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#am i the fucking problem chat#throwing this out into the void no tags#because like. if they find it im fucked#but like#am i the problem#i thoough they were joking around but now theres this whole fucking issue and idk if i caused it#its causing me genuine stress and what the fuck am i supposed to say#i rib them. one time. what do i get??#“ i guess i can't ever be busy” FUCK YOU#tell me when you are!!! i amnot gonna know otherwise!!!#im gonna fucking. assume. you got bored of the convo or just dont wanna see me anymore or fell asleep or. whatever!!#and they keep fucking doing it to#they snap at me over tiny things and its causing emotional stress but what the fuck am i supposed to say or do#not to mention the whole interest thing which. i need to ask. everytime. what do they wanna talk about. and everytime they fail to give#me a fucking topic#and#thats fine#if they just. didnt outwardly show that they werent interested in the topic i picked#like if you had something in mind you could just say so#but no#all i get is a “uh \. um. idk”#like its my fucking responsability to pick something we're both engaged in#whenever they talk something#i try to genuienly be engaged#i try to show my support by asking them about it or in general trying to be a good friend about it#idk#i feel like nothing i do is. good enough for them#i feel like shit#i probably look like shit#vent
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Look what we've become.
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#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#jiang cheng#Initially I wanted to do a 'Mutiny' quote to follow the 'Luck runs out' quote.#But the musical earworms demanded a different blood to be drawn. And I think it works just as well.#Alright. It's time to confess something. I really struggled with this comic. I didn't want to draw it. Then I didn't want to upload it.#Because I knew I would be here in the tags writing and backspacing for hours trying to articulate my thoughts.#I'm going to talk about death and grief in the tags today so this is your WARNING to look away if you aren't in a headspace for it.#Sometimes in media there are scenes and characters which land on topics so specific to your wounds that it reopens them all over again.#Because here's the truth. When you've known someone like this for nearly your whole life...it doesn't matter how bad the fight is.#You always think 'We'll always have time. One day this dust will settle and we'll rebuild the bridge.'#And then the fucker dies!!! He dies and suddenly there will never ever be time to repair the rift.#Someone you loved died thinking you hated them. And part of you did just a bit. But love and hate aren't mutually exclusive.#He's fucking dead and you are left with so many broken and unfinished pieces between the two of you.#Jiang Cheng loses Wei Wuxian thinking that WWX thought they hated each other.#He's a younger brother who will one day be older than the person he lost.#Who has no one else in the world who understands those feelings of love and hate and grief.#I can't be normal about this character. I don't think he even heals me. Zero catharsis to be gained here.#I just look at his sour grape ass and think 'shit that's a little too close to home.' JC is my discomfort character.#I'm probably going to regret being this vulnerable in the tags in like. An hour. So. sorry if you see this once and never again.#EDIT: Yeah sorry this took 4 hours to muster the courage to post. Surprise update!#EDIT 2: You guys were being too nice to me on my sad comic to point out the spelling error. I have fixed it now B'*)
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check your exorsexism and listen to non-binary people. if i try to say i am non-binary, i should be allowed to put an ending on it that isnt the feminine a or feminine o without people complaining it "isnt grammatically correct." you sound like someone who would police neopronouns too.
hey ❤️ buddy ❤️ take a breath ❤️ i am nonbinary which is not a secret ❤️ the post is referring to the adjectival construction applied to grammatically gendered words in languages with obligate grammatical gender agreement ❤️ in spanish i would say "soy una persona nonbinaria" BUT ALSO "soy nonbinarie" because "nonbinaria" agrees in grammatical gender with "persona" but "nonbinarie" agrees in social gender with my self-image which is the implied referent of that phrase ❤️ i'd also say "él es una persona masculina" because it is "persona," not the person themself, which is grammatically feminine ❤️ that was the entire fucking point of the post ❤️
and i've done the neopronouns runaround with people who tried to report me to my department for merely mentioning the concept in a college-level course, so you can kindly fuck off with that one ❤️
#fucking 'listen to nonbinary people' yeah they live here actually.#there will be no further commentary from me on this topic today so y'all can go play somewhere else
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me, a responsible being, working on the coding project as I should vs. me, a dysfunctional shithead, getting distracted by reading about brains (once aGAIN damnit (it's my favorite "I need to study my field but bc I should do that it's an impossible unthinkable feat now, so I'm reading about something else to fool my brain I'm still being productive"-topic))
#but after my thesis me & brains have been on a break bc got tired reading abt them during that (bc I had a topic that sorta allowed me to#sidetrack to brain stuff also) but seems I'm over the brain overload now#yay? i guess#also no one who actually studies medicine/brains/etc. yell at me abt wikipedia and like ''why are u studying that like that''#I'm just going through the wikipedia & reading article abstracts path; nothing serious#also my procrastination has reached inhuman levels like it's a full-time job now#bc I have like a chill week's worth of work to do and then I've done the courses for my bachelor's degree#but sending in that ''heyy i'm done with the courses let me graduate''-thing fills me up with sO MUCH anxiety & dread I'm working so slow#now (even tho couldn't send that in for like a month bc gotta first wait the courses to be graded and stuff so in actuality I should#not be slowing down even a bit bc I need to finally be done with this damn degree asap; gotta move on and should've ages ago (it's actually#super bad how late I'm with it (1.5 mf years jesus christ; I'm not even like a little bit proud abt getting a degree anymore like I'm sorta#just embarrassed if I have to tell ppl like ''yea I graduated'' bc dude ?? only now?? u were supposed to be done with that 1.5year#ago what have u been doing (fuck if I know) so I'm keeping it like ''if anyone asks'' basis)))#(the tags and parantheses started a life of their own lol sorry abt that)#studyblr#studyspo#bookblr#booklr#study#november 2024#2024
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this is the end of episode 7 in my stupid and idiot mind
#minecraft story mode#mcsm#mcsm fanart#mcsm jesse#mcsm lukas#mcsm m!jesse#lukas mcsm#jesse mcsm#mcsm male jesse#jesskas#mcsm jesskas#<- not inherently but i love me some delicious reach#its lukas and not petra cause i base everything on my playthrough(s) mostly#and i love me some delicious yaoi angst#i fear we're losing the topic#shitpost#pokeyartz#i made this in fucking ms paint as usual thats the only way i ever get these things done
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I'm not explaining why re-imagining characters as POC is not the same as white-washing, here of all places should fucking understand.
#personal#delete later#no patrick. “black washing” is not as harmful as white washing.#come on guys get it together#seeing people in my reblogs talk about “reverse racism” and double standards is genuinely hypocrisy#say it with me: white washing is intrinsically tied to a historical and systematic erasure of poc figures literature and history.#it is an inherently destructive act that deplatforms underrepresented faces and voices#in favor of a light-skinned aesthetic hegemony#redesigning characters as poc is an act of dismantling symbols of whiteness in fiction in favor of diversification and reclamation#(note that i am talking about individual acts by individual artists as was the topic of this discourse. not on an industry-scale)#redesigning characters as poc is not tied to hundreds of years of systemic racism and abuse and power dynamics. that is a fact.#you are not replacing an underrepresented person with an oft-represented person. it is the opposite#if you feel threatened or upset or uncomfortable about this then sorry but you are not aware of how much more worse it is for poc#if representation is unequal then these acts cannot be equivalent. you can't point to an imbalanced scale and say they weigh the same#if you recognize that bipoc people are minorities then you should recognize that these two things are not the same#while i agree that “black washing” can lead to color-blind casting and writing the behavior here is on an individual level#a black artist drawing their favorite anime character as black because they feel a shared solidarity is not a threat to you#i mean. most anime characters are east asian and i as an east asian person certainly don't feel threatened or erased. neither should you.#there's much to be said about the politics of blackwashing (i don't even know if that's the right word for it)#but point standing. whitewashing is an inherently more destructive act. both through its history of maintaining power dynamics#and the simple fact that it's taking away from groups of people who have less to begin with#if you feel upset or uncomfortable about a fictional white character being redesigned as poc by an artist on twitter#i sincerely hope you're able to explore these feelings and find avenues to empathizing with poc who have had their figures#(both real and fictional) erased; buried; and replaced by white figures for hundreds of years#i sincerely hope you can understand the difference in motivations and connotations behind whitewashing and blackwashing#classic bixels “i'm not talking about this chat. i'm not” (puts my media studies major to use in the tags and talks the fuck outta it)
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things mr d does for his own entertainment:
convince percy he's his dad (he isn't), then asks him to get him alcohol (he's not allowed to drink alcohol)
telling percy zeus is very likely mad at him for stealing the thunderbolt (which he didn't steal)
#most iconic god I said what I said#he really said fuck around and find out#also the PETER JOHNSON IS HERE took me tf out#(off topic but I also LOVE the way he's portrayed in the hades game)#pjo#pjotv#pjotv spoilers#percy jackson#percy jackson spoilers#mr d#dionysus
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...bald Sun/Moon coin purse...
*takes a deep breath*
BALD SUN/MOON COIN PURSE!
I WANT IT SO BAAAAAD!!!
its available for pre-order on Hot Topic if you're interested!
#hot topic needs to let me buy things again#i'm gonna miss the pre-order of the ruin eclipse funko and this thing#aaaahhhhh fuck my lifeeee#dca merch#dca sun#dca moon#fnaf merch#fnaf sun#fnaf moon#moon#sun#sunny#sundrop#moondrop
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desmond & friends modern day assassin sequences…..I miss you……..
#specifying ‘and friends’ because I hate William Miles with my whole heart and he is not included in this sentiment#anyway vaguely this is nyc so the cops are probably wasting taxpayer money by fucking around in the subway#komiks tag#assassins creed#shaun hastings#desmond miles#this is almostttttttttttt shaundes#but I didn’t continue the dialogue far enough to make it really flirty. There’s a hint of flirting happening.#someday I’ll have to actually do a longer form fan comic to land my favorite ship AND my favorite narrative elements in the same#go (the horror and dialogues on free will and what we owe each other past/present/future & also what failure means AND-)#this ties into my second favorite relationship dynamic: clay and desmond. obvious. clay might live in my head rent free a little more than#Desmond does because that end of game reveal in AC1 is a top 10 games experience to me and I think about it all the time#ANYWAY IM OFF TOPIC NOW. desmond picks up snacks at a bodega on his way back
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I contracted a plague again thus am just sending random doodles I've done and just haven't posted yet
My secret (I enjoy using cat cuddling photos for references)
#See#who's gonna stop me is the real question#I was in fact listening to the darktide ost while drawing fluff like the freak I am#In my defense it's funny#Also Disposal Unit theme my beloved#Absolutely carried me through drawing motivation I swear#digital art#art#hollow knight#the hollow knight#quirrelhollow#quirrel#hk quirrel#hk hollow knight#Idk on that topic on my fluff post (the irony) it is VERY tempting to post some of my painted Warhammer figures#But this is also the same blog I post two bugs kissing on#“Holy fuck a quirrelhollow post– what the hell is that?” And it's fucking nurgle on post immediately after 😭#Actually that sounds pretty funny might do#Or some of my silly painted eldritch d&d creatures I have#Combining my two hyperfixations by painting hk themed game figures is SO tempting now that I think of it
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I'M UNWELL
#austin butler#dune part 2#dune 2#dune part two#highly off topic for me#but just look at him#what the fuck
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I can't be the only one who thinks it's so lame that spite ultimately had 0 effect on lucanis whereas the writers made anders suffer for just wanting to live.
#demon possession is easy now guys#lol.#dont get me wrong i think spite is interesting and definitely had potential but it was not executed well at all.#its definitely a nicer outcome for a demon possession to go... right? but it should have taken longer. they should have fought more.#why are we acting like being first talon makes up for his suffering. why are we acting like demon possession suddenly has no negatives#this game doesn't take anything seriously or treat certain topics with care. why is lucanis' trauma glossed over.#genuinely where the fuck am i#datv spoilers#bioware critical#six speaks#my longest sigh ever as i add lucanis to the mistreated characters list
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am i the only one who thinks that Anya wouldn't actually be mad with Curly about what he did. Like I think some part of her deep down is angry about it, that he didn't help her like he said he would, but i also don't think she's actively blaming him for it.
I personally believe Curly was at fault for not taking responsibility and doing something about what Jimmy did to her. But i feel like characterization wise she wouldn't uphold him to such a standard, that she'd lose trust in him to an extent, but not enough that she'd hate him. I don't know if I'm explaining this right,
basically I just always feel strange whenever i see people depicting Anya as being resentful towards Curly after the crash, i believe she holds the blame on Jimmy alone, and once Curly has become bedridden and disabled, she focuses on helping him and doing her job. She and him were close friends, enough that she did trust him with the information that Jimmy assaulted her, she still cares.
something about the line: (which she says specifically about Curly) "I have to believe our worst moments don't make us monsters" flying over peoples heads when it comes to her characterization
i do think it's hard to figure out a way to characterize Anya in a light that is justifying, especially since in canon we aren't exactly given a good perspective on her. Curly is the closest we get to that, but he isn't that reliable of a source either when it comes to her (thats a whole other post tho)
but I don't think she'd be hateful, even to someone who has wronged her. I don't think she's weak or small, don't get me wrong, but with the way we are shown how much empathy she has for Curly (with her being unable to give him meds because it makes her nauseous with how it hurts him, and with the quote about Curly's worst moments)...i just dont see it
i can see the appeal of having victims resent and be able to stand up for themselves when it comes to their abusers (in Jimmy's case) and people who supported them, (as in Curly) but I just personally don't see that with Anya. And just because you aren't angry or outwardly standing up to the abuse you go through, doesn't mean that you are weak.
Anya isn't weak, but she's empathetic and in a situation that could only end badly for her. She's also a kind person, and a nurse. I don't think violence or anger are her go-tos
#the first draft of this post had be calling Jimmy Jamboree btw but i changed it cuz it felt too unserious with what im talking about 😭#pls dont attack me for this post..i know anyas assault is such a debatable topic in the community#but i dont make this post to argue i made it to share my opinion#if you think differently than me feel free to say so but pls be respectful or else ill delete the comment#this is not a curly apologist post- btw#he needed to step tf up#but also he didnt deserve any of that#anya mouthwashing#mouth washing#mouthwashing#jimmy mouthwashing#fuck you jimmy#curly mouthwashing#captain curly#riv rambling
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i know this will be a controversial statement for some people on this website, but you guys need to understand that being a radical communist with zero awareness of the nuance of living on planet earth is really not very different from being an alt-right extremist.
if you’re past the point of using logical thinking and understanding that societies and politics are complex and can be wildly different from one place to another, you’re just a fanatic, in spite of the place in the spectrum you place yourself on. you’re too swayed and brainwashed by propaganda. you’re just a blind fanatic, and your agenda becomes dangerous for real people living in the real world.
#you’re no better than a twitter stan but actually worse bc you don’t give a shit about misinformation and harming real human beings#just to try to make a point and prove how you’re ideology is perfect and anything who identifies with it is perfect and fuck anybody#who dares have critical thinking and nuance bc they’re just fascist traitors#and the fact that i can apply all this to two different topics. see: american election and venezuela’s crisis just further shows what i say#i’m tired. TIRED!!!!!! of ipad communists trying to spread misinformation so blatantly and maliciously#fucking stop!!!!!!!!!!!!#i don’t think this applies to any of my mutuals / people i follow btw so pls don’t take this personally bc it’s not any of you#if you follow me tho and feel offended by this post. well. question yourself and your beliefs!#politics
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and when the series ends with Rio having to leave for her job but kisses Agatha goodbye (for now) and says“te veo” and then the end credit frame that’s been empty reveals text that says “Agatha and the coven will return for season 2” then WHAT???? THEN WHAT?!?
#LET ME COOK LET ME COOK#I’m literally on my knees in a boxlunch#in a fucking hot topic#PLEASE JAC PLEASE#we need you girl#WE’LL GET YOU THAT RUSSO BROTHERS PAY CHECK BABE#agatha all along#agatha harkness#agathario#aubrey plaza#kathryn hahn#rio x agatha#agatha x rio#wlw#rio vidal#mcu
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This is the last time I'm going to be annoying about this, I swear.
A few examples of that I, a gifmaker, personally love seeing under the tags:
Analysis of said scene, show, or character, especially the long ones going in depth that span like 1000 words
People saying how crisp the GIFs look and how nice the coloring is THANK YOU. ILY GUYS. That's always huge praise for me.
Reacting with how emotional you got with the scene. How painful and emotional or how touching a scene is.
People making funny jokes, memes, comments, etc.
Literally ppl horny posting LMAO. It's super funny to read and I love seeing all the unhinged comments.
Seeing how much you loved the show and its characters
Things I don't like seeing under the tags. And these are just two very specific things:
How much you hate the show, how much you think a scene is bad, how much you hate a character, the ship, the creators, etc. or how much you dont like this ship anymore, calling a ship horrible because ____ reasons. OKAY! I get it! But I don't want to see that. Make your own hate post on your own blog! You're free to have an opinion on how much you hate something. Just do it on your own blog.
Asking why I leave out certain scenes out, why I decided to gif this scene, or not gif more of these characters. Sometimes, I'm just exhausted. I can overlook things. You guys don't know how draining making gifs can get to me, especially the scenes that are really long. But I do it because I LOVE Arcane, the story, and the characters, and the particular scenes that I make gifs of. I have my own biases too. Of course I’m making them first. Please, just make them yourself instead of complaining under the tags of my edits. Yes, I can see them.
Don’t get me wrong, I wholeheartedly appreciate everyone who supports and follows the blog. I want to make a million more HQ gifs of this amazing show, but sometimes, the very rare negativity can still get overwhelming, to the point where it demotivates you.
Arcane is extremely special to me because it's such a fantastic show, and that alone motivates me in trying to create more GIFs. Honestly, if it was any other fandom or show? I would've probably left already. Arcane is THAT great.
I know the block button is there. I use it too, but sometimes, the amount of effort and time you exert to create FOR FREE just isn’t worth it. And that’s why gifmakers and creators stop making things for fandom. It’s not fun anymore. It’s not worth it.
Some people think that making my style of GIFs is easy. Then great! Since you think so, then do it yourself and help create for the fandom too! I wholeheartedly encourage you to do it!
TLDR: Don't be rude on people's fanwork, especially when they are created FOR FREE. If you don’t like their fanwork, you can make them yourself.
#personal tag#long post#ok i will shut up about this topic but i really really needed to get it out#this is the very last complaint post you’ll see about this fr just let me fully rant abt it just this once#to the people who listened to my grievances thank you too you guys know who you are#and if ur here thank u for reading this#ive pumped out what.... 20 gif sets in three days........ and posting a lot will defo get some irritating comments#i know i cant control them but sometimes u accidentally see some and it just affects you#theres a reason why my inbox comments and mentions are closed and sometimes its because some people can be fucking insufferable#janna give me strength in the next few weeks#and if u see me randomly disappear and stop creating then u know why#but for now my love for the show transcends all of this and im going to try my best to avoid seeing annoying comments on my edits#idk if other gifmakers get it but like..... yeah i hope i can have thicker skin#ive rested and recovered from being tired and demotivated but the whiplash you get at the heat of the moment is insane sometimes lol
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