#me : hates vulnerability

[bookalicent]

yeah so this was insane

[yippee-optimistically]

rarepair post ive been mentioning. surprise its PETALPRAWN 😟😟

these next 2 i am a little obsessed w i think theyre soooo funny

very last doodle is lowk inspired by this post ,, go follow bird theyre awesome

the petalprawn fandom is dying !!!! reblog to make it die faster !!!!!

[ratblazer]

I feel like a fundamental misunderstanding that some writers have with Constantine is that they think he's an innately bad and cruel person at heart.

No!! He's a good person who does bad things! The contradiction of him wanting to be good and BEING good at heart versus the necessary (and sometimes unnecessary but badly thought out) evils he commits is what makes him interesting. He's incredibly flawed, he can be jaded, he can be stupid, he can even be cruel, but under it all, he's good.

[angryducktimemachine]

Aromanticism Zine but it's just my incoherent thoughts.

[sam-sessington-the-third]

outbrust

[piniatafullofblood]

top bakugo bottom deku is so boring you can find thousands of fics with bakugo being this (really ooc imo) swauve rough power top but TOP DEKU BOTTOM BAKUGO is interesting. it’s vulnerable for katsuki it gives izuku the opportunity to be fucking Insane (tm) like we all know he is but you guys aren’t ready for that conversation bc you’re still dressing him in slip dresses and twinkifying the man who nearly ripped his face off to win a school competition

[s0fter-sin]

thinking about nik bodying ghost into his quarters and forcing him to eat a full homemade meal bc he doesn't like seeing how little he enjoys food

he makes him the full gambit of hearty, delicious courses complete with dessert and ghost doesn't know what to do with the obvious act of care and love

ghost seeing food as a necessary task to be forced to complete, something that pulls him away from what actually needs doing. he's never understood comfort food or treats rewarded after a hard day and it breaks nik's heart a little that he's been denied even this simple pleasure

nik using the excuse of wanting to cook something from home, to connect with the culture he abandoned a long time ago and how else can he do that if not by sharing it with someone else? and price, gaz and soap just so happen to all be off base leaving only ghost for him to cook for, what a shame, oh well

ghost can't deny him (not that nik would let him) so he somehow finds himself in his room eating the most delicious food he's ever had in his life

and if nik watches over him after he accidentally falls asleep on his couch, experiencing the first food coma of his life, then that’s his business

[vi-138]

[signanothername]

Dream’s room within Nightmare’s castle

This comic takes place after Nightmare’s theoretical death that I discussed before >:)

A bit of context under readmore

[sleepybitnation]

Noticed an interesting parallel.

For Kaito’s line in chapter 3- it’s when Maki was struggling with her real talent being exposed and hid in her room sorta accepting the fact that everyone views her that way now

For Maki’s line in chapter 5- it’s when Kaito was dealing with the effects of his illness and emotionally distancing from the group in order to maintain the idea that he’s Perfectly Fine

In both of these, they’re aware the other is hiding behind a mask of sorts (for Maki she sees herself as a heartless killer, while Kaito sees himself as the hero everyone relies on), but they also see past that in each other and are aware they are struggling. Hence the concerned looks and Those Lines.

I thought it was cool because their dynamic is often dismissed as Kaito simply helping her, but in reality they were both there for each other and in a way that’s equal rather than him playing “hero” with her. When one of them was suffering, rather than leaving them to deal with it on their own like they’re both used to, they said stuff like this and went out of their way to look out for each other.

I find it interesting how they similarly struggle with feeling like they have to be strong for those who rely on them. It makes sense they’d see right through it in each other because they understand that pain. I love equals

[secriden]

Watching Joong's Hurt Me Please MV with the context of how episode 6 ended and how this is likely a song about Fadel's thoughts and feelings about Style after Finding Out, I wanted to take a deeper look at the lyrics.

I have transcribed the English lyrics on Youtube side by side with a fan translated version (credit: bl_zonee on Twitter) just because there's different shades of meaning between them that I find really interesting and I'm curious which one is the more accurate translation or if both are valid, but just give different nuance. (Perhaps a mutual who understands Thai would be willing to give some insight? *u*)

Verse 1 makes a lot of sense to me: Fadel must be wondering how Style could be so cruel ("unkind" / "heartless") because every instance of Style being honest and asking for honesty in return, all of Style's genuine desperation to bare his heart to Fadel in episode 5 and 6, now looks like a calculated, cruel deception.

And after being so afraid to reveal his secret to Style for fear that it would make Style walk away from him, there's a painful irony in Fadel now wishing Style had walked away before. Because the betrayal hurts so much more now that Fadel has given in to his heart.

The chorus is where the nuance between the translations gets interesting.

The Youtube version seems almost like Fadel is taunting Style, putting up a front that he can take the pain Style is dishing out and more. It's like he's hiding behind the bravado of being able to handle the hurt, and even more.

The MV also depicts Style smiling sadistically after slapping Fadel, as if he's enjoying the pain he's inflicting. Meanwhile, Fadel looks up almost in adoration, a strange softness in his eyes at odds with how cruelly he's being treated. The knowledge of Style's betrayal has turned Style into a monster in Fadel's mind, one which he cannot help but to still have soft, affectionate feelings.

But the fan translation sounds much more hurt and accusatory. Fadel is expressing his pain and anguish much more plainly and "you did this to me" is a line that demands responsibility.

In both translations, though, the last line ("can't get enough" / "enjoying the pain") gives us a hint that Fadel isn't willing to give Style up even now. Despite the pain, despite feeling as if he's simultaneously burning up and drowning, there's a part of him that still wants this. That still wants Style.

Interestingly, as Fadel sings the last line he begins to visibly struggle against the rope tying him to the chair. The soft look vanishes and in place is a determination and shadow that spells trouble for Style. The shock is wearing off and Fadel is starting to fight back.

Verse 2 is where the agony really hits, for me.

In both versions, Fadel recognises the way Style's love was (maybe still is?) precious to him ("your love feeds my soul" / "your love nourished my heart"). But because Style's love is a lie, it's transformed into a weapon ("poison"). It twists Style's love into a source of "hurt" to Fadel.

Which is why I think both versions have a line where Fadel admits that there's a part of him that wants Style to keep hurting him -- or rather, to keep loving him; because these are the same thing to Fadel now -- ("hurt me, make me feel used" / "the more I was hurt the more I enjoyed it") whilst also remaining accusatory ("the more I loved, the more sorrow/I suffered").

The lines about "nothing left to write about our love" / "our story" also feel very pointed and final. A closing of a chapter; a closing of the possibility of their former, uncomplicated happily ever after. Style has nothing left to write (report) back to his superiors (the police) because Fadel's love is already complete and his deception has reached the inevitable conclusion of Fadel being found out/destroyed.

All this happens while we see Style continuing to threaten Fadel with a golf club and an almost crazed expression of glee juxtaposed with flashes of Fadel and Style in much happier times.

Also the fact that this line comes with this scene where Fadel lets Style kiss him despite “knowing” it’s all a lie *sobs uncontrollably*:

The first chorus comes back once and the music reaches a plateau. We are clearly preparing for a drop or a modulation and we get exactly that (twice!) with the second chorus:

Here, both versions converge: Fadel is angry, he's furious. Style hurt him and he's going to repay all of it and more ("you'll hurt [by much more]" / "you must suffer more than I did"). The lyrics tell us that, while Fadel cannot take back the hurt (take back his love), he can certainly ensure he isn't alone in the suffering (this love will also hurt Style).

It is at this part where my heart sank as I realised that Fadel's "I think I love you" line in episode 6 now takes on a much more sinister tone.

Because I think that discovering Style's betrayal was also what made Fadel realise the truth of his love for Style; the very agony he was in was the sign that Fadel's heart was lost to him. But even as it is true, I also think he still made the choice to ruin Style in the same breath. Because if Style could use Fadel’s love as a weapon then Fadel is going to use it (Fadel’s love) to hurt Style too.

A decision was made in this moment, and everything Fadel does afterwards in this scene is deliberate.

There is, however, one piece of hope:

Despite Fadel's expressed fury, what the MV shows us is Fadel breaking out of his bonds, shoving Style back and punching him once and then:

For all his anger, for all his rage, for all his threats of manifold vengeance, what we see is Fadel pressing close and kissing Style; once on the lips, and once on his chest (heart), all while the lyrics makes space for one last plea:

("don't betray me")

For me, its the way the line is shown together with this direct visual parallel between the ignorant Fadel in the past (left) and the Fadel of the present who has seen through Style's deception (right) that I find particularly compelling. Even now, even at the point of Fadel discovering Style's betrayal, there is still hope for forgiveness.

Because Fadel cannot help himself. Because Style made Fadel's bleeding heart whole again; and it beats, it feels, and despite how much it hurts, what Fadel still wants more than anything else in the world -- desperately and simply -- is Style.

[dailypainterpressure]

imaging ‘rescuing’ him is just ‘putting him out of his misery’ and killing him and They Think They’re So Funny. i think the fact that he liked and trusted and got so familiar with us to the point he’s sharing his drawings and his hobby and his PASSION and basically his life and what keeps him going says a lot and makes it so much worse. (reminder he tried to kill himself (overclocking his systems) just to get out of roblux mining and the only thing that stopped him from doing it again was the fact they were letting him draw for like an hour if he did good or something)

like he HAS to kill us because sebastian said he’s helping but he’s made it clear he doesn’t want that. he wants to talk and draw and have those people to do that with again without being under these circumstances. UGH

[mynqzo]

hey. if your looking for a solas x rook fic i have one for u right here im 27k words deep into writing and am offering you this like a cat bringing a dying rat to your doorstep

genuinely. bitch 4 bitch is my fave ship dynamic. i want them to kill each other with hammers

[so-long-soldier28]

theo's situation in 6b is so sad and frustrating, bc what do you mean the deputies kept waking him up but never did anything more than make him move? you're telling me not a single one of them ran the plates of the truck that consistently kept showing up in different parking lots around town? not one of them realized the truck was stolen, nor did they bother to ask him for any ID before making him move? this baffles me, bc of the sheer amount of times they woke him in that montage, yet none of them really ever said a word to him.

and the other thing that bothers me is when he's in the station. he gets arrested for suspicion of murder, and not a single deputy mentions they recognize him? his truck is impounded in the lot out back and they still haven't run the plates? they don't question the bullet holes, nor the fact it was found across the tracks? theo proves himself innocent of the crime; he had no connection to the two found in his company, but they're just going to let him go? sign this piece of paper and go back to the streets? the arrest record had him marked as a juvenile, nobody cared about that?

now i have two theories about this situation, bc it keeps me awake at night - the implication that an entire sheriff's station could be so negligent of a homeless kid in their own small town. one is that the department lacked communication so greatly, anyone who ever came in contact with theo didn't report, nor talk about it. either they just wanted him gone, or he left so quickly, they didn't have time to ask for ID or run plates (which i highly doubt; he was asleep, and they could've run the plates before waking him if they cared / did their job correctly). maybe since he wasn't a great disruption, they didn't see the need to look into the truck, nor the kid occupying it. maybe the deputies aware talked amongst themselves, but never thought it a big enough deal to handle properly. when he came into the station, they whispered, but didn't want to admit he was familiar. when the truck was impounded, they recognized it and didn't bother to run it.

but my other, and more likely theory is that the sheriff didn't care, and therefore, neither did his deputies. maybe they did report it. maybe they ran his plate through the system, determined it was stolen, and made a case to the sheriff, but he waved it off. maybe he told them to just keep him moving, and hoped he'll leave eventually. it could be why none of them bat an eye about letting the juvenile kid without proper ID back onto the street in the bullet-stricken, stolen truck. maybe they cared at one point, but when the sheriff blew them off and tossed their reports in the trash, their concern dwindled, and their empathy went with it. because why would stilinski care at all for theo, when he, himself, threatened to shoot him if he deemed it necessary? stilinski saw him as an evil person for whom he had no use; he was visibly irritated when liam suggested they use his help to fight, and despite having no deputies for support, he still hesitated against liam's idea. theo being reduced to nothing and forced to sleep in vulnerability was - to stilinski - exactly what he deserved for the hell he caused.

and i can understand stilinski being stubborn to trust him. i can see why he'd dislike the idea of relying on him for help, and why he'd prefer to keep him behind bars until he could prove himself useful. but i can't wrap my head around stilinski being okay with neglecting him, knowing he's completely alone and doing nothing about it. signing him out without a care in the world. promising a kid he'd shoot him if he did something wrong. stilinski knowing and ignoring it seems far-fetched at first, until you remember that promise he'd made earlier - with a witness, no less - and then it becomes clear.

[lonelyorchidman]

continuing my tfatws first-time watch through and seeing those moles on his neck clearly for the first time. i need bob to kiss every one of them.

[candycatfalls]

frankly I think we all moved on from the love pages too easily