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Comfort Creator
Ghost who downloads tiktok only because Soap and Gaz made him so they could send him memes. He hates the app. Thinks everyone on it is just talking way too much about nothing. Finds the consumerism and attention seeking to be beyond annoying.
Ghost who still finds himself scrolling when he needs a mental break from paperwork.
Eventually, he realizes he keeps getting fed this one creator’s videos. It’s the tea reviews that reel him in. They’re nothing special, just them sitting in front of the camera sipping on some artesian tea while chatting about their day and the flavors.
Before long, though, he’s watching all their content. From random rambles to outfit videos to movie talks. They just have a very soothing voice is all. Nothing to do with their pretty face or obviously too-kind disposition. A sweet little thing; so unlike him.
He officially follows three people now.
The thing about Ghost is, he doesn’t sleep. Well, he does, but it’s either like the dead when he’s exhausted himself beyond what his body can handle or fraught with nightmares. He isn’t sure what compels him to do it the first time, but Ghost puts on his their tea review playlist; just lets it play through while he lays in bed. He’s never slept so well. Somehow their voice just makes everything else quiet - like it flips a switch in some primal part of his brain.
At some point he comes across the term “comfort creator” and realizes that’s exactly what he’s got.
A few months pass and Ghost finds himself on medical leave with absolutely nothing to do and all the time in the world. He decides to try some of tea his favorite little creator has reviewed - even some of the bad ones, just to see if he agrees. Maybe he’ll find a new favorite to keep on base.
He makes his way to a local high-end tea shop. All loose leaf and custom blends from various brands and places around the world. He’s far too aware of how out of place he looks - a hulking man in all black and an arm cast in this frilly little shop. A real bull in a china shop.
Ghost’s back goes ram rod straight when an all too familiar voice tries to get his attention. He turns comically slowly, heart pounding in his ears. There they are, tapping his arm and asking if he’ll be so kind as to get that strawberry rose blend down from the top shelf that’s just out of reach. He does, of course, spluttering through an awkward “you’re welcome” and kicking himself when they scamper away to the register before he can introduce himself.
But now he knows they’re close, a shop they must frequent, and has plenty of time on leave. All he has to do is find the right opportunity to make proper conversation. How hard could that be?
#I know this is lazy but it’s haunting me#might return to this with more thoughts#bumbling Simon is my guilty pleasure#simon ghost riley x reader#ghost x reader#simon ghost riley#cod#call of duty#gender neutral reader
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I think the downright most horrific and brutal detail in the show is that Kilgharrah actually used Merlin to make sure Arthur's death happened with the pretence of protecting him
#kilgharrah when i catch you#this is why merlins “ i failed? ” destroyed me to my core#you were never supposed to succeed love#I honestly believe Kilgharrah knew Arthur was supposed to die at Camlaan and just wanted to make sure he didn't die BEFORE that#thats why he was like ooh but Merlin you must protect him and make sure he survives ( until its the convenient time)#and merlin genuinely thought he could protect Arthur until the end#say what you want about Kilgharrah and what his intentions might be behind this but this is SO FOUL#and now Merlins waiting for Arthurs return for a thousand years on Kilgharrah's word alone because thats the only hope he has#what else can he do#lets just hope he's right this time#bummed my self out with this thought while doing my class work#merlin#bbc merlin#merthur#cannot take much more of this guys send help
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Anyways on Twitter I made a thread of Black hairstyles x each Trigun character, and asked who the crowd wanted me to draw for black history month. So here’s four req I picked at random!


Happy Belated BHM!😭
(Source thread under cut)
If you want the original thread that includes, almost everyone it’s here and admittedly it’s kinda bomb! (TriMax Knives was my favourite hc, I will draw him of my own accord soon)

https://x.com/b0tsbby/status/1757469800375136535?s=46&t=B4reFP0FnOly1tkmPhVHew
#LEGATO’S KINDA COLD#also I’m not a stranger to black Livio so this is funny cause I always draw him like this#also Midvalley with cornrows was more of a moment than I thought it was#all just cold if I’m being honest#except for Milly she’s Milly /pos#if I’m feeling#if I’m feeling to it I might draw wolfwood idk cause I think he’d kinda eat too#trigun#legato bluesummers#legato trigun#also no one talks about Razlo but TRUST I will return#I think about Razlo more than I do Livio so I’m down#milly thompson#millie thompson#livio the double fang#trigun livio#livio#trimax#trigun maximum#midvalley the hornfreak#midvalley trigun#I WILL DRAW KNIVES IM SO SERIOUS#sorry I just remembered and started frothing at the mouth#Midvalley fans I’m also started to see the vision LOW-KEY#warm place in my heart for yall
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sharing a love for all things mundane and sweet 🍫✨💕
+ bonus! 🎆
#kagarts#fluffyriceshipping#trainer riley#stat trainer riley#champion lance#lance pokemon#🐉🍚🌊#pokemon hgss#pokemon dppt#valentines day#riley's hat off means he doesn't have to mask around people because he's comfortable being himself around who he LOVES#lance loves his lightshow a lot :] i like to think he brings out more self assurance in riley + gives a lot of verbal affirmation#and it contrasts riley's soft-spoken devotion and giving a lot of physical affirmation in return! that's love babey!!!#i'm really proud of this piece art wise! trying out less lines + lineless styles and colors and the results came out nice ^-^#i think something clicks when you draw something you like. world is your oyster. love wins 💕#i've been looking for a job so i've just been doing a lot of work on that atm;; as much as i do wanna work on timeskip or visnov stuff#i gotta pay the bills somehow. i might try out adopts when my comms queue is done. maybe i'll stream it (a Big maybe though)#i've been in the mood to create some fellas or creatures of some kind. and also learn how to use toyhouse better. food for thought
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Obviously normally a gacha game will never make drastic changes to their characters, and Simeon has the 'appeal' of being marketed as an angel, but I just don't like how they are trying to make him an angel again? Like he wants to be an angel because of Raphael/Luke now, not because of any real attachement to the CR. Hell, even If he were to made It back to being a archangel, he would just be Michael's errant boy, he would still be demoted, and every problem he had with the CR before being turned in a human would still be there, he would be in square one again I guess.
Like even If I don't like human!Simeon, in the Devilgram Coffee Someday, he talks about how he dreams of opening a cafetería and how he never thought an angel could 'dream of something like that' (this being in the NB timeline, a obvious reference of him opening the Angel's Halo in OGS3) Is he just suposse to abandone his dream like that? To return to the Celestial Realm just for the sake of Raphael & Luke? I do wonder... Is there really a life for Simeon in the Celestial Realm?
#obey me#obey me nightbringer#post0400#still in L58 but I guess this is what I think now#if it were for me: I would make Simeon temporally a demon. stuff happens#and maybe something happens that makes life in the CR more tolerable for him and he returns to being an angel#or maybe he doesn't turn into a demon. but he remains human and stuff happens and blah blah blah#like I understand not wanting to left alone both luke & raphael but there must be a middle ground around here#between Raphael fears of being alone & Simeon life in the CR not being shit#anyways incoherent rant of the day. since NB story is ending I will be making short post with my thoughts#Simeon storyline might be left inconcluse so it's not like it matters anyways
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Something I've been thinking a lot about lately is how everyone thought Egon had gone insane. What Happened that made them think that. They've fought a gigantic Stay Puft Marshmellow Man TWICE (counting the 2009 video game because iirc it's canon? Correct me if I'm wrong), fought an interdimensional god, fought a blood thirsty ruler that killed thousands and was hated by all that was trapped in a painting (and managed to get in to beat him by making THE STATUE OF LIBERTY start walking down the street with slime that reacted purely based on vibes), found an underground abandoned transit system full of the moodslime, had a bathtub try to eat Dana and her baby, fought a giant murderous black widow lady, fought the fisherman ghost who turned an entire hotel floor into the bottom of a ocean, and that's not even mentioning them getting trapped on an island that randomly raised up from underwater that had been abandoned for decades created by Ivor Shandor who worshipped Gozer. So what did he do or say that made everyone else think he'd gone insane?? All I can think is maybe he was acting strange / eratic before, but he's always been like that to some degree.
I don't know. It's something that I've been thinking about. The correct answer is 'it's not that deep and they needed a reason that the others weren't together anymore and weren't aware of Egons death or know what was going on,' but also. What Was He Saying that prompted everyone, including Ray, to think he lost his mind when he'd been right almost every time before that.
I'm genuinely so curious as to what he was up to before this. What was he doing. What insane idea was working on prior to this or was he even working on anything at all??
Also want to clarify this post isn't negative 😭 I really love the newer movies and their lore / the newer storyline / characters, I just like thinking about small stupid things like this. Gives me something to think about / speculate about / figure out an answer to.
#ghostbusters#egon spengler#nikolas posts#I have so many thoughts on it because I've just been rewatching the two movies on loop for the past few days.#All we got was Ray saying that he'd started talking about the end of the world (IIRC) and that he went insane and took everything#when he eventually left to deal with it on his own#which for the record it's extremely impressive that he would've stopped Gozer from returning BY HIMSELF. The only reason it hadn't worked#was because of the electricity issue#Hiding all the traps and setting up the proton packs to fire at the hell pit?? Insanity. He's just on a complete different level of existin#Like they were aware of Ivor Shandor and his plans long before??? They found his ISLAND DEDICATED TO GOZER who had full intention of#BRINGING THEM BACK#it's really Really REALLY not this deep but I have thoughts and I wanted to share them. Maybe someone else might have an idea I#couldn't think of or might have something to add.#I guess it could be a 'they beat Gozer once and assumed they were gone' but that wasn't the first time Gozer 'died' so??#if I missed something Please tell me. I haven't watched the newer movies as much as the older ones (I grew up watching them / playing#the game so I'm more familiar with the older lore and haven't had the chance to rewatch the newer ones 1000 times over unfortunately)#so it's entirely possible I missed something#I'd think maybe it was just because they were older but I really don't think thats the case. I have reasoning for it but I need to do#the math to make sure I'm getting the ages right by the time AfterLife happens.#really need to make a chart / timeline of all the events that happened and what year / month / day they happened. That's a project#for tomorrow perhaps.#anyways if anyones reading this sorry for the insane rambling and congrats for making it to the end#also this post isn't negative I adore the newer movies so much. I love them a lot and I genuinely don't really care about this at all#just a thing to think / ponder / speculate about if that makes sense#I enjoy thinking about stupid irrelevant stuff like this#so so so many thoughts
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So Punk sent Drew feet pics in a group chat back in 2020...
gonna go out on a limb and say there are quite a few people jealous of this guy for how punk and drew have been exchanging pics of his feet with each other
#stumbled across this by accident while tryna find the source of a different photo#and what the hell#punk and drew in a group chat years before his wwe return makes me think they might be a little more matey backstage than i first thought#always figured their backstage drama would be exaggerated a bit for storyline#but maybe more than i thought#cm punk#drew mcintyre#punkintyre#effy
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sixguns & innuendo
#mantimer#mancomer#tmwnn#douglas mortimer#manco#dollars trilogy#artner#theyre fully clothed but im adding the mature community label bc the phallic innuendo is . quite overt.#hhhhhh i've been thinking a lot lately about gun fetishism in westerns.#the scenes in fafdm where manco and mortimer handle each other's weapons already contain fair amounts of subtext#but i thought.. why not increase the homoeroticism !#sixguns are already practically treated as extensions of their gunslingers. why not let manco give mortimer's buntline a lil kiss? ;0#this was originally gonna be a two-part set with a companion image of mortimer returning the favor on manco's colt#(bc. u know. ''equal partnership'' and all that)#but i spent so much fucking time doing the rendering for this image that i decided to forgo the sequel. sorry + not sorry.#but !!! wow im so proud of the shading on this one. it took me an insane amount of time. please clap.#i might make a separate post later about western genre theory and cowboy gun eroticism but for now.... yehaw for phallic imagery !#for a few dollars more (1965)#westerns#🤠#🍝#art#pardner posts
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I drew another Chara- living with the Dreemurrs edition

"The King and Queen treated the human child as their own. The underground was filled with hope."
I don't like this as much as the last one but oh well... I ended up rambling a huge amount in the tag, so if you want details and headcanons about the actual drawing again, you'll have to look pretty far down this time, sorry (Also, I ran out of tags after a while. Tumblr is tired of me, lol. I might reblog this more tags later if I remember what I was going to say.)
#chara dreemurr#undertale#next up: the narrator#(I know that's not a title they receive in game like the other two but... just let me have this)#The future monarch of monsterkind. The prophecized saviour. One of the most important people in the underground. An angel apparently.#Chara puts all of their effort into appearing perfect in both appearance and manners. They're representing all the underground now and they#don't want to let down the king and queen! (Plus Chara's scared of getting kicked out or worse should they ever disappoint their family)#But... they're gonna save everyone! They're gonna make sure the monsters win this war! It's their destiny! The prophecy says so!#(... That's why all this happened to them. Chara sees themself as smarter more careful and maturer than their peers... because of the way#what a strange child...#hey look! I did a thing#my art#they were raised on the surface. They believe they have the skills to lead monsterkind to victory because of what they suffered.#Almost like they were trained or led to this moment. Like they don't have a choice. But this makes all their pain worth it right?#It was always for this fated grand purpose right? That's why they hate feeling robbed of their ''purpose''! Might be part of why they hate#determination! What do you mean you can defy fate? What do you mean things could've been different? That I didnt have to go through this?#that it wasn't written in the stars?... Oh shit I forgot to talk about the drawing!#The little bunches are supposed to look like monster ears. Especially with the monster soul locket. They're doing a curtsy which they alway#upon meeting someone new and introducing themself as the future monarch of monsterkind. Calling whoever they're talking to sir or ma'am.#Wanted to make it a curtsy/bow combination but I couldn't draw that. They have a little golden flower clip to pull their hair back and#they gave themself the belt and flouncy petticoat. They iron and polish everything they wear literally everytime they go outside.#Chara wears heeled boots whenever possible because they really hate being so short...they somehow think it makes them look weak.#The blushes and lashes are make-up! Chara wants to look perfect after all! They also really really hate their red spots/birthmarks and will#cover them up whenever possible...and they're wearing their crucifix again. Of course they are! Through it all they'll always keep#their faith. ....Until Chara finds themself a figurehead of an entirely new religion. I think they're...newly 11 here. (Second year in the#underground. 10 when they fell. 13 when they did.) Comfortable (comfortable as they can be) with their new family but not yet desperate#to get them out as soon as possible. Might not even be working with Gaster yet. But Asriel already gave Chara their locket.#I definitely think it was...a while before Chara really thought of returning the favour. Not that they don't utterly shower#Asriel and their parents in other gifts or affection! But they're just not one to make... promises of forever lightly. Especially because#Chara isn't really planning on staying around for a long time at all! They will break the barrier like prophecized then climb the mountain
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torn between wanting to make all my ocs Specialest Little Guys and overpowered VS. the fact I just finished watching all three extended editions of Lord of the Rings and am deeply moved by the struggles and worth of the common man
#ramblings#the end of Return of the King gave me many OC Thoughts and now you're going to hear them#might veto the whole 'Funney Big Weapon Guy is also psychic' thing for Sid Sibyl#won't fully un-magic him just cuz i made it a common thing in the setting but like. i might still nerf him a little in that aspect#his whole schtick is that he is aggressively Just A Guy#he's very persistent. won't come back from a job until he found the last crate that fell off the merchant's wagon or whatever#very good at sword-fighting. cuz he trains and spars a lot and eats like a furnace to keep up his strength#his 'high pain tolerance' is something im self-inserting where i won't notice injuries until later. a bit oblivious. just keeps on truckin#an altogether formidable combo but. he is so much Just A Guy#no super strength no immunities no super-charged magic. not even a cursed weapon to give him a leg up#he finally visits his home again and it's confusing why it's not the same as he remembers it-#-when he should have much more in common with old neighbors and vendors at the market than with his cosmically superpowered friends#old sights and sounds and some friends that give him a warm welcome-back but... it's not the same. it's not home. not anymore#from the moment he chose his path he could never go back home#and I feel like the tragedy of that would be undercut if i gave him something like future-vision or a magical sword
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Star Wars: Hyperspace Stories #5 | Star Wars Adventures: Return to Vader's Castle #3 | Star Wars: Republic #60, #70, #71 | "In the Air" short TCW Magazine story | Star Wars: The Clone Wars #6, #7
#daily asajj thought of the day#what!#what#what?#just went through every last one of her speaking comic appearances for this#conclusion is she doesn't say what nearly enough#i think i got all of them there might be more whats i missed tho#star wars#asajj ventress#star wars comics#star wars memes#hyperspace stories#return to vader's castle#star wars republic#republic 60#sw tcw#star wars the clone wars#sw#ventress#comics#comic panel
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one day i will write a meta post about this giving more context but the tl;dr of it will be that i think Carmy fucks hard, well, and often but never added emotions into the mix before Sydney
#ive enjoyed reading the metas on my dash lately my opinion just seems to differ and while i can write fics i cant write meta#but im gonna try after i finish writing trois#but yeah#i have a lot of thoughts on sydcarmy and sex though my ao3 account might have given that away already#i think that faded in nyc bc loss of libido is a common symptom of depression and i think it didnt return until chicago#and i think him and claire failed so hard bc he was attempting to do the emotional side of things but the emotions were for syd but#that was too scary for him to consider bc he'd never dealt with an emotional aspect of sexuality before so it was daunting#i do think that sydney is a virgin though#also i obviously have thoughts on them + kink but thats less canon and more i think it would be good for them lmao#i might add that into the meta post too
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okay but we can all agree: if henry saw proof of randall's death that even he couldn't dispute he would definitely just kill himself right?
#melonposting#professor layton#maybe i envision henry being more mentally ill than he actually is... but...#he was only keeping on because he thought randall might be alive. his whole purpose as a human being revolved around serving randall#if randall were truly gone i don't think he'd feel the need nor the desire to live any longer#a horrible thought is conjuring in my head...#for all that time henry was just dragging himself along. running on empty for 18 years... so exhausted...#if he found that randall was truly dead would it not be a relief in a terrible way? for now he's finally able to rest...#so if he found out i can imagine him either 1) violently bashing his head in with a rock (my first thought)#or 2) overdosing on some sort of soporific and dying in his sleep (in accordance to this second horrible thought)#sorry this is incredibly morbid. that's just how i think about henry lol#i should also mention that i've thought about the 'resting forever' concept in terms of randall's return too#in that now that randall's back henry can finally 'rest' after working so hard to find him#he doesn't actually get to reap the reward of waiting for randall because he just falls asleep and never wakes up#which is a SUPER screwed up thought. what the hell right
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You’ve got me! I have been indoctrinated into the fukutora cult lol. They’re just so good!
Also I hc Fukunaga as having selective mutism, and I feel like Tora would be really good at interpreting him :). Like, fukunaga never really bothered to learn sign because he thought it wasn’t really important and so few people can understand sign anyway, and he can usually get a point across without it. And then tora turns up and for whatever reason he can just read fukunaga’s expressions and gestures really well and doesn’t judge him at all and aahhhhhhh! /pos
(Am I projecting? Who knows)
FUKUTORA NATION WE CONTINUE TO GROW, glad to hear it dude!!
I see selectively mute or nonverbal hcs for Fukunaga a lot and I think they're great!! It's cool when mute characters go against the shy stereotype and are actually pretty energetic/sociable. In Fukunaga's character sheet it says his current concern is "Yamamoto tells him to 'Talk more, c'mon'". I think Tora—the oblivious idiot he is—would pester him about talking for the first few weeks before someone finally fills him in. After that he'd start teaching himself sign in an attempt to better understand him only to learn that Fukunaga himself doesn't even know it (though he's touched by the gesture). It doesn't matter anyways cause they just seem to get each other, when Inuoka and Shibayama first join the team they're convinced that the two are psychic.
ANYWAYS YOU'RE COOKING, THIS WAS VERY SWEET! THANK YOU FOR THE ASK, also nice saiki pfp
#i dont have selective mutism so if i said anything off-base lmk#This might align more with the nonverbal hcs im not sure#whenever you send me an ask expect a paragraph in return because i have thoughts#TOO MANY THOUGHTS they plauge my brain#fukutora#ant's rambling tag woo
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#19.3 Unravel
It had been some time since Agni felt this nervous. Not even talking with Jinsung Ha recently had made him feel like this. He fiddled with the mask on his hand as he waited for Grace to come back. He had thought hard on how to deliver the news, but he knew that no matter how he phrased it, Grace would be upset. Velt nuzzled under his palm and Agni gave her a few pats, before deciding that she would be better inside her bowl in his lighthouse, just in case the shinsu acted up around Grace after he received the news.
Grace came back wearing the comfiest shirt and shorts Agni knew Grace liked to wear on lazy days. He joined him on the floor, and they ate dinner together. Agni always finished last, so while waiting for him to finish his meal, Grace told him about his day with Bam. Grace was intrigued by how much his way of thinking had changed, and how glad he was to be able to be by Bam's side when he was having a bad day. It reminded Agni of the hidden floor, when Grace faced his sworn enemy.
They left the used bowls on the coffee table and went to brush their teeth. Afterwards, they turned off the light and went upstairs to sit on their bed. Grace's curious gaze never left him, and Agni curled his feet nervously.
Grace was the one who broke the silence. "So…what is it?"
Agni's breath hitched. This was the part he dreaded most. "I talked with the crocodile earlier. Did you know that he could manipulate stone already?"
"Huh." Grace needed a few seconds to let the information sink in. "Didn't Rak learn it on the Hell train? How does he know it?"
"Turns out our crocodile also traveled back to the past like us. He found the young crocodile and taught him."
"What?!" Grace gasped, wide eyed. "That means our Rak is–!!"
"He's dead." Agni quickly snuffed out that hope. They had been in delusion for long enough; it was time that they faced the bitter truth. "He suffered a fatal injury from the explosion. He couldn't have lasted long without proper help." Agni omitted the actual cause for Rak's death, but still kept his words true. "I'm sorry."
"…Oh." Grace looked lost, just like Agni was. His lips parted a little, but they closed before any sound escaped.
Agni gently squeezed Grace's hand, encouraging and comforting as he let the silence stretch on, giving Grace some time to process the information.
"Agni…" Grace whispered, "do you think Hatz and Isu…?"
Agni bit his lip and avoided his gaze, as the nightmare of that day replayed in his mind. He witnessed Hatz get his arm ripped off when trying to protect him. He could still recall the clang of a sword hitting the floor, and Hatz's suppressed scream that gnawed deep at his guilt. He witnessed Isu get beheaded after being taken hostage, the memory of warm blood painting them both still vivid like it happened yesterday.
Agni refused to acknowledge their possible deaths, because it felt like a nightmare that one day he could hopefully wake up from. He avoided the topic when Grace brought it up, so he wouldn't have to say it aloud and make it real. He had been so hard on himself, because he couldn't get rid of the feeling that he had failed Grace and everyone else involved.
Agni knew this had to change if he wanted to live better, now that they had gotten a second chance. So he swallowed down the lump in his throat that had built up over the years and asked mostly to himself; "What are the odds of their survival?"
"There's always a chance–"
"Grace." Agni looked him straight in the eye. "They were already severely injured before the explosion hit."
Grace fell silent and went still.
Agni felt a pang of guilt upon witnessing Grace's reaction. "Sorry. I didn't mean to snap." Agni fiddled with his hands. He realized that he didn't know how much Grace knew of what happened. "My scar…do you know how I got it?"
"I…was told it was from the family heads' battle." Grace looked thoughtful. Agni knew he was trying to be careful with his words. "A stray attack?"
"It could have been worse." The memory of the scorching heat on his skin felt like it had only happened yesterday. He passed out right when he was about to heal Isu, and only found out later that he also lost sweetfish at that time. The days he spent recovering from the burn, to withstand the excruciating pain every second he was conscious, and finally coming to terms that it'd be a permanent scar, was one of the turning points that had changed him forever. Were Grace not there to care for him, he might have ended up destroying himself even more.
Agni hadn't realized he had his left hand clawing on his cheek until Grace pried his hand off and frowned, "You're doing it again."
"Maybe I should wear the mask…" Agni muttered to himself. After all, Grace gave it to him less so he could hide the scar but more to prevent him from unconsciously hurting himself. The only time he could safely take it off was when Grace was around.
Agni bit his lip nervously when Grace didn't reply. He no longer had the courage to look Grace in the eye that spoke so much concern, so he leaned close and rested his head on Grace's chest. "Rak, Isu, Hatz and Hwaryun were trying to get me out of that damned place. But we were caught while escaping, and…it was a bloodbath. I was…too occupied to react to the incoming heat. Rak shielded us from the explosion. And when I woke up…"
"They weren’t with you," Grace finished it for him after Agni trailed off a moment too long.
Agni nodded dazedly, "I've been telling myself that they're still alive, after a blow that could kill rankers. But…who am I kidding? I was lucky enough to survive with just this little–" Agni vaguely pointed to himself– "inconvenience."
Agni felt a hand gripping his arm, and he pulled away to see Grace looking at him with a pained expression. His eyes were glossy and his lips were pulled into a thin line. Trusting his instinct, Agni reached out to gently trace and cup Grace's cheek with his free hand.
"I'm sorry," Agni muttered. "I'm sorry, for not telling you sooner."
Agni silently witnessed tears that streamed down on his love's face. It was a bitter sight that Agni wished he'd never have to see again, that he had tried to avoid for so long by not telling him. He pulled Grace in and held him close to his chest, as if Agni was trying to gather his own crumbled heart back together.

Grace mumbled their late best friends' names as he held onto him tighter, shaking from each breath he took between sniffles.
Agni felt his own eyes sting with unshed tears. He remembered the years he spent climbing the tower together with his old team. Despite their banter being his source of headaches, Agni knew he too had come to acknowledge them as his cherished friends. Only when they were gone did Agni realize how much he'd miss having them around. Seeing the younger them didn't exactly close the gaping hole in his heart, but at least the emptiness was more filled.
Agni squeezed Grace tighter. "We have their younger selves with us now. We will protect them better this time."
Grace only nodded and sank further into his embrace. And Agni planted kisses on his hair, relishing the thought that after everything he had gone through, Grace was still a constant in his life. As long as he had him, everything would be okay.
When Grace started shaking again, Agni caressed his hair and hummed a comfort song they had known by heart. Still, it didn't make falling asleep any easier for Agni, especially not after admitting that his nightmare was very much real. However, as he had been through grief…this, too, would pass.
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#Whee we get to know some of their past. Specifically their turning point#I hope it flows nicely because i have rewritten this like 3 times now 😭😭😭 dialogues are just not my specialty#like how to make them reveal such information without making them come out of the blue#writing style aside. let's talk about why Agni behaves this way#I will save the details on the what and how for the prologue. but basically Agni had been through hell that he couldn't escape alone#Rak Hatz and Isu saved him (or attempted to). and Agni owed them for saving his life. thus the strong attachment that Khun doesn't have#also let me mention that Agni had trouble differentiating between hallucination and reality after the incident. So he was kind of in denial#maybe Agni had come to a conclusion that they might be dead months after that. but he was too afraid to admit it to Grace#because he thought it was partly his fault for being incompetent. and Grace would hate him for letting their friends die#not wanting to risk being left by Grace. he just put himself (and inevitably Grace too) in the illusion of truth#that there's still a chance their friends are still alive because they have no proof of their deaths#so when Agni was offered to go back to the past. he agreed to it. Already expecting that Rak Hatz Isu aren't the same ones that he looks fo#but it was as good as he could get to redeem himself. Plus they get to meet everyone else who they couldn't save#Anyway. I'm taking hiatus until April. In return I will answer if you have any questions whether it is written in the tags or sent via ask#see ya folks <3 we'll get more brothers and team bonding when I return#tower of god#tog#two sides of the same coin fic#my fic#my art#bam#25th bam#jue viole grace#khun#khun aguero agnis#khunbam#shibisu#ship leesoo#rak wraithraiser#hatz
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Just finished the first light novel volume.
I think I have vocivd.
#the apothecary diaries#kusuriya no hitorigoto#Ooooooooh my fucking god#I need to sit down#<- is already lying down in bed#OOOOOH MY GOD#DUDE#THE EPILOGUE#THE FUCKING EPILOGUE#OH MY JINMAO HEART#AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA#Dude if the epilogue of light novel 1 doesn't convince you to ship jinmao WHAT FUCKING WILL#Ooooh fucking boy#AND IT'S TWO WEEKS LEFT UNTIL I GET MORE MONEY#AAAAAAAARGH#MIGHT JUST PSLURGE ON THE SECOND LIGHT NOVEL ALREADY#OOOOOH MY FUCKING GOD#EVERYONE IN THIS FUCKING SERIES ITHE BIGGEST JINMAO SHILLER#AND SO AM IIIIIIIIIIIIII#DUDE I HVAE SO MANY THOUGHTS#THE NEDING#SO INTENSE#IKNOW SHE RETURNS BUT HOLY SHIT MY UDDES#AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGH#Manda's Maomao Simpage#I think I have covid
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