#maybe this is just a good old case of the ‘it’s not for me so it’s worthless’ and i fully acknowledge im moody rn
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I have a silly thought that I would like to share with you. Sometimes, I make random noises as a sort of verbal keysmash. Wouldn't it be funny if the verbal keysmashes were somehow Lemurian swear words? Or an old Philos curse?
Gibberish … Maybe?
How I imagine the LADS men reacting to you accidentally saying something in another language. Whole time you just made a random noise and have no clue what they’re even talking about. A/N: Imagine saying "manamana doot dee de dee tee" and they think you just cursed them out in a different language
Zayne
Doorways and staircases really suck sometimes because why did you completely forget what you came in the kitchen for as soon as you walked through the cased opening. You stood there dumbfounded and made a random noise which you could only refer to as a ‘verbal keyboard smash’
Zayne: Where did you learn that? MC: Learn what? Zayne: You just said ‘Forevermore’ in latin MC: I literally made the most random noise my brain could think of Zayne: That was latin clear as day MC: How the hell do you know latin? Zayne: I studied it MC: Why? Zayne: Why not?
From then on Zayne sends you random quotes in latin just to see if you can tell what they say. You keep telling him you never learned latin and have no clue what he’s talking about. After months of him teaching you bits of latin you two have your own little secret language now.
Rafayel
Your brain must've stopped working for a second because here you are opening the oven with your left hand and reaching in with your right hand. The problem? The oven mitt is on your left hand. Just as the tip of your finger is about to hit the edge of that scalding hot cookie sheet you pull your hand back making the most random shocked noise.
Rafayel: What did you just call me? MC: What are you talking about? Rafayel: You just basically called me a barnacle muncher in glubbanese MC: Glubba what?! Rafayel: Who taught you that? MC: Nobody taught me anything what in the blue fuck are you talking about? Rafayel: Are you seeing other Lemurians? MC: I made a random noise Raf get outta my ear with all this
You turned to pull your baked goods out of the oven and set them on the stove. You quickly turned the oven off before turning back to him.
MC: Also aren’t you the only Lemurian left Rafayel: Me and my aunt Talia … wait!
He grips you by the shoulders
Rafayel: Was it her?! I knew it! I'll be back MC: NO! I-
You didn’t get the chance to finish your sentence as he turned on his heels and made a beeline for the front door. You try to stop him from storming out the door, but he was too fast. You stare at the door dumbfounded because you still have no clue what the actual fuck glubbanese is.
Xavier
Xavier was the perfect body pillow to lean against while you read a book. Perhaps you were a little too immersed in your book because when the major plot twist came the most unintelligible string of gibberish came out of your mouth. You felt Xavier stiffen behind you which broke you immersion.
MC: What's wrong? Xavier: Why did you say that? MC: Say what? Xavier: You just said something rather strange in Philosian MC: I said what in philosophy? Xavier: I’d rather not repeat it MC: Xav I literally just made a random noise Xavier: Well that random noise is ‘hairy anus’ in philosian MC: WHAT???
You sat up so fast you somehow managed to fall off the couch hitting your elbow on the coffee table. Xavier pulled you back onto the couch checking to make sure you were okay before you notice the grin he’s trying to hold back. He finds this whole thing hilarious.
MC: Stop laughing! Xavier: I should’ve known you didn’t mean to say that MC: I didn’t say anything I made a random noise Xavier: I’m sure you’ll be more careful next time MC: If Philosian sounds like random throat noises then yea I guess I'll be more careful
Sylus
You were laying on the plush couch in Sylus’ study while he was taking a few business calls. He said he would be done soon however the boredom was getting to you. With absolutely zero thought you blurted out a random noise. You didn’t think much of it until you looked over and saw Sylus starring at you; his brows furrowed and his head cocked. You sat up confused on why he was looking at you as if you’d just called him a no neck bitch or something.
Sylus: Where did you learn that? And when? MC: Learn what? Sylus: You just tried to curse me MC: I didn’t do anything…… Sylus: That was a curse in ancient Philosian MC: That was random gibberish Sylus: …. MC: Fix your face Sylus: Trying to get rid of me sweetie? MC: I’m not trying to do anything! Sylus: Unfortunately for you those curses don’t work on me you’ll have to try something else MC: What in the blue hell do you mean ‘try something else’ I didn’t try anything in the first place!
Ever since you supposedly tried to curse him in a language you’d never heard of he’s constantly teasing you. He checks in from time to time to see if you’ve taught yourself any new spells and you tell him the same thing every time.
MC: Sylus it was a random noise Sylus: Keep telling yourself that Sorceress
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OPERATION : DON’T FALL IN LOVE
𝒊𝗡𝗦𝗧𝗘𝗔𝗗 .. ❛ 𝗀𝖾𝗍𝗍𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝖺𝗌𝗌𝗂𝗀𝗇𝖾𝖽 𝗐𝗂𝗍𝗁 𝗒𝗈𝗎𝗋 𝗐𝗈𝗋𝗌𝗍 𝖾𝗇𝖾𝗆𝗒 𝗈𝗇 𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝗆𝗈𝗌𝗍 𝗂𝗆𝗉𝗈𝗋𝗍𝖺𝗇𝗍 𝖼𝖺𝗌𝖾
𝑜𝑓 · 𝖲𝖧𝖮𝖶𝓉𝖨𝖬𝖤 ⦂ detective! pjs x detective f! reader── && e2l + slow burn slight angst ❔ 𝖶𝖨𝖲𝖯 & 𝖪𝖨𝖲𝖲𝖤𝖲
◟( ˃̶͈◡ ˂̶͈ )◞ ╱ 𝑠𝑎𝑣 𝑠𝑎𝑦𝑠 : the other night i could not stop thinking about detective jay. ty to mil for motivating me to do this😽
the case was an absolute disaster, and jay was already getting frustrated. the chief’s 17 year old daughter, lilia had been missing for over seven hours at this point. you and jay sat together, trying to collect as much information about that night as you can.
“are you even paying attention?” jay snaps, slamming his palm onto the desk in between you two.
you didn’t bother flinching. “of course i am, genius. you’re the one obsessing over dead ends while im actually trying to piece things together.”
jay groaned, pinching the bridge of his nose. he had no idea why the chief would even pair the two of you together to work on this case. sure, you were a great detective, but there were other things you weren’t good at, and that was handling the attitude of detective park jongseong.
“obsessing ? i’m trying to find leads here. not scribble on post it notes.” he shot back, pointing to the noodled sticky note.
you rolled your eyes, handing him a piece of paper. “look at this genius. lilia’s last known location. she was downtown at 11:45pm on the surveillance cameras.” you pointed on the map, leaning closer than you should have, your shoulder’s brushed together.
jay froze for a moment, before shaking his head. “right.. so what were you thinking?”
“that someone was waiting for her around the corner, where the camera’s stop rolling.”
“she wouldn’t run off with someone … would she?” jay tried to argue.
“maybe she would, but maybe she disagreed. they stalked her, and kidnapped her at the right moment. a moment where she’s vulnerable and her guard is down. like walking downtown past her curfew.”
you reviewed the printed out conversations you got from lilia’s phone, which was found at the scene in the chipped sidewalk. her chats with an older man suggested he wanted to meet while she was out at a party downtown with some friends, lilia still being a minor disagreed. the mysterious man continued to push her to meet with him, since he was in the neighborhood.
lilia disagreed once more. around 11:45pm, that was the last time lilia was caught on the cameras. maybe, just maybe if you examined the area one last time, and asked around, maybe you’d find a piece of evidence.
“so that’s what you think happened? she was out with her friends and this guy snatched her in an area that didn’t have cameras?” jay asked, one last time.
you nodded, referring back to the paper pieces of evidence. “fine” jay muttered. “let’s go back downtown and ask around.”
later that night, you and jay found yourselves downtown, the same area lilia was last seen. you asked the meat market owner, who claims he didn’t see much. you asked the ladies who owned the hair salon, they knew lilia since she was a baby. she hadn’t seen much, just the car that drove off.
the hair salon owner was able to give you a full description of the car that drove off. it was a black acura, silver details. you also managed to get the license plate number, that was all you needed.
you and jay headed back to the station, where you put the license plate number into your computer. jay sat closely to you, as he examined the suspect. it was a 35 year old man. this man had been arrested for robbing the jewelry store downtown, so downtown wasn’t an unfamiliar place for him.
“this bastard..” jay muttered, leaning in slightly closer. “can you locate the car? we need to locate the car.”
“slow your roll, speedy. i can locate the car.” you laughed, switching to a different screen.
you were able to locate the car, finding it sitting outside of an abandon warehouse. you and jay got into your car, loading your guns into the holster. you drove off to the abandon warehouse. it was quiet, awfully quiet. you and jay held your guns up, jay shouted “hello? anyone here.”
and that’s when you heard a scream. you and jay both ran into the direction the screen originated from. you kicked the door open, a sight horrifying to see. the young girl, the chiefs daughter, held at knife point. the older man gripping onto her with her life.
“drop the knife now!” you yell out, your gun steady in one hand.
suddenly the older man dropped the knife, his hands up to surrender. “jay, cuff him now.” jay does as he’s told, grabbing a pair of handcuffs from his back pocket and placing them on the old man. the victim runs close to you, hugging you tightly as you just saved her life.
“shh it’s okay..” you tried to calm down her cries, you rubbed her back gently. “it’s okay.. we’re here now, and we’re gonna return you to your dad. we just need you to answer a few questions and tell us the story. is that okay?”
lilia agreed, pulling back from the hug. jay managed to get the police over as soon as possible, they took away the old man in cuffs. jay pulled out his miniature note pad and began writing away every detail lilia dropped.
you were right, the older man reached out to lilia, trying to meet up. lilia continued to get messages throughout the night and she was afraid. so afraid, she decided to leave her crowd of friends and go back home. as she turned by the corner, she was grabbed and tossed into the car. if she wasn’t rescued in time, who knows what would’ve happened.
jay gasped, as he heard every inch of detail, being accurate to your prediction. after gathering lilia’s side of the story, you decided to take her back to her father at the office. the car ride back to the office was silent, nor you or jay spoke, all you heard was the silent sniffles of lilia.
as you returned back to the office, you got lilia back to her dad. the chief was extremely happy to see his daughter, still alive and very much untouched. you left them alone in the office, you and jay went back over to your desks.
“that was great.. you were great.” jay admitted, a blush creeping onto his cheeks.
“did the detective park jongseong just compliment me?” you teased, placing the evidence into a folder.
“don’t get used to it.” jay smirked.
you stepped closer, your heart racing due to the events of tonight. “you’re insufferable, you know that right?”
“and yet.. you can’t seem to stay away.” jay shot back, his grin fading slightly as your proximity began to feel charged.
before either of you could second—guess it, you grabbed him by the collar of his white shirt, pulling him down to your level and crashing your lips onto his. the kiss was fiery, a combination of tension and frustration, that had been built up from earlier.
jay froze for a second before his hands found your waist, pulling you closer to him. his strong hands held into your waist, holding you with a grip. when you finally broke apart, both of you were breathless.
“that was…” he started to speak, his voice hoarse.
“shut up.” you interrupted, stepping back as reality sets back in. “that didn’t mean anything.”
jay laughed, running a hand through his hair. “sure, it didn’t. how about we go out for coffee one day?”
“sure.. genius.” you smile, wiping the smudge of red lipstick from the side of jay’s lips.
#🎐 ── 𝑝𝑜𝑢𝑡𝑦 𝑔𝑖𝑟𝑙’𝑠 𝑀𝐼𝑁𝐷#enhypen jay#park jongseong#park jongseong oneshot#park jongseong x fem reader#park jongseong x y/n#park jongseong x you#park jongseong x reader#park jongseong x female reader#enhypen#enhypen one shot#enhypen x fem reader#enhypen x female reader#enhypen x y/n#enhypen x you#enhypen x reader#jay enha#jay enhypen#park jongseong slow burn#enhypen slow burn#enha x female reader#enha x you#enha x y/n#enha#enha x reader#enha oneshot#enha x fem reader#enha imagines#enha scenarios#enhypen oneshots
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Had the image of a half human, half Qunari baby pop in my head and got some good therapy practicing drawing cute babies.
Being the child of a nurse-midwife, I have witnessed many births and many different kinds of new dads (on video, to be clear - my mom didn't drag me around to births in person). And so, it is my belief that Emmrich would definitely be the weepy type of new dad. I love those dads.
My personal fanfic headcanon stuff that may or may not be cringe, I make no apologies:
1) Qunari kids, much like goats, do not fully grow their horns until they hit puberty. Which is definitely for the best, because a) birth OUCH and b) can you imagine a hyperactive 2-year-old running around with what amounts to two giant spears attached to their head?
So for the first 12+ years of their life, they just have cute lil forehead nubbins that still really hurt when they headbutt you during a tantrum.
2) It's a girl. Because we all know that Emmrich has strong Girl Dad energy.
3) Atash and Emmrich had a really tough time with names - both given names and surnames. Atash isn't particularly attached to her surname (Laidir) and so was totally fine with just 'Volkarin' for their kid. Emmrich was insistent on including 'Laidir', however, as he felt very strongly about Atash's heritage and story sharing an equal part with his in naming their daughter. So she's got 2 last names - one for Nevarra and one for Rivain. She can pick whichever she prefers, or neither, or both. What matters is that both are there to begin with.
This line of thinking also, obviously, complicated the given name. It's really hard when you're pretty certain this is going to be your only kid, and you're from two very different cultures with their own ideas about names, AND you have a rather tragically long list of people you love who have passed on and deserve to have a child named after them. Not to mention, both of you have names you just personally like, saved away in your head just in case you ever did have a kid to name.
In the end, Atash and Emmrich came up with a compromise, for which they really hope their daughter won't resent them in the future: they gave her *four* names. One for a family member, one for a fallen friend, one for her Qunari heritage, and one that's just hers and no one else's.
So, all together, it came to:
Lobelia Elannora Lace Nazay Laidir Volkarin
It's. It's a lot. Atash and Emmrich both acknowledge that. But it felt wrong to not include those tributes in their daughter's name.
Besides, this just means she has a lot of options, right? Right? Right. Definitely.
(They also acknowledge that Lace Harding would think this was absolutely ridiculous and laugh at them over it, but that mental image being there is part of why they did it)
And yes, of COURSE they chose a flower name.
4) Manfred is really friggin excited to get the chance to watch someone grow up and maybe teach THEM some things himself. Emmrich is really friggin excited on both a personal and academic level to raise his daughter alongside his ward, teaching her about spirits while Manfred learns from her about mortals.
Manfred's also a really great diaper changer because he doesn't have a nose and he's not squeamish about literally anything.
(Not that Atash or Emmrich take advantage of this.)
(Often.)
BY THE WAY, VERY IMPORTANT NOTE: I do not believe that the default Happy Ending for everyone is having kids. In another universe, Emmrich and Rook are just as happy teaching Manfred how to be a person and mage (or not, if Emmrich became a lich) and going off on their own kid-free adventures. YOU MAKE THE CHOICES THAT ARE BEST FOR YOU and fuck what the tropes say.
This is just *my* fantasy cringe fluff. You do you. ♥️
#digital artist#digital art#digital illustration#artist#character art#dragon age veilguard#dragon age#emmrich volkarin#emmrich x rook#emmrook#dragon age veilgaurd spoilers#da the veilguard#dragon age fanfiction
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Sometimes the girlies judge you for fumbling with your girlfriend njkfgh
fucking njkgh Shadowheart just wants the moping vampire out of her home.... I love that my first doodle of Shadowheart is the GRUMBLIEST GIRL.
CONTEXT:
I think a lot about time when it comes to ships, and that doesn't stop at this one :u
Literally it's like... over a few months that BG3 takes place? The timeline MAKES SENSE, but is also insane by in game time, omg. And I've thought a lot about how like... idk, Ophira had time after Zerxie to kinda just be herself outside anyone else and figure SOME stuff out.
But Astarion kinda makes me sad a lot, because he's never really... just himself. Singular in a way, if you romance him. He's a magistrate and who knows how that life was before Cazador, but past that... he's just kinda an additional piece to people. You can help him kinda get his bearings in the world, and figure out what freedom and all that looks like to him, but he's still never like... on his own.
It's the old wife who never knows life outside marriage thing? Something my mom talked a lot about when I was a teen. Lamenting she never knew life to figure herself out.
So it's kinda a thought to me that at some point maybe they take a break for a year or so, let him figure some shit out, let her figure some shit out. They're both kinda messes in their own ways, and it's like ya'know. IT'S NOT LIKE COUPLES DON'T DO THAT SOMETIMES. But I think it'd do some good. Absence makes the heart grow fonder and all that unu
But the idea of him ending up at Shadowheart's house either in the beginning or towards the end of the period because Ophira was like "She might be a good friend to talk to about this kinda thing, given her own shit, man." [also because like bb boy and bb sparkle girl were my two closest companions and Shads is BB SISTER MATERIAL TO ME] but she's so hilariously mean and blunt to him in the overworld....
I can just see her giving him so much shit. But also him whining about the situation or something, and getting the girls on his case about it jndgkh
Lae'zel only knowing part of the issue and being like "Where is she, did you fuck things up? How could you disgusting idiots fuck this up..." but the also additional mental image of him showing up alone and Shads being like "Alright.... where's the one I like though? Why isn't she with you?" as a joke njfkgh
EVERYTHING TURNS OUT FINE. EVERYONE IS HAPPY, AND IT'S FUNNY HOW MUCH THEY BOTH MISS EACHOTHER THO TO ME.
#bg3#baldurs gate 3#astarion#shadowheart#lae'zel#tavstarion#ophira#astarion x tav#if you saw me post this to my regular account no you didn't#I'm still mad this ship has me actually WRITING like post game adventures and shit like excuse me I hate it here LMAO#I don't because I love the SHIT out of ophira that's my fucking baby girl of all time next to dahl UGH but still like man... the banter is#REALLY FUN TBH
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Really
Hank Voight x Reader
You asked Hank out, it's only fitting that you admitted your feelings first too
Companion piece to Let me Decide
It was a little unconventional, your relationship with Hank. The age difference for one had a habit of raising a few eyebrows. The fact that no one had really seen him date after his wife passed then he got with you. You knew how most people saw him, as Sergeant Voight. The hardass over intelligence that did whatever he saw fit to solve the case he was handed. The man that played by his own set of rules and didn’t care who got hurt.
Hell you’d seen him like that for years. He put up a good front and to a certain point he was a bit of a hardass but that was simply due to the fact that he came from the old school of policing. Him, Platt, they had to learn to make themselves seem like they didn’t give a damn so they could attempt to help the people that needed it.
The longer you were with Hank the more you got to see past that demeanor and to who he actually was. He cared about his unit, kept a safe in his basement that had money in it that you weren’t actually sure where it came from but you’d seen him go in it to pay for a victim to be able to start her life over when her husband drained her accounts. He sent money to Olive every month so if she or his grandson Daniel needed anything. On Camille’s birthday he took her favorite flowers to the cemetery and on Justin’s he tended to want to stick closer to the boys out of his unit.
The man had gone through so much loss and was still standing it amazed you at times. You weren’t sure how he did it. There was no surprise he put that front forward. If you didn’t let anyone close, you didn’t stand a chance of losing them. You hadn’t given him a chance to not let you in, in Adam’s words “You’re always there waiting to make him be human”
You were leaving med from dropping off a heart attack patient. The entire morning you and Sylvie maybe had gotten a thirty minute break, Adam had sent lunch to the station house with a note that read “I pissed Voight off. Please protect me” which had caused a round of teasing from the entire rescue squad until you turned it onto Matt and Sylvie.
You turned to talk to her and bumped into someone’s shoulder. “I’m sorry” you apologized and realized it was Kevin. “Kev! Hey” he smiled “Hey, you dropping off?”
You motioned behind you “Our third trip today” “Good grief” he nodded to Sylvie then cut his eyes back at you “You get Adam’s note?” you nodded “What did he do to Hank now?” he grimaced “He broke the coffee maker in the break room” you shook your head “And the big bad detective needs my protection why?” “Because dad’s mad so we run to mom” he teased with a grin.
Sylvie giggled “Bet ya didn’t realize you were inheriting a unit of kids?” you shook your head “Actually, I knew that from the start” and patted Kevin’s shoulder “Tell Ruz I got him” then nodded to Sylvie “Let’s go. I’m gonna make a stop by the district on the way back”
Adam was doing his best to hide behind Kim at his desk. Hank hadn’t had coffee the entire day and the break room was a bit of a mess still. He heard the gate downstairs pop and figured Kevin and Jay were back.
When he didn’t hear their voices he cut his eyes towards the stairs and saw you and Sylvie carrying trays of coffee. “She got your note” Hailey laughed. He grinned and stood up to meet you halfway. “I knew I was your favorite” You passed him the tray in your hand but plucked one of the cups out. “Don’t let it go to your head. Hank in his office?”
“He’s in there,” Kim told you. The door was closed and the blinds were down but you knew he wouldn't mind you coming in. “Sylvie I’ll just be a minute” she sat on the edge of Jay’s desk and shot you a wink as she sipped on her coffee “Take your time”
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You tapped your knuckles against the door as you were opening it. Hank looked like he was about to yell but his face quickly turned into a smile when he realized it was you. “Hey sweetheart, what are you doing here?” you held up the coffee “I heard my problem child prevented you from having coffee so I thought I’d make a special delivery”
He pushed his chair back from the desk so you walked over to slip between him and the desk, sitting on the edge of it as you passed him the cup. He took it and shook his head “You didn’t have to do this baby” you smiled “I know, I wanted to”
He sat the cup down on the desk so he could put a hand on each of your thighs, rubbing them gently “Why is someone like you with me?” you felt the smile fall from your face “Excuse me?” he looked up at you “You’re young, beautiful..smart as hell and a fucking livewire. You should be with someone your age, someone that can keep up with you. Not some grumpy old man that needs his mid day coffee”
You stood up, putting yourself nearly in his lap before deciding fuck it and just straddled him in the chair, watching how his eyes tracked you and his hands slipped around your waist to hold you to him. “You had no problem keeping up with me last night” you reminded him and a smirk slipped onto his face. “You know what I mean honey” he told you, one hand slipping under your uniform to tease across your skin. You leaned back just enough to look him in the eyes “Because I love you Hank” his eyes widened slightly “What?” you felt your heart drop. “And I shouldn’t have said that”
You started to climb out of his lap but felt his grip tighten “Don’t you dare move” you froze, not meeting his eyes “Why? So you can tell me I’m too young for you to love? That I’m ok to date, ok to fuck but not ok to be with long term because even though I am a grown woman and perfectly capable of making my own decisions I need to be with someone closer to my age even though that’s not what my heart wants?”
One of his hands moved from your hips to grip your chin and force your eyes to his, “No, so I can tell you that I love you too before you have to go back to work” A smile slipped onto your face “Really?” “Really” he replied and pulled you into a kiss.
You didn’t realize you hadn’t closed the door all the way until you heard Adam’s voice “Hey boss…holy hell I’m sorry” you broke away from Hank’s lips with a laugh and he muttered “I’m gonna kill him” as Adam backed out the office quickly, closing the door.
“Don’t you dare hurt my child” you laughed and he raised an eyebrow “He’s the same age as you” you shrugged “He’s my problem child and you are not going to hurt him because you love me, right?” he sighed “Right”
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I took my son to see Sonic 3 last night. Afterwards, even though it was late, we stopped at the Target two floors down to grab a few quick things.
As we walked in, they had a whole wall full of bins. Big bins for ornaments, long flat bins for wrapping paper, wreath bins, etc. I cracked the lid on our ornament bin getting it down this year and our wrapping paper bin has been ready to burst for years now. This constituted an exciting development in my middle aged life.
As will happen when I’m trying to do two things at once, I get flustered. In this case, it was texting my wife to find out the size of our current ornament bin and also answering a slew of questions from my son on multiple topics.
Then, a text comes into my phone from my mother. It was just “👌”. The weird thing is that my mother died in April 2020.
I text my wife, a panicked sort of “what the fuck is happening.” After a minute of hyperventilating I remembered something about my sister giving her then-6 year old son my mom’s phone when she died and that he just use it as a toy on Wi-Fi. And maybe also something in there about not getting around to canceling the line.
I text my sister and ask if my nephew still has my mom‘s phone number? She replies yes, why? And I tell her, and she’s like holy shit that’s awful.
So while at the time we don’t know why my now-11 year old nephew is texting me ok emojis, at least we know what’s going on, but I’m still all sorts of flustered.
We get home and my son goes to bed, and my wife & I are sitting on the couch and she looks at my phone. I had texted my nephew/mother asking about the size of the ornament bin. I realize that my son likely asked what I was doing and I said “texting mom…” as I was activating Siri to send a voice text. Hence, text sent to “mom,” not to “wife.”
So I’m not mortified at myself along with still freaked out for the couple of minutes that I questioned a death hoax from my mother.
This spurned two of what I can only describe as anxiety attacks. And then I went to bed but couldn’t sleep and was awake on our couch until after 4am. And then I had another anxiety attack this morning, making 3 in 12 hours. I told my wife that I needed to leave, and quickly got dressed, grabbed a coat, left, and started walking.
At first I was thinking I’d sit on a bench a block away and chill/stew/calm down, but I didn’t want to. So I walked. And walked. Before I knew it, I’d walked a mile. Then two.
It was a blur. I’d think that I was near a certain block only to look up and realize I was 5 or 6 blocks further. I called my wife somewhere after I passed 2 miles and while we were on the phone she pulled up Find My Friends, saw where I was, and asked if I’d driven there.
My knees and feet were aching. I wasn’t in good shoes for a long walk. Right after I passed the 3rd mile I came upon an N train station and got on it headed home. I’d been walking for an hour. I went from my neighborhood of Prospect Heights all the way to Sunset Park. This is far.
It’s taken me all day and I’m still not really totally back to normal. But I just took a melatonin and I’m going to try to sleep.
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(18Trip Translation) Tao Kinouchi SSR: Best Wishes Snap - Level +1
proofread by jellyfish_apple, azurecrystalz and niri
While the story uses the male protagonist's name (Kaede), the differences in the script depending on the protagonist you play as have been noted down
Part 1
Location: HAMA House Living Room
Everyone at HAMA Tours: Happy birthday~!!
[Pop, pop!]
Tao: Thank you so much. You really went out of your way for me today…
Tao: Like, everything’s amazing. The living room is decorated so beautifully, and the food looks so fancy and tasty.
Chihiro: Hehe ♪ We’ve got all of your faves here, TaoTao~! Meat, fish, naan curry… ♪
Chihiro: But celery’s banned from HAMA House for today, sorries~
Raito: The information you put in your profile book was a great help. By the way, the curry is authentic and ordered from an Indian restaurant the Kitakata family has close ties to.
Nagi: We tried baking the naan ourselves. The Night Team will take responsibility and eat the uneven ones, so please enjoy the pretty ones.
Nayuki: Good grief, to think they were even discussing getting a tandoor installed for this.
Liguang: In the end, we simply asked Kamina how to make it in a frying pan.
Kaede: We’ve got seconds, so eat to your heart’s content!
Tao: Okay, thanks. The smell alone is enough to make my stomach rumble…
Chihiro: The cake absolutely meeeelts in your mouth! Props to our in house Chef Ushipoyo!
Chihiro: It’s a cube cake tower made of TaoTao’s fav game consoles and video game boxarts♪
Kinari: The cake has been recreated to look like the original “Surpass The Original! A Chronicle Cake For Veteran Gamers”, with icing used throughout.
Tao: Amazing… There’s so much attention to detail. Even the buttons from the very first Enstation are exactly the same.
Liguang: Doing such thorough research is a good trait of Kurama’s
Kuguri: So, where would you like to start? I will feed you whatever you want.
Tao: Yeah, no need…
Kinari: Tao, happy birthday. My gift to you is this assortment of video games.
Tao: I’m amazed you found this many! There are all sorts of stuff in here, both old and new…!
Kinari: I was researching what you would like, and this naturally happened.
Kinari: … Confirming increase in body temperature and heart rate, as well as looseness in cheeks.
Kinari: I am happy you are happy with it. I look forward to continuing working alongside you as members of Ev3ns.
Tao: Same here. Thanks, Kinari.
Liguang: Shēngrì kuàilè (1), Kinouchi. Take this.
Tao: Wha… This is… the new jacket from my favorite brand!? No, I can’t accept something as nice as this.
Liguang: Stop being shy and just accept it. Lots of people would want to be in your shoes.
Tao: Y… Yeah… Okay then, thank you.
Tao: Oh, by the way, how is Xingbing-san doing? Please thank her for coming to our concert the other day for me.
Liguang: … Got it.
Nagi: … As always, Liguang-san’s got the air of a king. His luxurious presents are beyond the realm of man…
Tao: Hachinoya-san?
Nagi: (I should’ve given him my gift earlier. But it’s too late to turn back now, so I’ll just pretend it’s not garbage.)
Nagi: My gift is the complete collection of Elephantastic Memorial discs. The volume 1 debut performance footage includes a bonus scene that’s a must-see for all fans. But, um…
Nagi: I hadn’t considered the possibility that you might already have this. If you’d like, you could maybe keep it to show it to your friends, or you could use it for emergency funds in case of financial trouble.
Tao: I don’t own a single one, so this makes me really happy. Let’s watch them together at some point.
Nagi: Ba-dump. So this is the carefree smile of the unspoken rizz king... So charismatic.
Tao: (I got presents and a cake. This is pretty much a picture-perfect “birthday party”.)
Tao: (… It would’ve been unimaginable back then.)
Chihiro: Taaao! Howzit? Are you happy?
Tao: Yeah. This is the first birthday I’ve properly celebrated since coming here.
Tao: And that’s without mentioning all these things you’ve done for me. Of course I’m happy. No amount of thanks will ever be enough.
Chihiro: I see… Ehehe, I’m glad ♪
Chihiro: Theeen, time for a toast~?
Chihiro: Look, Raitin got champagne. He was all, “I’ll splurge for Tao’s birthday~☆” 'bout it!
Tao: Seriously?
Tao: (Actually… Is it just me, or is Chihiro more excited than usual today?)
Kuguri: … But of course, maci.
Tao: Woah, Kuguri-san! … Uh, could you not read people’s minds so casually?
Kuguri: Fufu, you’re pretty much an open book, maci.
Kuguri: Our brave nyuszi even managed to drag me around to help for today. Does that not send a thrill down your spine?
Tao: Wha…
Chihiro: Wai– Don’t be a snitch, Kugurin! So embarrassing~!!
Tao: Chihiro…
Chihiro: … You always grant so many of my wishes. I wanted to celebrate you properly in return!
Chihiro: Happy birthday, Tao!
Tao: … Yeah. Let’s make this a great year, with everyone.
Tao: (I’m really so thankful…)
Tao: Ah…
Tao: (This is the party game Taiki and I talked about wanting to play… The game was sold out back then so we couldn’t get it.)
Kaede: Tao-kun?
Kaede: Did you maybe find some game you’d like to play? Which one?
Tao: No. It’s just…
Kinari: No matter how “ordinary” something is. It becomes “special” when you do it on your birthday. … That is something you and the others have taught me, Tao.
Kinari: As such, playing games on your birthday will become a special memory for you as well.
Kaede: Yeah, Kinari-kun is right.
Kaede: No need to hold back! Plus, it’s been a long time since we played a game together, Tao-kun! Let’s do it!
Chihiro: What’s it gonna be, Tao~?
Tao: Then… Just for a while. I’ll go bring the console!
Part 2
Tao: Hah… I had fun.
Tao: (After that, everyone else came too. We ate delicious food and played games.)
Tao: (The President’s thorough planning blew me away, and the game Ushio gave me was fun too.)
Tao: (I had a few intense matches with Ryui-san, and Chihiro took a picture of the Chief and Hachinoya-san trying to figure out which character is which…)
Tao: (I made so many memories. I never thought I’d get so excited…)
Tao: … Haha. I was so into it that I started sweating.
Tao: Alright, time for a bath.
Muneuji: Kinouchi-san.
Tao: Muneuji?
Muneuji: I am glad you are still here. Could I take up some more of your time for the Random Gift System assignment?
Muneuji: … I became so engrossed in cheering during the matches earlier that my duties nearly slipped my mind.
Tao: You and Akuta were holding megaphones and cheering loudly from the back, it’s no wonder you forgot.
Tao: Thanks to you guys, I got even more fired up… Or actually, the games became all the more fun.
Muneuji: There is not a single person who would not be excited watching such a heated battle. I have also learned something today: the world of gaming is deeply complex.
Muneuji: Ah, I am neglecting my duties again. I’ll cut to the chase.
Muneuji: Happy birthday, Kinouchi-san. May this year be a fruitful one for you.
Muneuji: This is my gift to you.
Tao: Oh, bar soap!
Muneuji: Yes. I resolved to make this my present when I found out that you like bar soaps.
Tao: Bar soaps are nice. You slowly make the bubbles yourself, and they’re smooth to the touch.
Muneuji: Agreed. I also enjoy the faint, nostalgic scent they carry.
Tao: I get you. It’s such a gentle scent, isn’t it?
Muneuji: I asked Azekawa-san to analyze your skin type, and carefully selected and ordered the ingredients for this bar soap based on those results. Please give it a try if you’d like.
Tao: You got a custom-made one!?
Muneuji: It is not particularly difficult. Anyone can do this if they know the procedure. Would you like to order one together next time?
Tao: Sounds interesting! Let’s discuss the details later.
Muneuji: Understood. I will look forward to it.
Tao: … Oh yeah. Muneuji, I was about to go for a bath, so do you want to try this soap out?
Muneuji: …
Muneuji: Truth be told, out of all the items I ordered, this was the most refined, so I was curious how it would feel to use… I will take you up on your offer then, thank you.
Muneuji: As the opportunity has come to us, I will wash your back, Kinouchi-san.
Tao: Uh, that’s…
Tao: (A little embarrassing. But…)
Tao: (… It’ll remind me of the past.)
Tao: Then, I’ll also—
Kuguri: Let’s go, maci ♪
Tao: Uh!?
Muneuji: Domeki-san.
Kuguri: To think you’d be entrusting me with your defenseless back. … Okay. I’ll take such good care of you both.
Chihiro: Heeey! There you are, Kugurin~!
Chihiro: Gee! No spoilers! I told you we’d invite them together!!
Tao: Chihiro? And…
Muneuji: Azekawa-san and Kitakata-san as well. The entire Evening Team is here.
Chihiro: It’s gettin' late, so we came to invite y’all for a bath!
If the protagonist is male: Chihiro: I invited Chiefy too, but he had some work to get done and couldn’t make it. Sadge.
If the protagonist is female: Chihiro: Chiefy stocked up on fruit milk today! Let’s all drink up after the bath~!
Raito: A lot of us have gathered. Shall we all wash each other’s backs? You know, the way they do it by being in a circle.
Muneuji: Taking a bath while getting to know the Evening Team better… Yes, this sounds like it will be a valuable experience.
Tao: Oh man…
Tao: … Oh, the sun’s setting.
Tao: (… Today was a good day.)
Muneuji: Kinouchi-san?
Tao: It's nothing. I'll be right there.
NOTES: (1) happy birthday in chinese
#18trip#translations#kinouchi tao#lu liguang#kaguya muneuji#kitakata raito#azekawa kinari#natsuyaki chihiro#domeki kuguri#hachinoya nagi
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watch house for the first time with me
we’ve made it through season 2 and through the first five episodes of season 3 and there was lots to scream about. I have a sneaking suspicion that I am going to hate the whole house gets arrested plot. like I’m gonna furious typing out whole essays type mad but we’ll see.
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GUYS I WANT HOUSE TO WEAR THE SUIT. I UNDERSTAND THAT HE DOESNT THINK IT MATTERS BUT IM LOSING MY MIND. I KNOW EVERYTHINGS GOING TO BE OKAY BUT IM STRESSED AND CAN HOUSE JUST WEAR A SUIT
Can everyone just be fixed please I don’t want to deal with this anymore
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If that baby died, I’m crying
Are we starting Wilson Cuddy stuff because boring
Chase working at the nicu😭😭😭😭
HE CHOSE NICU😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
Chase working with kids😭😭😭😭😭😭
Honestly house is real for wanting foreman to fight with him. Like it’s just his way of wanting original thoughts and that is relatable
Wilson checking cuddy for cancer-
NO THE BABY DIED
Chase my baby boy I adore you it’s okay
Cuddy wanted Wilson to be the father of her child😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 I’m gonna break down if we get a scene of Wilson hearing this
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House being a piano player is actually one of my favorite things about him
Dude I trust House but like I wouldn’t trust him that much @ cuddy
IS WILSON JEALOUS THAT HOUSE HAS ANOTHER FRIEND
I would do so much for James Wilson. I don’t think yall understand. I love him dearly
The entire diagnosis department pacing is so funny
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SOMEONE SHOT HOUSE. BABE THAT IS MY EMOTIONAL SUPPORT JERK
“I wanted to see you suffer” girl he suffers every day you just had to come into the hospital and watch
“She killed herself” still not House’s fault bro
Wilson doing houses physical therapy is hilarious
I need house back
This episode is weird
What in the world did I just watch
Season threeeeeeee
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Okay I am so grateful we got the scene of Cuddy and Wilson trying to come up with cases to give house. Like😭😭😭😭😭 I love them
Chases haircut😭 he looks amazing
House lost his leg pain and got 10x the whimsy
“I’m not going away” please never go away Wilson
Wilson. House was right. What do you mean you can’t tell him.
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Wilson maybe you should tell house that he was right. Listen to Cuddy. Wilson I adore you why are you doing this to me.
Chase winking at the parents🥰
Whaaaattttt lying to house has consequences. Telling him that he’s bad at his job affects him. That’s so craaaazzzzy
Oh Wilson comparing house to Icarus, you’re so iconic. I love my toxic old men yaoi with Greek mythology references. That’s actually the only way I’ll tolerate it
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Everyone is going through so many radical position shifts this episode. Guys can we have some consistency (@ cameron)
People just go running to Wilson when they want house to do something huh.
I love when house operates on patients. Just love him entirely in his element
Awww house is proud of Cameron for killing a dude, it’s always nice to hear from our dad that he’s proud of us
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House you do not need your carpet back. Why are you like this. Iconic but why
I need this girl to leave. House isn’t that attractive
I’m glad Cuddy is standing her ground on this one
Love how Wilson walked in on them in his office and just was like “weird typo”
Can Cameron stop psychoanalysing house
Need this girl to stop
Foreman you pawning that off in Wilson was not slick
HOUSE BEING GOOD WITH KIDS I LOVE TO SEE IT(also just taking drugs)
Wilson don’t let house out of your sight while he’s drugged, he’s got a girl really into him and I don’t think we should let him alone
House😭😭😭😭😭 please stop throwing away Wilson’s gifts
Cameron did not need to sit next to house
WILSON JUST WALKING OUT OF HIS OFFICE
Thinking about the triplets going all over the hospital looking for house this episode
😭😭😭😭😭😭house got a gift😭😭😭😭😭😭oh my little neurodivergent bonding
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This husband being so ride or die. I love to see it. Yes sir saw an opportunity to step in and took it.
Oh she’s sick, okay well, we’ll get to see more of him?
House leaving to go break up Wilson flirting with a girl. Bro just say you’re jealous and go
THE LOOK ON CHASES FACE AT FOREMAN WHEN CAMERON SAID SHES HITTING THAT WAS SO FUNNY. BABY BOY WHAT WAS THAT
“Great I haven’t committed a felony yet today” -Chase
Guys the pill only stops pregnancy, not STDs, maybe they wear conforms to prevent STDs
Why does Wilson just do things for house. I mean beyond being in love with him.
I hate this apologzie to the patient thing today. I don’t care about this stupid jerk. I prefer my smart jerks
Really was not expecting an incest plot from this show but I should’ve.
House getting arrested is insane
#house md#medical malpractice md#gregory house#james wilson#alison cameron#dr cuddy#robert chase#eric foreman#hilson
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Don’t know if you still doing tumblr but just in case. How about
The until dawn character’s find their lover (reader) crying because R told them they had a nightmare that they lost them to the Wendigos
Absolutely, I'd love to!��� more character reactions plz! I love doing themm💖 haven't played the remake, I know theres a way for josh to survive now, but I don't know the details, so if this is inaccurate to that sorryyyy. love you Joshuaaaa. Also a new sam ending? But i dont know what makes it do special yet so, ya, nothing new in this lol. MORE SAM, ASH, EM, MIKE, AND JESS REQS PLZZZZ I LOVE WRITING THEM BUT I NEED PEOPLE WHO LOVE THEM TO GIVE IDEAS RRAAAAHHHHHH. (Ofc my boys joshhhhh, Chris and matt are always welcome, but I've written a good amount for them, not much for the others) small tw for panic attacks in Sam and Matt's. If i had to have a panic attack in front of any until dawn characters, they would be the only correct answers lmao.
Until Dawn Character Reactions
GN!Reader had nightmares about losing them
Angst With LOTS of Comfort, exactly what you'd expect lol
Josh Washington
It's nearly 3:00 am when you wake up, shaking and crying.
You look to see him in bed next to you, he's taken to staying over much more frequently since that night, your presence is one of the few things capable of getting him comfortable enough to sleep.
Josh wakes up soon after you've curled yourself into him, your arms wrapping loosely around his chest and his shoulder.
"Hey," he rubs your back gently "Hey, I'm here..." sitting up properly, he rubs his sleepy eyes before pulling you into his lap "take your time. Tell me what's wrong when you're ready"
You cry silently for a few minutes all while Josh holds you and kisses your head
Eventually, you speak up in a shaky voice "I had that stupid nightmare again. That one with you..." you trail off, taking a deep breath, his smell comforting you
"Y/N..." Josh's hold tightens subconsciously "I'm sorry." His voice drops to a whisper "I'm so sorry..."
When you feel him start to sob silently, you bring your face up to his, your fingers caress his cheeks
"No, no, no, no, shhh..." you kiss his forehead "I'm not mad at you, babe! Don't think that at all."
"You wouldn't be so hurt if I didn-" Josh starts
You interrupt him with a kiss "Shut up, you didn't know. You made a mistake, yeah, but you had no idea those monsters were up there." You pause, letting him calm down a bit before continuing "i get those nightmares about losing you because I love you. When that thing almost killed you- fuck... I've never been that scared in my life. I'm not going to ever get that image out of my head..."
He kisses your temple and plays with your hair while you speak. Once you finish, he speaks up "I have bad dreams too. Of you being in the lodge when it blew up. Or the monster taking your head off, or..." He sighs, cradling you "so many things, but we're okay. We made it out. It's going to get better eventually. We'll get through it together, baby."
Josh holds you for a few more minutes, until you've calmed down fully. He lays back down, and pulls you on top of him. You wrap your arms around each other, and soon after, you both fall into a blissfully dreamless sleep.
Sam Giddings
It was a normal date night at first
Ice cream and tea, then a nice walk through the park. Everything was perfect.
Your parents let her stay over, as they usually do. They absolutely adore her, and they see how much she brightens you up when she's around. And you seem to not have panic attacks as often anymore
But you still get them
Like tonight. You're watching some old show, cuddling under the covers when you drift off to sleep
It's only for a few minutes, maybe 15 at most, but stuck in the agony of your head, it feels like hours.
She's being chased by josh the psycho, she's trapped in the mine, she's still hiding with the Wendigo screaming at her in the lodge- she's being caught and dragged to god knows here, she's slowly losing her mind and starving, she's being massacred- nonononononononotsam pleasenotsam nonononononono-
"Hey, Y/N..." you feel her gently shaking your shoulder "Wake up, it's just a nightmare, I'm right here" her voice is soothing, assuring, but it does little to prevent the inevitable
Your head feels fuzzy, your heart is pounding, fuck- fuck- you sit up, "No- no, I cant- I can't breathe-" you clutch your shirt just above your heart in an attempt to anchor you to reality "sam- Sam, where are you?"
She puts her hands on your upper arms and hugs you from the side "I'm still here. You're okay, baby. You're going to be okay."
"I cant- sam- help me, please-"
"Okay, let's try counting to 10." She starts counting slowly and clearly, giving you something to focus on, her beautiful voice. After a few counts, you join in, it takes a while, but your breathing does eventually level out.
"Sorry- sorry that's so embarrassing" you let out an uneven breath as Sam shakes her head
"Shush, there's nothing embarrassing about it. Absolutely nothing." She kisses your temple "was it the regular nightmares again?"
"No, no, they were about you this time."
Sam lets you lay your head on her shoulder while she rubs your back "oh, honey..."
A comfortable silence falls between the two of you before she speaks up "I wish I could make them all stop. I wish there was some magical thing I could say and we'd be back to who we were before, but..." She sighs "I'm not going anywhere. I can't fix everything, but I won't leave you, Y/N. Someday all these horrible things will just be distant memories, I swear. I love you"
You kiss her, a small hint of a smile on your face "I love you too" then you both return to watching the show. It was a really good date night.
Chris Hartley
You'd taken to staying up late and studying together since you got into the same college, and by some miracle, the same dorm
Chris is typing away on his laptop while you're trying to memorise a paragraph from a textbook you've read a hundred times.
Fuck this is so boring- you rub your eyes, what time is it?? You yawn and check your phone: almost midnight
As if reading your mind, Chris stretches and yawns "God damn, its late, and I've gotta get this done tonight." He stands up "I'm going to grab some coffee, want some?"
"Be right back." He says after you nod, rubbing your weary eyes
After he's gone, you lie back on the bed, it'd be so good to sleep right now... maybe just for a couple minutes... you'll be up before he's back...
Then you hear a screech
You see a snowy night
You're stuck behind a door- this door
A huge explosion, or something similar starts the scene, Chris sprinting towards the door with a limp and the Wendigo is hot on his heels
Your hand is immediately on the handle, ready to pull it open, but when you try, it's locked... NO! You pull it again, c'mon, c'mon, OPEN-
"Y/N, help!" Chris pounds in the door "please- it's coming, help!" He looks over his shoulder at the monster as you attempt to open it, becoming more and more frantic "pleas-"
Four long, sharp fingers pierce his neck and pull his head off
"NO!" You wake up, shivering and in tears. Sitting up quickly, you see that Chris hasn't returned
Shit... you grab a tissue from the box on the bedside table to wipe your face. It's been a long since you had a nightmare... must be the lack of sleep
Chris comes back into the dorm while you're crying. "Hey, woah, what happened?" He puts the coffees on the desk then hurries over to check on you.
His thumb grazes over your cheek as he tries to get you to look at him "baby, what happened?"
"Nothing, nothing, I just..." you shake your head "I think I fell asleep for a minute." You sigh, taking a deep breath "and I had a nightmare, or something."
"Aw, jeez, I'm sorry" He guides you into a hug "Wanna tell me about it?
While you explain what you saw, he rubs your back and plays with your hair, you sigh, "It really freaked me out."
"Yeah, that uh... really messed me up too." Chris pauses "I didn't realise how much that scared you"
"Neither did i. I've been trying to forget, but..." you trail off, trying to think of a reason
"You're probably sleep deprived, we've been studying super hard since we got here," Chris scoffs "and I can't remember the last good night's sleep either of us had."
"So you think i should sleep through it?" You lift your head to look at him properly
He nods "it probably won't happen again tonight. And if it does, I'll be here to help you."
You shake your head "I need to study, I have a test soon and-" he laughs at you "what??"
"You and I both know you're just staring at the same point of the page for hours, there's no reason for you to stay awake. Just head to bed, ill finish my homework as soon as I can, then join you."
You try to protest, but what's the point? Reading that paragraph for another hour won't make it any clearer. Sleep might.
Chris takes your stuff off the bed and you crawl under the covers, it only takes a few minutes after Chris gives you a good night kiss to fall asleep. It's the best night's sleep you've had in ages. Finally things start making sense in class! Maybe this is why people talk about healthy sleep schedules all the time...
Ashley Brown
She likes to read you to sleep.
It's nice to share her love of reading and stories with you, and it's good practice for speaking aloud in a safe, loving environment
But it's mostly the way you snuggle up to her, hugging her loosely, and burying your face in the crook of her neck, your weight is her favourite security blanket.
Her fingers gently play with your hair as she reads, she's certain you're asleep by now, so she's just reading to herself, when she feels you stir
"N-no, ash- please-" you whimper
"Shh, shh, its alright, honey..." Ashley hums a gentle tune to soothe you, but it doesn't work, you continue to mumble and whimper
It only gets worse
She feels you burry yourself more into her neck, your breathing quicken and a few tears spill
"Aw, babe..." Ashley quickly marks the page and puts the book down, before fully paying attention to you "it's alright... its okay." She fiddles with your stray hairs and kisses your temple
A few moments pass "Ashley... no- no- not Ashley-" you sob helplessly in her arms while she continues to try to shush and calm you, becoming more desperate, until you finally wake up in a state of shock
You sit up, trying to give her space "sorry, I didn't..." you trail off
"Shh, c'mere, I miss you" Ashley pulls you back down on top of her "was it that nightmare? You seemed really distressed."
Your eyes flutter closed for a moment when her hands return to your hair. "Mhm... that one- in the tunnel. If I didn't go back for you..."
"Yeah, you totally saved my life." She comments, lifting your face a little so uou can see the deep appreciation in her eyes
"But- if I didnt- if I was late- Ashley..." tears prick at the corner of your eyes again "I don't know if I could live without you. I need you."
She kisses your nose "You're adorable. And I don't know what I did to deserve you, and I can't believe how lucky we both got! I mean how many times did we think we were going to die, but didn't?"
"Ash- I just saw it happen- I keep seeing it in different ways, the saw, the gun, the tunnel, the lodge- it feels like every time I close my eyes I'm watching you suffer, I can still hear you screaming sometimes when I'm alone- I just want it to stop- I want to be normal."
"I'm sorry, beautiful. I'm so sorry." She rubs your back "I think this is our normal. Being terrified of the dark, and being alone, and rounding corners, and silence. Being haunted by the things we saw, and what we didn't see. Feeling guilty, and angry, and depressed and anxious, and different. That's normal now. It's impossible to live with alone, but we're together. We have each other as constant reminders what we have, and what we lost. I don't know if it'll ever get better, but there's nobody I'd rather support and be supported by than you."
Ashley takes a deep breath, clearly unused to speaking that long. You smile "seems like the reading aloud has helped a bit"
She blushes, kisses you on the cheek and picks up the book again "Shush, dork." It takes you a minute to get comfortable, they might not ever go away, but waking up in her arms, on her couch all snuggled up is the coziest thing you can imagine. Your life is more livable, because she is in it.
Matt Taylor
The movie theatre was packed
It was the release night of some big action movie everyone had supposedly been waiting years for
He was significantly more excited for the movie, you just loved spending time with him
You and Matt sat along the isle, next to the stairs. It was dark, and cold, so you snuggled up into his side
A little over an hour into the movie, you doze off. You know you shouldn't, but it's so warm and comfy, and his heartbeat was such a soothing pulse, how could you resist?
It was a light sleep, you could still hear parts of the movie, like the screaming, the crashing, explosions... Matt-
Nononono-Getoffhim! Lethimgo- please-matt-nononononono-
The thing is dragging him along the mine shaft while he desperately looks for something- the flare gun Emily kept to herself- shit
You try to scream, try to move, but you're completely paralysed. Nonononono- fuck- stop- matt- nononononono- yourehurtinghim- please
A final scream leaves him, then you hear him start to choke on his own blood- MATTNONONONONONOSOMEBODYHELPHIM- you feel tears start to stream down your face
A huge explosion in the movie wakes you- itssodark- itssoloud- itssocrowded- shit- gottagetout-
You jump from your seat, sprint down the stairs and out the theatre.
Fuckfuckfuckfuckfuck-
People are staring- fuck-
There's nowhere to sit, nowhere to hide- fuck- you collapse against the wall
Stopstopstopstop- your heart beats way too fast, so fast you begin to think you're having a heart attack. You curl your legs into your chest and hide your face
Please stop staring...
You hyperventilate, you tap on the floor, you shake, shit- am I dying?
"Y/N! Oh my god, you scared me, honey." Matts voice cuts through the static
He places a hand on your shoulder and pulls it away immediately when you jump at the sudden touch "can you please get them some water?" You hear him ask some passer-by. Please stop staring.
You continue to shake "Matt- matt I think I'm dying- help me-" you lift your head, god- the world feels like its spinning- to look at him the best you can "I'm scared"
"I know, it's gonna be okay- thank you," he hands you the cold bottle of water the person just brought over "can you drink? Or are you breathing too hard? You could use it to cool yourself down...?"
Matt is so scared right now, this is the first time this has ever happened, at least in front of him. He has absolutely no idea what to do, or how to calm you down. "Could you- uh- do you- shit- I'm making this worse aren't I?"
You nod a little, making him laugh "s-sorry, c-can you breathe? Like," he imitates deep and relaxed breathing "can you try to do that?" You try to, you really try, but it's so hard to focus on your breath when it feels like your heart is going to collapse in on itself
"Hey, it's alright, can I touch you?" He waits until you give him permission to sit beside you and start rubbing your back "tell me what you need, what can I do?"
"Umm- umm-" your foot jitters against the floor "just- is anybody staring at me?"
Matt looks around for a few seconds "N-no, no, I don't think so. Hey, there's a seat over there, can you move?"
He helps you stand and shakily walk to the seat, your legs are so fragile they can barely hold your weight. "M'sorry- shit, I'm so sorry-"
Matt seems surprised by your sudden apology "Woah, babe, no! No, it's completely fine, just try to drink some water an-"
You shake your head "No, Matt, the movie, I ruined your night, I'm so sorry" you tear up, the guilt eating at you
"What the? Y/N, you didn't do anything wrong. You just- I don't know, but it's not your fault. Okay? And even if it was, it's a dumb movie, I'll live. I can see it again. You matter more." He rubs your back again
You take a slow sip of water "I- I fell asleep for a little bit. I... fuck- I saw that fucking thing..."
"What? What do you mean, what did you see, babe?" His hand finds your cheek, and his thumb brushes away some tears
"The- whatever that fucking thing on the mountain was." You answer, someone must've told you what it was at some point, but you can't remember in your state "I've been trying to forget- I don't know why I started freaking out, it just-" you take a deep breath "just came out of nowhere"
"I'm sorry I'm so bad at taking care of you," he laughs, trying to lightens the mood a little "I'll, uh, definitely look up how to calm you down in case that happens again"
"Thanks, babe" you scoff, leaning down to lay your head on his shoulder
After a couple minutes, he asks "Wanna go back home or get some ice cream?"
Emily Davis
No-one would say Emily was a particularly loving or affectionate person, but if you were a good partner she'd be sure to treat you very well. Spoil you even.
She wanted to reward you for being such a good S/O, so she's treating you a nice romantic getaway
A whole weekend! Staying in a fancy hotel, getting spa treatments, going shopping, expensive restaurants!!
Its perfect, so perfect it almost makes you forget the other weekend getaway..
Until you're both sound asleep... and that screech, that screech thats haunted you for months, starts another nightmare, the mine. Its always the fucking mine
You're both sprinting as fast as you can-
Stmbling over yourselves-
It's dark, confusing, shit- shit- how do you get out?!
Emily screams next to you, you turn to see the Wendigo has a hold on her- NO!
It sticks its giant sharp fingers into her eyes and-
You're suddenly back in your hotel room- okay- okay- okay- you take deep breaths to steady yourself...
The sound of her gentle breaths anchor you
It's okay, you're fine, she's fine, you're safe.
You left the bed to grab some water, but almost like she could feel your absence, Emily stirs from her sleep "Ugh, why are you up?" She yawns, rubbing her eyes
"I just had a bad dream, I'm fine" you sip the water and admire how adorable she is. "You're gorgeous"
"Mmh, I know." She hums, pleased "what kind of bad dream, babe?"
You shrug and take another sip of water "the mine one again."
Emily slowly get out of bed to sit beside you at the table "Me or you?"
"You. But it was over quickly. I think I'm starting to get used to them. Is that bad?"
She thinks for a moment, still waking up a little "No? I don't think so. They don't seem to freak you out as much anymore, which is good. Not a fan of you being used to watching me die though."
You scoff and sip more water "that's not what I meant, Cutie."
Emily rolls her eyes "I know, I know" she picks up your hand "I am glad you're getting better though."
"Awe, you're such a softie." You tap her nose, she looks away bashfully
"Whatever. Don't mention it to anyone or I'll kill you."
You giggle at her and kiss her cheek "Oh, I can keep secrets. You know that"
"Good pet." Emily gives you a head pat "now let's go back to bed. It's 2 in the morning"
She leads you over to the bed "do you want to be little spoon or big?
Mike Munroe
You're in the sanatorium with Mike guiding you and the Wendigos chasing right behind
He's shooting aimlessly to give you both more room, until you reach a locked door- shit
They're closing in- one grabs your arm, you scream- "MIKE!!"
In a moment he's pulled you out of its hold, but it takes him instead
"No!" You cry, the Wendigo slashes his neck and chest "Mike-" the life leaves his eyes as he bleeds out
The other Wendigo jumps on you and starts mauling yo-
You wake up in tears, shaking- "Mike..." you whimper, quickly picking up your phone to call him, after a few tries he finally picks up
"Y/N? You alright? It's 4 in the morning" His voice is groggy, husky.
"I had a nightmare- can you come here please?" You beg through tears.
"Come to your room in the middle of the night? Your dad will kill me." He jokes
"I'm serious, Mike. I need you" You implore
Hearing your desperate plea gives him pause "Okay, I'll head over then. Are you gonna be okay?"
"Mhm" you nod "ill open my window for you."
Twenty minutes later, you hear him climbing up to your window "Hi, gorgeous." He flashes his charming smile as soon as he sees you through the open window
"Hi..." you help him climb inside and wrap your arms around him once he's standing upright
"What happened, babe?" His hand goes straight to your back, rubbing in soothing circles.
"Remember when we were in the sanatorium?" You sniffle, still crying gently. "I just- had a nightmare about it. I saw you die- and- and then they went after me- it was so horrible."
"Oh, honey..." He guides you to the bed then starts petting your hair with his free hand "it's alright, I'm here. I won't let them get you" You can hear that smile in his voice
You roll your eyes "yeah, I know. In my dream you died protecting me."
"Sounds about right." He drops his cocky demeanour for a moment "I mean it, though." He gently pulls your face out of his chest so you can meet his gaze "I won't let anything get you. I'll always be here for you. I'll always protect you, Y/N. I love you."
"I love you too, Mike..." He brings you in closer for a kiss.
You guys lie in the bed and snuggle, and eventually fall asleep until-
The jingle of your alarm goes off, 7:30am. You wake up in Mike's arms, warm and cozy, you stay like that for a few more seconds before hearing your dad's footsteps down the hallway makes you fully alert
Shit- "Mike!!" You whisper, shoving him in an attempt to wake him "Mike you gotta get up, you gotta go!"
"Mmh- what? Oh, hi, beautiful..." He didn't properly hear you, he just sees the gorgeous person he's in bed with
"Mike! My dad's up, you gotta go, dummy!"
"Oh- Shit!" He quietly exclaims then jumps out of bed and hurries to the window.
"Wait-" he runs over to kiss you, "see you soon, gorgeous." Before sneaking out of your room
Jess Riley
Sleepoverrrr!!!!!
Omg you guys had the BEST night.
Junk food, old cheesy romcoms, prank calls, painting nails, cute shit like that
Pretty juvenile, but it made Jess happy so you absolutely were not complaining
You'd basically devoted yourself to making her happy after that night.
She was so scared, so traumatised and hurt, that you tried to shut out your own feelings in order to prioritise her, and it was working... until tonight.
Jess fell asleep in your arms around half way through the 4th or 5th movie of the night and you decided to turn it off and join her. It wasn't long until you were fast asleep and it all come flooding back...
You were stuck in the mines again, looking desperately for jess- jeez, you remembered spending hours down there searching for her, encountering the monster several times, almost dying in a million different ways
And it just kept getting worse, you finally found her- oh god- look at her- your heart breaks all over again, she was absolutely brutalised, covered head to toe in slashes, barely able to stand, barely able to talk, oh, baby...
You took her hand and guided her out of the mine, but that screech- that fucking screech- you froze, no- no- MOVE! You can't stay here, you gottamove-
The creature appears, MOVE, Y/N! MOVE, it jumps on Jess, you scream, "NO! Please- No-"
It lodges its fingers into her throat at rips her jaw off-
"NO-" you jolt upright, fuck- you take deep breaths- nonono- you look beside you, Jess is roused from her sleep next to you.
"Y/N...?" She mumbles
"Shh, Shh, I'm fine. Don't worry about me, go back to sleep, sweetheart." You pet her head gently, fingers grazing the scar
"What happened? You were yelling..." Jess sits up slowly, leaning against you
"I just got a bit of a scare in my sleep. I'm okay, you can go back to bed"
"Y/N..." She whines a little "Please tell me what happened. You never talk about anything."
Youd love to open up, but you need to be strong, she needs someone strong "Jess, I'm alright, I swear-"
"Please, I don't like when you're scared."
"I just- I had a bad dream, but I'm okay, you are what matters,"
"You matter too,"
You shake your head "babe, that night..." your fingers trail over her scars "you were so hurt, you need a strong partner"
"Honey, that's not-"
"Jess, you need someone who won't break down whenever they remember what happened to you. You need someone who- who isn't weak- you need someone who isn't scared, you don't need my problems" you say, desperately trying to not cry
"Y/N..." She takes your hand "I don't want a robot, I want you"
"You need someone to be strong, you're hurting so much, you shouldn't have to deal with my sad shit"
"Shut up, dork!" She cradles your face in her hands "I adore you! I want you to open up to me. I- I want you to relate to me. I already feel so alone, I don't need you hiding a huge part of your feelings from me. I need you, I need you to show me you're hurting too, I need you to show me in not alone."
You felt enormous guilt at her pleading and pulled her into a hug, "ill- ill tell you everything. I promise, I don't ever want you to feel like that. I'm so sorry Jessie. I love you."
"I love you too, cutie."
♡☆♡☆♡☆♡☆
~Elliebean714
#until dawn ashley#until dawn mike#until dawn josh#until dawn sam#until dawn#until dawn chris#until dawn matt#until dawn emily#until dawn jess#until dawn x reader#josh washington x reader#josh washington#sam giddings x reader#sam giddings#chris hartley x reader#chris hartley#ashley brown x reader#ashley brown#matt taylor x reader#matt taylor#emily davis x reader#emily davis#mike munroe x reader#mike munroe#jess riley x reader#jess riley#josh until dawn
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🦮 Sinister Innocence
I loved your summary for this fake fic and I'd love to read a snippet if you're inspired!
So glad you asked @thesunpersists!!
Summary: When an ill-fated camping trip results in the death of Sylvia Fox, Attorney Katniss Everdeen must prove that Sylvia’s death was a result of a series of unfortunate events and not the calculated planning of her boyfriend, Peeta Mellark. But as court case heats up, so does the tension between attorney and client. Can Katniss prove to the court (and herself) that Peeta’s an innocent man or will she be his next victim?
~~~ Snippet 1 ~~~
“Fucking idiots,” she mumbles into her bite of English muffin as she watches the news where the anchor reports about a pair of campers missing in the Appalachian mountains. They must have gone off the beaten path to get the ‘real experience’ and gotten lost. Happened all the time… but usually not to the granddaughter of a old railroad tycoon so this was getting attention.
She half listens as the reporter ambles on: They’d left on a Saturday and when they hadn’t returned for work on Monday an all out manhunt had begun. Searches had been hindered by the relentless spring rain.
Katniss had little hope for the pair, and quiet honestly little sympathy: Some people just weren’t meant for the wilderness.
But then a picture of the pair flashes on the screen. She fumbles for the remote, pausing the program before the image disappears. The man’s face fills her screen.
Oh no. Not him.
~~~ Snippet 2 ~~~
“Peeta, you’re going to have to work with us here,” Haymitch says. “You discover your girlfriend is cheating on you and your answer is to propose?”
“You don’t understand what it was like with her — with us,” Peeta pleads.
“Please explain then, because I doubt a jury of your peers will understand either.”
He huffs, “Sylvia wanted an engagement, had given me an ultimatum and deadline. The thing with Crane was just to show me she was serious this time— that she already had a backup plan for if I didn’t come through. She always played these games. I mean we all know her grandfather.”
“And you were volunteering for that till death do you part?” Haymitch mocks.
Katniss watches as Peeta’s eyes flash and nostrils flare. He drops his gaze down to the coffee cup he’s gripping dangerously tight.
She knows Haymitch has clocked it as well; it’s part of his process. He’s usually so easy going and mild despite the circumstances and Katniss wonders if there’s enough of that anger under the facade to have really killed Sylvia. Haymitch says it doesn’t matter, except in that they’ll need to work on it If Peeta wants to testify in his own defense. But Katniss wants to— no, needs know for certain.
Peeta takes a few breaths before continuing, “I know how stupid this all looks— how stupid I look. I’ve had to a lot of therapy since then and can see how wrong it all was, but at the time I just thought: When you love someone you take the good with the bad.
“I thought if we got away; from Crane and her grandfather’s influence and if I did what she wanted, we could reset.”
~~~ Snippet 3 ~~~
She heads towards the conference room. The past few days of prep had gone well. She and Haymitch had been grilling him in preparation for the cross examination and were in a groove.
But Haymitch is waiting outside the door. “Hold up sweetheart,” he says blocking her entrance. “Kid’s asked to prep with me alone.”
~~~ Snippet 4 ~~~
She’s feeling good about the case… hopeful even. Like they may be able to win and that maybe, just maybe there might be a future afterwards.
She’s lost her place in her brief, daydreaming when her ringing phone jolts her back to the present.
It’s Beetee from the lab and when she answers he begins without preamble, “Analysis of Miss. Fox’s stomach contents are in: Dried meat and fruit, nuts.”
Perfect - Everything checks with Peeta’s account. All good news.
“but there was one interesting thing. We also found: [latin plant name].”
Katniss’s stomach drops, her mouth goes dry. “Nightlock,” she whispers.
“That’s right; So you’re familiar? Highly toxic. Victim was likely dead within moments of swallowing.”
“But her toxicology came back normal?” She reasons.
“Toxicology only covers the usual things unless otherwise ordered. I’ll put in a request now to confirm.”
“Put a rush on it and call as soon as you know.”
Katniss slumps in her chair. So Sylvia was dead before she’d ever left the cliff ledge.
#I feel like this fic really needs an#if it weren’t for the baby drop#thank you for the ask!!#thesunpersists#ask#I got a little carried away!#fake fic ask game#everlark fanfiction#🩶🩶🩶#sinister innocence
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Alright, part 2 of The Way of Kings has excepts from a letter for its epigraph section, so l'm just going to collect all those fragments here and see if I can figure out what they're about. Fair warning, I don't know a ton about wider Cosmere stuff, so l'll probably fail.
Chapters 12-28 epigraphs:
*Minor Wind and Truth spoilers below!*
Old friend, I hope this missive finds you well.
Though, as you are now essentially immortal, I would guess that wellness on your part is something of a given.
I realize that you are probably still angry. That is pleasant to know. Much as your perpetual health, I have come to rely on you dissatisfaction with me. It is one of the cosmere's great constants, I should think.
Let me first assure you that the element is quite safe. I have found a good home for it. I protect its safety like I protect my own skin, you might say.
You do not agree with my quest. I understand that, so much as it is possible to understand someone with whom I disagree so completely.
Might I be quite frank? Before, you asked why I was so concerned. It is for the following reason:
Ati was once a kind and generous man, and you saw what became of him. Rayse, on the other hand, was among the most loathsome, crafty, and dangerous individuals I had ever met.
He holds the most frightening and terrible of all of the Shards. Ponder on that for a time, you old reptile, and tell me if your insistence on nonintervention holds firm. Because I assure you, Rayse will not be similarly inhibited.
One need only look at the aftermath of his brief visit to Sel to see proof of what I say.
In case you have turned a blind eye to that disaster, know that Aona and Skai are both dead, and that which they held has been Splintered. Presumably to prevent anyone from rising up to challenge Rayse.
You have accused me of arrogance in my quest. You have accused me of perpetuating my grudge against Rayse and Bavadin. Both accusations are true.
Neither point makes the things I have written to you here untrue.
I am being chased. Your friends of the Seventeenth Shard, I suspect. I believe they’re still lost, following a false trail I left for them. They’ll be happier that way. I doubt they have any inkling what to do with me should they actually catch me.
If anything I have said makes a glimmer of sense to you, I trust that you’ll call them off. Or maybe you could astound me and ask them to do something productive for once.
For I have never been dedicated to a more important purpose, and the very pillars of the sky will shake with the results of our war here. I ask again. Support me. Do not stand aside and let disaster consume more lives. I’ve never begged you for something before, old friend.
I do so now.
Obviously, no convenient section telling us who this is from. It seems to be from Wit/Hoid, and I think "the element" could be Wit's Dawnshard, which he carries inside him, alongside his skin (he "protects [the element] like [he] protects [his own skin]).
As for the intended recipient, I have no idea. Assuming “the element” is what I think it is, they were somehow involved in Wit taking his Dawnshard up again before coming to Roshar. They’re also not an original Shard, as Wits says they are “now essentially immortal” (emphasis added), implying that they haven’t been immortal for long. This rules out Edgli, who was really the only one I could think of. Wonderful.
As stated above, this is probably completely off.
#stfu kor#i invite anyone who knows more than me to dunk on my ignorance and tell me what it actually means#plz don’t just link coppermind though I’m trying to do this without it#stormlight spoilers#the stormlight archive#the way of kings#way of kings spoilers#wok spoilers#wat spoilers#wind and truth spoilers#again real minor but still#wok epigraphs#epigraph#epigraph collection
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Wave wondered what sort of library or structure a Cosmic being would hold there old memories in. She also wondered what sort of things would have bene left in there. Old lovers? great Tragedies? or things she couldn't fathom. She'd have given alot to yank out some of her bad memories of her Ex's and toss them to the wind. She imagined having such power would drive her to do horrific things though. She was wise enough to understand that a mortal just wasn't prepared for that kind of power.
" Yea, be a problem if the wrong person found it to i imagine... ancient lost knowledge. You hear that in stories alot... a mortal stumbling on godly knowledge and losing there mind. Still... its to enticing to pass up for many... myself included. To know everything there is to know...even for a moment... such a temptation "
She admitted that, deep down she could be very greedy even if she knew such power would destroy her. The thought of knowing, was hard to ignore. To know everything, and lose everything at the same time. She felt like Sohna should understand her own failings, so she could protect her from them.
" I guess i am saying it aloud... because even i'm a fool at times "
She smiled lightly at Sohna watching as she drank the wine? Was that really drinking it? It made her wonder how Sohna's anatomy even worked. Did she have any? Was it what she wished it to be? She couldn't keep her mind from wondering about the Cosmic being, and how a physical relationship would work.
" It's not that--- I mean wait who told you that? Mortals taking it slow? hehe! cute, no we don't really do that. We say we do... but deep down every mortal is thinking of the first kiss, or the first moment of bliss. That or maybe i'm a little depraved... but can you blame me for being a little curious? "
She was more then a little curious but, she didn't want to rush anything either. Romance was good, taking things slow was nice but she wanted to at least prepare herself in case things did go down that road. Chaos, she doubted she could keep up with Sohna, but at least she'd have an idea as to what to expect.
"I'm not too concerned about it, though I do have all important information backed up in a sense should there ever be anything that I need to recall." Sohna didn't simply wipe memories from her mind without some level of caution, and did keep a habit of instantly putting anything important somewhere else should she ever need to remember it. "However, only I know where it is kept. I can't have someone getting a hold of it and frying their brain." That'd be a long problem to deal with.
"If Fate starts to overstep too much then Voidless shall step in, though even Fate wouldn't be foolish enough to push his luck that far. None of us could match Voidless as he is the first and is basically The Void itself. Well, the new one somehow is on par with them, though they don't pick fights with each other." Sohna didn't even want to imagine what damage would happen if those two go into a serious fight.
"What an interesting concept. I should bring this up to Nebula whenever we next meet." Sohna was sure it would be something she could get behind with how often they partake in the consumption of wine. The cosmic being would set down her glass which would suddenly go down as if someone just took a drink which caused her body to change into a light purple for a moment. "It certainly is an interesting flavor, though pleasant."
Sohna then chuckled a bit at Wave's question. "And here I thought most mortals like to move slow. As for my power, it won't hurt you unless I choose to have it hurt you. As for limitations, only those you request to not push you too far past your limits." The cosmic being limits were so far beyond a mortal's she would never reach them, so it was more so her not pushing her partner past their limit.
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ep 43 had me tearing up in a fucking shopping centre ‼️‼️
b+w alt version that I truly couldn't decide if I liked it more . Also I included a lot of thoughts in the tags but they're somewhat incoherent<3
#i dont know what i expected but i was waiting for a friend and too excited to wait until later#malevolent podcast#john doe#john doe malevolent#john malevolent#malevolent fanart#grimm art#ep 43#ep 43 left me with a lot of thoughts ... i didnt quite like how much of a recap it felt like at times but that might#be because ive been relistening and like yeah everyone knows that john 🙄 but that's not the case for everyone and with monthly uploads#things get forgotten easily#i find the discussion of “humanity” so interesting because John has shown that without someone that he has forcibly grown to value as an#equal... something he cannot do as the king of yellow as he is superior to all of his realm and presumably stays out of other elder god's#anyway. without that equality and enviroment to grow he fails to reach his goal of compassion and falls onto old ways.#John. The King in Yellow. shown by both times each has found themselves in human form do not just crave power and influence!!!#THEY CRAVE COMMUNITY!!! an endrich being not born or raised with nothing but power and ego#CRAVES COMMUNITY.#His goal of “humanity” is not a selfless goal like John projects - it is ultimately somewhat selfish as he does not want to be alone!!#which makes this desire so much more human#i don't know maybe this is just me spelling out whats already there but the way john and the witch argued about humanity frustrated me#it felt like they were missing the point or that perhaps the “good/evil” “black/white” retoric was already realised by me and john needed#realise it himself . which is fair !!!#i dont know!!!!#the witch was talking about how bad everyone was and how humanity is cruel and john was talking about Lily (#who also frustrates me how shes used in the plot somewhat she was literally just a nurse doing her job bro#) but to John - yes internally he is struggling with his moral greyness and im so proud of him for growing being himself SO PROUD#JUST.!!! he wants community. he needs community. he loves his friend. 'humanity' at its core does not matter as long as you try to be bette#and i think thats awesome and i really enjoyed the episode#guhh im rambling enjoy my tag rambling i dont know i want john to have more friends :(#yorrick can be another friend godd i love you yorrick so silly
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Complex feelings about copyright and Disney's appalling ethics aside, it does unsettle me how quickly people jump to make and monetize the most unnerving, depraved content imaginable about characters created for children the second it hits the public domain
#lilac rambles#lilac goes to the movies#look you don't have to defend yourselves to me i don't really care what you do#so please don't flood my inbox with all this stuff about why disney sucks and why gross stuff is good actually#im not here to fight#i get it. they suck and this feels vindicating#i just get unnerved watching people do terrible things to things created for children the second they can#maybe it's bc i don't see anyone making anything...idk...nice? and like...not freaky?#like it really feels like 'haha we're going to defile this creation bc it makes us feel good to destroy something created for families'#bc if it had just been the case with mickey id get it yknow#but people did this with sweet old pooh bear too#but maybe that's bc he's now a disney property idk#like maybe as other famous characters come into the public domain people won't do the same things#and honestly that will make me feel a lot better
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love this part of my life where the things that are difficult but challenging and good for me are things i can stop and skip and halfass, but the things that are difficult and painful and pointless are the things i have to live with no matter what
#school and home life are too much to handle so i skip school#because i cant kick my parents out#and appartments cost money#and i dont have a car to sleep in#i could maybe try to dig up my old childhood tent but that brings a whole host of logistic questions + im scared and it's difficult#anyway. it's fine. it's cool. i just have to hold on until i graduate high shcool and then ?????#find a way to live without my parents money OR scholarships#all for some nebulous end goal of having a job (the only field i'm interested in and good at offers two options:#to become an academic#or to become a freelancer#i do not have the fortitude to be an academic and being a freelancer is convoluted and pays like shit)#i might've spent 24h without my parents occasionally if i spent the night at a friend's place once or twice recently#but besides that the last time i've gone 48h without my parents was when the mental health center organised a week camp uhhhh...#two summers ago#incredibly good for my mental health as you can see#god i remember like... years ago. around 13yo maybe or 14. a guy. i dont know if he was a mental health professional or like social cases#but anyway he told me ''you're too afraid to be away from mommy and daddy'' and it made me want to rip his eyes out#several other people have implied or suggested that too over the years and it's just#am i too dependant on my parents? yes. will it be difficult to take my independance? yes.#does it means i don't both rationally recognize and feel that this is really fucking unhealthy and hindering for me#on top of being unpleasant?#FUCK NO#i want out my guy. there's just not many opportunities for an already mentally ill teenager#now that i'm eighteen i have to grapple with the logistical problems of the money needed and how to continue my education#and im sure a billion more if i start searching a little more seriously#perhaps i should kill myself that way i don't cost anyone any more money#broadcasting my misery#vent
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A Fickle Thing by Jae_Cillian
Summary:
Silco was floating. Calm. At peace for but a single moment in which his entire body was weightless, supported in the water’s gentle caress. With his next breath, though, it hit him all at once. The constriction of his lungs, the toxins searing the open flesh of his gut, his chest ablaze as he choked.
The flutter of his heart raced as the image flashed before him of water made wine dark by his blood, of large calloused hands squeezing his throat and holding him under. The shadow of a man—his friend—hung above him, but when he flailed to scrape his nails into the wrists choking him, his hands found nothing—no one—save the tendrils of blood mixing further with the waste of the river.
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In which, unbeknownst to anyone, Silco survives being shot by Jinx. Feeling conflicted and lost—unsure if revealing himself to Jinx would hurt her more than heal her—Silco finds himself drawn to the old mining shaft. He finds more than the dusty letter with his name on it when a beast shoves its way in. Not just a beast. Vander. And when Jinx, Vi, and Isha track that same beast to the mines, what should be heartfelt reunions are clouded with the pain their decisions inflicted on each other.
(not done yet but it’s sooooo good like sell my kidney good like i adore how they wrote silco and focus on his perspective, protective dad silco im feral)
Forward - Part Two by Rimeko
Summary:
It started differenly. Worse. But maybe it means it won't end the same way - in water and blood.
Zaundads bingo event - "Rescue"
(haven’t read the first part but it’s pretty good as a standalone! the dynamic is very sweet but in an actual realistic way)
Memories of Bedrock by Renlukun
Summary:
Deep in the mines of Zaun, Silco fought every day to survive. When he crossed paths with Vander, he assumed he was just another man seeking to use him. What Silco never anticipated was how fate would reshape his life—from finding his greatest love to sparking a revolution.
Part I of a series that will explore how Vander and Silco fell in love, started a revolution before and after the Pilt River incident in the Alternate timeline.
(haven’t read the lastest chapter but it gave me brainworms, silco my princess with a disorder!!! okay but srsly i like how it characterized young silco to be more rough around the edges IM SO ILL)
Drown Me in Your Memories by starsniper
Summary:
A haze of red floods Silco’s vision. He inhales, but he can’t breathe, and when his legs threaten to buckle out from underneath him, he clings to Vander’s shoulders, desperately trying to still the tremor in his hands. The cigar he’d been holding falls to the ground, forgotten. Silco hears it splash into a puddle.
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There are some memories that can never be buried, no matter how hard one tries to forgive and forget. Silco knows this better than anyone else.
(the characterization and the angst is just *eats dry wall* very realistic and i need to chew on them both, like the dynamic, the ptsd, the messy process of healing RAHHHH)
Undertow by ringfinger
Summary:
“Slapping me?” Vander slurred, and the grip on Silco’s hair tightened, mean enough that his scalp burned. It felt good. Silco struggled against him, pushed against his shoulder. “Like I’m some kind of dog?”
“A dog would be better behaved,” Silco shot back, and that was what earned him the sock in the jaw that sent stars scattering across his vision and blood filling his mouth. He choked on it, coughed, splattering Vander’s face with flecks of spit and blood. “Case in point.”
(THE 👏 CHARACTERIZATION 👏 i’m telling you i love when they are fucked up, like so fucked up im so sososososo normal i think i hauve covid-)
Blood and Water by Rauchendes_GNU
Summary:
See, Silco had always had a strange relationship with danger. It made him a fearless leader of riots and uprisings. When going on a heist, he was the first one in and the last one out. He’d learned to pick locks and disable simple, and later more complicated, traps. Silco was the one they sent to negotiate because he wouldn’t let anyone intimidate him, no matter if their opponents wore masks and armour and carried guns. Silco was fearless. Silco flirted with death.
(i really like the characterization and angst (again) but i have to admit the depictions of trauma and coping mechanisms i found really realistic like even the messy ugly feelings)
don’t at me about my reviews i know what i like and i stick with it, so they all sound the same 💀 also it’s not letting me embed links rn sowwy
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