#meds prevented me more

[defrostedvertebrae]

rejecting my diagnosies and just vibe with "idk man i'm just built like that" >>>

[hussyknee]

Idk if there's enough people talking about what a gigantic energy drain Complex PTSD is. It's not just one single traumatic event, it's having lived in a traumatic situation for a long time. And in the case of child abuse, your entire formative life period. Everything is a trigger, anxiety is your default, and your brain keeps trying to keep you safe by yelling at you about everything you're doing "wrong", which will lead to pain. Your brain is a constant war zone, braced for attack, rarely relaxed, at least some part of you always hypervigilant. The stress it takes on your body is insane. It's why trauma is linked to autoimmune issues, heart disease, type 2 diabetes, and, according to one study, cancer.

Physical disability leaves you even more vulnerable and less able to live up to the impossible standards of control and "correct" behaviour your brain insists on, not to mention the free gift given to all patients of chronic illness that is medical gaslighting and patient-blaming, all of which simply compounds the trauma. Reduced physical and mental health obviously leads to systemic risk factors such as inability to pursue academic and professional qualifications, poverty and financial struggle, malnutrition, becoming unhoused or bad living conditions, exacerbated medical issues and further lack of medical resources, reliance on welfare and care networks, and becoming trapped in codependent, abusive or toxic relationships. The knock-on effects are endless.

This is all to say— if you're wondering why you can't seem to do more than the bare minimum every day when you haven't been diagnosed with a physical illness, or you're "not that disabled", or you think your symptoms are "just psychosomatic" (which means your brain is under so much intolerable stress that it's started taking a chair to the windows and destroying the furniture just to get you to NOTICE AND MAKE IT STOP): the answer is that your body is actually struggling under the kind of stress that kills trained soldiers and disables them for life. So stop trying to convince yourself that you're just not trying hard enough when what you really, desperately need to get your life on track is community, care, rest and ease.

[pochapal]

clocks changed and now it's bright out at 7pm

[anotherpapercut]

literally so funny how internet leftists will be like "ummm actually using drugs is bad and evil and destroying society (I know bc the us govt and/or some random conspiracy theorist told me so 😌) and anyone who thinks we should end the stigma around drug use and try to make it safer for users is actually just trying to destroy America" but then they'll also turn right around and go "don't forget to take your meds!!! remember if you can't make your own dopamine store bought is fine ❤️. end the stigma around needing lifelong medication!!!"

like girl are you somehow laboring under the delusion that like xanax is safer and more effective at treating mental illness than LSD or ketamine or even like MDMA bc boy do I have some news for you

[tearlessrain]

I've had anxiety pretty much all my life and having my fears/concerns brushed off is not a new thing for me and sometimes it's justified, but it is uniquely annoying in this case because I keep being right, repeatedly, throughout the pandemic, and people are still acting like I'm just being my panicky self and it's not as big a deal as I'm making it.

[electoons]

my psychiatrist was trying to explain that a lot of my depression and anxiety probably stems from my trying to force myself into a (neurotypical/allistic) mold that i wasn't made for and that it's nothing to be ashamed of and she listed elon musk and bill gates as my fellow autists and that made me cry harder

[maybewren]

Bashing my head against my laptop fr

[crowcryptid]

I’m no fallout lore expert but

That’s not how ghouls work in the games right. I don’t remember that being a thing

just finished ep 4

[adelle-ein]

the fatigue really is just so hard and idk if it'll ever get better but i just have to push blindly through it and try and hope

[tittyinfinity]

tell me how i took my night sleepy time medicine and i'm somehow more awake while yesterday i took an adderall and it made me so fucking sleepy

[daughterofsarenrae]

Can i PLEASE stop having asthma attacks. Im not even sick anymore

[onehalfdead]

realized i never kept journaling being on t oops so uuuuh

3 years, 3 months, and 3 days on t

• finally starting to get a little facial hair coming in which is honestly a miracle cause genetics says i shouldn't get any until i'm in my 30s

• my voice has fully dropped at this point and boy did it get deep

• the acne chilled out a good while ago

• still not going bald get fucked literally all my paternal cousins except one

• oh yeah i got top surgery last september so that's p cool too

[thedarklingdude]

taking medication is so so so exhausting because it’s a constant balancing act of are the side effects worth the effects

and sometimes the answer is no, but then you gotta find a different medication and who knows how long that takes and at some point it just becomes easier to manage symptoms on your own except when it doesn’t work

and other times the answer is no but you don’t really have a choice but to stay on the medication

but when the answer Is yes then you have to remember to take the medication and that Also sucks in a different way

most of the time I end up feeling like I’d rather just go back to dealing with problems even as they’re actively ruining my life because at least those are predictable

[scentedluminarysoul]

I ate one entire plate of pasta today.

As i have yesterday.

Please, ADHD and ADHD meds, please let me eat more 🥲

[drowsy-duck]

the mentally ill anguish of not wanting to keep hurting people and being a judgmental asshole but also not wanting to turn into a robot and slowly destroy my health with meds

[noagskryf]

I think what frustrates a lot of us (physically disabled) is people with lupus, cancer, organ transplants, etc, talking about how their meds (chemo, immunosuppresents, biologics) prevent them from dying within hours or days. And then other people (often able bodied ADHDers) will come in and say that their ADHD medication is *exactly* the same because of thar car crash statistic. A decreased chance of crashing a car is different from going septic or dying of organ inflammation within an incredibly short timespan and comparing the two feels like belittling the severity of illnesses like the ones i mentioned above. I know it's not the intention, but it does often feel that way.

So I think the anger starts when (for example) someone with lupus will post, "Yay, I won't die within 3 days because of my meds!" and an able bodied ND will come in and compare this persons very imminant death to a decreased chance of dying in a car crash (which may never have happened anyway tbh)

And I'm not trying to downplay how important psychiatric meds or ADHD meds are!!! It's just that they're different and different situations. Like, audio description and subtitles are both needed, but not for the same purpose, (usually) not for the same people, and blind and d/Deaf people are both disabled (i know identifying as disabled because of being d/Deaf is more nuanced) but they're separate issues.

And I think we (the physically disabled community) often feel pushed aside by able bodied neurodivergent people and it leads people (on both sides) to feel really frustrated. It's really a problem that ableds NDs will come onto phys disabled posts and derail it completely and make it about their neurodivergence which, i understand is a neurodivergant thing to do, but it's still very frustrating. I know from personal experience that I feel really left out of neurodivergent spaces because I'm not autistic nor do I have ADHD, I'm a TBI survivor (+ other physical disabilities.)

I'm really not trying to start drama or be rude or attack you!!! I want to explain how we (the physically disabled community) feel as well. But i agree, there should be more nuance in discussions. Also, i can delete this if you don't want my input, i really just want to make it clear that a lot of us on the physically disabled side aren't trying to downplay the importance of meds for psychiatric illness or ADHD, just that this is the culmination of a lot of pent-up frustration from being talked over and ignored.

gotta love when gatekeeping passes the common sense threshold and you get people arguing, with zero nuance, whether "meds that make you not want to die 24/7" are actually life saving or just life-improving-to-the-point-you-don't-want-to-die, and whether "aid that helps you keep moving" is a mobility aid or a disability aid (??).

because those things have completely different definitions, in the medical system we all love, don't we, fellow disabled people? don't we all love doctors? they're always right and don't introduce nonsense terms to define a group out of needing help. certainly no part of the medical system (specially in the US! and the UK!) has ever tried to minimize anyone's needs, specially for medication.