#maybe the pacing make sense.

[siloechat]

Day 2 of the Salty Pirates challenge

This is better. I feel like I'm participating in some chips tasting and online pirating challenge.

Today we went to a local honey festival (it counts ! We needed honey). It was very small, with a lot of people out, and very very noisy. So very tiring ! I mostly kept my noise canceling headphones (not the music kind, the construction kind). People tend to get disturbed/ condescending when I keep them, but it helps. One of the vendor was nice, talking to me and not M, not infantilizing, so I mostly bought our honey at her booth. Also some delicious nougat !

I was tired when we came back, but M decided to vacuum our bedroom and all the closet and drawer to try to stop the sneezing , so I went and cleaned the bathroom sink. I've organized that sink with bathroom baskets a few months ago. It still works ! I think cleaning that sink is now the easiest cleaning task in the house because it's done in a few minutes. I don't have to stand long.

So now I'm done with my weekly cleaning tasks (not that they actually are done weekly. That's more of dream. Still, I'm happy when they get done, it always make a difference )

I haven't made any plans for the rest of the challenge, but I have a few ideas:

Seasonal tasks to finish, like bags and coat cleaning

Having the house as clean as possible before we leave on Friday. I know M will clean when I'm absent, but I don't want him to have too much to do.

Packing before Friday ! Both for seeing family, and then for the work trip.

Drawer decluterring / organizing / cleaning. I love my painting stuff but I alway have to rummage through to find anything, and the drawer is too heavy, I can barely open it myself.

Two of our lights are very cold and always hurt my eyes. Maybe something warmer would be better.

Holiday planning ! Before M's family try to convince us to do 9h of train and then back, during the annual strike, to get dissected and judged for a week. Also it's noisy. Please no.

Medical: I need to get back to physical therapy. I really, really don't want to, but it's been 2 years since the last time and my walking is... not improving. At best. So I need to. But I really really don't want to.

Craft: I have 2-3 (4 ?) glass glass (?) to paint, so we can put them on the windowsill for the Light festival in December.

Added: I want to pass the driving theory test before New Year (probably unrealistic ), so fitting a few training sessions in the next month would be... at least step in the right direction

I think that's most of it. I did a lot of organizing in Spring, so a lot of the daily work is just preventing the appartement from growing wild again.

[bamsara]

I think that one thing people fail to understand is that unsolicited literary criticism coming from an online stranger who is reading with no knowledge of what the authors intended goal is, is not going to be received the same as say: the authors beta reader or friends who know what the authors intended goal and has the sufficient knowledge and input to help the author reach that desired outcome.

"But I'm only trying to be helpful" How do I know you have the knowledge and literary skill for you to be able to actaully do that when we don't know each other and you are essentially a stranger to me? Are you applying this criticism based out of personal biased experience and desire to see the story or characterization be driven in another direction or tweaked, or do you know the author's intentions for the character? If the story is incomplete, are you basing your criticism of a character on the incomplete narration with only partial information available of them or are you building up a report until the story's completion? Did the author provide you with the information needed to make a fully informed criticism?

Have you discussed with the author what their plans are or are you assuming them based off the narration, especially if the narration is proven or implied to be unreliable or missing key points of the plot? Are you unbiased enough to help them reach their desired outcome for the characters and story regardless of your personal feelings towards the characters/antagonists and setting? Can you handle being told your specific input isn't wanted because you're a reader and/or have no written anything relating to their genre or topic? Do you understand and respect that the author's personal experiences might influence their writing and make it different than how you would have done it personally? Do you understand if an author only wants input from a specific demographic relating to their story?

If it's for fanfiction or other hobby media, are you holding a free hobby to a professional standard? Are you trying to give criticism because you feel like the author has produced 'subpar job performance' of their fic? Are you viewing their work as a personal intimate outlet or something that must conform with mass media? Are you applying rules and guidelines when the fic is shared for simple sharing sake? Is your criticism worded appropriately and focused on the parts where the author has requested input on rather than a general dismissal and or disapproval?

Have you put yourself in a place where you assumed you have the input needed for the story to evolve better, or have you asked what the author needs and what they're having trouble with? Can you handle having your criticism rejected if the author decides their story doesn't need the change and not take it as a personal offense against your character? Are you crossing that boundary because you think you are doing the author a favor? Are you trying to be helpful, or do you just want to be?

I think sometimes when people hear authors go 'please don't give me unsolicited writing advice or criticism' they automatically chalk it up to 'this author doesn't want ANY constructive feedback on their stuff at all' and not "i already have trusted individuals who will help me with my writing goals and- hey i don't know you like that, please stop acting so overly familiar with me'

[moth-yea]

I see people (mostly on pinterest) saying "Ohhh but what could curly do, they were all trapped in space!" But people never pay attention to that anya is allowed to feel. Anya is allowed to be distraught and enraged. It doesn't matter curly couldn't do anything (or at least you think he couldn't), she's allowed to feel whatever she needs to, because she was assaulted. Doesn't matter what could or couldn't have been done, you're ignoring the point entirely.

[raayllum]

Linking for credit with the information (largely from the book 2 novelization) regarding 6x05 "Moonless Night":

ORACLES OF OPHIDIAN?? FOR ME??

and ofc viren inherited it from kpp'ar

[alonetogether]

you cannot script a hurricane, you have no idea of claudia's strength, moved her right up on her feet, just a roof shingle that flew off of your house, i can't get her out of my mind louis, i saved her from a fire so half a century later she could..., she looked at me at the end like a child looking to her father. the hurricane hitting full force right at that moment. armand was both right and wrong, you cannot script a hurricane, again, you have no idea of claudia's strength, she's not a shingle, claudia is the whole hurricane.

[skrunksthatwunk]

idk if i've discussed it before (i have certainly THOUGHT about it) but someone on my kuwa suffering ep 89 comp mentioned it and i just had to go off about it like. ok. sensui tells yusuke something along the lines of "you heard itsuki" when itsuki's inside the uraotoko, implying that not only can sensui hear those inside the uraotoko, but that he expects yusuke to be able to as well. which means that yusuke Almost Certainly Heard And Kind Of Ignored kuwabara's prolonged mental breakdown and wailing about how much he needs yusuke to live etc. which. guHHH i hate him yusuke you ass but also listen.

the only acknowledgement yusuke gives to this (if any) is when he says something like "sensui you're sooo fucking cooked this plan's going perfectly (my friends are going to get strong and kill you when i die)." he's trash talking to sensui, ignoring the others because, i think, he doesn't want to acknowledge what he's doing to them.

yusuke is explicitly recreating the experience he had with kuwabara's "death" at the hands of toguro, complete with the announcement of intent (and power) to kill, the inability to impede the threat in any way (barring a power-breakthrough), and the target in some way racing towards/volunteering for their death. yusuke learns through doing, and through tough love-style approaches. it's only effective if it hurts. watching kuwabara die like that was devastating to yusuke, but it sure as hell fucking worked. he beat toguro because of that maneuver. so even if he has to (re-)traumatize his friends in the process, this method will make his friends stronger, and he feels confident in that. but he never had to live with the consequences of kuwabara's death, not really. that's something hiei makes clear before they enter the cave as well, that there are no fake-outs ready to make him or anyone else stronger. the only deaths here will be real. the only power gained will come at a high, permanent cost. hiei's warning is an attempt to keep everyone alive, to keep yusuke from being stupid. and then yusuke decides to take that fatality into his own hands, but it's kind of his friends who would pay the price. he's going to make them live through the days, months, years without him, the actual permanency of loss (assuming they survive for that long), something he never experienced with kuwabara (a new facet of that traumatic scenario), AND he's escaping the emotional fallout of this choice through death. he doesn't have to see them mourn, won't get yelled at, won't watch them fail to move on. he's tapping out and choosing to believe they'll be fine.

but i think he feels guilty. just a little. i mean, yusuke couldn't even believe that people cared about him enough to want him alive in episode one. he's staked everything on his friends, which means he still kind of... doesn't value his own life, at least not compared to theirs. but he believes his friends love him and want him around, and we know that because he has to, or else he wouldn't make a plan that depends entirely on that love. he is actively leveraging the care he doesn't think he deserves, trying to hurt them in a way he is intimately familiar with (only worse), for.... what, exactly?

this is kind of my sticking point tbh. i don't think the answer is... super clear, but let's start with what it's not.

yusuke is not doing this because it is the most practical way to save all of humanity; that would be the mafukan, which he stopped. it could be a gamble to save all of his friends? the mafukan strategy would guarantee koenma's death/eternal imprisonment, whereas this strategy gambles all of humanity on the chance that his friends come out of the Easy Break Oven strong enough to avert the end of the world. if the sacrifice of even one friend is completely intolerable, perhaps he'd accept those slim odds and their steep consequences. yusuke tends to take risks like that, especially when he's got fight-induced tunnel vision. he doesn't think things through too much; his schemes are usually dependent on surprising his enemy enough to oneshot them. truthfully, i think this is the closest we'll get to an answer, and it's a more conventional one for this kind of story. but there is another layer i haven't been able to get from my mind.

i think yusuke is gifting each of his friends an honorable warrior's death.

so, in case it needs saying, yusuke, kuwabara, kurama, and hiei all (at least once, if not several times) exhibit a desire to die in combat in a way they deem noble to give their lives purpose (usually by self-sacrifice, but sometimes by another metric of honor, like hiei's duel with shigure and his desire to die in mutual defeat against an evenly matched opponent; or even kurama's decision to fight shigure in his human form, displaying a sort of passive suicidality via placing being true to himself in this (somewhat symbolic/inconsequential) way over survival). they need to make their lives count for something, because they feel guilty for being alive (kurama and hiei feel guilty for their past actions (hiei's is most evident in his distance from yukina, though that's not its primary reason), hiei, kuwabara, and yusuke have all been ostracized and made to feel like burdens on/unwanted by their caregivers and general society; all four of them have felt profound isolation even from their loved ones (yusuke and hiei are rather obvious; kurama can never tell his mother about the majority of his life nor what she truly means to him in the context of it; and kuwabara is separated from his peers for his spiritual awareness and his "stupidity" (plus his parents aren't around? and he is Desperate to define manhood/manliness through a broader pop cultural one which includes the warrior sacrifice thing bc he has no male role models BUT that's for another post) (i will admit kuwa's the most tenuous one here irt isolation)). they want to die for a cause so badly it's actually physically painful to me. it is passive suicidality, and they define their lives and identities by their relation to, engagement with, and skill at doing violence, etc. they live to die by the sword. anyway. nobody talks about it but i think it's very important to understanding what yusuke's doing here.

because i think he knows that about himself and his friends. they're kindred spirits. at the very least he knows this about kuwabara, who literally made a speech about this before diving into toguro's fingers In The Event That He Is Recreating Explicitly. he is dying nobly like they all want to on the chance that they'll get to break out and fight sensui rather than dying without even getting to take a swing. it's about his pride and theirs. but i don't think yusuke necessarily believes they'll win. he knows better than anyone how strong sensui is, and how wide the gap is between sensui and team urameshi. his stated position that humanity is doomed and that he doesn't care about its fate is, i think, not completely genuine, but if we take it at face value, he's not killing himself so that his friends can survive the end of the world. something's going to come around and kill them eventually. he's doing it so they can survive long enough to fight sensui. he needs them (specifically kuwabara) to be strong enough to free themselves to begin round two. but he's given up on their side winning, on humanity surviving, on his own victory---why should he think his friends are capable of winning? this could be another case of yusuke's fight-blinders. it could be another gamble, more blind faith put in his friends. but honestly it reads more to me that yusuke's giving them a chance to die together on the battlefield. them winning would be great, but it's not his goal. it's a pipe dream.

he knows he's going to be killed. they're probably going to be killed, too. but to make it so they last a little longer against sensui, to make the odds a little more even, so they are killed not like livestock, but like worthy fighters, he'd die a little faster. it's the best kind of death someone like them can have; and he'll deprive himself of it just to make their ends a little sweeter. even if the road to that is far more bitter.

but it's not like yusuke's friends know what he's thinking or agree to it, and he can't exactly make his case for it in the moment. he's making that choice for them. whatever his intentions, whatever odds he thinks they have of beating sensui, he's kind of sealing all of their fates. so how the hell is he supposed to acknowledge kuwabara screaming at him not to die, trying desperately to express what yusuke means to him in what could be their final moments together? this plan is going to hurt his friends terribly. it is already doing so, and he can hear it. his choices to stop koenma from using the mafukan and to die for his friends' strength are both selfish in some way, no matter how you read the scene. if yusuke comforts kuwabara, he might not get strong enough. if he twists the knife, well... how could he forgive himself? and either way by responding he would have to face them all and say yes, i'm doing this regardless of your feelings (with the intention of hurting you). so i think he does what he often does. he avoids it. he lets that emotion glance off him and his bravado and his one-liners so he doesn't have to deal with the fact that he's hurting people, that he's scared and guilty and unsure of himself. that he's about to die again, about to put kuwabara through the grief he saw at his wake again, only worse; about to put his quieter friends through something similar.

yusuke is confronted with the responsibility one has to the people who care for them, and he runs from it in an attempt to give them some small peace. just like when he died before and thought hey, at least my mom and keiko won't be burdened by me anymore. because the only thing he can really do for them is die.

[sysig]

Destined to lose an eye in every timeline (Patreon)

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[francy-sketches]

The age difference between tommen and myrcella bothers me way more than it should like sometimes it's 2 whole years sometimes they're the exact same age like grrm wanted to make them twins but he forgot. Girl what is the truth

[fumifooms]

Just finished Fool Night vol 7 (chap 63) and clutching my head. Mayhaps I shall never be the same. Oh Mukuru Izumi the villain that you are… "What’s back teryas? Veer usses?" "What’s oxygen? Is it like air?" "What’s that? What are you holding?" "Do you think I can live happily one day?" Just shoot me mysterious masked guy it’ll hurt less idc anymore just do it. This is my csm Aki I feel the tragedy in my bones even more here

It’s the cycle of revenge right, that goes on and on until there’s no one left to avenge the last one murdered— And the thought that there’d be no one that would remember or care or want or try to avenge Mukuru is the fucking saddest thing I’ve ever heard.

Trying to be as vague as possible to avoid spoilers but man. Fool Night, the manga that’ll make me cry over trees… Like so far I’ve only cried once and it was during the first umm trees field scene right, because it was simply too fucking real yeah that’d happen yeah, but my god. They’re not just trees they’re lives and they’re not just lives they’re humans and more but does it matter and what are souls???? What are feelings????? What is communication?????? "Oh sure I’ll bring you to Shiika." then that. evil.

…….. And also today I started NegaPosi Angler!!! Great and comfy so far very looking forward to watching it every week. For anyone who didn’t know yet I have a weird ultra fixation on fishing in media in general, Tsuritama and River King are two of my fave things, sooo this is perfect for me lol, came around just at the right time too. Big recommend. Surprisingly topical since both NegaPosi and Fool Night deal with poverty hm. It’s csm Denji meets FN Toshiro except this guy fixes his life through fishing. Bless.

2 works that make me say "I want to live!!" in very different ways! 😀 Fool Night’s out in english through Viz what are you doing here go check it out

[sunfoxfic]

I just wrote like 600 words of Alya talking about the difference between US culture and France culture in regards to how they think about villains and heroes, none of which advanced the plot or really has to do with anything at all; but honestly it's a 119k fic and counting, and I'm reminded that I have a 10k+ word WIP in the My Hero Academia fandom that's like 19% the actual premise, 80% worldbuilding that again has nothing to do with the actual premise, and 1% Izuku being gay for Katsuki, so I think 600 words is fine actually.

[margle]

I dont have any interesting thoughts on the episode because im so tired and I watched it with ads and buffering.

but all in all great ep. probably one of the best of the season. balanced the satire and comedy well. the dee vs frank ableism debate was good because it satirised how people like dee will be extremely ableist in their actions but claim superiority just because they dont say a slur. basically only doing the minimum so they dont appear prejudiced, but never going beyond that.

imo it felt like dee was a main character again in this episode because she actually had complexities to her character beyond just humour. I like how they are comparing frank and dee against each other to demonstrate the superficial changes across generations. where the culture gets less openly prejudiced in some areas, but the underlying issues never leave.

idk if ill think this after my rewatch but I thought the kid mac was hanging out with seemed to represent a younger version of himself. or maybe what he could have been if he hadnt grown up in a highly religious environment. like the kid wants the same thing as mac: to just have fun. but he is ready to go out into risk.e.rat's after the 'punishment' and continue having fun. whereas mac cant get over the fact that shame and punishment are interlinked for him. the world has changed but he cant because the idea that he must feel constant shame is so imbedded in who he is. maybe the kid represented a version of mac without his burden of shame?

also the opening! I was just thinking the other day that I missed when the gang sang together. im really glad they brought that back. they are all friends <3

these last 3 episodes have had strong endings, which is good because I kinda hated all the endings in the first 3 episodes. but the ending of this one was really funny and just felt like good sunny.

[stormyoceans]

Have you seen GAP the series?? Personally I thought it was trash. So bad, but I heard they changed the script so many times so it was bound to happen. I didn’t watch Marvellous Dream but everyone says it was bad too. Now Loyal Pin is starting and I don’t want to give that a chance either. What the heck, Idol Factory? I’m not saying they’re masterpieces but their BLs are good. Why can’t they make good GLs?

i have indeed watched GAP but i have to admit that it’s hard for me to be as objective about this show as i usually try to be with all the media i consume, because while part of me KNOWS it’s not the best series, im also very fond of it for what it represented as the first fully fledged GL we’ve ever gotten

im also aware i tend to be more forgiving towards GLs compared to BLs, mostly because BL shows have been around for years and were allowed to sometimes be pretty bad as they experimented and tried things out, while as it often happens with women i feel like a lot of people expected GLs to be nothing short than perfect from the get go and refuse to allow even the smallest misstep

all this being said, my marvellous dream is you was definitely (and unfortunately) not a good show (albeit i did weirdly enjoy some parts of it), and if you already didn’t like GAP you for sure wouldn’t like mmdiy either, because sadly i think this series has all the flaws GAP had but magnified 10 times: the main pairing keeps running around in circle about the same misunderstandings over and over again, the miscommunication goes through the roof, the relationship is very unbalanced, there are way too many characters who are there just for the drama and aren’t given enough space or depth (people saying we only got crumbs for chainpun in we are, well, let me tell you….. it can be worse ;;;;;;;), the pacing is a mess, and im sure im forgetting something else too. there could have been one saving grace in my marvellous dream is you (the fantasy element), but even that was neither explored nor narratively used at all

what i think it’s interesting is that both series were adapted by novels from the same author, so i do wonder which of those issues are due to the original material and which ones are due to idolfactory itself, because while an adaptation can definitely try to fix certain things, it also depends on how much artistic license they can actually take (this is why im very curious to see how GMMTV is gonna adapt pluto and us, since they’re also stories from that author)

as for the loyal pin, i haven’t been able to start it yet (petition to get an extra day in the week just to watch my shows), however im really looking forward to finally be able to, because this time the original novel is from a different author, so im hoping it won’t have the same issues when it comes to the plot and the characters

so yeah, i do think that there are some stylistic choices that are very typical of idolfactory that they should probably revisit (for example, having a big cast and pretty long episodes), but when it comes to GL specifically maybe they just didn’t pick the best material (or the right one for them as a company), so i hope the loyal pin is gonna be their turning point and that future projects will get better and better!!!!!

[jrueships]

something invokes the carnal rage in me when a grown man rages like a two-year old over a video game

[thecomfortable]

[ichnoviriform]

i wish we got 2 talk to the gods more...i'm so curious about what the grove used to look like - Bauhazzo says the Spire used to be full of people! I'm curious about how his powers work, because my first thought would be that he helps preserve knowledge but we see that that obviously doesn't happen bc the library he worked at as a human is gone, and the inhabitants do forget things like Cobigail's song. Maybe Bauhauzzo's ascension removed the need for a library, since you can go talk to him instead of search through an archive...? But what about the shops and such in the Spire?

I'm curious about the Grove's place in the world and how often people visit. Cause we know there could be non-Grove gods!

I guess my theory is that the Grove's been its own insulated area for so long that the rest of the world's moved on, and the people of the Grove are mostly carrying on the way they always did. New gods are exciting, but normal, kind of. It brings visitors but not a whole lot.

Do people come to converse with the gods? It seems like the answer is not really. Why not? The HobbyHoo questline suggests that art's a commodity outside the grove, like irl, so I suppose there's no money there and little commercial interest in making use of the artsy gods' inspiration.. And the other gods are kind of...situational....

anyway i got off track. I wanna see what the Spire looked at its peak.. and what the rest of the Grove looked like before the newer gods arrived...

[h0t-p1nk-ch33tah-pr1nt]

Does cherry have any lore :0

Yep !!! Here's like a pic of my notes bc I am not writing all that shit out

Tldr when she got foundt out abt being a mutant and her parents capitalized on it, she resented them always getting tested on like she was some animal, she never felt like she had her own autonomy, until she was 20 with her little boy toy (ex boyfriend) they were known to explore and move around from apartment to apartment until he was like "Hey my uncle is up in Canada, u wanna come with" and she was like ofc, but in Canada they broke up. Deciding to stay that's were she lives now, she is watched by the x-men tho just to keep their eyes peeled to see if she can do anything. But she's wades neighbor!! They became close and yada yada