#mental chatter

[codeandcanvas]

I have had a weird day, no, not a weird day: I have felt a stressful noise in my head earlier, like chatter I could not understand, and which only when focussing on it became words, emotions, memories maybe.

This worried me, because I realised that I have no idea what the cause for this noise is. Talking about it with a dear person close to me, I came to understand that while the both of us had a clear memory of when this head noise happened (which later turned out to be what our brains literally default to when unfocussed and unoccupied with external stimuli, called “default mode network”), I had no idea what the physiological causes for the sensation itself were, or in general are.

So I just went to ask Copilot, and you can see for yourself where that lead me to below

You can find the original upload on my arena account here https://www.are.na/block/31536061 with my comments on how two of these books (the more academic ones) are labelled wrong, but I will provide these comments here as well, but first I’ll link you to the commented pdf in my social archive:

Below are now the comments I made about this exchange with Copilot

First comment

Caveat lector: None of the Zoltan Torey books are called that, and “The Cognitive Neuroscience of Memory” is not by Rugg et Tulving. Take this as what it is, not what you want it to be.

Second comment

URLs from this interaction, to peruse at your own discretion:

Third comment

Further quizzing Copilot about the missing books lead to this:

“The Neuroscience of Mind: A Unified Theory of the Human Brain” by Zoltan Torey has the ISBN of 9780262530859 which is actually “Neurophilosophy: Toward a Unified Science of Mind/Brain: Toward a Unified Science of the Mind-Brain (Computational Models of Cognition and Perception)”

“The Cognitive Neuroscience of Memory” by Michael D. Rugg and Endel Tulving has the ISBN of 9781848727724 which is actually “Cognitive Neuroscience of Memory (Special Issues of Cognitive Neuroscience)”

Close enough in case of the second book, but confused. See here https://x.com/MarioBreskic/status/1847402158439678279 or here https://social.mariobreskic.de/twitter/2024/10/19/380/ for my rubberducking/notepadding in public

End of comments

Interesting, right?

The noise in our heads, and what this noise defaults to, is literally the default mode of our brains. We, as far as I can understand it, rarely, if ever, idle. I don’t know if this default can be changed, but I’ll just be cheerful for no damn reason.

Copilot’s quality control for quoted and referenced books is meh, but I don’t think that will stop you from researching for yourself, now will it? Tagging this up with a few sensible hashtag guesses, keeping it away from the archive by not using the tag “code and canvas”, should hook it into tumblr’s internal knowledge database quite nicely.

[sspacegodd]

My favorite thing to talk about is how words are no longer necessary.

[egodb]

„How to be social“ ist meine Frage #2

(Part 1)

So, today, I became super self-conscious of my English enunciation, and had an imaginary conversation with an imaginary person (P) who showed some interest.

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P: That's an interesting accent!

Me: Thanks, I like to keep my diction accurate.

Me: Is this me dissing the American accent? It is, though.

Me: Is that rude?

Me: Welp, let's hope they don't notice.

P: Cool! I don't focus on it as much...

Me: Is this....is this it?

Me: OPEN THE GATES!

* inhales sharply *

Me: * with sparkling eyes * YeahIpayspecialattentiontoitbecauseImcurrentlystudyingSanskritgrammarandit'ssuperinteresting!Forinstance,there'sthesetwosūtras:thefirstoneisरषाभ्यांनोणःसमानपदेwhichmeansadentalnasalconsonantwhenprecededbyanalveolartaporareotroflexsibilantinthesameworditgetaconvertedtoaretroflexnasal,andthenextoneisअट्कुप्वाङ्नुम्व्यावयेऽपिwhichsaysthatifthefollowinglettersappearbetweenthetaporthesibilant,andthedentalnasal,itstillgetsconvertedtotheretroflexnasal.So,पाणिनिwasamazingatusingabbreviations,sothesūtrasaysअट्-कु-पु-आङ्-नुम्whichthemselvesareabbreviations.Like,अट्meansallvowels,semivowelsandह्.कुandपुmeanallthevelarandlabialconsonants.आङ्isaprefixasinगच्छतिistogoandआगच्छतिistocome,andनुम्isanotheraffix,notaprefixorsuffix,whichaddsadentalnasalafterthelastvowelinthebasicrootformofaverbundercertainconditions.So,ifanyofthesearebetweenthoseletters,thedentalnasalgetaconvertedtotheretroflex. And you need good diction to pronounce these sūtras perfectly otherwise it'd be impossible to parse them.

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...yeah, I don't know what happened to my imaginary interlocutor. I completely forgot they existed...which might actually happen if I do get started on stuff I'm intensely interested in... huh.

[deerspherestudios]

If anyone's wondering how the new VN for the Monstrous Desires jam is going,,

[devimea]

Mental chatter available as a framed print

That feeling that so many others are in there. In the mind spinning round deep in mental chatter. Attention deficit, day dreaming Jezebel, alarms, notifications, spiral around duties and chores, elation and snores, round and round and round it goes. Where the mind stops only it's owner knows or do they?Photograph to digital Merry go round of the mind

[teh-inggris]

what if Parkour Civ Evbo and PvP Civ Evbo switched places. what if.

[aldoodles]

I’m unable to do doomsday this year, so please have these two instead bc I care about them sm

[royalarchivist]

Phil: Doin' a lot of traveling around the New Years. Oh boy, oof. Oh golly, oh gee. But it should be worth it! It should be really good. I'm looking forward to it, Kristin's looking forward to it.

Random Chatter: What about Tallulah and Chayanne?

Phil: I told them already what's going on. I already told them. They already know when I'm getting back and all that stuff, so.

Random Chatter: The cookies though?

Phil: [Shrugs] So? I'm... physically not here? [Laughs] There's more things - there's more important things in life than feeding a virtual egg cookies, I'm sorry to say, dude. [Laughs]

Random Chatter: Get Tubbo to feed eggs cookies.

Phil: [Laughs and mimics the chatter in an annoying voice] "Get this person!" "Get that person!" ALSO IGNORING THOSE PEOPLE ALSO HAVE LIVES! Jesus Christ. That says a lot about what you think of your streamer. Oh my god, dude. Let them have a fcking week off man! Let the Eggs have a week off, you kidding me? They're people, too, they're admins!

Random Chatter: The eggs need to live.

Phil: They do! By having a week off! [Laughs] Leave them alone! Holy fck! Good lord... If I- if- Dude. If anyone in my chat is genuinely like gonna come into stream, and like - be pissed off that different members of QSMP are just not logging in, I'm banning you on the spot, 'cuz that is so fcking toxically online of you. That is SO chronically online of you. You need to take a break, and I'm giving you that break. I'm forcing you to take a break from your PC. Fckin' get up from the - look away from the screen.

[karlachfan87]

roblox pressure fans don't be ableist challenge

edit: read the second part first

[curekirin]

Here’s a little master list of resources for various issues! Queer resources, Nonhuman resources, Mental Health resources, and more! ^_^ Feel free to share your own and reblog to help others!

NOTE: some links are not attached the text. This post was made on mobile and for some reason URLs don’t attach every time. They still work though!

NOTE 2: I may not have the answers to all your questions, especially if they are questions not related to my cultures. But i’ll do my best to find you sources if i can’t answer it myself!

QUEER RESOURCES

WHAT IS MOGAI? - A guide from LGBTQIA+ Wiki!

WHAT IS INTERSEX? - https://interactadvocates.org/faq/

WHAT ARE NEOPRONOUNS? - https://neopronounss.carrd.co/

WHAT ARE XENOGENDERS? - https://gender.fandom.com/wiki/Xenogender

WHAT IS M-SPEC? - https://bipanlibrary.com/mspec/

WHAT ARE GOOD FAITH IDS? - https://pennytable21.carrd.co/

NONHUMAN RESOURCES

WHAT IS A THERIAN? - A guide from Therian Wiki

WHAT IS AN OTHERKIN? - https://otherkin.fandom.com/wiki/Otherkin

WHAT IS ALTERHUMANITY? - https://alterhumanity.fandom.com/wiki/Alterhuman

WHAT IS A KEMONOMIMI? - https://kemonomimi.carrd.co/

MENTAL HEALTH RESOURCES

DSM 5 PDF (download) - https://www.mredscircleoftrust.com/storage/app/media/DSM%205%20TR.pdf

WHAT IS AN IRL? - this is not a medical resource, as these delusions are not medically recognized as a separate class of delusion. that doesn’t mean they aren’t real.

WHAT IS AN “ENDOGENIC”? - https://why-endos-are-bad.carrd.co/

CULTURAL RESOURCES

A GUIDE TO LANGUAGE SYMBOLS - https://closedcultures.carrd.co/

USING CULTURAL NAMES - https://stopusingthesenames.carrd.co/

(SYSTEMS) USING CULTURAL NAMES

CLOSED CULTURES/APPROPRIATION - https://www.patheos.com/blogs/thebalancingpath/2020/06/closed-traditions-cultural-appropriation-and-race/

CHECK TEXT FOR CLOSED SYMBOLS - https://apps.timwhitlock.info/unicode/inspect

RESOURCES TO HELP OTHERS

PALESTINE RESOURCES - Resources to help Palestinians

SUDAN RESOURCES - https://www.rescue.org/article/crisis-sudan-what-happening-and-how-help

CONGO RESOURCES - https://www.doctorswithoutborders.org/what-we-do/where-we-work/democratic-republic-congo

ARMENIA RESOURCES - https://www.armenian-genocide.org/

GENOCIDE EDUCATION - https://genocideeducation.org/

— Please do let me know if any of these resources are unreliable or if there are better alternatives! This is meant to help as many people with various issues as possible, so any recommendations are appreciated! Send them to my inbox!

[cruel-hiraeth]

it’s wild to look back at how i was raised to believe that masturbation is evil and premarital sex is a grave sin and that people are supposed to repress their normal (and healthy) urges for the sake of religious piety. i’m glad i got out when i did; i think i would be a nightmare of a person if i couldn’t bust a nut on the regular LOL

[sspacegodd]

I can't stop thinking about stopping thinking.

[egodb]

„How to be social“ ist meine Frage #1

(Yeah, this is the title I came up with. Did I beat ChatGPT?)

As I’m sure I’ve mentioned on here, “descent into madness: live” is my favourite kind of post. So, why not type out the conversations in my mind for me to look back at when I’m further gone?

This also serves as my anonymous for the most part but do I really care but public journal. Let’s see how long it lasts. I will use manual indents and font sizes to differentiate between texts till someone tells me how to blockquote inside blockquote.

* interacting with a person (P) with a vaguely Polish surname *

Me: Hey! Is your surname Polish?

      Me: Is it ok to ask that to a person you just met?

      Me: I don’t know * shrugs *. It does sound very Polish though…

      Me: Well, at least this way I can steer the conversation towards languages

      Me: True that.

P: Why do you ask?

Me: It is written in a way that feels Polish to me. I’m learning Polish.

      Me: That sounded weird.

      Me: Yep, definitely weird.

      Me: Very.

P: Oh, cool!

Me: I like learning new languages.

      Me: That was unprompted. Why are you still talking?

      Me: Well, let’s hope P isn’t too offended by that.

            Me, writing this: That was an overreaction, right?

            Me: Yeah, probably. If the roles were reversed, I wouldn’t mind if someone mentions their interests in context of a related thing.

P: Wow, which languages?

Me: Many! Like French, German, Japanese, Latin, Polish (with an overt hand gesture), Arabic and a few more.

P: Why Polish though?

Me: Because of Manya Skłodowska!

      Me: I hope I pronounced that right.

           Me, writing this: I hope I spelt that right.

                   * quick Wikipedia check later *

          Me: All right. You may proceed.

     Me: I pronounced /w/ for ł and /v/ for w. That should be right.

     Me: Yes.

     Me: If only this name had more consonant clusters for me to test-pronounce.

     Me: * rolls eyes *

P: Ah, nice! Which languages do you think are the hardest to learn?

Me: Umm…I think the European ones are generally simpler for me. Chinese, Arabic and, surprisingly, Korean, I find especially hard.

P: Why’s that surprising?

Me: Uhh…just cuz I heard it was supposed to be simple…?—

     Me: What are you even talking about.

Me: like, it’s probably because I’m comparing it to Japanese which I have consumed a lot of content in. Perhaps I need to watch more K-dramas.

     Me: * impressed * Wow, opening potential conversations into Japanese media—

          Me: read anime

          Me: —and K-dramas!

I got out of the shower after that.

[turkitty5]

☁️ sweet dreams 💫

[inkykeiji]

kisses dabi right on his pouty scrunched up nose

( ੭ ˘ ³˘)੭‎°｡⋆♡‧₊˚ i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you!!!!!!!

[connorswhisk]

I paid this gentleman to stare at gay people