#me and my overactive imagination

[percabethluv]

all i have to do when i’m sad is picture walker and leah as percy and annabeth in the best percabeth scenes from like season 4 or 5 and all of a sudden i’m happy again

[kafekofi]

Okay. I know i went into that theater saying “if they dont fuck nasty ill literally die” but i knew that wasnt going to happen. Cause it kinda never does? But also because i knew (mostly hoped) that it would have so much queerness in it that i would be happy. Yes, i left that theater in tears and angry, BUT. My heart was still soaring because i was just genuinely happy to see those two together again, and it really seemed like their relationship had grown to me. The movie was funny, heart wrenching, and overall incredibly enjoyable for me and my sibling.

I agree with the people who say it didn’t need an explicit scene

[cheerfullycatholic]

Urgent prayer request:

Hi I really don’t know why I suddenly feel this way but I’ve just had this dreadful pessimistic feeling come over me today where usually I have fight and optimism in the Lord especially but today I am having these awful feelings of if things don’t get better or I don’t even know? Just like in the next 10 years or something I don’t see the point of carrying in like I could just k word myself and that will probably be the best thing to do and I don’t wanna feel like that I don’t at all!!!! :(

Of course 🖤

[alittleemo]

have already acknowledged I’m like the jumpiest person alive but i actually almost gave myself a heart attack seeing my own shadow in the bathroom tn . Which is a new low . I should stop reading this murder cult book

[dry-yellow-marker]

every day i loose my mind a little bit more thinking about rengoku kyojuro so here's an analysis of "where is your rider" by the oh hellos and how i relate it to his character

these lyrics could refer to rengoku upholding his father's legacy and the times where people mistake him for his father. there are two big instances of this that i know of: the elderly woman in mugen train and the former lower rank two demon from rengoku's spinoff chapter*.

in the genius annotation of this song, the line "but i know that wicked shape to your smile" is a reference to the previous song in the album, "pale white horse", and the crooked smile of death. this line could also relate to rengoku realizing that he is unlikely to survive the battle with akaza-- as a demon slayer and a hashira, he is very familiar with death and might know when it is coming. if you REALLY wanted to get into specifics, you could also argue that the line above it, "see, your face wasn't quite as i remember" could refer to the sickness and death of his mother-- with that context, this would mean that rengoku saw death up close in the form of watching his mother pass and now recognizes that it is coming for him.

*i haven't been able to get my hands on this myself so this info comes from the kny wiki

rengoku's self-sacrificial and selfless nature!! this is so him!! "so bury me as it pleases you lover / at sea, or deep within the catacomb" could be the uncertainty of a demon slayer's life and the constant threat of death that they face. rengoku worked tirelessly as a slayer and was well aware that he was likely going to die on the job, likely somewhere out of his control and far away from his home.

"but these bones never rested while living" is literally every hashira idk what to tell you just trust me this is the most rengoku lyric to ever lyric

if you wanted, you could also see the last line as akaza calling for rengoku to become a demon and not squander his potential; instead of "languishing in repose" (becoming weaker with time) he should preserve his strength. it could also be akaza asking rengoku directly, "how can you stand becoming weaker with age/time when you have so much strength?"

the first line is again a reference to "pale white horse", which establishes "the cavalry" as death. if we continue with our previous metaphor for death being akaza, this section of the song can be focused on akaza and rengoku's battle and their warring philosophies.

i like to wrap the first and second lines ("he has thrown down the cavalry as gravel sinks / and as the stone founders underneath the sundered sea of red and reed") into general "ooo big fight", but i'd be really interested to see if anyone had anything to add to these lyrics!!

finally, "the shadow of hades is fading / for he has cast down leviathan, the tyrant, and the horse and rider". the song originally contains this segment to emphasize jesus christ's defeat of death through his resurrection with the "horse and rider" referring to death again. however, for rengoku (who did NOT beat death smh) i think that this instead refers to his life & purpose fighting demons. "the shadow of hades is fading" is about his FEAR of death fading because he knows that saving the lives of the people around him is more important.

"For he has cast down Leviathan, the tyrant, and the horse and rider" could be some of his past achievements as a demon slayer if you stretch it a bit! this section of the song is the hardest for me to explain, so i apologize if it's a little iffy compared to the rest

"he will hold with all of his might the armies of night" is his battle with akaza (akaza, as an upper moon, being the "armies of night"). following that, "still as boulders laid to the side 'til we pass by" could be his motivation to defeat akaza-- protecting the train passengers and tanjiro, zenitsu, & inosuke.

an alternative perspective (because i have a lot of those apparently) is that the "armies of night" are demons as a whole and this refers to his career as a demon slayer overall. he neutralizes demons, rendering them "still as boulders" so that others can go about their lives without fear (pass by).

finally, i see this chunk as relating to rengoku's legacy and his impact on the main cast (mainly tanjiro).

"he has hoisted out of the mire every child" is him saving not only saving the passengers of the mugen train but also guiding and mentoring tanjiro, inosuke, and zenitsu throughout the mugen train arc. ("every child" being the main trio-- not as much nezuko unfortunately but i still love her).

"so lift your voice with timbrel and lyre" represents tanjiro's growth as a person and as a demon slayer following rengoku's mentorship and death. he promises to honor rengoku's sacrifice and legacy by "lifting his voice" to become a better and more dedicated protector.

"we will abide, we will abide, we will abide" is tanjiro specifically promising to carry rengoku's final words with him, literally abiding by his final words: set your heart ablaze.

in conclusion,

[astriiformes]

We have not taken off yet, but the people sitting behind me on the plane (we are all sitting near-ish the wing and can see it out the window) are currently discussing classic Twilight Zone episode "Nightmare at 20,000 Feet," which is also what I think about literally every time I sit near the wing on a plane.

[neonsbian]

just had a dream that armand tortured me 👍

[lycanpunk666]

“Is it bad enough to talk to a doctor or do I just have small scattered symptoms of a mental illness so mild that it doesn’t deserve a label”? More at 11

[arctic-hands]

I like having joined a book fandom that's still new and fresh cause we get to nerdily bond as we devour a release of a new book in the series and I get to see all the theories and discussions and memes in real time as opposed to years later when everyone else knows how it ends so I have to block the fandom bc of spoilers. It's a feeling I haven't had since a teenager bc as of late I drag my ass into a fandom like a decade after its hayday and miss all the fun stuff

But it sucks ass that I am no longer as weirdly and eerily patient like I was as a child and the nine month wait for Heavenly Tyrant to come out is driving me crazy

[endlessnightlock]

having medical tests done is so stupid. it’s like “I hope they find the thing” but really you don’t want there to be anything there in the first place to be found

[vampirebutterflies]

actually I’m gonna bitch here for a sec like WHY is being disabled so expensive like I have very good healthcare and thank fuck for rebates but !!! still!!!!

main bullshittery bugging me rn though is the absolutely unrelenting fatphobia (and so many layers of ableism) in anything to do with hashimotos

like it is FUCKING infuriating to have this constant rhetoric of “you have hashimotos?? here’s how to stop being so FAT and UGLY! (:” “here’s how to LOSE WEIGHT with hashimotos!!” “15 tips to drop 15 kilos!!!” “got hashimotos? comment HELP ME or dm to get access to my private HASHI WEIGHT LOSS group!!!” “best diets to lose weight with hashimotos!!”

even the ones that sneak this shit into otherwise decent resources you’ll have a good run of beneficial info punctuated by “oh you’re probably balding and ugly and fat but that’s okay!!! we EMBRACE body positivity here!! by bullying you into being skinny and fitting our beauty standards so you can finally love yourself!!!!” “link in bio for my best selling book HASHI HELL TO HEALED HEAVEN: HOW I SAVED MYSELF FROM BEING FAT AND BALDING AND UGLY AND TURNED INTO THE PERFECT THIN BEACHY BABE!” Violence violence violence murder maiming killing arson destruction FUCK

[existentialflirt]

Anyway, I'll probably start getting more active around both blogs after this weekend. I swesr i usually just end up using nano to craft a starting point. Hopefully this time i'll stick with it. I've also been dealing with the year end blues and idek if it's seasonal depression or just normal winter fatigue. Also i've been paying a bit too much attention to the news again and that's depressing as fuck.

[akkivee]

the dying in a glue trap meme is funny in a dank way and i hate i can’t vibe with it because of a video that circulated a while back of some rats getting caught in glue traps and their crying squeaking sounded so terrified i hear them whenever i see the meme lol 😭😭😭

[bill-gates-hate-blog]

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[gods-favorite-autistic]

Shoutout to my mom for having so much confidence in me to the point where she basically accused me of plagiarism in 6th grade because the writing in my poems I wrote for an assignment was “too good”