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interitus

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princess of maids dissonance

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Happy Moth Monday to all those who celebrate

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school project, some drawings for my pretend game about a housefly girl called musca and her adventures in some creepy&wet place

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hello I would like to show my favourite species of isopoddd

(pictures by trigonotarbida, from iNaturalist. idk how to post links with renames or whatever that action is)

it's called phreatoicopsis raffae and it's (along with another member of the same genus) the only member of the phreatoicidae (I might've misspelled that) to not be fully aquatic!

I really like it yayy

(gif, originally a video, by @syncaridans on youTube. it's longer but I can't compress it well)

I unfortunately can't find much information about it online

More photos of this silly guy :3

thanks for sharing! hes the pod for today :D

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she does this solely because it upsets him

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missing him or whatever

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Red and yellow leaf miner moth, Macarostola miniella, Gracillariidae

Found on the North Island of New Zealand

Photos 1-7 by invertebratist and 8 (for scale) by stephen_thorpe

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灵禽真君

Or, What if the ancestral patron deity of the bird yaoguai/demons is so old, he's an actual dinosaur.

(Also happy halloween!)

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(Ask game) 8 or 30?

8. thing you struggle to draw?

30. whats something you're proud of about your art style?

...i think the answers to these questions are related actually, so i'll combine them: i "struggle to draw" most things as soon as they're complicated or involved enough. it's just that it's fun to struggle.

complicated poses are probably number one, but it's also something i really value and thus feel proud of being able to do. sometimes i spend what feels like 300 years trying to figure a drawing out and it doesn't feel worth it in the end, it just feels like i wasted my time and frustrated myself for no reason, but sometimes it does, and that sense of satisfaction is also a sense of pride. and i just keep doing it to myself over and over again forever. so. i guess that's what it's all about

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art ask: 4

answered here ^_^

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ask game! 💛 4, 7, 18? 🪲

4. piece you wish got more love?

maybe this one even though it got a pretty normal amount of attention. i just spent so fucking long on it and it was such an arduous and terrible process that i think they should put it up on billboards or weave a tapestry to hang in a grand dining hall about it or send me $1000 by mail. this one also because it makes me happy to look at

7. easiest thing for you to draw?

clothing folds, which i think is sort of a talent for being something i find easy/relaxing that other people report struggling with? bird wings too... or people embracing/holding each other/touching in general... relaxing and joyful to draw. also shoulder anatomy in a weird way?

18. something you feel like you need to work on?

i'm not sure!!! i don't have any specific goals really. i can always get better at everything but it doesn't feel urgent since it doesn't get in the way of making the things i want to make, and if it does, i can just figure it out. right now i'm thinking about drawing hands because that's most relevant to what i'm working on... i've been wanting to do more environments for a while too but i don't know when it'll ever come up

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28 for the ask game!

28. whats a piece you would like to redraw at some point?

hard question!!!! i don't think i possess the redrawer's nature. i draw things largely to exorcise them from my mind so i can be free. even if i'm unsatisfied with the result the task is complete, so the motivation to do anything about it is gone. i'm like well, i'll do it better next time.

there are ideas i would definitely do differently if i ever did revisit them, but the chances of that actually happening are slim. these pieces i did for an art class stand out in this regard, because i was limited by the mediums i had to use, and the parameters of the assignment, and the time limit, and all of that. at the same time, they might not exist at all if i wasn't forced to make them by those parameters:

the first one is just sort of ugly to me. i don't like the way the balance of colors reads (EVEN THOUGH I DO LIKE THIS PALETTE IN AND OF ITSELF!!!!), in my mind i wanted to paint it digitally instead of using conte. i think i resent it also because someone in that class said it reminded them of star wars and i detest the aesthetics of star wars. and i can't even argue like it's completely reasonable to be reminded of star wars. not what i was going for though!

but also now i've been staring at it long enough writing this that i'm like, maybe it's okay actually. who knows.

in the second i was just so unsatisfied with how the character came out. i don't like the blue i used for the coat, the red sky should be the only intense saturation, it competes too much with the cool toned shadows and lessens the drama of the whole thing, the face didn't turn out as well as it did in my test sketches, etc. i loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee the background though, probably one of my favorite things I've ever drawn, so overall it is kind of a conflicting image

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Hey. How do you feel about eyes?

sorry for leaking part of gay book mari please dont blow up the arena

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just recieved a message from god streamers without vod channels don't get into heaven. many such cases

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This quote has been living in my head rent free since 7/21/24

8:23:00 crashout over not being “able” to defend himself. ZAM: “‘its okay zam we saw how you are at the end of every single season’ (citrus) yea, you guys have. The deep darkness that’s within me, [giggle] ugh. ‘They’ll see… one day’ (mer) I don’t want them to see, no, that’s the thing, i don’t want them to see. So it’s like, I guess, I shouldn’t be mad, when they say that I’m weak. It’s just like, like I Could fight, it’s just such a hassle, to like, get into it, and then not, you know. Cause like, okay, okay, here here, let’s envision it, let's say I do want to fight people, right? theoretically, but, I don’t want to let out the evil evil darkness that’s within me, right? How the hell am I gonna do that when I’m constantly taking fights, constantly losing, constantly getting overly attached, overly invested in conflict, like how am i gonna, how am I gonna contain the demon within, if I, what’s it called, if I, if I’m constantly getting myself into fights? You know? ‘Getting good’ (chips) no but like I’m being dead serious, like cause, what’s it called, eventually they’re gonna hit me in a way that is gonna make me want to go full force, there’s no point in trying to fight if I’m not gonna go 100% all in, you know? So. I dunno. Maybe if I get better at my self control and discipline”

And then the very end of "LIKE HIM"

6:21:00 takes the eye patch off. “I’ll say it now. IF, by the end of the season I get to a point where I'm just killing anybody then, i think that’s- I think that’s okay. Because I trust myself now that if I get to that point, it would be for a rational reason. I think. I wouldn’t blame myself. I wouldn’t resent myself. That wouldn't be the worst thing in the world. At the beginning of the stream I was a mess, I did not trust myself. But you know what? I- I change my mind. I think I do, i think i do trust myself a little more”