filled with doodles. He almost couldn’t graduate if it wasn’t for his father slapping some sense into him.

Yandere prodigy was the kid in school that lugged around his heavy ass violin case everywhere (literally me). He had a bus to catch, and he couldn’t afford to go up three flight of stairs to go grab it and run back down again. He was pretty much forced into playing the musical instrument, and actually hated orchestra as a teen. His brother was the true prodigy, but he got into an accident and couldn’t play anymore. So, it got passed down to yandere prodigy. He purposefully played bad at every concert, and he made sure his bow went the opposite direction as everyone else too. However, his parents pretty much gave him a tutor and he fell in love with it.

Calm yandere was a failed minecraft youtuber. He wanted to have a gaming channel, and also wanted to get paid for playing games too. He wasn’t getting as much of attention as he hoped for, and he did have a pretty good set up…. People just happened to think his commentary was ass since he didn’t talk most of the time. lol!

[amymbona]

Girl dad Patrick Zweig.

Someone give him a daughter.

That man deserves to have a daughter and dedicate his whole life to her.

She is the light of his life, the sun of his days. This man adores his daughter more than any other person in this world.

He is her protector, her prince, her knight in shining armour. Any kid being rude to his little girl? Patrick makes sure that kid is crying to his parents.

Someone said a bad thing about his daughter? That someone wakes up with all their teeth extracted, I'm not even joking.

He buys her sweets, chocolate, pizza, milkshakes, cotton candy, McDonald's, popcorn - anything she asks for! It's unhealthy? Oh, no worries, she will be eating a bowl of fruit after that.

He never lets her walk a longer distance. Always scoops her up in his arms and pretends to throw her in the air for some laughs.

Does his girl like a particular dress? A fluffy skirt? A little shirt printed unicorn? Socks with ruffles? It's in her wardrobe the next day.

Watching TV shows together. Introduces her to South park and teaches her curse words at an early age.

"Mister Zweig? Your daughter called her classmate an ugly ass horse."

No punishments. That man is proud of his little girl for standing up for herself.

Braiding her hair. He's been watching youtube tutorials on that.

Even learned how paint nails with perfectly chosen non-toxic nail polish.

Her room is her kingdom. A canopy bed, fluffy carpet, pushed scattered all over the room. Lego buildings by the wall. All book series neatly sorted in her bookshelf. Little fairy lights on the ceiling. Pictures of the two and posters of One direction on the walls.

Allows her to play the Sims and Minecraft on his computer.

Little tea parties each Sunday.

Lets her do his makeup with one of these shitty sets. There are glitters all over his face but he loves it.

His girl could actually be a makeup artist in the future.

"Did such a good job, sweetheart!"

Neat and thoughtful. His girl never catches a cold in winter, buys her little vitamin C gummies, tucks her shirt in her pants so she's all nice and warm.

Teacher his daughter tennis but never wants her to pursue the career professionally. Knows it could eventually ruin her.

Attends every single ballet performance. Always sits in the first row and records a video.

"That's my girl!"

When she's older, talks about boys follow. And Patrick gets so protective.

"Never let a boy treat you bad. If he's being rude, just kick him in the nuts. Yeah. Just like that."

When she gets a love letter from her classmate on Valentine's day, he calls the guy's mother to know everything about him. His daughter won't be dating some asshole.

Unconditional support. Whatever hobbies she pursues or clothes she wears (unless they at especially revealing), whoever she loves or however she feels, he always supports her.

Pep talks about mental health. Patrick knows how important it is to feel mentally comfortable.

Would do everything for daughter to smile and be happy.

A proud concert dad. Always accompanies his girl and records videos for her so she can enjoy the whole experience thoroughly.

Cries at her graduation.

"They grow up so fast, don't they?"

Forever the most important woman of his life.

[noonaishere]

Online/Offline [C.S] - seventy-four | because I like you

Your life had taken on a strange quality: at the café, you and San pretended to date while at work, and at your real job, you pretended to date on stream. You couldn’t even say that you were leading a double life, because it was just your whole life now. Both day and night, you and San were a fake couple, acting the way a real couple did in a performance for others. The only time you weren’t acting now, was when you were at home by yourself, interacting with no one.

San made it as easy as he possibly could though. At work you smiled at each other more and stood closer to each other, sometimes he would get very close as if you two were having a private conversation, the way couples sometimes do, but he would tell you silly jokes to make you giggle the way a girlfriend might. During your Minecraft streams he went above and beyond, constantly making you items and leaving them for you, fighting things off for you, and standing with you while you figured out how to make literally anything and walking you through it multiple times.

He also had this habit of looking at you like you were everything in his world; eyes in upturned crescents, smile broad across his face making his dimples go off like firecrackers during new years, and you swore he looked like the sparkliest, most bishie manga boy you'd ever seen come to life. Sakura petals and sparkles floating around his face and everything.

He was… a very good actor.

In fact, if you didn’t know any better, you would have thought that maybe he really did like you as more than a friend. You wondered how good of an actor Yunho was, if his roommate was out here, night and day, acting like such a good boyfriend that - if you didn’t keep reminding yourself - you would have already been convinced that he actually was your boyfriend.

In the few hours you had between seeing him at work and seeing him during streaming, you had to consciously convince yourself of the reality: that none of it meant anything. You struggled against your heart as it tried to tell you, No, what he’s doing is real! I know because it makes me flutter and pump harder and I’m trying to tell you that it’s real!, with your brain logically countering, We agreed to fake date, it’s nothing more than that, don’t be ridiculous!, and you stuck between the two of them, not knowing who to believe. At this rate, they were going to rip your metaphorical arms out of your sockets in their tug of war, and you would collapse to the floor and die, only to still have your heart quicken at the thought of him. 

The next day at work, you leaned your elbow on the counter and rested your chin on your palm.

“What do you want?” San asked, smiling.

“Remember when I said you have kind eyes? I like to look at them.”

San laughed.

“And you have a really handsome face. And I should know I've worked at two different cafés so I've seen a lot of faces.”

San laughed again.

“Um, can I get something?”

“Ah! Mingi! Nice to see you again,’ you said as you stood up straight. “Welcome to AtoZ café, what would you like?”

Mingi smiled. “Can I get two mocha frappes, large, and two peach teas, small?”

“Sure thing.” You smiled and went to punch in his order.

San leaned over so his face was in your way.

“What are you doing?” 

“I thought you wanted to look at me?”

“Not right now, I’m trying to put this order in.” You laughed and pushed him.

“Are you sick of me now?” He asked as he got closer.

“Sannie, oh my god.” You pushed him again.

Mingi looked at the two of you with a raised eyebrow.

He smiled, standing up straight, one hand on his hip. “Why were you looking at me so much, anyway?”

“Because,” you gestured to Mingi to pay with his card and finished ringing him up, and turned to make his drinks. 

San followed you to the espresso machine. “Because?”

“I’m a Sanflower.”

“A Sanflower?” He raised an eyebrow playfully.

“Mhm. Sunflowers always face the sun, and I'm always facing you. I'm a Sanflower.”

Wooyoung made a retching noise as he came out of the kitchen.

San ignored him, his attention still on you. “That's cheesy.” 

“You like it.”

“… I do like it.”

“Stop being gross!” Wooyoung said as he waved his hands at both of you. “I’m confiscating her. I have to teach her macaroons today.”

“Right now? I’m making drinks--”

Wooyoung hefted you onto his shoulder and you handed San the empty espresso cups you were holding before you could drop them.

“Wooyoung!”

“Can’t wait.”

You waved at San and blew him a kiss as Wooyoung carried you back to the kitchen. He smiled at you and pretended to catch it.

Mingi smiled awkwardly at the display and chuckled. “You guys are cute.”

“She’s cute.” San smiled, before making the drinks.

In the kitchen, Wooyoung put you down.

“Woo! What was that for?” You hit his chest.

“I know you’re only pretending to date, but you’re both so sweet I’m going to get cavities, and I’m an innocent bystander.”

You chuckled. “Do we really seem like a couple though?”

“Yes. And I wish you’d stop.” He shoved the bag of batter into your hands.

“But we have to make it look like we’re dating so my stalker doesn’t come back.”

“He’s not even in the store at the moment, why do you have to go so hard?”

“Because he could come in at any time. If it looks like we’re springing into action, he’s not going to believe it’s real.” He stuck out his tongue in disgust as he watched you pipe batter onto the sheet in little domes. 

“And anyway, we shouldn’t talk about it not being real, we’re trying to convince that stalker that I’m taken. Maybe he’ll just… leave me alone forever.”

“So then you’d have to fake date San for forever?”

You looked up and stared at him for a minute. “Maybe I’ll just move again. The stalker wouldn’t possibly follow me to like… Centralia, Pennsylvania, right?” You went back to piping.

“Is that a place?”

“Yeah, there’s been a coal mine burning under the town and the government had to evacuate it because people were being poisoned by the smoke.”

He chuckled. “Why do you know that?”

“The Silent Hill movie was sort of based on it. All the fog.” 

He nodded. “Wouldn’t you also be poisoned from the smoke, then?”

You looked up again as if he had made some amazing point. “And then I’d die and he wouldn’t be able to follow me. Excellent idea.”

Wooyoung shoved you playfully. “Don’t talk like that. I don’t want you to die.”

You laughed and got back to the macaroons. “I mean, my stalker definitely couldn’t follow me to the beyond.”

“But then you’d be leaving your fake boyfriend behind.”

“Oh no.” You said sarcastically.

Wooyoung laughed and elbowed you. “Is he that bad?”

“No… he’s actually a really good boyfriend-- fake boyfriend.”

“Oh?” He smiled.

“Ugh.” You sighed and stopped to stretch your neck, all the looking down made it hurt. You looked at the ceiling. “He sent me flowers that day...”

He chuckled. “Is that bad?” 

“I’ve never had a real boyfriend bring me flowers.” You looked at Wooyoung. “That’s just-- infuriating. The real ones don’t but the fake one does?”

Wooyoung laughed. “He’s just a really sweet dude.”

“You’re telling me. I could slap myself, he’s so sweet.”

He chuckled. “I guess it’s good that you picked San, then? There could be worse people to fake date if you have to do it for a while.”

“Like who? You?”

“I’m an amazing boyfriend, fake or otherwise.” He stuck his tongue out at you.

“Alright. Brat.”

His eyes widened in shock for a second before he ran his fingers through his hair. “Haha…” 

You snorted and went back to your macaroons. Out of the corner of your eye, you thought you saw some devious expression flash across Wooyoung’s face.

“What if you and San actually dated? Then you’d have a real boyfriend who brings you flowers.”

“Woo, we work together. You don’t shit where you eat, dude.”

“What? How would asking him out be shitting?”

“Listen… once, when I was young and very, very dumb I dated a guy I worked with. I thought it was a fantastic idea because I’d get to see him all the time… and I did. He treated me like shit and I had to see him all the time at work both while we dated and after we broke up. I was only lucky in that he ended up getting promoted and transferred before I could be the one to quit.”

“But San’s not--”

“I know that you’re going to say ‘San’s not like that,’ and while I’ve only known all of you for a few months, I do get the feeling he might not be. But I knew that guy for over a year and I thought he wasn’t like that. And I was wrong.”

“I’ve known San longer than you have.”

You stopped what you were doing, and turned to him. “Have you ever dated him?”

“I-- no…”

“So you don’t know how he might act in a relationship.”

“Uh… no.”

You stared at him for a few moments, waiting for him to acknowledge that he understood you.

“I mean… I guess you’re right.”

You went back to what you were doing.

“But you won’t know unless you give him a chance.”

“I don’t know why you’re suddenly so invested in my love life - or lack thereof - Wooyoung, but please stop. I’m being stalked online as well as in real life. I don’t have the mental bandwidth to think about actually trying to enjoy anything right now.”

You kept your focus on the macaroons you were working on, but you could see Wooyoung looking at you. He stared at you a few more moments before getting to work on the macaroons he had piped out earlier.

You thought of your conversation with Wooyoung again as you woke up the next morning, confused at first of whether it was a dream or not. But it was just the lucid remembrance of the day before, making macarons and trying to avoid the subject of yours and San’s possible real dating.

And even after partly reliving it as a dream, you still had no idea why Wooyoung even suggested that you and San actually date. Nosey.

You checked the time, confused as to why your alarm hadn’t gone off: four AM.

Jesus fuck. 

You stretched and tried to shake off the dream. You had the day off today, and you had to start working on the new computer you had been planning on. The last parts for it had come in late last week, but you had been so busy with your subterfuge that you hadn’t had any time to think about putting it together. Instead, maybe getting lost in working on it all day was just what you needed to clear your head for a few hours.

Too many hours - and a lot of cursing - later, it was time to stream and you and San ran around in Minecraft because your brain was too fried to do anything else.

You yawned.

“Are you okay?” San asked.

“Yeah, I’m just tired.”

“Why’s that? I would make a joke about you gaming all night but you normally don’t.”

You chuckled. “Not since Mass Effect 3 disappointed me, at least.”

He laughed.

“No, I was working on a new rig with a custom case and shit all day today. I woke up early by accident and worked on it for… from four AM to now?”

He did the math quickly in his head. “--Sixteen hours?”

“Yep,” you yawned. “I’m still not done with it.”

“Oh my god…”

“Do you want to hear about it?”

“I want you to go to sleep!” He laughed. “Why’d you wake up at four to work on it?”

“It wasn’t on purpose, I had like a weird dream and woke up.”

“A nightmare?”

“I’m not sure.”

“Do you remember it?”

Yes. “Not really.”

“Well… that sucks that it woke you up.”

“Wanna hear about the computer?”

“You know I love it when you talk shop, go on.”

As you went to respond with a long list of specs and reached for your phone so you could send him pictures, your stomach growled louder than you had ever heard it growl before. You paused.

“Was that-- your stomach?” San asked and laughed.

“I’m just realizing that I forgot to eat lunch.”

San laughed again.

“...And breakfast.”

“Wha--? You didn’t eat breakfast?”

“I always forget to eat when I’m excited to work on something.”

San tsk’d. “Jagi, you can’t do that to yourself.”

“It was an accident!” You laughed.

“I’m not scolding you.” San went quiet for a second. “What would you have eaten if you did have lunch?”

“Are you trying to rub it in?”

He chuckled. “No. Just making conversation.”

“Mmmmm, actually I could go for some udon right now.”

“Sounds good.”

“I want them fat, fat, squishy noodles.”

He laughed softly. “In what, like a soup? Or something else?”

“Oooo, good question. Umm, honestly, I could just go for a traditional udon soup right now. So warm, so squishy, so umami.”

He hummed in response and the two of you went back to your game.

Twenty minutes later San’s avatar stopped moving on the screen. 

“What you doing?” You asked.

“Take your headphones off?”

“What? Why? You can’t be here, you’re on stream.”

He laughed. “Is someone ringing the doorbell?”

You took your headphones off and listened. Sure enough, the doorbell rang. You jumped with a startled gasp. “What? How did you know?”

He laughed softly. “That should be your food. You should go get it.”

“What?” You got up, beelined to the door, checked the intercom and saw the delivery man. You opened the door, “Hi.”

“Order for y/l/n y/f/n?”

“That’s me. How much do I owe you?”

“It’s already paid for.”

“O-- oh. Thank you.”

“Have a nice night.” He smiled.

“Yeah, you too.”

He walked back down the hall. You got some utensils and went back to your desk with the food in tow. You put your headphones back on.

“So, um… is this why you were asking what udon I wanted?”

He chuckled. “I’m surprised you didn’t pick up on it; I wasn’t exactly being sly about it.”

“Honestly, I was too busy still thinking about the computer,” you laughed. “You didn’t have to buy me food, though.”

“Of course I did. I can’t let my girl sit there with a growling stomach while she tries to stream.”

You laughed again as you opened the container with the soup, “It wasn’t that bad--” you were interrupted by your stomach growling again, even louder than the first time.

San laughed loudly. “You were saying?”

“It was reacting to the food! I just opened the lid!”

He laughed. “It sensed it.”

“It did-- oh my god it smells so good.” You could have drowned in the amount of saliva your mouth produced at the mere smell of the food and swallowed hard.

“I’m glad.”

“Did you get anything for yourself?”

“Nah, I ate earlier.”

“Then let me order you some dessert or something.”

“You don’t have to get me anything.”

“But I feel bad.”

“Don’t feel bad, you’re not allowed.”

“Morn…”

“If you eat and you’re happy, then I’m happy.”

You had to stop yourself from saying what you really wanted to say: ‘I love you’. 

It wouldn’t have been weird if you said it, the two of you - to everyone else - were dating, after all. Couples tell each other ‘I love you’ all the time. Except that the two of you were not a real couple, and all of this was for show. If you said it, it might not have seemed weird to the fans who were watching, but it definitely would have been weird to San… and to you. The statement was much too close to how you actually felt as you mixed the soup with your chopsticks: how could he just buy you food because you were hungry and ask for nothing in return? You moved away from your microphone and sniffed an errant tear that was trying to form. Being hungry was making you emotional, that was all.

“You’re so sweet, Morn.”

“Because I like you, Jagiya. Now eat and I’ll entertain everyone. Watch my stream and I’ll entertain you too.”

You clicked over to his channel so you could do just what he said.

‘Like’. You supposed the word was innocuous enough, but it felt like it meant more. Maybe that was just your emotional state and the fact that he bought you food without asking and then told you that you eating would make him happy, ticking every box of how a person could possibly want to be treated: like they matter. He, as a fake boyfriend, treated you like you mattered.

You felt confused. You wanted it to mean more. But it meaning more didn’t go along with the plan. And - you reminded yourself - you still worked at the café together. Dating him could be all well and good, but it could also not.

You sighed and started eating your food while you watched his stream.

San walked into a river and started taking damage from some fish.

You laughed. “Morn, what are you doing?” 

He quickly - though awkwardly - navigated away from the danger and out of the river. “Sorry, someone texted me.”

“You almost died,” you responded through a mouthful of food.

He chuckled. “Chew your food before you choke.”

You went to his chat and commented with “>:PPPPPPPPP”. He paused for a moment, and you knew he saw it when he responded with:

“Very mature.”

“The matureist.”

He laughed.

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Get to know your mutuals: tag game

AAAAA thank you @wishchip106 for tagging me :]]

ive never done something like this so this was super fun hehehe

What's the origin of your blog title?

my name is ashe and i wanted a reason to sign my name with a star as the "a" 😀 but then i thought "ashestar" looked stupid so i added an x LMAO (and then only AFTER all that did i name my fursona star 😔)

OTP(s) + Shipname:

riddlebird/nygmobblepot has been my special interest for almost 3 years !! :]

but of course cherik has been very quickly been making its way up to being as special for me

Favourite colour:

green and purple !! (hmm i wonder why... 🤔) and is it too cheesy to say ive grown fond of orange now?? 😭

Favourite game:

i have a lot !! i mostly like story games so they can be difficult to play over and over but heres a few of them: a hat in time, the stanley parable, the portal games, any lego games, undertale and deltarune, and oneshot !!

and then of course theres also minecraft, the sims, and stardew valley that have easier replay value :]]

Song stuck in your head:

shes my collar by gorillaz !! (thank you lev for making me remember how much i love this song LMAO)

Weirdest habit/trait?

i pace all the time. anytime i have something i need to think about i will start pacing to get my thoughts going 😭 i can literally pace for hours at a time doing nothing else. its a huge time waster 😭😭

Hobbies:

reading, playing video games, dnd, uhhhh i mean i guess drawing and writing? oh and renpy as well even if i barely understand it

If you work, what's your profession?

im currently an assistant at a sewing shop !!

If you could have any job you wish, what would it be? Realistically?

god, is youtuber an option? its been something ive fantasized about since i was a kid but i dont have the self drive or passion to be able to do it tbh 😭 honestly, my dream job is something that pays well and doesnt involve talking to people often

Something you're good at:

id like to say writing !! even though i dont do it often ive always felt like it comes naturally to me (apart from being really slow at it) and ive had other people tell me the same. but apparently im really good at walking quietly as well !! im constantly scaring people cause they dont realize im in the same room 😭

Something you're bad at:

talking to people 😀 im getting better at doing it online, but irl? i will literally freeze up and stare at you if i dont know what to say 😭

Something you love:

lev, my wonderful platonic boyfriend 💚🧡 hehehe :]]

but also my cat, my dnd party, all of the fandoms ive been in (and the people ive met through them), uhhh idk theres lots of other things but i kinda just turned this into a people oriented answer LMAO

Something you could talk about for hours off the cuff:

literally anything ive ever been passionate about. ever. bring up an old special interest from my childhood? prepare for me to remember things in real time while im telling you about it. ask me about a story i came up with? i will yap your ear off for hours, and then some after that. i have way too many words for someone who has barely any friends LMAO

Something you hate:

blueberries 😠 (but more seriously, people who are rude for no reason or arent understanding of the more disabling aspects of my autism 😭im trying my hardest, okay??)

Something you collect:

jigsaw puzzles !! i have over a hundred :]

also random things relating to my special interests and hyperfixations but those arent as impressive

Something you forget:

everything 😀 i have adhd so my object permanence is GOD AWFUL and i barely remember my childhood 😭

What's your love language?

quality time !!!

Favourite movie/show:

oh boy... theres so many but starting with tv shows:

gotham, doctor who/torchwood, good omens, gravity falls, bojack horseman, and community !! (and probably a few others im forgetting...)

and then im actually not a huge fan of movies so the only ones i can think of off the top of my head are xmen first class/days of future past and scott pilgrim 😭

but since theres no section for more internet based stuff im also a huge fan of hermitcraft/life series, starkid musicals, the magnus archives, and generation loss :]]]

Favourite food:

shrimp !! but a big comfort food of mine is chicken and rice with sweet chili sauce

Favourite animal:

foxes, snakes, penguins, and cats !!!

What were you like as a child?

simultaneously very obnoxious and extremely shy (so basically the most typical undiagnosed autistic childhood ever LMAO)

Favourite subject at school?

english (big surprise there) but math was always super fun for me when i actually understood what was happening LMAO

Least favourite subject:

hmm.... history? but that might have to do with the fact that i was homeschooled so it was a super christianized version of it ://

What's your best character trait?

idk id like to say im pretty laid back. like if someone needs something from me ill go help or if someone im hanging out with wants to do something different i wont complain !! i just like being with the people i love :]

What's your worst character trait?

mmm everything i want to say are things that are caused by my audhd and it feels weird to say that for this question.. :// honestly, it might be a case of my best character trait also being my worst cause i have a hard time letting people know when im not alright with something because im a people pleaser

If you could change any detail of your life right now, what would it be?

i have been wanting to get my drivers license for over 2 years now and have made no progress 😀 honestly its one of the only things keeping me living with my parents but i still cant find the motivation to work seriously towards it

that and the fact that im so far apart from the love of my life :[[ but theres not much that can be done about that right now im afraid

If you could travel in time, who would you like to meet?

would it be dumb to say my younger self? cause i think it would be super healing for me if i was able to tell him that things get better :[

i dont have very many mutuals and i also dont know whos done this already so im just gonna tag these people and hope that its okay 😭 @monaetheworldsdestroyer @eriknocherikyes @osi-inn @ghostboy512 @alien--cookie @nyang-cheng @disasterhals

@autistic-billcipher (i know you were tagged in the post i was tagged in i just thought you would want to see this hehehe)

[yenqa]

10 THINGS I HATE ABOUT YOU — TEASER

READ HERE!

in which...

you hate heeseung. you hate his snobby little voice, his stupid little glasses that are too big for him, his nosiness, and his ability to prove anything or anyone wrong easily. you hate hate hate the way you try to avoid him, but somehow he’s always around, and he can’t see how much you hate him. you swear nothing could make you like him, but after you get caught in a sticky situation with him playing your knight in shining armor, you realize that maybe he isn’t so bad after all.

pairing — heeseung x fem!reader

genre — one sided enemies to lovers, highschool au, he falls first she falls harder, oblivious x obvious, tutor x tutoree (kind of), childhood friends (ish because the whole one sided enemies thing) to lovers, long fic

wordcount — teaser is 1005! fic est. 9k-13k words (hopefully not too ambitious)

warnings — profanity, kissing (no suggestive stuff or nsfw), miscommunication, parties/underage drinking, name calling (bitch, whore, stuff like that), food

featuring — lia of itzy, miyeon of g-idle, hyung line of enhypen (sorry maknaes too many people), ocs : sooyun + teachers

disclaimer — i am not saying this is an accurate representation of these idols or trying to sexualize them at all. this just something i do for fun.

release date — hopefully by mid march?

taglist — open! send an ask or comment to be added!

yenqa — watched the movie on the plane and i was kind of obsessed… but this does not follow the movie plot, i just thought the title fit

YOU WATCH AS THE SNOW FALLS SLOWLY TO THE GROUND

A blanket of white has got you and the guests at your house locked in for the night. You weren’t very happy with these strangers staying at your house for the night—In fact, you had just been completely shut down by your dad when you asked him to kick them out. It was obvious why he did that, but this definitely had to be your least favorite christmas out of the eight you had been through.

You snap out of your thoughts, continuing to eat whatever you had left on your plate, hesitating when you saw the amount of vegetables still left.

“Mom! I’m full.” You try to hide your plate from her, showing her instead a pout with a hand on your stomach. 

It didn’t work—obviously, so you were stuck at the table, a frown on your face as you forced in the greens. Across from you, a boy your age, who didn’t seem to mind, he almost looked like he was enjoying it.

That’s impossible though, no one likes vegetables. Maybe he was doing it so Santa would get him an extra special gift?

You grumble when he finishes his place, showcasing his plate that had been licked clean to his mom. He stared at you for a second looking down at your—full plate then looking back at his mom, she said “Great job Heeseung!”. He returns his plate to the table with a smile. 

Stabbing your fork back into your food, you stuff it into your face, hoping that you would enjoy it as much as Heeseung did. Again, it didn’t work, and the bitter taste returned to your mouth.

After what felt like hours of groaning and complaining, you had taken the last bite of your food, a proud smirk on your face when you made eye contact with the boy from earlier, who only smiled at you in return. 

Throwing away your plastic plate, you realized that now it was present time, and Santa just had to reward you for your good deeds.

Rushing over to the tree, you spot everyone gathered around the area, opening their presents. You run to your present, recognizing the wrapping paper from last year. Looking at your mom for approval, she nods and you tear apart the paper, lifting up the box inside.

You squeal when you see the picture, you had been begging your mom for weeks for a Lego set, specifically if it was minecraft themed. And Santa had gotten you just that. You hug the box, squeezing it. You exclaim a loud “Thank you Santa!” before running up to your room to assemble the build.

Reading the directions, you start the house, quickly getting confused on how it isn’t looking like how it does in the picture. 

“I think that’s the wrong piece.” A voice says, you whip your head around to see the same boy who sat across from you.

“Who are you?” Your eyebrows furrow at the sight, confused on why those were the first words he said instead of “Hi!” or something.

“My name’s Heeseung—Um, my mom told me to come upstairs and said we should be friends. Do you want to be friends?” 

You huff, “I’m Y/n. Also no, I don’t want to be friends, you’re mean.” You force your legos together, frustrated already with the pieces. You continue to reread the directions, pushing—what you think are—the exact legos to the board. But it doesn’t seem like it’ll fit. Maybe if you push it harder?

“Oh—okay.” You jump slightly, too focused to realize how he's been watching you for the past few minutes. “Do you need some help?”

Yes, you need help. But did you want to accept his help?  . This was your christmas gift from Santa, you shouldn’t have to share.

Glancing at the picture then to the building that had looked like an abstract rendition of it, you let out a sigh. I mean, it wouldn’t hurt, right? “Yeah, I guess.”

He takes a seat on the carpet next to you, focusing hard on the directions before breaking off the wrong pieces, reassembling it so you’ll be on the right track.

“Does this go here, do you think?” “No, it goes here.”  That was a summary of what the conversation was between you, and somehow you were always the one asking the question. Sighing, you lean back, taking a short stretch break before starting again.

You’re shocked at his speed and efficiency, it almost seems like he’s always a step ahead of you. Geez does this guy ever slow down? 

The roles are quickly switched as you are sitting watching him instead. Rummaging through each box only for his eyes to lighten up one he finds the right one. You watch him for a while, getting a break that you very much needed.

You hope that he waits for you to finish it, or that he doesn’t completely do it all by himself because again,  it’s your Christmas gift, and he wouldn’t do that, right?

Not right, because apparently he’s a machine—he finishes the build. He stands up, pushes his stupid glasses up also and smiles at you, heading to the door. You think he’s going to say something else like “Sorry for taking away your present!” instead, he thanks you for sharing and happily skipping away. 

Heeseung. Even his name infuriates you. He was very unpredictable and you hated that. Why did he just do that? He’s so rude. People don’t make sense—especially boys, they have cooties.

Your head was filled with calling him the rudest things you could think of—You even said a few curse words.

Though later you realized that you probably would never see him again, you were ecstatic, so ecstatic you had disassembled your legos just to rebuild it, to completely forget about your bad experience with the boy. 

Only two weeks later were you disappointed to see that same boy, sitting across from you during dinner once again.

perm taglist — @jwnghyuns @ja4hyvn @trsrina @redm4ri @badmuni @yeokii @enhastolemyheart @softpia @s00buwu @ox1-lovesick @boyfhee @hanniluvi @teddywonss

yenqa © please do not copy, steal or translate.

[adorawritesalot]

yo. hi. mh boys w a streamer s/o?:)

hello everyone, excuse my sudden disappearance:( i have really important exams coming up and i barely have time for myself between studying!! promise i'll get better at writing regularly afterwards🙏

anyway, thank you for the submission! sorry i didn't send you the preview, it's your ask anyway:) love u tomi!!!!!

Alex:

To be honest, he seems like a streamer guy. What do you think he was doing for almost a year before he called Jay again? Streamed Minecraft or something (imagine it was possible back then for me, please).

Anyway, he would be so supportive. He is your #1 fan (but wouldn't say it outloud).

"Hey Alex, I've been thinking about buying this Stream De-" "TAKE MY MONEY"

Would kill anyone who says it's not a real job, because he sees the work you put into it, the tears from receiving hate, and the inevitable happiness it brings you.

If you asked him to join you on stream one day, he would almost piss himself.

"ME??? On stream??? With my FAVOURITE streamer??? YES!" In a teasing voice, but he is secretly overly excited.

Jay:

He is very happy for you when you start becoming famous, because he sees how happy it makes YOU. He loves seeing your dreams come true in front of his eyes.

He would get you the best camera the world has to offer. Is there not a good enough one for your pretty face? Fuck it, he makes it.

A sweetheart when it comes to making you feel better after a hate raid. Draws you a bath, orders your favourite food (he cannot cook for the life of him), cuddles you in bed.

If you asked him to do a stream with you one day, he would gladly agree. He would be nervous at first, but then he would just goof around and you both would have a great time.

Brian:

He would like to just watch your streams while he works on his line delivery or something. Your voice soothes him, and that is exactly what he needs.

Would beg you to do one of those "I gave my viewers 500$ to spend on Amazon" streams. Then you reminded him that you would actually have to have those 500$. That shut him up pretty quickly.

Sometimes you think your chat likes him more than you. When he occasionally comes into your streaming room in the middle of a stream with food, your chat starts spamming his name and various versions of greetings.

One "Hey chat!" and a grin later, he is now playing with you next to him. Be ready for more streams with him! He really enjoyed it and chat did too.

Tim:

Tim wouldn't really get why you are willingly putting your face (or just yourself as a person) out on the internet. Still, he would be very supportive. He always is.

Would sit with you in your streaming room. He loves your voice.

Reminds you that you don't have to do this job if it mentally drains you after every hate raid. He is very protective of you, and he wouldn't want to lose you to a bunch of jerks on the internet.

You talk about him on stream a lot, so chat is, of course, clamouring for a boyfriend stream.

He eventually agrees, but he doesn't yet know what he's gotten himself into.

It's a cooking stream. And you basically just do what he is telling you to do while looking at eachother cutely. Beware of the edits!

[midnight1nk]

So, this week's episode...

[spoilers below cut]

A KAREN EPISODE?! LET'S GOOOOOOOOO

(the following is my live reaction:)

oh, hey Luke, promoting the merch I see. [*gives thumbs-up to the SMG4/Glitch Team*] Good for you :)

Karen, hi! Hmm, not much going on, huh?

Dude, I feel bad for her. Like, can we get her an actual job and more than just minimum wage?

I'm gonna guess and say she took it only because she'll be in low profile from being a former assassin.

can she work in Three's Coffee & Bombs? please please please please please please

It makes total sense for her to take the night shift, her kids would be sleeping

Augh, and it's 6 am when she gets home. Girl, please get some rest! I know it's not gonna be a lot but it's something

also nice nod to the Alarmo clock, gotta be consistent

and i oop

damn, even Shroomy quit

... [*slow tap on the head*]

oh god, I legit thought Karen was gonna give an iPad to Katie, glad I was wrong (NOT THE IPAD KIDS)

[*wheeze*] sorry but I was rewatching the Sonic 3 trailers (bc they're fire) and just seeing Cory speed-dancing on the wall changed everything for me, I can't unsee it now

...FNAF?

Oh I wasn't the only one, ok

As a sibling, I can confirm that siblings share the same braincell

back by unpopular demand [*opens the door*] Me! /ref

never expected the SMG4 Theory episode to come back but here we are :)

[*breakdances epicly*] Mario's brain never stopped dancing since the Mario React episode from last week

"If you joiiiiin, you'll be able to behave your kids. You just gotta vow your life to our religion." Mario, that's a cult

YEAH KAREN, EXACTLY

wait... NONONO GO BACK!!! Do you guys remember the "We Must Kill Mario" episode?

a spaghetti cult...

is Marty still running it or Mario just missed it so much and thought it was a good idea to copy what they did? hmmmm

[*points at the screen*] there it is, I was waiting for it haha

Love that Mario is scared of reading but has no problem reciting anything related to spaghetti (honestly mood) but also it's way funnier if he was like "oh, I just made that shit up on the spot, I can't actually read"

...there isn't any poison, is there?

awwww, you're willing to do anything for your kids

loving family, my one weakness [*dies*]

NOOOOO NOT THE PHOTO

man, Karen, I know you have to discipline your kids and you're frustrated but that wasn't the right thing to say

AND YOU HAD TO SHOW ME THAT, STOP I'M FRAGILE

that's good, she's calmed down and willing to apologize

have you seen the spaghetti? well, now you have :D

HOLY SHIT did they make Minecraft models just for this? Hell yeah!!

A brawl is surely brewing, you're up!

oooh hold up, this animation though, that's fire

you activated a trap card!

ofc Karen's skills come in handy here, it all pays off boys

it's good that Karen acknowledges all of this and sees how awesome her kids are (no, I'm not crying, what are you talking about?)

i'm so normal ← SOBBING

how dare they show me sweet loving family moments? THEY CAN'T KEEP GETTING AWAY WITH THIS

just Karen spending time with her kids at the end is so sweet

... and Mario's still here too, ofc

THE SPAGHETTI GODS HAVE RISEN

everyone has to bow before the all-mighty (yes, even you c'mon)

Congrats to rPrP_99 for your art being featured at the end credits 🎉

.・-: ✧ :--: ✧ :-・.

This was a fantastic episode, bravo! I absolutely loved how in-depth Karen's character was. Being a parent is hard with the ever-lasting question of "how do you give them happiness but also be their guide?"

In a way, Mario did teach her how to parent in his own way, which is very on-brand for him let's be honest here. I find this episode curious because of how different Karen was, compared to Mr Puzzles' dad. (That's right, I'm bringing him into this.)

Mr Puzzles' dad is a complete hypocrite, telling his son not to follow his dream and yet critiquing him for not having creative vision. He neglected his son who ended up watching TV all day and eventually cutting off his own head. (No, we're not going to pass by that.) And this was merely the tip of the iceberg, who knows what else his dad did to his son. Now, I'm not excusing what Mr Puzzles did because (1) we don't have the whole story, and (2) how much accountability Mr Puzzles truly had. Don't get me wrong, I love Mr Puzzles because of his character but I am neutral about him potentially having a redemption arc.

Change is a big step and it takes a lot of bravery to take it. It's one thing for someone to offer help, but it's another to seek it yourself. If Mr Puzzles wants to change, then sure, let him redeem himself. If he doesn't, well then it's the choice he made. That's the reality of it all that some people don't want to change and we have to accept the fact that we can't do anything to change their minds. I truly believe his dad was one of them, he would be a narcissist.

In comparison, Karen is very complex, having to take multiple jobs to support her family. But no matter what, she loves her kids and tries every way to bond with them. Support them. Even if she doesn't fully understand it, she tries and that means a lot more than one could think. Of course, when it comes to kids, you have to earn their trust, and sharing interests is one of the ways to do it. Bonding is meant to be natural and it's what Karen learned. To observe. She admits that she was in the wrong and apologized to them. She said it herself, she was proud of her kids, how they could be so creative and resourceful. And that should be no surprise, they're her kids after all.

So yeah, all of this to say, "and the best mom of the year award goes to..."

ANYWAY, I loved this episode overall and so glad that Karen got to be in the spotlight again. We even got to see some of her assassin skills come into play! Also, that animation in the Minecraft world, that was awesome. Whoever animated it, props to you 👏👏👏 The only critique I have was that the kids in the chaotic parts were a little too much for me, but maybe that's just me idk.

That's all from me! Now, if you excuse me, I'm gonna go back to writing angst :)

[angelf1re]

Undercover Care

as a young, broke senior in high school, you take up a babysitting gig, not knowing you’d be babysitting a mafia bosses sons.

You sighed quietly, looking over the job listings on the website one more time. Most of the jobs wanted people with experience, something you didn’t have, so finding a job was…a little difficult to say the least.

You wanted something simple too, just something to get you off your feet, not some crazy over the top job that drained you more often than not. You ran a hand through your hair, jumping slightly when you got a notification about a new job being posted. You hover your mouse over the listing before clicking.

The notification took a second to load but once it did you started reading. A babysitting gig. You hummed, looking over the details. 3 kids, ages 21, 22, and 16, access to food while working, $8,000 a week, bedroom if need- $8,000 a week!? You blinked, rubbing your eyes to see if they were playing a trick on you. Nope. $8,000 a week. What kind of rich fucker was this guy? $8,000? For three kids? Scratch that, two of them weren’t even kids anymore, and they still needed to be watched?

You looked over the details one more time. “I mean…it’s not a bad option…” you mumbled to yourself, clicking on the contact number. You copied it down into your phone, dialing and calling as soon as you did. You took a deep breath, listening as your phone rang. Tragically, you couldn’t help but hope the guy wouldn’t pick up. Awful, you know. But you were a nervous wreck. You were only 19, so what if he didn’t hire you? What if he wanted someone with experience? Or someone older? What if-

you were cut off by the sound of the phone being picked up. “Hello? Who is this?” The man on the other side asked. “Um, hi. My names Y/n and I was um…looking at the babysitting position?” You winced slightly at how awkward you sounded, although it probably sounded worse over the phone. “Ah yes! I didn’t expect someone to respond so quickly!” The man said cheerfully. “My names Philza Minecraft. It’s lovely to meet you, mate.” He said. You smiled, at least he was a nice guy. “Uh yeah. Nice to meet you too.” You said, feeling a bit less awkward.

“Now, my boys can be…how do I put this…rough. They don’t really like new people, so you will have to win them over. If they don’t see you fit within a month, sadly I would have to let you go.” The man, Philza, explained. You nodded before remembering he couldn’t see you, so you just let out a hum. “First question, how well do you deal with high stress situations?” The question caught you slightly off guard. “I’d say I’m pretty good?” You said, shrugging to yourself. “And what about cooking? Can you cook well?”

You thought to yourself for a second. “Yeah I’m a pretty good cook.” You and your mom used to spend two nights a week learning a new recipe together, you even still have her old cookbook that she gave you before the divorce. “Wonderful! Now, how old are you?” He asked, making you panic slightly. “I-I’m 19, sir.” You said nervously, biting your lip. “Perfect! You’re hired.” Your jaw dropped slightly. That easy? “O-okay. When should I come in?” You asked, getting over the shock quickly. “Come in tomorrow at 9. I’ll have a schedule for you by then. I’ll text you the address.”

You smiled to yourself. “Thank you so much sir.” “Please, call me Phil, mate.” He said, his tone cheerful. “Before you go, what are your boys’ names?” You asked curiously. “Ah, Techno, Wilbur, and Tommy.” He told you. You smiled. “Alright. I can’t wait to meet them tomorrow.” You said happily. “Well it was nice talking to you, but I have got to go to a meeting soon.” He said, the sound of rustling on the other side of the phone. “I understand. Have a good day Phil.” You said, pulling the phone away from your ear as you hung up.

You say there for a second, processing the fact that you, a 19 year old, now had a job. A really, really good paying job. You cheered to yourself, standing up from the chair quickly. “Hell yeah! I’m employed!” You said happily, spinning around a little bit. It took you about 5 minutes to calm down, but excitement was still running through your veins. You had a job now! You smiled to yourself, going to the kitchen to make food before you started getting ready for bed. You made something simple, just some chicken tenders and sweet ‘n sour sauce. You sat down on the couch, placing your plate on your lap and you grabbed the remote, flipping to a random cartoon channel. You ate in peace, going through all the possible outfits you could wear tomorrow.

You say there for a bit, almost just snacking on your now somewhat cold food. Once you finished, you turned the tv off, going to the kitchen to wash your plate before going to bed. You hummed to yourself as you cleaned, still going through all your possible outfits you wanted to look professional but also not too professional, you were only 19 after all. You set the plate on the drying rack and dried your hands, jogging slightly as you went to your room. You quickly changed before going to the bathroom to brush your teeth, looking yourself over in the mirror. After getting fully ready you finally got in bed, the buzz under your skin finally going away. You fell asleep peacefully, excited for tomorrow.

(This is going to be a series! I’ve had the idea in my mind for a while so I thought it would be nice to write it out!)

[silvertws]

PETRO WAS CRYING AND I WAS CRYING OMFG.

SABRE WHY.

WHY MUST YOU DO THIS TO US.

Nah.

Nah.

Bro better pull a fucking 180 on that freaking little fairy-blue thing BECAUSE HELL NAH, HELL TO HELL TO THE NAH.

Leave the boys alone bish.

I'm too attached to them.

I cannot.

I CANNOT HANDLE ANOTHER APO-OWEN SITUATION OK?!!!

I think I would simply perish.

Gone.

Just like that.

Poof!

I hate how attached I am to the silly Minecraft guys.

BUT MY BRAIN... THE PARASITE... THE DEMON IN MY BRAIN WANTS TO LIKE THE SILLY MINECRAFT GUYS...

I need someone as unhinged as me to talk about the sillies, for my own sanity.

Which is, barely there honestly, but that's besides the point.

I believe in redemption arcs PETRO PLEASE, PLEASE YOU CAN STILL FIX THIS.

Please, I just want them to all be happy, I'm sobbing.

ncjekwlalls PLEASE.

Let the fellas be happy.

Like, I usually don't ship characters ok? After Origins I just don't.

But tbh platonically??? Hell yeah, let the fellas be wholesome, no kissing no nothing, just hugging, telling each other sweet things- I will literally be kicking my feet like a little kid.

Also, on a side note.

Ruined Reality rants and theories up ahead.

Heyyyyy guys how are we feeling about the Newest Ruined Reality episode??? Yeah all good? Just doing a check in on all of us.

I mean, yeah, as expected.

Also, alright, this is gonna become a slight theory moment.

Rainbow crystal + heart of the soulstice?

You know how the rainbow crystal is made with the energy of the chromatics?

Yeah well, if the rainbow crystal still works, which I'm led to believe , fusing that energy with the heart, could potentially... Either give life back to the chromatics... Or... Create new chromatics but using the older souls, kinda like reincarnation.

ALSO AH, MY THEORIES WERE KINDA CORRECT HELL YEAH.

Mf First Curse better not bother Light smh Balance, go punch him, you literally can, since you belong in the same omniverse-? So go and punch him thank you very much.

Anyway.

I seriously do not know if Light will be able to bring everyone back.

If he manages to bring Steves back, it's definitely not gonna be everyone.

Not only because a lot of bodies were destroyed, but also for a storytelling factor.

Which is why all of them staying dead is a bittersweet victory, sure, you did it Light, good job! Every Steve who's left is now safe from that! Except... Well, the last Steve kingdom kinda... Doesn't like you. So I don't know if you're going to be allowed there...

Oh, so living with the professor? Yeah sure, if you want to have another metal rod in your leg you can.

Living with Ellie and uh... Cassian....?(I am so bad with names omg) in their little magic thing?

Yeah sure.

Go on.

They already adopted you my good sir, come on, they saw you and were like "yes, this one, ours now, yoink"

Also NCIEKSKSLLSLK PROXIMA.

Proxima the GOAT.

The FUCKING GOAT.

Even in death, EVEN IN DEATH BRO WAS STILL THE GOAT.

Another possibility.

TFC: "yo Light, sup"

Light "gtfo"

TFC "No u"

And then Light gets sent to ANOTHER UNIVERSE Just to suffer AGAIN.

Because remember kids.... TFC cursed Light to suffer FOREVER AND EVER AND EVER AND- yeah you get the gist of it.

So what happens when there's nothing more to make him suffer with in one universe...?

That's right... You send him to another one so he has to start all over again... And again.. and again...

BUT BIT BUT

I find this very unlikely because the reset trope is kinda overused and annoying and I also believe it would take out from the whole experience.

Like on a long run, it makes sense that TFC would do that.

BUT THIS IS A MINECRAFT ROLEPLAY GUYS.

There's just some things you cannot do or play with enough depth.

So, going back on the main topic.

What happens now?

Well, Light, Seer, Galaxy and To- FUCK THAT MF KILLED SOREN AGAIN I CANNOT.

I CANNOT WITH THIS GUY.

Smh, letting Light go through the loss of Soren not once BUT TWICE.

smh.

Anyway.

Now.

I already tried to explain how I think the rainbow crystal might be tied to "fixing" this.

And I think that's honestly our best bet.

Like, before this episode, I honestly thought they were simply going to yoink it from Lewis and Light was gonna use it.

But apparently they didn't do that...

Also like I'm sorry.

WHY THE FUCK DID THE RAINBOW CRYSTAL, STAY FUSED WITH LEWIS EVEN IF HE WAS DEAD.

Nah cause like, I always found that, not particularly logical.

Without the energy from the host, the only thing left with energy IS the crystal.

It would have made sense, in that case, if the crystal, its energy, also caused Lewis body to "live" but without actually being Lewis. But pure energy.

How would the crystal stay fused with Lewis?

Does that mean bro still has some energy somehow?

Was it the soul energy that kept them forcibly united?

I'm probably looking too much into it ngl, it's probably another plot hole or simply something that will be explained later... Maybe.

If the rainbow crystal is not going to be used in any way with the heart, I'll be surprised.

It could be like, a rainbow heart or whatever.

It's seriously the only thing I have going on right now.

Because it's the only thing with enough chromatic energy left to actually do something.

Unless SOMEHOW Light goes back to the other Steve Kingdom and Genesis is fucking alive, just like that, randomly, because he can.

I have no idea if any other deities are actually canon in RR.

Is Origin Steve canon? Or any of the other things in Rainbow Quest? Because Seer, Colle, Genesis, are all things from there as we know.

So just how much from that universe also transpired into this one?

Are demon Steves a problem we're going to have to deal with after everything and Seer is finally put to rest?

Also, yes, Seer will die.

I mean, he literally asked to be killed guys, what do you want? I say let him die. Colle is gone, that's enough pain already, I'm not gonna watch Seer becoming Void again (which btw, I think it's already happening or has already happened during the fight and Void is simply playing with everyone as per usual).

Still hoping for a Light corruption/villain arc (more like corrupt) because bro deserves to let out some steam and I support Light in literally everything he will do at this point.

He needs a beach episode fr.

Actually, no.

WE need a beach episode.

... I'm drawing that shit, I'm putting that in my nonexistent list of things I need to draw for my own sanity.

Oh.

Wait.

I completely forgot about the redstone core guys.

I mean, I don't think that's gonna help..? Idk I feel like it's a different energy from the one in the crystal or the heart so... Idk...

But maybe it could still be used for other things???

Also, we could simply get a time skip, to like, months later or something.

It has happened before and I honestly wouldn't mind it.

There's like, the option of going to the last Steve kingdom and asking them for help, but they must have moved by now, sure we can locate them with the assistant I suppose, if it comes down to it.

Also, one thing.

(idk man, some of y'all might find this offensive or call me chronically online for this :/)

Me whenever gay is used mockingly in a Steve-verse story while literally everyone is the same fucking gender as the other and their reproduction is literally based on MAGIC.

Like I'm sorry but make it make sense.

It's probably one of the things that annoys me the most.

I'm not saying that now everyone is forced to accept ships between certain characters.

I'm saying that there are not many sexuality options in a world where there's usually one gender.

You're either, Aromantic or something on that spectrum, Asexual or in that spectrum, Gay because there's literally one gender there to be attracted to.

Unless we're talking about universes that use more.

Or we could bring in the possibility that since they're all Steves or Alexes, they're all canonically non-binary.

I don't give a single fuck about romance, I can live without it.

But it annoys me, when comments are made, that logically speaking, don't make sense.

One of the biggest plot holes in RR until Ellie was introduced, was Cliff talking about women.

Which was resolved when Ellie came through and was like "no yeah, we exist actually, well used to".

Which again creates another plot hole to how tf did Cliff even meet one of those if they went extinct.

Disclaimer

I wanna clarify that I love RR and the other Steve verse stories or I wouldn't be talking about them. And that my rants are not directed towards the creators in any way, I do not, nor cannot, dictate how they decide to write their stories.

It's their tale to tell, I'm just here to watch, and listen.

I have opinions just like everybody else and if anybody ever takes offense (for some reason) to what I say, suck it up , talk to me like a normal person.

There are opinions to which I'm not willing to change my mind on, but I will still listen to others, just like there's some of which I will probably change my mind on.

As long as you're respectful about it, so will I.

Anyhow, I'm shit at explaining my opinions, because I'm horrible at conversations and English isn't my first language, so I'm sorry if I made it look like I was being rude or judgemental.

[gladdygirl18]

A Secret Worth Keeping

This was requested to me by the great and wonderful @blehblahsworld! Thank you for this lovely request! Hope you enjoy it!

Summary: You're hiding something, and it's really obvious, especially to your older brothers, Bucky and Steve. When they confront you and threaten you with tickles, you confess that you have a crush on your friend, Simon. You make your brothers swear to secrecy, but when Simon comes over for a visit, Steve and Bucky tell your crush a little secret of yours, but not the one you'd expect.

Word Count: 3099

⚠️Warning⚠️: slight swearing

When you're an only child, privacy is here and there, depending on how your parents or parent are. However, when you have siblings, privacy is nonexistent, especially when you have two older brothers. Steve Rogers and Bucky Barnes, you're older brothers, are always up in your business. Those two constantly breathe down your neck, whether you're doing homework, watching videos, playing games, or cooking. However, you didn't really mind. You don't remember too much of your life before you met the two super soldiers, but your life now has been better because of them. When the two Avengers introduced you to the rest of the team, they became your family. They would often take turns taking care of you, but Steve and Bucky volunteered for you to live with them. They treated you like their little sister, and that's what you were to them, to the other older Avengers.

Years passed, and you were now a young woman. As per Tony's recommendation, you worked a stable part-time job that paid well while also maintaining a position at S.H.I.E.L.D. With both jobs, you juggled your life as a college student working towards your Bachelor's in Law. However, something else was creeping into your already crazed life: love. During your classes at college, you've grown close to a classmate named Simon Green. He was a nice boy with a good head on his shoulders. While you pursued Law, he pursued Biology, wanting to be a marine biologist like his mother. You and Simon grew closer as friends and soon became best friends, both supporting one another in each other's endeavors. As time went on, you found yourself developing feelings for Simon. He was kind, passionate, funny, and very intelligent. He would always lend an ear and shoulder to you whenever you needed it. And that side of him is what drew you to like him.

Now that it's summer vacation, you and Simon have been chatting almost every day and every night—video chatting, texting, and meeting up on occasions whenever time permitted. You two completed each other, and you couldn't be happier to have him as your friend; if only he knew you liked him.

"Wait, wait, wait, your dog did what?" you chuckled.

"He got into the flour and dragged it all over the kitchen and living room," Simon laughed, "It was incredible!"

You laughed as your crush told you the funny story. It was a warm summer afternoon, and you were talking with Simon on the phone. Outside your room door, Steve and Bucky had their ears to the door, hearing you laugh and talk.

"I've never heard her laugh this much," Bucky said, "Well, except when we're tickling her silly, but this… this is different."

Steve nodded as he continued to listen in on you. As you continued to talk to Simon, you heard a knock at your door.

"Gotta go," you said, "Text you later tonight?"

"Like always," Simon said, "Later!"

"See ya!"

You ended the call with a smile. You quickly went on YouTube and pulled up a Minecraft video, skipping it to the most replayed part.

"Come in!" you said.

With your permission, Steve and Bucky walked into your room.

"Hey, sis," Steve said, "How are ya?"

"Oh, I'm good," you said, "Just watching a Minecraft video."

Bucky scoffed before pausing the video on your phone.

"Cut the crap, Y/N," Bucky said, "Who were you on the phone with?"

"No one," you said, "You know I like to talk to the videos."

"Yeah, but the way you were talking sounded like someone was talking back to you," Steve said, "Who were you talking to, sis?"

You groaned before unpausing the video.

"No one, okay?" I retorted, "Geez, can you get off my back?"

Your sass wasn't a surprise to them. The super soldiers glanced at one another before leaving the room.

"You want take-out for dinner, sis?" Bucky asked, stopping at the doorframe.

"Sure," you said, "Chinese, please. My usual."

The two nodded before leaving your room and closing the door.

"Well, she's certainly a little songbird." Bucky said sarcastically.

"She's not gonna talk if we ask her directly," Steve said, "Let her come to us."

Bucky sighed before nodding. Hours passed, and while waiting for the food, you were texting Simon, giggling and rolling your eyes at what he sent you. Like before, Steve and Bucky had their ears to the door.

"There she goes again, giggling at that phone." Bucky said.

Steve sighed before knocking on the door and opening it. When you saw your brothers, you clicked off your phone and stuffed it behind your back.

"Hey, boys," you said, crossing your arms, feigning innocence, "What's up?"

Your brothers glanced at each other with raised brows.

"Food's here." Steve said, feigning ignorance.

"Awesome," you said, "I was getting hungry."

You jumped out of bed before walking out of the room. Before your brothers could pick up your abandoned phone, you stepped back into your room and snatched it up.

"Almost forgot this." you said with a wink as you left.

Steve and Bucky groaned.

"Well, there goes the idea of taking her phone and giving it to Tony to hack into." Bucy said.

Steve looked at the other with an annoyed look.

"Kidding," Bucky said, "…Mostly…"

Steve chuckled and rolled his eyes.

"Come on," Steve said, patting the Winter Soldier's shoulder, "You're hangry. Let's go eat."

Bucky groaned before following the other out of your room to eat. Days to weeks, your brothers grew increasingly curious about who you were talking to, and Bucky grew impatient. While in your room, you giggled as you texted Simon silly memes. In the living room, Bucky heard you and felt his eye twitch in irritation.

"Alright, that's it," he said, setting down the TV remote, "I'm gonna see what she's laughing about, one way or another."

Steve groaned and rolled his eyes.

"For once, I agree," Steve said, standing up, "How do you wanna go about this?"

"Just follow my lead." Bucky said, his eyes glittering with mischief.

The Winter Soldier stood and waltzed over to your room. Captain America sighed before following his friend, not knowing what he had planned. When you heard a knock, you clicked off your phone, set it to the side, and pulled a book from your nightstand drawer, ensuring it wasn't upside down.

"Come in!" you called out.

With your permission, your brothers walked into your room.

"Hey, what's up?" you asked, looking away from the book.

"We want to know why you've been giggling at your phone for the past few weeks." Bucky said.

"I've been watching funny videos. What, I'm not allowed to laugh at funny videos?"

"You can, but the way you've been laughing is as if someone's making you laugh," Steve said, "Not to mention, you've been staying up late, too, staring at your phone."

"It's the summer. I can't stay up late?"

Bucky growled under his breath, hating how you had an answer for everything. The Winter Soldier snatched the book from your hands before picking up your phone.

"Alright, Y/N, that's it," Bucky said, "Who are you talking to on this?"

"No one, I swear." you said, reaching to grab your phone.

Bucky raised your phone over his head, rendering your attempts to reach it useless.

"Y/N, if you just tell us who you're talking to, we'll leave you alone." Steve said.

"What's there to tell?" you questioned, "I'm not talking to anyone, and if I were, why would I tell you two? It's none of your business."

What you said made the super soldiers reel back in shock. They've seen your sassy side before, but this was new.

"Watch it, young lady," Bucky said, "Tell us who you've been talking to for the past few weeks that's turned you into such a giggle-bug."

A faint blush rose as you averted your brother's gaze and shook your head.

"It's no one." you muttered.

The two super soldiers didn't believe you for a second. The Winter Soldier sighed before setting down your phone and the book.

"Alright, Y/N, let's make a deal," Bucky said, "If you don't tell us who you've been talking to, Steve and I will just tickle you."

Your brother's words made you turn to him and Steve wide-eyed. They both wore impish grins as the stared you down.

"Y-You wouldn't…" you stammered.

"That all depends on you," Steve said, "Oh, and we won't be nice. We'll hone in on that little sweet spot of yours below your ribs."

You swallowed a lump and scooted away from your brothers, a nervous smile spreading across your face.

"So, are you gonna tell us who you've been talking to?" Bucky asked.

When you averted their gaze and shook your head, Steve sighed dramatically as he shook his head.

"Oh, Y/N, Y/N, Y/N," he said, "Guess we're doing this the hard way."

Before you could protest, your brothers pounced on you. You yelped before dissolving into frantic giggles, feeling their fingers explore your torso.

"Steheheheheve! Buckyhyhyhyhyhyhy!" you giggled, "Nahahahahaa! Sthohohhohohoohoop!"

"Are you gonna tell us who you've been talking to?" Bucky asked, pinching your ribs.

"It's nohohoho ohohohone! Lemme gohohohoho!"

Your brothers lay beside you, each holding an arm over your head while they used their free hands to tickle you silly.

"Just like this, this is how you'd be giggling at your phone," Steve said, "What's gotten you so giggly these past few weeks, huh, Y/N/N?"

"Nohohohohothihihihihing!" you cried.

"Alright, screw it!" Bucky said.

The Winter Soldier released your wrist before using both hands to dig into your sweet spot: right below your ribs. You squealed before letting out adorable cackle-like laughter.

"NAHAHAHAHAAAA! BUCKY, STAHAHAHAAAAP!" you cried, "THAHAHAHAT'S *snort* SO UNFAHAHAHAHAHAHAIR!"

"Oh, right! I forgot this spot makes you snort," Bucky chuckled, "Absolutely adorable."

"NOHOHOHO, IT'S *snort* NOHOHOHOHOT! PLEHEHEHEHASE! *snort* AAAAAHAHAAAAHAHA!"

You thrashed around in your brothers' grip, using your free hand to push at Bucky's chest, but your attempts were adorably futile.

"So, Y/N, who've you been talking to on that phone of yours?" Steve asked, "A potential crush, perhaps?"

When Steve said that, your face flushed.

"So it is a crush!" Bucky said, "Who is he? Is he handsome? Nice? Funny? Rich?"

You could barely speak, laughing and snorting too much to hear the Winter Soldier.

"AHAHAHAHAHAAAA! STAAAHAHAHAP IIHIHIHIT!" you laughed, "I CAHAHAHAHAN'T!"

"Admit that it's your crush, and we will." Steve said, clawing at the side of your stomach.

You let out at least three snorts in a row when Captain America did that. This was straight-up torture.

"YOU'RE SOHOHOHOHO *snort* MEHEHEHEHEAN!" you laughed, thrashing around, "PLEHEHEHEHASE! HEHEHEHEHAHAHAHAHA!"

The brothers glanced at one another and nodded before stopping briefly, allowing you to catch your breath.

"So, who's the lucky guy?" Steve asked, gently poking your sides.

You pated and giggled at your brother's poking.

"Ihihihihit's… not a cruhuhuhush…" you panted, residual giggles slipping through.

"Uh-huh, sure it isn't." Bucky said, poking your armpit.

You jumped in surprise before slamming your arm down.

"Nohohoho, hehehahahaha! Stohohohop!" you giggled, "Leheheheave me alohohohohone!"

"We will, once you admit you have a crush on someone." Steve said.

You giggled as you squirmed, tiredly swatting away your brothers' hands.

"I dohohohon't have a cruhuhuhush!" you giggled.

The super soldiers glanced at each other and shrugged. Without warning, the two started clawing below your ribs and the sides of your stomach, sending you into a frenzy of laughter and snorts.

"YOU AHAHAHAHAHASSHOHOHOHOLES! AHAHAHAHA!" you cursed, "FUHUHUHUHUCKING *snort* STAHAHAHAP!"

"Y/N, what did we say about swearing?" Steve questioned.

"SCREHEHEHEHEW YOHOHOHOHOU! STAHAHAHAP *snort* IHIHIHIHIT! HAHAHAHAHAHEHEHEHE!"

"You know what we want to hear, Y/N/N~" Bucky cooed.

You growled through your laughter, hating but also loving this at the same time. When you felt tears dot the corners of your eyes, you finally gave in.

"FIHIHIHIHIHINE *snort* OKAHAHAHAY!" you laughed, "I'LL TAHAHAHAHALK! PLEHEHEHEHEHEEEE *snort* NO MOHOHOHORE!"

At once, your brothers stopped the tickling, leaving you breathless. Steve released your wrist and crossed his arms as he sat up. Bucky did the same as he helped you sit up.

"So, what's your crush's name?" Steve asked.

After taking a moment to catch your breath, you groaned.

"I-It's Simon," you began, "Simon Green…"

Your brothers' eyes widened.

"Your classmate from college?" Steve asked.

You only nodded, feeling your cheeks burn from embarrassment.

"Aww, Y/N, that's so cute," Bucky said, "You guys look really cute together."

You groaned as you covered your burning face with your hands. Steve chuckled as he patted your back. You then looked up at your brothers with a flustered face but daggers in your eyes.

"Swear to me that you will not tell him if he ever comes to visit," you said, "If you do, there will be hell to pay."

"Ooh, what's lil' Y/N/N gonna do?" Bucky teased.

You gave the Winter Soldier a dangerous look, one that Natasha taught you while you were training with her. The look alone made Bucky shut up.

"Message received." he said, feeling his heart sink into his stomach.

You nodded before giving Steve the same look. Captain America held up his hands in defense.

"Noted," Steve said, "We won't tell."

With a nod, you grabbed your phone and left your room. Steve and Bucky glanced at each other and burst into laughter.

"She's adorable." Steve said.

"Well, she's our little sister." Bucky said.

Some months passed, and Simon visited you to hang out with you and your brothers. At the beginning of the afternoon, the four of you played Mario Kart and Poker. As Bucky shuffled the cards for another game, you got up to use the restroom. When you were out of sight, the brothers glanced at your crush.

"So, Simon, what do you think of Y/N?" Steve asked.

"Well, she's a nice girl," Simon said, "Really funny and very passionate about her work. She's kind and strong-willed. I'm guessing she got that from you two, right?"

The super soldiers chuckled at the compliment.

"Well, what if I told you there was a little secret our dear little sister has been keeping from you these past few months." Bucky whispered.

Simon raised a brow with a slight grin. Steve glanced at his friend and shook his head, to which Bucky just winked.

"Oh? And what's that?" Simon asked.

"She's deathly ticklish, especially below her ribs," Bucky said, "If you even poke her there, she'll snort."

Simon's face broke into a surprised smile.

"Shut the hell up, no way." Simon said.

"It's true," Steve said, relieved Bucky didn't say anything else, "If she's ever being a sourpuss or being sassy, give her a quick tickle, and she'll straighten up right away."

Simon hummed in thought with an evil grin.

"I'll keep that in mind." Simon said.

When you came back, the boys all glanced at you with mischief glittering in their eyes.

"Did I miss something?" you asked.

"Oh, nothing, Y/N," Simon said, "Your brothers just told me a very juicy secret."

Your eyes widened before glaring daggers at your brothers. You slammed the table and stood up with anger in your eyes.

"YOU TOLD HIM I HAD A CRUSH ON HIM!?" you yelled.

When you realized what you said, you quickly covered your mouth.

"Nope, but you did." Bucky said, wearing a shit-eating grin.

Steve turned to his friend, lightly slapped his chest, and shook his head. Simon stared at you with rosy cheeks.

"Y-You like me?" he asked.

Overwhelmed, you let out a sob before running out of the living room to your room, slamming the door behind you.

"Y/N, wait!" Simon said, jogging after you.

Steve groaned before glaring at Bucky.

"Care to explain?" Steve asked.

"Give it time." Bucky said, setting the cards down.

You clutched your head as you paced around your room and sobbed.

"Shit, shit, shit! I'm such a fucking idiot!" you cursed, "Damn, damn, damn!"

You growled before punching your wall, not stopping until you made a dent. You panted and slumped to the ground, letting out a soft sob as you leaned your head against the wall. Then, there was a soft knock at your door.

"Go away…" you sobbed.

"Y/N, it's Simon," your crush said, "Can I come in?"

You breathed out a sigh before humming a yes. When Simon walked into your room, his heart ached when he saw you slumped against the wall on the floor. When the young man sat beside you, silence fell between you.

"Are you okay?" Simon asked, breaking the silence.

You shook your head.

"You really have a crush on me?" Simon asked.

Another beat of silence passed before you nodded your head. Simon chuckled.

"I'm flattered, Y/N," Simon said.

"But you don't reciprocate." you said.

"…What?"

What you said made tears well in your eyes.

"You're flattered but don't reciprocate, do you?" you asked.

The young man sighed before gently turning your face to him.

"I do reciprocate." he said, his cheeks turning red.

Your entire face flushed.

"Y-You do?" you asked.

"I do," Simon said, "I've liked you for a while now, just never knew how to tell you."

What Simon said made you smile. Your smile soon faltered before looking away from him.

"You're only saying that to make me feel better." you said, hugging your knees to your chest.

Simon frowned; he hated seeing you so sad. He breathed out a heavy sigh before turning your face to him again. Then, he placed a loving kiss on your lips. Your eyes widened before they closed blissfully, savoring the kiss. Simon's soft lips made you feel like you were on cloud 9. When you parted, Simon smiled.

"Do you believe me now?" he asked.

You chuckled before kissing Simon again, smiling when you felt his lips curve upward.

"Now I do." you said, breaking the kiss.

Simon smiled before he embraced you in a tight hug. You felt happy tears stream down your cheeks as you returned the gesture, melting in your friend's embrace. When Simon broke the hug, he placed his hands on your shoulders and stared into your eyes.

"I really like you, Y/N," Simon said, his cheeks turning red, "W-Would you… would you be willing… to go out with me?"

The question was so sudden. You felt yourself smile and nod.

"Yes, yes I would!" you said happily.

Simon smiled and hugged you again, and you gladly returned the gesture. Leaning against the doorframe, your brothers smiled at you and Simon.

"That was your plan all along, huh?" Steve questioned.

"Yup," Bucky answered, "And it worked perfectly."