#me forgetting their plan kinda
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Text
halcyon | 18+
Romano feels like he’s dancing in his sleep, that shifting, swaying motion like waves across the beach and toes dragging through sand, like water and rhythm pulling his chest high, his shoulders low, stretching out his hips, his knees, his ankles. The soft cotton of his pillowcase scratches and tickles at his cheekbone when he turns his head into it, wisping itself against his clavicle, and he sighs against it, lets it swallow his breath the same way it swallows the heat of his body, an echo of warmed contentment and easy dreaming.
The mattress beneath him dips, and he almost pushes away the palm that slides across his stomach, his sternum, but it’s warm, too, and Romano always liked being warm, and he liked being warm beneath this hand even more. He leans into it, instead, keeps his eyes closed, and he makes a small noise that’s half deliberate and half desultory—because he does mean to acknowledge Spain, but he doesn’t mean to acknowledge him like a cat waking from a nap in lazy, dozy sunbeams, purring.
But that’s fine. That’s fine. He knows Romano sometimes sounds like that when he’s waking, and even not, just sometimes when he’s beneath the pads of Spain’s fingers, and Romano feels fine when the mattress dips again and Spain hovers over him, knees sweetly nudging his apart.
Romano keeps his eyes closed when lips skim his jaw, keeps himself ensconced in the soft sunlight that shines itself across his eyelids. It’s good like this, he thinks. It’s nice. He can hear himself breathe with an awareness he never really has when he’s around Spain, always too preoccupied with other things, irrelevant things—what he’s doing, what he’s not, what he could be doing to Spain, instead. He likes being conscious of it, of his body and his reactions, and he sighs again when that palm moves to his side, his rib cage and lower, fingers skimming over his thigh as they drag heated sheets down, away.
There’s a laugh twinkling in his ear, something bright and charmed, and his skin pricks with cognizance when he feels the breath of it, lips curving into a smile against his cheek. “Awake yet?”
Spain speaks his vowels in a whisper, his consonants always catching on the tip of his tongue, and Romano’s shoulder shifts back in a shiver, presses into the bed when soft breeze meets skin, humid and carrying the smell of midmorning sunrise.
He makes a noise again, some groaned mhm that rumbles itself up his chest and out his throat, that gets lost somewhere around his lips when the heat of Spain’s laughter leaves his cheek and instead drifts across his nipple—and the gasp that leaves him is a surprised one.
He feels stupid like this, naïve, foolish, as if he isn’t war- and weather-worn, born and raised in the echoing, thundered footsteps of the Roman Empire, older than the New World and older still, as if his own sand dunes aren’t his brothers, the rolling fields his sisters. But this is his life now: homes across his country and Spain’s, furnished with soft beds and yellow kitchens and flowing curtains that always let the light in, because neither of them ever really do well when away from the sun, too used to its bite to go without for longer than a day, two. He wakes, now, to sheets that settle across the curves of his body, to someone in his bed, wiggling his legs until they settle around tanned hips, to sea-chapped lips that hum the song of his name until he is something melodious, made of more than sinew and sand, of memory.
Spain whispers his name, a question carried softly through balmy air and that sounds so fucking in love Romano almost opens his eyes, almost gives into the needling whine of it—
But Spain always did his best work when given a task, and Romano knows Spain has no qualms about being set to work on Romano, no end to the things he would let Spain do to him, and though his mouth goes dry as Spain nips at his throat and presses a finger against him, he can only find the energy to laugh, just dry air, enough to breathe Spain in, too.
When Spain dips down and kisses him, Romano kicks the sheets up and over Spain’s back. They are still warm, and so is he.
#aph romano#hws romano#aph spain#hws spain#spamano#hetalia#hetalia fanfiction#mango minifics#listen i am by no means back yet. i have been traveling for so long and i am beyond dead on my feet#BUT!!!! i do have some little snippets and minifics i do plan on posting in the coming weeks while i turn my attention to#Other Adult Responsibilities™️ (grad school. i have grad school applications to do. and i Despise personal statements. and CVs.)#think of this as along the same veins as beneath the yellow tiles and red wine and honey. similar vibes. just not as...explicit#but still. 18+ just to be safe pls. bc i worry :(#hopefully this can be a little reminder that i am alive. and still here. kinda. pls dont forget about me :(((
30 notes
·
View notes
Text
" Wake up your fucking old man! " He shouts, loud enough to wake up the sleeping patriarch himself — but of course, not loud enough to alert anyone outside of the home, though stately as it is\ that might prove difficult. Despite his own protestations that he's not an intellectual, and likely the woman before him's complaints in the same vein, Luka isn't an idiot.
He knows what he's doing.
" And hurry! Before I'm down two bullets. " A shrug of his shoulder, and he reemphasizes the position of his gun, natural, in his hand now, a far cry from days where it felt like a prop in his hand, unnatural. Now it was like an extension of him, violence was, at least, even if he wanted to believe, deep down, it wasn't an intrinsic part of him. It wasn't like he sought to bring pain to others for pain's sake. Nevertheless: it was a symptom of the world he had found himself in, and when it truly came down to the nitty gritty morals of it all — if someone has to suffer, better anyone else than he.
At least this time, he was being paid as handsomely as one could.
continuation from here.
despite the rebuff, scarlett's determined to get the ending she deserves. after years of her father's neglect, and of his abuse, she's earned this. and she's owed her money's worth. an agatha christie - type ending to her new beginning. the plot twist of the century, the betrayal of a lifetime. she deserves to see the look in ray atkins' eyes as the truth is revealed, and she deserves to see his light go out with it.
action.
a director's cue, scarlett plays the role of damsel. stumbling back, she makes a point of landing with a thump. years of athletics, cheerleading and gymnastics, have prepared her for hard falls, still she feels a bruise coming along. another piece of evidence to later back up her story.
“ please, ” she pleads, moving away from her gun for hire, she presses up against the footboard of ray's bed. and through years of practice, scarlett's vision blurs, the salt of faux tears burning doe eyes. “ please, don't hurt me. ”
1 note
·
View note
Text
I wanted to make a post like this for a while, but since i was asked the question i can make it here!
i'm also speaking as an actual black person....so if you don't like these conversations where black people speak on black issues and how we feel, then just ignore this.
So in the past, yeah I agreed with this but my opinion has kinda changed with TF One.
However, I am still extremely uncomfortable seeing depictions of Black human formers Megatron because most of it, especially in ship art is extremely racist and relies on racist stereotypes of black men being abusive, violent, and problematic when his partners are drawn white or lightskinned (i see this all the time in megastar and megaop art. megatron is portrayed as the huge brutal black man and starscream/optimus are the small white twinks who are being beaten by him - it's gross and racist but for some reason it's common).
In general, I think it can be harmful to make a slave character, who inevtibly turns into a genocidal war lord and a generally awful person, a black person (even with his redemption arcs). it also racializes slavery, when we know that slavery doesn't have a race, and Megatron himself is a gladiator. Gladiators are slaves, and one of the most famous gladiators was from Thracia. This again is mostly a fan issue, because I at least have always seen Megatron coded as white in the comics and in the shows. In many depictions, he has a European accent, voiced by white European people (posh english lmao, or in ES Scottish).
That said, in TF One, I'm willing to let it slide. That's because Megatron isn't the only slave. Optimus, who is voiced by a white man, is also a slave, as is Elita, and Bumblebee. I think you know, not racializing slavery and having this notion that slave = black by default, is what makes it okay.
I still wouldn't feel super comfortable seeing Black megatron fanart because again, none of the depictions have been good in my opinion, as a Black person. And i mean none of them, and I do wonder where the thought in this fandom came from that making a person who canonically is violent and aggressive, was okay, just because he happened to be a slave. It is a far too common trope that I see in fanfic and fanfart, especially again...in a shipping sphere.
But I think TF One is able to balance it out, and since this is D-16, he is. a lot calmer, kinder, etc. I think things can get in muddy area when he eventually does turn into Megatron and he becomes the genocidal tyrant we all know and love....especially when you make the black one of the group the one who chooses violence whereas the white voices ones don't.
but who knows? My opinions are ever changing depending on how things are handled.
if you disagree with this, that's fine just do so respectfully and i mean at least be black
#megatron#transformers#transformers one#yeah humanformers megastar and megaop artist who draw megatron black need to get their tablets taken away - unless u plan to draw optimus#or star black but other than that y'all are NASTY- esp with how it's handled in megastar - CHILE#I ALSO kinda like that we're gonna see megatron turn evil#not that i mind the abundance of redemption arcs he gets#but i tend to think fans forget that he was a villain at a point#or at least#that's how i say it#i find that nowadays when i speak of megatron as being a villain#people look at me like i have two heads#i love good grandpa megatron#but i also like him being a villain#the woofbifiers got him#because peopel get mad mad when you say he is a villain#and tend to forget that he did all of this#which is why i LOVE in earthspark how thrash is able to be mad at him and he's valid in that#but aside from that - i want him to be a villain just straight up#but i also am going to love the kind personality we get from him in tf one
45 notes
·
View notes
Text
when the slowburn makes the ship extra cute~~~
#kimikawaii this week for sure!!!!!! (has been saying that since july)#ik the nghy payoff will be ✨sweet✨ but it’s kinda funny how hw are slowburning nagisa’s role in the series as a whole#mans has a grand total of 3 songs to date and only 1 has a cv ver#place your bets what do you think will come first? nghy duet or ariken duet#t h o u g h. ariken is also kind of a slowburn but we all knew they’d get together since ijiwaru release (shoutout to the og miku ver)#some say that ariken is still not canon in the novels to this very day#can’t believe we got arisa’s future career aspirations reveal before ariken canon in the novels smh#but i digress!!!!!!!!!!!! nagisa needs more action and attention!!!!!!#he did have kind of a ‘the bus came back’ moment with the izumo collab but we never saw his face again after that#(full cast merch doesnt count bc p. much everyone’s included in them except for the school nurse and kako)#so. all im saying is: slowburn nghy by all means. just dont slowburn nagisa’s character arc aaaaaaaaaaaaaaa#now that mona mania has cooled off (to a degree) and chizusweep has mellowed out (somewhat) it’s shiranami’s time to shine!!!!!!!!#y. yeah. ik it’s harder to market him bc he’s a literal average (albeit handsome) joe but that’s part of his charm!!!!!#i mean!!!!! he can cook!!!!! he stans ft4!!!!! he’s devoted to the girl he loves!!!!!! he’s a dreamboat!!!! what more could you ask for?#but. i do have to say that nghy developments have been kinda awkwardly handled as a whole… esp with heroine ikusei#i think nagisa should’ve been introduced in heroiku or something… since he was planned from the start of hiyori’s development…#maybe they were trying to pull a ‘2nd love wins’ kinda parallel with kthn? but the ascana retcon made everything awkward huh…#i think it could’ve worked out in the mv-verse. like if they’d placed heroika+sukiuso after the fight+make up in herotaru#so the timeline would go smoothly from heroiku -> herotaru -> heroika#with hiyo realising that she’d be better off focusing on work and track after the asuka debacle + chizu fight#like a ‘forget romance!!! i gotta work hard and run hard!!! omg wait nagisa wdym you love me???’ kinda thing#but the [redacted] anime p much cut + pasted the asuka arc with the nagisa visit and. hm.#is this just an excuse to blame the clumsy handling of the nghy arc on the [redacted] anime? m… maybe…?#but it all still could’ve kinda worked out if they’d shifted the timelines around a little. y’know. since sukiuso mv has nagisa visit in oct#idk i think having hiyo learn how to doll herself up from lxl for her first crush (asuka)#and then using what she learned to yassify herself to meet up with nagisa would’ve been neater?#like a ‘hey look nagisa :) i applied what i learned from my pals :)’ kinda thing#or maybe chizu and juri could’ve helped her with the nagisa dressup scene post-herotaru fight… but i digress!!!!!!#hmmmmmmmmmm… well. this has gone way off topic… anyways nghy canon and cute that’s all byeeee#the dude from gamushara
17 notes
·
View notes
Text
making a collection
making another collection with a threatening aura
#davy back fightbpart 3 letsgo#HOW do the three big guns get wasted on the eating contest... horrible plan.... luffy is fine bc well... but not sanji and zoro like damn.#luffy DOESNT WANNA EAT??? CALL THE NAVY!!!!#what was i saying.... bad idea putting the three beasts there#FRANKY FRANKY FRANKY!!!! they captured the two princesses :(#one sided beef squashed between luffy and foxy. friendship ended with random ex marine guy. now luffy is my best friend#usopp and franky bonding time hell yeah. throw usopp by the head once more pelase#nami with zoros swords just like holding them looks so cool like she should get a few swords too... nami three sword style oda drawing pls#i think this man underestimates nami and luffys power together he doesnt know about shiki#luffy saying he knows its a trap and sorry for being late.... lets go on an adventure all nine of us.... usopp yes anding his lie..... omg#cant believe nami isnt there yet. she could take this guy. oh there she is!!!!! she does look cool with the swords and jumping to get luffy#zoro screaming in agony from luffy getting shot omg THIS FUCKING GUY OF COURSE!!! this looks like its so over#zoro and sanji must feel so useless rn. they didnt even get the chance to fight like damn#komei-kakka??? more like come caca. boom#luffy face down dead on the floor akdjkaa chopper have you tried looking at the wound to see if it harmed him idk#it hit the face akdjskn usopp that was coom also#was robin flirting with the other guy and zoro caught her and she told hum to shut up???#'your friends got the best of me but you are still in my arms an-' 'HEAT EGG!! ALSO YOU'RE ON FIRE!'#flare maneauver that was so slay also luffy and nami in the same frame so twins of them. my children. birthed them one right after the othe#zoro and sanji fighting back to back. back to back to back to you i dont wanna fall right back to us maybe you should run right back to her#that is such a bop song. also post wano zosan. and post wci. see the recurrent theme#fighting in water.... being on top of the sword that was a slay... red hawk ace i will never forget you it seems#foxy liking his jolly roger omg nami fooled him ahdhsjs i think they should have pirate game event every year they yearn for contests#now since this experience foxy should make monthly multitudinary pirate games olympics hoping the strawhats join them a la gatsby#the faces at the mushroom akdhaksjs#talking tag#watching one piece#watching one piece movies#kinda loved how robin betted on franky against usopp.... i will take the crumbs
43 notes
·
View notes
Text
if we're being so for real, i was a goner on the winter soldier storyline in the mcu the second they cast sebastian stan as james "bucky" buchanan barnes because i was watching once upon a time season 1 episode 17 hat trick when it aired on march 25, 2012 and became deeply enamored with jefferson's tragic backstory, manic moments, fun little kidnapping habit, and deeply deeply sad eyes
#now you might be saying 'tea that episode came out after the first cap' and to THAT i say 'i didnt watch ca:tfa until after the avengers'#no i have not watched the falcon and the winter soldier and no i have no plans to <3#there is a reason 3/4 posts in my ouat tag are jefferson. he bewitched me body and soul#like HELLO when he reunited with paige? i feel ill. what the hell.#also him breaking into that psych ward to let out belle that was SOOOOOOOO fun#he made such a big impact on me for such a minor character i think back on his wonderland outfits so fondly#tea watches tv#tea watches movies#not pjo#chitter chatter#it's about having a type: unstable sad men with trauma who are kinda violent who are estranged from family and loved ones and also#memory problems are involved. paige baby i am going to be SICK#sorry that reunion scene is SO GOOD and like. its once upon a time. like. its ONCE UPON A TIME. literally what the fuck.#im going to end up on the news.#dear person in the comments of this scene collection youtube video that says#'jeffersons curse was to remember. buckys curse was to forget.' i will see you in the trenches.
10 notes
·
View notes
Text
I’m just realizing I forgot Callums freckles in the comic… this is a modern tragedy…
#orange posts#punching the WALL#how could I FORGET!!!!#his most beautiful trait… lost… how will I recover… /j#on a side note#I originally planned for Cal to be very southern/cowboy sounding#but after an astute observation from a friend#he’s more likely half ‘Deep South’ and half Scottish#an interesting mash up for sure!#kinda makes me want to draw dear old Grandpa and Grandma now 🤔
6 notes
·
View notes
Note
hiii tamelee what's your favourite anime? im gonna assume that it's naruto so if that's wrong lemme know but aside from naruto, what's your favorite anime? p.s. i loved your recent sasuke art so pretty <3
yaaay thankyou! 🥰 Naruto, the Anime is both my favorite and least favorite 😌 I think Death Note is still on top when it comes to genius storytelling tbh. *chefs kiss* Anime sorta ruined the second part though. Not sure if I can pick an all-time favorite and many I haven't finished yet. I do really enjoy JJK, MHA, SNK, KNY, Vinland Saga (OST's!!!), Blue Lock and Haikyuu all for very different reasons. See, I'm not that adventurous here >< (imo things become mainstream for a reason though... 🤷🏻♀️) Bleach is definitely an honorable mention, I just stopped watching at some point, but I'd like to pick it up again sometime. They do have the best character designs- just brilliant! Tokyo Revengers I LOVE, but that's not because of the story. It's more in an I-accept-your-flaws-endearingly-kinda way, because I relate to it a lot for some reason and there are some great characters. Chainsaw Man is awesome in many ways, especially the animation holy shit, but the story... doesn't really grab me (yet?). Assassination Classroom had some really good moments, the concept is interesting- great ending too. Death Parade is very enjoyable and definitely one I'd recommend. I remember Tower of God had some great moments ^^!
#asktamelee#anime talk#I'm forgetting something....#no yeah#definitely forgetting something#also I'm watching solo leveling right now#.....hm#is anyone watching it too?#what do you think about it?#I had a violent reaction after the 1st 2 episodes#and not in a good way#also not in an 'im shocked' kinda way#oh yeah I'm also watching hxh#I enjoy it so far#also planning to watch frieren finally#Im just not sure if its something I'd enjoy#spy family is recommended a lot but#I don't really see the appeal? just me?#maybe I'm completely wrong though
14 notes
·
View notes
Text
there’s so much i wanna do this week/month/etc but i’m just too sick, i have no energy, i can’t sleep, i’m constantly nauseous and headachey and on the verge of a migraine, i’m stressed and irritable and impatient and panicky…….how tf did i survive nearly 5 years of high school untreated if i can’t even manage this when i don’t have any major obligations rn
#at least i finally got my meds so hopefully i feel a little better soon#although i’m now on 20 pills per day which is Just Great#whenever i’m in remission it’s nice to just. forget sometimes that this can happen at any time#kinda wish i had the typical kinda chronic illness that people talk about with ‘flares’#or at least triggers that i can plan around#the other times have all had an easily identifiable stressor tho tbf. idk what caused this one#the first time was whooping cough and the next few were all very major life stressors like my cat dying right after i started uni#and i think also towards the end of my honours thesis?#but this…….there’s no major stress right now. nothing wildly beyond normal#i’m a little concerned about my joints tho. they’ve been so much worse than normal the last few months#so i’m kinda worried i’m developing rheumatoid arthritis (also an autoimmune disease and it runs in the family specifically)#so if that’s happening then it could set my thyroid off? probably should get to the doctor at some point#obv i’m seeing my endo for thyroid stuff. but i should see my gp and get her to run all the autoimmune blood tests again#i’ve done that before but it’s been a few years and my ankles and knees are so painful i can’t even walk properly a lot of the time#BUT I JUST WANNA DO THINGS I ENJOY AND I CANT AND I WILL CONTINUE TO COMPLAIN ABOUT IT#‘oh you’re so lucky you don’t have as many obligations because you’re chronically ill’ ha ha ha please swap lives with me immediately#personal#but seriously. i wasn’t diagnosed until i was nearly 17 and we can trace it back to whooping cough when i was 12#so it was the last half of year 6 and then all of years 7-10 and the start of year 11 of just being. uh. ‘very lazy and complaining a lot’#and TEACHERS joking about me and my sister (who was dealing with an arguably more severe undiagnosed disease) missing so many classes#wow so funny pdhpe teacher who’s supposed to be teaching is about health#and the thing with being a mentally ill teenager is that hyperthyroidism can just look like a very severe anxiety disorder#so i didn’t go to the dr until i was too sick to go to school at all. and luckily had a good dr who did a blood test#i’m just rambling now because i can’t sleep and i don’t wanna lie here doing nothing#might go play pvz or something. that’s been keeping me entertained
8 notes
·
View notes
Text
my dad's finally giving me a push to get my id and get a job
and currently, while watching queer films, my motivator is so i can get a queer as hell outfit and go see my first drag show
#ashton is talking#yes yes fuck capitalism and all that#but also you need a job in capitalism#and i'm such a fucking procrastinator (clearly cuz it's taken me 3 years to do this)#so the push is kinda needed#anyways we take any motivator we can#i wanna finally see a drag show#my city's college hosts one about every year#and every time my friend and i plan to go only for either him to forget or it to get cancelled#so i want the money to see one myself at least#i will see a drag show or bury me alive!
4 notes
·
View notes
Text
finally catching up with bsd after one hell of a month (+ midterms) 🫠
#bsd spoilers#updates for ep 2 :3#right off the bat all i can just say is fukuchi is such a well-written villain; while i can’t completely emphathize with his plan yet#i have to applaud him (uh and asagiri too) bc that’s quite a villain to fear—he’s already in a position of power that puts him in a major#advantage compared to the ada; it’s like he masterminded this whole thing to lead up to this but WHY (idk if i just forgot)#point and case: i hate him and im always terrified of his next move but damn he’s such a well-written antagonist i can’t even 🤐#ATSUSHI GET OFF THAT FUCKING BOAT RN WHY DID IT HAPPEN SO EARLY INTO THE SEASON IM CRY WAIT NO#fukuchi pointing out that ranpo is just jealous that he and fukuzawa way back is just so adorable made me forget what happens next haha#how come i dont remember these cute moments from the manga 😩#god im stalling so much :(( i hate it i hate it i hate it#the reveal was so… he should’ve deducted this shit sooner (objectively the build up was so nice hsjdhdj)#MY JAW DROPPED THEN AND IT STILL HAPPENED NOW :)))))#ok fukuchi in his complete villain mode is kinda 😗#watching this after being detached to bsd in general is so much better bc i can now appreciate the whole thing as is without much bias???#THE WAY HE JUST TURNED COLD ALL OF A SUDDEN AND I OOP— 😗😗😗😗😗#oh both canon and beast atsushi and their paralyzing fears :(( my heart actually hurts#ATSUSHI THINKING HE’S ALONE ANDDDDDD#OH MY GOD I CANT DO THIS ANYMORE MY SSKK#I CANT WATCH THE NEXT EPISODE#toff.txt
16 notes
·
View notes
Text
i don’t understand ppl who leave their packing, until the last minute. i am already packing and i don’t go anywhere for over a week, imao
#*walter white voice* jesse we need to pack#imao i’m watching brba and thinking about packing at 2am#i actually haven’t started packing but i’m gonna pack all my clothes and just leave everything else until the day before#bc a lot of stuff i still need in the meantime#i also need to put pins on my jacket but that’s a separate thing that i keep forgetting to do#bc i think a lot of my best pins would be better on my jacket#i actually need to work out which clothes i’m wearing#like which ones to pack and which ones i’m wearing on the drive#i’m planning on probably just wearing sweats and a regular ass shirt#and i’ll dress up when i’m actually there#and i gotta make sure i have my meds all sorted#and i need to make sure i don’t forget anything and that i keep everything safe#this post is kinda just me talking to myself imao#but honestly they usually are#okay but like someone tell me to not to pack at 2am bc i can literally do it tomorrow during the day but my brain is like ‘pack now!!’#bc i have it stuck in my head#imao i’m also only going for three days but travelling is a whole thing with me#leaving the house in general is a whole thing with me#what may seem like nothing to some people is a huge deal to me#like wow you’re going on vacation for three days? so what?#but this is only the second time i’ve done this#and the longest i’ll have been away from home aside from when i was in the hospital#so yeah it’s a big deal#the worst part is the travel tho#when i’m actually there i’ll have a fun time bc i did last time#well kinda i also got homesick and was in the middle of a depressive episode but i digress#but this time i’m not! so go me!#gwen actually leaves the house and feels good about it for once!#gwen rambles#gwenposting
5 notes
·
View notes
Text
remembered at work i’m probably gonna get abused tonight yay me
#personal#going to see a show with my mom aunt and grandma#and my mom have already argued about this show bc i asked for the future if my mom says i can come to soemthing can she ask me first#just cause i might haves plans or soemthing else going on and she cussed me out for lecturing her#it’s fine when i just can go to my room or can choose to get away#but she’s gonna drive and car rides with my mom are so bad#i always forget bc i don’t have to ride in the car with her anymore bc i have my own and a license#but they can be so bad unless she gets a phone call or starts talking about herself#but car to and from there good chance ya boy is getting quote unquote abused#i know she’s abusive/toxic but it feels so dramatic to be like my moms gonna abuse me by being mean in a car 🙄#but also i’m a 24 year old man near crying at my desk bc my moms gonna be mean to me in her car#and i thought about telling my brother to just vent but then i just remembered his last visit#and how he made fun of me (lightly to be clear) and didn’t think much of how mean mom was to me#and he always says we’re both crazy and honestly he doesn’t care and it’s fine and i’ll just save myself the hassle#the other brother were still weird#anyway blah blah blah family doesn’t like me or does and just happens. to also enjoy being kinda mean#gonna pop in an ear bud on the side she can’t see and do double time of pretending i’m spider man to cope with my issues#i think if i just focus really hard on spider man and make no real tangible changes to my life everything is gonna r#be okay :) (it will not)
2 notes
·
View notes
Text
anyways, i think mo4 is just a really interesting case of when characters morality is based of their friendship, not really on whats actually good or right. Of course normally, media that revolves around friendship tropes like mo4 has characters that also do everything and anything to protect their friends and loved ones, and its just so happened that these people they called friends are nice and the people who are attacking them are bad. But in the case of mo4, the characters are actually shown to not care that much about the fact that their friends are fucking horrible and not even that remorseful about their actions, they say theyre remorseful but their actions never reflect it. They only care about the people they called their friends. Not the greater good. We felt so wrong watching them because theyre only stopping the “evil cooporation” (that was totally their fault) because their intention was simply their friends were hurt. If mcdr in this case hurt someone they dont know about and is an absolute stranger to them, chances are none of them are going to be pissed and stormed off to stop it. Maybe they’ll say something about that being bad, but its really doubtable theyll do something about it.
morality shouldnt just be based on protecting your friends. And mo4 really showcased it well :3
#Mo4#sorry if this makes nooooo sense btw#but i just think about the fact the characters never batted an eyelid at sigkin and bachikin actions#which is the extreme case and the muchmuch more milder case of other friends actions#And it also kinda pissing me off that people shit on sigkin but never hold bachikin responsible too#I get why like sigikin actions are shown very very blatantly and most things are actively his fault#But just because we dont see much of bachikin own evil deeds doesnt mean she isnt equally bad#Who do you think tell sigkin to murder eveyone inthe first place. Who do you think first run this plan#Sigkin only join later. But his actions are always shown so blatantly we forget about bachikin#It feels like hyprocritical to me also like omgg haha bachikin such a girlbosssss but then shit on sigkin#I mean do what you want btw dont let me ruin ur fun!! I just want to point it out#Sigkin and bachikin are both sooo fucking evil and violent and they never shown to be that apolagetic#sorry for ranting abt them so much. Theyre evil and fucked up. And theyre my problematic fav lmao
6 notes
·
View notes
Text
allegedly going deep sea fishing with my dad at the end of the month and i have the chance to do the funniest thing with my closet
#snap chats#PLEA SE FODNDSKKS#have to say allegedly causing my father cant commit to plans sometimes. i think he forgets or something always happens 💀 such is my life…#i already have a jacket kinda similar to daigos…. it has a grey hood unfortunately but listen we just bein silly out here#listen its my dads old jacket so i legally have to go with it. its special that way …#also the only pair of jeans i own are my black ripped ones 💀 i have another pair of black jeans but i havent worn those since like.#middle school. i also have not grown since middle school so maybe theyll still fit OWDNAKSK#anyway if you see me buying overralls and fishing boots no you dont
5 notes
·
View notes
Text
So I have a concussion lol
#i was wondering wtf was going on with me bc ive never felt like this#what happened was after i got my pain medication refilled i thought id try to be a badass#and take my kid to the skate park so we could get use out of our skateboards#and attempted to drop into a halfpipe for the first time in my life#and it was really high up but the shape of it looked the most manageable#nah the board went behind me and i fall about 8 feet straight on my ass#and i felt my fuckin brain smack the inside of my skull#i landed straight up my head didnt hit anything at all and i was wearing a helmet anyway#but yeah i thought i was just getting sick w something#bc i was throwing up all day today#constant headaches#and i kept falling asleep repeatedly#and i neglected all my plans and kepf forgetting to make the dinner i prepared#kinda scared that it might trigger a seizude
6 notes
·
View notes