#me and my overactive imagination

[emmatcha]

all i have to do when i’m sad is picture walker and leah as percy and annabeth in the best percabeth scenes from like season 4 or 5 and all of a sudden i’m happy again

[placingglaciers]

Ugh, this whole Rose/baby situation is driving me nuts! This could go several ways, so this is just me having fun, as my theories never come true lol. (Note: Though I 100% know Nick loves June and baby Holly, I believe Nick does care about Rose and their child. I don't think he's the type of man who would abandon his family, considering he has been abandoned by his mother and had a "difficult" father.) Warning, this gets dark. :(

Both Rose and the baby die. This is the avenue we're all going towards, it seems. This is the easiest way to free Nick from his Gilead obligations and have him fully commit to the resistance. After all, with no family tying him down, could this allow him to not be a Commander anymore? This will also allow him to love June freely and be the family he always wanted. If we're talking "redemption," this could work. I just wish Rose meant something more to the plot. However, this solution runs the risk of being the most boring because *gasp* who would have thought?? lol

Only Rose dies. This could be a little interesting. Though I don't think Wharton will take it well. Would he somehow blame Nick for it? Would he punish/force Nick to marry again, thus prompting Nick to defect? Another Gilead-issued wife? I think he's tired of it! While this does allow Nick to be with June, there is still the baby. Could June care about another woman's child? I think it would only be fair since I believe Nick cares about Hannah. But smuggling out another baby might prove to be difficult...

Rose lives, but the baby dies of "natural" complications. I feel like Gilead strives for as natural a birth as possible, but what happens if that is the very method that kills the baby? What if they're not willing to do a C-section? What if they wait until it gets "bad enough," and then it's too late? Can you imagine Rose, but especially Nick, begging for them to do something that they are perfectly capable of doing? I feel like this would be the chance to reference what is actually happening in real life, bringing the show's relevance to today's society. This could be an avenue where Rose would die in the process, but if this show dared to be a little more interesting, maybe this would be the moment when everything changes for Rose. Her baby died an unnecessary death at the hands of Gilead. Sadly, again, I don't think they care enough about Rose to give her a "redemption arc." Maybe they'll somehow make Rose double down on Gilead, and Nick just checks out to be with June, haha.

Rose lives, but the baby dies on purpose. A surprise twist would be the baby actually being a girl and not a boy. A bunch of Commanders (dare I say a generation?) just died thanks to the Handmaids. I know it would be greatly out of character for Gilead to kill a baby, so I'm aware how weak this theory is, but I do believe Wharton is evil enough to maybe just do it. The future of Gilead needs to be preserved by strong, leading men, right? No doubt this would make Nick leave Gilead, and maybe Rose too. This could also bring cultural relevancy to female infanticide, an issue that is still prevalent today.

Rose lives, the baby dies, and Wharton suggests a substitute. So the baby could die from birth complications (natural or not), leaving a Gilead couple childless. Uh oh! Nick and Rose could try again. But why wait? Based on the talk with Nick in 6x06, we can believe that High Commander Wharton has the power to know and find out just about anything. What if he learns baby Holly's existence/location and threatens to bring her to Gilead? If it is just a threat, we know for certain Nick will do everything in his power to not let that happen. This could smoothly lead into The Testaments, having Nick and June go underground and give Holly to foster parents. I'd love to see this the most. Especially if it'll give us a June/Nick/Holly scene that would absolutely tear my heart apart. :(

Both Rose and the baby live. If this does happen, then I guess we'll be in for seeing one miserable Nick Blaine lol. As I said in the beginning, I'm sure Nick cares about both of them, but this is clearly not the life he wants. This will only make Nick's "redemption" more complicated, and maybe even nonexistent. And we could basically forget about a happy ending with June and Holly altogether. That is, if Rose puts her allegiance in Gilead. If, somehow, Nick could convince her that Gilead is not the place to raise their child, then maybe he can get them out? But this might take a lot of work, especially with Wharton breathing down his neck. Maybe Nick kills him? And Rose probably wouldn't care because he probably abused her. :( (Also, is it just a coincidence that both Rose and Nick have the same parent issues??)

Any of these theories could work, probably if the finale ended up being like, four hours long lol. However, considering the time crunch, I doubt any of this would happen, at least not well. But it was still fun to imagine! (And by fun, I mean absolutely heartbreaking. :( )

[onesnoopyaday]

!!WORRY!!

Snoopy #85

25/12/2024

[tinyperson00]

I started rereading School bus Graveyard (webtoon clmic thingy), and it is literally going just how it did when I first read it I think almost a year ago now-

legit binged a consecutive 32 chapters before deciding my eyes needed a break and started mixing up words (dyslexia doesn't like binge reading), started at I think 9 and it's nearly 1am, as always I am slightly paranoid now because it is 1am and this series is lowkey terrifying if you really think about it, and still in absolute love with everything about it ✨

Plus the main character looks like me and actually has the same personality and traits as me as well lol-

[dry-yellow-marker]

every day i loose my mind a little bit more thinking about rengoku kyojuro so here's an analysis of "where is your rider" by the oh hellos and how i relate it to his character

these lyrics could refer to rengoku upholding his father's legacy and the times where people mistake him for his father. there are two big instances of this that i know of: the elderly woman in mugen train and the former lower rank two demon from rengoku's spinoff chapter*.

in the genius annotation of this song, the line "but i know that wicked shape to your smile" is a reference to the previous song in the album, "pale white horse", and the crooked smile of death. this line could also relate to rengoku realizing that he is unlikely to survive the battle with akaza-- as a demon slayer and a hashira, he is very familiar with death and might know when it is coming. if you REALLY wanted to get into specifics, you could also argue that the line above it, "see, your face wasn't quite as i remember" could refer to the sickness and death of his mother-- with that context, this would mean that rengoku saw death up close in the form of watching his mother pass and now recognizes that it is coming for him.

*i haven't been able to get my hands on this myself so this info comes from the kny wiki

rengoku's self-sacrificial and selfless nature!! this is so him!! "so bury me as it pleases you lover / at sea, or deep within the catacomb" could be the uncertainty of a demon slayer's life and the constant threat of death that they face. rengoku worked tirelessly as a slayer and was well aware that he was likely going to die on the job, likely somewhere out of his control and far away from his home.

"but these bones never rested while living" is literally every hashira idk what to tell you just trust me this is the most rengoku lyric to ever lyric

if you wanted, you could also see the last line as akaza calling for rengoku to become a demon and not squander his potential; instead of "languishing in repose" (becoming weaker with time) he should preserve his strength. it could also be akaza asking rengoku directly, "how can you stand becoming weaker with age/time when you have so much strength?"

the first line is again a reference to "pale white horse", which establishes "the cavalry" as death. if we continue with our previous metaphor for death being akaza, this section of the song can be focused on akaza and rengoku's battle and their warring philosophies.

i like to wrap the first and second lines ("he has thrown down the cavalry as gravel sinks / and as the stone founders underneath the sundered sea of red and reed") into general "ooo big fight", but i'd be really interested to see if anyone had anything to add to these lyrics!!

finally, "the shadow of hades is fading / for he has cast down leviathan, the tyrant, and the horse and rider". the song originally contains this segment to emphasize jesus christ's defeat of death through his resurrection with the "horse and rider" referring to death again. however, for rengoku (who did NOT beat death smh) i think that this instead refers to his life & purpose fighting demons. "the shadow of hades is fading" is about his FEAR of death fading because he knows that saving the lives of the people around him is more important.

"For he has cast down Leviathan, the tyrant, and the horse and rider" could be some of his past achievements as a demon slayer if you stretch it a bit! this section of the song is the hardest for me to explain, so i apologize if it's a little iffy compared to the rest

"he will hold with all of his might the armies of night" is his battle with akaza (akaza, as an upper moon, being the "armies of night"). following that, "still as boulders laid to the side 'til we pass by" could be his motivation to defeat akaza-- protecting the train passengers and tanjiro, zenitsu, & inosuke.

an alternative perspective (because i have a lot of those apparently) is that the "armies of night" are demons as a whole and this refers to his career as a demon slayer overall. he neutralizes demons, rendering them "still as boulders" so that others can go about their lives without fear (pass by).

finally, i see this chunk as relating to rengoku's legacy and his impact on the main cast (mainly tanjiro).

"he has hoisted out of the mire every child" is him saving not only saving the passengers of the mugen train but also guiding and mentoring tanjiro, inosuke, and zenitsu throughout the mugen train arc. ("every child" being the main trio-- not as much nezuko unfortunately but i still love her).

"so lift your voice with timbrel and lyre" represents tanjiro's growth as a person and as a demon slayer following rengoku's mentorship and death. he promises to honor rengoku's sacrifice and legacy by "lifting his voice" to become a better and more dedicated protector.

"we will abide, we will abide, we will abide" is tanjiro specifically promising to carry rengoku's final words with him, literally abiding by his final words: set your heart ablaze.

in conclusion,

[dreamylilsapphic]

I love romance and slow burns and all of the hopeless heartache within any show or book or whatever else, but I also hate that it makes my brain work overtime to overthink my own lacking love life and create intricate fantasies

[just-absolutely-super]

Not my stupid ass falling for another crack ship

[cheerfullycatholic]

Urgent prayer request:

Hi I really don’t know why I suddenly feel this way but I’ve just had this dreadful pessimistic feeling come over me today where usually I have fight and optimism in the Lord especially but today I am having these awful feelings of if things don’t get better or I don’t even know? Just like in the next 10 years or something I don’t see the point of carrying in like I could just k word myself and that will probably be the best thing to do and I don’t wanna feel like that I don’t at all!!!! :(

Of course 🖤

[alittleemo]

have already acknowledged I’m like the jumpiest person alive but i actually almost gave myself a heart attack seeing my own shadow in the bathroom tn . Which is a new low . I should stop reading this murder cult book

[barneysbigstompers]

Chucky and Jeepers creepers would scare the everliving shit out of me from when I was 4 to 8 genuinely NO ANNEBELLE SCARED THE EVERL8NGI SHIT OUTOF ME I WOULD CRYY

[spookitordukeit]

I… I’m not quiet sure exactly how, but my fic Do You Know Who You Know (the one with Harper) has unexpectedly turned into some sort of royal political fic…. As well as being an anti-harem. Wtf??? This is not what I wanted??? How???

There’s also a cat familiar??? And Mage lineage??? And arranged political marriages???

I’m just as confused as you are, this was supposed to be a simple anti harem story but it is now spiraling out of my hands 🗿🗿🗿

Nothing is posted and I’m somehow 10k into this thing along with 12 chapters at least somewhat outlined for the future wtf

[neonsbian]

just had a dream that armand tortured me 👍

[arctic-hands]

I like having joined a book fandom that's still new and fresh cause we get to nerdily bond as we devour a release of a new book in the series and I get to see all the theories and discussions and memes in real time as opposed to years later when everyone else knows how it ends so I have to block the fandom bc of spoilers. It's a feeling I haven't had since a teenager bc as of late I drag my ass into a fandom like a decade after its hayday and miss all the fun stuff

But it sucks ass that I am no longer as weirdly and eerily patient like I was as a child and the nine month wait for Heavenly Tyrant to come out is driving me crazy

[existentialflirt]

Anyway, I'll probably start getting more active around both blogs after this weekend. I swesr i usually just end up using nano to craft a starting point. Hopefully this time i'll stick with it. I've also been dealing with the year end blues and idek if it's seasonal depression or just normal winter fatigue. Also i've been paying a bit too much attention to the news again and that's depressing as fuck.

[bill-gates-hate-blog]

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[gods-favorite-autistic]

Shoutout to my mom for having so much confidence in me to the point where she basically accused me of plagiarism in 6th grade because the writing in my poems I wrote for an assignment was “too good”