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bigmack2go · 10 days ago

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Jesus where do i even start with this

Okay so i have too many thoughts on this i couldnt possibly sort all of them out so im only gonna go into the most important ones

First of all: God did NOT only create male and female. There are intersex people and that is a fact and already one way to prove that god did not only create male and female. I can see the sientific facts and still be a Christian. Because that IS a fact. So assuming that God meant for everyone to be man or woman, how are intesex people supposed to know which one? Hmmm… maybe by…. PICKING?! Oh i see! So you CAN choose… i see i see.

Faith/religion and sience can coexist

Remember that pronouns are language and all language was made up. So my pronouns are the last thing that could make me a “bad christian”.

Even the words in the bible have been made up. They were put into words so we can understand them. But those words were made up by humans. Again. This is a fact. Whether the stories are made up is up to the person who chooses to or not to believe in it.

Adding onto that, it had been translated multiple times and also mistranslated a lot over the centuries. So the wording has changed to. So unless you can read the original bible in the original language, don’t even start

Besides there’s a lot of interpretation going on there. I hope you know that.

Also theres a lot of stuff that people don’t even concider about the bible. For example we dont stone ppl for wearing fabric made from two different fibers. (And as a fashion student i know almost certainly you are wearig that too) but guess what the bible says that. Or planting two different crops beside each other? The bible would say you should be burned to death.

Also, even IF god only had created male and female, you can not show me one verse in the bible that says that it isn’t okay to be something else if you wanted that? Like god also said to produce and to add onto his creation 🤯🤯🤯 (which is all completely beside the fact that using those pronouns isn’t even what makes me nonbinary in the first place)

And guess what— your phone, yk the one you typed that ask with, it’s a new creation. I know. Shocker. How come you dont care about that?

And for the record God did not in fact create man and woman only to love each other but also to complement each other. But even if he had, here’s the same thing again— even if he had created man and woman to leave each other, that doesn’t mean he meant for people of the same gender not to.

Also you yourself just used an example that god created humans as his image— guess what! God is genderless. It also says that in the bible. That’s the whole point of god— not a man, nor a woman. So— huh… does that mean that… that we are… since were the image of him… GENDERLESS?! AND WE JUST DECIDED TO MAKE UP DEFERENCES BETWEEN GENDERS?! CRAZY!

And yet we call him “he”. Yunno why? CAUSE LANGUAGE IS MADE UP

Also if jesus says not to judge then why the fuck are you judging me?! Huh?! Why the fuck do you as a minor human being— not even close to the level that god is, allow yourself to decide who is and isnt a sinner or has fallen astray?! No one decides that except God himself.

I dunno what the whole wives submitting to men thing has to do with this but that was also a translation issue.

Apart from all that, i personally believe that faith is a personal experience and that it’s about what you personally believe. It doesn’t mean blind obedience to the bible. Its about what you as a person actually believe, not what Christian communities believe. I don’t believe that a group of people can believe in one exact same thing— everyone thinks that one thing at least is different.

For me personally, i believe in a creator. I believe that there is a life after death. I believe that there is a greater being or form of life and i believe that that people having to suffer after their death, no matter what they did, makes no sense and has no reason and doesn’t help anyone. And Christianity is simply the closest thing to that.

I have a strict moral code and yes, a lot of that is based on the bible but I can still think for myself.

On that note, while i do believe that god has reasons for everything, sometimes too great for us to understand, that doesn’t mean he wouldn’t make them understandable for us or that everything in the bible is just meant to be blindly believed without using ration, reason or logic

And lastly get the fuck off anon. If you really believe what you’re saying then you should at least stand for it. You little pussy what is wrong with you?

Unless of course you’re scared of people knowing who you are and hating on you. In which case, huh… do i smell… disloyalty to the one and only god the creater…? Huh… could have sworn this pers denied their belief in him… crazy

#my posts #mackj #christian faith #christianity #christian #faith #religion #religious #lgbtq #lgbtq+#pride #pride month #trans pride #nonbinary

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slidcshow · 26 days ago

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corteon moore . cis man . he/him . * | look, there goes abel riley ! they're the twenty-six year old i was telling you about … you know the libra ? it's their eighth case with the crew — not counting the one where he couldn’t sleep for three whole days after seeing ‘something shadowy’ in a cave … originally from boston, ma, let's hope their custom leather bound notebook is enough to protect them from losing his memory. most people know them as ambitious and verbose, but don't be surprised if their pretentious side slips out when the lights flicker. this time around, they're signed on as the historian, which makes sense considering they spend most of their time reading like their life depends on it. if you ever need them, try picturing words becoming blurry because you’ve been reading for so long, the weight of family legacy, a third cup of coffee before ten am, & the hum of a copy machine or whispering abe into the walkie or . but beware — if they don't answer, something else might.

STATS

full name: abel honor riley nickname(s): abe hometown: boston, ma birthday: september 30 zodiac: libra sun, capricorn moon, libra rising sexuality: bisexual gender identity: cis man, he/him parents: jerome (64) & dinah (62) riley siblings: older brother (34), benjamin “benji” riley, older sister (30), leah riley height: 6’0” tattoos: none, but he could be persuaded piercings: ears, he had an eyebrow piercing very briefly in college and it got crazy infected and he vowed never to get another piercing again languages spoken: english, spanish, can read and write latin traits: ambitious, outgoing, organized, verbose, pretentious, overcritical label: the thinker likes: waking up early, drip coffee, board games with complicated rules, house plants, libraries with beautiful architecture, honestly any library really, running, pickles, linen shirts, monologuing dislikes: driving, socks with holes in them, those octobuddy phone case things, cracking knuckles, being hot (temperature-wise), cookbooks, mittens, the gym, airpods, people who skim instead of read

character inspo: milo thatch (atlantis), giles (btvs), gretchen (recess), jack hodgins (bones), ross geller (friends)

BACKGROUND

the youngest of the riley family, abel was always expected to succeed; his family was prominent in the community and everyone got into a prestigious line of work

the same was expected of abel, but he was... Different than most of his other family members, especially his siblings (his brother is a doctor and his sister is a lawyer)

he always had an interest in history and Weird Shit, this was only spurred on by summers spent at his grandfather's where he would run around the woods and spend time in his attic, looking at all the old family relics

he and his grandpa were also Absolutely sure that the house was haunted and abel spent many nights trying to find concrete proof

he was very smart and good in school BUT he had no interest in following in the footsteps of his family career-wise, something his dad was absolutely not happy about

when he graduated high school, he went on to study history in college, his family thought maybe he would then use that history degree to pivot to law school but alas no, instead he has goals of getting his phd in history someday

but first! he's happy to spend his time working on the echo files, fulfilling all of their historical needs and handing out VERY thorough powerpoints that he will be mad if you do not read <3

PERSONALITY & HEADCANONS

looooooves to yap, very hard to get him to shut tf up, loves the sound of his own voice

can be a dick sometimes, but not on purpose, he's just condescending and doesn't mean to be

a know-it-all, naturally

neurotic as fuck

cannot operate without caffeine, always has a thermos of coffee on the team's journeys

not smooth at all, if he has a crush? he's about to be the most embarrassing, uncomfortable person ever

he wrote his senior thesis about the history of the occult and occult rituals with a focus on the spiritualism of the late 1800s and early 1900s

has a vast sock collection

is learning arabic, is very loyal to his duolingo streak

has a playlist of film scores that he listens to while researching/working

a #cinephile, his letterboxd four faves: nosferatu the vampyre (the 1979 one), national treasure, indiana jones: raiders of the lost ark, the manchurian candidate (the 2004 one)

he’s a vegetarian 95% percent of the time, every now and then a chicken tender basket really reels him in

ran cross country in high school, was honestly good enough to get a scholarship to college for it, but was kind of like hell no

thought the magic school bus series was based off of real events until he was ten (his older siblings gaslit him)

knows a lot of card tricks, used to be very annoying about it in college

would consider himself a fred from scooby doo but is really a velma

#ptv.intro

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talenlee · 9 months ago

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Union Carbide's Value

The images of this article are ads. They’re ads for a company called Union Carbide, which proudly promoted themselves through the 50s and 60s for the way their chemical plants and development projects were capable of transforming the world. They could bring pesticides to your community, kill the bugs and help you be self-sustaining as a culture, a promise they started in South America, and then made a big, active push to start doing in India.

These ads are now, absolutely unhinged to look at, not just in the 1960s put-your-whole-butt-into-the-project industrial futurism represented by the hands of a vast white man reshaping the world to his wants, but they become even more messed up when you understand what this company wound up doing, and who it wound up hurting, because of its choices.

Content Warning: I’m going to talk about the Union Carbide gas leak disaster in Bhopal, India. It is an incident in which a lot of people were exposed to a dangerous chemical that killed and injured a lot of them (a lot). I’m not going to go into grisly detail and I don’t intend to go in-depth on the process of the accident.

Spoiler Warning: The bad guy is capitalism, again.

In 1984, a pesticide plant built and maintained by a company called Union Carbide India Limited, which was, coincidentally, 50.9% owned by the American company Union Carbide and Carbon Corporation, suffered a catastrophic gas leak that released a chemical agent known as methyl isocyanate (MIC) over the towns around the plant.

This chemical is colourless but has a sharp, pungent odour, which is useful for detecting it as it creeps into your system. One of the things this chemical does that I didn’t know there was a term for was that it’s a lachrymatory agent, which if you recognise that word, you know it because it’s a thing cops throw at you. MIC is not the agent in tear gas, but it’s the same kind of thing that aggravates the eyes and tear ducts. This stuff is safe only up to a volume of .004 ppm, or ‘parts per million’ – a very small amount. You can’t smell it until it hits 5 ppm, at which point it’s gotten real dangerous in how it messes with your body, particularly your nerves.

Notably, MIC is heavier than air, meaning that it crept along the ground as it leaked from the plant, which just so happens to have made it really dangerous to anyone who was low down to the ground compared to standing up, such as children or people sleeping on or near the ground.

Union Carbide’s leak happened at night.

Bonus: It’s flammable.

Arranged around the Bhopal plant were a variety of towns that were made up of people who were there to work for the plant or serve the people who were working for the plant, and of course, their families, which included elders and children. The population around Bhopal was hard to precisely quantify (the central government not being one with a ton of perfect information), but the estimates put it at around 500,000 people living in these spaces who were exposed to the MIC.

Note: That’s not ‘how many people, total, were there.’ That’s how many people the estimates are confident were exposed.

This is one of the reasons why the Union Carbide gas leak in Bhopal is regarded as the worst industrial accident in history.

This is one of those stories that I feel are well-known if you know anything about it at all; you’re either a very normal person whose experience of massive national industrial disasters is about the things you’ve seen in the news or mentioned in other media, or you’re like me and you pay attention to podcasts or Youtube channels or books about how some things went catastrophically wrong somewhere or other, in a sequence of texts that seems to present the idea that maybe capitalism is just bad at taking care of people, weird, I’m sure there’s no particular reason for that.

When it comes to large-scale disasters, especially given its potential environmental impact and recent TV series bringing it back into focus, the general vibe is that Chernobyl was ‘one of the worst disasters in history.’ Which, make no mistake, Chernobyl is and remains one of the worst disasters in history, but it’s in a way we have a hard time measuring, because we tend to look at disasters in terms of their immediate deadly outcomes.

Wikipedia picks a range between 95 deaths and 4,000 deaths for Chernobyl, which is again, a simplification of its values. But in raw dead, we can point to Chernobyl killing about 4,000 people based on whatever pixies Wikipedia gets its information from. To contrast with that, the estimated dead from the Union Carbide leak in Bhopal starts at 3,787 dead, near the height of estimates for Chernobyl. When you look at the people individually impacted, Pripyat, the city by Chernobyl had a population of 49,000 people exposed to the potential harm of the reactor. The Bhopal gas leak impacted again, half a million people.

One really easy thing to point to is that Chernobyl happened in a Soviet state and the victims were white, while Bhopal is a very clear example of an American, capitalist company that messed up in a way that killed a lot of brown people. Make no mistake, the racism is part of it, and the normalcy of it too – after all, companies have accidents sometimes, oops, guess that’s just part of it.

When I wrote about Chernobyl I talked about how hard it was to properly consider the scale of the disaster because of the way actual immediate deaths were rare while an enormous number of people were heavily impacted by the disaster in ways that shortened their lives. Bhopal is kind of so much worse because also, yeah, a lot of people died, and also the land around the place was really permanently damaged, and the harm was so vast there was no way to really address it, and also because the harm was so vast, well what are you going to do about it, not like Union Carbide could fix the problem they caused with their negligence.

The system of systems in which we live is one where half a million people injured is an acceptable problem because once it’s happened, it can’t be addressed. Causing problems on such a vast scale is acceptable, because you can’t do the one thing that makes it right (which is give them money). It’s a vision of justice that is purchased, that all things in life can be measured and weighted in terms of their relationship to money. If they hurt enough people enough, then there’s no way they can reasonably make good on that, they can’t afford to pay it back, and so…

That’s just gotta be okay.

Maybe the government will help you.

This kind of externality is pretty normal under capitalism. In 1952, a weather event meant that the pollution that the city of London was generating settled down on the city for a few days, creating a severe weather event that killed somewhere between 10,000 to 12,000 people. Turns out that was just enough people dying that the government could make a good case for starting a set of laws to address that and make it so the air in London was livable, and it only took four more years to get that done.

Union Carbide is still around, you know. The company was acquired by Dow, because its stock price was hurt a lot by the disaster they caused in Bhopal (and the disaster they caused in West Virginia, and disaster they caused here in Australia over land damage). After the Union Carbide Gas Leak Disaster in Bhopal, they sold off brands they had to try and generate money, which includes Glad trash bags (which we use) and Eveready Batteries (which I’m sure I have some of in the house). They were bought out by Dow, for stock.

They were worth 11 billion dollars when they were bought, and now they exist as just a part of Dow. They made about 4 billion dollars in 2019, which is down overall. Turns out you just can’t make the same kind of profits as you could when you were able to cut enough corners that half a million people were exposed to your flammable tear gas leaks.

It’s enough to make you wonder how these systems can be captured, can be punished, can be made to address the violence they do. Is it right to murder a company? Is it right for the state to execute them? If the company isn’t responsible, what about the person in that company who made the choice? If they did so, knowingly, how many people is the threshold for your personal willingness to kill in the name of maximising profits?

About 5 million people a year die thanks to abnormal temperatures.

Check it out on PRESS.exe to see it with images and links!

#Media

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stephenjaymorrisblog · 2 years ago

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There is a Christo-fascist in the House!

Stephen Jay Morris

10/28/23

©Scientific Morality.

I remember it vividly. During the Vietnam war in the 60s, the overall sense of helplessness among Americans as the U.S. Air Force dropped bombs on Vietnamese villages full of children, mothers, elderly people, and other innocent humans. The government said that the Viet Cong were among the peasants and was using them as human shields. Those civilians were merely “collateral damage.” In other words: oops! It got to the point, during the anti-war movement, where every tactic we employed was futile. Demonstrations, civil disobedience, voting for liberal Democrats. The killing continued. So, what could we do? A group of militants from SDS became “The Weathermen” and utilized terrorist methods, like planting bombs in public buildings or at corporate headquarters. It didn’t work!

Doesn’t that sound familiar? You see, if you criticized the U.S. government then for its war strategies, you were “anti-American.” The Conservatives were stanch supporters of the war in Vietnam. After all, not only was this a war against communism, it was also a war on yellow people! Bumper stickers abounded on 10-year-old cars: “Love it or leave it!” along with antenna-mounted American flags! My favorite Bumper sticker was: “Don’t like the police? Next time you are in trouble, call a hippie!” One thing they used to talk about was the man-made tunnels in which the Viet Cong hid.

The same thing exists in Gaza city; Hamas has tunnels everywhere! That is why Israel must flush them out by carpet bombing the city! So, if civilians are crushed under collapsing buildings, oh well. Blame it on Hamas! If they’d never attacked Israel, then nobody would have gotten hurt! In this war, if you criticize Israel, you are Anti-Semitic! History repeats itself, repeatedly.

The primary reason I hate Hamas is because they are Theocrats. They want Palestine to be an Islamic state. Israel is a Secular democracy and an asylum for Jews in the diaspora. There are some Judeo-Fascists who want to turn Isael into a Theocratic state, as well as a separatist state for Jews only. “Kick out all non-Jews!” This was the Rabbi Kahani doctrine when he was Aliyah to Israel. He was the founder of the American Jewish Defense League. They were a Right wing militia group for Jews. Got the picture?

Here is more bad news: The MAGA Republicans are one step closer to making America a Christian state. In Congress, the Republican majority just elected a certified Christian-Nationalist to be Speaker of the House. If that doesn’t put a chill in your spine, then you must be high on meth! Maybe you ought to forget your family problems and show a little concern. If not, well I don’t give a happy shit! You got so many warnings from the Anti-Authoritarian Left. If you believe it’s only a shower, then take off your clothes and walk in and get a whiff of Zyklon B. When Democrats warn you about the dangers of a fascist state, then you know you are the deep state. The Democrats never used the word, “fascist” until now.

You should worry. When the God Squad enters your homes and conducts a search for anti-American books and other Satanic contraband, then hauls you into Jesus’ camp for owning an art book full of photos of 17th Century paintings of nude, fat women, then you will say, “The far out Left was correct! Politically correct! Go ahead—laugh now, cry later.

Me? I will protect my family the best I can, but I will laugh at your tears the way you laughed at me. I will get the last laugh.

#stephenjaymorris #poets on tumblr #youtube #anarchism #anarchopunk #anarchocommunism #american politics #anarcho punk #anarcho syndicalism #anarchofeminism #anarcho primitivism #atheism #agnostisizm

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leviathanverse · 1 year ago

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Chapter 21: Soft side Inosuke

No matter how much you tried, you couldn't stop thinking about the death of the Apatasaur.

The dinosaur, the I-rex, proved itself to be able to take down sauropods. Not to mention an Apatasaur.

If it was able to kill a sauropod, then there was no doubt that it would take all of you down. Not Zika or Nezuko, you think.

Both were dromeoasaurids, and were capable of short flight. Not to mention maybe a bit faster and great tree climbers.

No- EXCELLENT tree climbers. They had the claws and muscle power to climb those large plants.

" Um- we might have a problem?"

" Oh no... what is it?"

" The raptors- they are communicating with the I-rex."

" That- that's impossible!"

Zika and Nezuko seemed to understand everyone's shock and fear. You saw them start to comfort your new friends out of the corner of your eye.

" I think not."

You turned to look at Inosuke. He looked serious for once. Not being stupid or rash. Just- just straight up serious.

" What do you mean, Inosuke?"

" I think that thing,"

He pointed at the I-rex communicate with the raptors. His green eyes narrowed at the screen.

" is part raptor."

" WHAT?!"

" Whatever DNA they cooked up in that lab to create it, would have to contain T-rex DNA and Velociraptor DNA. Might be possible that it has other dinosaur DNA in its genetic code."

Now he was talking Greek. But, to be fair, you didn't understand a word he just said. You almost thought he was a different person for a split second.

But you recognized him when you saw him focused on reality again. This was one crazy and confusing person ever.

" I am sorry, but since when could you be this serious?"

" Shush, Zinetsu!"

" Eh?"

At this point, you and Inosuke watched Tanjiro begin to scold Zinetsu. Zika and Nezuko just sat behind you two.

Inosuke and you turned to look at each other, before slowly looking back at the chaos that had ensued

What a wonderful thing to watch.

" Should I..."

" Eh, Gonpachiro should be fine."

You just didn't question it, and went back to looking at the cameras. You didn't see the four dromeoasaurids and the I-rex anymore.

That wouldn't be good. Not when it came down to your escape plan. Now you had to look for other ways to get to the lab!

Fantastic!

It was going to be a long time of planning. Not to mention the fact how hungry everyone was except you.

Maybe it was because you were used to not eating a lot in one day? You have been able to not eat for an entire day.

But looking at your friends...

...

You turned your head to look over your shoulder. Zika and Nezuko were to worry about.

Zika could only eat so many insects while Nezuko needed to eat meat. She was a carnivore after all.

You were worried about Inosuke the most. He was VERY stubborn, but the way he held his stomach?

It was as if he was trying to ease the pain.

You gritted your teeth. You didn't like seeing anyone in pain. Despite Inosuke being stubborn and a prick, you saw him as a good friend.

" ..."

You sighed, rubbing your temples as a migraine hit you. Probably from getting almost no fluids in your body.

You resumed back to the cameras. Camera 06-0 had nothing going on and same for the other cameras.

All except camera 09-8.

And what you saw terrified you. You almost screamed, but shock thankfully prevented you from doing so.

Camera 09-8 showed the Spinosaurus inching closer to where you had entered. You were terrified.

" DROUKA!"

Inosuke yelled so suddenly, causing you to jump in the air. You quickly whipped your head in time to see him open the bunker door and leave.

" Inosuke! No-"

" And he is gone."

You groaned, before going to the door and closed it.

After you had gone out of the bunker yourself. You could hear Tanjiro and Zinetsu yell at you from the bunker.

" I am regretting this already."

You weren't joking. You were regretting your actions and choice. You shouldn't have left the bunker.

Left Zika and the other three...

You just had to find Inosuke, stop him from trying to punch the Spinosaurus and go back! It couldn't be that complicated, right?

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You were wrong.

It was a lot more complicated than you had thought originally. It wasn't very simple when you were lost in the tunnels.

Not to mention having a Spinosaurus being in the tunnels as well. He had chased you away from the smaller tunnels and into the larger ones.

Clever dinosaur.

" Stop squirming!"

You whispered to Inosuke, who was struggling in your hold. For a woman, you were very strong.

Well- not as strong as Mitsuri, but strong enough to keep someone in place. Inosuke was being a bit of an angry ch-

" Oh crumbles..."

You made sure to hold your hand over his mouth when the Spinosaurus began inching closer to where you and Inosuke hid.

He kept making noise, the muffled sounds drawing the dinosaur closer to where you two had hid.

" Shut up!"

You whacked him with your other hand, and he immediately stopped. You panicked, thinking you had knocked him out.

He just put his hand over yours that had covered his mouth. His touch was gentle. Not to mention that he had very soft skin.

He didn't make any more sounds. He seemed to understand your fear, and decided to stay quiet for your sake.

Maybe he wasn't such a prick after all.

The dinosaur's snout was next to you both. Teeth as white as can be inches away from you both.

You squeezed your eyes shut, sweating. You tried so hard to not let your breathing quicken.

You hoped so hard to not pass out. To let the dinosaur to find you both. You felt Inosuke squeeze your hand reassuringly.

You felt reassured, but not enough to calm down. He was acting... so caring and soft towards you now. It felt... nice.

Why?

Why was he acting like this? Why now put of all times? Was it because you were panicking that much?

You prayed for the Gods to spare you. Silently. Hopefully you going to receive mercy from them.

But they weren't. They weren't going to show mercy. They were showing no mercy to you after giving you a break. They were waiting for this moment. To see you suffer, a nice concoction of fear and other negative emotions in their cocktails. They were enjoying this path a lot.

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abandonedshops · 2 years ago

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screaming crying LOOK at my pink syngonium you WILL love her

#i don't name my plants but idk shes pretty maybe ill figure one out #5$!!!!!!!!!!! and the one at my other plant store was 10 and was a mango splash which i already had #i think this is strawberry cream :) but idk how to id well i just guess and its whatever #maybe pink allusion. i cannot tell the difference in cultivars that look near identical unless i have both in front of me irl #maybe those are the same thing. the plant community has so many words and i have the brain space of a rock

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undiscovered-horizon · 3 years ago

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Dark!Druig Headcanons

[check out the 500 followers special!]

I have finally watched Eternals and now I understand why y'all are so obsessed with this man because same

This is a concept that is neither new nor uncommon

But my God do I love it

So let's dive into it

You’re part of the commune, just living your best rustic cottagecore life without a care about the outside world

Goals tbh

And it’s a perfectly normal day when Druig takes notice of you

It’s not like you’ve just appeared, you were born there

Druig may have been looking but he wasn’t seeing

You’re just carrying a basket of produce, waving and smiling at the children running around

And it’s as if Arishem himself bitch slapped Druig

He eavesdrops on your thoughts and comes to the realization that you’re the personification of human virtues, without an ounce of vice

Druig is watching you from a distance like one watches a wild animal in its natural habitat, careful not to disturb it. He also begins to follow you around

And as much as he would like to show the humankind what it can be, a weird fear clouds his mind

What if the world corrupts you? What if your virtues are delicate enough to be devoured by the odiousness of darkest desires?

No, he can’t risk that

And with that thought, he approaches you for the very first time in an attempt to see if your words are as chaste as your image in his head

Ever since Druig quite clearly suggests that you should "surrender" yourself to his protection and live like you deserve

Pointing out the possible dangers lurking around and the fact that not all people have pure intentions and that he, and only he, could keep you safe and sound

The vision of the world he presents to you is definitely embellished for certain purposes

The proposition, although kind, is met with rejection: it’s not that you don’t like Druig or don't believe his words, you just like your simple, rustic life

It’s a very rewarding lifestyle, to know that your mangoes, rumberries, grapefruits and avocados feed the community you love and care about

Man I love fruit

Besides, Druig has done so much for you, your family and the entire community. He would have no reason to deceive you, would he?

Druig's not keen on negotiations

I mean, you are just a human after all, right? He’s a timeless space being, he probably knows better

You’ll love staying by his side! You just don’t know it yet

So the next bit you’ve, kind of, brought unto yourself. Until you see reason, Druig doesn’t have many options, does he?

He starts off with more subtle things like mind-controlling everyone into alienating you

There are two reasons for that: 1) he doesn't want to risk anyone tainting your kindness and gentleness, and 2) if no one engages in a relationship with you, the loneliness will bring you straight to him

Yes, the idea of being your savior has been occupying his mind for quite some time

Your friends don't have the time to talk to you, some people start to completely ignore you, and your family is genuinely disinterested in you

He fights with his own thoughts about whether he should plant a seed of dislike in your head towards those around you: sure, it would make this whole ordeal easier for him but wouldn't it be a speck of dirt on your otherwise chaste spirit? In the end, he settles for unwavering ambivalence

Druig knows he's breaking your heart, he hears it in your thoughts, but it's a step towards the greater good: sometimes you have to lose first to win later.

So don't be surprised when you wake up one day to a thought in your head that maybe venturing alone into the woods isn't a good idea and that maybe you should stop by Druig's and see how he's doing

But it's rude to show up at someone's house empty-handed, so you bring some fruit with you

Druig definitely got you to hand-feed him grapes or berries

Depending on how receptive you are to his coercion, he might put himself into your dreams

Especially if you're having a nightmare, "saving" you from whatever's bringing you woe

He could, of course, plant an entirely new dream into your head but where's the fun in that? Druig plays his cards well

Even if consciously you know it's just a dream and none of it is real, you can't help your subconscious mind being more drawn towards Druig - just the way he planned everything

In all honesty, it would be less than child's play to make you devoted to him but such a scenario can't quite satisfy the itch inside him. He longs for you to choose to be by his side like a game he plays to win and although he does cheat in this game, the win is a lot less satisfying when the game is rigged to your favor __________ @restingbitchsblog

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yummyyume · 4 years ago

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Maribat soulmates AU

I wrote most of it a year ago, but never got around to posting it. It’s probably been done before, but I’m a sucker for soulmate AU, so you people are getting it anyway.

Hope you all like it!

I apologize for any spelling or grammar errors, English is not my first language. I hope it’s still intelligible.

General headcanons for the AU:

-Soulmates share the same skills set. When one knows how to do something, the other can do it too. They have the same proficiency, but it gets adapted to their body type, their way of life and their personality and behavior. (ex: Marinette and Damian can both use the katana, but they don’t parry the same way or use the same combinations of attacks.)

-They know when the skill they’re currently using come from their soulmate. It’s like a small acknowledgement at the back of their mind.

-When they meet face to face, they recognize each other immediately.

-When Marinette really starts to talk, Arabic and Mandarin words are as present in her vocabulary as French words.

-Sabine is delighted that her baby girl’s soulmate has roots in her culture too. Tom starts looking up Arabic words to try to understand what she is saying. With only a baby pronunciation to get by, it is slow going.

-When Marinette is old enough to understand that she could speak Arabic and Mandarin thanks to her soulmate, she decides that it’s not a fair trade. She gets two languages from them and they only get one! She settles on learning Italian with Nonna Gina.

-Marinette is very agile and light on her feet.

-She knows that baking is her skill, but cooking is her soulmate’s. Every time she helps her maman with diner, she feels like someone is backing her up at the back of her mind. A warm presence easily overlooks. Like ‘oh yeah, it’s your skill. Thank you for sharing.’

-Arabic, Mandarin and cooking are the only thing she really gets from her soulmate. Or so she thinks. Assassin’s skills aren’t exactly useful in the day to day life of a French bakery.

-When she becomes Ladybug, she thinks that the acrobatics are thanks to the magic suit. Until she finds herself with a sword in her hands and suddenly, she isn’t so sure anymore.

-Ladybug’s suit includes a black utility belt made of little pouches with self-sealing flaps and full of all sort of things: zip ties, a gas mask (perfectly functional despite its small size – don’t question the magic), an infra-red flashlight, a fingerprint kit, skeleton keys, smoke bombs, flash bombs, a rebreathing apparatus, a miniature voice recorder, a basic first-aid kit. Everything is bright red with black polka dots. Even the zip ties.

-After a careful inventory of her utility belt, Marinette acknowledges that probably half of it is the result of soulmate influence. Tikki had told her that generally her Chosens only use their yo-yo and Marinette would never have thought of zip ties on her own.

-Damian knows that he has a soulmate because he can speak French and Italian like a native when he only ever learnt Arabic and Mandarin.

-He scoffs at the thought of a soulmate. He’s an Al Ghul and his grandfather’s heir, he has no need for such frivolities. When he’ll met his soulmate, he’ll either recruit them for the League or kill them, depending on what his mood will be that day and their level of uselessness.

-He starts learning English when he’s nine following his mother’s orders. If he’s to be his father’s heir, he needs to be able to communicate with him and the various ‘children’ the man adopted over the years. He thinks his soulmate is helping him by learning English words he hasn’t learnt yet. He doesn’t dwell on it.

-It isn’t until he starts living with his father in Gotham that he starts to see soulmates in a new light. Richard Grayson’s soulmate is Starfire. Timothy Drake’s soulmate is Superboy. He can’t win against either of them. Maybe his soulmate won’t be useless after all.

-Damian has a hard time falling asleep in a house full of highly trained strangers at first. He starts exploring the Manor, before ending in the kitchen. Following instincts that aren’t his own, he makes chocolate-chip cookies. While preparing the dough, he can feel a warm almost-there presence at the back of his mind. He starts doing it every night. Sometimes he tries new recipes. They all turn pretty good. No one ever bother him.

(-They have all already checked the camera feed to see what he was up to. And if baking is relaxing him, they aren’t going to comment. He’s enough of a prickly porcupine, no need to put him even more on the defensive.)

-Damian grows to love his family. And maybe his soulmate, whoever they were.

-Amelia Brody is Marinette’s class interpreter and tour guide for the duration of their school trip in Gotham. She’s cheerful and excited to show her city to those children. She’s a bit weirded-out by the class dynamics but put it down to French people, until it’s time to tour Wayne Enterprise.

-They’re just finishing touring the open-to-visitors part of WE when she realizes that Marinette is rooted to the spot and facing the ‘employees only’ elevators a few meters away.

“Marinette?” she calls, coming closer. “Is everything alright?”

The girl blinks at her, eyes wide, before looking back at the elevators.

“I-I don’t… I’m sorry… I just… Soulmate?”

Some of the other teenagers scoff.

“Quit making a scene, girl.” Alya rolls her eyes.

Amelia has been getting to know those children for days and she saw how Marinette was treated, how everyone believed Lila’s grand tales and it’s not her place to interfere, even less so when she doesn’t have the full picture, but when she sees Marinette force herself to take a step back, shoulders hunched up, she swipes out her phone to call security and informs them of the situation.

A few minutes later, a dark-haired man cheerfully joins them. Amelia is standing like a barrage between Marinette and the things her classmates are murmuring about the girl while Caline Bustier imitates a pot plant. (Amelia is going to write a long report on this class, just watch her). Still, Amelia is very relieved to see Dick Grayson. (She manages to keep the fangirling down to a mental squeal, thank God)

“So, you’re feeling your soulmate is upstairs?” he asks Marinette.

“I’m sorry,” she replies like a reflex, looking down at her shoes.

“Don’t be! Let’s go see if we can find them!”

Everyone piles up in the elevator. There’re so many people working at WE that the elevators are all very spacious.

It’s not quite a skill that make Marinette push the top floor button, but it’s not that different from muscle memory. Her soulmate has pushed this button so many times, that Marinette doesn’t even hesitate. Dick’s eyes lit up at her actions. After all there’s not a lot of people at the top floor who can be her soulmate. He doesn’t quite like the tone of her classmates even if he can’t understand what they’re saying, but the tour guide’s expression is a sign to behold, so he doesn’t think he’s imagining the insults.

-When the elevator’s doors open again, Marinette makes a beeline for the central office just as the door opens and a young man with dark hair and green eyes exits with a puzzled frown.

Their eyes meet.

“Hi,” Marinette blushes, incapable of looking anywhere else.

“Hello,” Damian replies, voice soft.

#yume writes #Maribat #Daminette #marinette dupain cheng #marinette x damian #ml x dc #Damian x Marinette #Maribat au

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autistic-lalli · 3 years ago

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this one’s more of a fic idea than an analysis ask, but what do you think Onni’s POV during adventure 1 would be like if we’d seen more of it?? What was the lad thinking the whole time???

-endearingsalt

In a word or two? Guilt and anxiety.

Onni is painted as this timid, afraid older brother who stays behind out of fear, but that’s not actually that accurate. Yes, Onni stays behind—but then he leaves, on his own, to catch up with the Västerströms in Sweden. Onni, who hasn’t left Keuruu in the last ten years, and hasn’t left Finland ever, ventures out alone.

The interesting thing, though, is that Onni’s entire plotline is pretty stationary, from a purely physical perspective. He has plenty of movements and character moments in the dreamsea, but that’s about it. He spends the vast majority of the adventure just... in the Västerström’s house. (And a good chunk of that he spends in just one room, considering he sleeps on the couch by the radio.)

It’s easy to miss because we don’t see much of Onni’s POV, but Onni and Lalli are distinct foils of one another. Onni faces many of the same choices and hardships as Lalli; Onni is simply the darker outcome.

Let’s start with that physicality: Onni leaves Keuruu, yes, but then plants firmly for the majority of Adventure 1. He doesn’t even leave his dreamspace all that often, comparatively—only when absolutely necessary (I can think of... two instances off the top of my head? When he rescues Lalli and also when Reynir takes him to see Pastor A. Maybe there’s one more.)

Lalli, meanwhile, leaves for the expedition, and also spends a surprising (and perhaps unwise) amount of time outside his area in the dreamsea.

Zooming out, we find more parallels between Onni and Lalli. They experience the same kinds of isolation; it’s just less visible in Onni’s situation.

(Actually, Onni’s experience also fits into the language barrier as a metaphor for neurodivergence paradigm, I just didn’t talk about him in that post. And he also fits nicely into this whole framework as well.)

Onni speaks Icelandic, but it’s not his first language—we know that he has a heavy accent, doesn’t read or write well in Icelandic, and overall seems to struggle with it. So, while he can communicate with the team in Sweden, it doesn’t come easily. Onni and Lalli both experience isolation, and a great deal of that isolation is built into the situation by virtue of intelligibility.

Taking it one step further, Onni and Lalli also experience the same kind of doubt and... almost microaggressions? Because of their magic abilities. No one else around Onni understands his history, no one understands what Onni does, and so no one takes him seriously. Yes he cries, yes he meditates, yes he can talk to Lalli without the radio, he is traumatized and sees ghosts just leave him alone!!

But this defense mechanism works a little too well. We don't see much of Onni's day-to-day during Adventure 1, but, even in those highlights, Onni is largely left alone. His physical needs are taken care of, but does he engage in the emotional and social support of the household? Absolutely not. I give Taru and the Västeströms enough credit to have offered emotional support, someone to talk to, but one, any help offered would be deeply ineffective by virtue of the situation and the people involved, and two, do you think Onni would be even remotely vulnerable with people who are basically strangers? Absolutely not.

So. We've established that Onni and Lalli are foils. They come from similar trauma, have similar skills, and similar weaknesses. (With this relationship there's also a foil point to be drawn between Emil and Reynir in relationship to their respective Finns, but that's a much more divisive post.) But all of this means nothing in the face of the most important difference between Onni and Lalli:

Lalli is ready to change, Onni is not. This is a harder thing to point to directly, because it’s mostly the lack of rather than the presence of something. But, while Onni has his moments of bravery, he is still very afraid, and that fear drives his actions. He’s afraid of change. And, in the end, letting go of his grief and trauma is change. Recovering from mental illness can be terrifying, because it’s a shift in reality. It’s unfamiliar and painful in a new way.

BUT your ask was about Onni's POV in Adventure 1. Taking all of the above, what can we conclude about Onni's subtext and journey?

In a word or two? Guilt and anxiety.

Anxiety because he's not there, and the Kade makes things more difficult and restricts both his and Lalli's movements. Anxiety because this is the first time he's ever been separated from Tuuri and Lalli since they were in quarantine after Saimaa. Anxiety because he thinks of Tuuri and Lalli as little kids, barely able to take care of themselves.

(This doesn't even begin to get into what Onni secretly thinks of himself. He'd never admit it, but Onni doesn't think he can do any of this alone, either. Tuuri and Lalli have lost their support system, but more importantly, Onni has lost his.)

That said, I do think Onni was exercising a lot of discipline during Adventure 1 as well. He could have checked on Lalli every night of the expedition. It's marginally safer for him to cross the dreamsea, and he can move faster. But he didn't. Fear probably played into that, but this also means he refused the fear that wanted him to cling to Lalli. He had so little control over the entire situation; I imagine being able to exert some control over himself was the greatest reassurance he had.

And the guilt? He has guilt because he didn't go. Guilt because he abandoned them.

And that's the thing: Onni believes that he is 100% responsible for Tuuri's death. He didn't go because he was too afraid, and his fear cost Tuuri's life. That's why he leaves in Adventure 2--he has another chance, and he's trying to do the right thing by Lalli.

#this ask has sat drafted in my inbox for months #just couldn't quite get it coherent #still not quite where I wanted it #but eh #sssscomic #stand still stay silent #onni hotakainen #meta #analysis #my shit

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rivendellsstuff · 4 years ago

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𝐀𝐃𝐎𝐑𝐄 𝐘𝐎𝐔 ━━━ 𝐋𝐄𝐕𝐈 𝐀𝐂𝐊𝐄𝐑𝐌𝐀𝐍

𝐀𝐝𝐨𝐫𝐞 𝐘𝐨𝐮 | ❝In despair, he condemns his desires. Regretted, he know the consequences would be eternal and all he wanted was you. Your fiery personality, bright lips and soft skin.❞

𝐖𝐨𝐫𝐝 𝐜𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐭: 2310;

Genre: friends to lovers;

𝐃𝐢𝐬𝐜𝐥𝐚𝐢𝐦𝐞𝐫: Mentions of canon-typical violence. The first chapter is set before the events of the first season. Friends with benefits — so, it'll be eventual smut (like, a lot!)

𝐀𝐮𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐫'𝐬 𝐧𝐨𝐭𝐞: English isn't my natives language, so if you spot a misspelled word or anything else, feel free to let me know.

━━━━ 𝐅𝐈𝐑𝐒𝐓 𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐏𝐓𝐄𝐑

Some men's whish the glory, others crawl like snakes by power and there is those who live like rats in the system. However, there is a exception — and his names is Levi Ackerman. Emerged from the underground, by dust and blood, forged as a weapon at an early age and steeped in pride, he raised as humanity's strongest soldier. He carries a doctrine, imbedded in his bones: he serves to humanity, the balance and the freedom of mankind. If there is a threat, he is the man who can fight against it, ranging from cruel people to evil titans.

He was born in cruel times and did his best to survive in the Underground. He found a glory he wasn't looking for. Something many wish to through their lives, but which, for him, was irrelevant. They all bleed, they all are stuck on the Walls and share the same ended chapter: the death. The final outcome is not defined by possessions, achievements or privileges in life. The only difference was that could get death any easier and painless. Levi was not a hypocrite: he would rather a peaceful death, lying on his bed, instead of being eaten by a titan.

He rather — and is all what it is. It wasn't like if he had any choice. The Ackerman's family were designed to protect the people and to fight. They were cursed with a power. Some people could say it is a miracle in dark times. Others would argue that mans were corrupted, cruel and too ambitious to deal with that awakened power. Well, Levi knows, that no everyone were worthy to possess such ability — Kenny, that asshole, was one of them.

However, there was kind strange situation. An only exception, an affliction that hung over through the heart and maddened his mind: you.

Desire wasn't a word enough to define how he feels close to you, a fearless female warrior, who destroy each barrier he has built over the years, causing delirium with the thought of you hurt. Levi knew he would have taken a checkmate just by desiring you.

But when it all starts? He couldn't say with sure. Maybe, when he, Farlan and Isabel were recruited by the Survey Corps, and you were the only one who spoke to them without undriveable mock and trial. You, besides Erwin, didn't seem to care where they came from. As deeply loyal as you were to your comrades, you didn't depend on your interactions with them for take a direction — you were content to follow your own passions and desires without input from anyone else.

Maybe it started when he saw you in battle or an a argue with a member of Military Police Regiment. Fear is not in yours's vocabulary when you are on the battlefield or when you are speaking her mind to others.

As their partnership grew, he'd find some similarities between you, but also many differences.

You, just like him, has little patience for any form of prose or riddles when you are communicating with others. You speak bluntly and without pretense, and expects others to do the same, prefers to get to the point and doesn’t seek to romanticize your expectations or intentions. You also are focused on the present issues and what role you can play in protecting the people that you love, what can prevent you from seeing the future results of your present actions and, unlike him, does result in some impulsive and risky — yet brave— actions.

All these little things over the years, made him fall in love with you, and Levi had ways to say it without saying "I love you".

Like that night.

He wasn't hiding his disgust face when handed you a cup full of that steaming, black liquid; the simply smelling coffee could make your stomach turn, but still, he prepares a cup for you every night.

As the second in the command, you have spent several evenings together conducting the next advances of the squadron. So, there you are, sitting next to him, eyes focused on the paper, turning the pen between your fingers and... biting your lower lip.

Occasionally, almost instinctively Levi raises his eyes to you. Being so close of you was it's a unique feeling. The smell of your perfume as stunning, and his throat closes around the words he would like to say. The tension that has been brought in was too dangerous for someone like him.

Fucking woman, fucking lips. Fuck you!

''Is there a problem?'', you inquired making eye contact for the first time that night. He couldn't say if there was perversion when you wet your own lips, but Levi felt his muscles become tense and contracted when you made it.

Levi responded with a faint whimper before observed: ''You shouldn't be drinking so much coffee at this time. You look like shit when don't get sleep''.

Lie. Fucking hell, you're always beautiful, but no way he'd say what he thought.

You rolled your eyes. ''It's you who did'', you put forth.

''I wasn't in the mood to put up with a brat attitude from you.''

''Brat? You know that we have about the same age, don't you?'', your gaze traveled from the figure sat in front of you to the window, confused as to why you would be embarrassed about his presence. You took in a breath before adding: ''Anyway, don't want sleep.''

There was a pause for a few seconds. You and he eyed each other.

''Why?'', he asks, authoritative one.

You shrugged and shook your head firmly. ''It doesn't matter.''

''If it doesn't matter, why would I have asked that?''

"Cause you're snooper”, you smirked.

''I'm not a snooper, brat."

He felt his heart begin to quicken when you carried the pen to your lips and start biting.

"Yes, you are a horrible snooper old man, bossy and with an astonishing mania for cleanliness."

"Old? You know we have about the same age”; he repeats. His eyes drifted back to your face, noticing your gaze had shifted again to the woods beyond the window. "And you're avoiding the question", he softly says (at least as softy as he could be), interrupting your rampant thoughts. "Are you alright?"

Levi watches in silence as you'd shoulders slump.

"I can't sleep. My mind has the scary capability of being evil, although I always thought that one day it'd get better", you're voice was low and flat, quiet and a little sad as you spoke to Levi, who seemed to know what are you exactly referred to and only nodded at your words. "I feel guilty. All the time."

Even in the darkness the room held, your eyes find his greys one like the starlight's.

''Are you afraid of your dreams, too?'', you asked, never expecting the humanity strongest soldier to have any fears.

'Yes'', he said quietly.

You nodded with hesitation, his words repainting in your head as you struggled to forma a sentence to answered.

Levi was used to such sadness, he had month's — no, years — to griever over the deaths of his mother and friends. Death was not uncommon thing in his life. His childhood who should be carefree, playing in the sun, was like a living nightmare, learning to fight in the darkness of Underground. Later, when he left the place to join the Survey Corps, he accepted to live in that never ending tragedy that people had sadly grown used to. Death was more common in that job than anything else, and he knows how badly it fuck with his mind.

“I’m beginning to think we’re a lot alike… you and me. We’re both strange cast, who’ve learned to fight when we’re backed into a corner'', you began weakly.

''Well, we’re backed into a corner now. Two fucking insomniacs”, he shook his head, thinking about your words. He didn't seem to like the way your voice sounded sadder. You raised your eyes to him again as he slowly spoke: ''You're not alone''

You answered a tiny smile onto your lips. Levi felt his cheeks burn and opposite glanced to your empty coffee cup, thinking that he'll able to always tolerate your strange addiction.

A few second later you both went back to work, and Levi was left with words stuck, temptation planted in the mind and a sure thing for him: the insomniac nights would become better by you.

【 ━━ 】

Inside Wall Sheena, guests were arriving, among them five members of the Scout Regiment - consisting mostly of commanders - walked through the gates, exuding self-confidence, bitter to participate in that boring and stupid meeting.

Little lies, little social sacrifices to feed what kept the Scout Regiment going: funding.

It was not necessary to be an expert in politics to see beyond the traditional veil of those events, to perceive the intentions of certain parliamentarians, very sadistic. Knowing it was part of your job to relate to these kinds of people annoyed you.

For one minute, you saw out of the corner of your eyes, the first on your command. The man of grey eyes used a black suit that fits perfectly. Be present in an event with so many politics didn't seem to his liking. Was kind of hard for all of you play nice one with all this tension in the air.

You've never felt the feeling of fear and tension like that inside the Walls before.

''Stop frowning before you break your face''

'It would be so sad, and you would cry for being depriving of that beautiful face''

''Oh, fuck yourself'', he says, angrily.

''If you watch''

You smirched at his expression as he looks up to you, after seeing your face, he turns away.

''Watch your words, brat''

''Or what, old man? What will you do to me?''

He looks back up at you.

''I could break you habit of drinking coffee, put you to clean all the HQ or even to help Hange with the experiments. The three together seems good, by the way''

You roll your eyes.

''You're mean''

'You're annoying'', he replied. ''And you know, if you keep rolling your eyes one day their going to get stuck like that''

''Are you trying to be funny?''

His little grin showed up making you roll eyes into a smile. He was terribly bossy and annoying, but you like that about him.

You took the glass of wine to your lips and raised your eyes to hit his. Levi hovered over you, making you felt that flame into your heart once more. Your eyes tailed down to Levi's lips then back to his eyes. You could feel your heart beating recklessly.

Fucking grey eyes, fucking black suit. Fuck you!

You felt a thumb on your cheeks, making them burn.

''You look...'', he started whispered and slightly caress your cheeks. Your body started to get hot under his soft touch. ''... beautiful. You look beautiful''

You were speechless.

You liked the sudden ardor, of the dangerous attraction, of folly and frivolous with provocative sins. Liked and thought how the taste of his lips would be: the indomitable, the irresistible, the powerful and sin.

He slowly dragged his hand down to my thorax wrapping his hands around it. A soft gasp escaped of your lips.

''You know... If you want dance, it'll not rude to ask'', you try to say. ''The song is awful, but I'm not a demanding partner''

''Only if you don’t step on my foot''

His prepotency make you smile.

''Don’t be a bad partner and there will be no mistakes'', you retorted, making him raised one of the eyebrows. ''That's how a men should behave next to a woman''

He took you in his arms, abruptly, making the bodies collide with intensity. You gasped, very close to Levi's ears, who felt the hairs stand on the back of his neck. Leading you through music, in no second was the look averted, in a battle for unknown control.

You and Levi explored a unique experience.

He stares burned deep into your body. His touch on your skin made your body tingle.

Fuck, control yourself. Don't get turned on by him!

He didn't say anything, just left you hold into him. You could feel your body burning around him. What was he doing to you? It felt like a spell. The effect of sin, of desire. You should get rid of that, all you needed least were distractions in the workplace and ruin the friendship, trust and partnership that you two took so long to build.

However, both keep looking to each other longer than friends should. Longer than friends should...

He could saw you lost inside your mind. Slowly, he pulled down his fingers, lazily touching the skin of your exposed back by the dress. Levi's vision was blinded by the desire his image represented. The surroundings smelled wine and fruits, intoxicating his sense. The ears, doomed to hear the political bullshit. His tact could burn by touching you. His taste? It was dangerous, because wanted to discover the taste of your lips and body.

But not now, not here.

You are his friend — the only who was left. In despair, he condemns his desires. Regretted, he knew the consequences would be eternal and all he wanted was you. Your fiery personality, bright lips and soft skin.

To hell all of that. When you both got back, he'll fucked you, every way that he can thinking off. He wants to pound into you, slammed into you and give the best night that you ever have. He wants to kiss every inch of your skin.

''Good girl'', he whispers next to your ears. ''But I'll show you how true men should behave next to a woman when we get back''

#aot x reader #attack on titan imagine #levi ackerman x reader #levi ackerman imagine #levi x you #levi smut #levi ackerman series #attack on titan fanfiction

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thebluelemontree · 3 years ago

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Just to expound a bit more about fandom's mis/use of the term "gaslighting" in reference to this anon ask where I refuted the idea that Sansa was "gaslighting" Robert Arryn. I am certainly not assuming it was with deliberate malice on anyone's part. It's far more likely it came from a place of genuine misunderstanding because of how inundated pop culture and fandom can be with certain abuse-related buzzwords. Not that there aren't instances in fiction where the term is appropriate, but they are often far less common than the discourse leads people to believe. This is a real problem for many reasons, but mainly when people are seeing these negatively-charged, highly-prejudicial terms free-floating in conversations they don't belong in, they're going to derive incorrect meanings and usage of those terms. People often learn what words mean from the context clues in the surrounding sentence, right? Once they "learn," they repeat it in their own usage, and it perpetuates with unhelpful and potentially harmful results. Then on top of that, these conversations are going within the bubble of fandom communities that already tend to hash and rehash topics to death. And nothing gets fandom fired up like sniffing out abuse and abusers in fiction. I think it's important to keep in mind, that two people expressing vastly different opinions or perspectives on the same thing is not gaslighting. Even when those disagreements get heated or one is dismissive of the other, that doesn't mean the interaction is rising to the level of a gaslighting attempt. The glass-half-empty person is not gaslighting or using any kind of abusive manipulation tactic on the glass-half-full person or vice versa. They are simply different personalities with different outlooks on things. Maybe one of them has a better claim to objective accuracy in a situation, but generally, people are allowed to have their own point of view and they are allowed to say it.

To be clear, I am not a mental health professional, but google is a thing, and credible info from mental health professionals is readily available. Gaslighting is a very specific type of manipulation tactic to get another person to doubt their own reality, memory, or perception. The goal is to make the target lose confidence in their own ability to think, perceive, and make decisions in a clear-headed way. IMO, for Sansa to gaslight Sweetrobin, she'd have to know Sweetrobin's beliefs have validity but respond in a fraudulent way that makes him think those beliefs are not just wrong or mistaken, but that he's crazy for thinking it. That it's so ludicrous, it has to be a product of some kind of deficiency or defect. To say that a mildly dismissive hushing on her part rises to that level of tactical manipulation is a real stretch. Keep in mind that neither Sweetrobin nor Sansa have met Harrold Hardyng personally at the time of their interaction to fairly judge his character. All they know of Harry are things they have heard through gossip. At worst, you can say both Sweetrobin's pessimism and Sansa's optimism are equally unfounded at that point, and they both state their perspectives with a high degree of unearned certainty. On the other hand, both present equally realistic possibilities to consider, too. Sometimes people only care about what they stand to gain from an inheritance. But also, sometimes people genuinely value family and would like an opportunity to have a closer relationship. We don't know and can't know what the truth is until we actually meet Harry. If anything, Sweetrobin's perspective might have planted a seed of doubt in Sansa's mind because she ends up carefully observing Harry, taking note of some red flags, and puts him to a test of his honesty. That shouldn't matter if she's fully on board with this marriage plot and is just going to use Harry as a pawn.

#fandom commentary #fandom criticism #asoiaf fandom #sansa stark #robert arryn #sweetrobin #on gaslighting

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maxismatchccworld · 4 years ago

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Patch Notes

Update 07/20/2021

PC: 1.77.131.1030 / Mac: 1.77.131.1230

Console: Version 1.44

Hello Simmers!

Hope you are well wherever you are in the world and that you are all having a fantastic Summer of Sims! We are excited to share today’s update with you. There is a lot of info, so make sure you have your tea/coffee/beverage of choice ready to read on. You all know I have my coffee ready for this!

As we continue to get ready to explore the countryside charm of Henford-on-Bagley and cannot absolutely wait to play with the adorable animals in Cottage Living, we also have updates and fixes that should improve and complement your Sims’ everyday life. We have something for everyone and we hope that you all enjoy them. Thank you for all your feedback and support.

Cheers!

-SimGuruRusskii ft. SimGuruRomeo and SimGuruJoAnna

What’s New?

Let’s start with some items that we shared in our last Sims 411! For this update, we partnered with two talented artists from the LGBTQ+ community, Ashley Lukashepsky, and Mohammed Iman Fayaz, and they have brought their inspiring and beautiful artwork into the game. We have also included the modernized version of the large afro hairstyle that we showed you. But more than tell you about it in text, let me actually attach a screenshot of everything put together:

I love everything about this scene, not only it shows you how the artwork looks in a real game setting, but the whole scene with the two Sims and their surroundings is quite magical. Also, look at that hair! The way the light highlights it, perfection! You may also notice the hair of the Sim on the right, which was also added with this update for everyone. I want to personally thank all Simmers for their feedback and recommendations, as we are continuously working on adding more diverse hairstyles and textures to not only packs, but also to our base game.

Now that we are talking about artwork, the last patch notes I forgot to add the artwork made by the wonderful Jupiter Stevens-Hill. I apologize for that, I totally blanked out. However, I’m happy to see that a lot of you are enjoying it and placing it in your Lots! That makes a very happy Russkii =)

To find Jupiter, Ashley, and Mohammed’s paintings in Build Mode, make sure you take a look at the Paintings and Posters sort and filter by Base Game items. These artists are amazing and we hope you enjoy their creations.

Now, without further ado, let’s get to some new features and improvements that are part of this update!

A little bit of Gallery

When you download a lot made with the bb.moveobjects cheat, the game now notifies you about this so you know to activate the cheat before placing the lot. Builders, this means you won't need to mention it in the lot’s description anymore!

A little for Sims

Trying to find the Sims in the current neighborhood? Select their portraits in the Relationship Panel.

"Focus the Camera" moves the camera to the Sim.

"Lock the Camera" moves the camera to the Sim and keeps following them.

Where did the Notebook go?

Found it! The Notebook has moved out of the Phone and into its own button for quicker access.

The "Center on Current Lot" button that used to be there has moved to the top right, adjacent to the Camera Controls.

Water Tool

You now can make natural, organic bodies of water! Just head into Build Mode, make a hole with the Terrain Manipulation tool, and fill it with water. It is that easy! The Terrain Manipulation and Paint Tools also have more brush sizes to enable finer detail.

In adding the Water Tool, we also took the chance to overhaul the related tools and object categories. Why not? Enjoy!

Pond Effects

All sorts of critters are available to complete the look of your pond ranging from ducks and swans to pesky mosquitoes. There is even an alligator!

New Pond Objects

Outdoor Water Décor now has an assortment of new Pond Objects to decorate the perfect pond. Some of these objects such as the Bog Log and Colorful Lily Pads have interactions on them in Live Mode to activate Turtle and Frog effects. The new Fishing Allowed Sign enables you to stock your pond with any fish your Sims have previously caught. Try it out!

New Water Styles

Go beyond the original crystal blue and dreamy magenta water. Additional options range from “Mossy Water” to “Pond Scum” to complete that au natural look.

The Shrubs category includes new plants to complement the water styles: "Green Fern", "Leaning Not-Grass Grass", "Not-Grass Grass Sans Inflorescence."

Gardening with Children

Children now can help out in the garden by planting, watering, and weeding. They build their Mental skill as they garden. The process of purchasing and planting seeds is streamlined as well to make gardening more enjoyable for everyone.

Group Cooking

Cooking no longer is a solo affair. Sims now can cook in groups of up to five Sims including children. Start cooking together by selecting a fridge, stove, or any empty countertop.

Zoomers Food Delivery Service

Are your Sims getting tired of the same old pizza delivery every night? Well, gone are the days of redundant pizza nights. Maybe you are in the mood for pasta primavera or even a fancy steak dinner. All this and more are available courtesy of Zoomer Food Delivery. Order delivery through the phone or the refrigerator and the food will arrive in a jif.

Calendar

The calendar, previously available only with Seasons, now is available with Base Game to see upcoming events such as birthdays, school and work schedules, festivals, and fairs. You even can use it to book events, so it’s time to get to party planning!

Bug Fixes

Consoles

In Snowy Escape, skiing, sledding, and snowboarding on Bunny Slopes now contribute to the Extreme Sports Enthusiast Aspiration.

Also in Snowy Escape, Sims with high enough Skiing and Snowboarding skills now can enjoy the more advanced slopes. Sims also use the Lift to go to the top of the slopes and not go “the hard way.”

Simmers can now rotate Sims downloaded from the Gallery in Create a Sim. Spin them ‘round, ‘round, Simmers ‘round, ‘round - like a record ‘round, ‘round, ‘round, ‘round.

The Sims 4

We made some improvements that should help our Simulation lag, particularly on the usage of some computer interactions like playing BlicBlock, along with fishing interactions, which should make the game perform a bit better. Note that this doesn’t entirely fix simulation lag but it should help and it is a step in a good direction.

Fixed an issue in which placing Mirrors directly opposite Doors would create a visual glitch in which walls and borders would disappear around them and well it was quite spooky to be honest, glad we solved that one!

Ever wish your food didn’t expire? I know I do, especially when it comes to traveling and coming back to see a fridge in pristine condition, that is a dream… but alas, it is not meant to be in life or in Sims. Fixed an issue in which traveling didn’t let food expire.

Sims stuck sleeping and couldn’t cancel that interaction? Not a product of a sci-fi film as I thought, but I can say that we have fixed this issue, well I hope.

You want to know how to not make my day, have my coffee brew endlessly but without giving me the coffee! Luckily the issue in-game about the Brew Coffee interaction being stuck has been fixed. Wasn’t it odd? Wait… Sleep and Brew Coffee were stuck in a mysterious loop? SUS.

If your Child Sims suddenly interrupted their computer sessions to draw on the activity table when Inspired, worry not, this should not happen after this update.

Fixed an issue that caused the “Items Removed” pop-up to appear when no items were removed from the game.

Fixed an issue in which setting Lots on Slipshod Mesquite would sometimes generate a crash of the game for some Simmers. The Lot couldn’t handle that much flavor.

Some blush and lipstick opacity sliders are back as they were greyed out.

Step-Parent/Child relationships are no longer missing in the Genealogy Panel. Similarly, other cases of broken families in the Genealogy Panel have been fixed as well. It is all about reconnecting or connecting with what is important.

Platforms will no longer raise in height automatically when creating new walls to intersect part of them.

We also fixed an issue in which if you placed platforms in basement levels and a staircase from the floor to the platforms, it would create this gap or hole in front of the stairs and Sims were not able to route correctly. You know, I have played many platformers in my lifetime, but do you imagine Sims trying to jump those gaps? I mean, I am called JumpFail for a reason… glad we fixed this one!

World view Lots that had some off-centered border have been adjusted.

Toddlers will no longer gain negative Sentiments against their parents randomly, especially the Festering Grudge Sentiment. I should not be laughing at this issue as I type it, I should not…<giggles>

We got word that the camera was malfunctioning and bouncing uncontrollably in some Lots across multiple Worlds. We fixed an issue that caused this, but let us know if there are new instances.

Sometimes Ghosts can be part of our Households if we choose to, however, it is really hard to live with Ghosts that constantly break things, it makes it a bit… unlivable. So our expert team of Simghostologists has communicated with these Ghosts in the non-physical realm and they have agreed to not break everything all the time.

Fixed an issue related to flooring glitches while placing the dance floor or crystal clear flooring.

Went through all the trouble in hiring a Nanny only to have your Toddler get sent to Daycare? More than a schedule conflict I imagine having the Nanny show up and there is no Toddler so what does the Nanny do in this case? Do they leave? Do they stay and wait? I must know… However, This should no longer be an issue.

Fixed an issue where using ‘{}’ (curly brackets) in renaming objects would make these invisible in lists or UI in general.

Fixed an issue in the Likes and Dislikes section in Create a Sim that had some categories displayed incorrectly (either cut off, or words broken apart in new lines incorrectly) for some languages.

There was a clipping issue with the eye preset ymAsian13_Eyes that occurred when Sims were in extreme emotion, like Angry, and blinked. We adjusted this preset so this should not occur.

Toddlers can be picky eaters, but Toddlers not eating any fish recipe? That is suspicious, so we had a chat with the little angels and we have found a way to help them enjoy the complex flavors of our fish recipes.

Our UI team has fixed an issue in which a scrollbar appeared in the Sentiment section in the Relationship Panel when there were no sentiments. The mysterious scrollbar was mysterious. Similarly, they have also fixed an issue in which if multiple Sims gained sentiments together their thought bubbles look quite not right with the incorrect colors, so now they should look proper.

The Likes and Dislikes icon in Create a Sim will no longer overlap its text. It looked weird, honestly.

Droids (if you own Journey to Batuu) and Drones (if you own Get Famous) clipping into all kinds of objects in Build Mode? We saw that too, so there should be a fix for that in this game update. I mean this went beyond just crashing into things…

The option “Join After School Activity” will no longer be available if Simmers don’t have Seasons or Get Famous packs installed.

Sims in deviant paths now can properly reach the Level 4 of the Criminal Career.

Now, this is one that made my day, Cowplants are now able to dance again when Sims play music in front of them. Dance Cowplant, Dance!

Fixed an issue in which relationship points gained by friendly introductions were more than usual if Simmers didn’t have Snowy Escape installed.

We adjusted the color swatches for the S. Cargeaux Counter Island so that when it gets dirty, the counter doesn’t completely change colors. Dirty Counter - who dis?

Fixed an issue where the Scared Emotion UI was displaying a broken pose for Toddlers. The pose was kinda more scary than what the Toddler had been scared of, so glad that is done.

Outfits worn while Purchased and Worn in Festivals/Kiosks/Stalls should no longer remove accessories that were in place for the Sim.

Error code 134:571e5862 that occurred to some Simmers should be fixed now.

We fixed a few hairstyles (yfHair_EP05WavyBob, yfHair_EP01PartedFlat, yfHair_EP05UnderCutDreads, yfHair_EP01ShortSwept, and yfHair_DreamyCrew) that when used with the recently added color options would create splotches in the eyes, change the color of teeth, and/or change the eyelashes color.

As always the Localization team and this author have fixed and improved text across all packs and updates.

Get to Work

Aliens can now enjoy their custom Blush options in Create a Sim. Lewks out of this world!

Retail employees will now appropriately change into their assigned outfits. Listen, I grew up wearing uniforms for school, I get it, sometimes they are not the prettiest… but you have to wear them if you have to go to that establishment. I know the pain too well… but my sense of style grew from that… I think.

We made a fix to some of the swatches from the Barely Better Digital Camera that were missing a description for the item, so now all the swatches will display the text in all its glory.

Get Together

Some of these Sims are not like the others, some of these Sims just don’t belong. Can you tell which are not like the others by the time I finish writing these notes?

Fixed an issue in which some of the rooftops in Winderburg were not displaying Snow (if you own Seasons) correctly.

Fixed an issue where Sims didn’t sometimes change into their Club outfits when a Club Gathering was being held.

City Living

The Scattered Panes window in Build Mode now displays appropriate shadows in all options.

Sims enrolled in the Social Media career will now gain influence at the end of their stream instead of every few Sim-minutes.

Two hairstyles (ymHair_EP03BunHighPins and ymHair_EP03BraidedFlateBun) have been updated to reflect the correct look when choosing the Neutral Black color option.

Your Sims want to shoot some Basketball Close Shots, but they are trying to eat first? Well, now your Sims can finish eating before trying those hoops. Nutrition is important!

Cats and Dogs

We fixed an issue in which whiskers were not being seen applied to Cats. A Cat without whiskers is like Peanut butter without Jelly… or something like that! Just wrong!

Robot Vacuums should all now return to their docks accordingly. I hope this issue was not a sign that they were becoming sentient.

Sims will no longer get a Moodlet referring to the death of their Pet when witnessing the death of another Sim. The loss of a Sim is heartbreaking, but also getting a Moodlet for the death of their Pet when the Pet has not died, that is cold Grimmy, very cold.

Speaking of Robot Vacuums becoming sentient a few lines above, we fixed an issue that made the game crash when Cats would sit on the Robot Vacuum. CatonRobot.exe is now working.

We fixed an issue in which some Simmers experienced a crash with their last played Household loading into Brindleton Bay.

Seasons

Sims were changing into their cold-weather gear… while not in cold weather? We had some conversations with Sims and even though they love their winter outfits, dressing up in full winter gear in the summer was probably not the wisest choice. So the issue in which Sims randomly would change into their winter outfits while not in winter is solved.

Egg Hunts are adorable and fun! But not being able to have the furniture reset after looking for Eggs in them, can be quite the rain on Sims’ parade. But this should no longer occur.

Island Living

Mermaids will no longer keep the “Dried Scales” Moodlet when they are hydrated. Mermaids’ skincare regimen pays off! Moisturize, moisturize, moisturize!

Fixed an issue in which Lots that are placed in the sand looked quite odd displaying all edges of the Lot when it rained.

Sims that have the Collector Aspiration Trait are now able to catch Frogs in Sulani as part of their adventures exploring the island waterfall. Good Luck!

We fixed an issue in which some Simmers experienced game crashes when loading into certain lots in Mua Pe’lam. Happy Exploring!

Discover University

Sims having a hard time in Uni? No matter what they do they keep failing classes? Worry not, Sims will no longer fail classes when meeting all the criteria for course completion. Work hard, pass your classes hard!

Having Roommates can be hard. Have your Sims had Roommates complain constantly and leave even when their needs are met? Yeah, we made it so that Roommates don’t do this any longer.

Fixed an issue in which beds were counted incorrectly when placing an ad for Roommates. I mean, as much as Pets and even Toddlers can live with Roommates, the ad should be truthful to how many beds there are actually in the Lot, not count Toddlers and Pets as needing adult-sized beds.

We fixed Servo animations so that they don’t look like they are walking on one leg when hovering to their destination. Now they will hover properly.

We fixed an issue in which in some instances Professors could not go to work when a Professor NPC is added into that same Household.

Fixed an issue in which removing and adding back Household members as Roommates would create some… inappropriate moments, ahem.

Eco Lifestyle

Evergreen Harbor’s peace has been restored: roads and parts of neighborhoods no longer disappear or turn blue when businesses open in Port Promise while the Modern Development N.A.P is active.

yfBody_EP09DressShirt no longer has a weird texture in some of the footwear from various packs, especially platform shoes and chunky sneakers.

Had you moved to Cypress Terrace in Willow Creek and found you couldn’t really do anything there? We fixed the routing failures and interaction failures on the Mitey-Mitey Home - Insect Farm.

Snowy Escape

Mountain Climbing can be challenging, even for those experienced. But having indecisive moments before a climbing route like getting off and on your bike constantly seems that a lot of doubt is passing your mind… However, we did speak to these Sims that were experiencing this behavior and calmed their fears and doubts, so this should no longer be an issue.

The hairstyle yfHair_EP10BobBluntOmbre now covers all of the Sim’s ears.

For Simmers who own Seasons together with Snowy Escape, rain options no longer affect snow.

Sims no longer have the option to give a respectful or military introduction during activities such as Dancing or Bike Riding. I mean, I’m not sure about you, but I can’t dance and respectfully introduce myself at the same time. So many falls… so many falls.

We made some corrections to the Slippers that came with this pack and they should no longer display a greenish texture on Sims’ toes when selected in Create a Sim. Yikes.

Fixed an issue in which for some Simmers playing with the Yoshida Hall Household would generate a game crash when loading into Mt. Komorebi.

We took a look at our Ramen menu and have updated our cooking menu to label Miso and Egg Ramen as Vegetarian safe options. Buen Provecho!

Want to run a Restaurant in Yukimatsu but also want to enjoy the slopes? Now your Sims can enjoy the slopes and dine in style. However, this action is only directed, and will not be autonomous. In the same vein, Restaurant employees will not be tempted to leave work to enjoy the slopes.

Journey to Batuu

Batuu is an awesome destination for those who want to enjoy something fun and different, but if you bought a Droid from the Droid Depot and never saw it in your inventory, I know how frustrating it can be. Never fear, the Droids you were looking for will appear now in Inventories when purchased.

In Journey to Batuu, the First Order ID no longer disappears from inventory so Sims now can Access First Order Plans for the Top Notch Trickery Mission.

Fixed an issue with the Leveling the Playing Field Mission in which the Scoundrel Informant would not appear on the scene after Sims stole the Prototype Blaster and went to Oga’s Cantina to wait for the informant.

Dine Out

Eggs and Toast sound super basic and easy right? They will continue to be that way for our unassuming Chefs on the Chef Station since we fixed an issue that made them… challenging. Sims can also use the second burner for other recipes without fail or routing out.

StrangerVille

The Decorations and Kid's categories in Build Mode should no longer have a "New" highlight when there's nothing actually new.

Dream Home Decorator

Lighting can change the ambiance of a room, and your mood in a flash. Luckily we have fixed an issue that lighting was not even on sectional sofas to continue to set the right mood for our Sims.

Our stylists fixed the Sleep ‘N’ Study Styled Room to remove the P.R.I.M.A Computer from it as this is not an item that is accessible for everyone, pardon our dust.

Laundry Day

Fixed an issue where an animation clipped when Sims were loading their laundry machines. Because having your clothes go through you is awkward, are Sims made of fabric? I don’t think so.

Bust the Dust

Don’t need Simoleons, don’t need Fame. Don’t need dinner to have this date. It’s strong and it’s sudden and it’s cruel sometimes but it might just end your night… the power of Dust, that’s the power of Dust.

Our cleaning agents have determined that Sims won’t get romantic negative Moodlets related to filthy levels of dust in public places like parks.

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azucanela · 5 years ago

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THE LOVE LANGUAGES — BNHA [GENDER NEUTRAL!READER]

FT. BAKUGOU KATSUKI, DENKI KAMINARI, KIRISHIMA EJIROU, IZUKU MIDORIYA, MOMO YAOYOROZU, SERO HANTA, SHINSOU HITOSHI, TODOROKI SHOUTO.

WARNINGS: NONE.

ACTS OF SERVICE

BAKUGOU KATSUKI is the type to cook your lunch for you without a word from you. He’ll throw it your way when no one is looking— maybe hitting you in the face— and glare at you if you make any attempt to bring it up. He noticed a while ago that you tend to skip lunch, and forego hydration, leading him to throw a water bottle next. Somedays you’ll come to your room to find it clean, Bakugou seated in your chair, feet kicked up on your desk as he grumbles out how annoying it is that you’re late for a study session. A study session you didn’t ask for, but the moment Bakugou found out you were struggling in class he had complained about how he can’t associate with someone failing a class. Though he would never admit it, the fact that you even notice when he’s struggling is astonishing to him, and seeing you try to lessen his struggles is just a reminder of why he loves you.

IZUKU MIDORIYA can’t help but try to help you in every aspect of your life he possibly can, it’s just in his nature. He’ll find himself absent-mindedly cleaning up your room while he’s there, awaiting your arrival. Any promise he makes he always keeps, despite how unrealistic it may seem. You’ll wake up to a cup of tea by your bedside, offering you massages, taking the time to water plants in your room and taking notes in class for you when you’re absent. Izuku adores when you do the same for him, intimate moments when you help wrap and unwrap the bandages on his hands, or cleaning up the training room after a late night of practice. In general, agreeing to train with him a surefire way to his heart.

PHYSICAL TOUCH

TODOROKI SHOUTO has never been good at expressing himself with words. He’s constantly been told that he’s practically socially inept, his most common critique from teachers is his lack of communication, and often times he’ll hurt the feelings of those close to him with words that had no intention of hurting. So when Todoroki Shouto finally opens up to you, it is not through words, but through touch. He often found himself physically distancing himself from others, avoiding their touch because of his dark childhood, but somehow he finds himself gravitating towards you. It starts with him just being seated beside you in lunch, then your hands are barely touching as you walk, on the bus to one of the class trips he’s laying his head on your shoulder. Suddenly Todoroki Shouto finds himself desperate for your touch all the time. Arm wrapping around your waist, hand in yours, pulling you close at every chance.

SERO HANTA is unabashedly touchy with all his friends. He doesn’t hesitate to tackle them with hugs when he sees them— nor does he falter when some randomly hugs him. He’s often found to be holding hands with his friends, or even seated in their laps. When it comes to you of course— there’s a far more soft aspect to it. The way he gently brushes his hand against yours, a silent ask if it’s okay for him to hold you hand, but once he gets permission there is no stopping him. Sero will always respect your boundaries but is often found with his body strung over on top of you in the common room of the dorms. He’s always been enchanted by PDA and has no issues with displaying his love in such a way.

QUALITY TIME

SHINSOU HITOSHI never really spent much time with... well anyone. Most of his childhood was spent with other children distancing themselves from him, and the rest was spent distancing himself from anyone else who could possibly hurt him. But upon meeting you it becomes abundantly clear that just being in your presence brightened his day. He’s walking you to class, and randomly popping into your dorm to do homework. Sitting in silence happens to be a favorite pastime for his, and going out to café to do nothing but talk or work is also great. Now that he has someone he actually likes Shinsou Hitoshi doesn’t hesitate to see you as often as possible— though he can totally respect your boundaries— whether its for dates or just doing the most mundane of things.

RECEIVING/GIVING GIFTS

MOMO YAOYOROZU was raised giving and receiving gifts. She has always been able to develop a well thought out idea of what it is that she thinks someone would like, and even more importantly— she’s always been able to afford it. Aside from that, having spent childhood receiving such gifts, even if you can’t afford more luxurious or glamorous things, the simple fact that you’re thinking of her leaves Momo flustered and happy. When you randomly bring her flowers she’ll swiftly put them in a vase and care for them as long as possible and other things of this sort. She’s the type to be out and about only to see something that reminds her of you and promptly buy it.

WORDS OF AFFIRMATION

DENKI KAMINIARI is commonly referred to as stupid, as an idiot, a fool. Despite having managed to get into one of the most prestigious schools in the country, if not the world. Praise is not something he hears often, so when you tell him how proud you are of him, how much you love him. it’s even better when he walks past and hears you talking about how great he is. He’s the type to appreciate random good morning messages and send you a few of his own expressing his appreciation and love. Maybe even a few love letters shoved under your door, though he would never admit it. He will tell you constantly, for every little thing— when you help him with homework, hold open the door for him, anything— that he loves and appreciates you and adores when you do too.

KIRISHIMA EJIROU was never very confident in himself. Most of the time he’s left feeling inadequate compared to the rest of his classmates, who seem to have flashier quirks and stellar grades or personalities to go with them. He never expected to get this far and is always left wondering how he managed to reach such a prestigious school. Which is why any words of assurance you offer will be as refreshing as water on the hottest day of the year to this boy. Knowing that one of the people who’s opinion matters most to him— thinks he is doing well, leaves him buzzing with joy. Kirishima himself has always been rather vocal about his emotions and doesn’t hesitate to profess his love for you in public no matter how many times he already has in the past.

A/N: so... how we liking the new format? also i was thinking of doing a pro hero edition / big three edition / villain edition so lmk if we are interested in that hehe

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redspiderling · 4 years ago

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MCU Breakdown: Black Widow, Part 1

I can’t believe this is happening 😭

First of all, congratulations to all of you who’ve been here all these years. We got it. We begged for years, and it’s finally here.

For once I wasn't dreading revisiting this film to write down what I got from it. I felt more like I might not do it justice. This film is so special to me, but here it is, the MCU Breakdown of Black Widow, part 1 (of who knows how many).

I remember back when I started running this blog and talking about a hypothetical Black Widow movie that had never been announced, always "yeah, we would be happy to do it, maybe, someday in the future", and arguing that it would be important for women and girls, no matter its content. I'm so glad we got it like this. So, so glad.

The rest under the cut.

Let's start with some technical details. The film has a lot of setups and callbacks, nothing is done in chance. For example, I love how the light, and the sounds we hear when we first, and last, see Natasha in the film, are the same. We greet her in bright -birds cheeping- morning light, while she's riding her bike home, to her family

and we leave her in bright -birds cheeping- morning light, while she's riding her bike home, to her family (I'm using the term family very liberally here in reference to the Avengers for the sake of the movie, bear with me, you know how I feel about those dudes).

It's signifying new beginnings, each time, not endings. Notice how, what we see is natural light, which makes this scene pop out, and look more real because the light is coming from the sun, and isn’t artificially made on VFX software. You will notice the stark differences in colours and lighting when the emotions and the atmosphere change in this film, because there is a visual language being employed here, the director has a story to say, and she uses all the tools she has to tell it. The light is exactly the same in those 2 scenes, because Cate wants us to make that connection, even if we make it unconsciously.

Natasha is placed in such a positive way, both at the start and the end of the film. There's this discussion about how "real" their little family was, but it was the characters that muddled up that image. The reality of their lives in Ohio is presented in a happy way, that had deep rivers under the surface, for sure. This wasn't accidental, for a lot of reasons.

First of all, if you take it the literal way, they were spies, and had to present themselves as normal. If you take it the allegorical way, any girl could fall victim to trafficking, and if you take it the character way, both Scarlett and Cate wanted to showcase that Natasha is human. They also wanted to give her something that wasn't always dripping with pain and sadness. They were both parts of her life, yes, but there was also joy, and light, and once upon a time she had been a kid, playing with her sister.

Also, and this has been mentioned before but it bears repeating: I love the actress they chose for young Natasha, and I love how they presented her character. She's allowed to be a young teenage girl. She's not sexualised. She's at that gangly stage between childhood and adulthood, and there's nothing sexual about it, no provocative clothing, no excessive makeup. She's a kid.

Plus, I know Cate said the actress already had her hair dyed blue and they just decided to let her have it, but I think it works well for Natasha's character. That small act of defiance, even that early on, against the system that wanted to break her. Also, the film gives us such great character moments, because they let the camera roll and don't rush through scenes, look at Natasha looking at Melina comforting Yelena. We can see the pain, the fear, where she knows that this isn't going to last, and wonders about what will become of them once their lives begin to unravel.

We also get to see the joy on her face, the wonder of discovering the world, how often do you get to see Marvel characters do this, just live in the moment?

Bioluminescence: the production and emission of light by a living organism. Or how Natasha is a bright light, that shines from within. Not my words, Cate Shortland's words. I felt it when I was watching this scene, but it was lovely to have it verified in one of her interviews. I wish I could meet her, and tell her that everything she wanted to put on screen came through, incandescent and crystal clear. Fireflies are a symbol for Natasha, as a bright light that shines from within, and never dies.

Small details that I love, the magnet on the fridge: Don't forget, above a picture of Natasha. LIKE WE EVER COULD, CATE.

We have another setup here, where the family gathers up to have dinner together. Even the sitting arrangement is the same as later on in the film.

Notice also how both young, and adult version of Natasha, communicate so well with Melina, just with their eyes. It doesn't necessary show a deep history between them, but it does show a bone deep level of understanding. Not just of their current circumstance, but of their future, and of what it will do to them. Melina knows what's coming and she's says it "I'm sorry", but they're both resigned to their fate, Melina because she doesn't see a way out, and Natasha because, well, here she's a kid, and therefore is powerless.

The dynamics between Yelena and Alexei is so different. Yelena is young and doesn't understand, so they're speaking about completely different things. "I don't have my shoes" is what she says, and it's heartbreaking in its innocence, as Alexei is loading his gun and reading himself for battle. We can still see that he's not indifferent to her, telling her she can have "fruit loops in the car". He's not a monster, he just doesn't have a choice (or at least, he thinks he doesn't).

Also, notice how the camera angles are employed here: Natasha and Melina look each other eye to eye, Yelena looks up to Alexei, Alexei looks down on her, there is an imbalance of power and understanding in the second set of images, and the camera tells us that.

Melina doesn't let Natasha take the photo album. For one thing, it's certain that Natasha wouldn't be able to keep it. For another, Melina wanted the memories, and probably didn't want anyone else to realise/think that they cared about their little family unit.

There's just a lot of thought that's been put in the details of the script, to show us their bond, their attempts to hide it, to show the characters' personality in everything around them (notice the plants that are ever present in Melina's home, in Ohio and later in Saint Petersburg). She might seem cold, she has been through a lot, but she cares. And that care has brought her pain. And we have to see that pain, because we get the quiet moments like this one, where she stands alone in an empty home knowing that part of her life is over, never to return.

The mission, is the last thing Melina asks about. The last thing Alexei mentions, the last thing either of them cares about. First, she refused to accept that they had completed the mission and were now hunted, then she accepted it and they loaded their family in the car, and then she asked about the leaked files.

Also, notice how that shot is framed. Both images silhouetted by the light because it’s the moment and the prop smack down in the middle of the frame that’s important, now what they’re going through, emotionally, they’re not themselves in that moment, they’re nameless, tools of the trade, expendable in front of that tiny floppy disk.

Yelena is singing while the rest are plunging in despair, but still humour her and play her song.

I found this shot a bit... Jarring. I get it that for American audiences this would show that they're actually leaving "home" behind, but for the rest of us... Eeeh, I'll give it a pass because it is an American production and this is just something to be expected. I mean, Yelena's song was American Pie. We get it, you still love America, just because you're making a film about Russian spies doesn't mean you're a commie Marvel, it's ok.

But in any case, the setup for the action scene here was excellent. Happy, familiar music playing, car is on the main road, car goes off the main road familiar music gets toned down and eventually completely lost in the darkness.

Yelena knows what to do, we see it, so that we know that this 6 year old girl who holds her stuffed animal and walks barefoot has practiced for this moment.

By the way, Natasha did take another item with her along with the photobooth pictures (it also looks like a photo album with Disney princesses on it), it didn't survive the trip. We are informed of this for a very specific reason: Melina didn’t ask Natasha not to take the photo album out of malice, or just because she wanted to keep it for herself. She knew it wouldn’t survive the trip in Natasha’s hands. We also get a close shot of the image strip (and we get it again, during the credits), because it will be important, later on.

Bet y'all also forgot you were watching a superhero movie until this happened? That wasn't accidental, they wanted us to see them as normal people, this is the moment when that ends.

Natasha saved her family, even though she was a terrified kid.

I know that they did the huge titles thing to connect this film to Civil War but... Listen, Civil War needed the huge titles because that script and the way that movie was directed was a complete disaster. We needed to know where the characters were each time with huge ass title because there was NO OTHER WAY TO TELL. Between complete lack of a timeline, and the fact that you couldn't even tell what time of the day it was due to the horrible lighting, you definitely couldn't tell what the location was because it was irrelevant to the plot like, 90% of the time. Not to mention the title cards in Civil War were usually followed by dimly lit grey corridors so, yeah, give us a title so we know at least where they are, generally.

This film. Didn't Need That. For the most part anyway, there are 2 locations where the titles worked. First one was Ohio, the other I'll reveal later.

But here. Guys, they're Russian spies escaping from the US on a small plane... Where else would they go if not to Cuba?!?! This is the Black Widow movie paying for the sins of Civil War, in a small way in this instance.

Yelena tells Melina that pain only makes you stronger, Natasha cries, and they setup my heartbreak for later.

Natasha protecting Yelena, terrified, and staring men down the barrel of her gun anyway. Such a badass and heartbreaking callback.

Notice how this scene makes us look at how men view this. There's an allegory here as well, but I'll address what's actually happening in the film:

Dreykov notices Natasha's natural instinct to protect herself and her sister, and all he sees is something he can use. A tool for violence, instead of sex, in this case. But the implication is there. Not a person, or a terrified girl, just an object to be used by men.

So glad that piece of shit got blown up and never mentioned again. Any man looking for exposition on Dreykov to feel the "loss" when the villain is gone: Fuck you. Go get some therapy.

Moving on from that piece of shit, difference between Melina and Alexei: Melina apologised. Alexei lied, but he also tried to give them hope. We can see the devastation, because the soldiers never thought of them as girls like he did, and didn't blink before drugging them and taking them away.

Yet another setup, of Natasha and Yelena, drugged and powerless as they are taken away. Because it wasn't enough that they were kids, they took away all their choices, and rendered them unconscious.

What can I possibly say about this credits scene.

It's very real, probably the realest minutes in the entire MCU, and it's merciless. They don't try to sugar-coat what's happening, and there are no jokes to diffuse the drama. These are girls being trafficked from all over the world. I don't know about you but I felt the switch from true parallel to real life traffic victims like this shot that looks like footage from Interpol

to Red Room victims as being a clear shift, and I was actually grateful for it. Because here I could put my back against the fact that the red room wasn't real, otherwise I would have broken down before the credit sequence even ended.

It was a stroke of genius to create an introduction to this entire world like that. We rarely see credit sequences anymore and it's a shame, because when they're well done they tell stories in and of themselves, and this is one of the best I've seen.

Even the villain is set up here. He's pointing at girls and saying "that one, and her", like he's picking pigs for slaughter. How much more setup than that do you need, to want to murder that man dead? Not any more, that was enough.

Nobody speak to me I’m crying.

Subtle, but there. Trafficking (and traffickers) exists because it IS being tolerated by governments around the world.

Unnecessary title aside, who else says Natasha looks at herself in the mirror hear and repeats "pain only makes you stronger", as she's being hunted away from yet another family.

Then she's saying it again because it bears repeating and Natasha has been through A Lot these past few years. I love how unfiltered our first image of her is. After all she's been through, we basically see her stripped of all her tricks in a moment where she’s alone with herself and her thoughts(something we later learn she tries not to do much), and she's just a woman having a tiny breakdown in a semi-public bathroom. Again, human.

This is where I will leave you for this first part. Hey, I got through the intro, I count that as a win given just how long this breakdown has already been. If you’ve gotten this far, thank you for reading, come yell at me in my inbox whenever, see you for the next one xo

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