#mentallillness

[chronicillnesshumor]

By Titsay

[emilythesinner]

It's 03:22 a.m. & i can't sleep.

I lay in bed for hours & my mind can't stop overthinking my "childhood".

If this one situation had been different, my head might be less fucked up today.

But i'll never know & that's ok.

It's just so exhausting sometimes.

Being mentally ill is one thing, but fully functioning all day & being so overwhelmed at night that you're too tired to sleep is another level of frustating.

Your brain tries to think of all the trauma thoughts, it couldn't think of during the day 'cause it was too bussy surviving.

On the next day, shit gets worse, cause you didn't sleep enough.

That battle goes on til friday, then you got two days to recover from this downward spiral.

And guess what? Sometimes it's not enough. Especially when this shit starts at sunday/monday morning.

Nevermind.

At least now i got friendships that enriches me when i feel empty, cats that calm me down when i'm stressed & a relationship that helps my inner child feel safe when i feel vulnerable again.

& that's what it's all about.

To build an environment in which your mind can pause survival mode.

Hopefully, things keep getting better.

[cadavercanine]

Fuck it imma make a ranfren au

[whoaaah666]

And sometimes i just wish i grew up in a normal home with parents that gave me love instead of severe mentall illness

[oliviawebsite]

secret voice arising telling me to ignore the path im on. i dont want to kill it i just want to move on and be able to think clearly no cacophony

[mentallilness]

On that note, I had a very violent dream. Lots of suicide, attempted suicide, blood and gore, murder, the works. Not very pleasant but yurr

[emilythesinner]

I am scared of the future &traumatized by the past

I cant give my love to ya

Because i know it never last

So i'm pressured into present & i'm not able to move

I don't know what really happend, honest lies or unreal truth.

🖤

[anhedonichaze]

Today for the first time while talking to you I felt blank like i never knew you ,

this distance between us made me feel you like a stranger that i don't know anymore.

[voicesintulips]

yours words  inside me are caved in;   breaking; & flourishing my body in a hell almost; but forgiven    by my inhumanly beauty; swell like a cherry; on a tongue. away at my lips he goes; I am bad seed. bruised as bitten & broken into; persistent at my skin; he peels me open; speaking in waves of teeth all over me  unaware of how lovely you could have  been  for somebody else to love.         - voices in tulips

[hamishsblog]

A journey along the Lea #434 - London lockdown #94 Holly’s Pombombs on the friends bridge. In memory of Holly Cowlam who took her own life following a diagnosis of depression. It is reminder that mental illness can happen to anyone. It is important we talk about mental illness - it’s ok not to be ok... . . #psychogeopgraphy #urbanlandscapes #newtopographic #lockdown #londonlockdown #riverlea #mentallillness #london #hackneymarshes #remnantmagazine #thought_landscape @hollyspombombs https://www.instagram.com/p/CDGewtxH6Hz/?igshid=zou7sv3y5kf8

[recxlxr-cc]

BIID

Not a Sims post but...

I know BIID is a rare disorder and I refuse to identify as transabled as it’s dumb ass hell. And it’s not the want to be disabled but damn I hate my right foot. I would do anything to get rid of it but I’m just a teenager and maybe this is just hormones and people will probably think that I’m crazy but I really really hate my right foot. It’s big and it’s annoying. It looks like an alien and I pretend to limp because I don’t want to acknowledge it’s existence. Is there any Danish therapist that you recommend? 

[mentallilness]

There are some days when I have to physically fight the urge to OD and I genuinely sincerely wish that wasn't the case. Ugh.

[emilythesinner]

Sinners judging sinners for sinning differently. ♡

[anhedonichaze]

Remember you called someone a psycho just because he was suffering from depression and couldn't save himself.

That's the reason I never told u what I was going through.

[singingcna]

The Black Sheep- what happens when a family member steps outside of the box

Why are humans so...inhumane?

Why are humans so two-faced?

They ask me not to be vain,

so they can pour it on like rain?

How is this ok now?

How is it ok for harassment from one end?

What, the adult gets to make sh*t up,

and the kid is f*cked up in the head?

That is NOT how being on this planet works.

When its ok for you, but not for the next.

While we live our lives here

He is watching, and He knows my fear.

He watched what you did behind doors.

He watched you lie to my friends.

He watched you drag me by the hair

down the hall and up the stairs.

He was there when your words turned cold.

He pushed me and led me forward.

He listened while you called me a liar

He held my hand when you started the fire.

He knows what you have done.

He knows what you are hiding.

He knows that you want them to disbelieve,

want the judges to think I’m a life-thief.

If you’re asking yourself, “where does this come from?”

“Why is she like this?’’

Look in the mirror

See me staring back through your tears.