#me showering my mutuals with love

[kimtaegis]

three superheroes, anpanman! for @sopekooks ♡

cr. jung-koook

[misc-obeyme]

CC HOW ARE WE DOING??

I can’t shut about the new barb drop I need to harass my barb moots 😩

AHHHH.

Listen if there's one thing I'm completely unhinged about, it's Barbatos and OMG OMG that CARD.

The only thing I ever felt I'd spend my one UR+ voucher on is the Barbatos shower card... and I had enough of those ridiculous UR+ jokers to skill level up. Spent all my Grimm unlocking the devil's tree to get to that premium card because I HAD to have it on my homescreen. Promptly lost my mind over his lines and the cute little indulgent laugh he does asdlkfkjf.

I am not at all feeling like I wanna write a nsfw scenario based on the one line he says nope definitely not.

It's really such a pretty premium picture, too. Like we get his lovely smile and all that SKIN and his beautiful hair and then there's like that window with the moon in the background even?!?

LOL what I'm totally normal I swear.

ANYWAY I hope he comes home to you as well if he hasn't already!!

[spotaus]

Me frfr ^

I've been reading a fic today as a treat for finally being on vacation, and when I say I've just been entranced I mean it. (Also. The fic in question is @ancientschampionau 's well, Ancients & Champions fic lol! It's captivated me >:])

[i-wiggle-i-squirm-bc-i-am-a-worm]

So I got distracted while re-reading One Does Not Love Breathing by @wackus-bonkus-maximus (seriously go read it if you haven’t yet, it’s fantastic <3) and I got itching to draw this scene from chapter 5 sdfghjhgfdshg I sWEAR it breaks my heart

but anyways...

go read it go read it go read it-

[raytm]

I know I don’t technically owe anyone and explanation but I want to put out there what’s going on and why I may have distanced myself or ended up losing mutuals because of cut contact.

on October eleventh my cat of eighteen years got put to sleep, which, has left me feeling empty and without reason to really do anything ? I was still working for a while and managing things but it progressed to a point where I was pacing any minute I was not doing anything and couldn’t sleep, spent the nights pacing the length of our property sometimes for hours at a time. my mum took me to the ER and they gave me sedatives which while acted to soothe it for a little bit didn’t solve the issue. when I returned home and was still exhibiting the symptoms she confronted me saying my cat was dead and I needed to get over it which ? was the last straw for me, she was screaming I was cowering it wasn’t fun. since then I’ve been staying with a friend who has taken me in and I’ve made progress but sleeping at night is still panic inducing for me and even with medication sometimes the insomnia still wins, I’ve been to the ER a few more times over the past two months and thankfully the pacing has stopped but the sleeping issues haven’t improved to the point where I’m able to sleep normally ? I still don’t know when it’s going to happen. I’m getting my PC from my mums house on the 28th so hopefully I’ll be able to write again but with how exhausted I am it can be difficult to even do the things I need to function day to day. I’ve had to give up my jobs as well so it’s just ? An on going ordeal. It’s been a rough two months but tbh I didn’t think I was going to make it to Christmas and I have so I’m just quietly hoping it improves even if it is slowly.

[lavendarneverlands]

Sometimes when I can’t sleep I scroll through tumblr and see my little notification icon saying one of my friends is interacting with a post and for a second I’m like what are they doing up so late? — they need to get some sleep❣️I hope their okay���� — and then I remember… I am also on tumblr… at a godforsaken time… wide awake😂 … and I’m really starting to think Tumblr was made for insomniacs, night-shifts, & friends in different timezones of the world🤣

[enigmasandepiphanies]

I think some of y'all (people in uni) were never 15 and read, "we accept the love we think we deserve" and sobbed while reading perks of being a wallflower and it shows

[ashfdhfgdsfk]

might remake to a new account entirely and change the name i go by

[glass-trash-bab]

There's something deeply wrong with me

[twomanyfandomshelp]

List 5 things that make you happy, then put this in the askbox for the last 10 people who reblogged something from you! get to know your mutuals and followers 💕

Thank you so much for the ask sweet anon! I’ve gotten this ask a couple times, so if I accidentally repeated anything I’m sorry but I have a really bad memory lol

1. A nice long, hot shower when I don’t have anything to do afterwards so I can just stand/sit in the hot water and decompress

2. How happy my dogs are to see me whenever I come home, no matter how long I’ve been gone. There’ve been times when I went to take out the trash and when I got back they were just as excited as they were when I had been gone for a week on vacation.

3. Whenever one of my mutuals tags me in anything or sends me an ask. I love interacting with my mutuals and it makes me feel so happy when they think of me.

4. Cooking and baking. I love both activities, they’re so calming and I feel really good when I see people enjoying something that I made.

5. Swimming and being in the water in general. I don’t really like the ocean, but I love pools and lakes. When I was little my parents called me a fish because sometimes they would have to literally drag me out of the pool in order to get me to leave. We live about an hour from a pretty big lake, and every so often during the summer we’ll rent a boat and spend the whole day on the lake with our group of family friends. We’ll go tubing, swimming, and my dad will bring burgers and hotdogs to grill at one of the parks. My grandma lives up in Michigan, the Great Lake state, and she lives on two lakes. One is in her backyard which isn’t really a swimming lake, but it’s great for kayaking, going out on her paddle boat, or fishing for blue gill and bass and such. The other lake is across the street and it’s the kinda lake where you can swim and tube and putz around in your boat. It’s mostly pontoons, sailboats, and speedboats.

This got a lot longer than I meant for it to be but oh well

[dragonheartstring360]

where there is no proof, there is no love

[kerosene-saint]

thanks tik tok for causing the worst paranoid breakdown I've had in about two years

[bearsgrove]

im going to Fucking CRY i love my friends

[strawheart-pirate]

Just know whenever I see the blogs I look up to, that are like a deity to me, liking my posts or even following me I giggle and kick my feet in the air 🫶

[mightbesmall]

a lil tier list i made on how well i'd get along with twst characters (-rollo cause i forgot him). not my original idea btw, i just thought it was neat.

DEUCE'S MUM HAS GOT IT GOIN' ONNN!!!😍😍

I don't like neige at all tbh.

And i'm petty asf and don't like being watched so no matter how much i adore rook, we wouldn't get along after book 5. Jamil just wouldn't like me nor would leona honestly.

[hua-fei-hua]

alright whenever you have time (and also the energy) I would love to hear your thoughts on the lantern rite epilogue! Have a good day <3

we're going to pretend that people following me will care abt genshin 3.4 lantern rite spoilers so we're gonna put my entire deranged mess under a cut hahaha

*gently holds* MY XVS......

truly this lantern rite had EVERYTHING although truth be told, like, the way venti was kind of shoehorned in was a little disappointing. i felt a little bit baited by the way the 3.4 TRAILER HAD THAT ONE CUT RIGHT where it goes from VENTI PLAYING THE LYRE in the harbor to XIAO LOOKING UP AT THE FIREWORKS outside of wangshu inn, and then we see the xiao bit in the actual cutscene on day 2, but absolutely none of venti until the epilogue. and also we never see venti playing the lyre during the event story so it's like. whoever edited that pv absolutely had xv on the brain. like. what the hell was that it was magical i feel higher than a boat right now

BUT ANYWAY like i don't even care how obviously shoehorned in venti felt bc the interactions were all SO PERFECT i love love loved them. i loved the way hu tao just RAN INTO WANGSHU INN and started shouting for xiao, and then talked death to him until he was like "yeah sure i'll go to your dinner". they are so besties i love them their friendship is everything to me.

THE WAY. XV INTERACTED. IN FRONT OF US. xiao just like "well. um. there's this. um. um." TOTAL PANIC MODE n venti had to SAVE HIM with like "huuuh? did you forget already? i'm a bard!" like HELLO why do they need a COVER STORY why are they making up COVER STORIES TOGETHER WHAT WERE THEY DOING TOGETHER IN THE MARSH EARLIER like what kind of GAY SHIT--

also i'm pretty sure when xiao started explaining his relationship to venti, venti fluttered his lashes at him. like, i recorded the whole quest (bc i didn't last year with the final part n i REALLY WISH I HAD bc i STILL remember the dRAMATIC GASP i had when we had that one beiguang moment in the cutscene), and when i rewatched it earlier i was like. "HANG ON. DID HE JUST FLUTTER HIS LASHES" n rewatched it like three times. maybe my game was just stuttering BUT IT DEFINITELY LOOKED LIKE IT and maybe i'll gif it when i get home from work tonight

BUT ANYWAY (2) point is that the expression work this time was ON POINT like whoever's doing all that over at mhy hq needs to get a raise pronto. venti going (¬‿¬) at all the other immortals was so immaculate. you aren't subtle little man!!!

it's probably just shipper goggles on to an extent, but i feel like the xv implications were really strong this time around, with the parallels to that fontch guy's ancestor, and the guiping n everything... i'm kind of disappointed that we don't get to actually hear any of venti's unobstructed thoughts on xiao; like the ribbing n implications at the dinner are a lot of fun (like, they were totally making out in the marsh before dinner. we all know this. it's very clear imo), but it kind of makes me wonder why we can hear xiao like... do his Very Heavy Implying abt venti's importance to him (though again, he doesn't outright say anything-- we know the full extent n depth of xiao's feelings abt venti (romantic or not) bc we can read his character stories, so technically really he hasn't told us jack squat in the current canon timeline), but the best we get from venti are smug expressions. those expressions are very telling, ofc, but a very unhinged part of me wishes that mhy didn't feel the need to wrap up the xv in layers of allegory and metaphor and just outright heard one of them say, "this person is very dear to me." i know it's just the rabid shipper in me, and i need to be sedated, but i was really kind of hoping that we'd see the allegory w/the fontch guy's ancestor n madame ping lifted away at the end n, like, see or hear it be bound to xv outright. just for purely self-indulgent purposes o(--(

but anyway (3) i also love love loved all the playful ribbing, witty banter, and prev event callbacks btwn the characters!! hu tao n venti canonically making a pact to be poetry friends was SO GOOD you just KNOW hu tao is gonna commission venti to compose a JINGLE for wangsheng advertising purposes later, while zhongli n xiao are like, "this meeting never should have happened. we are all doomed." somehow i legitimately forgot that xq n venti know each other from irodori n was like, "...huh?" when xq mentioning knowing venti for like, a FULL two seconds. the way venti was like "damn you know i was right outside this entire time. can you believe the way some people ignore the wind?" n zhongli was like "hahaha (✿◡‿◡) the harbor is very busy this time of year (✿◠‿◠) it is very hard see or hear an individual person's whereabouts (^人^)"

AND ALSO. PAIMON BEING ELECTED AS THE "MOST DISTINGUISHED GUEST." PAIMON YOU GOT IN THE WAY OF MY DERANGED SELF-DELUSIONMENT MANY TIMES THIS LANTERN RITE BUT THAT WAS PRETTY FUNNY. i thought it was interesting how no one nominated venti. like i was kind of expecting xiao to do it (but ofc he nominates traveler) which is fair honestly, n then i was like "IS LUMINE GONNA NOMINATE VENTI????" but then she nominated paimon n paimon was like "wait... me?????" n it was just EXACTLY like a bunch of adults telling the little kid they are the most specialest ever n they should have the honor of doing The Thing. as that little kid growing up, i know the feeling very well lol

there are other bits i'm just,,, rotating around in my mind, like venti and kazuha hanging out on the alcor, the way xiao goes "i can't taste the difference in xiangling's special almond tofu" when you go visit him afterwards, ALL THE GANQING THAT HAPPENED IN THE MAIN STORY I'M SO HAPPY FOR THEM I'M SO HAPPY FOR ME I WON VERY HARD THIS LANTERN RITE, n like,,, yeah!!!!