#might delete or archive later

[an-excellent-choice]

A random thought but I am what you would consider as a new fan in dragon age. So, for me the common discourse/hate surrounding Cullen in the games is really shallow.

(I am referring to the character not the voice actor, I do not give a shit about that guy and about his bullshit)

I see a lot of hate on cullen and how either he is so fucking bland or evil because he is a equivalent to a cop in dragon age. which while I can see the comparison it just go and shows how people cant really handle an overarching flawed character story arc when they aren't this witty or sassy person.

Cullen is great example of how a traumatic experience can sway you to extremism (you know like Bolin in Korra) He wasn't inherently bad, hell he trained in a very lenient and peaceful circle without any issue or complaints on his side.

(reminder that the Cullen trained in was very chill and balanced if you think about it. Anders stayed in that circle while doing his multiple escape attempts and they never made him tranquil. Other examples include all the kissing allowed in the circle and the fact the you can save the circle in DAO if you save the first enchanter)

Then everything went to shit in that relaxed circle.

Cullen was tortured and was forced to watch everyone around him get killed by the very things that he was warned what mages was.

If you think about it he probably blamed majority of what happened to leniency of the circle to the mages which is why it isnt a surprise that he would be supportive of strictness of the circle in kirkwall.

A lot of people hate on Cullen because of da2 which i understand but this part of the story is kind of like anders in da2 act 3 or loghain in dao for him.

He is part of his life where he is as closest to monster he could be but you know why he isn't the worst is because he has a line that he didnt cross which was killing allies/ civilians. He later also acknowledges in DAI the pain and atrocities he caused in DA2.

He is aware of his biases and is trying to redeem himself by helping in the inquisition as an independent faction. He left the templars.

He hates how the templars has treated him and his faith to be weapons of abuse. While he was a perpetrator of the abuses of the templars, people forget he is also a victim.

Templars are required to intake lyrium to be part of the order. This system literally uses these drugs to make them addicts and gain control on them. I dont know about you but that shit isnt really comparable to being cops.

He is literally a recovering drug addict in DAI and the reason why he is doing this is to show that templars can do it. They can leave the order.

Extra: I love cullen because he is so complicated and he is trying his best. Does this mean I want to see him in DATV? Fuck no. If him being brought back into story requires for the voice actor to be hired for it. no fucking thanks. His story is done and I'm happy with that

P.S also extra note about people saying he is creepy because he had a crush on the warden in DAO while he was a templar is a stupid point.

I dont care if the author originally wanted it to seem creepy, they completely failed on that mood and they forgot characters can also write themselves a story if you are not careful.

Cullen was incredibly shy and knew how inappropriate his crush was. He literally ran away from any flirting attempts. It is not bad to have a crush with someone you shouldn't have on, AS LONG AS YOU KNOW THE BOUNDARIES AND DONT LET ANYONE CROSS THOSE BOUNDARIES. which he didn't.

[wittyhoid]

maybe he’s born with it maybe it’s maybelline

[pebblume]

I never realized how liberating writing fanfiction would be. I hadn’t written creatively in years. It’s been so long that I kind of forgot what it felt like. The childlike rush of pouring your heart out onto a blank page, not caring about the results as long as you were having fun. I’ve tried writing fanfic a couple of times, for different fandoms across the years, but never finished anything I was really happy with, nothing that I felt comfortable sharing with the world. But something just clicked for me this past week. I realized how much fun it was to stretch out my writing muscles, to get inside the heads of my favorite characters. I realized that it didn’t have to be perfect to be worthy of being shared and loved by others. I realized that I had so many stories inside myself - more than I thought possible. 

But perhaps what I’m most in awe of is fanfic readers. The people who read my work and leave kudos and bookmarks and comments - one word comments, sweet comments, silly comments, paragraph-long comments. I love them all. I used to be afraid of leaving comments on AO3, afraid I wouldn’t have enough words, wouldn’t have the right words, to depict how I felt. But when I felt firsthand how much those comments meant to me I started leaving more and more of them, spreading a digital paper trail of love to all my favorite authors. More and more often I recognize the profile names and images in my comment section and think, Hey, I know you! Now I’m not just a guest on AO3, or a passive reader. I belong here. 

I won’t lie and say I don’t miss drawing a bit, my previous creative outlet. There are plenty of drawings inside me too, itching to be realized. I really just don’t have the time for two time extensive hobbies, not when I need to balance school and practicing and little things like sleeping and eating and relaxing. I miss it, but not as much as I thought I would. There’s a level of investment to sharing a story online that feels…special. When I post my art, I get engagement, and it feels nice, but ultimately, most people are only spending about ten seconds looking at the work I spent eight hours on, if that. When someone reads my fics, we’ve now spent time together. You’ve lived inside my head for a bit, made it your home. It’s about feeling seen, I think. Writing makes me feel understood in a way visual art sometimes doesn’t. It makes me feel vulnerable in the same way performing music does, but less exposed too. It’s interesting to me. 

The only downside, if you can call it that, is now that the writing bug has infected me, I’m finding it harder and harder to stop. I’ll have an idea and then suddenly five hours have flown by because I’m on a creative streak and I just want to write one more idea down, which turns into two, and so on and so forth. I dread stopping, because what if I forget something? What if I get into a writing block later? Suddenly I have people who want to read the things I write and I want to provide it, I really do, but I also have responsibilities. I say, as I write this, ignoring my audition tomorrow afternoon. 

I still have a bit of embarrassment attached to fandom works. When I tell acquaintances that I like to draw or write, I rarely tell them I mean fanart and fanfiction. As if loving something that deeply, that sincerely, is inherently shameful in this age of irony and soulless remakes. Especially when my interests usually consist of media marketed towards children, nevermind the fact that it has more emotional maturity than most ‘adult’ works. But I’m trying to get better about it. A lot of my closest friends know about my hobbies, and some I’ve even let see my work. It’s terrifying but also giddying, seeing them like an art post or comment on a fic. After all, to reap the rewards of being loved, one must submit themselves to the mortifying ordeal of being known, or something like that. 

I realized today that I’ve written over 30,000 words in the past two weeks about about two characters who don’t belong to me, but whom I’ve made my own.

And I’ve never felt happier

[bakubakunyanyaa]

sorry for posting shitty doodles i dont have anything else in me rn

[shroomerr]

erm hi ehe uh have a dump of all of my doodles over these past few weeks of my sp oc ft some of the other characters (im drowning in assignments you guys someone lend a hand oh god I’m drowningbllsdhdsbja)

[eeriedragone]

As someone who spedran all 5 seasons of The Magnus Archives in less than a month, the true horror is having to now WAIT for new episodes.

Send help.

[shadow-the-crow]

it's currently 3 am and i'm so tired that i'm convinced my laptop has been taken over by the Spiral.

I'm obsessively scrolling through tumblr. A few minutes ago, there was a post i really wanted to like. I thought i had liked it. It was not in my likes. I scrolled back up to find it again. It's gone. I swear it's gone. My laptop or tumblr keeps glitching. It's making me scroll past every fanart 2 or 3 times.

[magnus-brain-rot]

Fic idea for tma

What if Gertrude had an official (and alive) assistant when she died? Possibly an avatar who doesn’t want the world to end.

Here’s what I’m picturing: a fully fledged avatar who has anchors that help them stay humane. Someone who, despite following a fear god, values human life. They butt heads with Gertrude because of her “for the greater good” mentality. However, they are young and good at combating other powers. When Jon takes over, they continue to do field work and they don’t trust him, thinking he will be another Gertrude.

Additional notes:

- When they find out the rituals wouldn’t have work anyways, they are ticked and stay away from the Institute for a while.

- They were keeping track of the dark ritual in case Gertrude’s theory was wrong.

- I’m thinking an avatar of the dark who became one at a young age

-They have a cheery demeanor but can switch it off when it gets serious (similar to Tim but with less anger issues)

-Friends with Gerry (LET GERRY LIVE)

As I’m finishing this I’m realizing this is more of an OC idea than a fic idea. Honestly, it could possibly work with either a crossover character or a character from tma, but we don’t meet a lot of avatars who value human lives. The closest we get are some hunt avatars.

[russellius]

george and the gang partying to abba | via nathan's story

WARNING : george singing ☢️

[jestersroute66]

The Moving Picture Co. 1914 (2015) by Mark Kirkland

[just-an-enby-lemon]

I find Jonny's answer to people who don't see Jon and Martin as a couple fascinating because I'm mostly sure it was more about people who see it a QPR or the importance of platonic relationshps witch cool.

But his vague "death of the authors there was a intent but you can interpret cannon as you want" type of answer is normally the standart queerbaiting answer from writers we grew to expect. The classic: "I didn't write them to be gay but if it makes sense to you i guess feel free too see them as" where they keep giving subtext but also saying in cannon that the chracthers are 100% straight while patting their backs and going "great rep guys we made the gays happy, our show with zero queer people except maybe the villain whose queer traits are show as inerently evil is very lgbtqia+ friendly" except Jon and Martin are very much written to be a couple in the text. Jon calls Martin his boyfriend, Martin talks about their relationship to Melanie, they kiss, they say I love you to each other, they are a couple. Not only that but TMA is a very queer show.

That's too say that by complete formal accident Jonny's answer sounds like he is patting himself on the back and going "great rep guys we made the straights happy, our show with a bunch of canonically queer and queer coded characthers most that are undeniably heros or at least doing their best and literally protagonists and where straight people aren't the default for once is 100% hetero friendly."

[moldsporr]

Shoves this at you all then runs back to the cave

[aromanticasterisms]

read through alien space for star rail context and every frame himeko's in you can faintly hear me in the bg trying hard not to think about how much she looks like diluc

[rrbobani]

So as a little update, finding out Twitter is going to be implementing AI fuckery on its site and basically steal posts from people (more importantly artist) to feed its data munching AI, I have decided to delete my twitter accounts.

While maybe I don't understand the scope of what Twitter's AI actually is, I'm not in support of Twitter making these decisions that the majority of its user base absolutely does not want.

And besides... I'm not really posting there anyways. I'm very much done with Twitter.

I'm going to archive my posts as best as I can, but I'm still going to remain on here. I have my blog that I will post to. AND thanks to my lovely s/o I have a Bluesky account now.

So here are my links, the Bluesky is REALLY new so nothing has been posted yet, but I intend to try and use it more.

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Ani's Blog

Ani's Bluesky (Invite Site Only)

[zprite-x]

Sighs in going to have to make a drive or some sort of back up as an archive that’s not tumblr

[transcicle]

i need to take a handful of horse tranquilizers