#me of you and I wanna talk to you so bad and share xyz with you and I just miss us being friends

[enrapture]

I’m on a charli xcx brat kick tonight and I feel like crying rn

[talesofanaudhdnothing]

Introduction

Good morning, it’s 1pm.

I’m a vlogger at heart and hope to keep up with my channel but thought I would try another avenue of connecting? Anyways the point of that was to explain how I got so used to saying good morning to my camera that I would accidently do it at 4 or 5 pm on my way home from work in the video diaries I would make (not even to upload, I just like to talk but only to myself). Eventually I just started to do it on purpose and while i’m sure no one actually cares, I personally find it hilarious so I have claimed it as my thing.

I’m Bee and this is my blog! Could I tell you what I’ll be posting here? No. Basically, this is just a void for me to shout into just like my youtube channel. I like to think I can offer a pretty realistic and relatable perspective on life and that’s why I like to share. Because I like to consume content I can relate to, and I want to be that content for other people. I crave connection into the world I feel like an alien to. I have autism 🎉 !!! I’m not sure if it’s related but honestly, it checks. Before we go any further let me give you the alphabet soup recipe:

Level 1 ASD 

Combined ADHD

Generalized anxiety

depression

And probaby cptsd, arfid, dyscalclia ????

Aaaand as of now that’s it but give me another month or so of introspection and observation and i’ll get back to you. It’s weird taking a piece of yourself and focusing so hard to figure out what it is like that. Things I thought were just normal, aren’t. Everyone isn’t having the same thoughts and feelings and emotions as I am. Everyone is not having as tough of a time as me. I’m also hyper-independent… for some reason so that doesn’t really help with ever asking for the support I need. Weird, right?

I was officially DX with audhd on april 4th, 2023 through some place online that I still kinda squint my eyes at. But I got my silly little paper that says i’m autistic so that’s really all I needed. And tbh I could have paid for and had the best ASD evaluator in the world and I’d still be like “ ok but like..are you positive bc?”. Not because I don’t want to be autistic, god no. I was RELIEVED to discover I might be autistic. And I totally respect everyones feelings and they are very valid but I never understood being upset. To me; If you are autistic, you’ve BEEN autistic. Having the words to it isn’t going to make it worse. It doesn’t give you autism to say you’re autistic. But what it does is validate that you aren’t crazy or weird or just an outsider. You aren’t alone and now you know how to help yourself. Why would I be upset to learn that the reason I get so irrationally angry and deeply terrified when someone revs their motor is because I’m autistic and I’m not just being dramatic???

Maybe I just guessed all the right answers. I don’t do XYZ or experience XYZ like other people who are autistic so maybe I’m really not and i’ just weird and destined to never fit anywhere. What if I’m just faking symptoms (not for attention because I keep it private because I’m embarrassed). 

But I know it has to be true, deep down and it always has been and always will be. And I just want to share my experiences and my knowledge. I want to help other audhd people like me. So I want to start this blog to talk about myself; Share my experiences, pass along my knowledge, and share the good and the bad. I want people to better understand us because I know I feel chronically misunderstood. And I just wanna have fun man. I have a lot to say when it’s on my terms and I want to say it!

[stormyweaver]

Sometimes in my head I'm like 'This needs to be said' and other times I'm like 'nah just leave it be'. Not sure which one this time is but... I rarely censor myself on this blog anyway.

It's not even like a huge take really? It's just that one of the reasons I stopped posting/interacting on here was that a lot of people I used to talk to often had unfriended and blocked me, or just deleted their blogs for one reason or another (valid to both btw. Sometimes life happens.) I was feeling really down about the former though. I struggle a lot with maintaining any relationships, platonic or otherwise. So I'm always left thinking 'Ah I did XYZ yep I am a horrible piece of trash'. Which... I'm not.

I'm not a bad person. I'm a human, and I think people like... forget sometimes that even though we can't see each other, stuff does affect each other. I don't blame people for deciding to unfriend/block/whatever if they have a gripe with me. If it happens then it is what it is, but it def sticks with me bc I'll never know exactly what I did for that to happen. BUT as one of my favorite shows growing up has taught me: You can be the nicest, coolest, kindest person out there, and someone will STILL not like you. That's just how life is.

Now onto the positive: I have so, SO many valuable friends from this kink and I'm always so grateful to have them in my life. Is the fear there that one day I'll fuck up or they'll get tired of me and leave present? Absolutely. But I'm learning to just enjoy the ride for as long as I can, and if life or whatever else decides that we part ways, it doesn't need to be a tragedy. I can and will continue to try and be as true to myself as possible.

Anyway idk what this post is really meant to accomplish. I think it's more of a... it's something for me to see and realize how much I've grown over the years, not just on snzblr or even tumblr itself. I'm always gonna be a sensitive person but, I think I'm learning how to not beat myself up so much behind the scenes. And to remember that there are people here who love/appreciate me, even when my mind tries to tell me it's not true.

That being said, I def wanna try and be more active on here, even if I'm not in the most popular fandom or newest shiny thing. 'Cause I enjoy sharing with other people. I genuinely do. Not promising anything certain but, if it happens it happens.

[elvenbeard]

I read your post about headcanons about Kerry's sexuality, and I totally agree with what you said about headcanons not taking away from representation, but I'm curious what your view are on mods that change a character's sexuality so anyone can romance them? I know there is, or at least used to be, quite a bit of debate around that. You don't have to answer if you don't want to, I'd hate to start any discourse drama on your blog. I'm just curious because I'm not even sure where I stand on the matter, and have been back and forth on it for a long time.

It's all good nonny! I have been asking myself that lately tbh, and I know I've been back and forth on it myself, too.

In this moment in time, I am completely indifferent on the existence of mods that do stuff like that. I don't condone or like them, but I'm not gonna do anything about them either. I know years ago in the Dragon Age fandom there was huge discourse and drama around a mod that made Dorian (canonically gay, his whole character arc revolves around that fact, just in case you're not into that series) available to be romanced by a female Inquisitor. And back then I was absolutely livid. Dorian was (and still is) one of my fave characters in the DA universe. And honestly, I couldn't even tell you now if anything ever came off of that whole drama (but I doubt it, cause it rarely does) - that's how pointless Internet drama really is. In the worst case, the person who made that mod got driven out of fandom entirely and now has negative associations with the queer community as a whole.

Do I think that mods that change a queer character's canon orientation are amazing? No, not really, and most of the time, especially in Dorian's case, they make no sense at all for the characters' arcs. I personally would never wanna play them and I'd also rather not know why some people make them.

(I'm completely biased here btw, because I do not feel as negatively about mods that change a canonically straight character's orientation to something queer. Simply because I'm queer and greedy for more representation, because there cannot be enough XD Does that make me a hypocrite to some people? Maybe, but honestly, I don't really care. And as I said in my post, and as you mentioned, even the "straight mods" do not take away from any queer representation that canonically exists.)

The thing is, me and others screaming and yelling about "straight mods" (or "bi mods" for characters that are explicitly gay/lesbian) is not gonna change a thing, mods like that are always gonna exist. Content I don't agree with is always something I can come across at random, and I keep finding new things that make me go "nope!" regularly. And even if I'm not screaming and yelling, and instead try to be reasonable, talk objectively with the mod makers as for xyz reasons their mod is not good in my eyes... I'm too old for that shit XD I'd rather use my energy and limited time to make a lot of gay stuff featuring my favourite queer blorbos instead of arguing with strangers why a straight!Dorian or bi!Judy or straight/bi!whoever mod is bad. Fandom should be a hobby, not activism, and you can go about fighting homophobia in a lot better ways than arguing about who certain pixel people would like to bone or not.

I wish there were - or maybe there are and I haven't figured it out yet - ways to filter stuff I don't wanna see on Nexus for example like there are on tumblr, ao3, any other social media site with a good tagging system and means to block tags or phrases or users. Curating your own experience and finding people who share your interests is so important and has really improved my time in fandom a lot over the last years. And it's good to have friends you can rant to about stupid things that upset you in private, definitely XD

So, on that note, ship whoever you wanna ship in this context, but tag it so that people who don't wanna see it can avoid it and don't get mad. Also sorry this got long and slightly off topic, I'm a chronic rambler.

(also, if anything's unclear, feel free to reach out again! sometimes I don't express myself as well as I think I do XD)

[1eos]

man im sorry your family wont get off your ass its literally the most frustrating thing of all time like its not your life leave me alone tf??? youve already made it clear your reasoning behind your decision and that you arent straying from it so they should just let it go idc if they think its a mistake or not something they would chose and xyz is better like thats not their choice to live with so it doesnt even matter cause its not like they will be paying for it... odk why people do this shit either its so stupid like my fam got mad at me and tried to talk me out of a haircut i wanted AND PAID FOR MYSELF bc i went from really long to a pixie and i was like oh sorry didnt know this was the community hair we all share my bad i figured since it grew from MY HEAD that it was mine and mine alone

thank you 🥰 AND THANK YOU!!!!! its so frustrating and so uhhhh circular? like family will complain and complain and want to change your opinion on everything but then complain if you can't make your own decisions. how abt you shut the hell up? esp bc its always shit like 'im scared you're gonna regret it' so you don't think i will regret YOU 🫵🏾 telling me what to do??????? and the car debacle pisses me off bc no one is trying to pay a $1000 a month car note. and its funny that ive driven other ppls hand-me-downs and no one cared abt what i ~like~ in a car. like do u think i fucking LIKED the 12 year old car with bad ac? bitch i just adapted 😭😭😭😭

and dont even get me started on hair. your body really is public property in families and its fucking sick. like if you wanna chop all your hair off that's your goddamn right! and its not like haircuts are permanent. none of this shit is the end of the world. i'd rather have a haircut i didnt like for a month than live under the thumb of my parents and you can slap on a wig and boom problem solved. I HATE THE FAMILY STRUCTUREEEEEE NO ONE RESPECTS THE AUTONOMY OF THE YOUNGEST GENERATIONNNNNNNN

[queen-mihai]

I know I'm gonna be a nothing voice here. But I have moderated my fair share of online spaces, and I wanna share my experience

Of course there is always the potential of finding hateful people or people who want nothing more than to argue in bad faith. But most people just want to get along and have fun making new friends and talking to them.

I have had admins and moderators in my groups, but when I'm active, I hardly ever need to use them. That's not to say much of me or my leadership style, but the communities themselves

Once a community understands that hateful voices won't be tolerated, they start self policing. After a while of pruning the more bad faith voices, people soon enough become aware of the arguments these people make and start flagging them before I ever even need to

Of course people want to make jokes and fuck with each other. But there is a CLEAR difference between a good natured ribbing amongst friends and someone trying to cause harm with so-called "jokes".

It's pretty easy. You wanna know the secret? I bet you'll see it literally from now until forever: ribbing REQUIRES understanding. Ribbing is almost by definition messing with someone over something they said or did. Not who they are or what they look like. Which means you HAVE TO BE PAYING ATTENTION TO THEM.

You can't fuck with somebody all cutesy-like and have it be understood if you haven't been listening to them. I personally LOVE a good ribbing. But that type of thing NEEDS to come from a place of good-natured understanding and NOT just be an attempt to "get a rise out of someone"

I'll give you an example:

One job I had was based in an office space. Everyone had computers, we had the internal network xyz. It was fine.

The IT specialist and I had a lovely relationship. I'd call him and say my computer was acting up, and he'd tell me to restart it. When I did, I'd curse and tell him he was right (again) and he'd laugh and hang up on me.

A few weeks later I'd call again and be like "I've got you this time. This isn't something a simple restart will fix!"

And he'd be like, "Have you tried?"

"..... no."

.

.

.

.

"Goddammit"

"*chuckle* let me know if you have any other problems* *click*"

So that's the setup

The Christmas party comes around and this guy is gonna retire.

He comes and sits next to me for the party. We laugh together the whole time. Of course one of the first things he asks me is "Hey when's the last time you restarted your computer?"

"Gaaaah you bastard!"

And we laughed together.

THAT'S ribbing.

We spent YEARS talking to each other. Mostly about work stuff, yes, but also just life stuff in general. I fucking love that dude. His ability to fuck with me about my computer is DIRECTLY tied to our mutual understanding of and respect for each other. He didn't go to my boss and say "if she can't remember to restart her computer, maybe she shouldn't have this job" or talk about me being black or whatever. It was just about stuff that we DID together.

In my online groups, I work to maintain that kind of connection between people. When people understand that, you can have any number of people and different personalities and politics and beliefs and people still get along. My biggest group was over 400 adults and everyone got along fine. That group is still running right now with over 100 members and I still don't barely need to check in with them.

Getting rid of hateful voices doesn't mean your group will shrink to nothing or that you won't have diversity. It just means people will be able to rely on your group as a comfortable safe place to talk and be themselves. And the most they can look forward to is being reminded once again that, yes, this problem can also be solved by restarting the damn computer. "Just try it! You never know." 🤣😂🤣😂🤣

[raylazuko]

Nm, I’m gonna make a new intro but make it more blunt instead of over explaining everything.

Basic info: My name is Riah and it’s pronounced like Maya not Mia. I’m 22, non-binary (they/them), asexual, have autism, adhd, generalized anxiety, and likely SAD. Based in the northeastern USA. I’m in a lot of fandoms mainly Genshin, Zelda, animation and Disney, GOTG/Marvel, Mega Man, Sonic, and whatever I like at the time. I also like music, dancing, K-pop, and all that. I like alt rock and pop music like Yeah Yeah Yeahs, Radiohead, Bjork, Billie, Florence, etc etc and I like pop and K-pop, Dua, Olivia, Chappell, and K-pop girlies Blackpink, Gidle, Itzy, Mamamoo, Aespa, IVE, etc etc. Dreamcatcher is my fav group they are dark concept queens. I’m also slightly obsessed with Lee Taemin, he is the god of pop and K-pop. I have a lot of trauma from bad friends and my ex so a long DNI, sorry.

DNI:

Basic DNI, bigotry, ableism, PDF files, etc.

Toxic stans/petty drama/those who make themselves the victims always

People who hate on harmless interests

If you tell me who/what to boycott. I don’t have an issue with the cause but it is the tone used. Basically the “I am morally superior to you because I don’t support xyz” bs. Like informing is fine. Saying “here’s what this company donates to” but saying “you’re a terrible person and don’t care about xyz because you bought x” is not helpful and is triggering for me.

By this same logic, crazy vegans, environmentalists of any people who guilt trip and cannot understand nuance of our capitalist hellscape.

If you support Trump or say he’s better than Kamala or that you won’t vote for Kamala because of stupid reason xyz even tho she’s by far the better option.

Any form of bigotry and queerphobia that includes apathy

Transmedicalists or whatever tf you call yourselves these days.

Cis men who hate Korra as a character are on thin ice

If you make bad faith arguments about fiction in general/taking it way too serious or not serious at all when it does pertain to real issues.

If you think bad things can’t be talked about in fiction. As long as it’s handled well and shown bad thing is bad, I like to explore darkness as I’m a writer.

If you agree/defend Lily Orchard’s bad takes and then say she’s only hated cuz she’s trans

If you saying liking SU means you wanna forgive not sees or other brain dead cartoon takes

“All (insert ship here) are toxic”

“There’s no need for fanfic, canon is fine” or just disrespecting harmless headcanons and creativity in general. If you don’t like fanfic, don’t read it.

If you ship: Azula and Zuko (ewwww), Anna/Elsa (it’s an actual thing on AO3), any other bio siblings close bio relatives, immediate yeet, dark themes should be explored but shipping is condoning imo. Okay, let’s see: Catradora, Kaeluc, Thorki, Alluthor, any other adopted/pseudo adopted incest. Idc if it’s canon. You can ship what you want privately but please don’t discuss it with me and if you comment about it it’ll block you and I’ll also block if I see it on my feed. Also shit like Reylo would only be abusive if it happened before Ben turned good (I don’t ship it anymore) but ACTUAL abuse (Dottoscara or don’t even get me started on Collei), please DNI.

Also like this goes without saying but PDF file ships.

Lolisha content or discourse about whether it should be allowed (no, it shouldn’t)

I’m on thin ice with age gaps because of my ex, just be mindful about that.

Have whatever religion you want but do not force it down my throat , I probably don’t share your religion so it doesn’t apply to me.

Making judgments about my life/telling me to go to therapy (I’m in therapy). Any sort of unsolicited advice is a big no/no. If I offend you please just block me or give it to me straight but don’t assume shit you don’t know.

Just don’t be an ass in general.

TW/CW:

Please warn me if you’re going to talk to me about these topics:

Medical stuff, hospitals, cancer, etc.

Sewer slide and SH

Politics. Especially anti queer legislation and stuff. If I block you it doesn’t mean I disagree, it’s just causing me stress.

Religion/religious trauma

Mommy issues

SA and grooming

Death

I’m probably forgetting some but idk.

Anyway thanks. If this offends you literally just DNI or block me. I’m allowed to set my own boundaries on my page. Thanks.

Also all of my stuff https://linktr.ee/Riahlexuko

[bythestedeside]

do you ever have the most okay day like, outwardly? Like nothing went horribly wrong physically, you don't have any kinda thing that would piss you off or like cause you to stress too bad, okay maybe like one thing but it was mostly fine even though that wouldn't have happened if not for one annoying thing but like the reaction to it wasn't what it could've been so it's fine(ish) but otherwise a pleasant enough day but emotionally you feel a wreck?? Like not even really for any thing that happened to you that day but something boiled over in a pot in your brain that had no heat on it so it was out of the blue and you wanna cry your eyes out thought people would look at you weird and ask but you don't wanna get in to it bc everything's fucking fine today so why are you crying holy shit it's not a big deal but it 1000% is or it would've been like 15 years ago and yeah maybe it could've been fixed back then but it's way past the due date for multiple reasons and now you're stuck here and holy shit we just went on a day out why is this hitting you now why do you wanna talk about this we can't do anything to fix this you have to work on it yourself but listen I can't I don't have the ability/resources/money/common sense/etc etc to do it I need help but like I said I could've maybe done something back when I had xyz to help me now I have nothing and I'm spiraling into a pit of despair but oh you have everything taken care of for you why would you wanr to be on your own well that's just it I have no personal space I can't do anything without you brearhing down my mind and there's too many stupid rules that make no sense why can't I just have my own space to do what I please instead of sharing everything with multiple people in a small house and only getting less than my share of everything and not being able to make my own choices holy shit I'm so sorry but like I'm terribly sad and having a "nice day out" that is just having to go along with someone else and pretend you're having a good time bc everyone else is while you're literally miserable and on top doing something very incorrectly bc someone forced me into it when I told them multiple times I do not know how to bc they never believe me when I say I can't which is so infuriating bc I know my limits, you do not know me at all though you at like you know me better than I know myself when I live in this body. Like I'm so fucking tired it's unreal

[nintala]

I really wish I had more friends I could share my random dabblings in art with

Like I do not know if it's okay to send ppl wips, I don't have this sort of artist connection

- the few people I do send stuff to are usually busy and I get really confused if it's rude to send stuff to them or if it's annoying, a lot of times there is no responses I have no idea of I've done something wrong and I don't know if it's okay to ask them "do you have any thoughts on xyz"

Esp if it's like art I'm happy with...is it self absorbed to want people to look art you make?

a lot of old friends told me my art made them feel bad about their own art so I had to stop sharing things...I just don't understand what to do anymore

And I'm sorry if this isn't okay to talk about or comes off as annoying, I don't wanna force people to like my art or feel they have to interact.

[the-smiling-doodler]

ok, I'm ready to talk about this now. please forgive me if i repeat myself or say smth that doesn't make sense, I'm a bit tired.

So for starters, I'm likely never ever leaving Tumblr, especially not for Twitter. BUT i have to admit that Twitter is better than Tumblr engagement-wise.

I know there's a lot of jokes about how 'ooughh why are all the cool artists only on twitter !!" but the truth is,, its because the community on twitter is more vocal. I've gotten more responses to my art on twitter than on Tumblr, and while i love the Tumblr SC community and all it's awesome artists, you guys are just .. Really quiet most of the time.

The BIGGEST problem is that no one reblogs art, and that creates less engagement*, which is very discouraging for creators and only drives them to either stop posting, or go to other apps to post. Now you might be wondering: "Why are they feeling discouraged about low engagement? Why don't they just create for themselves?" and the answer to that is: We DO create for ourselves. That's why we draw and write and compose music and make gifs. The art is for us. We SHARE it for you! If every fanartist only made art for themselves and didn't care about engagement, you would not have any content besides stuff from the source material. It's not the attention most of us are looking for, but the community. I want to know that my art is reaching people, I want people to interact with it, to ask about it, to be inspired by it, to just show that someone, anyone, likes it and wants to see more. I wanna know that I'm not screaming out into the void. So please, consider contributing to the community you're in by sharing the work of your favorite artists. *(Because Tumblr isn't like Twitter or Instagram. reblogs are the only way posts can be shared on this app. Likes and replies do NOTHING to spread the post around. Likes are basically just bookmarks. The only thing they really do is add more notes to your post, which helps get it to the 'Top' of the tags page.) Here are some of the notes I've gotten on a couple of my Tumblr art posts:

and .. God these are really bad like to reblog ratios. preferably, there should be more reblogs than likes on an art post, or at least, they should be close to equal. Like this:

This is an example of a GOOD like to reblog ratio! (the only thing that would make it better is if 3/4ths of those reblogs weren't made by the same person.)

"But Doodler, what if I like the post but don't want it on my main blog for xyz reason?"

That's a fair reason, but you don't have to worry about that bro. you can just make a sideblog!! If you didn't know, Tumblr lets you do that without having to create a second email.

if you're on desktop, just click the little account icon and press on the '+ New' button next to the Blogs section, and it should take you to a page where you can create a new sideblog.

(Keep in mind that any settings you have on your main will not be transferred to your sideblog, aka, you have to manually change the settings of each individual sideblog you make, and if you wanna block people from seeing your sideblog, you have to go into the settings of that blog and type out the names of the blogs you wanna block into the blocked Tumblrs section.)

there's more information of main and sideblogs on tumblr's help page, including how to create them on mobile: https://help.tumblr.com/secondary-blogs/

"Okay, but I have nothing to add to the post."

That's perfectly fine!! You don't have to leave a comment, just reblogging is enough to show support! Think of it this way: A reblog means "I love your post so much, I wanna share it with everyone who follows me!" A like is a nice gesture, like giving a thumbs up as you're walking by. It's sweet, but it doesn't really help the artist.

"But it takes more time to reblog than to like a post."

That's only true if you're not using the quick-reblog feature!

^ To reblog a post quickly on desktop, you can either hover over the post and hit the Shift + R key, or you can hold E and click on the post you want to reblog! The only cons to this method is that it only reblogs to your main (at least as far as I know, feel free to correct me if you know how to quick-reblog to a sideblog). But it's different on mobile! If you hold the reblog button for a few seconds, this should appear:

and you can swipe in the direction of the blog you want to reblog it to! Cons of this is that it only shows the first 3 blogs in your blogs list, so if you have multiple unused sideblogs, you have to drag your most used sideblogs to the top. (On desktop, click on the account icon on your sidebar, then use the 4 dots next to the username to drag the blog up or down. idk if there's a way to do this on the mobile app.)

"No one reblogs my art, so why should I reblog theirs?"

I understand your anger, BUT, reblogging other people's posts can actually get YOU more engagement!! Whenever someone reblogs my post with a nice comment, I tend to go through their blog to see if I can somehow return the gesture. We can only fix this culture of taking from and not giving artists if we work together.

"Isn't it weird to reblog a lot of posts?"

NUH UH!! It's actually weirder to NOT reblog posts. This site is built on reblogging. A lot of the most popular posts are ones with long chains of reblogs with people talking to each other in the additions, or via tags. Unless you're making a blog that exclusively for your art or something, your blog should be about 90% reblogs, 10% original posts. Of course it varies, but basically, more reblogs than original posts is the norm on this app. Also, reblogging is ESPECIALLY important if you're currently an empty blog with no avatar. Empty blogs are suspicious because a lot of bots look like empty blogs. I've had to stop myself from blocking some of you because you didn't have a title, didn't have an avatar, and/or didn't have any posts on your blog. Lastly, although I'm emphasizing reblogs in this post, know that there are other ways of interacting with blogs you like!! That could include using the ask feature. Some blogs let you send an anonymous ask(like my blog !!) so you don't have to worry about them knowing who you are if you wanna send a nice comment but are too shy to show yourself. Or you could try drawing or writing something for them and tagging them under the post. Any interaction is better than no interaction.

TL;DR: Reblog posts or artists will stop sharing things with you, and please try to interact with people in the fandom so that it feels more like a community and less like an endless void.

And please consider reblogging this post so that more people can see it. I'll also be reblogging some more post that explain this whole thing better than me. Don't be afraid to ask about anything. God. This is way longer than i intended it to be. ough. *falls over

thinking about how its been being on twitter,,

[fairytheo]

enhypen as your boyfriend.

boyfriend!enhypen x gen!reader. fluff. 1.9k. curse words. mention of bugs, food. not requested.

🐈 ⸝⸝ HEESEUNG ˙𐃷˙

super-duper caring !!

he’s so whipped for you — he smiles just by thinking about you

also very giggly around you

LOVES lending you his beanies

(aka. you stealing them..)

+ you steal his earrings as well ! not that he minds

absolutely adores singing for you / he loves singing you to sleep :D

hold up, is being heeseung’s s/o just being his personal ramen cook 🤨🤨

he aaalwaays bugs you to play games with him (especially wii and nintendo switch lmao)

either that or you’re playing animal crossing while eating takeout at your dinner table

you’re the only person in the world who he’ll ever do aegyo for. 

he secretly enjoys it, but shhh you didn’t hear that from me

i think he likes calling you names like cutie, cutiepie or just a shorter version of your name <3 (if there is one !)

booping your nose is on his everyday to do list ☝️

lowkey therapist & boyfriend in one ngl

WAIT he loves making playlists for you two,, 

“y/n! i made another playlist, do you wanna listen to it? i made it while thinking of you.” <//3 

the type to write cheesy lyrics about you, then later cringes at his own writing bUT then leaves it like that because you like it !

you have his cover of lauv’s “i’m so tired” either set as your alarm or play it on loop everyday 

(random but for some reason i can picture him giving you a cassette with his cover on it just for the vintage vibes)

🐈 ⸝⸝ JAY ˙𐃷˙

the mom-and-boyfriend in one ;] 

f a s h i o n  c o u p l e 

you are literally fashion icons. no disagreements. 

you have matching clothes or accessories ! even if it’s really subtle, the gesture behind it is super adorable <//3

cooking pt. 2 :D but this time there’s a gorden ramsay in your relationship

i can just SEE how you both two impersonate gorden ramsay while cooking which makes everything 10 times funnier !! checks every 5 seconds if the food is ready tho because he doesn’t wanna risk anything

never cleans up afterwards, either you do or no one does

since you’re both fashion icons your social media followers are going 📈📈📈

literally couple goals.

he loves taking pictures of you,, but also wants you to take pictures of him 

jay gets flustered easily so please make him flustered with sudden compliments, hugs, kisses, etc. !!

he’s also the only member i can really see calling you babe

confident but shy about pda at the same time ??? he’s both LOL 

you always tease him with his RAS moments and randomly quote them when you’re in the middle of a conversation with him lmao

random and idk if this fits here, but he likes making your lunch — leaves you encouraging notes too <3

last but not least: jokingly gets angry at you when he wants something from you, and you do the same thing back ♡

🐈 ⸝⸝ JAKE ˙𐃷˙

sweetest and softest boyfriend to ever exist. i’m so soft for him JSHSHS

definitely calls you sweetie and darling. 100%. fight me if you think otherwise. 

shows you pics of layla everyday (it’s become routine for him >_<)

a tiny bit cliché BUT lends you his jacket whenever you’re cold (even when you’re inside !!)

random thought: jake puts his hands in your hoodie pockets...

💔💔💔

it’s his personal goal to peck your cheek and forehead at least twice a day — gets pouty if he wasn’t able to do that ))):::

talks in english a lot because you love his accent !!

if you’re an english speaker, you’ll have conversations in english all. the. time.

if you’re not an english speaker, no worries, he’ll teach you !

+ reads you bedtime stories in english (jake’s australian accent >>>) 

dreams of travelling with you to australia <33  

if there’s a bug in the house you better know that jake will NOT be removing them and runs out of the house

WILL stay over at one of the other member’s houses untill that bug is REMOVED . 

so if you’re afraid of bugs as well,,, i’m sorry bae, but it’ll be your task to remove these little... creatures 😐

ngl you have more photos of layla than of him on your phone lol

(spams you with her pictures and captions them with “y/n!!! look!!! layla with a flower!!!! layla with a butterfly!!!!” it’s just so sweet aaa)

we need some “””drama””” so you make jokes about him being a “🥶💸🔥💪” boy a lot in your relationship LMAO

🐈 ⸝⸝ SUNGHOON ˙𐃷˙

ice skating dates.

this has been mentioned in other headcanons a lot already but i just HAD to include it,,

convinces you to eat ice cream after your date LOL even if it IS winter

btw. fashion couple nr. 2 !!! 

MIRROR SELCAS

MIRROR SELCAS 

ugh the visuals and the power you two hold,,,, i can’t,,,,,

has better clothes than you ngl so you share clothes lmao

it started with him lending you his sweatpants, but then you didn’t want to return them forgot to return them and BOOM 💥 here we are

extremely awkward and shy at first — don’t worry though, he becomes much more chaotic in the later phases of your relationship

he teases you SO MUCH. LIKE. SO MUCH.

always has small smile (smirk?) on his face when he’s about to make a cocky remark (so beware)

you tease him back just twice as hard which 1.) results in him in becoming flustered 2.) fails LOL

off-topic but he’d love a s/o that has a similar style to him ??? a more elegant, classy, dark style perhaps

when he’s away / busy he’ll send you some selcas and captions them with “how r u doing??” “did you eat yet?” “cheer up :P” 

kinda shy about pda but likes showing off too ???

i mean,, men... 🙄🙄 /lh

whenever someone mentions your name near him, he’ll just try to hide his smile while biting his lip (yk what i’m talking about???) and you’ll see his dimples and the affectionate look in his eyes and just AAAAA

the type of boyfriend that calls you love~

🐈 ⸝⸝ SUNOO ˙𐃷˙

skin care routines with sunoo 24/7 🤝

he does your hair (if your hair is long enough to do different hairstyles with it ofc !!) 

send you daily weekly skin care products he thinks you two should try out / that’d be good for your skin <3

spa nights every friday at 9pm — he only lets you in if you wear a stylish pyjama LOL

you buy him peach items because they just remind you so much of him (｡•́︿•̀｡)

SELCA TIME !!! his phone is always ready !!! (apart from his storage maybe?)

PARTICIPATES IN SELCA DAYS OF YOUR FAVOURITE IDOLS AAA

loves to go on walks w u

does A LOT of aegyo,, 

and i know that you knew that this point will be in this headcanon.

for eg. instead of saying goodnight or bye he’ll just do aegyo for you not that anyone minds tbh

stages of sunoo flirting (?):

a — tries to compliment you (it sounds more like a flirty remark tbh)

b — realizes then blushes

c — cringes and runs away LMAO

playfully acts jealous, so you know it’s a joke but deep down he’s actually jealous

you two match each others vibes a lot — if one is sad, the other is sad as well

+ tells you your posture is bad when you sit like a banana or tells you to go to sleep early and when you don’t listen to him, he’ll show you an article that proves that (abc) and (xyz) is bad for you and says “i told you so.” 💀

🐈 ⸝⸝ JUNGWON ˙𐃷˙

impresses you by doing kicks (does the kick cap challenge on tiktok and/or you play kick it by nct 127 for the funzies) 

poking his dimple is a MUST . 😩😩

though gets super shy when you kiss him and also if you buy him gifts !!

cheers you up whenever you feel down or are upset

compliments you a ton ))): will randomly come up to you and tell you that your fit is cute or that you look brighter today,,, little does he know it's because of him ;]

HUGS!HUGS!HUGS

poking his dimple comes first, then hugging

the other members tease you two everytime you’re over LOL it’s like there are two koalas clinging onto each other

our yang garden gained another sheep +1

you two randomly play sheep,,,, like,,, everyday ???? sheep cosplays 👍

idk why ig it’s just fun to imitate sheep and go “mmmeEeEeeEhh” to annoy others

talking of that, even THOUGH he is a responsible leader he will not hesitate to do stupid shit with you

“hey how about we ring on that house there and yell “sheep for sale!” do you think they’ll open the door?”

“i don’t know... let’s find out!” 🤝

let’s just say that this didn’t end well..

also kinda bullies you (in a loving way ofc !!) pand teases you nonstop

either calls you asshole or love aHA

in conclusion: a very unpredictable relationship,, would 10/10 recommend.

very random but i feel like his love language is acts of service

🐈 ⸝⸝ NI-KI ˙𐃷˙

oh look it’s our tsundere 😼

can’t go a day without dancing so you two have vibing sessions at 2am everyday ft. the others telling you to go to bed

you’re the only one that can make him soft lol

if you’re older than him, you would definitely take care of him like your own baby !! 

if you are the same age as him or younger it’d be awkward for him at first, because he isn’t used to taking care of someone younger, so he’d treat you as if you were his best friend at the beginning

you love to watch him dance !! it’s so satisfying,, LITERAL asmr.

pranks you 24/7. boy has NO mercy. will not care if the others will scold him later. he will do the prank smoothly (?) — doesn’t care about the consequences LMAO

probably sets your alarm to someone screaming or a cringy aegyo song <//3

wants to film dance covers with you !! you don’t have to be the best dancer either !! as long as you have fun ^__^ 

the other members find you really cute but are also vERY TIRED OF YOU,, two energized teens in a relationship was not a good idea ☝️

likes to randomly hold your hand and swing it around 

probably distant at the beginning of the relationship because a.) he doesn’t want to pressure you/make things awkward b.) he doesn’t really know what to do either ???

(if you’re not japanese or don’t know how to speak japanese) he’ll definitely teach you some japanese phrases and words !! introduce you to his culture as well :DD and he really wants to know more about your culture too <3

teaches you phrases like “sunoo is a dumbass” for the funzies LOL

randomly makes micheal jackson impressions,,, it’s hilarious LMFAO

[stormblessed95]

Thoughts on namjoon and his mystery friend who he keeps posting and hiding his face? Do you think it's the same guy he keeps posting or different guys? Do you think there's anything to the now fandom wide speculation that our namjoonie might have a boyfriend?

Granted there is literally no evidence other than those pictures lol. But I was discussing it with a friend and she said it just makes no sense to her that he keeps posting this friend but hiding his face. She said it feels like he's trying to tell this person that he's not hiding them. I don't know. I just thought that namjoon wanted to post a friend but didn't want that friend to get stalked. But why does he wanna post a friend that bad?

We're probably reading way too much into this lol but I'm just glad the fandom at large isn't being homophobic about this and were all half jokingly saying they'd be happy for namjoon if it was actually a thing. Yaay for the slowly disappearing homophobia in the fandom.

Also seeing everybody finally acknowledge that interview where namjoon mentioned BTS having boyfriends or girlfriends is also nice to see.

I've always been in two minds about that clip cause it could have just been a nervous slip because he was talking in English but that just seems kind of far fetched to me. Now they're connecting dots and thinking he was talking about himself when he mentioned boyfriends.

Interesting times in this fandom

YES Anon! Let's talk about Namjoon! I was talking to @1imstillme3 literally the night before he posted again with that guy. I was telling her that ever since I joined the fandom, RM gave me STRONG in a happy and committed relationship vibes. Please don't ask me why. It was legit just a feeling. Lol and I know the fandom joke was him having a wife and 3 kids. But I just felt like it was a boyfriend. And then as soon as he posted the next day, I sent her the photos with giant exclamation marks everywhere. I felt very vindicated. 😂

So yes. I think RM has a long term, very committed, boyfriend. And YES, I think it's the same man in all these photos. Just basing it off hairstyles and face shape. I very much so could be wrong. But I do think so. And look, Namjoon goes out Namjooning often. He always says he goes alone. But then... WHO TAKES ALL HIS PHOTOS FOR HIM? I think it's mystery guy this whole time.

It's the 2 cups, one plate and giant camera for me....

It's the sharing the same shirt for me...

Who wrote on that with you RM?! That's different handwriting. And yall tied it to the wire together with all the others? I'm soft. It's romantic, don't tell me otherwise!

How many Namjooning adventures does he join you on??

Can we just? This is so cute!!

Spotted by a fan, RM with friends on a boat ride. Sitting next to someone. Taking pictures together.... this was from the same day he posted a photo of him going "Namjooning" and made it sound like he was adventuring alone.

And also, he NEVER mentions him. The other members have talked about their non famous friends. They don't show faces, names or give details. But they tell us they saw a friend or went out with a friend or did xyz with a friend. Namjoon makes us think he is alone until he isn't. Or he just covers the guys face and tells us NOTHING. If he is just a friend RM, why not tell us he is your friend??

Who took these photos for you? Because someone had to and he posted them like he was just out adventuring, mentioning no one

LOOK AT THE SMILE. The went viral Namjoon as your boyfriend photo. It's the SAME happy content smile he has in the photos with this guy. Please! Just happiness

And yes. I don't think it was a slip of the of the tongue. It very much so stood out to me in that interview. They got asked if they had girlfriends. And RM answered, "no. We don't have boyfriends or girlfriends." It always struck me that he answered Boyfriends FIRST and very prominently. Just saying....

Okay!! I'm sorrry! I'm being insane. I know. We have ZERO proof. Lol but it really... just fits?? Yall are welcome to form your own conclusions! But I'm convinced 🙈😂 if he is just a friend or more, I don't really care. As long as he is happy!

[thesummerfox]

On “Creators Supporting Creators”, and why this can go straight to hell

Another daily dose of guilt trip made its way onto my dash as I’m once again forcibly reminded that “creators need to support each other!” and “fandom creators need to stick together!” in posts that outline rather strictly what exactly constitutes as support. I cannot count the amount of posts I have seen that worry about fandom engagement being down, the likes/reblogs-ratio being utterly skewed in favor of the former instead of the latter, and what exactly constitutes as the care for and validation of your friendly neighborhood creator.

And, let me tell you, I’ve had it up to here with all of it.

The tag “creators supporting creators” is a security blanket. It’s a band-aid for the fortunate and less fortunate alike. It’s a measuring tool through which creators can engage in an interaction that is more of a “scratch my back and I’ll scratch yours”-debacle than anything else. It’s a way of amassing clout the way most social media functions these days, of gaining followers/subscribers, of feeling like somehow you’ve ‘arrived’ and will one day be a Big Name in fandom.

My friends, the tag “creators supporting creators” is one hell of drug that’ll lie to you and muddle the waters until you drown in them.

Supporting a creator does not mean spreading everything they put out there. Supporting a creator does not mean you need to be visibly positive about everything they put out there. Supporting a creator does not mean you need to reblog ten of their creations in order for your work to receive any attention from them in turn.

Truth is this: blanket support hollows the praise. How can a creator trust you actually love their creation when you next throw that exact same love at a creation that suffers from a number of visible issues, such as bad story formatting or a very pixelated quality? How can a creator believe that you like the way they portray a character when you next turn around and heap praise on a creation that portrays the same character in a way that is diametrically opposite to the first? How can a creator feel good about the praise you heap upon them when that praise is interchangeable with the praise you heap upon everyone else? How can a creator feel like their own work has inspired you when you next request the exact same work from five other creators?

It’s empty. It’s just noise. It does not sustain or nourish creativity, nor does it inspire or push a creator to try new things. It’s a void that grows with every interaction. It smothers growth on the creator’s part, but also limits your own growth as a reader/viewer. It does not invite in-depth looks at the media you both enjoy, nor does it provide any real sustenance that challenges you or makes you perceive things differently than before.

Our creations matter to us. We put a lot of work into them. We want to keep creating, but a huge part of creative flow is born of actual meaningful interactions with the rest of fandom. Supporting a creator can be as simple as offering feedback (“I really like this idea and love what you’re doing with xyz, but could you please add a readmore or adjust the paragraphs for easier reading?”), offering a sounding board (“I’m vibing with xyz idea so if you wanna talk about it please feel free…”), and offering a get-out-of-jail-free card (“please don’t feel obligated to update this week or fill this request/prompt if you don’t feel like it”). It can mean seeing a creator ask for a beta, a sensitivity reader, or someone they can bounce an idea with, and dropping into their private messages to talk about that sort of thing. It can mean sitting with them as they scream about not getting a scene right, or sharing a cool tutorial or resource with them that you know they can make great use of, and so on...

Support of a creator’s content cannot always be quantified under things such as a like/reblog-ratio or other forms of measurable fandom engagement. A creator is more than the sum of their content and does not always need to put out new material to have a place in their fandom. A creator’s relevance does not hinge on how much they produce, nor does it center around the popularity of their work.

If you really want to show creators your support, stop acting like a consumer. Support them as a human being who’s doing the best they can and would often like to learn how to do even more. You’d be surprised about what shakes loose if you do!

[qweenexplosionmurder13]

'Ey, Willow? What'd you think our boys would think/do if we were getting uncomfy around an ex who was trying to get us back? 👀 Bakugo going feral? Kirishima being amazingly hot being protective? Shoto? Midoriya? Like 😫

Honestly, I've had a scenario in my head forever about one of my exes meeting Kiribaku.

So my first ex fucked me up pretty bad for a long time. We remained friends because honestly I think I just trauma bonded to him after everything we went through together on my exchange (he's Czech I'm American so there were also culture misunderstandings)

I feel like we'd meet up with him if Katsuki and Eijiro came with me to visit Czech because it's absolutely beautiful and I love visiting when I can.

Both boys would have very different reactions to this situation.

Katsuki is incredibly annoyed that I'm still even letting him in my life after the awful shit he'd say and do:

"your personality is a 6 but your body is a 10 sooo."

"I mean, if you pissed me off enough I'd probably cheat on you."

"Well, I've done "xyz" so maybe you should actually return the favor instead of being lazy" (sexual stuff always felt like an IOU)

Not to mention the body shaming, shaming me for not being sexually experienced or ready enough. All the time he pushed me away and isolated me when I needed him. Katsuki remembers holding me after watching the All Too Well short film together when I told him the fight scene was just like my relationship with my ex.

"He dropped my hand all the time, and hated when I would try to hug and kiss him in public... Like he was embarrassed of me."

To say Katsuki hates this mf would be an understatement. He's seething when we get off the plane to meet him after customs. It's not jealousy he feels when I run up and give my ex a hug, it's pure disgust.

Eijiro takes a more diplomatic approach having had his fair share of shitty friends and exes. He understands the complexity of interpersonal relationships and tries to give my ex a chance.

He's a gentleman, but he keeps an ear out for anything and I mean ANYTHING that would be hurtful coming from my ex. He doesn't like him, but he's happy to try to be polite and give me time with an old friend.

The tide shifts when we're in a pub drinking some beer together while ex and I are reminiscing on old times. Katsuki's chugging beer after beer because the sound of my ex's voice makes him wanna strangle him. Eijiro keeps a grip on Kat's waist as we chat.

"You know, I wish you'd been into this when we were together."

"What?" I'd laugh, feeling the affects of the beer.

"I mean, you told me you didn't wanna have a threesome, but here you are with these two. Maybe it would have worked out if you'd been less uptight."

I'd fall silent as I look over at Eijiro and Katsuki.

"She was 17," Katsuki finally speaks up, "Did you know what you wanted at 17?"

"Uh, yeah?" My ex would laugh, "I mean, come on, I'm sure you've asked her to get another girl involved."

"We haven't," Eijiro interjects, holding Kat by the chest before he jumps across the table, "We're happy with just the three of us and we don't see Willow's sexuality as a thing for us to use for whatever fantasy you think we have in our heads."

"You also made my sexuality into a joke," I comment side eyeing my ex.

"What are you talking about? No I didn't."

"You literally told your brother that you "turned" a lesbian. Do you know how biphobic and lesbiphobic that is?"

"Come on, you know that was funny-"

"Well she's not laughing is she?" Katsuki chimes in again, "so why don't you lay off. It's no wonder she never felt safe with you. She was young and in a whole new country just trying to get by and you treated her like some sort of sex object-"

"Unsafe? What the fuck are you talking about?"

Eijiro chimes in, patting Kat harshly on the back, "Look man, what my partner is trying to say is she was very young and the environment she was in didn't exactly feel safe for explorations like that."

My ex would lean back in his chair and look at me, "What did I do to make you feel 'unsafe' exactly?"

"Do you really wanna do this right now?" I ask, starting to get more annoyed.

"I'm just trying to understand how me, being there for you and listening to you constantly being in crisis-"

"Because I quite literally was. You only gave me affection when sex was on the table. If not you weren't interested so I forced myself to try and you just never cared."

I would start getting emotional at this point, all the feelings from that time coming back.

"You make it sound like I raped you," my ex would roll his eyes while Katsuki balls his fists, "You said yes to everything we did and I always told you know when you were drinking. What else do you expect me to say?"

"Is not that simple! And I don't except anything, I just don't wanna talk about this. I wanted a nice night but you had to bring that up."

"I was making a joke about-"

My ex and I would go back and forth fighting for a while while Eijiro and Katsuki watched. They'd never seen me so frustrated as I tried to explain something while continuing to get gaslit and manipulated, but one sentence would finally make Katsuki snap.

"You just have to play the victim don't you? You're just arguing about this because your boyfriends are here and they need to think you're a damsel in distress for them to save-"

Katsuki would lose his cool, grabbing my ex by the back of the neck to go outside. Eijiro and I would chase after him, but by the time we'd get outside, Kat tossed my ex out the door and was stomping out to scream.

"You- are the most insufferable," blasts could be heard from his palms as he descended upon the man laying on the ground, "manipulative, gaslighting little rat faced bastard I've ever fucking met!!"

"Bakubro, wait!"

"Look blasty-mc-splode, it's not my fault I got to her first. I know you're just jealous."

"JEALOUS?!" Katsuki would yell, Eijiro trying to hold him back, "Who would be jealous of an insecure, insufferable little bitch like you?"

"Katsuki that's enough," Eijiro would try to calm him down.

"No, I'm sick and tired of you thinking you can just get away with how you treated her! She trusted you! After everything she went through, all she wanted was to feel loved. To feel like someone cared and BELIEVED her. You know what happened, you saw the signs of trauma. You're literally studying to be a fucking Neuro psychologist and yet you did NOTHING but gaslight her and withhold affection unless it was the kind YOU wanted! Then you turn it around like she was the problem?!"

"Katsuki," I'd call to him from the side lines.

"It's not like you've even gotten laid since you two broke up. Who are you to say what she should have been?"

After getting that last jab in, he would finally pause for a moment when I walk up to him.

"Katsuki, it's okay," I'd whisper hand on his cheek, "let's just go."

He looks down at me, eyes softening as he'd pull me into a kiss, purposely holding me extra tight in front of my ex.

When I'd pull away and whisper to Eijiro to get the bill I'd turn to my ex.

"Thanks for calling off your attack dogs I guess-"

I'd land a punch square to his nose making him cry out.

"Insult my husbands like that ever again and you'll get a lot worse than that."

"What the-"

"Every bit of what Kat said was true. I needed a partner. Someone who listened and truly cared... Not just someone who wanted me for my body."

"That's not-"

"That's. how. I. felt... And my feelings that you hate so much are what makes me a compassionate and intuitive hero."

My ex would pause for a long time, just looking at me.

"You've changed... So much-"

"Yeah. Maybe you should have too," I'd say before hearing katsuki calling for me, "here," I'd hand him the month to pay for all the food and drinks and then some, "Now we're even."

I'd walk away feelings sad, but also finally like I'd gotten closure.

Eijiro would go back to talk to my ex for a moment to collect our things from the pub.

"I wanted to give you a chance y'know, but you really hurt her... I hope you learn something from this because otherwise you're just gonna be alone for the rest of your life."

The biggest mic drop of all.

They'd both be so loving and caring after that too. Making sure I'm okay, taking me out for ice cream and more sight seeing. It would be such a good time.

Shoto and Deku would be very similar in that Sho would HATE him and Deku would try to be nice.

But yeah, not my best writing but I think you get the picture. My boys would defend me in their own way💜🧡❤️

NSFW Reaction:

Also me when Kat is yelling at my ex:

He's getting his dick sucked when we get back to the Airbnb. Eijiro too😩

[phoneybeatlemania]

hey bestie! if you're still doing the beatles asks: 6, 7, 8, and 11 (sorry if that's a lot lol)

I am still answering asks! I didn’t get many cause Im kind of irrelevant atm since I haven’t made much effort to be an actual part of the fandom since about November. But yeah, idk—if you want my take on things NOW IS THE TIME TO ASK since its Easter holidays and after this its going to be only revision until June and I will, once again, be back to Irrelevance :(

Re: Fun Beatles Asks

btw its 12:30am now so idk if my writing makes sense here, but ill edit tomorrow lol.

6. Share a spicy take.

Hmmmm….musically, Help! as an album is pretty meh. For a lot of people I think it marks the beginning of their descent into the Post-Rubber Soul period, and they Get The Hype. But idk man—I think theres plenty of bops, plenty of bangers, but all-in-all I cant really think of any tracks that Really Do It For Me, y’know?

[That really wasn’t that spicy, but when Im put on the spot and try to think of SPICY TAKES, my brain can only think of pretty lame ones that we all probably agree with tbh]

Also, I don’t wanna be annoying here, but as a fandom I don’t feel like we make much effort to point out that John and Mays relationship fundamentally was Fucked. Ill refrain from saying “we don’t talk about [XYZ] enough!!!” cause ik that’s annoying—but idk man, it took awhile for it to really occur to me that Actually No sleeping with your assistant is……not okay :/ Im not saying we have to #CancelJohnLennon for it, or even that the entire relationship was a bad thing (because despite it being about as complicated as any of Johns relationships, there clearly were a lot of positives within their relationship; and also, I wouldn’t want to wholly-vilify John whilst wholly-victimising May, because that would be reductive too, and May Pang obviously doesn't want that), I just feel like we should acknowledge it a little more, y’know? Just keep it in mind.

7. What is a Beatles-discourse topic that needs to die?

Im not sure if Im going to explain this particularly well, and I guess its not even really a “discourse topic”, its more-so just a facet to discourse—but I really think that responding to something with an [irrelevant] comparison needs to die. So like, if were critiquing John for something, then I *hate* seeing someone respond with “Okay but why don’t we talk about [insert something annoying about Paul]” (and vice-versa; it’s not just John fans who do this but Paul fans too ofc). Another example would be if we’re talking about Mimi, then bringing up Jim probably isn’t relevant. Its just an evasive technique, and I really don’t see what purpose it serves. They’re all separate people, so just judge and analyse them separately. If we don’t talk about XYZ enough then just………..go start the conversation, but do it in your own post. 

[Having said this, I recognise that on occasion good comparisons can be made to highlight double-standards or hypocrisy etc. But I just think 99.9% of the time people utilise comparative arguments to detract from an actual point, rather than making an effort to actually address it, and its just really…..boring and unnecessary.]

8. What do you think makes the Beatles fandom uniquely fun? 

I love this question!! :)

I feel like the Beatles fandom can be such a perfect combination of artistic appreciation, pop-culture analysis and psychoanalysis! When I talk to people irl, I always tell them that the Beatles are best heard in context, because theres just something so sad but beautiful about seeing their artistic progressions corresponding to their relationships. Like the whole stories there just within the songs, and idk man, I just think that’s beautiful. 

11. What is your favourite aspect of their artistry outside the songs themselves?

Im honestly *obsessed* with their fashion! Ive been trying to find some vintage 60’s clothes to resemble theirs (especially Georges and Glyn Johns in GB) because they’re just SO fun and original and I Love Them :))

[matsufucker]

Uhh, Sorry for the boring ask,so-- First Date with matsunos?

NON NON my sweet anon, the first request was a delight to answer, I had a lot of fun looking up playlists and seeing what would fit the matsubros! I apologize for being a lame square that is too shy to sing lol. I may or may not be trying to develop an Oso playlist as we speak. :3c

I got a bit carried away, these were supposed to be a list of headcanons but it’s a weird bullet list scenario.

I also gave all of the matsus their own phone, I don’t want to write six adults sharing one cell phone or a landline. Q Q

Osomatsu: spur of the moment and casual.

Osomatsu liked to ask you to hang out occasionally, they were mostly casual. Sharing a meal, exploring the town, watching him lose money gambling, maybe try your hand at pachinko, pretty normal things. So it wasn’t unexpected when he shot you a message to hang out in the evening.

“hey i won at the races! do u wanna eat at chibitas? ill pay for my own food” How charming.

After some light drinking (he could only afford two beers), the two of you were walking a bit before parting ways.

You walked by a small movie theater. It had faded out posters of old movies, it was probably family run or a small local theater. Osomatsu stopped and pointed at the Jackass poster.

“Oi, Y/N!! I saw some clips of this, it looks hilarious! We should watch it!”

You declined, it was getting late and you had to go to work early tomorrow. But you offered to watch a movie (Jackass or some other movie that they’re showing!) after your shift. Osomatsu’s eyes lit up.

“Yeah! Just let me know when you’re off! It’s a date!”

You had to try to not laugh. Of course Osomatsu would want to watch Jackass as a date, the least romantic movie ever. He smiled his classic grin as he watched you try to contain your laughter. “What? I’m serious!” he pouts.

You were surprised when Osomatsu showed up to the movie dressed differently. Instead wearing one of his well-worn hoodies and loose jeans, he was wearing an unbuttoned maroon shirt over a plain white tee with black jeans. He really was serious about this being a date, huh?

“I haven’t seen this outfit before!” you tease, causing Osomatsu to “eheh” sheepishly and rub his nose. He’ll reply with “I wanted to look nice for our first date!”

He’ll?? Actually pay for both of your tickets? No snacks though.

He won’t shut up during the previews! He babbles and comments on everything, good thing that it wasn’t busy and that the only other people there shushed him gently. He’ll whisper commentary throughout the movie unless you tell him to shut up.

Will 100% bump his hand against yours and side eye you with a big grin. His hand fumbles a bit before properly lacing his fingers with yours and giving an experimental squeeze. His hands are warm and softer than you expected. The backs of his hands are a bit dry, but otherwise the only notable thing is the slight clamminess of his palms. If you look at his face, his eyes are glued to the sight of you holding his hand and his smile looks like it could split his face in half.

If you lean your head against his shoulder, he’ll freeze up and accidentally grip your hand too hard. If you interpret this as a bad reaction, he’ll hurriedly say “nonono” and place your head back against him and tell you that it was really nice.

Surprisingly keeps his hands mostly to himself, the most he’ll go is wrapping a hand around your shoulder and giving rubs that are a bit too friendly.

You two walk out of the movie with Osomatsu’s arm draped around your shoulder and wanting to just touch you, you have to remind him that walking on top of you and feeling you up is not practical, especially in public. He’ll pout and say that “but you smell so nice!! And you feel so comfy!!” but he’ll relax and be content to walk hand in hand.

The two of you stop by a cheap place to grab some ice cream (if you pay) and talk about the movie and future plans? :3c

Karamatsu: dramatic king.

“Are you free tonight, starlight? ✨ Meet me at the bridge at sunset.” You smiled at the message, you were already used to his cheesy terms of endearment, and they actually made your heart thump a bit if they weren’t too ridiculous. You reply yes, appreciating that he remembered that you had a few days off work. He was always thoughtful and asked you when your free days were.

You go to the bridge a bit early, the sun was still over the horizon and bleeding gorgeous shades of orange and rose into the sky. You notice Karamatsu wearing his classic leather jacket and jeans pacing around. He was muttering to himself, waving grand gestures, and shaking his head nervously. You call his name and catch his attention. He squacks a high note before clearing his throat and turning dramatically towards you.

“Ah, so you’ve arrived, my turtledove!” he flicks a finger through his hair and smirks. Mostly unphased by his theatrics, you waved and greeted him, apologizing for startling him. 

He whips out a bouquet of red roses and kneels at your feet. People are stopping and staring. You sweat a bit, feeling everyone’s eyes burn into you.

“Karamatsu,” you whisper, “what’s happening?” You tried to sound gentle, you could tell that he went through a lot of effort, but feeling onlookers watch you was making your skin crawl.

“Y/N, my muse, the fire within my heart, I was wondering if you would join me on a da-“ He stops midflourish, noticing your uncomfortable glances at the people, before realizing that he was making a huge scene. He quickly stands up to bashfully escort you to a less crowded bench. He’s fidgeting and focused on the bouquet, are his eyes watering? Oh no.

He’s trying to hold back tears at putting you in an uncomfortable situation and it takes a bit of backrubbing and “it’s okay” before he calms down. He hides his red rimmed eyes under sunglasses. You gently ask why he asked you to come here.

Karamatsu “hmphs!” weakly flourishes the roses once more. “I wanted to see if this lovely deity would join me for a moonlit picnic by the river!” His words carry far more conviction than the roses, they were trembling softly in his grasp. You accept the roses, they’re gorgeous and look freshly picked. Either Karamatsu paid a pretty penny for these or some poor gardener is missing a dozen roses.

He leads you to a quiet spot under a tree where a picnic basket awaits. He smiles and holds his hand out for you to hold. His grip trembles a bit before gripping your hand securely. He makes sure to check if the blanket is clean before guiding you to sit down.

There are containers of star-shaped rice balls, tamagoyaki, kaarage, and strawberries in the basket, along with store bought bottles of tea. You’re amazed at the whole spread, as far as you know, Karamatsu is a mediocre cook. The rolled eggs looked a bit misshapen and some corners of the chicken were nearing burnt, but it all looked wonderful. You ask if he went through the trouble of making all of this.

“Heh, of course, I would do anything to make my Karamatsu darling smile,” you can’t help but giggle softly at his horrid lines. Your sweet laugh only seems to egg him on, for his eyes glimmer and the corners of his lips rise even higher. “Of course, to achieve this, I couldn’t have done it without a bit of assistance from my dearest mother,” he admits, rubbing the back of his neck. You can already envision Karamatsu

It’s wonderful. The sky is clear, so you get a full view of the twinkling stars and the soft glow of the moon. Karamatsu asks you about your day and you two get lost in conversation.

As conversation slows, he’ll wistfully look at the stars and say another one of his dumb rehearsed lines. “The stars are beautiful tonight… but they are just grains of sand next to you.” He’ll then get a bit bashful and say that he really enjoyed tonight and was wondering if you’d like to hang out some other time?

Choromatsu: a coffee date! But oh dear he’s a fish out of water.

He briefly considers buying two tickets to a concert, but quickly dismisses it because he too embarrassed to show you how passionate he gets over idols.

He really wants to ask you in person but he would actually break trying to get the words out so he texts you a simple “Do you want to grab a coffee at XYZ café?”

You arrive at the café and spot Choromatsu sitting at a table, flipping through a book. He’s wearing a white button up, a brown sweater, and olive trousers. When you greet him, he practically jumps out of his chair.

“H-Hello!” he squeaks, bowing his head abruptly. He looks shyly at you and breathlessly mumbles “You look nice…” He freezes up and backpedals severely, sputtering “Ni-nice, nice… this is a nice café! Have you tried their, ah, americano?” His face is stretched into a tense smile.

“Thank you! You look nice too, I haven’t seen you wear this sweater before, it suits you well!” you return the compliment and Choromatsu turns cherry red. He turns away to look at his sweater and thanks you quietly.

The two of you go to order drinks, Choromatsu buys a black americano and is kind enough to buy your drink as well.

When you settle down at a table with your drinks, you notice that Choro’s nerves have calmed down a lot, he’s no longer stuttering every word and is fidgeting a lot less.

“So, what were you reading before I got here?” you ask, recalling that it was a pretty thick novel. He perks up at your question and pulls his messenger bag out to retrieve said book.

“Ah, you see, I was reading a book about managing businesses! I’ve been looking into business management and thought that readin-“ A familiar manga tumbles onto the table and it’s swiped away quickly.

“Oh,” you interrupt him before he can start spewing out an apology or excuse, “do you like that series?” Choromatsu pauses and looks at you with an incredulous look before nodding. “Really? That’s one of my favorite mangas!” you cheer, and you can practically see his prim illusion melt before your eyes.

“Really?” he asks, and you notice a slight spark in his eyes. Bingo. You nod, eager to get to see his nerdy side. He always tried so hard to look like a proper adult, and it was a shame that he was stifling his interests. You decide to try to stoke that spark and lean in closer. “Yeah, I read it a few months ago, I didn’t think that you’d be into it! How far have you gotten, do you like it?”

He has the cutest glow in his eyes as he chatters about the series and you’re thankful for the manga slipping out of his bag, it served as a wonderful social lubricant. By the time your cup was empty, you had gotten to learn more about Choromatsu. He seemed embarrassed by his interests, but every time you reassured him that it’s fine to have passions his body relaxed a bit more. He took the time to attentively ask you questions too and overall you felt really good about this little date.

“Would you like to walk around a bit? I think there’s a bookstore nearby.” Choromatsu tentatively suggested, swirling the last dredges of his coffee around in his cup. You agree, so the two of you walked a block to the store.

His hand would occasionally sway by yours, but he would honestly be too timid to hold your hand on the first date. If you try to hold his hand, he’ll probably flinch and be rigid for a second, before relaxing.

He buys you a small piece of merch related to the manga you bonded over and the two of you part after confirming that it was a fun date!

As you leave, you hear Choromatsu hop from foot to foot and cheer to himself!

Ichimatsu: unofficial date

Hanging out with Ichimatsu was a bit uncommon. If you asked him what he was up to, he would tell you where he was in town. It took a while before you picked up that these were soft invites to join him.

One time you joined him at the park. He was sitting on the swings and lazily turned his head to watch you as you approached him.

“Sorry, I already fed the cats,” he mumbled, standing up. He smoothed out a few wrinkles on his DAT sweater. “You didn’t have anything better to do today?”

“I like hanging out with you.” Your simple reply made Ichimatsu stuff his hands into his pockets and start walking. You follow along, taking note of how cute his ears looked red.

He pauses by a cat café and you see his glimmering eyes linger on the cats snoozing by the window. He crouches and waves his hand near a fat grey cat.

“Do you want to check it out?” you ask, and Ichimatsu shakes his head slowly. “I didn’t bring money.” he murmurs, smiling as the cat’s eyes started to follow his hand.

“I can spot you!” you offer, making Ichimatsu freeze in thought. “I’d like to relax with some cats with you.” you add, hoping that’ll make Ichimatsu feel less bad about having you pay for him. He stands up and stares at your shoes.

“Sure, if you want to…” he mumbles, nervously putting his hands into his pockets again. “Thanks.”

The entrance fee of 900 yen included a drink, Ichimatsu chose to get a juice.

You settled down by a table near a cat tower and after setting his juice on the table, he sat on the floor to offer a hand to a cat.

It doesn’t take long before a calico cat is happily purring on his lap. Ichimatsu looks like he might start purring anytime soon, with how relaxed he looked scratching the cat’s ear. You don’t have as much luck as Ichimatsu with cat taming, but a fat orange cat settles next to you on the booth. It looks at you expectantly and you give it a few scritches on its cheeks.

You sip your drink and “mm!” out of surprise. Wow, it tasted really good! You notice that Ichimatsu’s drink was untouched and stand up to give it to him so he wouldn’t have to disturb the sweet calico. He thanks you and sips his orange colored juice as you take a seat on the floor with him. His sleepy eyes widen slightly and he nods approvingly.

“Did you want to try my drink?” you tilt your cup towards him and he nearly drops his juice. You weren’t expecting a reaction like that and tried to verbally backpedal “Oh, you don’t have to, you know, with germs and all-”

He grabs your wrist and tugs the drink down until the straw met his lips. He took a strained sip, he honestly looked a bit constipated for how scrunched and pink his face was for sipping a drink.

“It’s good,” he exhales. He realizes his grip on your wrist and lets go immediately, before holding out his juice. “Did you want to try? You bought it and all.” You nod and have to resist grinning at how adorable Ichimatsu looked right now, his eyes were burning holes through the ground and his cheeks were dusted pink. It looked like he was trying his best to scowl but the corners of his lips gave away the hint of a smile.

You decide to mimic Ichimatsu and gently grab his wrist to pull his cup towards you. Bright, sweet notes of mango and peach grace your mouth and, wow, he picked a good drink. You let go of his wrist and his hand stays frozen there before he brings his cup back to drink his juice again.

Cats swarm Ichimatsu and he manages to enrapture all of them effortlessly. Cats are piled at his feet and purring. They seem oblivious that you even exist and you pout a bit at being ignored. Ichimatsu notices your slight pout and he offers a hand to you without thinking. When you place your hand into his dry palms, he only then seems to realize what he just did with a tense look on his face.

He soldiers on and places his hand on the back of yours, guiding you to pet the same grey cat you encountered at the display window.

You spend a few hours just enjoying the cats and Ichimatsu’s company. When your legs start to get pins and needles from sitting on the floor too long, you notice that the café is starting to get a bit busy so the both of you decide to leave.

You notice that Ichimatsu is walking a bit closer to you than usual. His hands are stuffed in his pockets like usual, but his shoulder brushes against yours every few steps.

It’s never clarified that this was a date but Ichimatsu parts ways with a “see you later” and a soft smile.

Jyushimatsu: a fun hangout that becomes a date!

You and Jyushimatsu were walking home after a long day of fun. It was impossible to have a dull moment with him around, today consisted of various activities at the park. Volleyball, pitching baseballs, going on a small hike, Jyushimatsu finding a five leaf clover, getting chased by geese, Jyushimatsu was quick on his feet and scooped you away from the vicious birds.

You waved at Jyushimatsu as you reached where you had to part. He smiled his classic big smile and waved enthusiastically with both hands before leaving.

Not even 10 seconds later you hear him yell “Y/N!” and his sneakers slapping against the pavement. He’s slightly out of breath as he holds a flier out in front of you.

It was an advertisement for a travelling carnival that was visiting town this weekend! Jyushimatsu bounces excitedly and asks if you wanted to check it out, it wasn’t everyday that a carnival showed up! Luckily you were free so you agree to meet him at the carnival in the afternoon on Saturday.

It’s hard to miss him, you spot a bouncing ball of yellow near the entrance. Jyushimatsu’s wearing a simple outfit, an loose white shirt that’s roughly tucked into brown shorts with an oversized yellow plaid shirt. He’s rocking on the balls of his feet and when he spots you, he waves so hard you can almost hear his sleeves flapping.

“Come on, come on, let’s go!” Jyushimatsu cheers, already pointing out rides he wanted to go on. There was a rollercoaster, how does a moving carnival carry a whole rollercoaster? And a Ferris wheel? There was so much to check out!

The tickets are pretty cheap, but you notice a couple’s discount while waiting in line. When you two are next in line, Jyushimatsu suddenly stops talking and you see that he’s frozen in place. He still has his smile, but his eyes were frozen on the discount.

The employee’s tired “next in line, please,” snapped Jyushimatsu out of his trance and he jumped to the counter to buy two tickets. The teenage boy behind the register eyed you and Jyushimatsu before applying the discount.

Before you can thank him for paying, Jyushimatsu’s clothed hand pulled your hand along to join the line for bumpercarts.

After trying various rides, you decide to take a breather and just look around the various mini games and merchandise. A fat stuffed Pikachu catches your eye, and Jyushimatsu practically hurdles over the poor person managing the ring toss game to play a round.

He throws the rings way too hard but somehow three of the ten ricochet onto the bottles. He picks out a small prize and pouts that he wasn’t able to get you the Pikachu, but he got you a keychain of plush duck from Spirited Away!

The night settles over you and you decide to hit the Ferris wheel before calling it a night. Jyushimatsu bounces slightly in his seat, making the cabin shake slightly. He stops if you look nervous.

Curiosity gets the best of you and when the wheel is nearing the end of its rotation, you ask if this was a date. Jyushimatsu “ahs” in surprise and looks out the window.

“I don’t know,” he states, finally turning his head to look at you. His mouth was shut in a rare closed mouth smile, and he fiddles with the hem of his shirt.

You realize that the ride wasn’t over as it started to go for another rotation.

“I…” Jyushimatsu trails off, and his lips were pulled into a tense line. His eyes were steely as stared at his hands, gripping fistfuls of his sleeve. “Is it okay if this is a date? Do you want this to be a date?” He lifted his eyes up to meet yours, and there’s a glimmer of vulnerability in those sweet brown eyes. Your body reacts before words can leave your mouth, you feel your head shake up and down before a “yes” tumbles out. Jyushimatsu’s back straightens up like a spring and his face splits into one of his classic smiles.

“Really?” he cries, and when you reassure him he yells a “hurray” and dives into your arms. The cart rocks violently, causing you to almost fold over Jyushimatsu. You laugh as you untangle yourself from each other. He looked so pretty with his long eyelashes and contagious smile.

The two of you exit the carnival with Jyushimatsu leading the way, almost vibrating in joy as he swings your hand the entire walk back.

Todomatsu: a cute date, with a side of the youngest brother curse.

One day after a shift, you and a few of your coworkers decided to hit up a local hot pot spot! A few random people that knew your coworkers showed up, Todomatsu was among one of them. He sat across from you and introduced himself as Totty.

He seemed really sweet and socially thrived! But as the large group broke into a collection of smaller conversations, Totty seemed to take a special interest in you. He was super engaged in convo, asking questions about your interests. He apparently met your mutual acquaintance at his old job as a barista, and he was taking some time to himself before job hunting again.

After dinner, Todomatsu asks if you’d want to exchange contact? You agree, there didn’t seem to be any red flags with him! You shoot a few messages back and forth and it’s exciting getting to know a new person.

“hey, check out this cute café that opened recently!!” he messages a few days later, and after discussing a few details you finally have plans for a date.

He shows up to the date as you arrive, wearing a white shirt with thin navy stripes, a large blush sweater, and cropped brown pants. He asks if you were waiting long and is relieved when you said that you got here.

Todomatsu buys a strawberry milk tea boba and offers to buy yours. You settle down by a table by the window and he asks you how you’ve been the past few days.

As you start to talk, you notice his round attentive eyes start to drift to the window. His brows furrowed in confusion, and you stop talking.

“Totty? What’s up?” you ask, starting to turn your head to the window. You see nothing out of the usual, just a normal street with a few shops and pedestrians.

“Ah, it’s nothing! I just saw something in that store that looked really cute!” he titters, and you can’t help but notice a strain in his voice. Slightly confused, you smile and sip on your drink.

“Did you want to check it out?” you suggest, and Totty agrees very eagerly. It’s a cute trinket store, they have things like stationary, phone cases, plush animals, and jewelry.

You find a cute rabbit with a sweet smile and rosy cheeks that reminds you of Totty! You mention it to him and he giggles, cheeks turning a bit red. You continue to browse around for a bit until Totty taps you on the shoulder and gives you a small bag. Inside is a small phone charm that has the same rabbit you pointed out earlier. “So you can think of me whenever you see it!” he winks.

When you exit the store together, you hear Totty yelp. You turn to see him getting grabbed by five men that look like him. They’re frozen, with Todomatsu flailing in their grasp. They blink a few times before dropping Totty on the ground. They all smile and talk animatedly over each other, ignoring the person on the pavement.

“Uh, Totty,” you unsteadily start, unsure of how to handle this situation. How do you handle this, what the hell? You crouch a bit to help Todomatsu up, he looks like he wants the ground to swallow him up whole. “Do you know these people?”

“Ah, yes, these are…” he glances lifelessly behind him. “…my brothers.”

“His older brothers!” the one in red shouts, posing triumphantly. “We’re identical sextuplets!” he lilts offkey. You sympathetically look at Totty, his face is downcast and his eyes are shining.

“Oh, wow, sextuplets! I didn’t think I’d be meeting your family so soon,” you try to lighten the mood, and Todomatsu tries to smile but he still looks mortified. “Do you want to leave?” you whisper. His eyes practically scream yes.

You wrap your arm around Totty’s, which causes his brothers to gasp and glare at him?? The hell’s wrong wit them?

“It was nice to meet you guys, but we’re on a date!” you smile before heading off. You feel Todomatsu squeeze your arm closer to his body and whisper “thank you.”

You stop by the swings a park and Todomatsu guiltily confesses that he’s a sextuplet?

You reassure him that it’s fine, it’s interesting, but who cares? As long as his brothers being unexpected guests isn’t a normal thing, it wasn’t too relevant. He seems relieved and apologizes, this won’t happen again.

You end up just talking, swaying on the swingset. He seems more genuine now, almost like revealing his family life was a huge weight off his shoulders.

He apologizes again for his brothers and offers to make it up to you next time!