#me: no!!! i didnt!!! i said dermatologist!!!!!!

[sovaharbor]

piss

[pumpkinsy0]

My skin has been horrific over the last six months. But I visited the dermatologist to try and get it fixed and— I got the products. BUT I can’t eat a lot of sugars like candy and soda cause it could make my skin act up again. 😭

Currently mourning this loss and as such I need headcanons surrounding Sodapop,Curly, and Two-Bit going through this.

omfg my acne used to b baddddd it pissed me off am, characters w acne u have my heart

•curly got acne at a pretty acerage age, two got his a lil late, and soda got his a lil late too, ik he thought the world nerfed him for good😭

•for soda ik he hated the acne so bad he was just willing to give the sweet treats ALL up and i say that bc ik soda would pick at it and so darry had to find a way to get him to stop and said whoever saw him do it could slap his ha d away REALLY really hard, and to give him credit it did, but sodas hand was just always red as a result, the gang ABUSED that rule

•the ointment my dermatologist gave me i had to put it on at night, but its not that i barely put it on but i didnt use it ad much as i rlly shouldve bc i was so lazy, and i knowwww curly wouldve done the same. especially bc oce i went outside not knowing the oitment makes ur face ASHY so i went outside all the way to school w an ashy face and i was so embarrassed im also giving that to curly

•w curly, he would ALSO pick at it and he did try to care for his skin more and angela is rlly good at skin care so shes ESPECIALLY tried to stop him but he wont and now even if he did he would still already have scars, but on the bright side, the sweets thing isnt that hard for him cause in his house theres barely anything sweet. however that also means that when there IS angela is on his ASS

•two bit aint following those rules at ALL he dgaf,most of his diet is sweet treats, its either his body agrees w him or it sticks w him through his bad decisions, “u either go big or u go home” as he says

•pony kissed curly after having REALLY sseet candies and u would think that its ok bc curly didnt eat them himself but nooooooo, curlys body reacted as if he did eat them himself and he broke out bad, he was so annoyed pony cant even touch his face anymore

•pony and steve thinks its soooo funny to wave chocolate in front of sodas face, soda tells pony “just wait till you get acne” and just prays that steve gets his acne worse than he does

•ik curlys pissed bc he genuinely got the worst out of every other siblings like his is pretty bad, they started calling him delivery tim (its cause tim and angela teased that he had a pepperoni face, so everytime he walked i to a room he was “delivering pizza”)

•two bit mighta cracked the code bc he was tease himself about his own acne, he still eats bad, and yknow what, good on him probably, his acne would take THEE longest to go away but it does go away regardless

•there were points where curlys acne just got worse before it got better again, and for those times, he was the angriest person ever and u CANNOT blame him, hes scaring the hoes away w his pimples and atitude💔💔

•two and soda would waste food trying to make face mask they saw in magazines, they thought maybe they can find an alternative to the stuff the dermatologist gave them as a #lifehack but they never did find one that worked as well so darry came home to a mess for 3 weeks straight for NOTHING AT ALL

•darry and pony tried being nice and made sugar free chocolate cake but it tasted so SHIT dawg, that was a one time thing all of the gang had to force themselves to finish it

•if its anyone, two bit totally has bacne and THATS probably the most embarrassing thing for him bc he cant reach alllll of his back so he has to call for a lil help and thats soooo degrading he would rather that go away on its own😭😭

[isamabella]

I didn’t mean for it to be this long sorrrrrryy

I can’t shake this feeling I have an autoimmune disorder. I’ve been awake for two hours trying to figure out what symptoms fit what. I’ve had this rash I guess you could say for six months. Dermatologist said it’s hematological but to loosen my sandals because the rashes are where the straps fall. But I explained I don’t wear sandals usually I only wore them for the appointment. That and I dropped my phone on my foot and new broken vessels formed. That was two months ago and they’re still there. Hematology was a little confused last I saw him because I didn’t present with other symptoms. He tested me for cancer and Jak2 mutation due to intermittent elevated white blood cells and platelets but they were normal.

It’s only when my neurologist said she’s going to do a bunch of blood tests to rule out conditions for intermittent tingling and numbness that it clicked. She mentioned Sjogren’s as one of the possibilities. Now I don’t want to self diagnose but I had to learn a bit about it last year for my job due to its effect on eyes. For the last year and a half my mouth has been so dry that I felt no amount of brushing or gum was helping. I assumed meds were the issue but I had been on that one for over two years at that point without issue. Then in the last six or so months my eyes have been drier than normal. To the point where sometimes it’s hard to keep my eyes open. Luckily we have endless samples of eye drops at work because there have been days I use eye drops 4-5x just at work. It’s not as bad at home but still drier than usual. Fatigue forget it that’s just normal from narcolepsy.

I’m not at all saying I’d like an autoimmune disorder but I’m tired of trying to treat different symptoms with different doctors. I really just want an explanation. Minus the sleep issues because it’s been nearly lifelong at this point, I went from generally healthy to not in about two years. I just keep adding symptoms a couple times a year. Even the neurologist said she felt that my left side was weaker just from squeezing her hand. WHICH I DIDNT EVEN NOTICE because I’ve always been physically weak.

[mutsky]

tsou finale running commentary

-i put this off bc i just know im gonna be pissed off a majority of the episode

-idgaf she can die

-not the nobel sacrifice yeah im annoyed

-i stated this and had to take a break 12+ hour break (yes i was working but damn)

-WHY is a dermatologist taking care of a heart patient????

-i wouldnt be upset if i accidentally cursed a homophobe id laugh

-did she even ask mr man any of these questions?

-wait she quit her job????

-someone needs to get jane lynchs character from the l word on the case

-WHY DO THEY HAVE AN AUDIENCE OF PSUZIE AND THIS LADY IVE NEVER SEEN BEFORE

-my american brain cannot comprehend this im so sorry id never

-why are they doing this at the hospital

-very love story by taylor swift of them

-which is already on my ladaearn playlist

-im just rolling my eyes im too annoyed

-thats earns mom? maybe im stupid

-why did they get rid of bows polycule

-how was ratee even invited

-what kind of wedding is this

-lada looks like shes about to recouple on love island not get married

-aint no way these are the best rings they could afford

-theres 10 people at their wedding and one is RATEE

-they are good at fluff i will say

-you know what pisses me off the most? the fact that they always have earrings in big ones that they change

overall the episode was ... the last ten minutes were cute

as i previously said they wont get their tens from me unless they slip tongue and they didnt so no tens i think with a better intimacy coach and styling team that can (they can be femme4femme but at least not have a clean girl aesthetic) dress them like lesbians wed be golden i want to see more of them but with better direction next time im still holding out for freaky dykes tho bc i think we deserve it

[djsizzle]

aug 10

today went really good too guys! it does get better.

I woke up early because I had to go to the post office. im getting ready for a big vacation so some papers needed to be sent in and whatnot. that was successful but omg so expensive.

then we got home and left just as quick to go shopping. thats what I did all day basically. though I didnt get anything but shampoo for myself. I was really hoping to find some stuff but I refuse to buy something unless I fall in love with it as soon as I see it so I didn't get any clothes and jewelry or whatnot. which sucks but I still have about two weeks to do some school shopping.

we got some food which was really good but I have the worlds stupidest stomach so now I feel like my entire body is inflamed. the food wasnt spicy or anything. and I didnt overeat. I dont know if its hives or anything but I feel like my skin is boiling from the inside out. like somebody ran sandpaper through out my body or something. I cant explain it. all day tomorrow im going to have to eat yogurt and drink water.

my mom says my blood has tehzabiat ( I think the word in English is like acidic ? like its too potent? ). the doctors said I have issues in my stomach and like the tracts and how I dont digest food properly. and that I might be allergic to somethings. but I never went to a specialist because I was too scared that they'll tell me I cant eat my favorite foods. I was too scared to go to the obgyn because I thought they'd tell me Im messed up inside and that theres something wrong with me. I was too scared to go to the dermatologist because I thought theyd point out all my insecurities and tell me that I have disgusting skin or something. so I just sit and live in pain because im too scared to confront the issues at hand. ignorance is bliss I suppose.

I have some homework to do this weekend which im not excited about doing. I cant wait to go back to school because I liked being busy but being busy doesnt allow me to think because im too preoccupied doing things or thinking about what im doing that I dont give myself space to wander. I need to do better with time management.

thats enough chit chat for now. literally as im typing this my Hulu tab starts playing all of a sudden and its done that twice today and I dont know why. its scared me both times.

[erotomanicpixiedreamgirl]

well she didnt listen to me . Again. typical doctor behavior. today she begrudgingly took a scrape sample (no actual biopsy) “to make me feel better” from my arms bc last time she took one from my back and that came back negative. which according to her logic bc it was negative, that proved i had zero fungal growth whatsoever on my body. when i told her shampoos like nizoral, sebamed, head & shoulders were the only thing that helped, she said bc it many antifungal shampoos contain calming ingredients. Like okay? she then prescribed me a benzoyl peroxide and adapalene mixture. even though i told her benzoyl peroxide never worked for me. then hydrocortisone cream (i told her i broke out from it last time she prescribed it). she did prescribe ciclopirox olamine however so like???

she also interrogated me bc obviously i was distraught and honestly it truly has been affecting my self esteem for a LONG TIME. bc ive been battling this mystery skin condition for 9 years with no answers. then proceeded to tell me she could understand bc my skin “looked terrible” (it looks the best it ever did since idk prepuberty.)

anyway. Death to Dermatologists!

dermatologists most useless people in society

[cyberbullyinc]

my bsf told me this new guy shes seeing told her hed pay to get a BEAUTY MARK on her face removed!!!! and she was like no im good and then the next day he was like i showed a picture to my dermatologist friend and he said ur beautiful but youd be even more beautiful without that beauty mark :) and i think so too 🥺 idk how she didnt kill him on the spot id be so annoyed i think he’d spontaneously combust thru the power of my mind like what the fuck is wrong with straight cis men if i ever meet him its on sight 🔪

[brazil-hinata]

sakuatsu with an eczema s/o

a/n: my eczema made me do this. also, my writings are v cringey and cliche so yeah.

miya atsumu

ok so it's been a good two months since you and atsumu started dating

you've been so happy lately you didn't realize your most hated season has come... which is winter cause it makes your eczema flare like crazy

you woke up one day and saw very evident red and itchy patch on your skin

you immediately got sad cause u remember youre meeting atsumu today after his practice and youre scared he'll be disgusted by you

you two were taking a night stroll when he decided to hold your hand cause he's clingy like that

but you immediately let go cause of your eczema

"hey babe, what's wrong?"

"nothing"

"then why arent you letting me hold your hand?"

"i just dont want to!"

"what do ya mean you dont want to? you said that me holding ur hands is your favourite thing! come on babe tell me whats wrong"

after a few minutes you decided to show your hands to him cause you know theres no way in hell will atsumu drop the subject

"i have eczema, tsumu"

you saw him staring intently at your hands and asked a question a few moments later

"is that contagious?" like most people atsumu doesnt know much about eczema so you understand if he thinks its contagious

"not really"

"then i don't care! i'm holding my baby's hand no matter what! and even if it's contagious, i'd gladly have eczema with you"

at this point all your worries are forgotten and youre grinning so wide

"YOU ARE THE CHEESIEST MAN IN THE WORLD, MIYA ATSUMU."

"and i know you love me for it ;)"

the next day he brought you a bunch of aveeno, cerave, cetaphil, and all kinds of lotion and youre crying cause you know how expensive those are

sakusa kiyoomi

its been eight months since you've been dating kiyoomi

knowing how cautious he is, you try your best to make sure your eczema dont flare up

but there was this one semester where everything was just super stressful and it lead you to eating too much milk chocolate (which is the biggest trigger for your eczema)

so one morning you were horrified to see the red and itchy patch around your mouth and chin

so you called your dermatologist right away but sadly theyre fully booked until next week

so you just splattered moisturizing cream on your face and hope that it gets better

you had no plans to see kiyoomi today but he texted you saying he made dinner just for you cause he knows you've been really stressed

who can say no to that right?

youre not the type to wear a mask so when he saw you with one he knew something was up

"are you sick?" he said right away

"no, im just protecting myself from the flu going around"

he knows what youre saying is complete bs but he didnt push it cause you seemed uncomfortable

you were actually also really nervous meeting him cause oh my gosh what if he saw your eczema and he gets disgusted and breaks up with you

so when you were eating, instead of taking off your mask, you just pulled it down to your chin to still cover your flares

kiyoomi found it v odd but he still didnt say anything

also you were eating side by side while watching tv thats why he didnt really notice your flares

"thank you omi-kun for the dinner! i'll leave now!"

omi wanted you stay more but knowing how much deadlines you have, he quietly lets you go

except for one thing

"where's my kiss?" kiyoomi asked just as you leave for the door

you stood frozen as you rack your brain for an excuse

"come on, omi-kun! there's a flu going around! we shoudn't kiss!"

"as if a flu will keep me from kissing you"

he was too fast and before you know it he already took off your mask and was about to kiss you when your eczema caught him off guard

"i'd understand if you wanna break up with me" you said. you wanna prepare yourself for the heartbreak... you know he'd be disgusted

but to your surprise kiyoomi just asked, "why do you have a rash on your face?" as he studied the red patch

kiyoomi is v knowledgeable when it comes to disease but he doesnt know about eczema

"i actually have eczema... its like a skin condition... but i promise you its not contagious or anything!"

next thing you know you are in sakusa kiyoomi's dermatologist

he was asking his dermatologist all kinds of question on how to cure and prevent it

omi also learned that day that you get triggered by milk chocolate so from that day onwards you're ban from eating it

"sakusa kiyoomi!! let me eat my milk chocolate!!!!!!!!!" you screamed at him a few days after

"not on my watch!" kiyoomi said as he raised his arm holding your beloved chocolates, while you jump pathetically to reach them since he's so much taller than you

but in the end you're v thankful you have a boyfriend that cares for your eczema <333

also you're also v thankful that he's the one who paid for your dermatologist visit

[hrrycore]

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[pbandjesse]

I dont know why I am so emotional. I feel a lot better right now but yeah. Emotional!!I slept okay last night though. I woke up a few times but in general it was a good sleep. 

My alarm went off at 8 and I just laid with James for a long while. We did get up eventually. I got a shower and got dressed. Felt cute. James and me changed the sheets and made the bed. Its nice to have clean sheets on the bed. James made me a grilled cheese for breakfast and we hung out in the dungeon. I wanted to leave so early to go to the dermatologist. 

But I also knew I shuoldnt leave until 11 because that was already early. So at some point I was just wandering around the apartment and chasing sweetP. And that wasted enough time that it was time to go.

 I had a good drive out there. Its a big hospital and I was curious how this was going to go. And honestly it was fine. I got to the door and they did my temperature and told me what floor to go to. Very simple. I waited in the waiting room and enjoyed a podcast. 

And soon enough I was called back. The nurse who took me in was very sweet. She told me I was cute when she asked me how tall I was and I said I usually say 5ft in the morning. Made her laugh. And then when she finished taking my blood pressure she asked if I was single because my blood pressure was so good and I said no, I just have a good partner at home. She made me feel very comfortable. And the doctor was nice. But I did end up crying by the end of the appointment. So basically my options are limited. I was hoping for a pill but the side effects are to bad. I didnt want to do an injectable again. But there isnt really anything else. Like yes topicals, but i am already using the strongest kind. She recommended I try phototherapy. And I am down for that. But then she left the room for a few minutes and I was like. Maybe I should do injectables again. And she made some comments about psoriasis just being cosmetic and then I felt really confused because its not?? Its painful and makes my life actively harder. And then she said she didnt really like prescribing injectables for psoriasis and I was just kind of defeated. But we decided I would go home and think it over, but in the meantime she gave me a few direct injections to spots  that wont heal. And put in a contact for the phototherapy outreach. But I dont know what will happen. It was just. A lot. 

And I felt weird after. Very weak. Upset. I sat in the parking lot and called James because I needed some support. And it made me feel a little better. But I thought I should just. Drive. And thats what I did. I drove around for like 3 hours. I stopped at savers and wandered around there. Got a couple little things. Found wildly expensive things for a thrift store?? But it was nice just wandering around. 

I drove in one direction for an hour. Turned. Drove another hour. But I was feeling tired and started heading home. I stopped at whole foods but they didnt have anything I wanted so I got back on the road. I stopped at Burger King, and the girl who took my order told me I was gorgeous and that just made my day. She was also super pretty so it made me feel extra good.

 I got home and had my burger and opened all the windows. I ate my food and soon I got on a call with Jess and we discussed ordering packaging for our store. And then we played animal crossing for a while. It was nice. 

After I got off the call with Jess I went and dyed my hair. I worked on embroidery. I continued to work on fixing my shoes. Because of the shape of the shoes I have to do it in sections. I hope it works. Once the sun went down I took a bath. I washed the dye out of my hair. And now I am hanging out in the living room. Waiting for James to come home. I am hoping tomorrow to work on more store stuff. Photographing all the small stuff. It helps my guilt to feel like I am accomplishing something. I hope I sleep well tonight. And that tomorrow is a better day. For all of us. Goodnight everyone. Sleep well. 

[women-only]

sometimes some of your posts confuse me... i've followed you for a while and sometimes you really contradict yourself, you've said you had a "daddy" mom and been in love with a man but at the same time you're a lesbian and a virgin, you're a radical feminist who loves & respect women but you're always saying very negative things about being a fat woman, of all things you choose to study something that endorses gender roles and beauty standards for women... do you even know what you believe in?

1. the daddy dom thing was online so yeah i’m a virgin. not sure why thats confusing. ive said multiple times that it was all online. and i realized i was a lesbian after traumatic events from those experiences. when i said i was in love with a man, i meant the attachment i felt. i’ve said that multiple times. but i take it that you didnt bother to read anything else ive said. 

2. i love and respect all women but that doesn’t mean my views on myself is the same. i still struggle with body image. i can help lift other women up while still trying to do that for myself.

3. i want to study things related to skin. i want to help people with their skin problems. one day i want to become a dermatologist. this is one thing i need to do to get on that path.

i do know what i believe in. and i stand by it.

[luving-hanni]

omg im so sorry i didnt know the two emojis were one for each of you!!!! i don't have the circle on my phone so i was using the moon. jyan you should do my nct ones of the single parents!!!!!!!!!!!!! :) i sent two different ones wisksksiwd. im so sorry tho!! im just oblivious. :( tysm for taking requests tho!!!

It’s alright sweetie! Thanks for taking the time to change your requests for me uwu 💓 Also sorry I took a bit of time to answer these, I hope you like them!

#39 “I forgot I was a single parent”

~Yuta~

Yuta and you had been flirting for a while now. You were his dermatologist, and the two of you had soon started talking about other things than his skin.

You were only 2 years older than him, and even though he knew it, he didn’t seem to care. So on his last appointment he had asked you out on a date. And it was today.

He picked you up at 11 a.m in front of your apartment and then taken you for lunch. You had also gone shopping and to the arcade. It had been one of the best days you had ever had, but sadly it was coming to an end…

“Well… I think it’s time to say goodbye” he said as the two of you stopped at your front door. He smiled at you, as he took your hands . “I hope we can meet again like this soon”

You smiled at his words, squeezing his hands in yours softly. “Me too. For the first time in a long time I forgot I was a single parent” You looked into his eyes, he seemed a bit surprised but smiled once again.

“I’m glad I could make you think about something else today” he said before leaving a soft kiss on your lips. “I don’t know if I would be a good dad, but if that means I can be with you I’d love to try it”

~Ten~

You knew what marrying an idol meant. But at the time you hadn’t thought it would be a problem. The two of you had been dating for 5 years before you decided to get engaged, so you knew what life with him was like. It’s only when you got pregnant that it started to worry you. You didn’t want your child to be raised with an absent father, and you also had to work.

He was on tour the day the baby was born. It was a healthy baby boy, and no matter how happy you were about it, the fact that your husband wasn’t with you on this special day had left you sad, and bitter.

The baby boy was slowly growing up, and Ten was doing his best to be there as much as he could. You knew it, but sometimes it still upset you. Today was one of those days.

Ten was working in China, and you were left alone with your son once again. One evening you called your husband, asking him if he would be there to celebrate your baby’s first birthday. As you had expected he couldn’t, and this time it was too much.

“Fine. I’ll take care of everything. I forgot I was a single parent.” You said before hanging up, tears running down your face in frustration.

[nothingbutalgae]

Guess what!

My head where I had my cyst removed is infected! I waited fucking 50 minutes after my appointment time for the dermatologist to spend 2 minutes talking to me before giving me an antibiotic cream for it and rushing me out of there! She didnt look at her charts before she came in so she had no fucking idea why I was even there and proceeded to flip through her documents on her chart in a hurry to try and figure it and out and she goes "so uh youre here for a follow up about what we removed from your lip?" and I looked her dead in the eyes and said "I have never had anything removed from my lip" and the panic in her eyes as she tried to flip through more documents before making a guess was infuriating. Her and her assistant kept referring to the wart I had removed like 6 months ago as "acne" or "how's your acne" and it's like BITCH NOT EVEN THE REASON IM HERE BUT IT WAS A WART AND MY HEAD WHERE YOU CUT SOMETHING OUT WONT HEAL. I have never gone in there for "acne". It was a growth on my face that I had to have removed that we didnt know what it was

[conpitira1981-blog]

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[oflgtfol]

i went to the dermatologist he immediately prescribed me accutane like literally took one look at me and immediately said i need it. i knew my acne wasnt good but i didnt think it was that bad 😭

[pbandjesse]

Its raining. Im so glad. Because today was stupid humid and it made me miserable. I was not in a good place for most of today and that was really frustrating. I just wanted to spend time with James but instead I just was a lump for most of the day. Thankfully I feel a little better now but it was a hard time. 

I was really happy to be home last night and James got home right after I got out of the shower and it was so nice to see him. He was really tired though so while we did spend some time together he fell asleep pretty quick. 

I wasnt up much longer. I am trying to get to sleep faster but it is still hard. And I thought I slept pretty good. But when my alarm went off I was like. Absolutely not. I felt horrible. I slept for another hour and a half but I still felt bad. I thought I just needed to eat. I got dressed and tried to feel better. James had even made us crepes with blueberries. But even after having his lovely breakfast I still felt like I was going to pass out. I had breakfast in bed and I just laid there.  I didnt want to sleep. But apparently my body didnt care about that. James came to lay with me and I was out. 

I woke up feeling worse. Delirious. My hands felt numb. My body hurt. I was just not happy at all. James made me a flat bread for later but I never ended up eating it. Maybe tomorrow. I had some cips and sat with James and tried to shake it off. But I was not feeling okay for a while. 

I did start feeling a little better. But of course then it was time for James to leave. I felt like I hadnt accomplished anything. James had brought stuff in from the car and took the cycling to the center. But I had done nothing. 

So I knew I had to to try to accomplish something. And I am proud to report that I did. Despite feeling like garbage from the humidity. I was able to make 2 appointments! I called the make the referral appointment with the dentist, and I finally have a dermatologist appointment. They both had things go wrong but I did it. 

I made the first call and they were very nice. But they needed to email me some stuff and we had a miscommunication about that and I had to call back 3 times before they understood the spelling of my email. But it got done and I did the paperwork. 

The dermatologist was more of an issue. I called the number the website said too. I was on hold for almost 40 minutes. Then they had to transfer me to another line because they didnt make the specialist appointments on that line. Okay. 10 more minutes on hold. Someone else gets on the time. Has to transfer me again. 20 more minutes. Oh my god. But I finally got someone who was able to make my appointment. But jeez. 

While waiting though I started to put the book case Jess gave me together. And I am super pleased with it. It was a little hard to put together by myself but I got it eventually. It is missing a few pegs but that was okay. I improvised for one but I have an extra shelf if needed. 

I spent basically the rest of the night working on organizing the studio and closet. We have to much stuff. But I had good luck moving things around and making better uses of the space. And I am really excited how organized the new shelf already is. There is still organizing work to be done. I want to move the camping stuff to our bedroom closet. And I have stuff to take to donate. But I am really happy with how everything came together. 

Byt the time I was done I had also accomplished some stuff for me and Jess's planned online store. A couple jackets and sweaters and bags. I still need to make some plans for my handmade stuff. But I felt a lot better once I got moving and I hope that I can just get a sleep pattern more normalized. At least the sun going down didnt knock me down like it sometimes does. Maybe this year will be different. 

I was really dirty from all the moving and cleaning. So I took a shower and I feel a lot better now. And I am really pleased about the rain. I hope it stops for James to come home after work, but if I have to go get him thats okay too. 

James finishes his ride for cancer tomorrow. He is going to ride 100 miles in one day! The plan is for me to meet him at some point in the middle so he can refill his water and get a snack. But I am not sure what time he is leaving so well see what happens. But I am really proud of him. 

I hope you all have a nice night and that tomorrow is a better day. Be safe everyone. Take care of yourselves.